What is it that I'm so upset about I don't even know.
But its past midnight n I can't fall asleep n just profusely crying.

Things didn't go my way today, my plans were ruined.
Supposed to be ice cream then swim.
But we were late in leaving for ice cream.
I was unwilling to cancel swimming knowing that tonight was his only free evening.
Was trying to find a good way to excuse myself from ice cream since it was running late.
Couldn't come up with one that may not hurt the bday girl's feelings.
He provided me with the easy way out by canceling swimming, sparing me the difficulty.
Was immediately upset cos of my wrecked plans
n cos he was being selfless when I really did not want him to be.
Felt guilty for agreeing to his cancellation.

Den he tells me he's free tomorrow night.
But we still can't find a replacement evening for swimming
cos I've made plans to meet friends tomorrow night.

Why did he not tell me earlier that he was free tomorrow evening?

This is so trivial. Can't understand why I'm losing sleep over it.

Maybe because the only other day I can see him is next week.

So why am I so upset?
Am I upset for my inability to excuse myself from the ice cream activity?
Am I upset for having made plans to meet friends?
Am I upset for having made plans to meet friends without consulting his schedule?
Am I upset for assuming his schedule this week is the same as any other week only to find out its not?
Am I upset because he did not inform me of the changes in his schedule?
Am I upset for not telling him I'm free too?

So who's to blame?
Me, for not telling him my schedule?
Him, for not telling me his schedule?
Me, for being presumptuous about his schedule?
Him, for being presumptuous about mine?
Me, for making plans without consulting him?
Me, for being weak n unable to say NO?

Looks like it IS my fault.

So learn from mistakes n move on.
Get over it n go to sleep.

Deal with it.
If the next time you'll see him is next week, then deal with it.
If it was your fault for the miscommunication,
then deal with it.

D.E.A.L.W.I.T.H.I.T

Hello

Firstly, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir Batin.

Life's been good to me. God's been good to me too, eventho I havn't been all dat good.
I need to remember this.
I cannot let myself forget and get too absorbed in the worldly things.
I need to remember this.

Wow, didnt realise I havent blogged for so long...

Life's been too busy.
Nie was giving me a huge workload like I've never had before.
Practicum is worst. 10 weeks of starting work at 7 am and ending after 7 pm and still having to bring work home to continue. I have 2 days left in practicum. After which i get a couple of days free while i take a breather and do my assignment due on the 8th of september which i have not embarked on.

To all my friends who are reading this, sorry that i've been neglecting our friendship. I haven't read any of your blogs since february. I need to be updated.
I treasure the few times we meet to reconnect and keep each other updated...
Hopefully after a couple more months, i'll be slightly free-er...

2 days to end of practicum and i'll be very very happy!

The time I said "Hello" to you on that lone bench
The time I chased you to give the friendship band
The time I text-ed you to take the MRT
The time you left me to share a taxi
The time we watched Love Actually
The time we moonlight-ed on new year's eve
The time you asked me out on our first big date
I was nervous, I was 2 hours late
The time you asked "Wanna get some ice cream?"
The time you heard me yell and scream
The time I wrote you a long letter
Our lives changed for the better.

Happy 4th Anniversary, My Darling!

Happy Birth-Januar-ay Bur! (overdue hee..)