whoo... i found a new way of encrypting messages! if u can break it, i kowtow to you a million times over and over again. if im feeling rich enough, i might even give you a dollar or two!
AL WUBF TC VBA ZDKBHQD. J XQTK GFGG CFLGPCE WEL RZRE PL, JRH X GFEEQH TLLRRT JDEW VBG QREVA. J XQTK GFGG CFYG CM PS. J XQTK GFGG CFN V RFLQ LDKW. JSXWPJA APJQ SC QSJH AD SC. CJLRWJX TCM NYKKS, C YLHF WZAU RH ASB, CRH X QHHA ZRSH ROMH YBD L ADVN UFSO.
CZ BYS AEH NOGUR CSUO, CSF VGSCTRJC COXU YTO KABYBD UTJROSI RPS SJ TXHALQ N T R.
the clue to cracking it is in the 2nd paragraph. a VERY obvious clue (as if) CRACK IT!!!!!! i invite any challengers.
olympiad was horrible. i hope i can at least scrape a bronze... worst come to worst, COP. but everybody else gonna get COP anyway, so wats the diff? please... make it a bronze...
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Saturday, October 29, 2005
yay!!!! everybody in ATP got promoted! so did everybody in S221! we all made it in the end. kin lok... now tt u have been given a second chance, hope u will work double hard next year to make up for watever u have done this year. many thanks to the teachers who set a reasonable enuff paper so that we could promote.
now that results are back, i have to endure numerous taunts and suanings... argh... its so irritating. i have not mentioned to anybody at all wat i got, but people just keep saying... to the point of me getting irritated. zheng hong... i finally understand how you feel.
Finally... i have gotten that great burden off my back. its time to forget about whatever that has happened in the past and think of wat is going to happen in the future. already something is happening... dont think about the past. its not gonna do me any good. i have given up on the past. hope it troubles me no more. looking forward to wat will happen.
metamorphosis. when everything changes, will you?
now that results are back, i have to endure numerous taunts and suanings... argh... its so irritating. i have not mentioned to anybody at all wat i got, but people just keep saying... to the point of me getting irritated. zheng hong... i finally understand how you feel.
Finally... i have gotten that great burden off my back. its time to forget about whatever that has happened in the past and think of wat is going to happen in the future. already something is happening... dont think about the past. its not gonna do me any good. i have given up on the past. hope it troubles me no more. looking forward to wat will happen.
metamorphosis. when everything changes, will you?
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Monday, October 10, 2005
sigh... now that i can afford the time, i have been thinking of so many things tonight... so many, its too much to count. mostly concerning PW and some other very dangerous things. not possible to tread on in a blog.
I realised i have been a true and downright asshole after someone pointed it out to me. i thank you for doing it. but im not seeing any improvement or any changes at all for that matter. i know i have been stupid enough to talk on and on about something which is a little dangerous to talk about, considering the time tt i was talking about it. i swear i will never do it again. i will change for your sake. i will never ask you anything concerning tt thing ever again. or anybody else in tt matter. i will keep mum. considering how this has been going on, i would just like to say 2 words to you.
I'm Sorry.
please... accept my apologies. and i hope all this sourness will go away. its gone on long enough and i cant take it anymore.
I realised i have been a true and downright asshole after someone pointed it out to me. i thank you for doing it. but im not seeing any improvement or any changes at all for that matter. i know i have been stupid enough to talk on and on about something which is a little dangerous to talk about, considering the time tt i was talking about it. i swear i will never do it again. i will change for your sake. i will never ask you anything concerning tt thing ever again. or anybody else in tt matter. i will keep mum. considering how this has been going on, i would just like to say 2 words to you.
I'm Sorry.
please... accept my apologies. and i hope all this sourness will go away. its gone on long enough and i cant take it anymore.
Sunday, October 02, 2005
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You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfillment.
You are a fighter and always on the defensive. You always need to be sure that your position is safe and established. When you finally make a decision you will pursue it to the bitter end in spite of all opposition.
The way things are at this time it is necessary to 'go slow'. All the pleasures that you have anticipated should be left in abeyance until some future date, but all is not lost, you are able to derive and achieve considerable gratification from someone quite close to you.
For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.
Whatever you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong and you are now quite convinced that there is little point of formulating new objectives and it is this belief that has resulted in the stress and anxiety. You would like to be able to communicate with other people who think as you do. At this time there seems to be no one on the horizon nor is there any prospect of meeting anyone in the immediate future. But it must be said that you are really a 'trier' and indications are that you will, as indeed you have in the past, 'bounce back'.
plenty of truth in wat is being said. sigh... i wish it didnt happen. im so disappointed in myself. i feel like giving up and killing myself in the process...
You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfillment.
You are a fighter and always on the defensive. You always need to be sure that your position is safe and established. When you finally make a decision you will pursue it to the bitter end in spite of all opposition.
The way things are at this time it is necessary to 'go slow'. All the pleasures that you have anticipated should be left in abeyance until some future date, but all is not lost, you are able to derive and achieve considerable gratification from someone quite close to you.
For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.
Whatever you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong and you are now quite convinced that there is little point of formulating new objectives and it is this belief that has resulted in the stress and anxiety. You would like to be able to communicate with other people who think as you do. At this time there seems to be no one on the horizon nor is there any prospect of meeting anyone in the immediate future. But it must be said that you are really a 'trier' and indications are that you will, as indeed you have in the past, 'bounce back'.
plenty of truth in wat is being said. sigh... i wish it didnt happen. im so disappointed in myself. i feel like giving up and killing myself in the process...
Monday, September 26, 2005
i swear the chem department is trying to delude us from the promo paper... as usual, the time trials are like... morale boosters?!?!?! first time trial, i got 70/80. today's time trial, though i did a bit worse, still managed to get 68.5/80. come one lah... one look and you can see that those kind of marks are totally unrealistic lah... 68.5/80 is a friggin 85% can? so unreal... wish i can get this kind of marks during exam... if can then shiok sia... not only can get A, probably can top the cohort or soemething... totally impossible for me lah... cos got ah-loong to trash everybody else lol...
i think the song bad day by daniel powter is damn nice. got at leat some meaning. the music video also damn nice. green day is paedophilic. many theories. talking bout bad days... today arm damn pain... do dunno how many pull up sia... now my arm is aching already. kept dozing off during GP too. damn tiring can... lucky tmw is gd day =) short and sweet. enuff time to recharge before phy time trial. hope can at least do the phy time trial. if can at least make me a bit more confident for promos. then maybe i more confident of hitting my target of ABC. maybe ah... maybe only. but standards will be gossly different... cos we doing last year promo paper... i think the difference in standards will be very large lorh...
lah lah lah... dont know what to think, dont know what to do, dont wanna know who i am, running away from the truth. it hurts, but theres nothing i can do about it. hopefully, you will get wind of it soon. then maybe you can alleviate my pain. hope you will know what to do when the time comes. just be my friend. tts all i ask of you.
i think the song bad day by daniel powter is damn nice. got at leat some meaning. the music video also damn nice. green day is paedophilic. many theories. talking bout bad days... today arm damn pain... do dunno how many pull up sia... now my arm is aching already. kept dozing off during GP too. damn tiring can... lucky tmw is gd day =) short and sweet. enuff time to recharge before phy time trial. hope can at least do the phy time trial. if can at least make me a bit more confident for promos. then maybe i more confident of hitting my target of ABC. maybe ah... maybe only. but standards will be gossly different... cos we doing last year promo paper... i think the difference in standards will be very large lorh...
lah lah lah... dont know what to think, dont know what to do, dont wanna know who i am, running away from the truth. it hurts, but theres nothing i can do about it. hopefully, you will get wind of it soon. then maybe you can alleviate my pain. hope you will know what to do when the time comes. just be my friend. tts all i ask of you.
Friday, September 23, 2005
im totally wasting my time... watching south park now. promos is like... 12 days away? and im still watching south park?!?!?!?!?! wat the hell... man... school sux now. totally. weather is hot, lessons boring, tiring, whatnot... watever makes them happy.
YAY! VS got into band one. wat can i say... im sure that the effort we put in has really paid off, especially in academics. our average L1B4 is <11. not bad ah... the studying last year was rather well. everyday was only revision and more revision and more revision... totally mugging. never do anything else... boring... i still remembered, i only understood half the topics tested like 2 weeks before the Os... like mole concept, acid bases and salts, current electricity, blah blah blah. that was around this time of the month in october. i really should be studying. why am i here?
hm... the last time i counted, i have been given many names by numerous people... examples, rover(iman), TW(donovan), rowan atkinson(sk), wimbo?(hk), serious(rite sarah?... lol) and many many more. definitely more than this...
wah sian... this is the worst thing to ever happen to me... damn nonsense. how i wish this never happened. sad nonsense. its really killing me. KILL! KILL! KILL! KILL! KILL! i swear im stressed. today was walking past kailing when i waved, then she waved, and waved, and continued waving even after i walked past(?). i swear she is stressed too. of course... i returned the favour =) in ways unexplainable. haha...like waving extremely vigourously. -.-"
remember, i just want to be your friend. i will always be here whenever you need help. please do not treat me like this. its making me feel so bad... i feel like i have let you down many times before. i have not done anything to you before... so why are you treating me like this?!?!?! sigh...
YAY! VS got into band one. wat can i say... im sure that the effort we put in has really paid off, especially in academics. our average L1B4 is <11. not bad ah... the studying last year was rather well. everyday was only revision and more revision and more revision... totally mugging. never do anything else... boring... i still remembered, i only understood half the topics tested like 2 weeks before the Os... like mole concept, acid bases and salts, current electricity, blah blah blah. that was around this time of the month in october. i really should be studying. why am i here?
hm... the last time i counted, i have been given many names by numerous people... examples, rover(iman), TW(donovan), rowan atkinson(sk), wimbo?(hk), serious(rite sarah?... lol) and many many more. definitely more than this...
wah sian... this is the worst thing to ever happen to me... damn nonsense. how i wish this never happened. sad nonsense. its really killing me. KILL! KILL! KILL! KILL! KILL! i swear im stressed. today was walking past kailing when i waved, then she waved, and waved, and continued waving even after i walked past(?). i swear she is stressed too. of course... i returned the favour =) in ways unexplainable. haha...like waving extremely vigourously. -.-"
remember, i just want to be your friend. i will always be here whenever you need help. please do not treat me like this. its making me feel so bad... i feel like i have let you down many times before. i have not done anything to you before... so why are you treating me like this?!?!?! sigh...
Sunday, September 18, 2005
more nonsensical pics...
Lonely Bus in the middle of the late evening
RAINBOW!!!!!! lucky i had a camera with me...
my workspace in macs. guess wat subject it is?
bored during CLAO tutorial. writing the lyrics to "constipated"
lonely... im so lonely... MJC canteen @ 6.40am
haha... im bored. bored from being online too long. gearing up for school tmw. i'll be in school early tmw! as usual... hope she goes to school early tmw and cant find anybody else. hope. hopeful? maybe. hopeless? possibly. then if she cant find anybody else, maybe.......... well... lets leave it at that. hopefully.
ooh... first session of training this wednesday. looking forward to it. hope its interesting. at least hope mr lim makes it interesting =) again, hope.
hope this week's tutorials wont be boring.... i have a feeling this week will be good. a feeling. hopefully its true. hope.
Saturday, September 17, 2005
Was just blog hopping as usual and found this.(thanks justin) i think its damn true.
1. Guys hate sluts.
2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.
3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.
5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.
7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.
11. Guys get jealous easily.
12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.
13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.
16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.
17. Guys are very open about themselves.
18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.
19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
23. Guys will brag about anything.
24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.
25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if 1 guy's confused, then we're all confused.
27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.
28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.
29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.
30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.
32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
37. Guys don't really have final decisions.
38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.
40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.
46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.
47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.
1. Guys hate sluts.
2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.
3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.
5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.
7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.
11. Guys get jealous easily.
12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.
13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.
16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.
17. Guys are very open about themselves.
18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.
19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
23. Guys will brag about anything.
24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.
25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if 1 guy's confused, then we're all confused.
27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.
28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.
29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.
30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.
32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
37. Guys don't really have final decisions.
38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.
40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.
46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.
47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.
Thursday, September 15, 2005
lah lah lah...
life is boring
without you around
life is stressful
without you to brighten up my day
life is hectic
life is no life
without you
life?
you
what is it?
no life rawks.
no link. i think im going to go on with it. i wont back out. this is a chance of a lifetime! how can i miss it. i still haven't told anyody... other than a few. if you are one of the few, please do not disclose. thanks! you people will know it soon enough.
if u noticed that im not talking to you as frequently as a long time ago, its for a reason. my feelings for you are so strong that im afraid of what i would say to you if i ever talked to you. it may be nice, it may not be. i may say what i mean to say, i may say what i do not want to say. my meaning is true and so are my felings for you. I have a feeling that you will find out about this... soon enough. if u do happen to find out, please... i still want to be your friend. thats all. we can still be friends. that is all that i ask of you.
life is boring
without you around
life is stressful
without you to brighten up my day
life is hectic
life is no life
without you
life?
you
what is it?
no life rawks.
no link. i think im going to go on with it. i wont back out. this is a chance of a lifetime! how can i miss it. i still haven't told anyody... other than a few. if you are one of the few, please do not disclose. thanks! you people will know it soon enough.
if u noticed that im not talking to you as frequently as a long time ago, its for a reason. my feelings for you are so strong that im afraid of what i would say to you if i ever talked to you. it may be nice, it may not be. i may say what i mean to say, i may say what i do not want to say. my meaning is true and so are my felings for you. I have a feeling that you will find out about this... soon enough. if u do happen to find out, please... i still want to be your friend. thats all. we can still be friends. that is all that i ask of you.
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
today will be a collection of pictures of wat 05S221 students do when their bored of their lessons. quite ineteresting eh? muggers doing stupid things in class. though im not mugger. pictures proudly brought to you by XL, AL, TY, XW. (hey... isnt S221 a mugger class) haha... tts where you are WRONG! yay.
This is madness... during physics...
the madness before the madness... also during physics
DOne during physics too! tutorial, that is
Mutilating the poor battery
intersting hydrocarbon eh? done during chem tutorial
haha... i wonder why we also so free to do this... sina of lessons? perhaps. lol. argh... im stressed up by a decision. should i or should i not? dammit man... its gonna be so hard to choose. please do not ask me what it is. im not gonna tell you anyway. its nothing to do with girls, if tts wat ure thinking. its purely academic.
hm... i conclude that people from a certain sec. school are actually rather nice people. shall not name the school... later people say i biased. seriously... they are nice people lah... very glad to have met these people haha...
IM DAMN STRESSED. promos in 20 days. WAT?!?!?!!? 20 DAYS?! the time is so short...
no time left to study! I WANT THAT 'A' FOR CHEM! im aiming for nothing less than a D for physics, while nothing less than a B for maths. quite ambitious. if i do get these results, it would definitely make my choice easier. hopefully. im going crazy. save me.
This is madness... during physics...
the madness before the madness... also during physics
DOne during physics too! tutorial, that is
Mutilating the poor battery
intersting hydrocarbon eh? done during chem tutorial
haha... i wonder why we also so free to do this... sina of lessons? perhaps. lol. argh... im stressed up by a decision. should i or should i not? dammit man... its gonna be so hard to choose. please do not ask me what it is. im not gonna tell you anyway. its nothing to do with girls, if tts wat ure thinking. its purely academic.
hm... i conclude that people from a certain sec. school are actually rather nice people. shall not name the school... later people say i biased. seriously... they are nice people lah... very glad to have met these people haha...
IM DAMN STRESSED. promos in 20 days. WAT?!?!?!!? 20 DAYS?! the time is so short...
no time left to study! I WANT THAT 'A' FOR CHEM! im aiming for nothing less than a D for physics, while nothing less than a B for maths. quite ambitious. if i do get these results, it would definitely make my choice easier. hopefully. im going crazy. save me.
Monday, September 12, 2005
Sunday, September 11, 2005
haha... today was fun! not much studying done... yet i feel as if the holidays are not over. hm... looking forward to school tomorrow!(i think im going crazy) somewhat... i miss my class. i miss the band. i miss seeing her. i miss chem lectures! i LOVE CHEM! haha... im really going crazy... i currently have lot on my mind...promos is one thing... damn... i havent studied for physics yet... and chem is still not complete! wat nonsense. i want tt 400 bucks!!!!
I miss you. I really do.
half-life 2, together with the G-man, is being an ass. so many unanswered questions.
"time"
"is it that time again, mr. freeman"
"it seems that you have only just arrived"
"you have done a great deal, in a short span of time"
"i have recieved some interesting offers, for your services"
"but i would not consider contemplating them"
"this might seem like an arbitrary improposition"
"but im sure you will understand in the course of"
"well... im really not at liberty to say"
"in the meantime, mr. freeman, this is where i get off."
wat the shit???????!?!!?!?!? i played my ass off 2 half-life games, and this is what i get? even more questions than the last! i seriously hope half-life 3 or the expansion can answerat least 75% of these questions! argh
I like you. I really do.
my aim of this year: to get a PSP!!!!!!!!!! its so darn cool. it can even play movies and can act as an MP3 player in addition to being an uber technologically advanced gaming device! tts why... i need that 400 bucks! i cant wait to get my hands on that thing... wow...
I want to be with you. i really do.
not only cant i take my eyes off that PSP, i cant take my eyes off you too. i noticed tt the lst time i was with you, i just couldnt stop looking at you. your smile makes me feel so sweet. your character makes you unforgettable. in all... i like you. this is not the first time im saying this, but i really need to say it out. you probably still do not know who you are, but i really want you to know this. i really want to tell you, how much i feel for you, but i just cant seem to find the right words, or rather, i cant find the courage to tell you. i dont even know whether is it right to tell you. i dont know what to do, dont know what to say, dont know what to think anymore.
Am i in love with you?
I miss you. I really do.
half-life 2, together with the G-man, is being an ass. so many unanswered questions.
"time"
"is it that time again, mr. freeman"
"it seems that you have only just arrived"
"you have done a great deal, in a short span of time"
"i have recieved some interesting offers, for your services"
"but i would not consider contemplating them"
"this might seem like an arbitrary improposition"
"but im sure you will understand in the course of"
"well... im really not at liberty to say"
"in the meantime, mr. freeman, this is where i get off."
wat the shit???????!?!!?!?!? i played my ass off 2 half-life games, and this is what i get? even more questions than the last! i seriously hope half-life 3 or the expansion can answerat least 75% of these questions! argh
I like you. I really do.
my aim of this year: to get a PSP!!!!!!!!!! its so darn cool. it can even play movies and can act as an MP3 player in addition to being an uber technologically advanced gaming device! tts why... i need that 400 bucks! i cant wait to get my hands on that thing... wow...
I want to be with you. i really do.
not only cant i take my eyes off that PSP, i cant take my eyes off you too. i noticed tt the lst time i was with you, i just couldnt stop looking at you. your smile makes me feel so sweet. your character makes you unforgettable. in all... i like you. this is not the first time im saying this, but i really need to say it out. you probably still do not know who you are, but i really want you to know this. i really want to tell you, how much i feel for you, but i just cant seem to find the right words, or rather, i cant find the courage to tell you. i dont even know whether is it right to tell you. i dont know what to do, dont know what to say, dont know what to think anymore.
Am i in love with you?
Saturday, September 10, 2005
yesterday, went to celebrate zheng hong's birthday! haha... one day when we did not need to worry about studies... instead, we need to worry about money lol. anyway, we ate quite a lot. my table included wee kiat, donovan, hui koon sarah and soo kun. doing all sorts of nonsense lah... it was wee kiat's and hui koon's first time eating raw salmon... so donovan told them some crappy story about eating salmon without wasabi will cause tapeworms. being the gullible them, they actually believed him! even the oh-so-nice-and-good-hearted sarah didnt bother to tell them and sat there giggling... lol. from wat i heard, the other table was crappy. of course lah... got zheng hong, zheng yi, kin lok and kenny... not lame then wat sia... i dont know. after tt, we went to the arcade upstairs to play games. some just sat around to tok kok. quite interesting lah. soon after we went up, hk, sarah and soo kun had to go home... so yar... reminded them to say bye to zheng hong... damn funny... call them then remember they just left without saying bye... another few pang seh queens... lol. had lots of fun! haha... wish we can do that in due time, when promos are over... that would be VERY fun! haha.
the last time i saw you, you looked gorgeous.
haha... went out to study today... with zheng hong, donovan and kenny. did the maths promo paper. it was of moderate difficulty... wasnt too difficult... but still enough to kill. soon after, justin came. soon after tt(think 1 hr), hk came and left with justin. it was like... "hello" "bye" no link lah can... damn funny... lol. justin ah... prelims are so near... still got time to go out ah... i think i should scold you... haha... reminds me of sarah... forever scolding you... then after finishing the paper, went to eat with zheng hong. then went home. end of today.
you left me feeling very happy
sigh... i was in a happy bubble not too long ago... however, wat u did... it went as far to burst that bubble of mine. i dont know what to think. after i saw whatever you did, my mood immediately plunged downwards. however, at that point in time, i was forced to keep up a facade. its so painful. the contrast is really... of two different worlds. two totally different extremes. what you do can make me feel so differently. how is it possible? how is it that whatever you do or say can affect me so strongly? i know i should look for another one, but all i can think of is you.
however, the next time i saw you, it was to sadden me. sigh.
the last time i saw you, you looked gorgeous.
haha... went out to study today... with zheng hong, donovan and kenny. did the maths promo paper. it was of moderate difficulty... wasnt too difficult... but still enough to kill. soon after, justin came. soon after tt(think 1 hr), hk came and left with justin. it was like... "hello" "bye" no link lah can... damn funny... lol. justin ah... prelims are so near... still got time to go out ah... i think i should scold you... haha... reminds me of sarah... forever scolding you... then after finishing the paper, went to eat with zheng hong. then went home. end of today.
you left me feeling very happy
sigh... i was in a happy bubble not too long ago... however, wat u did... it went as far to burst that bubble of mine. i dont know what to think. after i saw whatever you did, my mood immediately plunged downwards. however, at that point in time, i was forced to keep up a facade. its so painful. the contrast is really... of two different worlds. two totally different extremes. what you do can make me feel so differently. how is it possible? how is it that whatever you do or say can affect me so strongly? i know i should look for another one, but all i can think of is you.
however, the next time i saw you, it was to sadden me. sigh.
Thursday, September 08, 2005
title
Firstly, before i forget, i would like to thank millions of poeple for their encouragement. yea... just at the time when i am not feeling too good about academics, u people picked me up from this. thanks a lot! i really really appreciate it =)
stockchecking for revision to promos
Physics topics done:
basic units
measurement techniques
kinematics
forces
circular motion
ocsillations
waves
superposition
Chem topics done:
Mole concept
Redox
gases
wateva... lazy to type everything out... basically everything except alkenes, arenes and halogeno cmpnds not finished.
Maths:
Everything except for AP/GP
i think like tt is not enough lorh... especially for physics... like tt how to get C for maths and physics... however, impossible is nothing. I will prevail! btw, i finished my chem holiday assignment except for one question and i managed to score 70/80 for the chem time trial today. however, like usual, its a morale booster, then we gonna get killed for promos. but seriously, the time trial paper was a wee bit more difficult than usual... damn. i need 68% for the promo paper so that i can get my A for chem. damn... tt would be quite difficult. i shall study more chem. i already have 22.6% from that measly 30% from tests and stuff... need more marks... much much more marks... 74.8/110 for promos. attainable? perhaps. hope so. i need to be more careful.
sigh... still crazy over you...
i think this song really embodies wat i feel now.
no prizes for guessing the title though..
not exactly the whole song lah... some of the lines...
I know that I should get on with my life
But a life without you could never be right
I try to smile so the hurt won't show
Tell everybody I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away
Loneliness found me, looks like it's here to stay
I know that I ought to find someone new
But all I find is myself always thinking of you
No matter what I do
Each night's a lifetime to live through
I can't go on like this
I need your touch
You're the only one I'll ever love
sigh... am i fated to be like this? they say time will heal all wounds. but time can also make wounds worse...
no prizes for guessing the title though..
not exactly the whole song lah... some of the lines...
I know that I should get on with my life
But a life without you could never be right
I try to smile so the hurt won't show
Tell everybody I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away
Loneliness found me, looks like it's here to stay
I know that I ought to find someone new
But all I find is myself always thinking of you
No matter what I do
Each night's a lifetime to live through
I can't go on like this
I need your touch
You're the only one I'll ever love
sigh... am i fated to be like this? they say time will heal all wounds. but time can also make wounds worse...
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
title
Im wasting my time
Thinking about you
I should be studying
I miss you. i really do.
I shouldnt be here
I want to be with you
I want my results
I want you to be happy
I want my s-paper
I want you to get your results too
I dont want to let my tutors down
I dont want u to get retained
I dont want to feel inferior
I dont want you to be unhappy
I dont want her to look down on me
sigh...
Thinking about you
I should be studying
I miss you. i really do.
I shouldnt be here
I want to be with you
I want my results
I want you to be happy
I want my s-paper
I want you to get your results too
I dont want to let my tutors down
I dont want u to get retained
I dont want to feel inferior
I dont want you to be unhappy
I dont want her to look down on me
sigh...
Sunday, September 04, 2005
sian... i swear im going to fail promos at this rate. the past few days, i have only been doing work from 9.00pm till 9.45pm lah... if im not going to fail then i dunno wat lorh. even the most non-mugger people i know haf become mugger! OMG!!!!!!!! everybody is gonna beat me for promos. everybody is gonna promote except me... damn.
i was thinking about you the whole day... always on my mind *sigh*
i was thinking about you the whole day... always on my mind *sigh*
Saturday, September 03, 2005
ahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahaha... this marks my 100th post since i started blooging! yayness. i didnt notice i had already hit 100 till i went to my dashboard and saw "99 posts" so here i am composing my 100th post! ok... since there is nothing blogworthy, i shall post some random nonsense.
A- apple
B- buffer solution
C- components of a force
D- Diol
E- energy
F- fractions
G- Geometric isomerism
H- half-life
I- IUPAC
J- Joule
K- Kelvin
L- Le chatelier's Principle
M- mass spectrometry
N- nuclear magnetic resonance
O- oxidation
P- partial pressure
Q- QA
R- Resonance
S- Sclar
T- thermodynamics
U- UV-light
V- Voltage
W- wavelength
X- x-ray diffraction
Y- Youngs double slit
Z- Zeroth law of thermodynamics
pretty random. no... VERY random. more random stuff!
VS rox. big time. nobody shall stop us. no one can stop us. we shall rule, over ang.
Viva Victoria.
did i mention that you looked very pretty on be yourself day? totally. cant forget you. never could. *shattered dreams*
A- apple
B- buffer solution
C- components of a force
D- Diol
E- energy
F- fractions
G- Geometric isomerism
H- half-life
I- IUPAC
J- Joule
K- Kelvin
L- Le chatelier's Principle
M- mass spectrometry
N- nuclear magnetic resonance
O- oxidation
P- partial pressure
Q- QA
R- Resonance
S- Sclar
T- thermodynamics
U- UV-light
V- Voltage
W- wavelength
X- x-ray diffraction
Y- Youngs double slit
Z- Zeroth law of thermodynamics
pretty random. no... VERY random. more random stuff!
VS rox. big time. nobody shall stop us. no one can stop us. we shall rule, over ang.
Viva Victoria.
did i mention that you looked very pretty on be yourself day? totally. cant forget you. never could. *shattered dreams*
Friday, September 02, 2005
life sux man...school was screwed up, band pract was screwed up, blah blah blah was screwed up, so on and so forth. sian lah... i suspect im going to sleep soon. i also have the feeling im going to fall sick one of these days. sick in many ways. im going to screw my life up. im going to fail physics, then im going to get retained. i wonder if they let people who get BOF promote...i think not...
I really really like you, but i think it is quite hopeless to go tell you all this... I like everything about you. this goes much deeper than outer appearances. definitely. you are my everything. if only i could be with you... if only... i wish...
I really really like you, but i think it is quite hopeless to go tell you all this... I like everything about you. this goes much deeper than outer appearances. definitely. you are my everything. if only i could be with you... if only... i wish...
Sunday, August 28, 2005
if you happened to be blind and not notice the new song on my blog, good for you. these days, these kind of songs really makes me think back on things, both good and bad. though they bring sad and painful memories, i just like listening to them. this one is from the Anastasia soundtrack, At The Beginning by Donna Lewis and Richard Marx.
We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you
No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope You were there to remind me
This is the the start
CHORUS:
Life is a road, & I want to keep going
Love is a river, I want to keep flowing
Life is a road, now & forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you
We were strangers, on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you
CHORUS
I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart
CHORUS
Life is a road & I want to keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on
Starting out on our journey
Life is a road & I want to keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
In the end I want to be standing at the beginning with you
We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you
No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope You were there to remind me
This is the the start
CHORUS:
Life is a road, & I want to keep going
Love is a river, I want to keep flowing
Life is a road, now & forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you
We were strangers, on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you
CHORUS
I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart
CHORUS
Life is a road & I want to keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on
Starting out on our journey
Life is a road & I want to keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
In the end I want to be standing at the beginning with you
Thursday, August 25, 2005
doesnt reality always seem to be against you when u need something most? sometimes even i wonder, is it meant to be this way?
I have always wanted to say this to you, but i have not the guts to say it directly to you. i know im being hopeful by hoping that you will read this, and know its meant for you, but since reality is always against you, i think not.
"I love you"
ok... ive said it. my feelings have not changed since then(unless you count it getting stronger), and might not for a long time to come.
I have always wanted to say this to you, but i have not the guts to say it directly to you. i know im being hopeful by hoping that you will read this, and know its meant for you, but since reality is always against you, i think not.
"I love you"
ok... ive said it. my feelings have not changed since then(unless you count it getting stronger), and might not for a long time to come.
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Love is an agony and a pain, yet it can bring a person happiness and joy. i dont think i will ever see the daylights of this happiness and joy. I fully understand that it is impossible for us to be together, but in some way, i cannot, or am unable, to forget you. I dont know. is it you? or is it me? have i fallen for you so deeply? so deeply that you have become my everything? You ARE everything in my life. my life would be meaningless without you. i wonder how it would be if i didnt meet you. everytime i look at you, i am reminded of the many good memories that we had together. however, with the good comes the bad, then i also remember how i was broken many times over by what you have done. living through all this pain is what makes me want to forget you. but then the question come again.
"if it was so easy, would i still be like this now?"
it would have been over a few months ago. a FEW months ago. its that long. and i still can never forget.
"if it was so easy, would i still be like this now?"
it would have been over a few months ago. a FEW months ago. its that long. and i still can never forget.
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE
All i want... is to make you happy.
All i want... is to care for you.
All i want... is to see your happy face, everyday.
All i want... is to be with you.
However, it isnt possible for us. it will never happen. never will. never will... never... ever... happen... i have to give it up, but i just cant do it. i just cant. cant. never. possible? nnnoooooooooooooooooooooo........ . . . . . . . .
*crying in a corner*
All i want... is to care for you.
All i want... is to see your happy face, everyday.
All i want... is to be with you.
However, it isnt possible for us. it will never happen. never will. never will... never... ever... happen... i have to give it up, but i just cant do it. i just cant. cant. never. possible? nnnoooooooooooooooooooooo........ . . . . . . . .
*crying in a corner*
Saturday, August 20, 2005
VS no going co-ed
Imagine the fire i felt when i heard that VS was going co-ed a few days ago. my first reaction? "WTF." being in the greatest school i could have ever gone to for 4 yeras of my life has made a great impact in my life. my greatest experiences all came from that great school they call VS. VS is special, not only in academics, but also in what others call a spirit. note: "a" spirit. yes, we are THAT united.
hm... remembering the time when i got my posting result back in primary school, i thought i was going to one of the best schools around the island, and how right i was. when i entered the school, i wasnt appalled by the state of the school. in fact, i looked forward to my first day in the old geylang bahru campus. orientation came. we were then inaugrated as Victorians. with a capital V. a few days later, i remember eugene yap coming into my class to advertise the band. i then convinced the other damai people to join band, and all except for one agreed. the best time of my life then started as a joined band.
Band, was not only a CCA. it was a living, breathing entity that was composed of Victorians. even though i was only a sec 1, i learnt many things that i would never haf thought of, in band. the seniors were friendly, approachable and very reasonable(unless handover was around the corner). 1 year passed in a flash, i became a bit more attached to the Victorian family.
the holidays were over, and sec 2 started. as i watched the new sec 1s having orientation, it reminded me of what i went through and all the fun i had during oreintation. then CCA recruitment came, and i became a senior, for the first time in my life. ok lah... wasnt too boring, but not too fun either. people always asking how to do things etc... but not too much yet... that year, was the first time i went for the national cross country and track and field. that was the first time i experienced the Victorian spirit, and of course... it felt good. it was heartening to see all of the victorians gathered in one spot of the national stadium, cheering our team on. seeing them win was as if we were winning. the feeling is truly undescribable. sec 2 came, and passed, in a flash, just like sec 1.
the holidays passed once again, with unfinished homework(wats tt? is it tasty?) in hand, got ready for sec 3. i remembered the first day in class. the only friends i had back then was iman and matthew. of course, i needed to make new friends. doing it wasnt too difficult as we somehow had this bond that make us come closer together. in only a matter of a week or so, the whole class was friends with each other. we fought together(though jokingly), argued, talked, had fun, played soccer together. somehow... talking about this makes me miss them... in sec 3, i remember that was the year i became much much more attached to the band and much more bonded to my batch. we started the "jacking" within our batch when birthday came, and henceforth, birthdays became a much feared occasion when the band room would be plunged into chaos, with people screaming and getting stripped. sec 3 was also the time when we moved into the new school. unforgettable, the move was. before and after the move, i began going home later and later, till the average time i reached home everyday was 7+. now, the band room was bigger, therefore allowing more space for the victim to run away. the sec 3 experience of the national track and field was the more unforgettable than the last. we did even need anybody to lead us in cheers. we would just start them on our own, sometimes even coming up with our own ones. cheered till i was hoarse. i pity those who were not there. we practically felt the pride and joy as we got first for the meet. sang the victorian anthem over and over again, as we felt the soaring victorian spirit. again, this is a feeling which cannot be described.
that same year, was the SYF central judging for band. when we heard the precious word gold, we shouted our selves hoarse, not giving a thought to those who got COP or bronze. how happy we felt. our batch then came into office, and we became busy. nevertheless, we became so much more together. happiest times of our lives. sec 3 came, and sec 3 left.
sec 4. the most unforgettable year. O-levels were to be taken the same year. so many experiences, all so heartening, all so unforgettable, it would tak ages if i were to say everything out. it was also the year when i felt the crux of the Victorian spirit as we cheered our hearts out during events. as long as there was the victorian anthem, we cheered as one entity. taupok also became the "trend" in the same year.
now, after going one big round, i come to my point. all these experiences, would be so much more different if girls were present in the picture. for one, who would imagine girls standing in the open stadium during a storm to cheer for their school? would jacking and the likes be existant if girls were present? would we be able to change anywhere we like if there were girls present? the expereince would have been so much more different. not to be sexist or anything, but the experience which every victorian goes through is what makes us disttinctly victorian. the life lessons learnt, the street-smartness, the sensitivity and awareness is what 4 years at VS has taught me. if VS turns co-ed, all these would be gone to waste. its about tradition too. last year, the school emphasised a lot on our 8 core values, mainly compassion, excellence, intergity, professionalism, innovation, global-mindedness, strategic alliances and TRADITION. tradition is what we are proud of and gives us our identity and provides information about our roots. we have taken 129 years to establish what we are today. it takes 129 years to build a tradition, but it can be destroyed in 3 seconds. even if you are non-victorian, remember how much u used to hate/love ure school. take that and multiply it by infinity. that is how much WE love our school. destroying all that we have worked for is definitely not a good way of thanking us for the magnificent results last year. if we do ever go co-ed, remember this. the Victorians will NEVER forgive those who destroyed our roots and identity along with it. We will continue fighting for this good cause. lets not forget wat VS has done for us, and return that in spades. Keep the victorian flame of tradition burning for many years to come till eternity. We will perservere, as there is nothing without labour, embodied in Nil Sine Labore. let us all fight with one aim, with one voice. let them know how much we will fight to keep our tradition alive.
Nil Sine Labore.
hm... remembering the time when i got my posting result back in primary school, i thought i was going to one of the best schools around the island, and how right i was. when i entered the school, i wasnt appalled by the state of the school. in fact, i looked forward to my first day in the old geylang bahru campus. orientation came. we were then inaugrated as Victorians. with a capital V. a few days later, i remember eugene yap coming into my class to advertise the band. i then convinced the other damai people to join band, and all except for one agreed. the best time of my life then started as a joined band.
Band, was not only a CCA. it was a living, breathing entity that was composed of Victorians. even though i was only a sec 1, i learnt many things that i would never haf thought of, in band. the seniors were friendly, approachable and very reasonable(unless handover was around the corner). 1 year passed in a flash, i became a bit more attached to the Victorian family.
the holidays were over, and sec 2 started. as i watched the new sec 1s having orientation, it reminded me of what i went through and all the fun i had during oreintation. then CCA recruitment came, and i became a senior, for the first time in my life. ok lah... wasnt too boring, but not too fun either. people always asking how to do things etc... but not too much yet... that year, was the first time i went for the national cross country and track and field. that was the first time i experienced the Victorian spirit, and of course... it felt good. it was heartening to see all of the victorians gathered in one spot of the national stadium, cheering our team on. seeing them win was as if we were winning. the feeling is truly undescribable. sec 2 came, and passed, in a flash, just like sec 1.
the holidays passed once again, with unfinished homework(wats tt? is it tasty?) in hand, got ready for sec 3. i remembered the first day in class. the only friends i had back then was iman and matthew. of course, i needed to make new friends. doing it wasnt too difficult as we somehow had this bond that make us come closer together. in only a matter of a week or so, the whole class was friends with each other. we fought together(though jokingly), argued, talked, had fun, played soccer together. somehow... talking about this makes me miss them... in sec 3, i remember that was the year i became much much more attached to the band and much more bonded to my batch. we started the "jacking" within our batch when birthday came, and henceforth, birthdays became a much feared occasion when the band room would be plunged into chaos, with people screaming and getting stripped. sec 3 was also the time when we moved into the new school. unforgettable, the move was. before and after the move, i began going home later and later, till the average time i reached home everyday was 7+. now, the band room was bigger, therefore allowing more space for the victim to run away. the sec 3 experience of the national track and field was the more unforgettable than the last. we did even need anybody to lead us in cheers. we would just start them on our own, sometimes even coming up with our own ones. cheered till i was hoarse. i pity those who were not there. we practically felt the pride and joy as we got first for the meet. sang the victorian anthem over and over again, as we felt the soaring victorian spirit. again, this is a feeling which cannot be described.
that same year, was the SYF central judging for band. when we heard the precious word gold, we shouted our selves hoarse, not giving a thought to those who got COP or bronze. how happy we felt. our batch then came into office, and we became busy. nevertheless, we became so much more together. happiest times of our lives. sec 3 came, and sec 3 left.
sec 4. the most unforgettable year. O-levels were to be taken the same year. so many experiences, all so heartening, all so unforgettable, it would tak ages if i were to say everything out. it was also the year when i felt the crux of the Victorian spirit as we cheered our hearts out during events. as long as there was the victorian anthem, we cheered as one entity. taupok also became the "trend" in the same year.
now, after going one big round, i come to my point. all these experiences, would be so much more different if girls were present in the picture. for one, who would imagine girls standing in the open stadium during a storm to cheer for their school? would jacking and the likes be existant if girls were present? would we be able to change anywhere we like if there were girls present? the expereince would have been so much more different. not to be sexist or anything, but the experience which every victorian goes through is what makes us disttinctly victorian. the life lessons learnt, the street-smartness, the sensitivity and awareness is what 4 years at VS has taught me. if VS turns co-ed, all these would be gone to waste. its about tradition too. last year, the school emphasised a lot on our 8 core values, mainly compassion, excellence, intergity, professionalism, innovation, global-mindedness, strategic alliances and TRADITION. tradition is what we are proud of and gives us our identity and provides information about our roots. we have taken 129 years to establish what we are today. it takes 129 years to build a tradition, but it can be destroyed in 3 seconds. even if you are non-victorian, remember how much u used to hate/love ure school. take that and multiply it by infinity. that is how much WE love our school. destroying all that we have worked for is definitely not a good way of thanking us for the magnificent results last year. if we do ever go co-ed, remember this. the Victorians will NEVER forgive those who destroyed our roots and identity along with it. We will continue fighting for this good cause. lets not forget wat VS has done for us, and return that in spades. Keep the victorian flame of tradition burning for many years to come till eternity. We will perservere, as there is nothing without labour, embodied in Nil Sine Labore. let us all fight with one aim, with one voice. let them know how much we will fight to keep our tradition alive.
Nil Sine Labore.
maths
haha... found this interesting curve on wikipeida. its given the name butterfly curve and has the parametric equations stated above. totally meaningless.
with you doing this to me, life has become totally meaningless. without you, life is meaningless.
Thursday, August 18, 2005
sigh... VS cant go co-ed... the old victorians will NEVER allow it. i SWEAR.
Elastic Collision. no matter how much force is put into the molecule, the same amount of energy is transmitted back to the molecule. sigh...
everything that i have done, has become insignificant.
I am useless.
I am irritating.
I am insignificant.
I do not exist.
My existence is futile.
Elastic Collision. no matter how much force is put into the molecule, the same amount of energy is transmitted back to the molecule. sigh...
everything that i have done, has become insignificant.
I am useless.
I am irritating.
I am insignificant.
I do not exist.
My existence is futile.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
WE WILL NOT ACCEPT THE IDEA OF VS GOING CO-ED. FINAL. 125+ years of tradition, and it all goes down the drain in one fell swoop. one of VS core values is called tradition, so wat are they doing with out tradition? screwing it up? http://vs.jonaize.com go here to sign the petition against VS going co-ed.
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Monday, August 15, 2005
The angel of death was created by God on the first day (Tan. on Gen. xxxix. 1). His dwelling is in heaven, whence he reaches earth in eight flights, whereas pestilence reaches it in one (Ber. 4b). He has twelve wings (Pirแธณe R. El. xiii). "Over all people have I surrendered thee the power," said God to the angel of death, "only not over this one which has received freedom from death through the Law" (Tan. to Ex. xxxi. 18; ed. Stettin, p. 315). It is said of the angel of death that he is full of eyes. In the hour of death he stands at the head of the departing one with a drawn sword, to which clings a drop of gall. As soon as the dying man sees the angel, he is seized with a convulsion and opens his mouth, whereupon the angel throws the drop into it. This drop causes his death; he turns putrid, and his face becomes yellow ('Ab. Zarah 20b; in detail, Jellinck, "B. H." i. 150; on putrefaction see also Pesiแธณ. 54b; for the eyes compare Ezek. i. 18 and Rev. iv. 6). The expression "to taste of death" originated in the idea that death was caused by a drop of gall ("Jew. Quart. Rev." vi. 327).
The soul escapes through the mouth, or, as is stated in another place, through the throat; therefore the angel of death stands at the head of the patient (Jellinek, l.c. ii. 94, Midr.Teh. to Ps. xi.). When the soul forsakes the body its voice goes from one end of the world to the other, but is not heard (Gen. R. vi. 7; Ex. R. v. 9; Pirแธณe R. El. xxxiv.). The drawn sword of the angel of death, mentioned by the Chronicler (I. Chron. xxi. 15; comp. Job xv. 22; Enoch lxii. 11), indicates that the angel of death was figured as a warrior who kills off the children of men. "Man, on the day of his death, falls down before the angel of death like a beast before the slaughterer" (Grรผnhut, "Liแธณแธณuแนญim," v. 102a). R. Samuel's father (c. 200) said: "The angel of death said to me, 'Only for the sake of the honor of mankind do I not tear off their necks as is done to slaughtered beasts'" ('Ab. Zarah 20b). In later representations the knife sometimes replaces the sword, and reference is also made to the cord of the angel of death, which indicates death by throttling. Moses says to God: "I fear the cord of the angel of death" (Grรผnhut, l.c. v. 103a et seq.). Of the four Jewish methods of execution three are named in connection with the angel of death: burning (by pouring hot lead down the victim's throat-- similar to the drop of gall), slaughtering (by beheading), and throttling. The angel of death administers the particular punishment which God has ordained for the commission of sin.
A peculiar mantle ("idra"-according to Levy, "Neuhebr. Wรถrterb." i. 32, a sword) belongs to the equipment of the angel of death (Eccl. R. iv. 7). The angel of death takes on the particular form which will best serve his purpose; e.g., he appears to a scholar in the form of a beggar imploring pity (M. แธฒ. 28a). "When pestilence rages in the town, walk not in the middle of the street, because the angel of death [i.e., pestilence] strides there; if peace reigns in the town, walk not on the edges of the road. When pestilence rages in the town, go not alone to the synagogue, because there the angel of death stores his tools. If the dogs howl, the angel of death has entered the city; if they make sport, the prophet Elijah has come" (B. แธฒ. 60b). The "destroyer" ("saแนญan ha-mashแธฅit") in the daily prayer is the angel of death (Ber. 16b). Midr. Ma'ase Torah (compare Jellinek, "B. H." ii. 98) says: "There are six angels of death: Gabriel over kings; แธฒapแบiel over youths; Mashbir over animals; Mashแธฅit over children; Af and แธคemah over man and beast."
got this from a friend's site. interesting eh...
Sunday, August 14, 2005
ha... finally found a new name for my blog. Nova Prospekt. essentially, its slavic for New Prospect or (burr)New Perspectives. got the name from the game half-life 2 where it is a prison used to imprison political opponents and convert them to Combine soldiers aka cyborgs.
"rise and shine, mr freeman"
"rise and shine"
"it is not expected for you to do all of this"
"the wrong man in the wrong place could make all the difference"
"so wake up mr freeman"
"wake up and smell the ashes"
"rise and shine, mr freeman"
"rise and shine"
"it is not expected for you to do all of this"
"the wrong man in the wrong place could make all the difference"
"so wake up mr freeman"
"wake up and smell the ashes"
Friday, August 12, 2005
im feeling the lowest i have ever felt since i started JC. i have lost much of my confidence... sigh. i cant seem to do well in chem anymore, which happens to be my fav subject. i cant even play well during band pract, keep screwing up the solos and 1st parts. i suspect i need some time to rework on my embouchure, but ms sia wont give me the time. i would rather waste some time to play well instead of working on pieces and playing handicapped. the pieces are so easy anyway, easy to sightread... why not just give me 2 weeks... also, i admit that im hopelessly in love...i just cant scrounge up enough courage to say "i like you." my heart still belongs to her and her alone, even though i know i got no hope in this, with each passing day i keep this in my heart, the more strongly i feel, the more strongly i get hurt. right now, totally nobody else interests me. only one... only... one... only you can save me from this bottomless pit. you saved from it once and now history is repeating itself. im falling into the hole... only you can save me. but you cant, and i dont expect you to. sigh... why am i so unsucessful in so many ways...
Thursday, August 11, 2005
if ure seeing this, ure probably on the wrong blog.
ARGH... this is so demoralising... i realised that lim hui koon of 05S214 BEAT ME IN CHEM. hm... what a happy revelation. she got 1.5 more marks than me. NO!!!!!! conclusion, my chem sux. i shall drill TYS till theres no tomorrow. anyhow, i realised i need 57% for the promo paper to get an A grade for promos. i think i should be able to get it... i hope. to get E, i need 31.65%. of course... who is aiming for just an E? an E for chem is just too lowly for me... A... A... A... A... nothing less than a B. lecture test 4, aiming for A. ionic equilibria and chem kinetics. nothing less than a high B. ARGH... my morale level has been dragged down by my uber low grade for lecture test 3. work work work... mug mug mug... study study study... chem chem chem... A A A...
more randomness. did i mention that Xjc administration sux? where in the world does none of the staff appreciate entertainmnt? doesnt mean a deck must always be used for card games... its the same as not always a book can be used only to study and read... a bit of magic, people get stunned, then deck gets confiscated though the reason is 100% valid. "there was no card games. no bridge, no daidee. just entertainment." even though there are eyewitnesses, deck still got confiscated. "lets not make things difficult." wth!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! then in another corner of the table at that time, some other guy was shuffling(note: SHUFFLING) the deck, with almost nobody sitting around him, with him being the lonely guy at the corner of the table while his friend gets all the attention. deck gets confiscated. 7 bucks gone down the drain. not even playing. just plain shuffling, though it was a bit fancy shuffling. i mean to say.. wats the basis of confiscating? nobody was even around to play bridge/daidee/poker/etc. note: NOBODY WAS AROUND. ok... maybe they would suspect we would invite people to play, then again, what is the basis of not allowing cards in the canteen? so that people can have a place to mug in the canteen when its not so noisy, and people have space to eat. at that time, the canteen wasnt even half-full, and it was already quite noisy, with people shouting across the canteen and goodness knows what else. noisy: good environment for mugging? half-full: not enough space to eat? the grounds on which this confiscation took place are totally NOT justifiable. people now are talking about learning new skills blah blah blah... so what is the use of people learning a new skill if they cant display it in school? being students, that IS the ONLY place where we can display this set of skills. if not where else do you want us to do it? busk without a license?
"you have been caught for illegal busking"
"but i want to entertain people and sell my skills"
"are you a student"
"yes"
"then do it in school cannot?"
"no. if do in school then deck get confiscated, thats why i come here to do"
As boy A said, rule enforcement should be situational, NOT absolute. like how criminals get a trial before they are accused, this should be applied to students. when there are eyewitnesses, obviously the evidence is true lah. so why should the student still be guilty of offense? it totally does NOT make sense. the canteen is the best place to display skills, as it is open and everybody can see. so why restrict us till this extent? restriction only serves to inihibit us, discouraging us from doing what we like and what we are interested in. its stops us from improving our skills, making us lower than professionals. if a professional magician can come to school and perform, why not student magicians? moreover, the students are free to use and yet provide entertainment for the general student population. so let me pose this question again.
"Why resrtict us so much?"
this was taken from the real life experiences of 2 guys in Xjc. they are still pissed and irritated over this incident. if you readers out there happen to know who these 2 guys are, please do not mention anything at all, not even to them.
more randomness. did i mention that Xjc administration sux? where in the world does none of the staff appreciate entertainmnt? doesnt mean a deck must always be used for card games... its the same as not always a book can be used only to study and read... a bit of magic, people get stunned, then deck gets confiscated though the reason is 100% valid. "there was no card games. no bridge, no daidee. just entertainment." even though there are eyewitnesses, deck still got confiscated. "lets not make things difficult." wth!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! then in another corner of the table at that time, some other guy was shuffling(note: SHUFFLING) the deck, with almost nobody sitting around him, with him being the lonely guy at the corner of the table while his friend gets all the attention. deck gets confiscated. 7 bucks gone down the drain. not even playing. just plain shuffling, though it was a bit fancy shuffling. i mean to say.. wats the basis of confiscating? nobody was even around to play bridge/daidee/poker/etc. note: NOBODY WAS AROUND. ok... maybe they would suspect we would invite people to play, then again, what is the basis of not allowing cards in the canteen? so that people can have a place to mug in the canteen when its not so noisy, and people have space to eat. at that time, the canteen wasnt even half-full, and it was already quite noisy, with people shouting across the canteen and goodness knows what else. noisy: good environment for mugging? half-full: not enough space to eat? the grounds on which this confiscation took place are totally NOT justifiable. people now are talking about learning new skills blah blah blah... so what is the use of people learning a new skill if they cant display it in school? being students, that IS the ONLY place where we can display this set of skills. if not where else do you want us to do it? busk without a license?
"you have been caught for illegal busking"
"but i want to entertain people and sell my skills"
"are you a student"
"yes"
"then do it in school cannot?"
"no. if do in school then deck get confiscated, thats why i come here to do"
As boy A said, rule enforcement should be situational, NOT absolute. like how criminals get a trial before they are accused, this should be applied to students. when there are eyewitnesses, obviously the evidence is true lah. so why should the student still be guilty of offense? it totally does NOT make sense. the canteen is the best place to display skills, as it is open and everybody can see. so why restrict us till this extent? restriction only serves to inihibit us, discouraging us from doing what we like and what we are interested in. its stops us from improving our skills, making us lower than professionals. if a professional magician can come to school and perform, why not student magicians? moreover, the students are free to use and yet provide entertainment for the general student population. so let me pose this question again.
"Why resrtict us so much?"
this was taken from the real life experiences of 2 guys in Xjc. they are still pissed and irritated over this incident. if you readers out there happen to know who these 2 guys are, please do not mention anything at all, not even to them.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
whatever...
haha... HAPPY NATIONAL DAY EVERYBODY!!!!! a bit late lah... but i just got home from my friend's birthday party and this is the earlist i could blog... so maybe i should change it to belated national day... ok... i almost got screwed by my parents... i was drinking beer at alvin's bdae party, and i got slightly tipsy... as a matter of fact, i am still a little light headed... haha... we play card game, loser drink beer... shiok sia... never mind... i sense myself losing conciousness in about 30 mins time... enjoy my time online while i can and blog more another day... see ya peeps...
Monday, August 08, 2005
Should i say it out? should i confess my feelings? im so confused. im in a dilemna. If i say it out it would have so many implications. if i dont i would die inside. WHAT SHOULD I DO????????? somebody save me...
i think due to this pathetic state of mind, i have started to neglect my friends. i think should treasure them and appreciate them more. so to all my friends, i will treat all of you lke a friend should and i will never pang seh all of you.
i think due to this pathetic state of mind, i have started to neglect my friends. i think should treasure them and appreciate them more. so to all my friends, i will treat all of you lke a friend should and i will never pang seh all of you.
Sunday, August 07, 2005
random. i watched TV for 2 hrs this week. i used com for 10 hrs so far this week. i am in school from 6.45-8.00 everyday. i sleep from 12.30 to 5.30 everyday. i slept till 11 yesterday. wth?!??!?!?!?? wat am i doing typing all this shit... wth... might as well post it since i have already typed so much...
what i am listening to: she will be loved by maroon 5.
what i am going to do: sleep.
i am gonna kill you. naan unnai kollai saei pogaieren.
ready for national day tmw.
BARIS SEDAYA!
im bored. me too! circle all anomalies then redo experiment. if point goes nearer best fit line, comment on sources of error. if scatter is large, plot more points to check closeness of fit or change of trend ie. the spring has stretched beyond its elasticity limit and it does not adhere to the trend. if scatter is very very large, the variables do not appear to have any relation.
no anomalous points. the amount of gas collected increases gradually over time and the points are close to the best fit line.
no anomalous points. the points adhere closely to the line and are ±1mm away from the best fit line. as the points adhere to the trend, no anomalous points. the following precautions have been taken to ensure the accuracy of the experiment.
blah lah blah....
explain what is a buffer solution and how it works when an acid/base is added.
A buffer solution is a solution that is capable of maintaining a fairly constant pH when small amounts of acid or base is added.
when small amounts of acid is added, the H+ ions are removed by....... blah blah blah.... argh... im too lazy to type evrything out...
life is nice so far... anyway, did you know the shape of D orbitals are so wierd? so are F orbitals... For hand-waving (imprecise, but qualitatively useful) discussion of the molecular structure, the molecular orbitals can be obtained from the "Linear combination of atomic orbitals molecular orbital method" ansatz (using eventually the concept of hybridized orbitals).
Orbitals are regions of space where there is a 90% probability of locating an electron.
the above is the equation to calculate the propability of locating an electron in a space at one time.
ok... my random post is over... another random post tmw!
what i am listening to: she will be loved by maroon 5.
what i am going to do: sleep.
i am gonna kill you. naan unnai kollai saei pogaieren.
ready for national day tmw.
BARIS SEDAYA!
im bored. me too! circle all anomalies then redo experiment. if point goes nearer best fit line, comment on sources of error. if scatter is large, plot more points to check closeness of fit or change of trend ie. the spring has stretched beyond its elasticity limit and it does not adhere to the trend. if scatter is very very large, the variables do not appear to have any relation.
no anomalous points. the amount of gas collected increases gradually over time and the points are close to the best fit line.
no anomalous points. the points adhere closely to the line and are ±1mm away from the best fit line. as the points adhere to the trend, no anomalous points. the following precautions have been taken to ensure the accuracy of the experiment.
blah lah blah....
explain what is a buffer solution and how it works when an acid/base is added.
A buffer solution is a solution that is capable of maintaining a fairly constant pH when small amounts of acid or base is added.
when small amounts of acid is added, the H+ ions are removed by....... blah blah blah.... argh... im too lazy to type evrything out...
life is nice so far... anyway, did you know the shape of D orbitals are so wierd? so are F orbitals... For hand-waving (imprecise, but qualitatively useful) discussion of the molecular structure, the molecular orbitals can be obtained from the "Linear combination of atomic orbitals molecular orbital method" ansatz (using eventually the concept of hybridized orbitals).
Orbitals are regions of space where there is a 90% probability of locating an electron.
the above is the equation to calculate the propability of locating an electron in a space at one time.
ok... my random post is over... another random post tmw!
Saturday, August 06, 2005
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
fuck it
Life always ***** you up when ure already damn ****** up. I dont know what i have done, or whatever others have done, but what the hell is the reason for people doing that to me? i have not offended any ******* people in the past week, nor have i killed anybody. (this has been deemed too vulgar for children's eyes and has been edited)
on a much heavier tone, im finding it much more difficult to approach you. i dont know why, but why do i get the feeling that you are avoiding me? are you aware of anything going on? i dont think so. i dont blame you for doing that as i dont even think you know. but please... i want to lead a much better life than now. now is already quite screwed up. i dont expect you to spare a thought for me. but if you do know anything about this, i think i know you well enough to know what you will do.
on a much heavier tone, im finding it much more difficult to approach you. i dont know why, but why do i get the feeling that you are avoiding me? are you aware of anything going on? i dont think so. i dont blame you for doing that as i dont even think you know. but please... i want to lead a much better life than now. now is already quite screwed up. i dont expect you to spare a thought for me. but if you do know anything about this, i think i know you well enough to know what you will do.
Saturday, July 30, 2005
hm...
it seems that i cant keep away from the computer. the lure of codes are also getting much stronger... i cant seem to explain this happy feeling i have in myself today =) hope tomorrow is the same as today.
20|23|13 15|8|10 19|1|8
23|3|16 8|23|8 23|23|8
7|24|22 1|14|13 15|21|1
25|7|22 9|25|13 7|19|8
1|2|10 13|9|21 24|10|23
13|1|23 8|1|22 1|14|22
13|19|13 19|8|13 15|13|25
19|16|15 20|15|3 1|14|13
6|15|1 14|23|23 10|5|24
?
it ends with a question mark.
here is a clue to solving part of it.
4 7 3 1 5 2 9 8 6
have fun!
20|23|13 15|8|10 19|1|8
23|3|16 8|23|8 23|23|8
7|24|22 1|14|13 15|21|1
25|7|22 9|25|13 7|19|8
1|2|10 13|9|21 24|10|23
13|1|23 8|1|22 1|14|22
13|19|13 19|8|13 15|13|25
19|16|15 20|15|3 1|14|13
6|15|1 14|23|23 10|5|24
?
it ends with a question mark.
here is a clue to solving part of it.
4 7 3 1 5 2 9 8 6
have fun!
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
VS anthem
Victorian Anthem
Victoria in Singapore
There are other schools we know
Victoria is something more
The school that watched us grow
For here we've learnt and striven too
And playes the sportsman's game
Victoria we give to you
The honour that you claim
Victoria thy sons are we
And we will not forget
Victoria thy triumphs seek
And victories we share yet
For others came before and went
And carried to the world
Victoria's fame
And our intent to
Keep her flag unfurled
Viva Victoria
Victoria in Singapore
There are other schools we know
Victoria is something more
The school that watched us grow
For here we've learnt and striven too
And playes the sportsman's game
Victoria we give to you
The honour that you claim
Victoria thy sons are we
And we will not forget
Victoria thy triumphs seek
And victories we share yet
For others came before and went
And carried to the world
Victoria's fame
And our intent to
Keep her flag unfurled
Viva Victoria
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Poem
VICTORIA SCHOOL
Nil sine labore.
We felt but did not grasp
That truth, until the years.
The changing age confirmed severely:
Nothing without labour,
Nothing is for free.
You grew us well,
Mother of our youth,
Gave grave to toughness,
Tuned mind and feeling.
Our teachers scolded out of love.
We loved them with the fevour
That only mischief has.
We learnt quarrelled laughed,
Little enemies, great friends
In classroom lab assembly
Below the arches of the Hall.
Upon the tower built by Amin
Bock Hai and their scouting gang.
We shared ourselves, so
Found ourselves: Henry Aziz Boey
Soon Khiang Beng Keng Peter Poh
Guan Noordin Eric Heng Goe
Dhanabalan Teo Yong Chua Seng,
Among the intricacies of calculus,
Adverbial phrase, The Rover,
There was the steadying of the eye
As a though struck deep with beauty,
Or growing symmetry, sudden revelation
We did not feel the day go by
The faces appear each year
Along the corridors to labour, love,
Learn, They too will know
That here our better youth was spent,
That what we are was seeded then.
We do not return to you, mother,
Because we never really left.
Professor Edwin Thumboo
VS 1948 - 1953
Nil sine labore.
We felt but did not grasp
That truth, until the years.
The changing age confirmed severely:
Nothing without labour,
Nothing is for free.
You grew us well,
Mother of our youth,
Gave grave to toughness,
Tuned mind and feeling.
Our teachers scolded out of love.
We loved them with the fevour
That only mischief has.
We learnt quarrelled laughed,
Little enemies, great friends
In classroom lab assembly
Below the arches of the Hall.
Upon the tower built by Amin
Bock Hai and their scouting gang.
We shared ourselves, so
Found ourselves: Henry Aziz Boey
Soon Khiang Beng Keng Peter Poh
Guan Noordin Eric Heng Goe
Dhanabalan Teo Yong Chua Seng,
Among the intricacies of calculus,
Adverbial phrase, The Rover,
There was the steadying of the eye
As a though struck deep with beauty,
Or growing symmetry, sudden revelation
We did not feel the day go by
The faces appear each year
Along the corridors to labour, love,
Learn, They too will know
That here our better youth was spent,
That what we are was seeded then.
We do not return to you, mother,
Because we never really left.
Professor Edwin Thumboo
VS 1948 - 1953
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Saturday, July 16, 2005
Chem Model answer
some chem model answers.
explain the shape in XE.
there are 4 lone pairs and 0 bond pairs. to minimise stability and maximise repulsion, the 4 electron pairs are directed he corners of a sphere. therefore, the shape is a dot and it has a bond angle of 0.
explain the decrease in bond energies down the group.
down the group, neutrons are added to a lower energy shell. as this happens, shielding effect increases negligibly and is outweighed by the increase in nuclear charge. therefore, effective nuclear charge increases. the neutrons are more electrostatically attracted to the protons and are flying around randomly. therefore, it becomes increasingly more impossible to remove the protons down the group.
explain the increase in rate of reaction as temperature increases.
when there is an increase in pressure, the compunds gain less energy. therefore, the number of elements with less than deactivation energy increases infinitely. when this happens, the number of ineffective collisions increase. frequency of ineffective collisions increase. therefore the rate of reaction is zero.
life still sux.
haha... dont be misleaded by the above lol... i just put them there for fun.
explain the shape in XeF4
there are 4 bond pairs and 2 lone pairs around Xe. to minimise repulsion and maximise stability, the 6 electron pairs are directed to the corners of an octahedron. as bond pair-bond pair repulsion is weaker then lone pair-lone pair repulsion, the final shape is square plnar with the bond angle being 90.
explain the decrease in bond energies down the group.
as electrons are beng added to progressively higher energy shells, the increase in shielding effect outweighs the negligible change in nuclear charge. therefore effective nuclear charge decreases. as it decreases, the electrons are less electrostatically attracted to the the nucleus and are further away from the nucleus. therefore electrons are easier to remove down the group.
explain the increase in rate of reaction as temperature increases.
as temperature increases, the reactant molecules gain more kinetic energy. therefore, the average number of particles with at least activation energy increases. as there are more particles with at least activation energy, the number of effective collisions increase. as frequency of effective collisions increase, rate of reaction increases.
[insert maxwell blotzmann diagram here]
explain the shape in XE.
there are 4 lone pairs and 0 bond pairs. to minimise stability and maximise repulsion, the 4 electron pairs are directed he corners of a sphere. therefore, the shape is a dot and it has a bond angle of 0.
explain the decrease in bond energies down the group.
down the group, neutrons are added to a lower energy shell. as this happens, shielding effect increases negligibly and is outweighed by the increase in nuclear charge. therefore, effective nuclear charge increases. the neutrons are more electrostatically attracted to the protons and are flying around randomly. therefore, it becomes increasingly more impossible to remove the protons down the group.
explain the increase in rate of reaction as temperature increases.
when there is an increase in pressure, the compunds gain less energy. therefore, the number of elements with less than deactivation energy increases infinitely. when this happens, the number of ineffective collisions increase. frequency of ineffective collisions increase. therefore the rate of reaction is zero.
life still sux.
haha... dont be misleaded by the above lol... i just put them there for fun.
explain the shape in XeF4
there are 4 bond pairs and 2 lone pairs around Xe. to minimise repulsion and maximise stability, the 6 electron pairs are directed to the corners of an octahedron. as bond pair-bond pair repulsion is weaker then lone pair-lone pair repulsion, the final shape is square plnar with the bond angle being 90.
explain the decrease in bond energies down the group.
as electrons are beng added to progressively higher energy shells, the increase in shielding effect outweighs the negligible change in nuclear charge. therefore effective nuclear charge decreases. as it decreases, the electrons are less electrostatically attracted to the the nucleus and are further away from the nucleus. therefore electrons are easier to remove down the group.
explain the increase in rate of reaction as temperature increases.
as temperature increases, the reactant molecules gain more kinetic energy. therefore, the average number of particles with at least activation energy increases. as there are more particles with at least activation energy, the number of effective collisions increase. as frequency of effective collisions increase, rate of reaction increases.
[insert maxwell blotzmann diagram here]
Thursday, July 14, 2005
hm... i have a confession to make. actually, OPR was a random name that i picked and encoded. it is NOT the name of the person i like. we shall see who is the gullible ones to believe me. just because its in code does not mean that it is true. its generalising.
ok... now that i have said it, sorry benny.
ok... now that i have said it, sorry benny.
what?!?!?!?!
fabian said... its JUST A GIRL. just a girl? i beg to differ. i have been thinking about a previous girl for over 6 months(this is the 7th). this "just-a-girl" managed to pull me out of that bottomless pit. now, i am falling into that bottomless pit again. will it be another 6 months? i expect so. this was what i exactly felt 6 months ago. i suspect this will turn out to be exactly as what happened 7 months ago. a repeat is just what i needed at this point of time. yea right. today although i saw her, still felt shitty inside. as always. i need to tell someone. SOMEONE SAVE ME.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
down
im feeling so down today... dont know whats wrong with me. totally had no mood to pay attention during lectures. something is happening to me. whatever that happened during the post-JAE period is coming back. only this time, its not as bad... its worse. just because i never see her for one day, i have been thinking about her continously throughout the day. haiz... will it ever stop?
Monday, July 11, 2005
song
finally... my results are out. here goes...
PHY: D
CHEM: B
MATHS: E
GP: C5
CLAO: C5
ok... i find it of average standard only... i will aim for this for promos. i will work towards that goal.
PHY: B
CHEM: A
MATHS: D
GP: B4
CLAO: C5
hm... i have the song "she will be loved" by maroon 5 stuck in my head. i think im suffering from inferiority complex. im thinking some people are just so better off than me... maybe that song explains the exact situation i am in now... especially the first verse...
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
PHY: D
CHEM: B
MATHS: E
GP: C5
CLAO: C5
ok... i find it of average standard only... i will aim for this for promos. i will work towards that goal.
PHY: B
CHEM: A
MATHS: D
GP: B4
CLAO: C5
hm... i have the song "she will be loved" by maroon 5 stuck in my head. i think im suffering from inferiority complex. im thinking some people are just so better off than me... maybe that song explains the exact situation i am in now... especially the first verse...
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
Sunday, July 10, 2005
i have decided against my better judgement that i shall post the name of the nameless "you" here. or rather, her initials.
* * *
of course its coded. why would i want it to be so easy... anyway, you would naturally know who you are. i am sure. u are still causing me untold hurt and pain. i cant get over it. its official. hope you realize who you are.
* * *
of course its coded. why would i want it to be so easy... anyway, you would naturally know who you are. i am sure. u are still causing me untold hurt and pain. i cant get over it. its official. hope you realize who you are.
Friday, July 08, 2005
dedication
this is a message specially for you. you might not know what you have done to me, or rather, you might not even know i am talking to you. even though i can accept what has happened, i cant get over it. will i? you are the deciding factor. even thoughi cant get over this, i wish you all the best.
Thursday, July 07, 2005
i just want to burst out crying now. failure after failure, disappointment after disappointment. one after another. im not the type who is so insensitive to such things. in fact, i am extremely sensitive to such things. you may not know you are causing me such pain, but i have to tell you that it exists. i cant deny your existence. hope you realise it. but im not depending on you to realise it. neither do i think you will know that its you.
cry it out. perhaps i will feel better after that. perhaps. maybe.
cry it out. perhaps i will feel better after that. perhaps. maybe.
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
hm...
i wanna commit suicide. results are so discouraging. for PHY, i failed MCQ very badly. with 12/30. GP also fail with 20.5/50 for compre. i really wanna kill myself lah... hope maths and the rest of phy dont do so badly... hai...
the previous few days were fun fun fun. yesterday went to ZY bouse, where i got to play his 2 pianos, play stress, see his 2 dogs, basically have fun lah. it was nice seeing weekiat playing starwars with kenny... with both being very evenly matched. however, kenny got trashed by ZY in halo 2. how nice...sad that i had to leave at round 4.45 as i needed to go home. how sad...
haha... fabian and hui koon seem to have an interesting theory. fabian wanted jeevan to join band, so that he wont be alone. so i said, im alone in my class too. somehow ro rather, they managed to deduce that 05S221=freak class. therefore, im a freak too. therefore im alone in my class. therefore, it is shown that freaks do not join band. my class has 2 ex band members but neither of them joined band. how sad...
no... i am not a freak. since when i was. im human.
feeling worse than ever. sigh...
the previous few days were fun fun fun. yesterday went to ZY bouse, where i got to play his 2 pianos, play stress, see his 2 dogs, basically have fun lah. it was nice seeing weekiat playing starwars with kenny... with both being very evenly matched. however, kenny got trashed by ZY in halo 2. how nice...sad that i had to leave at round 4.45 as i needed to go home. how sad...
haha... fabian and hui koon seem to have an interesting theory. fabian wanted jeevan to join band, so that he wont be alone. so i said, im alone in my class too. somehow ro rather, they managed to deduce that 05S221=freak class. therefore, im a freak too. therefore im alone in my class. therefore, it is shown that freaks do not join band. my class has 2 ex band members but neither of them joined band. how sad...
no... i am not a freak. since when i was. im human.
feeling worse than ever. sigh...
Sunday, July 03, 2005
Saturday, July 02, 2005
exams
Exams are finally over. i can put my mind at ease for now, while my body supercharges for the rush to promos in 3 days time. im gonna be so screwed for mid yrs... never study physics and chem lah... ok... enuff about the screwed up mid years.
went to watch movie on thursday. the trip to PS was rather noisy. for a moment, i considered not knowing who fabian was... he was laughing SO loudly on the train that i simply wanted to forget who he was. yes... he was tt loud. watched war of the worlds. make a lot of noise in the cinema. cool man... its nice to see the friggin tripods blow up the puny little humans with laser beams. tt is so reminiscent of happy tree friends and joe cartoons. after that, went to take neoprints. again, there were civil riots to be fought. strikes to be quelled. protets to be stopped. well... what can i say... i just dont like taking neoprints. i find it a waste of money. totally. went hom for the day. took taxi back with hk, sk, don. scandals galore =)
then the day of listening compre... hm... lets hear wat we did... waited for nobody apparently, then moved our asses off to bugis to meet up with kenny. waited for justin, while i pranked call him. then moved our asses off again to kin lok's house to talk cock sing song. once we reached, played bridge while waiting for nothing in particular. then we went down to the minimart to buy some food and drinks, while hk and justin were locked in the room. hm... went back, then realized a portion of the floor was wet 0_o ok... i shall not elaborate on the details. after that was probably the craziest day since mid years started. played stress. i think hk and justin were pretty high 0_o after getting locked in the room. no... i am NOT being suggestive =) huikoon seemed to be on ecstacy, so was justin. slamming vards on the table, forgetting the magical word was "stress" and doing exaggarated motions with the hands. ohya... benny then met us at kin lok's house after his exams wereover too. i noticed everytime when hk AND justin were playing, they would either lose together or win together. wat are they up to? and justin kept losing to huikoon. hm? coincidence? or planned defeat? ok... the scores were pretty similar... justin lost to hk, i lost to sk, kin lok lost to kenny, me and kenny about the same, justin and hk both lost to me. again... coincidence? oh... and yesterday was rather magical. sarah was actually quite high 0_0 sarah and high totally not compatible lah... though she tends to laugh at rather nonsensical stuff before saying "bish! smack ure face lah" but she was really high yesterday! must be stress... literally and figuratively. last match of the day... i won hk 3-2 while justin kept losing to kenny. i think justin was quite distracted near the end... with *ahem* sitting beside him. after tt, hk, sk, justin and kenny left for esplanade while me, benny and sarah made our way to bedok.i noticed justin prefers to hang around with *ahem*. had a rather interesting talk about combined phy paper.they made it sound so easy till even i felt i could had easily gotten full marks, which i doubt totally... come on lah... since when people get full marks for MCQ one... nonsense lorh...went home, dinner, then felt my bed calling out to me...
today, went to school for the DSA auditions. wat can i say... am i not fated to take the bus to school? as i was walking towards the traffic light, saw 15 come, so ran to the traffic light. the friggin light did not turn red! though i know its yellow and black in colour. so jaywalked, or jayran, in this case. the bus stopped at the stop, then although i flagged, it went off! damn pissed. so ended up being late. reached at 8.35. damn...some of the DSA applicants sound quite good... potential is walking through our doors =) some extremely notable ones were the 2 oboists and the horns. fun. as usual, hk turned up only at 12.42. benny was quite tired of waiting liao... but i think he was okay with it, as he was talking cock with us... then ms sia came out and said we were very loud... so we maintained after that. did a lot of crazy things... like push ups and dips and pull ups. in the band room. pull ups not in the band room. then again, we waited for fabian, then he met us at white sands. as usual, he was late too. so actually we were doubly late. i think kinlok was quite unhappy waitng for us... so was kenny. when we met, we still had to wait for some people, like wee kiat. then made our way to suntec to eat. note: the time was already 2+++++++++. settled at swensens for lunch. nothing notable happened. it was only after we ate and were talking cock when zhenghong was a bit high... he draw THE logo and put a lot of nonsense, like pig organ soup, pig bone soup, char siew, roasted pork. it was total irony. well, i contributed quite a lot of ideas, so i think im gonna get my retribution. well, finished wat we had to do, then went off to suntec for a nice round of arcade. ZY/kenny/zhenghong played marvel vs capcom after watching benny playing DDR with zhenghong. both are quite pro... then benny went to play parapara, where he was quite pro too... watched zheng yi and kenny play time crisis 2, where it was quite fun to watch them play... then people started to go home. though hk and sk left like 15 mins before zy and yosua, they managed to catch up with them and still take the same train as them. damn wols. nonsense. went home, till where i am now. in front of the com, blogging.
im aiming towards promos liao... i wanna get something like BCD for promos too... hope it can be done. my personal taget is still not fulfilled, or even started on. im dying here... cant be helped. i dragged myself into this shit, now i have to get myself out. im crumbling from within. giving in is the only thing that can be done now.
went to watch movie on thursday. the trip to PS was rather noisy. for a moment, i considered not knowing who fabian was... he was laughing SO loudly on the train that i simply wanted to forget who he was. yes... he was tt loud. watched war of the worlds. make a lot of noise in the cinema. cool man... its nice to see the friggin tripods blow up the puny little humans with laser beams. tt is so reminiscent of happy tree friends and joe cartoons. after that, went to take neoprints. again, there were civil riots to be fought. strikes to be quelled. protets to be stopped. well... what can i say... i just dont like taking neoprints. i find it a waste of money. totally. went hom for the day. took taxi back with hk, sk, don. scandals galore =)
then the day of listening compre... hm... lets hear wat we did... waited for nobody apparently, then moved our asses off to bugis to meet up with kenny. waited for justin, while i pranked call him. then moved our asses off again to kin lok's house to talk cock sing song. once we reached, played bridge while waiting for nothing in particular. then we went down to the minimart to buy some food and drinks, while hk and justin were locked in the room. hm... went back, then realized a portion of the floor was wet 0_o ok... i shall not elaborate on the details. after that was probably the craziest day since mid years started. played stress. i think hk and justin were pretty high 0_o after getting locked in the room. no... i am NOT being suggestive =) huikoon seemed to be on ecstacy, so was justin. slamming vards on the table, forgetting the magical word was "stress" and doing exaggarated motions with the hands. ohya... benny then met us at kin lok's house after his exams wereover too. i noticed everytime when hk AND justin were playing, they would either lose together or win together. wat are they up to? and justin kept losing to huikoon. hm? coincidence? or planned defeat? ok... the scores were pretty similar... justin lost to hk, i lost to sk, kin lok lost to kenny, me and kenny about the same, justin and hk both lost to me. again... coincidence? oh... and yesterday was rather magical. sarah was actually quite high 0_0 sarah and high totally not compatible lah... though she tends to laugh at rather nonsensical stuff before saying "bish! smack ure face lah" but she was really high yesterday! must be stress... literally and figuratively. last match of the day... i won hk 3-2 while justin kept losing to kenny. i think justin was quite distracted near the end... with *ahem* sitting beside him. after tt, hk, sk, justin and kenny left for esplanade while me, benny and sarah made our way to bedok.i noticed justin prefers to hang around with *ahem*. had a rather interesting talk about combined phy paper.they made it sound so easy till even i felt i could had easily gotten full marks, which i doubt totally... come on lah... since when people get full marks for MCQ one... nonsense lorh...went home, dinner, then felt my bed calling out to me...
today, went to school for the DSA auditions. wat can i say... am i not fated to take the bus to school? as i was walking towards the traffic light, saw 15 come, so ran to the traffic light. the friggin light did not turn red! though i know its yellow and black in colour. so jaywalked, or jayran, in this case. the bus stopped at the stop, then although i flagged, it went off! damn pissed. so ended up being late. reached at 8.35. damn...some of the DSA applicants sound quite good... potential is walking through our doors =) some extremely notable ones were the 2 oboists and the horns. fun. as usual, hk turned up only at 12.42. benny was quite tired of waiting liao... but i think he was okay with it, as he was talking cock with us... then ms sia came out and said we were very loud... so we maintained after that. did a lot of crazy things... like push ups and dips and pull ups. in the band room. pull ups not in the band room. then again, we waited for fabian, then he met us at white sands. as usual, he was late too. so actually we were doubly late. i think kinlok was quite unhappy waitng for us... so was kenny. when we met, we still had to wait for some people, like wee kiat. then made our way to suntec to eat. note: the time was already 2+++++++++. settled at swensens for lunch. nothing notable happened. it was only after we ate and were talking cock when zhenghong was a bit high... he draw THE logo and put a lot of nonsense, like pig organ soup, pig bone soup, char siew, roasted pork. it was total irony. well, i contributed quite a lot of ideas, so i think im gonna get my retribution. well, finished wat we had to do, then went off to suntec for a nice round of arcade. ZY/kenny/zhenghong played marvel vs capcom after watching benny playing DDR with zhenghong. both are quite pro... then benny went to play parapara, where he was quite pro too... watched zheng yi and kenny play time crisis 2, where it was quite fun to watch them play... then people started to go home. though hk and sk left like 15 mins before zy and yosua, they managed to catch up with them and still take the same train as them. damn wols. nonsense. went home, till where i am now. in front of the com, blogging.
im aiming towards promos liao... i wanna get something like BCD for promos too... hope it can be done. my personal taget is still not fulfilled, or even started on. im dying here... cant be helped. i dragged myself into this shit, now i have to get myself out. im crumbling from within. giving in is the only thing that can be done now.
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
WOOHOO!!!!!
YAY!!!!! The mid yrs end one day away =))))))))))))))))))) have fun... till the slaughtering axe appears on tuesday... though i would prefer a guillotine. faster and less painful death. as long as they do not use gardening shears to poke into my stomach and cause damage to one kidney 0_o phy tmw. THEN IM FREE!!!!! CHEONG ALL THE WAY AH!!!!!!!
hm... this week very boisterous and eventful, or rather very un-uneventful. tuesday, or was it wednesday? anyway, justin got raped in the storeroom. not literally. okay... literally. its was so funny... as i did not want to get involved, i decided to help him and unlock the doors. but the rest happily dragged him back in, like a black hole. when i opened the door, justin tried to get out, managing to crawl out halfway before getting sucked back into the black hole aka storeroom. then aftre that was fabian turn. same thing. tried to chase him all around the band room, then finally managed to catch him and drag him into storeroom. hm... luckily i managed to finish my chem paper before they came =) if not i would not have done anymore studying that day as when i went home, finished the angels and demons book. never even touch my notes/answers/tutorials/whatever/it/can/be/called.
haha... justin is just not fated to take the bus home. today, as he was walking towards the bus stop, it somehow happened that he was drinking green tea, then the bus came. of course, he had to intentionally miss that bus as no drinks were allowed on deck. haha... everything seems to be happening around justin... hm...HM...
ok... i shall pre-empt my results here.
PHY:B-D
CHEM: A-C
MATHS: B-C
CLAO: B4-C6
GP: B3-C6
WCS: D C C C C
BCS: B A B B B
this sucks man. im gonna be so screwed on tuesday. ok... gonna go study for phy liao... then tmw can go watch movie in peace =)
hm... this week very boisterous and eventful, or rather very un-uneventful. tuesday, or was it wednesday? anyway, justin got raped in the storeroom. not literally. okay... literally. its was so funny... as i did not want to get involved, i decided to help him and unlock the doors. but the rest happily dragged him back in, like a black hole. when i opened the door, justin tried to get out, managing to crawl out halfway before getting sucked back into the black hole aka storeroom. then aftre that was fabian turn. same thing. tried to chase him all around the band room, then finally managed to catch him and drag him into storeroom. hm... luckily i managed to finish my chem paper before they came =) if not i would not have done anymore studying that day as when i went home, finished the angels and demons book. never even touch my notes/answers/tutorials/whatever/it/can/be/called.
haha... justin is just not fated to take the bus home. today, as he was walking towards the bus stop, it somehow happened that he was drinking green tea, then the bus came. of course, he had to intentionally miss that bus as no drinks were allowed on deck. haha... everything seems to be happening around justin... hm...HM...
ok... i shall pre-empt my results here.
PHY:B-D
CHEM: A-C
MATHS: B-C
CLAO: B4-C6
GP: B3-C6
WCS: D C C C C
BCS: B A B B B
this sucks man. im gonna be so screwed on tuesday. ok... gonna go study for phy liao... then tmw can go watch movie in peace =)
Saturday, June 25, 2005
of discrimination and bigotry
look at the kind of shit that people nowadays come up with...
First we state that girls require time and money.
As we all know, "time is money."
And because "money is the root of all evil"
And we can thus conclude that: girls = evil
look at this shit... in my opinion it is remotely funny... hardy har har... approximately 30 years ago singapore's environment was so volatile that something as simple as a racist or discriminating remark would have sparked off riots/catfights. ok... i admit that i did make discriminating remarks, but i now feel that making these kind of remarks are kind of off limits. well, we would not want another civil riot do we? i think racists should be shot. that includes me.
ok... this was pretty random... neither do i know why i posted this... anyway, if you feel mightily offended by the abovementioned joke or by the remarks, i am NOT available for shooting. it was just for fun. trust me. however, if you do find truth in the above statements, do not, i repeat, DO NOT hesitate to shower me with gifts. thanks you. this was a public service announcement made by bigots inc.
First we state that girls require time and money.
As we all know, "time is money."
And because "money is the root of all evil"
And we can thus conclude that: girls = evil
look at this shit... in my opinion it is remotely funny... hardy har har... approximately 30 years ago singapore's environment was so volatile that something as simple as a racist or discriminating remark would have sparked off riots/catfights. ok... i admit that i did make discriminating remarks, but i now feel that making these kind of remarks are kind of off limits. well, we would not want another civil riot do we? i think racists should be shot. that includes me.
ok... this was pretty random... neither do i know why i posted this... anyway, if you feel mightily offended by the abovementioned joke or by the remarks, i am NOT available for shooting. it was just for fun. trust me. however, if you do find truth in the above statements, do not, i repeat, DO NOT hesitate to shower me with gifts. thanks you. this was a public service announcement made by bigots inc.
Friday, June 24, 2005
haiz...
Im feeling the same as when it was 2 months ago... shant blog about it, but i shall post something about it here, in code of course... saw some pretty good codes tt i would like to use...
9|8|7|9 11|7|15|4 12|15|8|19 5|9|23|15
9|15|9|20 25|4|23|8 11|14|20|9 5|15|8|5
5|20|8|12 5|14|1|12 8|8|9|12 6|20|20|16
21|15|14|12 5|11|20|13 9|21|11|9 14|14|15|5
9|8|7|9 11|7|15|4 12|15|8|19 5|9|23|15
9|15|9|20 25|4|23|8 11|14|20|9 5|15|8|5
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
school com sux
i have officially concluded that the school computer sucks to the core. you tell me... SINCE WHEN BLOGGER WAS DISPLAYED IN CHINESE? everything is in chinese. to make it worse, its traditional. if it was in simplified it wont be so bad... but well... oh,if you hve not realized by now, i am in the school library blogging.
the sight here in school in totally CRAZY. every single table outside the General Office has at least one teacher. all here for consultation. well, i wont say too much as i came to school for consultation too. ok... finish one more topic in physics, 3 more to go. and i havent even finish my maths and chem totally. im gonna die...
haha... people are talking about things like time turners and cheating quills... well... i would want one too =)
5 days more to the friggin exams. wish me and everybody else luck. all the best!
the sight here in school in totally CRAZY. every single table outside the General Office has at least one teacher. all here for consultation. well, i wont say too much as i came to school for consultation too. ok... finish one more topic in physics, 3 more to go. and i havent even finish my maths and chem totally. im gonna die...
haha... people are talking about things like time turners and cheating quills... well... i would want one too =)
5 days more to the friggin exams. wish me and everybody else luck. all the best!
Monday, June 20, 2005
YAY!
Finally... there is time for me to study. YAY!!! ok... 6 more days to the dreaded mid year exams, and here is an overall report of wat i have done so far. *wah... look from here to there damn far* ok... PHY: everything, left with forces, dynamics, work energy power and uniform circular motion. CHEM: Everything has been done at least once through. MATHS: Again, everything gone through at least once. CLAO: book has not even been touched. it does not seem so good for me... i want at least a BBC for mid yrs. i plan to finish everything at least one more time before i go sit for the exams. sigh... i wish i had more time.
today the most crapped up thing happened to me. I WAS LATE! i was supposed to meet ZY and justin at 10 to study, but i ended meeting them at 11. DAMN. ok... they were not even studying in the first place so i didnt feel so bad. slacked in the com rrom till 12, when hk turned up. looked through some happytreefriends before deciding to go for lunch. ok... a whole morning gone. GONE. GONE!!! after lunch, the real studying started. started going through the maths notes and summarising it all up onto foolscap. quite good. i now have 5 months worth of work onto 6 sheets of paper. condensed to the maximum. productive =)
we were standing beside the gate, knowing we wanted to go home, but somehow undecisive on the transport. hk wanted to take taxi. ZY wanted bus. somehow, we ended up taking bus 81 with justin to kovan. walked through his estate to get to the bus stop, where there was 76 and 24 for us to choose. his estate is so big... took us around 45 mins to walk through it... 24 came, so took it to bedok. hm... hk did not seem so well, so left her to sleep while me and ZY talked crap most of the way to bedok. tried to persuade hk to take taxi home as she seem so sick, but she flatly refused. she seem to be in such a daze. looking blur, like she didnt know where she was... im serious. took 60 while ZY waited at the bus stop for 2. it took hk quite a while to realize that i could have taken 66 or 228 straight home instead of taking 60 with her. sick people are just so stubborn. they dont think they are sick but wat do ya noe... luckily she managed to find her way home safely and alive, if not i have no comments.
6 days more to mid years. study hard and study all the way!!!!! gd luck to all =)
today the most crapped up thing happened to me. I WAS LATE! i was supposed to meet ZY and justin at 10 to study, but i ended meeting them at 11. DAMN. ok... they were not even studying in the first place so i didnt feel so bad. slacked in the com rrom till 12, when hk turned up. looked through some happytreefriends before deciding to go for lunch. ok... a whole morning gone. GONE. GONE!!! after lunch, the real studying started. started going through the maths notes and summarising it all up onto foolscap. quite good. i now have 5 months worth of work onto 6 sheets of paper. condensed to the maximum. productive =)
we were standing beside the gate, knowing we wanted to go home, but somehow undecisive on the transport. hk wanted to take taxi. ZY wanted bus. somehow, we ended up taking bus 81 with justin to kovan. walked through his estate to get to the bus stop, where there was 76 and 24 for us to choose. his estate is so big... took us around 45 mins to walk through it... 24 came, so took it to bedok. hm... hk did not seem so well, so left her to sleep while me and ZY talked crap most of the way to bedok. tried to persuade hk to take taxi home as she seem so sick, but she flatly refused. she seem to be in such a daze. looking blur, like she didnt know where she was... im serious. took 60 while ZY waited at the bus stop for 2. it took hk quite a while to realize that i could have taken 66 or 228 straight home instead of taking 60 with her. sick people are just so stubborn. they dont think they are sick but wat do ya noe... luckily she managed to find her way home safely and alive, if not i have no comments.
6 days more to mid years. study hard and study all the way!!!!! gd luck to all =)
Saturday, June 18, 2005
hai... yesterday's band bbq was a personal screw up. i think i was just TOO tired. example. i went to the shelter, wanted to lie down for a while, then ALMOST ended up sleeping. OMG... where got organiser go sleep in the middle of an event... that is so totally screwed up... the more i think of it, the more screwed up i think it is... but overall, it was quite well done... not too rare. urgh... the PS rate in MJCSB is quite high i realised... many of the *** did not turn up... they said they would turn up... but in the end. i shall leave it hanging there. later hang then suffocate. wasted. anyway, i would like to thank many many people for the overall success of the bbq. the year 2s. this bbq was dedicated to all of you and we are glad that you people turned up for it even though ***-*** is just quite some time away... oyea. me and ZY also learned a lessonf rom this... if your pit is at 40+, do NOT go 7-11 to buy ice. you can just die trying to carry the ice back =)
man... the thing that the yr 2s gave is so nice... even though the quality got a bit prob, but i think its very touching... especially since i have been hanging around with them since Juxtapose!.. dont want to see them leave, but well... when things have to go, we have no choice but to let it go and learn to continue living. need lots of glucose for respiration... if not will die. i feel so bad... all that i have given them is one measly badge. i will do more. but now no time... study is the only thing on my to-do list now. so sorry for now...
this is a special dedication for my friend, who has done things which are SO embarrassing and humiliating that i have decided to kill-him-in-the-middle-of-the-night-without-anybody-noticing aka assassinate. you would know who you are =)
sigh... talking about letting go... there are so many things that i have to give up... some which i just cant let go off. i realised that some things in my life hold such a great significance in my puny life that i cant let go of it. no matter how hard i try, it always returns to hit me. i cant do it. dont force me. i admit it. always on my mind. can never forget.
man... the thing that the yr 2s gave is so nice... even though the quality got a bit prob, but i think its very touching... especially since i have been hanging around with them since Juxtapose!.. dont want to see them leave, but well... when things have to go, we have no choice but to let it go and learn to continue living. need lots of glucose for respiration... if not will die. i feel so bad... all that i have given them is one measly badge. i will do more. but now no time... study is the only thing on my to-do list now. so sorry for now...
this is a special dedication for my friend, who has done things which are SO embarrassing and humiliating that i have decided to kill-him-in-the-middle-of-the-night-without-anybody-noticing aka assassinate. you would know who you are =)
sigh... talking about letting go... there are so many things that i have to give up... some which i just cant let go off. i realised that some things in my life hold such a great significance in my puny life that i cant let go of it. no matter how hard i try, it always returns to hit me. i cant do it. dont force me. i admit it. always on my mind. can never forget.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
what if...
what if... you wake up tomorrow and realize the whole world is nothing but one great dream? what if this was a parallel world where utopia and dystopia where on the "other side"? i feel weird. i dont know why, or how, or whatever. i just know that somethings not right. maybe it has something to do with me talking with friends? no. i dont think so. Am i even myself? what if all these was a great big lie, when tomorrow i will wake up finding myself in a totally diferent world, with different people, surroundings or even a different character. something is going on. i cant place my finger on what it exactly is. it exists, maybe to warn me? maybe to bug me? i think i shall leave it at that. get on with life. life is not worth thinking so much about.
Friday, June 10, 2005
a break
ah... taking a break from posting more quotes... later the wachowski bros kill me...
"have a break, have a kit-kat"
hokay... did not do much studying... just 5 questions from TYS for C-maths. at least i better than justin or hk... go to school, slack, then zhao. ok... at first is me and hk go book pit, then justin come along, cause we dont know where the booking booth is. lucky he was there. but i will come to that later. MRT, bus, bus, then walk for like... 30 mins. YAY!!! we arrived at the booking booth. then we found out that we can book at the AXS atation. -.-" ok... pit 44,45,47,48,55,56,57-59,61-66 were free. no choice. me and justin rent bike then go scout the pits. LUCKILY 44 and 45 were like neighbouring pits, and one was a double pit. double yay. went back to AXS station, did booking, then LUCKILY justin was there, cos need to pay by nets. ok... dont believe, hk can vouch for him. hm... this reminds me.
OK... listen up everybody... there will be a band BBQ on 17th june 2005 at east coast BBQ pit D44 and D45. time to be confirmed later. but PLEASE make this day free. cause there are many impt things to do. other details will be given ASAP. thank you.
yep. went to 7-11, then hk wanted to go to bugis to meet wk, so went along. when reach bugis, found out that the showtim si too late, so decided to go home, leaving hk, justin and wk. walked around bugis for like 20 mins before i found the friggin 23 bus stop. hai... too long nv go there liao.
wow... being a comm member is CRAZY. must plan things, must do things, then somehow still must have time to study. hoo boy... gonna die from a lack of sleep/lack of life/lack of money(for some reason?). okay... i really admire the previous exco. ok... must manage my time properly from now on. tt is my new school term resolution.
beggining of this month, i thought things were finally changing for the better. NO!!! things are returning to the way tt it was. why cant i just be free from all this?
"have a break, have a kit-kat"
hokay... did not do much studying... just 5 questions from TYS for C-maths. at least i better than justin or hk... go to school, slack, then zhao. ok... at first is me and hk go book pit, then justin come along, cause we dont know where the booking booth is. lucky he was there. but i will come to that later. MRT, bus, bus, then walk for like... 30 mins. YAY!!! we arrived at the booking booth. then we found out that we can book at the AXS atation. -.-" ok... pit 44,45,47,48,55,56,57-59,61-66 were free. no choice. me and justin rent bike then go scout the pits. LUCKILY 44 and 45 were like neighbouring pits, and one was a double pit. double yay. went back to AXS station, did booking, then LUCKILY justin was there, cos need to pay by nets. ok... dont believe, hk can vouch for him. hm... this reminds me.
OK... listen up everybody... there will be a band BBQ on 17th june 2005 at east coast BBQ pit D44 and D45. time to be confirmed later. but PLEASE make this day free. cause there are many impt things to do. other details will be given ASAP. thank you.
yep. went to 7-11, then hk wanted to go to bugis to meet wk, so went along. when reach bugis, found out that the showtim si too late, so decided to go home, leaving hk, justin and wk. walked around bugis for like 20 mins before i found the friggin 23 bus stop. hai... too long nv go there liao.
wow... being a comm member is CRAZY. must plan things, must do things, then somehow still must have time to study. hoo boy... gonna die from a lack of sleep/lack of life/lack of money(for some reason?). okay... i really admire the previous exco. ok... must manage my time properly from now on. tt is my new school term resolution.
beggining of this month, i thought things were finally changing for the better. NO!!! things are returning to the way tt it was. why cant i just be free from all this?
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
more random stuff
Human kind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return.
To obtain, something of equal value must be lost.
That is alchemy's first law of equivalent exchange.
In those days, we really believed that to be the world's one and only truth.
obtained from the introduction of Hagane no Renkinjutsushi aka Fullmetal Alchemist
"We dont see past the choices we dont understand."
"Does that mean i have to choose whether she lives or dies?"
"no. We have already made the choice. Now you have to understand."
Matrix(again)
To obtain, something of equal value must be lost.
That is alchemy's first law of equivalent exchange.
In those days, we really believed that to be the world's one and only truth.
obtained from the introduction of Hagane no Renkinjutsushi aka Fullmetal Alchemist
"We dont see past the choices we dont understand."
"Does that mean i have to choose whether she lives or dies?"
"no. We have already made the choice. Now you have to understand."
Matrix(again)
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
more random quotes
"without purpose, we would not exist"
"it is purpose that created us"
"purpose that connect us"
"purpose that pulls us"
"that guides us"
"that drives us"
"it is purpose that defines us"
"purpose that binds us"
cant help thinking how philosophical matrix is...
"it is purpose that created us"
"purpose that connect us"
"purpose that pulls us"
"that guides us"
"that drives us"
"it is purpose that defines us"
"purpose that binds us"
cant help thinking how philosophical matrix is...
Monday, June 06, 2005
hm... nice day...
wow... today was so fun... went to school early in the morning to study with zheng yi. the trip to school was horrible. the bus just went past, though people got flag. so unbearable lah... hk and sk wanted to wait for me, up to them lorh... dont want to go to school... yep. reached school.
i swear nothing is wrong with me... i just find tt studying is the best thing to do now. its not like im a freak or anything... ok... met sarah, then went band room to continue studying. yes yes... studying again... until like 12. then went for lunch, then had chem lecture and CLAO. yay! ms tan decided to release us like 10 mins early, so had some time to slack b4 the rest of the batch arrived for recess. went to band room, then "went" for maths lect. i swear i could have learnt... yea rite...
yay! off to CCHS we went. together with benny, hk and sk. in the end, we decided to go to TKGS then to CCHS then to VS. it was like a total tour of the katong and marine parade schools. cool man. at first, it felt so wrong for me to enter TKGS... me and benny were feeling so wrong. it was quite out of place for us to be there at that time. went arund TKGS, saw the band office, band room and the hall. i swear... TKGS looks more grand, with the old oak doors and all. after like exploring the few floors of the circular block, we exited, then waited at the bus stop for wee kiat to arrive.
after wee kiat arrived, we started walking to CCHS. the walk there can kill. literally. oyea, did i mention tt benny was saying how small CCHS was going to be when he saw TKGS? yep. after we entered the front gate, i cant believe how big the campus is... its gigantic. we spent like 30 mins in TKGS, but it took us 1 hr to skim through the school. tts how big it was. saw the auditorium, "fishtank", staff rooms, classroom blockS and finally the old building. tt building is so old, its possible to be the property of singapore museum. saw old preserved specimens. CCHS had actual original real preserved specimens in the old bio lab. TONS of specimens. out of all the schools i have been to, its the most authentic bio lab i have seen. hey, teh rest of CCHS ah-lum-nee were watching drumline. its such a cool show. with the determination of the boys and the perseverance of tt main guy. and the music is cool too. i love good music. ok... left CCHS for VS, the last stop of our tour.
sk, hk and wk could have walked faster. by the time we reached VS, it was like already 6.30. no time... have to chiong through almost everything. brought them to the highlight of our school. the magnificent parade square. wow... never seen the parade square for so long... felt so right to be back in VS. benny and i were saying now hk and sk were feeling wrong as it was now a boys school. haha... i think it was true. then brought them around, classrooms, then the parade square staircase, with the terrific school song painted on it. walked around in circles from 3rd floor to 7th to 5th to 3rd to 4th to 3rd then to the first, where we released, unfortunately, that it was LOCKED!!!! the damn shutters were locked and the uncle was nowhere to be found. DAMN MAN!!!! so no choice lorh... had to jump from tt hole... which is somewhere on the 3/4 floor. haiz... nobody thought it was safe, so no choice lorh, had to jump first. then i suggested tt benny go next, as got more people to support him. then hk, then sk, then lastly wk. all sustained minor friction effects. except for me =) being a veteran rox man. went to the circular platform on the pond to take some very wierd photos. then on the way out, hk and sk were like keep on talking about the experience of jumping. lucky it was not my first time. all the schools were memorable in one way or other.
therefore, i conclude that CCHS, TKGS and VS rawk in one way or another. no doubt about it. imagine... if there was no way to jump... what would have happened to us... hm.... stuck in school for one night... cool man... can explore for the whole day. or night, rather... hm... benny said tt it would be nice for CCHS to move into the VS campus. all interconnected. and the school campus looked nice too. VS RAWKS!!!! the rest were amazed at how humongous the band room was too. really... i think it IS very big. much larger than MJC band room. ok... i have spent like 20 mins talking about VS... it is making me feel nostalgic... just as always... how i wish to be back there... ok... COOL... enuff for today. cya peeps!
i swear nothing is wrong with me... i just find tt studying is the best thing to do now. its not like im a freak or anything... ok... met sarah, then went band room to continue studying. yes yes... studying again... until like 12. then went for lunch, then had chem lecture and CLAO. yay! ms tan decided to release us like 10 mins early, so had some time to slack b4 the rest of the batch arrived for recess. went to band room, then "went" for maths lect. i swear i could have learnt... yea rite...
yay! off to CCHS we went. together with benny, hk and sk. in the end, we decided to go to TKGS then to CCHS then to VS. it was like a total tour of the katong and marine parade schools. cool man. at first, it felt so wrong for me to enter TKGS... me and benny were feeling so wrong. it was quite out of place for us to be there at that time. went arund TKGS, saw the band office, band room and the hall. i swear... TKGS looks more grand, with the old oak doors and all. after like exploring the few floors of the circular block, we exited, then waited at the bus stop for wee kiat to arrive.
after wee kiat arrived, we started walking to CCHS. the walk there can kill. literally. oyea, did i mention tt benny was saying how small CCHS was going to be when he saw TKGS? yep. after we entered the front gate, i cant believe how big the campus is... its gigantic. we spent like 30 mins in TKGS, but it took us 1 hr to skim through the school. tts how big it was. saw the auditorium, "fishtank", staff rooms, classroom blockS and finally the old building. tt building is so old, its possible to be the property of singapore museum. saw old preserved specimens. CCHS had actual original real preserved specimens in the old bio lab. TONS of specimens. out of all the schools i have been to, its the most authentic bio lab i have seen. hey, teh rest of CCHS ah-lum-nee were watching drumline. its such a cool show. with the determination of the boys and the perseverance of tt main guy. and the music is cool too. i love good music. ok... left CCHS for VS, the last stop of our tour.
sk, hk and wk could have walked faster. by the time we reached VS, it was like already 6.30. no time... have to chiong through almost everything. brought them to the highlight of our school. the magnificent parade square. wow... never seen the parade square for so long... felt so right to be back in VS. benny and i were saying now hk and sk were feeling wrong as it was now a boys school. haha... i think it was true. then brought them around, classrooms, then the parade square staircase, with the terrific school song painted on it. walked around in circles from 3rd floor to 7th to 5th to 3rd to 4th to 3rd then to the first, where we released, unfortunately, that it was LOCKED!!!! the damn shutters were locked and the uncle was nowhere to be found. DAMN MAN!!!! so no choice lorh... had to jump from tt hole... which is somewhere on the 3/4 floor. haiz... nobody thought it was safe, so no choice lorh, had to jump first. then i suggested tt benny go next, as got more people to support him. then hk, then sk, then lastly wk. all sustained minor friction effects. except for me =) being a veteran rox man. went to the circular platform on the pond to take some very wierd photos. then on the way out, hk and sk were like keep on talking about the experience of jumping. lucky it was not my first time. all the schools were memorable in one way or other.
therefore, i conclude that CCHS, TKGS and VS rawk in one way or another. no doubt about it. imagine... if there was no way to jump... what would have happened to us... hm.... stuck in school for one night... cool man... can explore for the whole day. or night, rather... hm... benny said tt it would be nice for CCHS to move into the VS campus. all interconnected. and the school campus looked nice too. VS RAWKS!!!! the rest were amazed at how humongous the band room was too. really... i think it IS very big. much larger than MJC band room. ok... i have spent like 20 mins talking about VS... it is making me feel nostalgic... just as always... how i wish to be back there... ok... COOL... enuff for today. cya peeps!
Saturday, June 04, 2005
?
Eb major - you are warm and kind, always there for
your friends, who are in turn there for you.
You are content with your confortable life and
what you are currently achieving; if you keep
in this state you will go far.
what key signature are you?
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
Doubt.
today was crap. i hate being the class treasurer... 3 days never record down expenses, then just now frantically trying to find the friggin reciepts. rubbish sia... at least had something to look forward to... dinner with mr tan! pizza. 8 of them. cool. by the time we left school, its like already damn dark, then all the light off. damn scary... then wee juay, justin and vincent decided to run away with yijun and hui koon bags. lol... though i admit that i got shocked by hk screaming in my ear like this suddenly, her reaction when wee juay scared her damn funny lah... ghosts... lol. yay! finally took an exco photo. though it was taken in the dark, still quite nice.
Monday, May 23, 2005
post
Your Birthdate: October 26 |
Your birth on the 26th day of the month (8 energy) modifies your life by increasing your capability to function and succeed in the business world. In this environment you have the skills to work very well with others thanks to the 2 and 6 energies combining in this date. There is a marked increase in organizational, managerial, and administrative abilities. You are efficient and handle money very well. You're ambitious and energetic, while generally remaining cooperative and adaptable. You are conscientious and not afraid of responsibility. Generally sociable and diplomatic, you tend to use persuasion rather than force. You have a wonderful combination of being good at both the broad strokes and the fine detail; good at starting and continuing. This birthday is practical and realistic, often seeking material satisfaction. |
hm... may be tt is why im class treasurer.. maybe tts why im also in the class comm...
Sunday, May 22, 2005
my post
haiz... finally... PW is also going to be integrated into my blog. I am going to put my I&R portion of PW into this place. starting next week. YAY!!! finally... my PI has been accepted. after 2000 yrs. i now know tt it is not easy to think of something so out of the box. so i went with something simple. and it got accepted. heng. therefore, my new way of of life. if you think outside the box, everybody else is doing it, so you end up thinking inside the box. so if you think inside the box to begin with, you end up thinking outside the box. =)
hai... the yr 2s have left... so sad lah... friday when joel said "you are dismissed." wah... somehow, it felt like a blow... really ah... i will miss the section. I shall not say too many things about wat happened.... i may just go on and on and on and on and on. i would just like to say how i would like to turn back time to at least 3 months ago... haiz.... oyea... the section now has two more new people. both from hai sing. wonder if they are good. hope they are... i aint very good to begin with... need strong players.
hai... the yr 2s have left... so sad lah... friday when joel said "you are dismissed." wah... somehow, it felt like a blow... really ah... i will miss the section. I shall not say too many things about wat happened.... i may just go on and on and on and on and on. i would just like to say how i would like to turn back time to at least 3 months ago... haiz.... oyea... the section now has two more new people. both from hai sing. wonder if they are good. hope they are... i aint very good to begin with... need strong players.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
life
this week has been killing me... tutorials, tutorials, assignments, all lagging behind due to SYF. the weather is killing me, together with academics. i swear all this will kill me by mid years... then no need to take =รพ yaya... band rox man... trying very hard to play hanover festival. its not easy. also, need to buy present for 11 pple... 1 bdae present and 10 presents for seniors. (9 possibly). but still, the amount is humongous. and i have to pay for everything. woot... this rocks. damn man... im so confused... so many things... so little time to settle...
anyways, found this written in one of the E-block classes. people can be like so bored during tutorials...
my heart was broken
i sew it shut
from the rest of the world
i tore open my heart
to feel
man.. tt guy must be like damn bored...
anyways, found this written in one of the E-block classes. people can be like so bored during tutorials...
my heart was broken
i sew it shut
from the rest of the world
i tore open my heart
to feel
man.. tt guy must be like damn bored...
Thursday, May 05, 2005
SYF results
time to look on the brighter side of life... SYF results. of course, as expected, meridian got a gold... here are the rest of the results. In order of appearence.
ACJC - Gold
HCI - Silver
NYJC - Silver
MJC - GOLD!!!! *screams*
JJC - Silver
PJC - Gold
NJC - Gold with Honours
VJC - Gold
TPJC - Gold
RJC - Gold *stunned*
SRJC - Silver
SAJC - Gold with Honours *Damn*
YJC - Bronze
CJC - Gold
TJC - Gold with Honours
AJC - Silver
so here it is... over... the last note of invictus rang out in SCH, marking the end of the first SYF for MJC. 2 years down the road... dont know what to expect. some of the results were rather unexpected... like RJC getting Gold... even worse... something-JC got gold with honours... sad case...never mind. MJC did rather well for a SYF 1st timer... GO FOR IT MJC!!! hope we get a half day =)
ACJC - Gold
HCI - Silver
NYJC - Silver
MJC - GOLD!!!! *screams*
JJC - Silver
PJC - Gold
NJC - Gold with Honours
VJC - Gold
TPJC - Gold
RJC - Gold *stunned*
SRJC - Silver
SAJC - Gold with Honours *Damn*
YJC - Bronze
CJC - Gold
TJC - Gold with Honours
AJC - Silver
so here it is... over... the last note of invictus rang out in SCH, marking the end of the first SYF for MJC. 2 years down the road... dont know what to expect. some of the results were rather unexpected... like RJC getting Gold... even worse... something-JC got gold with honours... sad case...never mind. MJC did rather well for a SYF 1st timer... GO FOR IT MJC!!! hope we get a half day =)
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