I am just me..

I am just a cry baby.. from young.. i would cry when my dad or mum just raise their voice at me.. havent even get canning already start crying as if i got the worse canning...

now even when i watch tv when the show get to emotional or storyline get too down i will cry...

but now i am try get tough coz not everyone like to see tears..

but i feel crying do make me feel better most of the time.. just let me be. it is just me... why cant i be myself???well i just cried watching a sad show.. heehee...

Happy new yr!

Happy new Yr everyone..

Hope my love ones and friends will have a good 2010 ahead..

lots of love
Qi

Merry Xmas...

It is the season of giving and this year i do not have the time to go xmas shopping... just got some gifts for my best friends family.... hehe.. anyway i do wish all a merry xmas with lots of joy n love..

Cheers
Qi

expensive month..

haha.. this month i am going broke.. hahaha..

i have 3 weddings to attend... one down last sat and one tonight and one on christmas day.. and it is the month of giving.. so i spend some on xmas gifts.. haha..

updates last week.. i was down with gastric flu.. not sure who i got it from.. but me and another colleague got it.. he was down on wed lunch and me on wed night.. i went to the toilet at least 10 times on wed night.... my Korean boss invited us to his house on fri for xmas get together.. so i bought him some royce chocolate.... I bought ryan myself as he invited family.. but Chris cant make it as he had xmas dinner also.....

Sat i went to ivan's wedding (ex-colleague) and it was great meeting some friends.. we had some discussion abt kids and motherhood.. haha.. Tonight is Mich wedding.. and Zhen is busy helping her.. we have decided to bring ryan to the dinner but this morning mummy say she can handle so let see how.. hee..

Camping over at mummy place..

This whole week, Ryan, Ping (our little hamster) and me will be camping over at my parents place.. Chris is off to Korea with his company colleauges.. it is a biz trip but more for fun.. so he is off yesterday.. and as usual when he is away we will be camping over..

We bought Ping along as this time unlike when Chris is in camp, he will pop home once in a while to feed him and relax at home.. thus we hv to bring him along.. haha.. Nicky and Ryan keep going to his cage to bang bang.. and i guess we got no choice.. so sorry to scare you ping..

I will be driving to work this time as well.. well it means that i can wake up later as driving only takes 10 mins to reach my office.. hehehe.. wat an enjoyment.. haha..

some update on last weekend, we were at my sister in law place celebrating Chris niece birthday.. it was just a mini buffet with family.. Ryan is kind of cranky as he didnt get enuff sleep as my cousin was at my mummy place for visit.. so most of the time he wans me to carry.. We bought a little study table for Vernice hopefully she will like it and put to good use.. :)

Ryan birthday is slightly more than a month away.. i need to plan plan plan.. haha.. guess not inviting too many pple.. family itself i know my aunties and cousins itself i have alot.. so i am not going to invite too many friends.. :P anyway i find that being so young, they will not appreciate like hving lots of friends around..

I have got the design of the cake in mind.. the rest like the buffet and stuff need to get the guest list ready first.. :)

it finally happen..

Something i dread finally happen..

i open my hand to carry Ryan.. he didnt want me.. he wanted her instead.. break my heart..

He wanked when i carried him over.. she toook him back. i was so upset.. felt really bad..

she see him every day more than me.. she bath him and play with him more than me.. i dun blame him.. but myself.. felt my heart break into thousand and million pieces... what is worse.. everytime i spend my time with him, she also want to be involve.. when she is mopping the floor and me in the room playing with him, she will call him.. when he is in the car, she will try to play peek a boo behind with him and get his attention... when he is in my arms, she will call out to him to wave at him hello.. sigh... when in the lift, she repeat what i say to him.. who is the mother...i think too much.. but what can i do.. i need to work... how i wish i can take care of him myself...

will try not to think abt it.. back to work..

tired..

this week i am really tired.. shhshh.... i doze off slightly when i work.. i really cant help it..

 

Lucky i am seated in a room where there is me and another gal.. who is back facing me.. hehe.. so i hope no one spotted me.. heehee

 

Ryan is down with flu.. and as mummy night like this is hell.. cant sleep well when he is not..

 

i hope he will get better. it is long weekend and we are fetching Ben from airport tonight!!

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Regards
Meiqi