Life is full of WTFs.

So much for looking forward to and that's what I get.

After some thought, I think you are doing fine and will do fine.


I am so so filled with hatred and anger right now that I will bite!



-tHe eNd-

Christmas is coming! But nah, I'm not a very xmas person.. just trying to act.."WOW! Xmas is comingggggggggggg! YAY!" coz it's supposed to be a happy season.

o please. -roll eyes-

But anyway, I came across this xmas cookies recipe on a blogger's website.
And it seemed pretty okay..doesn't seem to be very difficult.
I have always wanted to try out baking and cooking recipes...but the lazy fairy always win. If not, either the recipes look complicated or it has some weird ingredients which I am not bothered to find out at all.


What I need is a fuss-free and idiot-proof recipe! LOL


Yupz, and this recipe i found seems to fit the bill.
I even wrote (hello? HANDWRITTEN ok!) down the recipe lah! I didn't type it out...see how much my sincerity is! LOL
And YESSSS, I'm feeling rather excited to carry out this mission!



SO, who wants to battle this with me and be my cutieeeeee little guinea pig to try out this Christmasssss cooookies recipe??!
-blinks blinks-
It's gonna be fun!!! =)

LOL

[[No tummy aches. *I promise*]]

Or maybe I shouldn't depend on anyone else. Just do it myself! =)
lol

On a side-note, I just came across a recipe on how to make mushroom soup! Not ur normal kind of Campbells soup, u gooondo. As in made from scratch. Seems pretty OK too.
Quite tempted to make it even though some of the ingredients look kind of fattening. -.-



Okay.......this is so unlike of me. (as in all the rave abt cooking and baking.) But accept it, the cooking mama within me is emerging! (muahaha) It's the cooking genes from my dad and mom lah. OR is it due to the fact that I'm having study break now + procrastinating to start on my dissertation, that I'm trying to find other things to do.

O well, we'll see we'll see.



Gonna bring Rocky for his checkup tmr.
Gained weight = Need to exercise and slim down = Eat less. SIGH. =(

Shoo fats shoo!


Last point.
I want to make the cookies sooooon! Before my excitement dies down. -.- And maybe the mushroom soup too! lol (Ok, i shall go cut the mushroom soup article out heee.)



-tHe eNd-

Cleaned Rocky's ears and clipped his super hard and long nails the day before.
Clipping his nails is like playing tug-of-war. Damn tiring!
He hates his nails being clipped coz he bled previously when dad and mom did.
Cannot blame them. It's difficult to see where their veins are so the next clip might just be clipping off his vein..and tadah, blooooood.

It was my 1st time clipping. So, I was being extra extra extra careful and was even more scared than him can.
Thank god, only had one small bleeding incident.
At times, he felt so shiok tt I saw him dozing off! LOL
Not bad for a first timer. =)


Brought Rocky for some morning jog (for fun only lah) ystday so that the rough cement texture can file his nails.
We were doing some very light jog but soon enough he got tired and slowed down without me knowing. When I realised that he was lagging quite a distance, he was actually just brisked walking. lol

Only then, I realised that he has aged..... alot.
U can see the tiredness through his eyes. And, his eyes.... are no longer as sparkly. They are getting a bit blurry.
Old age. cataract? sigh. I hope it doesn't hit him so fast.

We took the stairs home. After climbing two to three levels, he was too tired to move. So I carried him while I continued to walk up.

Reached home and he was totally flat. He was resting for the next 24hrs..ie. sleeping and recuperating whenever he can. He was still being his usual self (ie. his greediness lol) except that u can see and feel his tiredness.

Once, he (the greedy one) was watching me eat. But coz he was so tired, he was actually struggling to keep his eyes open while watching me eat!
LOL He arz.... buay tahan but heart melts.


Sigh. Heartwrenching. Depressing.

He has aged alot. =(
I dun wanna lose him.
It's alrdy so depressing to write this and my tears cannot stop flowing.
I can feel my face swelling.
I cannot imagine how I will be when the day comes.
Please, I never ever want to have such day.

I have always been praying hard for every single goodness for you.
I'm scared. I'm really scared.
I love you, Rocky.



-tHe eNd-

It's the period of exams again! And yes, i know. I shouldn't appear here. lol
Just had the urge to post. I shall make a quick one.

深夜里，只有狗狗了了我心中的痛。

抱着软绵绵的被子呐喊一切的不愉快。

希望没人听到，只求老天爷知道。

我以泪洗脸，以被子为温暖。

哭累了，泪也没了，没力气了， 我也不知不觉地睡着了。

就像个小孩在妈妈的胸膛里安稳地睡着了。

就算我哭也没关系，因为都不管你的事。

以为你了，可你不知。

说了，你也不了。

为什么? ... 算了，只好看开一点吧。

我都习惯了。

-tHe eNd-

I'm not sure if this step is good.
But it is to take no step.
Feeling reluctant to take the next step because of fear.
Fear of disappointment.
Like what's the point?
Sometimes, I rather not...
Instead, it makes me worse.
Maybe, no step for now to make things numb.



Black, white, blue.
Crashing world of 0 to 9.
Salty.



-tHe eNd-

I know I haven been here for a long long time.
Probably nobody comes anymore.
But I don't care.

sighs.
Just coming back to say hello and I'm not dead.

Many things happened since my last entry.
I just survived my 4 months of holiday, followed by a week in school and a month of self-study break, which ends today.
Time for school tmr.

Not really in a mood to say much now.

Time leaves no time for anyone.
Think back.
When was the last time?
I don't even rmb, do u?



-tHe eNd-