Can you hear me...

Even though it hurts but a little, tears form
My heart screams out
If I pass in front of you, beside you
You were my whole world
I want only you
But I can't breathe when I'm in front of you

As if you weren't my destiny
As if this was just a fleeting moment
Next to you, who just let me go so easily
I go closer to you step by step
Although I cannot move at all

You make me restless, you make me cry
Like a fool, like a child
I want to just laugh it off instead

The closer I get to you
Although I get more scared
I guess I cannot stop this love

Why is it just my love that is late
Why is it just my love that is hard
Although I'm right in front of you, although I'm right beside you
You were my whole world
I see only you
But when when I'm in front of you, I always look away

As if you were my very last
As if it were my very last moment
Next to you, who just let me go so easily
I go closer to you again step by step
Although I cannot move at all

You make me restless, you make me cry
Like a fool, like a child
I want to just laugh it off instead
The closer I get to you
Although I get more scared
I guess I cannot stop this love

If even from a long distance
I could look upon you
That's what you call love

If perhaps this yearning, this longing
When it sounds, when it touches
Please just act like you didn't know
Although the closer I get to you, the more scared I get
I guess I cannot stop this love

Just give me a reason....

Right from the start
You were a thief
You stole my heart
And I, your willing victim
I let you see the parts of me
That weren't all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them
Now you've been talking in your sleep
Things you never say to me
Tell me that you've had enough of our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

I'm sorry I don't understand
Where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine
Your head is running wild again
My dear we still have everythin'
And it's all in your mind
You've been havin' real bad dreams
You used to lie so close to me
There's nothing more than empty sheets
Between our love

Oh tear ducts and rust
I'll fix it for us
We're collecting dust
But our love's enough
You're holding it in
You're pouring a drink
No nothing is as bad as it seems
We'll come clean

Heaven.

It's always a regret.
A regret of an act.
You know what should, what shouldn't.
What stays, what moves.

Its the finale.
I shall leave this country for good.
Decided.

But..Wasn't there's a factor...
Are you readily, really willing to leave everything behind..
Your family, your friends whom you cared the most...
Does that really worth it?

How good if there's no worries in life.
Yes, there is a way..
To Heaven.
Be it soon to be there..
I'll watch over you from above.

Promise me, be good.

Buuu..

It seems like whenever I'm upset, the only place I went to is either here and buddies.
It's been a month and 6 days since we parted our ways.
I can't say that I've gotten over you..
Facts are to accept, but reluctantly.
Letting go is a matter of time.
My hopes are always there, yet unanswered.
I always believe that there's a reason for us to meet and stay apart.
But why? Why we're not destined together?
Why destiny allowed us to meet but no way for us to be together?

It's actually really unbelievable that how fast one can change.
Just a day I can be no longer exist in your life anymore.

I don't hate you...
I never could and I don't regret meeting you... I never will...
But I do regret our relationship.
It destroyed the best thing we had, our friendship.
Jeopardized.
All I could wish for at the moment is to have back what we've lost.

Somehow, I'm just stupid enough to love you even after you broke my heart.
People said that once words and hearts are broken, it's the hardest things to repair.
Why did I still able to trust and believe everything and still goes to you whenever you need.
I really would love you to make things up instead of just a word "sorry".

You come and go as you pleased. Leaving no trace.
Everytime I try to walk away my mind without you, there's always a voice or something that reminds me I should stay.
I know I shouldn't dwell myself in the past.
One shall move on to be really thankful for their lives in order to be with the right one.

But... the amount of love I have for you seems to be greater than the pain you gave me.
As, no matter how much you have hurt me, I still chose to stay. Why?
I don't understand myself either.

Sometimes, I really wished that I didn't bump into you 2 years ago, so that I have nothing to be sad about.
I will not have bad dreams. I won't wake up in the middle of the night.
I won't have palpitation.
My life wont be in a mess and ruined like now.
I would have been concentrating my work, my studies.
I've lost my interest towards what I used to like.
Why did this gave me such an impact.

It really takes few seconds of your words to hurt me..
But why can't it takes me few seconds to heal?
Why does it takes so much of my time?
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you....
I was hoping for a rebound guy, to at least makes me feel better than now.
I won't have to suffer so much.
But he will be someone I'm sorry for as a rebound.

Every night I thought I'll be strong.. strong enough to let go.
Because days passed without you.
But days passed like years.
Tremendously pain. 

I accept apologies.. I forgive...
Forgiving is easy... but being able to trust you again is another story..
Though I would now still trust and regret after that.

You've been saying that maybe one day, one day,... I'll be what you need.. but not now..
I know.
I know.....

It's never easy for me..

I seriously would like to know whats inside your mind.
May I open and read it.

The insecurity I felt is seriously to a level where I don't even know who am I anymore.
I cannot even drive because I tend to think alot when I'm driving.
It happens that I don't even know where have I gone. It's like losing control.
Why has this become a disaster.

I'm kind of regret to have asked that question.
We are what we are now.
How should I define the relationship between us.
I'm not very conservative and neither nor too open minded.
I club but not to an extent of having ons.
I drink but not with strangers.

In fact all these started and ended because of you.
I start to club and drink all the time since last year till this mid year was in fact you're the cause.
I stopped, also because of you asked me not to.
Now, I had the thoughts of regained my so-called conscious, I would love to have such again.

If I had another chance to turn back time, what will I do.
Hmm.. I wouldn't know...