OH i'm finally here to update my blog.

MAN life in Sentosa Retail as a part timer is damn bloody SHIOK!!!!!!! and especially when one works with those crazy part timers too. LOL. we were practically chatting every single moment, playing volleyball, frisbee and monkey. running ard the shop. eating every hr. slacking. sitting dwn. gossiping. AND THE BEST THING IS gt MONEY!!! HAHAHAHHAs. YEA i love it =) smmore it's raining for the past few days so there's NO GUESTS ARD THE ISLAND!!!!!!!! even better ^ ^ life at palawan is definitely few thousand times better than hub3 =)) and i've gt to admit we had the best supervisor we can ever get.

alrite few more days and it will be my day ^ ^ but sadly. i will be working. oh good life man HAHAHAs

but i dun mind.

anyways since MR XU requested me to write some good things abt him. i shall do so now =))

thanks my dear for the choco cake or watever u call tat LOL!!! that u da bao for me!!!! HAHAs i was stil wondering wat u gt for me that u insisted to gif me that day. and thanks for running all the way to amk when it was all my fault. i was kinda touched my dear. i'm sorry for being so unreasonable. ok i was really guilty k. u oways know how to make me feel guilty LOL!!!

nxt, thanks for bringing me over the white dog cafe ytd to taste the warm choco cake and everything else =DD i love it. and i love it when u love my frends too!!!

and for today, i was rather happy that u gt the perfume immediately when i jus told u i like it =D and bringing me to those boutiques where i nv been into b4 LOL!!! yea so overall. u are a great man

and to prove ur love for me. pls buy more exp things for me LOL!!!! like tat den i wil write more good things abt u. if not my blog oways write bad things abt u LOL!!!!! i love u =)

p.s. i will lend u my support for the next 3 months.

oh tmr's the meeting and i hadnt a single clue to what i'm suppose to do tmr. oh great. HAHAHs later all my delegates play hide and seek wif me at the airport LOL.

super sian and super regret gg there. missed all my job opportunities and miss mr xu's bday. ok so now i owe u something T__T

anyways i realise we both behave like we owe each other and we hate each other. so funny can. we are the ice age pple =)) but nvm i love it this way ^ ^

hmm work hard baby and make more confirmation!!! so u can earn more money to yang me. i very exp one. and i shall see u 2 weeks later. dun worry i will not miss you. HEH HEH

ok this is seriously so boring... i have no urge to do anything at alll.... i dun feel like gg to tat stupid island to work.. but i dun hae a choice. i nid to return my pass in order to get my pay. like wtf, now den tel me.

interns are always exploited. i dun noe why. but we dun hae a choice do we??

ive been tinking abt my life for the past few hrs. like wat i wld like to do in the future. i dun hae a sense of urgency. i take things as easy going as possible. there's nuttin in my life tat i ever take them seriously. i nid some help, some motivation. i guess i haven found anything im seriously in love with. if i really put my heart and soul into something, i guess i will get something quite satisfactory out of it. but i jus cant.

i tink it's time for me to wake up. to seriously tink of wat i wan in my life. do i really wan to get into uni? man i really hate to study. mayb the pace of life in singapore doesnt suit me at all. mayb a change of environment would help me stimulate my mind and calm me down. perhaps i shld consider to pursue my degree else where.

haix this is getting no where.. im graduating soon. oh man i nid to seriously tink wat i really wan in life.

and i always have a dream since young. and that is to be musician. i really regretted wat i did in the past. if i wan to start over again, it's gonna take me a long time and i dun hae the capital to do it on top of that it's not practical at all. okies in conclusion i guess i shall stick to be a social worker. it's fun and i love it. =) at least it's something i have passion in. something i will work my best in. meanwhile i shall search for myself and what do i really wan in future.

alrites thats all i shall go and chat wif mr xu. perhaps he will gif me some light LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's hard to miss his bday and not being able to celebrate it for him til 2 weeks later. oh poor him. u better not do this to me i wil kil u.

im sooooooo damn broke now... i've gt no $$$.. mr xu has no $$$$ too... now we both poor kid. super ke lian bth. and wat lao i tot i was feeling lucky cos i saw sooo many zhao cai mao waving at me. so i decided to try my luck from singapore pools. haix only waste my money. i nxt time die oso dun wan buy already. mr xu dun influence me by oways buying them rite in front of me leh. den my hands itchy.

HAHAHs ok enuff. pardon me for my lousy english. hmm life's been great so far. been kinda busy. didnt get a chance to rest properly at home. and i nid to attend the asean thing tmr. SUPER SIAN. really regretted gg. den i will miss his bday. which he didnt blame me. and smmore i'm cheap labour stil nid to wear formal for seven days. like wth. watevers lar too late to back out now.

yea i'm lookin forward to thurs de mahjong session hope i win some $$$$ i'm so poor now T__T

i found my childhood memory by completing the sand art wif baby oh HAAHAHAHA we are sooooo childish LOL!!!! i wan go picnic, go JB, eat ur handmade food, shopping, singing, prepare lunch tgt, play mahjong, go arcade, watch movies, eat all the good food in singapore, and and and....... so many things to do wif you yet soo little time left. i guess life will be boring wif u in army. but nvm i will find something to entertain myself heh heh ^ ^

when will money drop from the sky??? and i missed ur call ytd. im so sorry i was sleeping already heh. call me some other day =)) i'm good hope u are doing fine to.

I’m feeling so bored. I nid to attend the ASEAN briefing later on. Wonder how long it would drag on.

Poor me has no breakfast and lunch I hope I dun faint halfway during the meeting. They better provide us wif some tea break man!!!! HAHAHAHs











I asked myself what I have done for u. but I cant find any to start with. The things u have done for me. I took them all for granted. At the end of the day, I only threw my temper at u, hurting u, ignoring the things u did. I was self-centered all along. I was only thinking abt myself. It’s all wrong. The way u care and the effort u put in way surpass what I place in this relationship. Den when I realize it, all I could do was to say I’m sorry. But all u did was to console me. Waking u in the middle of the night making u worry. Calling me continuously to ensure I was alrite. I’m really so sorry. I always walked off leaving u alone behind. But u nv once gt angry wif my attitude. All u did was to chase aft me. I always took off the ring when I’m angry, but u nv once did that. I guess I hurt u every single time I did tat. The effort u place in to meet my frends. But all I did was always so reluctant to meet ur frends and not placing in any effort to tok to them. when u cook things for me, all I did was to wait, not lifting my fingers to help. And when u are ready I complained tat u took such long time to prepare. But I nv tot of how early u wake up to go to the wet market to get the things for me. Cooking all the things I wanna eat. But when I saw how u helped me and how happy u were when I decided to cook for u. I was remorseful. Tell me I’m wrong. These are only a small part of what u did for me. I’m distraught. I asked for more and more each single time. I was nv satisfied. I’m always finding fault at u. I’m really so sorry my dear. When I told u everything last nite, all u did was to tel me not to worry. All u did was to make me promise I wil not keep anything from u. All u did was to tel me u dun mind and u will make me happier when I’m happy. To clear my sadness when I’m upset. I guess I was never good enough for u. what can I do? I’m sorry. Really so sorry. Last time I used to tel u sorry doesn’t help one bit. Show me actions. And this time round I will prove it to u. it’s no longer jus u trying to make things work =)

Actually I shld be in bed now resting… but den I decided to blog 1st before I do that..

Hmmm I’ve been wondering what wil happen when he’s enlisted.

I’m stressing out. I dun noe how. Hmmm.

I hope I recover soon.. he doesnt seem to noe what is happening to me. but it's ok. jus a few more days.

Shall go and rest now while waiting for ron to call me. been a long time since we last catch up wif each other. poor thing i shld vent all my frustrations on him again LOL.

Life’s been fabulous ever since my attachment ended…Mahjong session every week with joan they all is soooo freaking fun and hilarious LOL… met up wif auntie tan and catch up wif her life…

Mailing stuff to agnes. PS!!! Agnes ar if u are reading I tel u ur freaking mail is so freaking exp u better finish up every single noodle OK if not I kill u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! too bad u cant have ur sambal the person say cannot mail by air to u can only mail by ship which takes abt 2 and a half months.. like wth u are back already wahahahhaha.. since we are such nice frends, pls upgrade me, we have improved a little, actually we are not so shallow after all LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Take care girl and cya soon =)) we miss u here!!! And I received ur postcard!!!!! Come back soon =D

Outings with dearest was fun =)) and thanks for ur surprises again my dear… but too bad I always noe wat they were… pls improve nxt time wahahahhahahahha =P thanks for every little thing u do =)) I appreciate it I really do even though I always say otherwise… u noe I’m jus kidding rite??AHAHAHAHS

I’m contented wif my current life =)))

(dear fellow frends, for those who met wif prob recently, I hope they wil be solved soon (jus kip calm and tink wisely) take care yea, I’m HERE if any of u guys nid HELP.. dun hesitate =)))