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Sunday, August 21, 2011 / Sunday, August 21, 2011
my little happiness pill: Anytime he makes conversation.
I'm missing that warmth our friendship used to have.
But people move on, so do our feelings. :)
Saturday, August 13, 2011 / Saturday, August 13, 2011
I shall be perangai and try to type a blog entry using the phone just to try it out. Im doing quite well n this typing on a touchscreen so hurray for me! zo basically now is dance practice but im at homevtgh perabgai babi so yeah ig fihures why when ppl meet me they say that i gained weight. Haha. Okay dah that's all for now. Selamat berpusa semua. ;)
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Tuesday, August 09, 2011 / Tuesday, August 09, 2011
it's the 10th day of the holy month of Ramadhan and the whole of this morning I have been shown in one way or another how blessed my life have been. No matter the problems that exists in the world and no matter the hatred, I believe that there will always be others who are less fortunate or come from more stressful situations in life. While I watch and read articles on humanity in general, I look into myself, my life and reflect upon hardships that I thought I would never be able to get by with and the matter seems to be not as pertinent as it was.
I learnt today that whatever happens in life, we have to be more open-minded, we have to imagine the big picture, we cannot just assume. I have always reminded myself to be all that whenever a situation arises but sometimes feelings take over and I cannot be that level-headed person I wish I was. I have no idea how I treated the people who worked with me before this but I do hope it was with a level-headed mind and not with feelings that often gets high-handed.
"Sekali Lagi" was an awesome movie that reminded me of the need to be more accepting of others. It gave rise to feelings and assumptions that I have been used to and smash it all again, only to cause other assumptions to rise.. But with every assumption, as the story unfolds; it tells of the purest truth that did not even cross my mind and that I believe is a great moral story to learn from.
From this movie, I learnt that not all that is known to us is the truth and not all unknowns are untruths. We have to find out and seek for the truth in order to provide a just understanding of the situation. However, in the matter at hand that I am suppose to be more optimistic in the truth, I believe I cannot because hard truth has been shown to me, someone who I looked up to, someone whom I reverred with regards to the way he was able to handle things, lost my respect and my trust. I am basing all of this on the logics of the world, I understand that man have their needs but its the actions that they do is what defines them. All these times, where I have had negative feelings for this man because I felt uncomfortable for one reason or another with his excessive taunts about me, I pushed it aside because I wanted to believe he did all that in a jokingly manner. But now because of him, I am unsure of who to trust and am sceptical of the world out there.
Ya Allah, please give me the strength to have faith in whatever I do and whatever that life chooses to bring to me. Ya Allah, forgive me for having these thoughts in the month of Ramadhan but this is the perfect time when one's mind is clearest and is able to think in the most level-headed manner. Ya Allah, I seek your guidance in everything that I do because you are all knowing. Amin.
This morning, I was watching a documentary entitled "Koran to Heart" and it was such a heartfelt documetary about how children and youths out there are able to memorise the Koran, although some may not be able to understand the meaning behind those words. I was listening to them and it dawned upon me that I myself am not able to read the Qur'an and I have no idea what the contents of the Qur'an are. I feel ashamed but at the same time it has sparked a certain need for me to read the translation of the Qur'an for this Ramadhan and insyaAllah, for the next Ramadhan be able to read few verses from the Qur'an with confidence.
This Ramadhan has made me reflect on life's best treasures and the need to often reflect and be grateful for what life's brings us. We should push beyond our own limits so that we would be able to further value-add our interactions with people. As I explore the world as a teacher, I must always improve myself in order for my students to be able to better learn from me and to ensure that the values that I have always been taught be passed down to my students, insyaAllah.
This is a noble job that I am beginning to love with the different interactions I have with the students, no matter the number they still deserve the very best that education is able to provide for them. Learning from the words of a father who have ensured that the lives of his children will never feel incomplete, Paul who was a teacher understood the needs of his children and ensured that everything was in order before he passed on.
I should learn from what he did and instead of waiting for that moment where Allah may choose to take my temporal life away, I should ensure that my passing will not cause any stress on my family members and ensure that they will be well taken care of should anything happen.
At this point of time, I feel that although I may have lost respect for that man I used to acknowledge with reverence, he was part of my history and he was part of my youth. No matter what he did to my family, he once was a part of it. Should he ever claim for maintainence on the basis that he is my father no matter what happens between him and my mother, I will provide but only a lumpsum of the money that I would have set aside for him, monthly just in case. On that note, he should be grateful for what I am giving him and I pray that when the time comes; life will not be all about money for him and that he learns the mistakes and grief that he has caused with his immature and animalistic actions.
This has been a nice reflection session with regards to certain parts of my life. If I am able to be this clear in my thinking and my understanding of life, insyaAllah all will be well. Like my good friend's brother once said, if you live your life for the hereafter and in order to appease Allah (s.w.t.), InsyaAllah your life in this temporal world will be taken care of.
To a blessed Ramadhan ahead. :)
Monday, August 01, 2011 / Monday, August 01, 2011
its the end of the first day of ramadhan and we're already into its' second day! :) alhamdulilah. there were some stressful moments today but with the grace of god, all went well. the teacher was speaking about having a motto for one's self today. and the first motto that came to mind was that all is well. My heart likes to race everytime because somehow or another it has this challenge-mindset. everything that occurs around me feels like a race, a never-ending one at that. therefore having that as a life motto makes me stop and breathe and have faith that all will be well, insyaAllah.
i feel that my ramadhan will be tainted with the memories of a year ago which i believe was the first time i truly felt something and i must say i fell a little harder than i really should. this bulan ramadhan, i plead to forget those memories.. because although they say to remember the good things in life it always makes me think of why the motor didnt keep running and make me fly.. (I am talking in supposed code words just so that I don't sound like I'm a pathetic loser who can't get over a situation. HAHA)
being surrounded by all this news about school and teaching, it totally reminds me of the time when he would ask what my plans were after graduation, when exactly that was. My decision at that point of time was questionable because at that point of time I wanted to be that girl pursuing her honours degree but I guess life has provided me with another route that I am just as happy with.. a whole month will be tough trying to juggle what life brings me and somehow or another thinking about that special month where he was my 10pm-subuh companion. My head is telling me to stop talking about him so I would actually start to forget him but then I believe that my heart has it's own special way to heal itself and maybe talking about it and telling myself the true feelings embedded within will make it easier to move on from a story that was never meant to be.
A lot of people have said that it's not a big deal since it didn't really result in any concrete form of friendship or anything greater than that. but my friends understand that its somewhat an unspoken truth that i will never truly forget him unless another comes by and steals my breathe away. and for that i'm thankful because i have someone to turn to when i get reminded again of the feelings I once had.
okay so i got a bit distracted by arms and the voice of victor kim for awhile. so i don't really have the mood to be talking about the issue anymore. its just that, its 3.34am and im missing a point of time where i had a buddy to be chatting to all through the night. howells, all is well. <3
Sunday, August 21, 2011 / Sunday, August 21, 2011
my little happiness pill: Anytime he makes conversation.
I'm missing that warmth our friendship used to have.
But people move on, so do our feelings. :)
Saturday, August 13, 2011 / Saturday, August 13, 2011
I shall be perangai and try to type a blog entry using the phone just to try it out. Im doing quite well n this typing on a touchscreen so hurray for me! zo basically now is dance practice but im at homevtgh perabgai babi so yeah ig fihures why when ppl meet me they say that i gained weight. Haha. Okay dah that's all for now. Selamat berpusa semua. ;)
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Tuesday, August 09, 2011 / Tuesday, August 09, 2011
it's the 10th day of the holy month of Ramadhan and the whole of this morning I have been shown in one way or another how blessed my life have been. No matter the problems that exists in the world and no matter the hatred, I believe that there will always be others who are less fortunate or come from more stressful situations in life. While I watch and read articles on humanity in general, I look into myself, my life and reflect upon hardships that I thought I would never be able to get by with and the matter seems to be not as pertinent as it was.
I learnt today that whatever happens in life, we have to be more open-minded, we have to imagine the big picture, we cannot just assume. I have always reminded myself to be all that whenever a situation arises but sometimes feelings take over and I cannot be that level-headed person I wish I was. I have no idea how I treated the people who worked with me before this but I do hope it was with a level-headed mind and not with feelings that often gets high-handed.
"Sekali Lagi" was an awesome movie that reminded me of the need to be more accepting of others. It gave rise to feelings and assumptions that I have been used to and smash it all again, only to cause other assumptions to rise.. But with every assumption, as the story unfolds; it tells of the purest truth that did not even cross my mind and that I believe is a great moral story to learn from.
From this movie, I learnt that not all that is known to us is the truth and not all unknowns are untruths. We have to find out and seek for the truth in order to provide a just understanding of the situation. However, in the matter at hand that I am suppose to be more optimistic in the truth, I believe I cannot because hard truth has been shown to me, someone who I looked up to, someone whom I reverred with regards to the way he was able to handle things, lost my respect and my trust. I am basing all of this on the logics of the world, I understand that man have their needs but its the actions that they do is what defines them. All these times, where I have had negative feelings for this man because I felt uncomfortable for one reason or another with his excessive taunts about me, I pushed it aside because I wanted to believe he did all that in a jokingly manner. But now because of him, I am unsure of who to trust and am sceptical of the world out there.
Ya Allah, please give me the strength to have faith in whatever I do and whatever that life chooses to bring to me. Ya Allah, forgive me for having these thoughts in the month of Ramadhan but this is the perfect time when one's mind is clearest and is able to think in the most level-headed manner. Ya Allah, I seek your guidance in everything that I do because you are all knowing. Amin.
This morning, I was watching a documentary entitled "Koran to Heart" and it was such a heartfelt documetary about how children and youths out there are able to memorise the Koran, although some may not be able to understand the meaning behind those words. I was listening to them and it dawned upon me that I myself am not able to read the Qur'an and I have no idea what the contents of the Qur'an are. I feel ashamed but at the same time it has sparked a certain need for me to read the translation of the Qur'an for this Ramadhan and insyaAllah, for the next Ramadhan be able to read few verses from the Qur'an with confidence.
This Ramadhan has made me reflect on life's best treasures and the need to often reflect and be grateful for what life's brings us. We should push beyond our own limits so that we would be able to further value-add our interactions with people. As I explore the world as a teacher, I must always improve myself in order for my students to be able to better learn from me and to ensure that the values that I have always been taught be passed down to my students, insyaAllah.
This is a noble job that I am beginning to love with the different interactions I have with the students, no matter the number they still deserve the very best that education is able to provide for them. Learning from the words of a father who have ensured that the lives of his children will never feel incomplete, Paul who was a teacher understood the needs of his children and ensured that everything was in order before he passed on.
I should learn from what he did and instead of waiting for that moment where Allah may choose to take my temporal life away, I should ensure that my passing will not cause any stress on my family members and ensure that they will be well taken care of should anything happen.
At this point of time, I feel that although I may have lost respect for that man I used to acknowledge with reverence, he was part of my history and he was part of my youth. No matter what he did to my family, he once was a part of it. Should he ever claim for maintainence on the basis that he is my father no matter what happens between him and my mother, I will provide but only a lumpsum of the money that I would have set aside for him, monthly just in case. On that note, he should be grateful for what I am giving him and I pray that when the time comes; life will not be all about money for him and that he learns the mistakes and grief that he has caused with his immature and animalistic actions.
This has been a nice reflection session with regards to certain parts of my life. If I am able to be this clear in my thinking and my understanding of life, insyaAllah all will be well. Like my good friend's brother once said, if you live your life for the hereafter and in order to appease Allah (s.w.t.), InsyaAllah your life in this temporal world will be taken care of.
To a blessed Ramadhan ahead. :)
Monday, August 01, 2011 / Monday, August 01, 2011
its the end of the first day of ramadhan and we're already into its' second day! :) alhamdulilah. there were some stressful moments today but with the grace of god, all went well. the teacher was speaking about having a motto for one's self today. and the first motto that came to mind was that all is well. My heart likes to race everytime because somehow or another it has this challenge-mindset. everything that occurs around me feels like a race, a never-ending one at that. therefore having that as a life motto makes me stop and breathe and have faith that all will be well, insyaAllah.
i feel that my ramadhan will be tainted with the memories of a year ago which i believe was the first time i truly felt something and i must say i fell a little harder than i really should. this bulan ramadhan, i plead to forget those memories.. because although they say to remember the good things in life it always makes me think of why the motor didnt keep running and make me fly.. (I am talking in supposed code words just so that I don't sound like I'm a pathetic loser who can't get over a situation. HAHA)
being surrounded by all this news about school and teaching, it totally reminds me of the time when he would ask what my plans were after graduation, when exactly that was. My decision at that point of time was questionable because at that point of time I wanted to be that girl pursuing her honours degree but I guess life has provided me with another route that I am just as happy with.. a whole month will be tough trying to juggle what life brings me and somehow or another thinking about that special month where he was my 10pm-subuh companion. My head is telling me to stop talking about him so I would actually start to forget him but then I believe that my heart has it's own special way to heal itself and maybe talking about it and telling myself the true feelings embedded within will make it easier to move on from a story that was never meant to be.
A lot of people have said that it's not a big deal since it didn't really result in any concrete form of friendship or anything greater than that. but my friends understand that its somewhat an unspoken truth that i will never truly forget him unless another comes by and steals my breathe away. and for that i'm thankful because i have someone to turn to when i get reminded again of the feelings I once had.
okay so i got a bit distracted by arms and the voice of victor kim for awhile. so i don't really have the mood to be talking about the issue anymore. its just that, its 3.34am and im missing a point of time where i had a buddy to be chatting to all through the night. howells, all is well. <3
MY PROFILE
Its all about ME!
Hello my name is farahin!
i am not liable for the sappy and increasingly feminist content in this blog
i shall not I REPEAT i shall not be a cynic of love.
it just spoils all the fun out of falling in and out of love
I LOVE THIS!
What I really LOVE!
myself
dance
friends
heels
_ _ _ _ HAHA.
shopping when i have the money
myself
WISHLIST!
my WISH upon a star!
get my driving license!! go on a trip with my friends! digital camera :))) dresses.dresses.dresses. go for CAMP! any kind will do! :) hang out with the jayceee people <33
go ice skating!!
visit the SCIENCE centre AND Camwhore!
SWIMMING! strawberry sundaeee pleasee! HEELS! :)
