hello! It has been a very long time since i blogged.
yeah, time flies, and it waits for no man. 3/4 of the year is gone.
well.. to sum up these few months, i've not been living very good.
An unlucky year indeed!
my results are bad.
no matter how hard i try, it's still that bad. W-H-Y?
Anyway, it's no point thinking about what i did, or what i should have done.
Life still carries on no matter what. So, just think about what i can do.
Sigh..
Then, my Sumsung phone was spoiled.
Subsequently, Sony Ericson (borrowed from younger brother) spoilt.
Thereafter, i bought a new Nokia E72, which was then lost in girl's toilet. It was only used for 3 weeks! Not only that, the person who stole my phone hacked into my facebook account. So, i decided to file for a police report, when deep inside my heart, i knew that a lost phone can never be tracked back. And now, I'm using a super antique Nokia phone. Pitty uh? Sigh..
Seriously, I really lost hope for myself.
WHY do all these bad circumstances keep happening to me??
Be it in school, exams, presentations, assignments, or work.
It's a blurry future for me. I don't think I can excel in this line of work, but what can I do? How i wish i can restart my life! Wouldn't it be good? Well, i actually wish to shut down my life, to reformat everything just like a computer, to delete some files, to save good memories in the hard disk. hah!
Today, i visited malaysia with my cousin. It's been really relaxing there. Hahas! Malaysia Getaway!! We watched "The Last Airbender". There's a phrase: "Everyone lives for a reason, and we've to find that reason". So, what is that reason i live for? From young, we learned to study hard to obtain a certificate; to grow up from a child to adolescent to young adult and to adult; and thus to earn money for a living; and to elaborate more, to settle down and start a family. The cycle continues.
Sometimes, I feel that dream is hard to achieve. The one in our mind that we've been dreaming of everyday will never come true (be it to earn alot alot and alot of money or to dream to become a ... ...). That is just our subconscious mind that drives us to think about it over and over again, which in short, many call it "Day-Dreaming". Hahas!
Anyway, it's just yet another emo day. People are fickle-minded. Sometimes when we're in situation A, we wished to be in situation B, and vice versa. Or rather, people are never satisfied with our own life, it's like a thirst that is never quenched, a hunger that is never satisfied. Sometimes, we sympathized with the people living in poorer countries, yet, we're complaining our life here. I know that "CONTENTMENT" is a great virtue which we all should learn and practice it. Yet, it is the situation now that we are at, the society that we are in now that drives us even more wanting to get the better ones. People tend to regret for what they did or what they should have done, but there isn't "regretting pills" to consume to rewind the time to travel back. The above sound so contradicting, but it is true, isn't it?
Even though i don't like my life now, what can i do? How can i brighten up my life? There are many different ways we can do to add colours into our life. For me, at least I have friends around me who will accompany me through my life journey, who will add colours to my life, who will support me, who will lend me their helping hands whenever i needed them, who comfort me when i am down, who send their greetings to me when u're overseas (yes, atwl is you), who always lend me your listening ear and listening eye via msn, who remembers my birthday every year and who celebrates my birthday for me every year. I'm thankful for the life that I'm living now, for the family i have, for the friends i have. Love you all! I will keep every moment, every memory, and every bits of love in my heart.
p/s: THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU, MY FRIENDS!
