Saturday, January 01, 2011
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My Rants | 10:35 PM
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
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seriously
dont give me a piece of shit
saying that you are fucking busy and you forget about replying my messages
FUCK IT
i'm saying this to FUCKERS who dont fucking well reply my fucking messages
be it on MSN or SMS
FUCK IT
dont tell me u are fucking busy with your fucking work that you are unable to reply my messages
that's one piece of shit
i'm busy too but i'll definately make sure that i will reply back
tell you what
DONT BOTHER HAVING ONE FUCKING HANDPHONE IF YOU CANT FUCKING WELL REPLY ALL THE MESSAGES!
YES!..
i'm FUCKING PISSED and you've just stepped on my line..
NO!...
i WAS NOT REFFERING TO HIM
AND I'M NOT GONNA PINPOINT,
YOU KNOW I KNOW
My Rants | 9:27 PM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
[*_HOLIDAYS_*]
wohkie wohkie
so i say i'm gonna note down all the events i did
so far
been going out with all my fav peeps, except for my w14d babes
went out to eat to celebrate my mommy poko's birthday
me and my dad's treat.
went out with Angah,
and i totally miss the moments we used to have during our secondary life
going out to town, take neoprints, gossip about boys, boys and boys!
will post the neoprints soon! =)
on mothers' day,
was a busy, tiring, but fun.
me and my cuzzies
organized the mothers' day event
thanks to Farah for bringing out the interesting ideas
met with farah and furqan to buy satay at west coast
and talk about work, school stuffs with furqan
and talk about other stuffs with farah! ;p
after which, me and farah went off to IMM
to buy secret recipe cake and massages stuffs
then off to Mr Teh Tarik to buy dinner
and of all food,
we forgot about tom yum soup...
we started off with doa selamat by our grandfather
then the cutting of the birthday cake
the millions speech made by different mommy pokos
and finally we get to eat our dinner
at 9, we have a special massage for our mommy pokos
while they are having a massage,
we gave them special awards to reward them for their effort and their uniqueness that make us feel special
and end the event by playing games =)
pictures and videos will be uploaded soon! =)
one of the fridays,
met with khad, maz and yatie to celebrate yatie's belated bday and also to catch up
we had dinner and shiesha
i like the interior and the atmosphere
again pictures and videos will be uploaded soon! =)
out around town with uni
met with yul for a while
went to NYP for comics competition with the students
went to TP to send the students for 3D competition
and i cant wait for HOLIDAYS =)
My Rants | 1:07 PM
Friday, May 22, 2009
[*_I LOVE ME_*]
i'm relieved, happy and sad
relieved because i've told him
happy because i'm single
sad because i've disappointed him
uni, you are right
i know you know
i just dont want to accept the fact
and yes, eika, you are right too!
i need time
and i miss you muks seh =(
i remember the time
we went to your house to watch ghost stories!
and i missed that moments =)
yes.
i didnt fall in love with him that easily because i am not physically attracted to him.
yes.
i am not comfortable with him.
yes.
i like him as a friend.
yes.
i hurt him.
yes.
he's fine now.
yes.
we are friends.
yes.
i am not ready for relationship.
yes.
i want to be friends first.
yes.
i'm choosy.
yes.
i want people who are smart and intelligent.
yes.
i will fall for guy who is both physically and mentally attractive.
yes.
i have high standards.
and
yes.
with my high expectations, i am going to die of old virgin, without kids.
PATHETIC.
and
no.
i HATE the thoughts.
BUTTTT
everyone wants to be physically and mentally attractive.
love will never blossom if its not for both.
RIGHTTTTTTTT
I KNOW
i have too high expectations, choosy
i am not ready to settle for one
i dont even want to think of getting married for now
because that's not my style
till i find a new one
i'll tell you
oh by the way
i miss being me
i'll upload all the pics
and
i'll update all my events!
I LOVE ME =)
anyway
i wanted to thank all my lovely people
i know you know
thanks for the advice!
My Rants | 10:44 PM
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
[*_SINGLE is what i want_*]
i wished i did not land myself in this situation
i cant help hating every single messages
the messages meant nothing at all to me
i cant help getting infuriated over every single messages
the messages are replication of the old dull messages
i like you, but i dont love you
i like to talk to you
because you are wise
i like to go out with you
because you show care and concern towards me
but
i cant love you
because i'm not in love with you
no matter how hard i try to tell myself you are nice,
you are the one
but its just me,
i am not committed to you
i am not sincere about our love
as a matter of fact i am actually pretending to love you
but i know its still early to tell
for now,
i'll just go with the flow
if you read this,
i'm sorry.
this blog is here for a reason
it is killing me
now, i realize i rather be single and mingle
than having a lover whom i did not even love.
i dont want to hurt any parties
but i just cant tell the other party the truth
truth hurts,
but lies...worst.
i want to travel
if possible alone
to see the wonders and the beautiful creation of Allah
to meet new friends
to cherish my old friends
to forget my old flame(s)
honestly
i am not ready to have a BF
and i think i have one
and yes i'm in deep trouble
and yes i want to end
because i cant stand the "report-strength"
i cant stand the "what you doing", "where you going", "i miss you", "i love you", "have you eaten", "meet my parents"...blah blah blah
because to me once a day you text me this, i'm fine
but a replication of all this dull messages?
i know all of you will be saying because he trully loves me and blah blah blah
but as a matter of fact,
i hate them!
i want something interesting and exciting and something intelligent
all i can say is i'm sorry
My Rants | 8:38 PM
Friday, May 08, 2009
[*_RUN_*]
RUN - Snow Patrol & Leona Lewis
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
Slower Slower
We don't have time for that
All i want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
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on the other hand, i cant wait for tmr's event, amcm FARAH??... =)
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i'm missing my poly mates badly
i wanna laugh
i wanna my happy go lucky back badly
i wanna be a student badly
i dont even wanna be involved
i'm SORRY
i'm running away
running away from the depressing me
My Rants | 12:11 PM
Thursday, April 23, 2009
[*_you dont love me_*]
i should'nt have...
you should'nt have...
we are not...
you did'nt...
i did'nt...
we are just...
from the start,
its all...
we should'nt even...
because we are...
we are too...
we are too...
we thought we are...
but we are...
in the end nothing seems...
our...
has to...
and now i should'nt have loved you
neither should you loved me
everything is all lies
neither should we go to the next step that fast
actions speaks louder than words
you want me to be there for you, but you are not there
its seems like as if
everything is always about you
and that's when i finally realize
you don't love me
it doesn't matter what you say
cus love dont do you that way
dont try to hide it
u cant deny it
so there's no reason to stay
cus you don't love me
right now i feel so
good about myself
got over you
now im good with anything else
there'll be no more waitin for you
wonderin what u gonna do
im gonna be just fine by myself
there'll be no more cryin at night
dont worry im alright
im just fine with knowin
you dont love me
My Rants | 5:01 PM
