The all consuming anger is gone now. Instead, it's replaced by a sense of despair and defeat.

Don't tell me you're perpetually tired; it's your choice to stop going for those trainings.
Don't tell me it's CNY blues, because why am I not affected then?
Don't tell me it's relationship troubles, because I'm in the same shit as well.

Do I complain, do I whine? Do I let it affect my assignments, my 50% group assignment?


I got this idiot for my 50% group assignment, and I've got no words to describe him. He has the guts to tell me that he's tired not because of school assignments, but because of other commitments!

Okay, maybe I'm not being understanding. Alright, then explain how he doesn't even read the assignment instructions. I need sets of 4 pictures, I get 1. I need sets of 4 pictures with an orientation/complication/ resolution, I get pictures with none. I even got sets of 5-6 pictures!

Pictures will be fine once it's edited? Who's gonna do the editing? Me? Screw yourself please.

When pushed, you throw me 27 picture sets and tell me that at least 3 should be able to meet those criterion? Hmm. Where's that brain of yours that's supposed to filter them? Am I the sole person in charge? I'm a student as well, for god's sake!

I don't want quantity, I want quality.

I don't care if you've got friends everywhere, I want to see you work. Your friends aren't in my group, they aren't gonna help me maximize my 50%.

I don't care what other nonsense you have in your life. Prioritize. You're already 30++ years old, jerk ass, and perhaps being the sad, overly dependent person that you are, you've already given up on your life. That's perfectly fine, for it's your life choice. Just...

Don't sabotage a young girl's 50%.

You know what, I don't usually promise myself anything, but this I promise:

When I start working, I will allocate time to myself. NOTHING shall take away my 'me' time.
I will still travel and walk bare-footed on beaches.
I will still leave behind everything when I travel.
I will turn on the air plane mode on all electronic devices during this period!

Remember this, future Marie; or die with regrets.

>=(

I miss walking barefooted; warm sand trickling through my toes.
I miss the breeze, the sound of waves crashing against the rocks.
I miss being laid back.

over here, I get irritated at everything.
the slow lift; everybody walking slower than me; the long waiting time.

Suffered a mini heart attack today during my driving lesson. I was happily driving when suddenly, there was a bus in my path, not the rear of the bus, but the front!

Apart from my heart missing several beats, many thoughts ran through my mind. Did I drive into the wrong lane? Were we gonna collide? Why is the bus there! Is the bus perhaps not there, and I'm seeing things?

Thank god for my instructor, who assured me that I wasn't seeing things, and calmed me down. But seriously, the bus appeared from nowhere!

There is only one conclusion from this experience - I am a potential roadkill D:

Was on the train yesterday when this sudden thought came into my mind:

Do we pay to be beautiful because it pays to be beautiful?

Let's not talk about drastic surgeries, but just on cosmetics itself, because surgeries are scary. Be it spending on makeup to create a look that looks as if we aren't wearing any, or makeup fit for Halloween, we generally will pay for cosmetic at various stages of our lives.

So why do we folk out so much and spend so much time and effort to doll ourselves up? Does society reward pretty people?

Ah, things you think of when you're troubled, bored and on the train!

I love my dictionary. It has both AmE and BrE transcription!

why this makes me love it, or why it makes me happy; idk. side effect of exams? :/

please don't let it happen again.