The Discipline Of Fire And Demise...

Hm... I believe that you don't have to use those kinda "methods" to tarnish my name. Well, you can try all you want. But all those who REALLY know me (like Eugene's mum), they'll definitely give you a tight slap. So why not this. You come and talk to me in my face?

Don't worry. The next time i see YOU, be ready.

If you think you're a "Good" human, come clarify things with me. And i plan on doing so. So, better pray hard enough, that you don't have to bump into me. Good luck. =)

I can't believe someone so OLD would do such CHILDISH things. Haha... Wanna print this post? Please do, and maybe you can compile all my posts into a book for me. HAHA!!!

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Good! Never would i expect YOU to read my blog. Well, here's for you to add on to what you wanna tell your mum. Its really a pleasant surprise to me, that you read my blog. Good...

1. Go be your mummy's girl despite your age. You're what, 22? Hm... You just don't know that your mum dotes on you more. Yet you're being so rebellious. Gosh. You're worse that i thought. Your mum has her flaws, yes. But aren't you worse when you don't appreciate what others have done for you?

2. Go intro your mum to my blog. Even better, get her to read it. Maybe you two can just have some bonding-discussion about how bad a person i am. Remember what i told you before. I know myself better than anyone else. I don't have to answer to ANYONE, not even to charmaine or my granddad. If you think i'm a bad person, so be it. =)

3. I hope you get the idea when i saw you just now, and acted like i don't know you. I hope you heard the part where i said to your sis "No... Why do i have to greet her?"

4. I've seen your true colours after all these months. I tell you, i'm disappointed. TOTAL DISAPPOINTMENT.

5. Hi auntie, again. You thought i was bumming around? Oh maybe you can also look at your beloved daughter at the same time. I think she "bums" around more than i do. At least i know, i have a direction in life. Does she? Haha...

6. Don't comment on others when you yourself are not good enough. Think you're good? =)

7. You're too fake to be my friend.

8. Inconsiderate. Making helluva noise at midnight. Even if you ARE NOT WORKING IN THE DAY, your sis and your mum have to get their rest.

9. Last but not least, enjoy reading my blog. =D

Wow how long as it been?! Months??? Hm...

Well, NS in SCDF sucks. Really. Cock-ups everywhere. First, i got my promotion from PTE to LCP delayed. Not my fault. The unit i was in (SRB), they cocked it up. Ok nevermind. Now, another one. KNN... There's also this system as well. And the system screwed my promotion up. I don't care. I'm gonna really fight for my promotion in 3 months time. Just to get my extra stripe on my shoulders, and the extra allowance. Fuck.

Love life's been great. There are bound to be ups and downs, no doubt. Well, the ups are cool, and the downs make us understand each other right? It also adds "spice" to the relationship (or thats what i believe). Finally i got someone who sorta understands me and not rant at me being myself. I'm happy about it. Though its not a roller-coaster kinda ride, i still like it simple and sweet.

And yeah... I'm still left with 9 months of service. I can't even smell it! Hm i can only say, that actually time passed pretty fast. Its already 6 months since i've been posted to my current workplace, even though i really miss ops. Another 9 more months, and i can just get out of this "Can't smoke in uniform" kinda shit.

Been missing my friends from NAFA. Lets meet up soon ok? Oh ya speaking of which, our dear big sis, Miss Park Hye Yung, is getting married. When we were still studying together, she kept asking "Sigh... When is my turn to have a boyfriend?". But woah... Now she's getting married! You have our best wishes Yung!!!! I hope to be able to meet all of you soon!

I've also been taking driving lessons (Private) for the past few months. Everything's going well, actually better than i expected. And TP's on the 23rd of December. Yeah... Its coming real soon. Hope i can pass on first attempt. Well, i passed my BTT on the 3rd attempt, and FTT on the 2nd. So mathematically speaking, i should pass my TP on the 1st! Haha... What a logic.

Well thats it for now. I shall try to post as much as possible. And perhaps in the next post, i'll put up the pics that my girl and i took at the HortPark along Alexandra Rd. Cool place to go jiwang-jiwang/Pak Tor/Dating!

Here's a song dedicated to (you know who you are, even though you don't read my blog.) With that, i'll end it with a big "Fuck You".

This song, is by Emperor. Its called "Curse you all men!"

Curse you all men
Whose coil is strong
I recognise the sparrows heart
Beneath the theatre of misery
Disbelievers shalt by dawn
Be forced
To forever mourn

Curse you all men
The resent my empire
Cause I have risen again
At war this time
The truth I speak
Is your decease
My word is your defeat

And thou shalt not
Be able to hide anymore
The prophecy will
Conquer at last
Your sense of reality
With mission to kill
The theatre of misery

He has risen again
Armed with the source of sin
And as humans shalt fade
He shalt inherit their strength
Men of the damned
You will reluctantly
Secure his eternal victory

Yes, you are indeed the few;
I am the one

Whats wrong with you fuckheads?! Seriously...

First came this lady, who apparently is her mum. She's a catholic, in fact her whole family is. Her mum can actually JUDGE ME just cos of one piercing, and also be biased against my girl and me. Are you a fucking real catholic? Or just some fucking masquerade that you create?

"Oh i'm so holy... i do good deeds... I'm a catholic..."

Thats what you are infront of your friends/people around you? The sad fact is, you are who you are at home, when the "lights are out". Contradiction. You should actually behave MORE at home, cos your house is the home of Jesus too, isn't it? Lousy... You lousy catholic. You bring shame to the name "Catholic". You are one of the reason why there are free-thinkers/Atheists in this world. Go look in the mirror, and reflect what you have done. So much for a catholic huh... *Spit saliva* PUI!

The second one, her sis. Haha... Now thats a joke eh? I was the one who helped her when she faced problems with clmt. I was the one who sat beside her for hours just to talk to her, and explain how things work in a relationship. I was the one who made her understand clmt more. But that ungrateful couple... Worse off than even my dogs. You wanna bite the feeding hand? No more for you! You WERE my friend. And clmt, you're one hell of a lousy human as well, you know? I was the one who helped your girl to talk things out with you. If weren't for me, you might not even be happy now. All you can do now is be hostile towards me. You ungrateful old dog.

Last but NOT LEAST, my "friends", eh? Friends? Hm... Nathaniel Cher, you bloody cancer-struck-foot-fetished-sick bastard. What kinda fucked up comment is that? "Facebook don't lie..." Ya fuck right. It was US that purposely put the "in a relationship with (whosoever)" ok dumbass. I guess the therapy burnt your brain cells too huh. Curse you....

No... CURSE YOU ALL.

Yesterday was good. Went to the beach with her. I used to think that going to a beach with my girl alone would be boring, but she proved me sooooo wrong. Gosh. Never expected it to be so fun. Well, i shall just keep the details to myself since its our world, right baby? Haha... All in all, yesterday will be one of the days that i'll remember for the rest of my life.

Well baby, this is for you...

I love you because...

- You give me a reason to smile everytime.

- Your happiness and cheerfulness grows onto me, making me happy.

- We share the same ideology, which makes us understand each other's points even without having to explain it all. This, makes me feel as if we've been together for so long.

- You are so different from the typical jane out there. I truly love you for who you are, and i'm proud of you being mine.

- You make sweet comments whenever i'm feeling negative about my day, which soothes my emotion and reminds me that you love me.

- You make me wanna bite on your tongue so gently everytime we kiss.

- You're so irresistable, always so sweet and yet devilish at times.

- You accept me for who i am, even though i have my flaws.

- We're so different, yet so similar.

- You're such a darling to me, so much that i know i can set dreams with you.

- Everytime you touch me, you make me feel that i belong to you.

- You prove me wrong, especially when i thought i was negative about certain things.

- You're the sweetest thing i can ever have.

Baby, with all these, i love you. And yes, i want to be your everything. =)

It all happened on March 15th...

I saw someone familiar yet so distant when i was looking for my friends at the crowd outside zouk. Yes it was some event party that night. She shouted my name as she saw me from her queue... I turned and looked. Was pretty surprised to see her there, even though i know that she does go clubbing. We exchanged numbers, just so that she could call me if there's anything. Well, cos she's my good friend's sis... So ya. Just wanted her to be safe.

Bumped into her again in the club. Asked her if she wanted to dance together, she agreed. So we did.

It was ever since that night, that we started talking/smsing. Went out to chill together, out on dates until...

I grew more and more addicted to her company. Just so much that i realised i started missing her... And as i guessed, i fell for her so subtly. Hid my feelings from her and everyone, cos i didn't know if she could accept me, and that ya.... Cos of other personal reasons.

A few days after that... We were out chilling alone. Just when she sort of... Started talking about how we feel for each other. The truth is, we feel the same for each other, but never dared to express or confess it. Cos we were afraid that we might just reject each other and whatsoever... Gosh...

A few weeks have past. As days go by, we realised how similar we are in terms of our beliefs and all. It feels great. Hardly have i actually meet people who share the same idealogy as me. Haha... Interesting.

Ah long story short... We're together now. I guess she's sweet enough to have brought back the faith in me that i once lost. Never did i expect that i would fall for her, cos things looked so impossible at first. She's now, my baby. =)