Hymns of dreams

I cannot get this FFX tune out of my head, its stuck inside. I have no idea, I woke up with this lyrics inside my head... this is the 3rd time this happened. Lyrics goes
as hymn of fayth

Ieyui Nobumeno, Renmiri, Yojuyogo
Hasateka Nae, Kutamae.

Absolutely senseless, nonsensical lyrics I must say. But lets disect this lyrics up into boxes and grids.

I NO RE YO
E BO N JU
YU ME MI YO
I NO RI GO

read from left top proceed downards and move right column by column downwards and it will arrive at the first original tune "Ieyui Nobumeno, Renmiri, Yojuyogo, Hasateka Nae, Kutamae."

HOWEVER reading it from left top horizontally to the right, line by line like english would be read. You arrive at a comprehensible japanese language sentence, "Inore yo, Ebon-ju, Yume mi yo, inorigo, Hatenaku, Sakaetamae" Translating to english that would be, "Pray now, for Yu yevon. Dream child of prayer, Forever and ever, bring us glory."

This is a wonderful way for making up lyrics that make no sense but actually could be
linked to songs. Like songs by mayaa sakamoto, nonsensical and fantasy made up lyrics. Over the years, I had written my diary in many languages. Among them, Lingua Divinis, The Last Exile Code, and recently but very difficult even for me to comphrehend and write is the Sino-tibetian-mongolian script which I had yet to name.
Think its time to invent a language for my songs.

I just LOVE learning new things, especially learning about MATHS, which I dont really enjoy but I thrive on the challenge. Singapore Polytechnic prepatory mathematics, have to get it done before school opens, do the online TIMED tests and do the post test when school starts. This is very important because, it will all be counted in our first year so ... must score A's.

Musical studies, another day passed by though, I wasnt really concentrating on music, trying to put it onto the weekends, where I feel more "musically inclined". Learning makes me feel happy, just like some people who play sports to feel happy. I feel that there are no boundaries to the world, the barriers are all opened. People I met in school and over the days do not seem to connect with me really much. I feel they are starting to "slow" down and all that in thinking, moving backwards?

Keeping things positive, no matter how things turn out at the end, good or bad, thrive on adversity, survie the thunderstorms, sail the seven seas !!! Feeling the optimistic mood since O levels finished and results were released. The key to learning, is not learning, but to understand that learning is part of the process of growing up. Grow better! LEARN MORE :)

Leaving?

One by one, everyone is leaving! It seems that Shaojun is in Italy or france, travelling around europe I see. Chester is going to China. Jaron has left to france somewhere last week. My mother went to Cairo, Egypt just yesterday. And I am left here alone ... Hopefully at the end of the year I could go to Japan again, miss the food, miss the shrines, miss the wonderful shopping. Seems that I had been to many countries before, Let us flip through my passport.

Destinations / Quantity (how many times)
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Japan, Tokyo, Osaka and Kyoto, Fukouka / 3
Malaysia / More than 8
Switzerland / 4 (no more! bored to death!)
France, Paris / 1
New Zealand / 1
Las Vegas / 1
Los Angeles / 2
Hong Kong / 2
Australia, Brisbane and Melbourne / 1
Czech Republic, Prague / 1
England, London / 2
China, Beijing / 1
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Strange, never been to Thailand, Indonesia or Philipines. Reason, too dangerous so says my mother. I hope Cairo or egypt in general is a fun place, but rather dangerous too. I also want to visit Saudi Arabia one day, Never been to Germany, Norway, and Holland, Im envious of my mother, who went to all those places including Italy and her record ... Switzerland / 11 TIMES! Japan / 6 times! I want to be like her and travel around the world...

More about my religion.

Contary to popular belief, I am not a Christian, nor am I a Jew. I am neither a Muslim, Bahai, Zoroastian, Buddhist, Taoist, Catholic, Eastern Orthodox Catholic, Pagan, Satanist, Wiccan, Shinto follower, Cult follower.

My religious stance at the moment is AGNOSTIC, please follow the link to find the meaning of this word. Although my blog points to alot of Christian and sometimes Pagan
information, I am neither of that. Rather, I belong closer to the Confucian branch. I am still wondering why is Confucianism considered a religion, is it because I offer offerings and incense to my ancestors? Hmmmm, and I dont seem to pray to any God either, I just follow the confucian way and method of doing things, including filial piety, respect for authority, responsiblilty (household, nation), and the yearning to learn more, revering my ancestors (remembering them) and the gentlemen code of conduct.
But of course in confucianism, I acknowledge the presence of heaven's will, but as Confucius himself would state it, "if the offering of prayers to the spirits of the earth and sky have to be made in order to get well (Confucius was sick), I think I had done that already (by his years of learning filial piety and ancestral worship)."

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All hail Benedict XVI. Now we can all concentrate on thanking him for fufilling the prophecy of Saint Malachy. According to the prophecy and revelations of Saint Malachy of the Roman catholic church, he recieved a vision from God and he saw the identities of all the Popes all the way till end of the world. Now claiming that Peterus Romanus (peter of rome the last pope) is an later addition to his 1800's publications, that means Gloria et Olivae (glory of the olive), this motto attributed to Benedict XVI points to him as the last pope, which is after that the world ends!
How wonderful, doomsday predicted at 2012 doesnt seem too bad after all giving that the pope has about 6 years to live that is.

Verdi's Madame butterfly is out at the esplanade, its been a while since I watched an opera. I absolutely love operas and musicals, they are just so .... just brings back memories of the past when I was so young (about 11), where I would sit and listen to whole collections of operas, visualising watching it performed in a big auditorium with so many people watching. But as all would know it, a busy man art me (a man now not a boy), I have just no time for these things as im rushing to finish my piano. 16 , yes thats just 16 practices till my examinations, thats very risky since I must at least PASS this, but im not going to just PASS this thing but score the whole full distinctions on it.

There is no excuse for failure, there shall be no excuse for not achieving excellence. Can I have my glass of Cabernet Sauvignon please thank you.

I just realised that I must improve my musical skills in order to become what I want, a
all rounder gentleman, with skills that of the highest order, arts, music and literature. The knowledge of everything and the decorum of a royal, these are all I desire. I desire no pity, I desire no slaves, I do desire the best of others, like what can you do, your best effort? I have no desire to be in the company of low, unmoral men or women.

But that does not mean I have no desire to be with uneducated people, for it is written in confucius analects that "A man may not be educated but if he treats his friends with sincerity, his parents with respect and his neighbours with benevolence, he is considered a gentleman already." I am looking for friends willing to learn from each other, hone skills to their top perfection and not gangsters and street hooligans whom are of a total disgrace to society.

Went to watch Sound of Music the musical, was wonderful as usual. The actors were good, and the sets were wonderfully designed giving you the feel of being pulled into the act. What I did not like was the audience laughing at the wrong things at the wrong time, that was sheer irritating. Parts that were not funny, there was laughter ... I supposed this is due to the Cultural Difference between western culture and our traditional local culture.

Well yesterday was fun too, went to buy my Bach CDs, very wonderful but pricy at 28 dollars, as well as a book on confucius thats another 23 dollars. Last CD I got yesterday was ancient airs and dances, priced at 14 dollars was the cheapest of the lot. We also had a wonderful lunch at Sushi Tei, which I treated him fully, and Coffee bean for my tea of course, which I had my southern blend Ice tea. Now .... how did they do the blend?

I feel that, something is missing, soemthing was removed from my mind or body. Im on the border of 18 maybe im losing my youth now. I lost the feeling, the abilities to sense and feel other humans, im losing that link which makes me so confident and egoistic. I somehow subconciously wrote a flowing poem of sorts while talking to my friend shaojun that expresses my deepest thoughts.

Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
those were the days of
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
my youth
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
now im becoming an adult
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
I can feel im losing the
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
its the feeling you know
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
that feeling that
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
you lost touch with something
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
and something is just gone from inside you
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
I dont know what it is but its certainly gone now
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
thats why I behave...
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
strangely
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
cant make up my mind that well
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
feeling rather ....
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
isolated
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
and not like before, i cannot see your thoughts or anyother people's thoughts
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
that makes me feel
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
in danger and vulnerable
Purry: Johann Sebastian Bach, my idol. says:
I wished i never grew up.

This Saturday, I am and will catch a musical "The Sound of Music". With 2 of these $138
tickets I do hope I get the best view and not blocked by people in front of me. Its been a while since I watched a musical, since Chang and Eng somewhere near 1999/1998? I think I did catch another play somewhere the next year but forgot what was it.

Since my secondary school days I rarely got to attend concerts, only the ones when we have to go because we are choir people. Now speaking of that, the ammount of concerts, recitals, plays and musicals I attended in my life is about the same as the number movies I watch formally in a cinema. I do hope I could catch another nice concert, feel like watching some piano concerto or something instead of the usual orchestral and violin soloists.

なぜ　忘れたいの？ ねえ　思い出して あたたかい頬に降る涙の願い. なぜ　ふるえながら,今　求めあうの？ 君だけを何度でも,抱きしめたいから?

この体　朽ちても　きっと走りとおす. あの世界の果ての　虹にとどくまでは ... この祈りとどけよ　深い轍こえて. この世界の果ての　誓い守りとおす.

Project Intervention, A personal undertaking at experimenting with the wonders of my very own brain. Project Intervention will span 1 month till my school starts, will involve endless drills and training in memory and musical techniques. Mostly trying to achieve the ability to recall and repeat ideas and theories effortless as well as giving myself something else to do since Project Eden was such a success.

I remembered the days of my early youth, on how a brillant stone can be dulled by diamond dust... throught polishing and removal of parts of the stone, the stone can sparkle and cost more than the diamond that cut it.

I remember how I did things when I was young, my thirst for knowledge, my thirst for the answers to my many "whys", my plans for the future. I was the only person in the whole level in my school to wear spectacles at the age of 3 ... The prodigal son has remembered his past, awaken from his dreams and known the future.

I dreamt of alot of information, including wolves but maybe because I watched too much wolf's rain. And also I dreamt of many situations, the heavenly voices and powers ...
To use the angels and demons of heaven and hell, one must invoke the name of the most holy God, and trap the demon in a circle or ask the angel for the ability. In my dreams someone asked me in japanese ... "sagashimono wa nan desuka?"(what are you searching for?) I replied in japanese, "watashi no sekai ... watashi no sekai desu."(my world, my world). As usual sometimes its strange that in my dreams I have profiecency in japanese as well as some other languages, and some latin languages.

My world, a world that has no violence, that has no wars, that has no rude and insolent people and people govern themself with morals and codes of conduct. This world envisioned by confucius, has never came about. Maybe it is right, that in the end the world and nature itself will destroy human kind and cause a 2nd ice age. Hail to this creature, Hail to this man, the king of animals, who indeed God laid his first commandment to love his neighbour. But what does man say when one of his fellow man is saved from execution ... a BLASPHEMY!

Sometimes I have no pride being a human but, at the same time joyful and thankful that I was born human. Maybe my goal is to teach the other humans, but as usual, the phrase I used 3 years ago in which I told my mother what will my future be ... "time will tell" I told her Time will Tell.

The rain ... Tell me what the rain knows.... O are those tears of the ages? The rain is just SPECTACULAR! Look at the great shades of GREY and BLACK and WHITE ... simply amazing and beautiful, as usual I feel charged and happy when it rains especially with thunderstorms, the more violent and more lightning and wind plus rain the better I feel.(but I do not like to get my feet wet though)

Had a glass of red wine this evening, the taste of this wine is wonderful, can taste the grapes and all, the crisp texture and aroma was full bodied.

Wine brand: MadFish 2002(aussie brand and vintage)
Wine type: Shiraz
Wine Price: 40 dollars SGD bought at BACCHUS paragon.

Other wines I reccomend are inniskillin ice wines, those are wonderful, reisling varieties are also good for beginners, they are sweet and light like ice wines. Ice wines and whites go very well with fish, and shashimi(seafood in general) if you like japanese food. However, If you are used to the taste of Older more strong, and full bodied wines like me ... enjoying a good merlot and pinot noir will bring the taste of the wonderfully tannic, warm wines. Reds are generally good with steak and red meat, so order some Cabernet Sauvingon when you dining out next at your favourite steakhouse!!! Wine types I havent tried: Sauvignon Blanc, Frontignac, Traminer, Chambourcin and Chenin Blanc just to name a few.

One of the most inspirational and uplifting songs of Yoko Kanno.

Run Wolf, run!

Run, wolf warrior, to ends eternal
Through the wreckage of the death of the day
Scent of silence under starlight spinning
A captured beast within a human skin

Are you searching for long lost landscapes
Lit by flowers and crystal cascades?
Where the lamb lies down with the lion
Where the wolf is one with the wild

Run, wolf warrior, through kingdoms' chaos
Senseless cities and ghost towns towering
Howl, O hunter, though few know you're crying
Face upturned into that midnight moon

Are you hunting for mystic mountains
Where the air is like liquid laughter?
Where the beasts inherit the earth
Where the last again will be first

Run, wolf warrior, to hide your hunger
The rain will wash away the pains of the day
In your eyes there are cold fires burning
Tongues of flame that can never be tamed

Are you running from Man's delusion
Majestic madness and your exclusion
To where the lamb lies down with the lion?

Are you running down ancient pathways
Through this dark and deserted land
To where man is once more a child?

Are you running to freedom's fortress
By the side of wide open seas
Where the wolf is one with the wild?

Goodbye, Ciao Karol ... to you and find peace ,Karol Joseph Wojtyla.

Today I accomplished something which I have not been doing for the past few months, composing new songs. I composed a total of 2 pieces, One piano piece, one choral 3 part piece/piano motet. Two different styles of composing, one traditional 17th centuary baroque and one new age music. I am rather pleased with myself.

The 17th centuary piece sounds like a traditional psalm or chant, just brings be to the next point. The lyrics of the song most likely its the traditional lyrics, Alleluia.

Alleluia, Alleluia, Alleluia ... Gloria Patri, Deus Dominus. Amen.

the other piece of mine is more modern and without lyrics. I like to leave the music to imagination. But the 2nd piece titled: "Purry's Devotion" should be the main idea, my devotion to music and my devotion to my morals that I set for myself. After all, tradition must be preserved at all costs, we should not loose our tradition, in that we loose our identity.

And to the ailing pope, whom I have respect for, God rest his soul, it is inevitable that death comes apon humans, even the most holiest man, cannot escape death. Again,

Miserere Mei, Deus, secundum magnam misericordiam tuam; et secundum multitudinem miserationum tuarum: dele iniquitatem meam. Amplius lava me ab iniquitate mea et a peccato meo munda me. Quoniam iniquitatem meam ego cognosco, et peccatum meum contra me est semper. In nomine patri et fili, et spiritui sancti. Amen.

In nomine patri, Et fili, Et spiritui sancti, Amen.