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Friday, March 11, 2011 / Friday, March 11, 2011
ohmy. it has been forever hasn't it? many things have happened but many things have remained the same since the last time i wrote. i realised that i had a lot of reminiscing done in the month of december. it must have been the weather as well as the time of the year where people just tend to reflect more.
Anyways, its near mid march now and school is going to end for me in less than 2 months. that's quite a sad thought. I need to charge my camera batt already and bring it around everytime just so I can capture the last few moments in school. I have been busy with school, dance, mss before march and this month I have made myself crazy by adding tuition into the mix. don't ask me why the need for so many things to be happening all at the same time. maybe its a form of escapism on my side. howells.
Anyways updates on what I have been up to. have been sending out resumes for internships/jobs. have been going for interviews, quite like my interview today and I am very much interested in what the project is all about.i think i would love the solitude of it all. maybe it will be therapeutic on my part. The thing is after the first interview i went, it turned me off from being a part of that occupation. I started to think that I was not good enough for the job and it created some sort of inferiority complex within me. I am still undecided on what I want to pursue after i receive my degree. Shall I explore the world first and then adjust myself to a job that I know I would enjoy or go through the safest route just for the comfort of knowing what to expect.
Have been meeting up with niners often enough and I really like their company. even if they're loud, at least at certain times i know they understand the need to be loud to call for attention, the need for drama and all that. i know they will never judge me for being too loud etc. when I feel like it. I am still sore from the callous comment, I know it was not meant to be too personal but it shook the core of my being because I didnt realise my actions affected others that much. So yeah, reached enlightenment at that moment.
graduating is kinda scary for me. I don't know what to expect after graduation. whether the dynamics of the friendships I had would ever be the same again. Would we say hello again when we step into the real world. will all the petty fights be forgotten? would we be the same anymore or would we be jaded with life that nothing becomes exciting anymore?
In a way I feel that I am blessed to be excited with every single moment in life. To me there has always been a positive outlook on things if we look hard enough. I don't really have a specific aim that needs achieving. Just being a better person as well as playing a role within the community is good enough for me.
I really feel that the lyrics from vitamin c means a lot right about now. all these safeguards we had in school. knowing we had our friends to back us up, knowing that if we failed that it was within the safety net of experimentation and education. In 2 months, that safety barrier is going to break and by then I will be facing the world alone. I have made some future decisions that I hope I do not regret and some decisions are just worth waiting it out for.
nus has been an awesome place. i have never regretted going to nus actually. the friends I made i believe that they are for life. We went through the shithole together and I believe that we are still alive. discovered my potential in this steam cooker and had lots of fun and memories along the way.
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives Where we're gonna be when we turn 25 I keep thinking times will never change Keep on thinking things will always be the same But when we leave this year we won't be coming back No more hanging out cause we're on a different track And if you got something that you need to say You better say it right now cause you don't have another day Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down These memories are playing like a film without sound And I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of love But it came too soon And there was me and you And then we got real blue Stay at home talking on the telephone And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair And this is how it feels
so there. i am in that reminiscing mode again. I guess I just want to remain in the memories just so that I am not reminded of reality and expectations that have been given to us.
Should i explore my abilities or test my abilities. Both has its pros and cons.
Anyways, Japan has been hit by the biggest tsunami is the past quarter century i think and my prayers are with them. Its like a relive of the 2004 tsunami in Aceh. Ya Allah please take care of my friends and family should they be travelling in the coming weeks. Ya Allah, thank you for all the little things that makes my day. Amin.
Friday, March 11, 2011 / Friday, March 11, 2011
ohmy. it has been forever hasn't it? many things have happened but many things have remained the same since the last time i wrote. i realised that i had a lot of reminiscing done in the month of december. it must have been the weather as well as the time of the year where people just tend to reflect more.
Anyways, its near mid march now and school is going to end for me in less than 2 months. that's quite a sad thought. I need to charge my camera batt already and bring it around everytime just so I can capture the last few moments in school. I have been busy with school, dance, mss before march and this month I have made myself crazy by adding tuition into the mix. don't ask me why the need for so many things to be happening all at the same time. maybe its a form of escapism on my side. howells.
Anyways updates on what I have been up to. have been sending out resumes for internships/jobs. have been going for interviews, quite like my interview today and I am very much interested in what the project is all about.i think i would love the solitude of it all. maybe it will be therapeutic on my part. The thing is after the first interview i went, it turned me off from being a part of that occupation. I started to think that I was not good enough for the job and it created some sort of inferiority complex within me. I am still undecided on what I want to pursue after i receive my degree. Shall I explore the world first and then adjust myself to a job that I know I would enjoy or go through the safest route just for the comfort of knowing what to expect.
Have been meeting up with niners often enough and I really like their company. even if they're loud, at least at certain times i know they understand the need to be loud to call for attention, the need for drama and all that. i know they will never judge me for being too loud etc. when I feel like it. I am still sore from the callous comment, I know it was not meant to be too personal but it shook the core of my being because I didnt realise my actions affected others that much. So yeah, reached enlightenment at that moment.
graduating is kinda scary for me. I don't know what to expect after graduation. whether the dynamics of the friendships I had would ever be the same again. Would we say hello again when we step into the real world. will all the petty fights be forgotten? would we be the same anymore or would we be jaded with life that nothing becomes exciting anymore?
In a way I feel that I am blessed to be excited with every single moment in life. To me there has always been a positive outlook on things if we look hard enough. I don't really have a specific aim that needs achieving. Just being a better person as well as playing a role within the community is good enough for me.
I really feel that the lyrics from vitamin c means a lot right about now. all these safeguards we had in school. knowing we had our friends to back us up, knowing that if we failed that it was within the safety net of experimentation and education. In 2 months, that safety barrier is going to break and by then I will be facing the world alone. I have made some future decisions that I hope I do not regret and some decisions are just worth waiting it out for.
nus has been an awesome place. i have never regretted going to nus actually. the friends I made i believe that they are for life. We went through the shithole together and I believe that we are still alive. discovered my potential in this steam cooker and had lots of fun and memories along the way.
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives Where we're gonna be when we turn 25 I keep thinking times will never change Keep on thinking things will always be the same But when we leave this year we won't be coming back No more hanging out cause we're on a different track And if you got something that you need to say You better say it right now cause you don't have another day Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down These memories are playing like a film without sound And I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of love But it came too soon And there was me and you And then we got real blue Stay at home talking on the telephone And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair And this is how it feels
so there. i am in that reminiscing mode again. I guess I just want to remain in the memories just so that I am not reminded of reality and expectations that have been given to us.
Should i explore my abilities or test my abilities. Both has its pros and cons.
Anyways, Japan has been hit by the biggest tsunami is the past quarter century i think and my prayers are with them. Its like a relive of the 2004 tsunami in Aceh. Ya Allah please take care of my friends and family should they be travelling in the coming weeks. Ya Allah, thank you for all the little things that makes my day. Amin.
MY PROFILE
Its all about ME!
Hello my name is farahin!
i am not liable for the sappy and increasingly feminist content in this blog
i shall not I REPEAT i shall not be a cynic of love.
it just spoils all the fun out of falling in and out of love
I LOVE THIS!
What I really LOVE!
myself
dance
friends
heels
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shopping when i have the money
myself
WISHLIST!
my WISH upon a star!
get my driving license!! go on a trip with my friends! digital camera :))) dresses.dresses.dresses. go for CAMP! any kind will do! :) hang out with the jayceee people <33
go ice skating!!
visit the SCIENCE centre AND Camwhore!
SWIMMING! strawberry sundaeee pleasee! HEELS! :)
