I am reflecting on many things, 1) I am trying to scry, predict, see my future with my dreams. 2) trying to push and determine the outcome to my favour 3) whether the highfather will bless me with good results in my examinations.

Faith is something that is undetermined by what other people's evaluation, but rather your own thoughts and evaluation on yourself. Faith is not an object, it cannot be traded, it is a thought, it comes from within. Faith is the active component of prayer, rather as the outcome. The trick is (as it is always) the more faith, the more the outcome will be influenced by your belief, if you belief God/Allah/Yahweh(any God or Gods, I believe they come from One source) will help you, then He/She/They will definitely help you. Because faith is such a powerful instrument and energy, I believe this can be used to our advantage.

I assumed a meditative state regarding this, and I was given a vision of the Lance of longinus. I saw in my dream a bent pillum (roman javelin). Surely it was the true lance of longinus, I know very clearly, this is something I was not able to think of. Because 1) I had been thought clearly that the lance is a lance 2) The bible says so anyway so it belongs solely to the "lance" class of weaponary. including spears.

However this, strange vision of the pillum was rather interesting because 1) Lances are unique to greek and their hoplite army, as well as macedonian army, romans use swords and square shields. 2) its rather sensible that the bible might "code" or slightly distort (but still keeping the same meaning) of an object, the pillum does resemble somewhat like a lance, *research* the pillum is a standard issue of the roman soldier, other than gladius (sword). 3) that is the only long pole lance like object that I think can be found on an roman soldier.

If this is the true lance of longinus, that could ensure my future victory against many obstecles. I do believe this article of faith(relic of faith rather) would unviel much more of itself to me.

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In regards of my recent revision, I must agree that I have indeed not much to revise. In a perioud of 1 hour, I had revised the entire physics textbook, with no questions. And I believe I can do the same out of the remaining textbooks. I read an extract of the life of a certain person, whom I learnt some useful tactics from him.(in association with psychic research).

I had a very odd and rather interesting dream last night. I was somewhere looking out of a window with my friend, Baron Shar Jarr, and we saw a crowd below, dressed in noblity, something I had not seen in about 300 years. The crowd was not very big, and a King was present somewhere in the whole masquerade. There was much dancing and the mood was rather tense,(because of assasination?) and also there was much things to celebrate about. The dream ended by a last scene, with the nobles throwing coins , bronze, silver and copper onto the floor and me and the baron, exiting the balcony we in which we watched this whole, strange commotion played out before our eyes.

Too much Alexander Dumas's novels I guess, or maybe next time I would become a noble. Well, my plans are always being churned out.

I had a boring day today, I went to school to meet Chan Ho to study for S.S only for 2 hours.( which is rather short). I am planning the schedule for next week where I will appear in school to study almost everyday, Hopefully, I do get to do some work tomorrow too. There are currently too many distractions present in my room, the vice of temptation creeps ever so silently apon my soul. This of course, is a very disturbing effect and reaps equally devestating effects. Therefore, school is the only place to get my work done in a proper manner.

As such, I am trying to adopt (purchase) a hamster from my friend, Yes I will keep it in my room. Vile Vermin to some people ... A very cuddly pet for me. Now I have a companion, and I am quite oblidged to give it the name Bordoise ... If it is a girl, or Hubert if it is a boy. Just kidding, I will name it rather, something like Momotaro, or Akihito, or the more popular Meiji. Well that will be after I get my hamster that is, I still need to get my cage though.

Baron Shar Jarr (shaojun) paid a visit to me. The baron polished and repaired my violin to the best condition the violin could achieve. The mellow, smooth, warm sound of the violin is now clear as compared to its previous, slightly muffled and out (tone) sound. As I had said the polish was well done, the skill displayed in bringing out the best of the wood (violin) is very much appreciated. I thank you therefore, Baron Shar Jarr.

I journeyed to Bugis, I was just wandering around the area. The weather was totally atrocious, I say it was totally inhuman. While wondering around, I realised that I had no goal, no specific mindset, it was a feeling I had never expierenced for the past 17 years of my life. Well I wanted to have coffee and tea at coffee bean, But there was no company of mine present. I therefore, shelved that idea for another day. I decieded not to go to school tomorrow, I am quite tired, well revision should go all through the night, I still have alot of things to do and accomplish (1) Establish my authorithy. (2) Establish a name for myself. (3) Remove more people from my MSN list. I will not tolerate or entertain any comments that are unconstructive. So some people, who you are, will be removed from my circle. This is the way I work.

I gave myself a new motto (like those cool slogans that follow a official name). Dunamis Invictus, has words Dunamis which is a greek word for power and Invictus which is a Latin word for Undefeated/unconquerable. Yes It fits my character much, Power Unconquerable. Every word, every thought is power, and yes, my power is unlimited.

Some people are blessed inately with powers to alter/change/influence another's thoughts, I am glad to say, I am one of these people.

Maybe most normal mundanes do not know this, but your minds are bent to my will every time you think of me (in anyway like even a slight image) or if my mind is thinking of you. Therefore you often hear me saying this, Life is a trick, everything is a trick. Why the frequent headaches, the overuse of my abilities to conjure an image to block the actual truth. Everything is just a conjured image, especially due to examinations, my mind has to work twice the amount. There is no way to escape from my mind altering ability, unless ... well I cannot tell you how to distract my power. The gates of heaven is turning, soon the age of aquarius will come, the thinking of human race will change.

If you are near to the dark, I will tell you about the sun. You are here, no escape from my visions of the world. You will cry all alone but it does not mean a thing to me ...

The morning sky was shaded so beautifully with layers of grey and black. It was a sight to behold, I was invigorated by the cool sea breeze that blew through my room. Storms, always made me feel so happy, and rain made me feel even more relaxed and calm to do my work. The stormy windy, vibrantly dark setting presented to me a question, Who or what made this world?

Talking about work, I am very dissapointed with myself, being that I have not been even seriously revising my work, but the truth is I have not much questions and queries, is it because I had been consistantly doing my work, and had already cleared all doubts?

I can only know the answer to that previous question if only I have a chance to teach other people, In which I would be able to obtain a much needed evaluation of my own knowledge, a deemed Win-Win situation. Also I have to start brushing up on my english skills, as I am starting to notice a drop in my own standard.(is it something to do with association with substandard people?)Being somewhat a believer of reincarnation, I leave you with a peom.

The wheels of life keep turning.
Spinning without control;
The wheels of the heart keep yearning.
For the sound of the singing soul.And nights are full with weeping.
For sins of the past we’ve sown;
But, tomorrow is ours for the keeping,
Tomorrow the future’s shown.

And whose is the hand who raises
The sun from the heaving sea?
The power that ever amazes –We look, but never will see?
Who scattered the seeds so life could be,Who coloured the fields of corn?
Who formed the mould that made me – me,
Before the world was born?

Salva Nos, The happenings of today, were a total disspointment, I got my some weird chemistry answers and stuff like that. I cannot believe it. There was clearly something very wrong and off when I did my question 3 of chemistry. Well the past and the past after all, and I will not dwell endlessly on it. I just have to (will) do my best no matter what for theory paper, that is all. Hopefully I will get a A1 for sciences, if not, Well there is no such thing as getting an A2.

My Devil's Ivy has rooted, and I had just propagated another part of the experimental plant, I hope to get a set of new Pothos (the devil's Ivy) by this year or year start of the following year. I am also making plans to get new plants for my room. My room is currently home to 1 variegeted peperomia, 1 small palm, and was also an abdoe to a african violent who had since been removed from my room because of mold complications due to invasion of ants. I need to mass propagate my plants so that I can furnish my house properly, since the orchids my father is caring with are not growing so well.

Today was truly how a gentlemen should spend his day, at a bookstore, browsing for books and meaningful CDs, being with your best friend, Having a cup of coffee (or tea rather) at various coffee houses. Spend the whole day socialising and talking about things and matters, slowly passing time like fine sand held in the palm of your hand, slivers of sand running through the fingers. Ending the night (or evening) with dinner with friends, relatives and having a great day. That is what life should be, or any afterlife should be like. Life would be filled with so much meaning ... I wished everyday could be like that. A occasional indulgence is quite beneficial to the spirit somehow it seems as so.

All this while spent earnestly with my friend, my mind was quite alof and floating among the the conversations we had. I was thinking of the book I wanted to borrow (Alexander Duma's Count of Monte Cristo/ Le Comte De Monte Cristo), because the previous night before, I had read quite a large volume of the chapters present in the book itself on the internet. Also I was occupied with the music of my new CD bought from borders , The Red Army Choir CD. It was rather expensive and I must duly remind (restrict) myself not to purchase such things again, although the songs were rather rare and worth the money itself. I would say, what a wonderful extensive repotoire of the Red Army Choir's works, among them the ever stunning "Moscow Nights" a solo voice that seems to bring a vision of quiet moscow, and the equally spectacular vocals done in a very patriotic. communist way displayed in the National Anthem of the USSR.

I have a very hectic day I presume (deduce) tomorrow, so I would reserve/retire myself for now for some quiet contemplation (question spotting) for tommorow's terror. Words of Wisdom from me, Life today, is still never a way to know life tommorow. My friends I bid you good night.

This morning I made onigiri, then I had a headache, Then I slept till NOW! OH GOODNESS, no revision being done during this time.

Now I realise how ordinary people behave and think, what they want, what they like, what they need. It is such a revelation to me, because I had never expierenced what they went through, what they really mean in their ways. Sometimes, I think, it is time to review the ways of doing things, Yes, Although ambition and power are top piorities, I think we cannot destroy/deprive other people from doing anything they want, just for the sake of ourselves. I had been selfish in the past, and even now, but as my best friend Wang Shaojun makes it clear, we must change for the better. Although, I know fully well, that my circle of friends and people will change next year, its time to do a fresh restart of my character.

Why is this dumb anime taking such a long time to download, and also my african violet seems to be dying of some sort of leaf mold and spots. All my care down the drain, I want to FILL my house with african violets !

As the end of the academic year dawns upon us, We are forced to part our ways with our friends. Only now, I am left with a song to remind myself of the year that has passed and will soon be evapourated from the surface of our minds.
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So tonight i'll sing a song to my friends,
Also to those we wont be seeing again.
To those I knew and those I still adore and I want to see once more,
I just pray that you will still love me and trust me.
Laugh with me and cry with me,
Spend those silent times with me ... Love me ever more.

You and I were lovers,
our dreams will not sail by us.
And WHEN MY FRIENDS BETRAY, that you never be my wife.
Harsh words were said and lies were TOLD INSTEAD,
I didn't ever mean to make you cry.


This is a relevant song if you replace the "lover", as a subject's idea (person), with the word AMBITION, or POWER. Yes I am in love with AMBITION and POWER, it is because that my friends BETRAYED US, that ambition and power were separated from me.
I would like to take this great oppurtunity to thank all my friends that supported me, helped me in my times of peril, has substantially contributed to my success, among these people, I would specially want to thank Mr Wang Shaojun, who inspite of all the degrading comments and inccessant reminders, proved to be a wonderful loyal person. To Wang Shaojun, please remember "Mine is the first step and therefore a small one, though worked out with much thought and hard labor. You, my reader or hearer of my lectures, if you think I have done as much as can fairly be expected of an initial start. . . will acknowledge what I have achieved and will pardon what I have left for others to accomplish."
And also I would specially extend my gratitude to Mr Hu Zhijia, who provided me with a suitable target for my biting criticisms and also giving me an outlet for my malicious thoughts or ideas. I would also like to thank some friends of mine, Notably those that had ever known me personally, Chan Ho, WeiXin, Aaron Choy, Chester Goh, Chan Xian En, the current girls of my class(5A), entire Class 5a, 4g(2003), 3g(2002), 2g(2001), 1g(2000), my fellow comrades from these classess, I Salute you.

Thought of the day,(Aristotle's philosophy sumarisation) Ethics, as viewed by Aristotle, is an attempt to find out our chief end or highest good: an end which he maintains is really final. Though many ends of life are only means to further ends, our aspirations and desires must have some final object or pursuit. Such a chief end is universally called happiness. But people mean such different things by the expression that he finds it necessary to discuss the nature of it for himself. For starters, happiness must be based on human nature, and must begin from the facts of personal experience. Thus, happiness cannot be found in any abstract or ideal notion, like Plato's self-existing good. It must be something practical an human. It must then be found in the work and life which is unique to humans. But this is neither the vegetative life we share with plants nor the sensitive existence which we share with animals. It follows therefore that true happiness lies in the active life of a rational being or in a perfect realization and outworking of the true soul and self, continued throughout a lifetime. So my fellow comrades and friends, happiness is the true goal that we should work at. Although power and ambition are the next on my lists, but happiness should be the final goal.

Here ends today's post.

After realising the disgusting evil things around me that are going to happen (through Prophetic Vision), I am setting out on a plan to warn these people of things to come. Yes, sometimes I do see the future, painted not in 16 colours but full vivid colours that all earth and heaven has. In addition to that, I still feel sick when I am with people not of my standard (lower class). This situation has been bugging me for ages, I must remind myself constantly to avoid coming in contact with these lower, measly, substandard people/creatures. I also must constantly keep in mind that these creatures will always try to bring me down to their level and I shall not do the same , be reduced to their own capacity so that they can beat me with their level of stupidity.

I recently read a short summary of the Count Of Monte Cristo, I must say a very nice, intricate plot exists within the book's pages. From here henceforth, I shall also follow the path of the count, to constantly plan to (1) weed out my enemies (2) always strive for the best no matter what (3) never give up and make sure my enemies are eliminated. Yes these 3 principles mixed with the ethical/philosophy which I have already adopted and written down on paper will allow me to gain the highest of the highest, the most powerful upperhand in EVERY single aspect of life. The fact that I am always the winner, is a well known fact.

Now that things are still not going my way, Subject being, that (1) I am still sick (2) I am still not starting revision (3) I still have strange dreams due to my sickness. Therefore, looking at such, we can deduce many results and consequences of the circumstances that are affecting me. (1) My O level results are going to suck (2) Im going to be darn lucky if I get A1 for everything except chinese.

Now changing subject, I have deleted certain people from my MSN address as I feel these people are affecting my performance and having a possible subtle bad influence on my life. This action just goes to show that I can be very tough and strict when it comes to certain things concerning my future, I will purge some of my "friends" if I have the need to (if the need arises). Life is about the good things, and I will not hesitate to remove the bad things for the sake of the good.

It seems to be difficult to start my revision, whatever the revision is meant to be on. I seem to need more motivation. After one motivational talk by this speaker called Dr Low guat tin, I am now invigorated with a new induced technique (by the speaker) to achieve better results. Yes, that is right we must teach people in order to remember our facts or our knowledge.(that is the statement made by the Dr.) I wholeheartedly concur with her statement, I will devise a plan which I must put forth at the advent of my next school week for the better sake of everyone and including myself.

Now turning to things philosophical, I had written and posted a few letters to my friend, Mr Wang Shaojun concerning my views of (his) behaviour and his rigid, unmotivated(academically) and inflexible charateristics. I must say that I dispise such people of lowly origins because (1) they do not have the same mindset so their brains resonate at a different frequency from me. (2) they are not going to help society progress, they idle around waiting to be pushed. (3) they waste my time, morever, I wasted my time pushing such people to their limits, while they themselves fail to achieve their own limits.

In that letter, I did include another annex regarding my own philosophy, one stating that there must be in existance, two worlds of surreal and the real. How the senses can betray us or not depending on whether we accept our personal views on this topic. And also in relation to that I wrote that every philosophical statement and procedure (discourse) may not/may be suitable for a specific mode of operation (situation), which in turn the statement might greatly cause a harmful or beneficial effect.(depending on what is applied). The letters are mostly about code of conduct in my opinion.

Well as for now im back to studying my books, history, sciences the usual mathemathical problems I have to solve.... I shall write again sometime.