but i've seen what we can be like - together.

scribbling on a frosted wall in japan the day after

trying to take a better shot in my room.

i took this picture awhile back, thinking that maybe someday i would show it to you with the words when i got myself a nicer picture, and i did try a couple of shots. but then i guess time ran out on me,but anyhow it was always taken and meant for you, so i've decided to put it here;

(Jack coming back from the future, from altering a single decision - being with her - in his life)

"And we’re in love. After 13 years of marriage we’re still unbelievably in love. You won’t even let me touch you 'til I’ve said it. I sing to you. Not all the time but definitely on special occasions. And we've dealt with our share of surprises and made a lot of sacrifices, but we stayed together. You see, you’re a better person than I am. And it made me a better person to be around you.
I don't know, maybe, maybe it was all just a dream. Maybe I went to bed one lonely night in December and I imagined it all. But I swear, nothing’s ever felt more real. And if you get on that plane right now, it’ll disappear forever.

I know we could both go on with our lives, and we’d both be fine. But I’ve seen what we can be like together.

And I choose us."

- The Family Man

when i first heard this words, you came to mind. and i thought that someday i would love for you to hear them, of course without all the circumstances. but i guess sometimes we cant quite control where we go, as much as we want to grab the wheel and swerve it one side. and you know the really sad part is that i thought leaving someone to make someone else happy was always a hollywood myth to emphasize the extent of love. i just never thought it would be me. i miss you a lot. if you (probably my only reader) do read this, talk to me sometime soon - please?

perhaps it is how fate would have it.

In a world of 6 billion individuals,
in a city of 4 million people,
i found you.

when all i can think of is you.

6 days, Stranger: A water droplet?

Me: No, a single tear. And it has in it all the pain and the love that could have been.

one day in and all i get is this pounding of the heart amongst a ton of work, and the immeasurable searing pain that doesn't seem to know when to stop eating at my heart. i wish you would turn around and tell me everything's fine. i wish you would wake up in the morning and start in anew. i wish i could hold you one last time and tell you it'll be alright, that we'll wake up feeling fine.

in 7 days.

i thought if i stopped to love you/ maybe you would love me back.

i guess i was wrong.

so for once i lied to you, that maybe i was going to be ok, but i'm not, and i don't think i'm going to be for a while.

darkness/light

if only you knew how you can light up my life.

or snuff it out.