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Friday, November 23, 2007
whoo... finally... i'm back from rockhampton, queensland, australia. Overall, i felt that it was a very good experience, learning very important and hard lessons while taking in the sights and sounds of the australian outback. Theres one thing that bugs me and that is how australians allow the shops to close by evening every day. by 9pm, all the shops would be closed and there is almost no cars on the streets. maybe its just because rockhampton is such a small town or is it a countrywide thing? i must say that life there is so much friendlier and laid back than the fast-paced life in singapore. over here we rush from place to place and complain if the bus doesnt come while in australia the bus only comes once every 45mins. random people on the streets just greet you and u feel so weird, but being the nice person i am, i always greeted back. well, there is really too much that happened there so i wont carry on anymore about my wallaby trip. anyway, half of it is confidential haha.
anyway, as i was going there, i watched the movie Paprika and when i came back, i watched ghost in the shell. these 2 movies are good, anyone who is interested in anime should go watch them. but that isnt really the point. the main point in those 2 movies are the blur between wat is real and fake portrayed in both movies. it got me thinking for quite a bit. i mean, everybody has their own night-time dreams. and people do say that the dreams you have are like,projections into the future. I for one would love to see that happen but sometimes, believing in them just leads to greater disappointment and ultimately sadness, depression, whatever. what happens in our dreams is just wat it is? a dream? can it be reality? although people always say believe in your dreams, but from what i have seen the past 2 years, believing in them is of no use. can what we dream be a reality? i really hope so. yea im not really making any sense here... incoherent thoughts and a thirst for sleep makes me crazy.
anyway, as i was going there, i watched the movie Paprika and when i came back, i watched ghost in the shell. these 2 movies are good, anyone who is interested in anime should go watch them. but that isnt really the point. the main point in those 2 movies are the blur between wat is real and fake portrayed in both movies. it got me thinking for quite a bit. i mean, everybody has their own night-time dreams. and people do say that the dreams you have are like,projections into the future. I for one would love to see that happen but sometimes, believing in them just leads to greater disappointment and ultimately sadness, depression, whatever. what happens in our dreams is just wat it is? a dream? can it be reality? although people always say believe in your dreams, but from what i have seen the past 2 years, believing in them is of no use. can what we dream be a reality? i really hope so. yea im not really making any sense here... incoherent thoughts and a thirst for sleep makes me crazy.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Sunset. The end of a day has come and the night beckons. However, I am powerless to stop this transition and at the end, I still embrace the night into my ams.
I think this can describe my trip to australia tomorrow. I cant stop it, yet I am willing to accept it as part of my NS life and make the best of it. Wallaby awaits, yet I cant wait to be back from that place. In my opinion, thinking of the end before it even starts is just the worst thing that can be done. I should really stop thinking so much about the end. Theres always a light at the end of the tunnel(however it might be an oncoming truck). hope its not the 2nd case. well, to all my friends out there, Good Bye and I'll be back on the 23rd!
and this message goes out to BRC 2nd batch... thanks for the great bday present haha.. i really like it! haha... if only now i have a 2x2 or 5x5 to complete my rubik collection haha
Saturday, October 20, 2007
starting from where we left off the last time, kevin was captured by the redland armed forces and subsequently he was brought to their POW camp. Over there, many events unfolded, one after another and ended up with kevin being rescued. However, lets not get too carried away and lets see what happened to kevin during his time in the camp.
Kevin had already been travelling for quite some time on the enemy's transport but as he was forced to keep his head down, he had absolutely no idea where he was going. After travelling for hours, the transporter finally stopped. As kevin and the rest were unloaded off the transporter, their personal items were confiscated and labelled accordingly. As their heads were still down, they had no idea who was beside, behind or even in front of them. All Kevin could see was the gravel and the stone path they were walking on. The whole group was then ushered to an open field were they had their first "introduction" to the redland armed forces.
"From now on, all of you will be addressed as comrades and you will reply with "Sir, yes sir." Do you understand me?"
"SIR YES SIR"
"Good. Comrades, welcome to Redland holiday camp. I hope your stay here will be fruitful and enriching. Due to the abundance of bunks here, I hope that you will join us so that you can fully use the facilities here. Do all of you want to join the redland forces?"
"SIR NO SIR"
"Very good. Lets see what will change in the next few hours."
And from there, it began. All of them were asked to stay in various stress positions while they were being processed. Things included kneeling down with their hands high in the air or simply bending down till their backs hurt. As expected, there were many enemies all around, hence nobody could cheat their way through. Also, there was the enemy sergeant who was speaking to them.
"Who you all think you are? You stupid idiots. F***ing piece of shit. Worse than shit. All of you are so inferior, you even have to call a small fry like me SIR. All of you are so inferior that all of you are not allowed to even look at me. Stupid idiots."
"Redland is superior! We captured the whole platoon in just 12 seconds. Blueland is stupid and lousy. Join Redland!"
And so it continued. On and on, this point was drilled into everybody's mind while all of them were still in their stress positions. However, kevin remained strong and he lasted through the initial part. Who knew that it was just the beginning. "Corporal Kevin," someone souted. As he acknowledged, a hand came and pulled him away from the rest of the group. He was being processed.
As he was processed, vital information such as his vocation and appointment was taken down while his hands were cable-tied and himself blindfolded.
"Comrade, from now onwards, you will not have your name anymore. You will now be known as POW 108. Do you understand me?"
"sir yes sir"
"good. so can you tell me some information about your mission?"
"sir no sir"
"never mind. GUARD! Bring him to join the rest. We'll deal with him later."
To Be Continued......
*Note: FYI, the above happened to me during my course. most of the dialogue is the closest i can remember to wat happened to me. All i can say is that it was the worse time of my life and the only time when i felt that my mind was about to break. yes it was that bad. anyway, till next time then...
Kevin had already been travelling for quite some time on the enemy's transport but as he was forced to keep his head down, he had absolutely no idea where he was going. After travelling for hours, the transporter finally stopped. As kevin and the rest were unloaded off the transporter, their personal items were confiscated and labelled accordingly. As their heads were still down, they had no idea who was beside, behind or even in front of them. All Kevin could see was the gravel and the stone path they were walking on. The whole group was then ushered to an open field were they had their first "introduction" to the redland armed forces.
"From now on, all of you will be addressed as comrades and you will reply with "Sir, yes sir." Do you understand me?"
"SIR YES SIR"
"Good. Comrades, welcome to Redland holiday camp. I hope your stay here will be fruitful and enriching. Due to the abundance of bunks here, I hope that you will join us so that you can fully use the facilities here. Do all of you want to join the redland forces?"
"SIR NO SIR"
"Very good. Lets see what will change in the next few hours."
And from there, it began. All of them were asked to stay in various stress positions while they were being processed. Things included kneeling down with their hands high in the air or simply bending down till their backs hurt. As expected, there were many enemies all around, hence nobody could cheat their way through. Also, there was the enemy sergeant who was speaking to them.
"Who you all think you are? You stupid idiots. F***ing piece of shit. Worse than shit. All of you are so inferior, you even have to call a small fry like me SIR. All of you are so inferior that all of you are not allowed to even look at me. Stupid idiots."
"Redland is superior! We captured the whole platoon in just 12 seconds. Blueland is stupid and lousy. Join Redland!"
And so it continued. On and on, this point was drilled into everybody's mind while all of them were still in their stress positions. However, kevin remained strong and he lasted through the initial part. Who knew that it was just the beginning. "Corporal Kevin," someone souted. As he acknowledged, a hand came and pulled him away from the rest of the group. He was being processed.
As he was processed, vital information such as his vocation and appointment was taken down while his hands were cable-tied and himself blindfolded.
"Comrade, from now onwards, you will not have your name anymore. You will now be known as POW 108. Do you understand me?"
"sir yes sir"
"good. so can you tell me some information about your mission?"
"sir no sir"
"never mind. GUARD! Bring him to join the rest. We'll deal with him later."
To Be Continued......
*Note: FYI, the above happened to me during my course. most of the dialogue is the closest i can remember to wat happened to me. All i can say is that it was the worse time of my life and the only time when i felt that my mind was about to break. yes it was that bad. anyway, till next time then...
Saturday, October 06, 2007
Today, I shall tell the story of a war veteran, corporal kevin. for simplicity sake, kevin is from blueland and the enemy he fights is from a place called redland. the place where everything takes place is goldenland.
Kevin had been in the jungle for days, surveying the enemy as they went past and infiltrating enemy headquaters. "This is just an excercise... This is just an excercise," he thought. In actual fact, it was already the climax of an armed conflict between the blueland and redland armed forces. Being deep in enemy territory meant many things. It meant that he was all alone out there, together with his team of 4 and it also meant that any mistake could cost him his life. little did he know what was waiting in store for him. As the mission was coming to an end, Kevin was extra careful not to make any mistakes and so far, all went well. hours later, as a voice came over the radio, Kevin was very happy to hear it as it meant that he was going home.
After returning to base camp, Kevin was told that the transport for him to return had been ambushed by enemy forces and hence, it would be running late. As he had very little sleep the past few days, kevin took the chance to sleep and as soon as his head touched the ground, he was already in a deep sleep. This was when the horror began. All of a sudden, gunfire was ringing all around him. People around him were running and many were already on the ground, dead. "This is the redland forces! Throw down your weapons and squat down if you do not wish to be killed," somebody was shouting. Immediately, the other teams which had returnd together with kevin did as thevoice asked. As the enemy approached the clearing, it became clear what had happened. while they were sleeping, the enemy had discovered their headquarters and launched an assault on it. Everybody else, kevin thought, has been killed. And so Kevin, the mighty warrior of blueland, had been captured by redland. Who knows what was in store for him.
End of part 1. haha... when i'm thinking clearer, i'll continue part 2 haha. had so little sleep this week, with this week being the most mentally and physically tiring of my whole course. well, till next time then!
Kevin had been in the jungle for days, surveying the enemy as they went past and infiltrating enemy headquaters. "This is just an excercise... This is just an excercise," he thought. In actual fact, it was already the climax of an armed conflict between the blueland and redland armed forces. Being deep in enemy territory meant many things. It meant that he was all alone out there, together with his team of 4 and it also meant that any mistake could cost him his life. little did he know what was waiting in store for him. As the mission was coming to an end, Kevin was extra careful not to make any mistakes and so far, all went well. hours later, as a voice came over the radio, Kevin was very happy to hear it as it meant that he was going home.
After returning to base camp, Kevin was told that the transport for him to return had been ambushed by enemy forces and hence, it would be running late. As he had very little sleep the past few days, kevin took the chance to sleep and as soon as his head touched the ground, he was already in a deep sleep. This was when the horror began. All of a sudden, gunfire was ringing all around him. People around him were running and many were already on the ground, dead. "This is the redland forces! Throw down your weapons and squat down if you do not wish to be killed," somebody was shouting. Immediately, the other teams which had returnd together with kevin did as thevoice asked. As the enemy approached the clearing, it became clear what had happened. while they were sleeping, the enemy had discovered their headquarters and launched an assault on it. Everybody else, kevin thought, has been killed. And so Kevin, the mighty warrior of blueland, had been captured by redland. Who knows what was in store for him.
End of part 1. haha... when i'm thinking clearer, i'll continue part 2 haha. had so little sleep this week, with this week being the most mentally and physically tiring of my whole course. well, till next time then!
Sunday, September 16, 2007
A Thousand Nights by Aqua Timez(ending of Bleach: Memories of Nobody)
Certain lines in this song is somewhat the closest reflection to how I'm feeling right now. Actually, to be truthful, its almost the whole song. Although it's in japanese, the english translation says it all.
"I want you to love me, but I dont think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
As I looked at the road I'd traveled and the path ahead,my eyes were filled with cowardice
I wanted to look into your eyes, but was afraid I wouldn't be honest
I didn't want to know that you didn't love me and live the rest of my days alone
That day, I kept on loving you without getting hurt
I have to let you know"I want you to love me, but I don't think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'll say "I love you" to the one I love
Even if my feelings aren't returned, I can say "I love you" to the one I love
And that's the most beautiful thing in the world
Every moment that passes is simply making me think about this. Just what did i do that made things like this? My sincerity? Or is it my attitude and personality/character? Or is it im just simply hated. as much as I dont want to think about the last point, it always pops up once in a while. and then, "WHY?" I ask myself, though I do not have the answer for it. I have always thought of trying again, time after time after time. But then it's just a thought, never a reality. After that fateful day, I never dared again. It seems like the courage I had for that moment shrivelled up completely.
Just exactly what is Love?
Yet another day of a deluded and lovesick emotional has passed.
Certain lines in this song is somewhat the closest reflection to how I'm feeling right now. Actually, to be truthful, its almost the whole song. Although it's in japanese, the english translation says it all.
"I want you to love me, but I dont think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
As I looked at the road I'd traveled and the path ahead,my eyes were filled with cowardice
I wanted to look into your eyes, but was afraid I wouldn't be honest
I didn't want to know that you didn't love me and live the rest of my days alone
That day, I kept on loving you without getting hurt
I have to let you know"I want you to love me, but I don't think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'll say "I love you" to the one I love
Even if my feelings aren't returned, I can say "I love you" to the one I love
And that's the most beautiful thing in the world
Every moment that passes is simply making me think about this. Just what did i do that made things like this? My sincerity? Or is it my attitude and personality/character? Or is it im just simply hated. as much as I dont want to think about the last point, it always pops up once in a while. and then, "WHY?" I ask myself, though I do not have the answer for it. I have always thought of trying again, time after time after time. But then it's just a thought, never a reality. After that fateful day, I never dared again. It seems like the courage I had for that moment shrivelled up completely.
Just exactly what is Love?
Yet another day of a deluded and lovesick emotional has passed.
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