Thursday, April 23, 2009
[*_you dont love me_*]
i should'nt have...
you should'nt have...
we are not...
you did'nt...
i did'nt...
we are just...
from the start,
its all...
we should'nt even...
because we are...
we are too...
we are too...
we thought we are...
but we are...
in the end nothing seems...
our...
has to...
and now i should'nt have loved you
neither should you loved me
everything is all lies
neither should we go to the next step that fast
actions speaks louder than words
you want me to be there for you, but you are not there
its seems like as if
everything is always about you
and that's when i finally realize
you don't love me
it doesn't matter what you say
cus love dont do you that way
dont try to hide it
u cant deny it
so there's no reason to stay
cus you don't love me
right now i feel so
good about myself
got over you
now im good with anything else
there'll be no more waitin for you
wonderin what u gonna do
im gonna be just fine by myself
there'll be no more cryin at night
dont worry im alright
im just fine with knowin
you dont love me
My Rants | 5:01 PM
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
[*_PICtures_*]
Ladies and gentlemen
Presenting you PICTURES!
On the fifth of april, 2009. Went out to town with Uni to camwhore and basically camwhore.





Of course, Graduation Ceremony...wee, I'm officially a DIPLOMA HOLDER...
i was there till 5pm...finding for victims to take picture with. in the end, i am exhausted. After which, we went to eat, my treat! =)
next day, 09.04.09, went out and meet khad, =D


on the 10.04.09, was having a good time with april, shurin and haira...as it was APRIL's birthday party...a mini celebration...HAPPY 21st!...cant wait to meet again!


and of course, on the 11th, went out with the weblog excos to Kampung Buangkok and marina barrage to celebrate fai fai's belated birthday, HAPPY 20th!...
Kampung Buangkok was soo totally in the 1960s and 70s. It was so kampungish that i totally cant imagine that even a modern country like singapore, still have these old traditions. I hope that they actually preserved this kampung, coz singapore or SINGAPURA used to have a lot of kampung houses and lesser FOREIGNERS...





then, on the 17th, was the school sports day...
all i can say is, its FUN, HAPPENING, HOT (as in the weather)
and went to the meeting at NUS.
My Rants | 4:39 PM
Sunday, April 19, 2009
[*__*]
ohkay, seriously
i wanna get a face check
do i look like a malaysian minah???
freak la
almost all my friends in myspace is a malaysian...
and
some of them even want to be in a relationship with me...
dont get me wrong
i'm not trying to say that i'm too good for them
its just that
i'm wondering
how come i'm attracting malaysians instead of singaporeans???
am i too malaysian?
the last time
i dated a malaysian guy
turn out to be a disaster
and then i chatted with a few malaysian guys
turn out to be the same
and now i'm becoming to wonder
are they the same guy or its just them?
trying to instill sweet words
bt hell
i've learned my lessons
bt sometimes
i just cant help it
bt to play along with their own game
its kinda fun actually =)
especially when u are bored
i'm not mean
this people need to be thought
boys are boys
girls are girls
and my lappy is getting slower and slower
and i soo hate it
and i have not even finished my FLASH which dateline falls tmr!
*sigh*
My Rants | 1:10 PM
Friday, April 17, 2009
[*__*]
ohkay i dont know what's wrong with me
but i totally screwed up when i see the doctor
nothing major happen
but i just am unable to find the words to tell him my problems
and i kept looking at my mom
and laugh nervously
i feel sooo SHHHTUPID!!...
jeezzz...
i totally cannot get the image away
a lot of things are in my mind lately
and i cant even think straight
and i do not even know why
things that i know i should not do, i did without realizing it
things that i know i should have done, i didnt
maybe i do not have the passion and the commitment to teach or work
or maybe i am just not bothered
ouh yeah
that's me
so what's next?
i'm sooo FUCKED UP...
My Rants | 9:47 PM
[*_trainer_*]
here's the pros and cons of being a trainer
pros:
- save money (canteen food and staff retreat)
- holidays ARE holidays (even though you have to come to work)
- good earn money (enough for my own)
- being appreciated by SOME students
- have your own TA room
- CONTROL COMPUTERS
- CONTROL THE STUDENTS
cons:
- cant show that you hate the students and teachers
- cant afford to make a mistake
- need to go for meetings
- need to think for tmr's lessons
- need to stand with the teachers and students idiotic behaviour!
thank god i dont have to endure parents!
bt i think its time for me to start to think and be a working young adult..
i have to stop thinking about school life
bt i know its gonna be hard
because my working life is a reminiscence of my school life
anyway
i think i dissapointed one teacher
opppss
i totally forget about it
but then again
i think i dissapointed a lot of teachers
and i DO NOT get along well with SOME of the teachers
maybe i need time...
but
just now, the school had sports day
and i totally remembered my sec sports day
every year, i'm in a cheering spirit!
and GREEN HOUSE IS THE BEST!
anyways
i will upload the pics ASAP...
there's a lot for me to do
and i totally need to bring a reminder with me
just in case
i forgets
My Rants | 6:13 PM