i have 2 things on my mind at the moment.. but dun feel like blogging it coz its too public.. neither do i want to write it down in my diary because i'm too lazy to lift up my pen.. haa.. i shall keep it to myself then.. haha..

okie.. basically this is a nonsensical post.. ignore pls!

i juz hate myself! wanted to study today.. in the end i din even finish my imparo-_- hais.. haha.. always like this.. i need to feel the motivation again!! tml is appreciation dinner.. take up my time again.. tues is a meet up with friends day.. i think i'll only start studying on wed!! oh well.. nvm.. bad mood lar.. why can't i be more self-disciplined... boos=(

i stopped studiowu's lesson for a few weeks le.. I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE.. hahaha.. though i am still having my d'hoppers lessons, but once every week is juz not enough.. but today is quite fun.. and thanks for the cake=) i love u guys!! haha.. now is mid-term break.. shall sign up for lessons again~~~ realli keep thinking abt dance leh.. maybe go osch with josephine they all on thurs=) grins..

nonos.. i must concentrate on studies too.. cannot cui again this sem.. but the stupid imparo and aris dun like my mac.. i can't load the questions properly.. sigh.. shall do with desktop laters...

got to blog abt yesterday.. a big thankyou to all raggers (old and young!) for celebrating my bdae!

at first it was juz dinner on tues.. so i was thinking join alvin and sara to study still dinner time.. alvin sent me a msg to ask me dun pangseh. go pc cluster to mug.. so i went there, tog with some friends.. then he suddenly ask me to pei him go get some food.. so i said yes.. and went down.. grabbed my new bf ==> yanteng!! along heee.. then we walk till techno there i was asking them whether they wan proper meal or snacks.. and alvin said wanna go dilys.. so i orh.. after a few sec, he say he need to meet his friend and ask us to juz follow him.. then we met siqian and ziqi.. siqian was like asking us a question regarding fluid mech.. erms.. then ziqi was saying, u all take fluid mech also, teach her leh.. then she hurried off.. siqian like so stressed so i also trying to see if i can explain to her.. then after tt i heard a grp of ppl singing bdae song.. i was like oh, someone's bdae ar.. then siqian joined in to sing.. i was stunned.. erps.. its for me! hahaha.. i felt so dumbo!! dumb dumb leh!! haha.. but i veri happy and touched.. thanks guys! i dun think they read my blog.. but realli happy=) haha.. but i realli felt so dumb dumb coz they were all acting weirdly and i din suspect anything.. hahaha.. it was a nice surprise!!

then after tt kaiyun yipei alvin ziqi and me went vivocity for dinner.. thanks for having dinner with me though u all have tests the next day.. thanks! i feel so bad!~

thank you everyone who sent their wishes to me.. thanks for all the presents too.. love them all!

thanks jie jie for the supposed-to-be-a-surprise cakes. sweet surprise still lar despite me finding out abt the cakes first when i open the fridge to dig for food~ there's no point thanking my mummy for the dinner on sunday and the nice princess-y hairband coz she doesn't read my blog.. HAHA.. but thankyou to choonming and shiya who came along too!

end of bdae celebration!! now back to WORK!!!

$ is a bad thing in this world.. can someone please remove it?? thanks...

came home feeling grumpy last nite but was cheered up by the nice present from my sis.. a quilt!! something i need!! haha.. its so comfy.. i slept under it last nite! thanks alot jie!!~~

i'm veri happy today because everything feels right.. my right eyelid is double instead of the usual triple.. haha.. except for the assignment part.. i planned to do my assignment from morning today but its 2pm now yet i have not started on it yet.. but its ok.. because i have a wonderful morning..

my tutee wanted tuition this morning. but i had a feeling i may be busy so i told her better not.. so we had tuition on sat morning instead.. luckily we had it on sat...read on!
usualli i off my hp to sleep. but last nite i was charging my hp so i was lazy to turn it off. my sis asked me whether its on silent. i told her yes.. its on silent mode.. actualli its not on silent mode..because i heard my phone rang in the morning!! its was yiiean on the phone asking me to open door! oh my goodness... hahaha... xiuli and yiiean came my hse to gimme a surprise!! thankyou!!! so nice of u 2~~ i love the presents.. thanks thanks!!

the cake xiuli bake for us!! yummy yum yum~~~
we had breakfast at macs.. i consumed the most calories~~~ coz i ate bagel, hashbrown and icemilo!!!!

okie.. shall start on my work soon~~

oh dear oh dear.. it has been 5 weeks since sch started!! time realli flies.. i was damn shock on monday when yanteng told me, 2 more weeks to mid-term!! i was so stunned.. haa... because i felt as though i've juz settled down.. nono wait.. juz abt to start settling down.. HAHAA.. what happen to my "i will study hard this sem!"???? NOO0000oooo.... i cannot be like this anymore.. i cannot pon lectures anymore.. i cannot sleep during classes anymore.. i must do my tutorials diligently.. i need determination to work hard!! maybe its my time management problems ba!! i always find tt i have no time.. though i do have some time.. haha.. deads... time to wake up!!!!

yipei forwarded me this email.. perhaps i juz post it here..

Useful tips against RAPIST(for all ladies out there...)


This is important information for females of ALL ages . Guys - please
> > > forward to the female members of your family and all your female friends
> > > and associates.
> > >
> > > When this was sent to me, I was told to forward it to my lady friends. I
> > > forwarded it to most everyone in my address book. My friends have female
> > > friends and this information is too important to miss someone. Please
> >pass
> > > it along.
> > >
> > > A group of rapists and date rapists in prison were interviewed on what
> > > they look for in a potential victim and here are some interesting facts
> >:
> > >
> > > 1) The first thing men look for in a potential victim is hairstyle. They
> > > are most likely to go after a woman with a ponytail, bun, braid or other
> > > hairstyle that can easily be grabbed . They are also likely to go after
> >a
> > > woman with long hair . Women with short hair are not common targets.
> > >
> > > 2) The second thing men look for is clothing . They will look for women
> > > who's clothing is easy to remove quickly . Many of them carry scissors
> > > around specifically to cut clothing.
> > >
> > > 3) They also look for women on their cell phone , searching through
> >their
> > > purse or doing other activities while walking because they are off guard
> > > and can be easily overpowered.
> > >
> > >
> > > 4) Men are most likely to attack & rape in the early morning, between 5:
> > > 00am . and 8: 30a.m.
> > >
> > > 5) The number one place women are abducted from/attacked is grocery
> >store
> > > parking lots . Number two is office parking lots/garages . Number
> >three
> > > is public restrooms .
> > >
> > > 6) The thing about these men is that they are looking to grab a woman
> >and
> > > quickly move her to another location where they don't have to worry
> >about
> > > getting caught.
> > >
> > >
> > > 7) Only 2% said they carried weapons because rape carries a 3-5 year
> > > sentence but rape with a weapon is 15-20 years
> > >
> > >
> > > 8) If you put up any kind of a fight at all, they get discouraged
> >because
> > > it only takes a minute or two for them to realize that going after you
> > > isn't worth it because it will be time-consuming.
> > >
> > >
> > > 9) These men said they would not pick on women who have umbrellas, or
> > > other similar objects that can be used from a distance, in their hands.
> > > Keys are not a deterrent because you have to get really close to the
> > > attacker to use them as a weapon. So, the idea is to convince these guys
> > > you're not worth it.
> > >
> > >
> > > 10) Several defense mechanisms he taught us are: If someone is following
> > > behind you on a street or in a garage or with you in an elevator or
> > > stairwell, look them in the face and ask them a question , like what
> >time
> > > is it, or make general small talk: 'I can't believe it is so cold out
> > > here', 'we're in for a bad winter.' Now you've seen their face and could
> > > identify them in a line-up; you lose appeal as a target.
> > >
> > >
> > > 11) If someone is coming toward you , hold out your hands in front of
> >you
> > > and yell STOP or STAY BACK ! Most of the rapists this man talked to said
> > > they'd leave a woman alone if she yelled or showed that she would not be
> > > afraid to fight back . Again, they are looking for an EASY target.
> > >
> > >
> > > 12) If you carry pepper spray (this instructor was a huge advocate of it
> > > and carries it with him wherever he goes,) yell I HAVE PEPPER SPRAY and
> > > holding it out will be a deterrent.
> > >
> > >
> > > 13) If someone grabs you , you can't beat them with strength but you can
> > > by outsmart ing them . If you are grabbed around the waist from behind,
> > > pinch the attacker either under the arm (between the elbow and armpit)
> >OR
> > > in the upper inner thigh VERY VERY HARD . One woman in a class this guy
> > > taught told him she used the underarm pinch on a guy who was trying to
> > > date rape her and was so upset she broke through the skin and tore out
> > > muscle strands - the guy needed stitches. Try pinching yourself in
> >those
> > > places as hard as you can stand it; it hurts.
> > >
> > >
> > > 14) After the initial hit, always GO for the GROIN . I know from a
> > > particularly unfortunate experience that if you slap a guy's parts it is
> > > extremely painful. You might think that you'll anger the guy and make
> >him
> > > want to hurt you more, but the thing these rapists told our instructor
> >is
> > > that they want a woman who will not cause a lot of trouble. Start
> >causing
> > > trouble, and he's out of there.
> > >
> > >
> > > 15) When the guy puts his hands up to you , grab his first two fingers
> >and
> > > bend them back as far as possible with as much pressure pushing down on
> > > them as possible . The instructor did it to me without using much
> > > pressure, and I ended up on my knees and both knuckles cracked audibly.
> > >
> > >
> > > 16) Of course the things we always hear still apply. Always be aware of
> > > your surroundings, take someone with you if you can and if you see any
> >odd
> > > behavior, don't dismiss it, go with your instincts!!! You may feel a
> > > little silly at the time, but you'd feel much worse if the guy really
> >was
> > > trouble.
> > >
> > > PLEASE READ THEN FORWARD THIS TO EVERY WOMAN YOU KNOW, IT'S SIMPLE STUFF
> > > BUT IT COULD SAVE HER LIFE

there are alot of things waiting for me to do.. but i dun feel like doing anything at all.. so many ppl i wanna meet.. but yet there's this great inertia to ask ppl out.. i feel like staying at home and do nthg.. but i will feel bored and lonely.. haa.. i'm juz hard to please.. haha.. there's this emptiness that makes me blog sometimes.. late at night.. i feel like talking to someone yet i dunno who i can talk to.. dun feel like disturbing anyone also.. so blog lor.. haha.. talk abt wat? i also dunno.. juz feel like talking.. because feeling quite moody.. but i think i'll be alright after a good night's sleep.. but hey i drank milktea+coffee today.. and i'm super caffeine intolerant.. dunno wat time i can sleep! =( so i'm here talking rubbish.. i'm sorry tt this blog is no longer updating u abt my life.. but instead updating u when i'm having mood swings.. haa. which is no good.. i shud record down the happy moments of my life and not the sad ones!! but nthg to be happy abt at this moment.. so oh well..

i juz typed a whole load of crap.. think i go try to sleep.. haha..i'm not making sense again.. ZZZzzz