Saturday, December 30, 2006
[*_Birthdays_*]
finally i'm legal to do aniting!...i'll have to b more responsible in dis age!...n lets hope i get de freedom i want!...so yesterdae was my birthdae...no time to post...here r de pixes...we onli celebrate at home but wif swensen cake!...dats how we celebrate as a family...if we dont go out n eat, we celebrate at home wif swensen cake (if that's de spelling)...
so wads my resolution??..i donnoe i havent think abt it yet...i mean yarh u all think abt it but did it come??..nope...i totally gonna ignore it..but den think again..if we r really am committed to it, mayb it'll work..its like promising urself...mayb i jus jot down wads my resolution...
1) to slim down a bit - am getting fatter!!..look at me!!..
2) gonna go exercise like i used to!...
3) gonna get A at least in my each module and understanding tests
4) gonna pull my socks for dis semester - its soooooooo bloody hell bad, worst
5) gonna be a good girl n good daughter!..yarh rite!obviously dere will b arguments wif dem..cant help it.. wen ur father is stubborn n u r..n ur mom doest like it n u like it...hell, worst
6) gonna keep my allowance!hard for me
7) gonna find work during de 2 mths hols...damn!
yarp..i tink dats all...c whether i can SURVIVE!
well...i really thanked all my frenz n relatives for wishing me birthdae wishes!..thnks a lot!!...it really means soo much!...n AYUNI!!!!where r u??..where's mine n yul's birthdae wishes???....har??? sometimes i feel lucky coz i've got 2 bestie close to my birthdae...like yul (my sec bestie) she's 26th dec!!..n haira (my poly bestie) she's 30th dec!..yupz!..todae...n to YUL, thnks for everything n de presents r thoughtful!!...
i'm proud to have all dese pple as my frenz...me, eika, yul, uni r still holding on strong...our friendship will nvr brake even though we hardly see each other animore..onli through blogs n msn n sms!...i also nvr forget my sec mates n tchers!...n in poly i'll nvr forget haira, april, khad, atiqah n netty...dey r my best n close frenz...de clique!...n also my beautiful cuzzies!!..i'm a lucky girl to met dis kind of frenz!...thnks for being there for me through good and bad times we had!...hah!!...emo alreadi!...ok...i tink i stop here!...
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My Rants | 10:39 AM
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
[*_batam n bbq outing_*]
went out wif my family and relatives to Batam. It was wonderful. I mean the feeling of going out together gether...n somehow we are soo damn close...but going to Batam was nice esp for the first timers like me, i admit dat its my veri first time going Batam n taking ship for 1 hr...it was soo damn cool larh...i can see singapore island, bintan islang n batam, sentosa islang...n i realise it's big...we took photos here n there (as usual)
wen we reached there...i was struck by de dirtyness of d country n messed..but cant b blame rite...but still i'm impressed by how creative dey r when dey build a titanic ship builing...at first i thought it was really a ship, den i realize it was a building...i tell u it was amazing larh...but i forgot to take de picture...shld have taken it...we were greeted by a friendly n funny tour guide...n since my family make up a huge group, we get our own bus!...n its soo great...
we went for a shopping trips, eat seafood (My favourite) n go for a massage - it was relaxing n peaceful - my body felt soo refreshing n relax!!...i simply love it...
i onli bought 3 pairs of slippers for $10 - it was okay, i love de design, but de comfy is not as comfy as my stolen fav billabong immitation slipper!!...de thief/thieves had been cursed...serve him/her/them rite!..for stealing my slipper!..we also bought different types of doughnuts n ate abt 4 dounghnuts...it was yummylicious...
dat was 2 daes ago...a day ago...
i had class bbq - it was oklarh - not well plan - however sometimes i feel so fed up planing things n pple juz sae aniting n den wen de time come, dey grumble saying not well planned n complain who pick de date!..like fuck!...i'm telling u...even though u think dis is a stupid joke - thinking u r teasing me - but wrong! dis is not!...so whoeva dat person is...u shld noe larh arh...n i dont wanna hear ani apologies or wadeva shit!...if u have aniting to sae...or decide, betta be not on dat dae itself!..n nvr sae "aniting" or "wardha, why dont u set de date first"...n wen i set de date dat dae no one sae aniting...n now u wanna complaint!...fuck urself!...mayb i dont show my anger yesterdae...but to b honest, i dont really quite enjoy myself...n this makes me think again..shld we have chalet???...shit dat'll b worse..coz i surely noe...at least 5 pple will b against dis...n i noe who dis 5 pple are - its not surprising to noe dey r not coming..n I dont give a fuck on dese pple!
yes!..i'm mad...soo mad!...i dont even enjoy aniting except playing de "Go back go, go jump go"...but some pple decided not to play...great!...now i can tell dat de class is not realy bond...n its sad to dae dis!...n dey r boring - exp for some (those who r talkative in class, make jokes, enthu abt everything)...see how mad i am?...but for some reason, i juz wanna hav de nex class outing - mayb 12 pple its cool, but if chalet, its gonna b hard...
haiz..ok..i'm gonna let u guys c de pixies where we go batam...but class bbq will b out de nex update... khadupload de pixies!!
My Rants | 9:43 PM
Thursday, December 21, 2006
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hmmmpphhrr...guess i'm falling for someone...SHIT!
but i'm glad dat i have my frenz wif me...dey make me smile...
hee
went out wif my W14D darlings...well onli 6 pple turn out
actually we decided to go escape
but its raining!
thnks to de raining
we decided to go watch movie - Charlotte's Web at ViVo CiTy - it costs me like $8..but its worth
even though we had to seperate into 2 grps, n had to sit at de front row, it was great...
i love Charlotte's Web...its veri meaningful..n i tell ya all..better check it out!...
dis movie r best watch wen u r wif ur best frenz or ur close frenz or mayb those pple who loves backstabbing their so called "friends", den i suggest its for u...dis show really is amazing...it teaches u how you choose ur frenz n who ur real frenz are...n how u r to supposed to treat ur fren...n also telling us dat different races, gender n age can b frens if dey each have dese qualities - loyal n respect..
dats wad ur frenz shld b...
n i'm proud dat all ma best frenz have those qualities...
speaking of dem - i miss dem soo freaking much!...
BILER NAK GI SENTOSA???ESCAPE???KORANG ORGANISE ARH!AKU AJER...PENAT TAU!
but even wen dey r u bez frenz...u will surely fight, argue, tease, disturb n quarell...
n DATS WAD FRIENDS ARE FOR!...
aha...okok...i'm tired...
BTW to my W15L, anione wanna go join us buying bbq stuff??? tmr??...nO??
n if dose of u wanna go...plz feel free to go, but plz bring $10 (onli for W15L pple)
My Rants | 11:12 PM
[*_SHIT!_*]
ShiT!!...
i'm falling
falling hard for u
y muz it b u of all pple??
dey sae its fate
but its not
its rubbish
nonsense
i dont believe dis
i used to hate u coz i feel like u r one fucking irritating pple to look at
i used to avoid u
but den it changed
ever since dat one dreadful dae dat i saw u
i juz cant help it but realize dat i love de wae ur face lit up under de sun exposing your nice-looking face
SHIT!..
BUT U make me b de person which i dont wanna b
i search high and low for u
but u r not dere
FUCK U!
i cant believe how my feelings change
i donnoe how it changed
mayb u juz cant really control ur feelings
it keeps changing n changing
n b4 u noe it
u r exhausted
but why
is dat i dont understand
it keeps changing n it hurts
its like as if i've got no life
SHIT!
de things i hate most is dis
it piss me off
i dont understand dem
i dont get it
wad dey want
why dey want
wads wrong wif dem
i dont
even if i live under de same house full of dem
i still juz dont get it
all i can sae is
SHIT!
My Rants | 10:38 PM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
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time to update my timetable!!...wahaha!!
but first...u shld read de last post coz it's sort of related...n if u read it...u'll find dat i'm "kinda" busy...but now....u read it...u'll find dat i'm damn free...
todae 17/12/06 was supposed to be my class gathering (TWSS), but had to cancel it at de last min coz everything was still not yet confirmed...its my mistake for not planning at de earliest stage...n also i dont really get to sms almost everyone...its kinda hard to do dis...but mayb nex time...sorie guys...
den 18/12/06 - had weblog meeting - 8.45 - 1 think...soo i was thinking is de escape theme park on for cuzzins?...not sure abt dat...but cuzzins i really have to go to dis meeting...if wanna go, mayb after zohor...but den we'll b having less time to spend
19/12/06 - going escape wif my TWSS frenz was cancel..coz uni juz started working n yul had to help her mom...mayb nex time den or 28 dec or when uni r able to take a free time...
20/12/06 - escape wif W14D...but de onli confirm ones is me n haira...
21/2/06 - skool workshop..but i dont tink i will b going coz i dont receive de email yet
22/2/06 - buying of stuffs wif my frenz (W15L) for de bbq (confirm)
23/12/06 - bbq wif my cuz (tentative)
24/12/06 - go BATAM??? (tentative)
25/12/06 - BATAM (tentative) - coz our parents r still deciding
26/12/06 - Class BBQ (Confirm)
27/12/06 - NOTHING
28/12/06 - mayb go escape wif de TWSS (Tentative)
29/12/06 - fav day...but donnoe whether going out
30/12/06 - home (preparing for de hari raya haji, so def cannot go out)
31/12/06 - hari raya haji
1/1/06 - resting time
2/1/06 - resting time
3/1/06 - starting of skool....
so u c...now i donnoe wad to do at home...which is GREAT....
aniwae i tink its time to rest n relax n study...n not money wasted...
todae i'm glad dat its cancel coz yesterdae was my blogging event n i was de logistic person...n i dont really feel great n satisfied abt my work..coz guess wad...all i did was helping out de games...i dont really noe wad to do since firdaus - my another logistic members was all over de place...felt like useless...but oh wells...mayb i havent experience it b4...but i found dat being a logistic is sooo relaxing....i donnoe...n its kinda boring...mayb logistics is not me...but wen i think again wad is not me...i donnoe whether i can do other things...but i cant wait for e nex event coz i'm de logistic again...n i think dat dae i'll not b sitting my butt...i'll b helping out...lets hope i can do it!!..
but den...i tink de workshop is great....de participants were all veri enthu, supportive n outgoing...dey r also veri funny pple...its nice esp to watch dem play games!...aha...but overall de workshops was great!...even if there's a slightest mistake...ok!..i wanna play games..c YA!
My Rants | 11:12 AM
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
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Been busy playing games n going out...since its holidaes!!!...woohoo!!
deres not much to sae now...i dont tink i might ever blog again...mayb juz post pictures n juz update on myself...where i m...so pple will noe...dis hols is packed...
14/12/06 - At home (resting n catching up my studies..surprisingly i can sit down n totally studied all my modules...sometimes i find myself amazed at my own abilities...wahaha!)
15/12/06 - Blogging wrkshop
16/12/06 - the blogging events
17/12/06 - TWSS small gathering at seol garden (tentative) - i learnt dis word from webloggers...hee
18/12/06 - escape wif my cuzzins (tentative)
19/12/06 - escape wif my TWSS frenz (tentative)
20/12/06 - escape wif my W14D (tentative)
(surprised dat i'm going 3times???...costing me abt $18???...hee...but all de 3 are a-muz-go series...its not dat i'm escape fanatics...i juz love going for de rides...n thrilling myself!!..cool rite!!..n also enjoying wif my love ones...n also let my strees out by screaming as loud as i wanted!...it's been soo long since i've rode on one of dem...dat was 2 yrs ago?...i tink...)
back to my timetable...
21/12/06 - enterprise workshop (tentative)
22/12/06 - gonna buy stuff for my class bbq!!...anione wanna follow??...u r invited!...aha!!...at giant, IMM
23/12/06 - supposed to have family bbq, but its not organized properly - i learnt my lesson man...n wasted $16...lets hope someone b able to do someting..but its freaking too late...i planned de food and everything..but need more manpower to make it a success...but dis can b our lesson...
24/12/06 - chilling at home
25/12/06 - chilling at home - mayb b busy 2 prepare 4 de bbq
(well duh...where m i supposed to go??...)
26/12/06 - my 2 lovelies frenz birthdae (yul n lin) n CLASS BBQ!!!!
27/12/06 - chilling at home
28/12/06 - chilling at home
29/12/06 - MY FAVORITE DAY!!...go figure!!...woohooo!!...make me feel so special esp wen de clock strikes 10pm!!!....
30/12/06 - oouuhhh 2 person i noe share de same birthdae!!...haira (W14D) n matt (W15L)!!..aha - mayb i'm getting readi for de hari raya haji!
31/12/06 - HARI RAYA HAJI!! - meet my cuzzies again!!!get money again!!!traditional food!!!
1/1/07 - de new yr..no resolutions for me coz its of no use to me...hee...i'll b at my house..
2/1/07 - chilling n resting at home (mayb ask my TWSS darlings out)
3/1/07 - start of a new term for 5 weeks!!
oouhhh wells..dats my timetable for de nex of my hols...looks like i'm busy!...not busy of skool!..but busy of going out!
so 3rd will b my starting of skool term n i left onli 5 weeks n i'll b wating FOR 2nd yr!!..y i'm excited n cant wait?..is because i wanna go work!!!...but i love being a student coz u get ur holidaes!!!...n i'm thinking of working during my 9weeks break - which means - 2mths n 1 week...i cant stay home for dat long!...1 mth of hols is enough for me...2mths??...naah!
okk!...i wanna go!...bues!!
My Rants | 5:19 PM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
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its holidae!...n i'm feeling sooo miserable...y??...coz i feel soo messed up...i dont really kinda enjoy it now..i dont want dose daes to come...i dont...i noe i'm gonna messed up n everyone will b talking bad abt me...n smirking at me...i juz noe it...m i being paranoid?...yes...yes...i'm soooo irritated, fed up..even angry...at myself for being such de most stupidiest person ever...i hate myself...arggghh...but i'm not gonna commit suicide!...
i juz find myself drift away by my own loneliness...by my own world where i get to do wad i dreamt of doing...but in reality...i dont really did all dose things...which upset me veri much...
went to maklang's house (my 3rd aunty's house), n we watch all our childhood videos..amazingly, i reflected back all i did...my stupidity....everything...n now i feel quite sad actually...i'm glad to have grown up rather den finding myself stuck on dat age...NO WAY...
but as i see dat video..i somehow always felt guilty wen i c my younger brother...its like i feel like i wanna protect him...love him...but somehow wen i look at de video...it doesnt look dat wae....n yarh its true...our age gap is soo far...6 yrs...far...n now i feel sooo sad watching him all alone in one corner....i always felt dis wae...even at dat age....i donnoe y...but i always have dis protecting feeling towards him...he is vulnerable...n seeing him playing all alone hurts me de most...its a karma...i feel it too sometimes...wen i was quite young...
wad is past is a past...now i'm soo bored...i wanna go out but i dont feel like going out...everyone is asking me but i'm de one who had to make a decision of wen it is....it is kind of tired of thinking n setting de date n thinking again...i really had enough of all dose thinking...
so far..wad i've done lately...which amazed me is dat i'm trying to study my maths and science!...YIPPEE for me!!..cant believe it...i'm going through last sem n dis sem so i at least noe someting n b at least useable...rather den juz leave de good ones to do...
time flies by soo quickly...i've been living in dis world for 17yrs, 11mths and 10 days and sooner..which left at least 19 daes...i'm gonna b a fully 18 especially wen de clock strikes 10pm..coz dats de dae wen i totally come out...wahaha...i'm crapping m i??...
btw...
HAPPY BIRTHDAE SERRA!!!u r turning 17!...may god bless you!...
anione wanna go out wif me tmr??... to go library n buy 6 tweezers for my blogging wrkshop...
My Rants | 9:53 PM
Monday, December 04, 2006
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1 more dae to de hols!!!!!
yippee!!...its gonna be a great time for me..to sleep untill i'm satisfied...den do wadeva i want...untill i really am bored of doing it...
soo on fridae..my aunts came...we had a great time talking, laughing n discussing...but den we get tired of talking...n fall asleep..i guess coz we r too tired n bored n also dere's aircond - cool....comfy...dats y i love de ambience inside my room...i juz LOVE my room..
i didnt go aniwhere in de weekends coz i plan to chill inside my room n relaz...i guess i'm too tired...
but i'm sad coz my big fav tv died suddenly...out of a sudden, it juz blank n deres a sound *tup*...something like dat larh ehy...n den its gone....warhlau...i love dat big tv..but i'm happy coz its going to b in my room...lets hope dat it can work!...n i'll b stuck in my room forever feeling happy!!!...wakaka!...
ohh wells...it is confirm dat sony is no good...no GOOD at all...but den dere's one sony tv which is as old as me still are alive...warh!!...cool ehy!...its small...n its my childhood daes!!..wakaka!!...
ok...so 1 and a half more daes to b exact larh ehy...to my hols!!..n dere i wanna go escape, bbqing wif my classmates...going out wif my besties....missing dem soo much...outing wif my kuzzies...woohhoo...n last SLEEP!!!
My Rants | 12:53 PM
Friday, December 01, 2006
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haiz...i'm soooo excited!!...but i'm dead tired!...i cant wait for de hols to arrive...i wanna sleep n study more esp maths n science...cant handle not studying...but of coz juz sae...but nvr do...wt...
one more month for my birthdae!!...finally sia 18...okok...eika...dont tease me abt still being 17!...funny rite...i mean let jus imagine...if one of my frenz born in de 88 same as me, born on de 1st jan...n i 29 dec...after i juz wanna turn 18, dat person alreadi turn 19...wth...sooo not fair...but its fun coz de nex dae will b hari raya haji..n i noe i'll get extra money n i'll make sure my parents bought me swenson's birthdae cake!!...i juz love swenson!...
den not onli my birthdae is coming, but de hols are coming too!!..left onli 4 more daes..den i'll b as happy as can be...as freedom as can be!!...oh yeah!!..
n not onli dat!...dere will b chalets, outings wif my frenz!!...but de tiring thing is dat de organizer...dere r too many things need to organize...n i'm really am veri tired...so pple...if i'm blur or wadeva..juz soo sorie..coz i am juz plain tired...
okok..i tink its time for me to go home..to enjoy de weekends n my cuzzins r coming!!..weee!!..
My Rants | 5:10 PM
