Tuesday, March 31, 2009
[*_picturessss_*]
i've decided to give myspace a skip
because it just makes my heart skipped a beat
i need to learnt how to stop
to stop searching for *it*
it's painful
it's sad
but i cant go on living this way
and i decided
i have to move on
and pray i'll get someone who can lead me the right way
after reading it,
i realise i'm rapping
cheyy mcm betol ajer..
bt peeps
no worries
i'm fine *big grin plastered on my face*
no new updates
just me trying to get some of my life back
and work's getting tensed
not that fun or exciting anymore
with my colleague went back to India for three weeks,
and was replaced by someone from his company, which is ohkay, but i was hoping for single and hot guy! =p *miang kau*
anyways
below are the pictures of all the collages that has not been done! =p
starting from the recent...
vivo with uni and yul,
uni maz, maz uni =D
followed by K-Nite 09!...cheapppp
went to watch My Bloody Valentine with My Bloody Valentine...
give me a suntanning lotion and waves...
relax, sit back and eat dougnuts at...
when u had the crowds and money and stomach, you go to..
and of course, after a tiring and tensed moments, aftermath is always the "in-thing"...
and mr birdie was too cute to fly, that i almost want it to be my pet!
and of course, the most wonderful precious princess is always ready to give you her smiles!
SMILE MY DARLINGS! =p
My Rants | 8:37 PM
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
[*_mood_*]
i will post pictures later uh
for the past few days
it seems as if i wasnt me
i was so distracted, gloomy
i wasnt happy
and i seriously donnoe why
i'm not satisfied with myself
i'm not happy
i feel so awkward with my family
i fake smiles with my friends
i am in no mood to entertain the girls
and
honestly i'm missing someone badly
i donnoe whether to feel angry at myself for being stupid
or at someone for almost being close to my heart
and i always lied to myself
to move on
i have my family, i have my friends, i have a job but still i'm not feeling anything that excite me.
yah, i know i should be thankful,
but somewhere deep down inside me is still trying to figure out my other soul
i'm such in a state,
that i'm easily tired, exhausted, angry, unbothered
and my eyes are swollen
i'm having cough
shit, i'm in a mess
My Rants | 10:43 AM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
[*_M.A.C_*]
so,
i bought myself M.A.C
shittos...
and i watched BLOODY VALENTINE
scary shittos...
My Rants | 9:24 AM
Sunday, March 15, 2009
[*_henderson wave_*]
So the past few days was fun plus enjoyment plus plus plus happyness
and
of course irritated
without no classes at all for the past 3 days
been watching dexter
eating pastamania!!
installing CS4 collections
and best of all
meeting with my ladies!
Thursday - met with uni and totally had fun time with her, bought myself harry potter books and was high at night! =p
Friday - met with khad and mayyyyyy, all we did was just chilled at starbucks, since they are so damn tired and they look tired. The time is mean. It flies by so fast! =(
Sat - went out with uni to sentosa (again)!, then walk to mount faber to reach henderson wave and was in love with the surrounding, if only...
and have a kassim family gathering...best part was that LVIERPOOL TRASHED MAN UTD 4-1!! =D
Sun - went to IT roadshow with my dad n farah and i bought myself IPOD CLASSIC! =p
and of course, my mom disapprove of it, bt who cares, serves her right for throwing away my beloved clothes! but hell, it was so crowded, but hey at least i bought something!...bought a cheap lexmark printer with headphones as a headset and a cheap terabyte harddisk!...and i am going to save up for handycam! =)
My Rants | 8:58 PM
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
[*_collages_*]
anyways
here's collages of the recent events (not so recent)
the end of year 3 RP! =)
working time...
and a little birdie was injured and landed in my house!! =)
SIT PROM NITE!!!... =)
and i cant wait to meet my ladiess!
and this wk and next wk
is the best wk
because i dont have any classes at all!!
yay meeee!! =)
My Rants | 9:19 PM
[*_Its Over_*]
ahaha!!
anyways
like i promise
i changed my link!
bt fret not my dears
i'm going to change the skin too!
give me time babey!
its kind of sad that we had to end this way
because i had no intention of ending our beautiful relationship
but its not that beautiful for the last few days
i'm not sure whether you are lying or not
i'm not sure whether you still feel the same way
i'm not sure whether people of two different worlds can stay throughout
i respect your decision and i've made up my mind
its better we end than continue the hardship
because i see there is no point
you completely ignored me and my msges
you completely sound unbothered
you dont even tell me the problem
so what else can a girl feel?
insecured isnt it?
but what i will definitely miss
will be just be with you
knowing that you are thinking of me
listening to you singing an unknown old indian songs and my request
sharing the same DOB (miracles)
and the adrenaline of being swept of my feet
i thanked you for the happy moments
and i wished you good luck for your future endeavours
ps: If a person has been a part of me, he/she will always be missed. I will missed you very very much =)
My Rants | 3:13 PM
Sunday, March 08, 2009
[*_personality_*]
grrr...
you know when you thought that you've finally met the right person
but that right person turn out to be the wrong person!
bah!
i cant believe this is happening!
all those sweet sweet talk and words
now does not seemed to be sweet after all!
it seems empty!
maybe i'm exaggerating!
but i'm not stupid to fall for something BULLSHIT!
HOW COULD YOU SIMPLY IGNORED MEE!
arggghh!!
damn!
its sad man!
when you believed that everything seems fine
when after all it didnt!
and sadly
when your friends who used to be in love started to fall out from each other
you just didnt know what to do and what to say
i totally have a sad weekend
i hope yours did not
anyway
thanks to along
saw this personality test
thought i answer them
and here's what i got
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. (i'm not sure whether i'm like that, bt pple do say i'm down-to-earth girl.) The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. (true indeed) Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. (guess so) The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with? (i like to be loved and like to be in the center of attention) Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (yes, especially if you are a singaporean.) The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success. (yeah, and now i'm still searching..) How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. (ouh how true, and i'm still fighting!) What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. (i guess so) Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. (ahahaha!!...now THAT is true!)
anyways,
tmr classes for the sec1s
and i am unsure what to teach them!
opps!
My Rants | 9:01 PM
Friday, March 06, 2009
[*_Forest Gump_*]
"Life is like a box of chocolate...
You never know what you're gonna get" quote from Forest Gump
a friend is always there
to listen
to give advice
to protect
when in need
a friend is always there
to motivate
to encourage
to cheer
when you are down
a friend is always there
in your heart
in your mind
in your soul
and a friend is always there
by your side
no matter what happens
and i learnt it after watching Forest Gump
*************************************************************************
i cried watching the movie
although it was quite irritating at first, but i found it quite touching
and i finally understood what is going on
Forest Gump is one example of a good man
even though he is not the smartest one
he is a unique
he loves his mom that he always listen to her
he loves his childhood friend which in turns became his girlfriend which in turns became his wife so much that he waited for her even though she is always running away
he loves his only best friend that he runs in search of him ignoring the danger that lies beneath him just to save his life
he loves to run to run away from his past but turn back
because he knew running is exhausting.
sometimes
i hope i can meet this kind of person
i am not sad nor confused
i am just angry at myself
for making such a mess and a fool of myself
i know my weakness
and i know i should have not done that
yet i did
there's no turning back
the only way to solve is to confront
or left my heart shattered everywhere across the ocean
My Rants | 10:32 PM
[*_boy trouble_*]
First and for most
WELCOME BACK FAUZI!
and i miss SURYA already =)
Secondly
CONGRATULATIONS UYUL
for making it to POLY!
RP SOMEMORE!!
muahahaha!!
join weblog!!!
Thirdly
TO UNI BABE
just a reminder
you have me
and i love you babe
dont hesitate to call me!
cheer up kay! =)
Lastly
TO YOU
i seriously donnoe why i'm always left confused
maybe i didnt ask you that much
but being with you, texting each other
just brightens up my day
i donnoe what i did wrongly
i donnoe whether its a feeling of lust or love
maybe i'm just not ready yet
and i dont want to raise all false hope
but to be truth
i like to be around you
but i hate it when you compare the cultures
when you dont ask about my life
when you sound not interested when i'm talking about other stuff
i dont want to spoil this relationship
just because of a smaller issue
but i dont think you even meant it when you say the three word
coz now i feel so empty
maybe its time i put away all hopes to be with you forever
or maybe are boys like that?
anyway,
i'm not going to whine about this
today
i totally had a wonderful day,
apart from cant stop thinking of you and wondering what did i do to ignore me
work has been great
i only have one class one period
and i only ask them to discuss to prepare for their EFL trip
met with surya during lunch time
and watch high school musical in which again i was reminded of YOU
but wells, it was kind of dissapointing
too much songs, too cliche and too boring
and we switch to Forest Gump
in which it is a weird story, but it is kind of interesting i must say
so now
i'm going to busy myself by watching all movies that i've missed!
good weekend!
My Rants | 6:14 PM
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
[*__*]
all i can say is oh-oh...
coz i'll see
there will be a lot of challenges that i will face
one of the challenges is my parents...
shall not think about it just yet
and i cant wait for today's evening! =p
yay meee!!! =)
My Rants | 12:33 PM
