The Most Wonderful Time of the Year... NOT!!

I'm ill. AGAIN. just got well from the flu last week and now i've got something worse. think i had a fever the other night and my whole body was aching so bad i felt like i had just run a marathon. not that i've ran in one before but i suppose that is how an unfit like me would feel like after all that exercise. but i digress. now i have a blinking sore throat that hurts so damn bad i feel like someone just burnt a hole in my throat. gahhhh. how am i supposed to enjoy all the christmas foodie goodies when swallowing's a bitch. my nose and even ears are blocked too. sigh. i want my turkey, ham and all the other stuff.

mom and brother going shopping later but cause i ain't feeling too good i'm staying home. boooo.

y'know, christmas is a great time to use the common expressions 'hoho' and 'bah'. now they take on greater significance being linked to santa and scrooge.

On Disappointment (Part two)

"At first it can be very hard to accept how disappointing life is because that's what it is and you have to accept it. With faith and time and hard work you reach a point... where the disappointment doesn't hurt as much, and then it gets actually easy to live with. Quite easy. Which is in its own way a disappointment. But. There."

- Angels in America

Rent me a Little Prince

caught The Little Prince today! hee. it was so fun! there were many many kids there and they got restless after awhile and started making lots of noise. but i guess that's just something you have to accept if u wanna watch a kids play. hur. anyways! it was time well spent cause the show was funny, thought provoking, i liked the actors, and the costumes were gorgeous!

there was a Q and A after the show, but nobody asked any questions so the actors asked us what we thought happened to the little prince in the end.

what the kids thought...
"he grew up!"

"he went home!"

what the grown ups were thinking but didn't wanna say...

"he died!"

In contrast to The Little Prince (which only cost 16bucks!), Rent was so boring people actually fell asleep. it was going on and on forever (about 2.5hrs) and i just wanted to get out. the singing was good though. i'll give them that. oh and kallang theatre really sucks cause they always let people in even if they are friggin half an hour late! it's bloody irritating when there are people walking around blocking your view and ushers shining their torches all over. for heaven's sake, just let em stand at the back till intermission. they deserve it. bah. i'm just glad i didn't have to pay for my ticket.

i bought a monkey today. a stuffed toy monkey, that is. he's damn cute and feels furry and nice. he's really flexible, so i make him do tricks like flipping over and stuff. i like him, so i hung him on the handle of my drawer. i thought i'd name him mr. monks cause it sounds funny. but now i've decided to call him marcel. after Ross's (from friends!) monkey! marcel!

and now it's back to my books.

On Mess

my room's in an amazing mess. it looks like a junkyard/ war zone. like a hurricane just made a visit. i can't see the floor. i have to walk over stuff to get to my bed. when i get to my bed i have to throw stuff off it so i can have space for myself. i can't see my tabletop cos it's littered with paper and books and chocolate wrappings. hur. it's quite unbelievable, really. best part is, i don't have time to clear the mess.

but i have time to blog about it.

On Disappointment

disappointment is like a whiff of body odour. you never know when it's gonna hit and when it does, it stinks. real. bad.

On Death and Exams

am having difficulty breathing. which got me thinking about dying in my sleep. i used to think that would be the best way to die. and i guess it still is. but the thought of going to sleep and never waking up ever again is kinda scary. and the funny thing is if that were to happen, i don't think my parents would even find out about it. they'd prolly find me a few days later when they smell something funny coming from my room. haha.

so anyway, i realised that i've actually got alot more to study for the exams than i thought. got a stack of readings to do. and many films to watch. the thought of sitting in the library in discomfort for hours to watch films kills me. sigh. and i was so happy thinking that i could slack since i have 2 weeks to study. but looking at the rate i'm going, now it seems 2 weeks isn't gonna be enough. going through that typical stressed-because-i'm-not-stressed phase. oh well. let's see how much i can squeeze in before the exams.

maybe that's why i'm having difficulty breathing. anxiety. ahhh. start. mugging.

essays debilitate me

it's been pouring for hours

i need some sleep

hello, world

here's a little song for all the sad people...

Smile - Nat King Cole

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Word of the Day: Profundity

Pronunciation: pr&-'f&n-d&-tE
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural -ties
Etymology: Middle English profundite, from Middle French profundité, from Latin profunditat-, profunditas depth, from profundus
1 a : intellectual depth b : something profound or abstruse
2 : the quality or state of being profound or deep

snow has covered the thousand mountains; why does one lonely peak remain unwhitened?

Nature Boy By Nat King Cole

There was a boy...
A very strange enchanted boy.
They say he wandered very far, very far
Over land and sea,
A little shy and sad of eye
But very wise was he.

And then one day,
A magic day, he passed my way.
And while we spoke of many things,
Fools and kings,
This he said to me,
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn
Is just to love and be loved in return."

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn
Is just to love and be loved in return."

the last post was utterly inane. apologies... to whoever still comes to this blog.

Maybe...

I think i experienced it today. PMS. and the mood swings that come along with it. i've never understood it, cause i've never experienced it. or so i think. maybe it's cause i'm emotional everyday. i hide my emotions well in front of others but i scream, laugh, jump around like an idiot, when no one's around. i cry really easily, but no one has seen me cry before (i hope). my sadness never lasts long, but neither does my happiness.

so, maybe the reason why i think that i've never gotten the PMS mood swings before is because i experience it everyday.

Trouble Sleeping - The Perishers

I'm having trouble sleeping
You're jumping in my bed
Twisting in my head
Leave me

I'm having trouble breathing
You're sitting on my chest
I sure could use the rest
Leave me

It's you
Why’s it always you
and never me?
I've never dared to let
my feelings free
Why's it always you
and never me?
I've never cared
too much about honesty

I'm having trouble sleeping
I'm thinking of what you said
About the tears been shed
Leave me

It's you
Now and always you
but never me
I've never dared to
let my feelings free
Why's it always you
and never me?
I've never cared
too much about honesty

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. nat
2. woman (brother calls me this)
3. girl (other bro calls me this)


THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Princess's backside
2. princess backside
3. catatonic


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. nose
2. ankles
3. wrists


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. nose
2. shoulders
3. my unstraight legs. hurhur


THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. chinese
2. chinese
3. chinese


THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. my mind
2. the dark
3. toilets


THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. sleep. lots of it.
2. food. lots of it.
3. brushing my teeth n wearing my retainers


THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. undies
2. PJs
3. -


THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. goo goo dolls
2. weezer
3. The Beatles


THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. stay (faraway, so close!) - U2
2. high and dry - Radiohead
3. EZ - Pete Yorn


THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. love
2. fun
3. spontaneity


TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. i'm into the color black now
2. water is my favourite drink
3. foxtrot is my fave comic strip


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Shoulders
2. non skinny legs
3. nice sideburns!!


THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. drawing/ doodling
2. listening to music
3. lying immobile in bed


THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. rob hmv of a truckload of cds
2. rob kino of a truckload of books
3. win the lottery so i can buy those stuff instead


THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. cashier at Cheers in Simei. 7-11 would be fine too
2. bus driver
3. post(wo)man


THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Isreal
2. Africa
3. Spain


THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Hayley
2. Luke
3. Joseph


THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. have a baby
2. be able to do a backflip. hah.
3. jump around on a trampoline


THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. i check out girls. all the time.
2. i'm messy and i hate baths
3. i'm an asshole

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i'm afraid of lizards
2. i love chocolates
3. i say "so cuuuute!" quite often


THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Johnny Depp
2. Denise Keller
3. Jude Law


THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. everybody
2. anybody
3. bah

do you find it hard sometimes to approach people, to tell someone that you care about him/her, to say "hey tell me what's going on in your life, share your problems with me"?

i do. not only sometimes but probably all the time.

why is this so? it's not like showing concern is a bad thing.

maybe it's the fear of rejection. the possibility of offering your shoulder to cry on only to hear the words, "i don't wanna talk about it", or worse, "leave me alone". i always have this notion that if someone wants to talk to you, he'll approach you. no point making the first move. but i also realise this is fallacious reasoning. hah.

maybe it's the fear of being labelled a nosey parker? or the fear of making the person more upset by bringing up the unhappy stuff?

ok, my brain is not taking well to all this analysis! so i shall stop. brain is tired. needs to watch some tv to recharge. but before i go, i shall complain about something which i think i enjoy complaining about - technology:

i've not been able to sign into msn for the past 2 days. wassup with that?? and the computer is really irritating me cos sometimes pages take forever to load, or can't even connect to the site, and often the images dun appear! @#%$@$%^%#!

The Arts House is such an awesome building. wish i could live in an old colonial building like that.

braving the rain to catch the Jafri meets Warhol exhibition must be one of the more exciting things i've done this year. never thought i'd actually be able to see any of andy warhol's work for real instead of in books! for free too. and they even gave a book with pics of all the works that were displayed. marrrvelous.

free entertainment. i like! beats watching a movie. so bloody expensive now. grrr.

hokay. shall blog while waiting for my hair to dry (gonna take damn long. argh).

it's raining now. such nice weather.

was tricked into going mambo. or maybe the term emotional blackmail is more apt. some ppl so cunning huh! raaarrr!

it was as crowded as... i dunno... beans in a can?? how come so many people are free on a wednesday night? there were two gay guys dancing to britney. they were really into it. t'was super funny. and gross. haha. and wah lao! a glass came flying and landed at my feet and its contents were splashed on me. bloody hell.

it might've been more fun than the last time i went. but....

i swear these activities are too happening for my old age. i just wanna sit in my rocking chair with my reading glasses and a book, or paint, cross-stitch (?!) or something. far from the madding crowd!

quotes of the day:

i have no friends. nobody loves me.

i don't friend you!

you bully me! i tell my mummy!

lazy and tired. sigh. so tired. and i've not been doing anything to warrant this lethargy. maybe the exams sapped the life outta me. i don't even feel like going out. just wanna stay home and do nothing. watch tv.. eat.. be a couch potato. i marvel at how some people have the energy to go out everyday. seriously! wow even typing that exclamation mark took some energy. i'll just stick to full stops.

i don't even know why i'm blogging. cause it's quite a chore, really. don't fiind much joy in blogging these days.

ants are the stupidest things around. the crawl into cups of water and drown emselves. why? maybe they do it on purpose... suicide.

in about an hour's time, i'll have to drag myself outta the house. argh. i hope this lassitude will go away soon. like later.

IT'S OVER!!!!!

2 weeks of unadulterated torture!!

i must say this. i am damn unlucky! whatever i DIDN'T study came out for the exams. like for all the five papers. not one. but all. five. bloody. papers. what are the chances?!

lesson learnt: next time study everything.

hah. as if that's possible.

consummatum est! consummatum est!!

got some studying done yesterday and today. not bad. BUT. i don't think i'll have enough time to finish whatever readings i have. sucks man. should've started earlier. heh. but that's what i said last sem. and the sem before. and the sem before that. do i ever learn???

obviously, NOT.

been sleeping alot the past few days. argh. even the alarm can't wake me. which is really surprising cos the alarm has ALWAYS been able to wake me. it's just the past few days that i totally don't seem to hear the alarm. so i've been waking at crazy hours like 5pm. sheesh. and i still feel sleepy. something's wrong with me.

the spongebob movie has some really cool songs. haha. was listening to some that pok downloaded the other day. there's this song called goofy goober rock (!?) which sounds quite old skool. it even has a guitar solo! haha. and another by the flaming lips. i really like this! hahahah. the songs are totally NOT typical cartoon songs. go listen! good stress-buster. hurhur. k i think studying has gotten to me.

the new pope's name is ratzinger. now is that a cool name or is that a cool name?? and he looks pope-y. i like him already.

think i should go sleep. hopefully, i'll be able to wake up at some normal hour tmr.

i'm refusing to study despite my horrific realisation on sunday that the exams are in two weeks time. so i'm still pretty contented watching The Practice, going to Macs for supper, and wasting my time online instead of studying. it perplexes me, really, how i can be worried yet not do anything about it but worry.

alright, i'll end off with the most comical part of today's episode of The Practice. goes something like this:

go ahead. slap me. i know you want to slap me but you're afraid it would turn me on. slap me. - the ludicrous Alan Shore

the dark side's just gotten more attractive. MnMs!! yummaye.

oh gawd! today's (sunday) pearls before swine is so stupid!! hahahaha.

and i've been wanting to post about this for awhile now: lit is getting to me!!

the other day i was watching some perfume ad (ralph lauren i think) where this girl picks up an apple, eats it and looks at this guy or something. IMMEDIATELY, i thought "adam and eve. transgression. the fall." then i was like, "shit man, why am i thinking about this?!"

wassup with that!! stupid MILTON and his Paradise Lost!!

and something else happened which had to do with being influenced by lit. but i can't remember what now.

ok, that's all. point is, too much lit is bad for you. can't even watch tv in peace. gah.

feeling hap hap happy! wonder why. oh, it must be cos all my essays are over and done with! WHOOHOOOOOO!!!

was doing my essay till like 730 in the morning. slept fer about 3 hours then woke up to continue doing. hahahah. and i finished it just in time! bouts 350. supposed to hand in at 4. was really rushing like hell. editing's a bitch.

i really must learn to be more decisive.

they should build a freaking lift at AS5.

some people just irritate me. and i feel bad about being irritated.

mass was fun. i'm surprised that i went and even more surprised that it put me in a good mood.

hokay. shall get ready for Smallville!

headed to tung lok at paramount with the family for dinner. but as luck would have it, there was a wedding dinner going on. so, no space fer us! dammitt. i deserve a good meal after a crappy week of school. and now i'm hungry.

quote of the day: "you pay peanuts, you get monkey"

my brother and i bonded over ewww-ing at the miss singapore contestants with psychotic smiles. hur.

wrote 2 pages of my essay. lalala. am not looking forward to tmr...

i feel like i'm talking to myself... or the computer screen. blogging is kind of a dumb activity. i should stop talking now.

How was Your day?

today was a really really really really baaaaaad day.

an example: somehow the cap on my bottle got loose even though i made sure i closed it tight. how did that happen?!?! so. my bag was freaking FLOODED with water! like a few inches high! and i didn't even realise till i reached in to find my paper. which was dripping wet needless to say. so i went to the toilet and poured out the water.

thinking back, it was quite a funny sight... bag filled with water. but at that moment it was so not funny. rarrrgh.

add a million other bad things that happened and you get one helluva stupid day.

oh! but i just caught One Tree Hill! and i still love it though i missed like dunno how many episodes of the first season. ppl, do watch this instead of The O.C. it is waaaaaay better. they play damn good music on the show too. i think i like this series even more than Smallville. hmm...

grammatically handicapped

i keep making stupid grammatical mistakes!! what is wrong with me?!? i need to go back to primary school.

fuck grammar lah. tmr would be a funner day!

waiting waiting waiting
listening listening listening
blogging blogging blogging
hating hating hating
sighing sighing sighing
thinking thinking thinking

alrighty then...

music: a sorta fairytale - tori amos

i'm such a chickenshit i can't stand myself!!

was just TRYING to watch Sleepy Hollow for my essay.. BUT.. i got freaked out within the first 2mins and... i can't bring myself to continue watching it. and it's not even like i'm watching it in the dark of night. broad daylight!

guess i have two options now:
1) don't write about this film for my essay (not good for essay)
2) find someone to watch this with (i'll still be freaked out. not good for me)

bah.

in other news...

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MELLL!

i'm such a chickenshit i can't stand myself!!

was just TRYING to watch Sleepy Hollow for my essay.. BUT.. i got freaked out within the first 2mins and... i can't bring myself to continue watching it. and i'm like watching it broad daylight.

guess i have two options now:
1) don't write about this film for my essay (not good for essay)
2) find someone to watch this with (i'll still be freaked out. not good for me)

bah.

in other news...

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MELLL!

i'm such a chickenshit i can't stand myself!!

was just TRYING to watch Sleepy Hollow for my essay.. BUT.. i got freaked out within the first 2mins and... i can't bring myself to continue watching it. and i'm like watching it broad daylight.

guess i have two options now:
1) don't write about this film for my essay (not good for essay)
2) find someone to watch this with (i'll still be freaked out. not good for me)

bah.

in other news...

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MELLL!

who looks good even with white pasty skin, scars all over his face, and scruffy hair?

Johnny Depp, that's who!!!

edward scissorhands is such a beautiful show.. sigh. the visuals, the music.. everything blends so well together. just watched it again for like the millionth time.. for my essay. and it still made me wanna cry. sighhh.

JOHNNY DEPP!!!

Turning to face what you've become

disillusionment sets in.

so many questions. can't find the answers.

sometimes in life, you cross a hurdle. you think you're doing fine. then comes another hurdle which seems insurmountable.

i'm not even bothering to cross it. and that is bothering me.

Feeling the moment slip away
Losing direction you're losing faith

finding solace in: Feeling a Moment - Feeder

went for dinner with the folks and brother and now i'm home. feels like i haven't been back in yonks!

was just going through my bro's mp3s.. and man.. he has some really old stuff. songs by Gin Blossoms, Soul Asylum.. early 90s rock. haha. remember them?? haven't heard those in awile... guess it's always nice to hear the songs that you used to like when you were a kid.

wanted to say something else.. but i can't remember now. hate it when that happens. which is very often.

Music: Hey Girl - Ray Charles

blogging to relieve stress and not because i'm too free

stupid lecturer... the instructions she put in the workbin said that the essay proposal is due in week 10. and i found out on thursday that it's due this monday! so i'm super busy now. sigh. plus geog essay to do. geog project surveys. and presentation. every single bloody thing on monday. and i've accomplished none of the tasks. i swear i will go crazy. i can't even go home. sigh sigh sigh. stuck in school on a weekend. can life get any suckier? i'll bet it can...

went for the James Moody concert last night. first time in the other half of the durian esplande. first time hearing a jazz band live too. nicer than watching on tv hahaha. i'm so deprived. and it was really good. great acoustics and all. but i almost fell asleep during the second half.. not because it was boring but maybe cause the music was too nice. somehow jazz has this sleep inducing effect on you i think (i'm wondering if that's a good thing). haha. and i use this kind of music for my afternoon naps lah... so naturally i'd feel sleepy. hah. plus few hours of sleep the night before. i think James Moody is damn cute. grandpa-like fat old man with lame sense of humour. hoho. oh and they gave brownies after the concert and they were DAMN good.

guess i should go back to doing work... i'm so sleeeepy.. i don't even need jazz to conk me out. bye.

wah lau ehhh!! must bitch about my presentation group mate! first she was fussy about meeting times. then angie and i both smsed her yesterday and she freaking did NOT reply. tried to add her on msn and the stupid email she gave doesn't have the msn 'passport' thingy so she's not on msn either. was about to email her then i thought, "hell, i should just call her".

lo and behold, she answers. so i purposely asked verrrry nicely,

"oh i msged you yesterday did you get it?"

and she stuttered a little and was like "yahhh.."

so why did she bloody not have the decency to reply?? does she wanna get left out of the presentation?! sheesh.

some people are just beyond me.

stupid geog project. argh. i'm so sick of it. my group doesn't seem to find anything wrong with it.. but i think it totally sucks. the objectives are not even clear to begin with.

caught Anthology over the weekend and it was damn good! it's not like your usual play at all. from the moment we stepped into the theatre, it was dark with lighted candles and the actress was tinkling some eerie tune on the piano. we sat around the piano so it was very close to her. and soon she started singing godknowswat so it was waaaay creepy. plus the smell of incense kinda adds to all that scariness. and the great thing about it is you don't see the 'actress' as an actress and you really believe that she's this neurotic woman made so by the holocaust. it was that real. plus it was a rather interactive play so she was just like talking to the audience. and when the whole thing was over.. she was playing the piano and singing again, and she just said

"you can leave now... but go quietly cos my son is sleeping. go.."

So it ended on that creepy note. no one even applauded or what we all just left as instructed. haha coolness!

this must be the most fun and unique play i've been to. i was disappointed that the holocaust wasn't really talked about much though. oh well.. i wonder if Adolf was better. damn. should've gone for that too.

for some reason i'm really interested in the holocaust. guess you could call it morbid curiosity. i really love the movie The Pianist and Art Spiegelman's Maus. uhm. ok. i don't know what else to say. bye.

feeling like i'm back in primary school... when i used to be damn sad on sundays cos it meant that the weekend's over and there's school the next day. it was a terrible, bad feeling... i really, really dreaded school. i feared it. was scared of it. it was a queasy feeling.

i'm not scared of school anymore now... but i'm having that all too familiar feeling of impending doom.. and immense sadness. and yearning.

sigh.

it's all coming back to me. today, i'm a kid again.

"i tell you something... i got school tomorrow."

Numbers

gosh... i just was just thinking that in 2003 i was in J2. how wrong is that?? am i losing track of time or what?

been quite lazy to blog. sian.

lunched at some shanghainese restaurant in taka with the mother and brother. the food there is good stuff! yumma.

went to kino to get sthg cos brother has a kino card (10% off). stupid thing is the card is non-transferable so when i went to pay, the cashier wanted to see the owner of the card. so i had to 'present' my brother. geeeez. so if i wanna use his card, i'd have to bring along some guy cause all they want is to see a guy cause the name on the card's a guy's name. they didn't even check if he's the real 'mark tang'. might as well not make it non-transferable then. aiya stupid lah! so difficult if i wanna use his card then. or maybe i could just point at some random guy.

then my bro wanted to go to quiksilver. and i dono what happened but i think i decided to take advantage of the fact that my mom and her wallet was around so i got.... shoes! hurhurhur. kinda been eyeing them for damn long. so in the end my brother didn't get anything but i did. muahaha. guess i should thank him for wanting to go there.

one day i'll be too old to be still wearing roxy and all. maybe that day has already passed without my realisation. ha! ha! or maybe that day is coming... like in a few months time when i turn into that horrible monster called ADULT. hohoho. whatever it is, i know that day is soon to come... when i wouldn't dare to wear such stuff anymore. i guess i fear that more than turning 21 for age is but a number (i wish i believed that). but a change in mind-set? now THAT means so much more. maybe cos i'll also hafta like change my whole wardrobe. hah. meanwhile, i'll just enjoy my stuff. hmm. so now i'm judging age based on what is worn. crazy.

So, what's your fashion age?

someday we'll find it, a rainbow connection. the lovers, the dreamers and me.....

Ouch

sometimes you overdo things, either because of miscalculation or over-enthusiasm, and you end up in pain.

how do you when to stop?

bittersweet being back in CJ today =) =( =|

sh's bday party was fun cos i got to see so many cj ppl! the SC ppl are still the same. sigh. just makes me miss the days of yore even more. it was just nice being around familiar ppl again. miss popping into the SC room after coming from the canteen. and i miss the canteen's chicken wings even more! ahh. miss how greg goes 'hi naaat' too. it's damn funny how he calls me. hur.

Happy 21st Small hui!

Simple Fun

the arts museum was damn good fun. cheap entertainment!

last-day-of-CNY dinner with my mom's side was great as well. mom didn't go though. cos she was playing mahjong. unbelievable. this comes around once a year or less (last year we didn't even have dinner) and she foregoes it for stupid mahjong. geez.

i won't be seeing those people till next year. hah. that's quite sad, but it'll come around soon enough.

my dangerous mind

caught Dangerous Liasons tonight. it wasn't too bad. though it was kinda long and i felt a little bored at some parts. hah.

supper. after that i had to walk through the arts museum to get back to city hall mrt cause there was some construction blocking the outside path. and it was damn scary!! cos i was alone. and it's reallllly dark and the building itself's kinda creepy. haha. yikes. at one point i turned a corner and saw some people.. but i think for some reason i like scaring myself so i thought, "what if they're not people?"

continued scarin myself on the walk home. hahaha. think i have quite a wild imagination.

either that or i just watch too much tv.

The Best Kind of Torture

- Looi - http://www.simonhoegsberg.com/ says: bear is here right now

- Looi - http://www.simonhoegsberg.com/ says: askdjhfhajsdlsj

princess backside: bear is KIDNAPPED!!! the kidnapper shall pay for this! says: how come now bear is there

- Looi - http://www.simonhoegsberg.com/ says: that was bear

princess backside: bear is KIDNAPPED!!! the kidnapper shall pay for this! says: wah liewwww

princess backside: bear is KIDNAPPED!!! the kidnapper shall pay for this! says: wat u all doing to him

- Looi - http://www.simonhoegsberg.com/ says: pay the ransom

- Looi - http://www.simonhoegsberg.com/ says: sldkjhf;alsdkjfs

princess backside: bear is KIDNAPPED!!! the kidnapper shall pay for this! says: 'help' ?

- Looi - http://www.simonhoegsberg.com/ says: i'm an accomplice

- Looi - http://www.simonhoegsberg.com/ says: we're making him listen to ashley simpson

princess backside: bear is KIDNAPPED!!! the kidnapper shall pay for this! says: ok why do u have her songs anyway?!?!

- Looi - http://www.simonhoegsberg.com/ says: pay the ransom to stop the torture

princess backside: bear is KIDNAPPED!!! the kidnapper shall pay for this! says: nooooooo

- Looi - http://www.simonhoegsberg.com/ says: i dun but we'll find some

princess backside: bear is KIDNAPPED!!! the kidnapper shall pay for this! says: dun corrupt his mind with bad music!!

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in other news.. ewen's blog is up and running once again. and he has a nice story about a toad. i like. haha.

I can't Bear it!

didn't blog for a week. been pretty busy with work. the break next week's not gonna be much of a break. sighh. i wanna go back to CNY week.

Bear was kidnapped from my room when i wasn't around. grrrr.

CAW was kinda fun. the PnW team did a great job. really liked the music.. it was rockiiin!

ok. that's all i have to blog about. bye.

today is friday. the third day of CNY. i'm in school. there's no one around. it's so quiet and boring. and it's my free day.

why am i here then?

cause stupid NUS admin SUCKS that's why!!!! #$*!@$^^*@&%#$^@#!

so much for 'world class university'. bah.

i'm getting outta this hellhole. bye.

chunky new year

chunky cos it's the time of year where everyone just eats and eats and eats. leads to growth. and also cause one of my uncles told my mom not to flash her chunky meat (read: fats). that was damn funny. haha.

i've decided CNY is my fave time of year now. it even beats xmas which i used to think was my fave. but xmas has become extremely dull nowadays.

CNY is fun cos i get to see all my extended family members whom i hardly get to see. and it's just fun eating, laughing, and simply interacting with them.

reunion dinner this year was at some restaurant at fort canning. haha. my uncle's idea. usually it's at some relative's house, which i prefer. cos the food's so much better! the restaurant food was nothin to rave about man. plus i had to climb all the way up to fort canning which anyone who's ever climbed up before knows is very tiring! breathtaking view. literally.

visiting only consisted of two places. but i enjoy it mainly cause it brings back loadsa childhood memories of all the fun CNYs in the past. used to play with sparklers with my cousins in the garden, throwing them out into this foresty area, watching the light flyyyyy away. this foresty area is now all houses. no fun!

today was boring though.. home the whole day. but had alecia's family over for steamboat. so that was yummy and fun.

due to unforeseen circumstances i might hafta go down to sch tmr. ARGHHH!

My not-too-bad monday

lessons were dead boring as usual. nuff' said bout that.

but i had dinner at NYDC! and yummy mudpie which yiting kindly treated us to. heh. and i got The Beatles Let It Be... Naked album from Borders! and the best part is it only cost me 10bucks!! it even has a bonus disk. yayy. listening to em now.

gonna do some reading now. blah. got a damn test next week!

my brother brought me to buy a hi-fi today! yay. it looks good. we think the remote control is pretty spiffy. very very slim and almost weightless!

my other brother brought back a bag for me from m'sia. pink! hah.

now all i need is new clothes for CNY.

Late Night Musing

Finding Neverland is a soooper nice show! i liked the cinematography. and johnny depp. and the cute little boy. and even kate winslet. really touching show. it'll probably go down as one of my fave shows this year.

was just thinking just now... sometimes i find it hard to talk to certain people.. close friends included. maybe it's just that i'm weird or anti-social.

but then again, there are some people whom i can just talk to with complete ease... without having to strain my brain thinking of some topic to talk about to avoid silence. people whom i can totally be myself with. i can wear whatever i want. these people i can talk to about stuff that others show no interest in.. stuff that i really wanna talk about. like... music? hmm. especially music. somehow i find it hard to find others with the same interests. so it's rather exciting when i do. hah.

most of the time i feel like i'm holding back.

some people make me feel like i'm being judged by them so i'd rather not talk, or stick to 'safe' topics when with them. and i can't stand those who think that their views are the best ones and try to impose their opinions on me. but that's another story...

confabulation. anytime. anywhere. anything.

since there are people whom i can have decent conversations with, i don't think that i'm anti-social after all. just that... the rest of the time it's hard i guess.

sometimes i don't even feel like making the effort to talk. hm. ok, but that's my point. i shouldn't have to make an effort. it should be effortless. that's when you know that person and you can, for want of a better word, connect.

i need more connections.

listening to: i love you for sentimental reasons - laura fygi

Movie year!

just read Craig Thompson's Goodbye, Chunky Rice, courtesy of Xinye and NLB. story's okay.. quite sad. but the artwork's so nice! heh. so i checked out his website and it's damn cute too!

this year is movie year! whoohoo! there're like a ton of good movies (or at least ones that i wana watch) coming out or already out this year. let us see... there's..

Alfie (jude law!)
Finding Neverland (watching tmr!)
Closer (jude law again!)
Batman Begins (i kinda like Batman)
Fantastic Four (i love the cartoon. haha)
Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith (Star Wars is just funny, lah!)
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (tim burton! johnny depp!)
Corpse Bride (tim burton! johnny depp!)

and i know there are more good movies that i forgot about. two Depp and Burton collaborations in a year.. yay! saw the trailer for Corpse Bride and it looks very Nightmare Before Christmas-ish. i like! hafta wait a long time before it comes out though.

Princess Backside and her Crap

kay, by request of karen i'm putting my masterpiece on my blog for all to see!



she looks so princessy! i like. so pretty.. and she's got her heart in the right place too. what a doll (pun not intended).

it's from this website where you can dress the girl up. got some kinky shit there man. hahaha. shall go create more... muahahhaha.

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my very own stripper.

Mourning glory

"life is like a morning glory which blooms iridescently like a prism in a morning room....."

ok, that's all i remember from the line in Morning Glory which, according to Xinye, was repeated five times. and of course, some of us just had to spoof the line in a mock poetic fashion. hurhur.

i guess one could relate to the themes in the play.

i'm waxing indignant. i refuse to bloom.

i'm so bored...

nothing to do so i'm blogging though i have nothing to blog about.

tim bunnell rocks. he's so damn funny. and he makes the origins of cities actually sound interesting. my pen ran out of ink when i was paying attention and copying notes! argh. when i actually WANT to take notes, i am unable to. i guess i should just resign to my fate... which is to be a slacker? hmm...

taking a module alone sucks as much as a bad haircut.

no lessons tmr. don't know what i'll do to pass the time. lalala. maybe i'll blog mindlessly like what i'm doing now. hah.

dary came to pick mel and i up fer supper at holland v just now. then we went back to mel's where we had ben and jerry's (!) and played with a tampon. interesting, i must say.....

When we left i had the feeling that i was forgetting something. i actually left my wallet there. geez. anyways, it's so great that dary lives just down the road from nus and even greater that he has a car! hah. supper supper!

ok. i'm feeling hungry now.

met my darling just now! haha so spontaneous. was just talking online then she was like "let's meet halfway" on the road from PGP to KR. so we did. but that woman walked so slow i was practically at PGP when our paths crossed. hah. it's surprisingly nearer than i thought! in the car the road seems super long, dark and scary. but it's not that bad really. not scary! i was just walking walking then suddenly, "eh? that looks like PGP!?"

so, crazy us sat at the side of the road for a talk-cock session. oh and many ppl actually run so late at night. amazing.

CG was pretty fun though i really hate plasticine. can't stand the smell and all. ugh. made a lizard.. and while i was making it i was actually feeling damn grossed out. like afraid to touch it? haha. but i'd say i make a pretty darn real looking gecko. eeeks. the painting part was funner though! hmm. come to think of it, today's CG was like a back-to-pri-sch thing. haha. cool.

bleah

i have the flu.

i have a 9am class tmr.

i have bad hair.

was planning to rant about something or rather someone, who really pissed me off, in the hope that that person would read it (not that he'd feel any guilt). bah. i could go on and on if i started but now i'm too lazy to. also in a better mood now so i've lost all motivation to kao pei. hah. i just marvel at some people's acting skills and the fact that some people never grow up.

met up with the CAC peeps for dinner at CPK. the pizzas were so nice! better than i remembered them to be. heh. ate so much today. bloody full now. had ice cream, then dinner, then coffee (which had ice cream in it too). haha. burp.

was nice to see em again. haven't seen people like jo and elvira in like 2 years!? oh well... the good ol' days are gone. i shall not go on reminiscing if not this post would go on forever hah.

gonna cut hair tmr. i'm always damn apprehensive about cutting hair cos something always goes wrong... hope i don't end up looking like an idiot haha. or do i already look like one? hmm. hah we'll see...

till tmr then!

You Are 11 Years Old

11 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

i thought i'd be at least 18?? 11 is not even teen yet!

idle fun

yayyy. it's so much better using a com free of those stupid pop-ups. my lappie is plagued with spyware or whatever you call those pesty things. and it's slow.. and hangs at times. ugh. the new com is so much faster in comparison. BUT. for some reason my blog's grey instead of blue on this com! my shoutbox too. why? why?? how drab looking.

american idol was heeeelarious! i think i've finally figured out why some of those who can't sing think that they CAN sing and that they have a fab voice. well, some are obviously tone deaf right? so if they're tone deaf, they wouldn't even know if they're singing terribly. so they think they're great. that's the only reason i can think of as to why someone who sings awfully out of tune would go on the show to make an ass outta himself AND remain adamant about the (non)fact that he can sing.

i'm baaaack

oh bed, how i have missed thee. this morning when i was sleeping, i thought i was in my own bed at home. so i turned over thinking that i had alot of space and my leg hit the ground almost causing me to fall off the bed. upon the rude awakening i realised... "oh, i'm in hall."

tonight i shall sleep well.

am listening to various versions of the theme from The Godfather now. this song totally rocks my balls! or at least i'm sure it would if i had balls. the song's just so poignant. one of the versions i have is a guitar solo by Slash!! coolness. oh, i haven't even watched The Godfather yet. haha so loser. it's one of those shows that i've really been wanting to watch though.

was waiting patiently at home to welcome it. and my new PC just arrived! sweeet. shall go play with it.

haven't had a title in awhile

went for the Ronin gig. thought the bassist was waaay cool. and found out that he was in my lit class last sem. hahaha. don't recognise him at all. he must've skipped lectures! or hmm.. maybe it was me who skipped lects. hah.

the most bizarre band name award has to go to - soft shell crabs. what an effective name. effective in making me hungry.

sporadic moments of delectation justify my otherwise inane existence.

you know how sometimes you're reading something and you hear the same words you're reading playing either on the radio or tv? it just happened to me. and i find these occurrences rather freaky. just like when you're humming or singing a song then suddenly you hear it playing.

this post is so random.

aural reception: half - ben davis

i hear someone playing techno... rather loudly too. and it's 345 in the morning.
interesting.

there goes my 3 day week dream. just realised that my lesson on thurs is not webcasted after all. bah. and IF i'm unlucky i just might get tutorials on friday. and that would give me a perfect 5 day week. hah... i hope not!!

hmm. ok. so i'm in hall now. and the feeling's totally weird. i don't know. guess i'm homesick already! i wanna go back to me comfy bed! am very bored now.

Alfie was rather entertaining although i think the only reason for that was... JUDE LAW!! the story itself was quite draggy and i didn't like the ending! booo. jude law really saved the show. seriously. if it were any other actor the show would have been pretty boring. but hmm.. he does look as if he's aged abit since... say.. Gattaca? but hell, he's still hot. hahaha. and a good actor too of course. heh.

yesterday was at this hawker centre with my parents and mom spots this girl...

mom: "aiyoooo! look at her skirt so short. so low can see the backside! etc... "

dad: "yah and the fats all oozing out somemore. if no fats still ok."

i don't know why but i was rather tickled by the whole incident. haha.

music: you're nobody till somebody loves you - frank sinatra

planned to meet the rest at ikea to get xinye's stuff but.. but... BUT... i couldn't wake up this morning! heh.

anyways!

Happy Birthday Bolooi!!

end of week one!

met me mom at taka after school today so i took the opportunity to get something off her. haha. walked into kino... walked out with a grin on my face and The Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy by Tim Burton in tow! it's funny. macabre. weird. but cute! and it's so Tim Burton, lah. i like it!

oh, by the way, it's the end of the first school week for me! well, kinda. muahahhaha.

First-day Blues

first day of school sucked! had to drag myself outta bed at 8-friggin-AM and struggle to open my eyes. went to bed last night at 12AM, woke at 1AM, couldn't fall asleep till like 4AM. raaaarhhh.

the english renaissance looks to be a horrible module. ugh.

as much as i tried to keep awake i fell asleep during history of film. and the textbook is super heavy. had to lug it all the way home, giving my arms a damn good workout.

pooped out and it's only the first day of many more horrible days to come. and so the countdown begins..

14 more weeks.....!

more food!

dim sum at chinasquare failed to meet expectations. and considering it's a restaurant in the tung lok group it was a considerable let down.

after we were done with our breakfast/lunch/dinner (all rolled into one! for me at least), we went to check out the library book sale. another disappointment. expected though. i'd rather just go to the library to borrow books. free too! and in the same crappy condition. hah.

gelare and MPH did not let me down though. hah. found the book i want! graphic novel Persepolis by Marjane Satrapi. procurement when i feel richer. hahaha. few other books that i want but shall not think about till the semester's over. i'll have my lit books to keep me well occupied. i trust in their unfailing reliability. hah.

off to airport after that to send charkwa and joel off. i wanna go toooo! sigh. their presence shall be missed.

eating woes

dinner at eng seng didn't seem as good as the last time. seafood's so troublesome to eat lah. especially crab. haha. my crab flew onto my shirt, bounced off and promptly landed on my lap. i'm a messy eater. hah.

ok. it just hit me very hard... i'm twenty-freakin-one this year!!!

talking to dary. i mentioned that his sis is J2 now and that i still remember her being sec 3 (when WE were in J2). and like suddenly she's in J2!? and suddenly we're 21?!?!?!? how the *beep* did that happen?? almost like 2 or 3 years went by without my noticing. now even the phrase 'time flies' seems like an understatement. hah. when i was in J2 i didn't even cross my mind that i'd be 21 some day. it was like something that was not gonna happen. not anytime soon anyway. i remember clearly my 18th birthday. 18 wasn't a big deal to me. 21 sure is though.

yah.. so anyway..

happy 21st weng!

under one roof

went to gram's place cos brother was having a barbeque. and i found out... that he's got a PS2!! and alot of games! walao! also saw the missing weezer and nirvana cds there. hah. yay. so they are not lost.

sigh. one brother has a dog, the other has a playstation. wouldn't it be nice if we were all living under one roof? then i'd get a share too. haha. oh well....

happy yew near!

i had a pretty great xmas and new year celebrations this year. last year. still feels like the same year to me hah.

went to this world blind union on NYE with godparents cos they know the guy who runs the place. and it was... interesting to see so many blind people at a party having fun, happy and all. prior to this i've never come into contact with any blind before. and some of em are really cute. but the place was super noisy cos they were all shouting. i guess that happens when u can't see. you just shout for people not knowing if they're around or not. and walk into chairs.. and you literally get to see the blind leading the blind. it was a really nice experience for me though... getting to meet my godparent's blind friend and all. very funny, smiley guy.

went to mama's place after that then home pretty early. haha. haven't been home so early on NYE in awhile.

new year's day was even better. was at godparents place and we were extremely disturbed by some noisy celebrations going on downstairs and we were pretty bored so we went for a drive. so spontaneous. haha. ooh we're bored. let's get out. like now! godma wanted to catch a movie and was like "let's go meet the fuckers".
wahahha. she derives great joy from saying that. and i'm highly amused.
but anyway, we just got into the car with no destination in mind. somehow ended up at the esplanade. walked. ooooh music. let's go see. harry's bar. wanna go in and get a drink? ok lets go in. nice place that. with the paul guy singing. oh and saw sg idol's jerry there too. hah. went to the waterfront to sit sit walk walk. surprisingly quite a number of ppl ard at that time (was already 1am). great breeze and quiet... peace. to geylang for supper after that! my fave you tiao with soy bean!

2004 wasn't too bad. definitely better than 2005 i say. grew closer to my family... even with my brothers. hah. but but but. i feel i can't say the same with my friends. in fact i think the opposite has happened. drifted apart. you win some you lose some i guess.

whatever it is, i still love my family and my friends. hope 2005 will be better for everyone.

what a long boring post. hungry. i want my dim sum buffet! ok. bye.