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Sunday, September 28, 2008 / Sunday, September 28, 2008
tonight feels like a fine night for loving and doing couple stuff..
the thing is it all dependent on feelings..
what really causes us to feel the way we do?
Is it a smell, a familiar setting, a look, a picture?

well, i think i have been feeling too many feelings this past few days.. i am currently confused on why i keep feeling emo everytime its early morning.. to make matters worse, the weather is cooling, the surrounding so quiet and i just turned on the music player on imeem and its playing the saddest love songs..

i said my i love yous to my best friends just a few minutes ago.. i am so scared that if i ever leave this world suddenly, i have forgotten to say it to the people most important in my life.. my family, my best friends and the rest who are very dear to me..

i believe that only people with too much time in their hands tend to emo.. but the thing is, i am gambling the time i am suppose to spend studying and whatnots to spend time and do nothing but just think about things that probably wouldn't happen in a million years..

i should start studying and taking my life more seriously shouldn't i?

well, that is something which i would have to get used to.. since i have been spending my time doing things which i can do next time.. although i would never know when that next time would be.. :(

i think i'll end it here today. selamat bersahur and selamat berpuasa everyone.. :)

Think of Laura

Every once in a while I'd see her smile
And she'd turn my day around
A girl with those eyes
Could stare through the lies
And see what your heart was saying

Think of Laura
But laugh don't cry
I know she'd want it that way (hey)
When you think of Laura
Laugh don't cry
I know she'd want it that way

A friend of a friend
A friend to the end
That's the kind of girl she was
Taken away so young
Taken away without a warning

Think of Laura
But laugh don't cry
I know she'd want it that way (hey)
When you think of Laura
Laugh don't cry
I know she'd want it that way

I know you and you're here
In everyday we live
I know her and well she's here
I can feel her when I sing

Hey Laura (Laura)
Where are you now?
Are you far away from here?
I don't think so
I think you're here
Taking our tears away

Think of Laura
But laugh don't cry
I know she'd want it that way (hey)
When you think of Laura
Laugh don't cry
I know she'd want it that way

... Hey, hey...

Well, I know, she'd want it that way
Hey, Laura, hey, Laura
I know she'd want it that way
Hey, Laura
Hey, Laura
I know you want it that way


Saturday, September 27, 2008 / Saturday, September 27, 2008
i hate early mornings.. i hate it when i have to think in the early mornings.. i hate it when i don't have a conversation in the morning when i am online.. i hate it when it is so quiet, your mind makes you think about all the nonsense stuff that is happening around you.. i hate early mornings when you know you have a gazillion things to do, but you opt to do nothing and stare into space and start imagining made-up boyfriends. i hate early mornings when i read ppl's blogs and i feel that they are having more fun than i am. i hate early mornings when certain people are not talking to you and giving you the cold shoulder. i especially hate early mornings when i know i have an activity to attend that day, but i'm so meek to ask permission because i see no light ahead and rejection being the only option of the day. i hate early mornings when i feel so emo and i start writing stupid emo entries which i will somehow regret when i wake up the next morning. i hate myself in the early mornings because i know i am most productive during this time, but i choose not to be.

BAH. technically i hate early mornings when i'm not talking to someone interesting or even doing something productive.

hari raya is coming up. some people is killing my mood somehow or the other..

i have 2 planned jalan raya outings and i am a happy child. :) okay not really, fake smile right now because i am soo not feeling lived right about now. too bad i couldn't make someone's day today.. i am too tired.. i feel used for the happiness that exudes from me..

i swear i will regret this post when my mind is in normal condition..

but for now, for this moment, i stand by my words..

just don't ask me why i wrote it when i wrote it... it's just words.. and words are not meant to mean anything unless you give meaning to it.

For example:
the word baby if used in different context, has a different meaning to it..
if i use baby when calling a little baby, it's literally a baby.
BUT if i choose to call someone from the opposite sex that word, the word has changed its meaning. In the second context, it is an affectionate name for someone we like/love/adore..
AND if i choose to tell people that baby is the name of my car, well i call baby, it's just a NAME.

so yes, whatever i say can be interpreted differently by different people. The meaning of the author usually gets misunderstood by readers and is further misunderstood when his/her attentions is being told to another person.. SEE WHAT I MEAN!

i think i am stress for not being stressed out.. GAH!


Monday, September 22, 2008 / Monday, September 22, 2008
sometimes, what we envision we won't necessarily get it.

just like it did to me. well, nothing in this world is fair and I don't think that it is meant to be..
So i should be thankful for the many wonderful friends I have in the place of a person to call my own.. :)

a woman is meant to be taken care by a guy who loves her and who would pamper her
for all his worth.

jika satu hari kau bangun dan merinduiku, ingatlah saja pada senyumanku ini..

-farahin :)

i shall just wait at this little corner and fantasise about the possibility of someone actually doing all the romantic things that I have thought of since I was a little girl, and doing it perfectly without me ever relating to him what I expect. :D

to that supposed knight in white shining armour, you don't need to come tonight because my heart is not in a good shape to love for tonight..


Thursday, September 18, 2008 / Thursday, September 18, 2008
i feel very much into the hari raya spirit right about now.. but my feelings are mixed to the extremes.. i am feeling extreme anticipation for Syawal to come but i have this ultimate sadness inside me that is making me feeling so sad.. making me feel so emo in the wee hours of the morning.. like for real..

i have a happy hari raya song playing on the radio, but my heart feels so heavy and i feel as if i am going to cry in a few minutes time.. and bask in sadness for the whole day..

just because this is bulan Ramadhan, I feel blessed that I am still living in this world and that I am still able to do the things that I wish to do.. (okay the tears are coming, but I'm trying to control the flow of tears.. why oh why I am crying, don't ask me.. i told you i felt overwhelmed with sadness..) Syukur Alhamdulilah for all the time in the world I have been given..

If I am not able to meet any of you when hari raya comes along, please go through life knowing that I seek forgiveness for all the wrong I have done and all the bitchiness that I have allowed myself to become.. I am truly sorry to all that may have been hurt by my mean words (whenever it was..) and also do try and forgive this weak soul here.. I know I am not perfect but yeah..

okay, I shall to appear more cheerful right about now.. I don't want to be lugging around a heavy heart the whole day okay!

I have a discussion group later at 9am.. ohmygawd.. It is too early okay. I so am not functioning at my optimum in the morning.. But howells, this is life and i shall trudge around with my head high (just so I won't be tempted to sleep. HAHA.)

I have really been enjoying school to the fullest (although, sometimes I have no idea why I am nodding away during lectures.. okay, maybe I know why..HAHA.) what with tutorials and also the long breaks and the making of new friends all at the same time! :) And i have bitching partners and also friends that care.. And for that, I thank you all. You suruly make my day whatever the occasion..

Someone once told me, that everytime he sees me I am always cheerful.. Well, why go through life feeling sad and empty right.. If you're feeling just that, look at the mirror, give yourseld the biggest SMILE and its an instant remedy for sad days and emo moments..

i know, i know.. you all must be thinking why don't i look in front of the mirror, so i can be my cheerful self right? Well, there must be balance in life.. SO i shall choose to hide my moodiness at home and preserve my energy when I meet people, in the hopes of making their lives more cheerful!!

oh sidetrack a bit. I am going to wear baju kurung to school today, just because I can.. :D
and i have readings to catch up on.. and I have two books whose endings I have yet to know, because I am prioritising my readings.. HAHA. i can't believe I am reading books when there are soo many readings, but yes... i am weird that way..
talked to my online flirt buddy two days ago. HAHA. i swear he has the glibbest tongue I have ever experienced. The words that flow out from his mouth can make me smile like a monkey all night long okay.. luckily, I know he has a glib tongue and so I shall not be charmed by it. LALA~

its 5.22 am in the morning.. I should be sleeping, the keyword being should.

oh yes.. this week I have gone for 3 iftars to date.. and I have one later with the niners! man.. we go wayyy back, when I had cacat hair and when we all were at our kental-est days.. went out with the 4/8 girls on tuesday.. last minute cancellations for some, so that night we had 8 girls spending time together, although it was a short time.. I had fun and I feel right at home with this people! although i did come late, coz i woke up from my 'nap' at 6pm and scrambled to get ready and only left the house at 6.30pm.. how cool is cool, you tell me! so took taxi and picked up saf and amirahfatin. :) some photos of the night! :)






I think i have gorgeous friends! YAY! :)




then on wednesday, i had iftar with the tarian dears at cafe galaxy (where there is a cute phillipines waiter with a earring on his left earlobe.. HAHA.) in Geylang! Walked around Geylang, soaking in the atmosphere and just being mental. :) photos of that night..

















fun kan fun kan! i bet you're like damn jealous!

haha.. and the last iftar was with maryam at century square at food culture.. HAHA. gatal farahin, when the mummy has food at home! SO YEAH!

i think i shall go pray now.. lest i forget! so toodles dearies~


Monday, September 15, 2008 / Monday, September 15, 2008
The Shirelles - Tonight's The Night

You said you're gonna meet me,
Tonight's the night.
You said you're gonna kiss me,
Tonight's the night,
Well I don't know,
Said I don't know right now
I might love you so.
You say you're gonna beg me,
turn the lights down low
You said you're gonna make me
Feel all aglow.
Well I don't know,
Well I don't know right now
I might love you so.
I might love you so much.
You may break my heart.
I may want you so much
And all my dream been torn apart.
You say you're gonna love me,
Tonight's the night.
You say you're gonna hold me,
Tonight's the night.
I don't know.
Said I don't know right now.
I might love you so.
Let's take a chance.
Gonna be a great romance
Movin' right now,
Gonna be a great romance (repeat and fade)


Saturday, September 13, 2008 / Saturday, September 13, 2008
life has been treating me well for the past week despite the minor injury incurred on the first day of Ramadhan..

let me tell you the story, just for the sake of keeping it as memories..

Imagine this, the mirror is on a stool and leaning on cupboard. The sides of the mirror has already given way, so all that was left was the mirror itself.I was trying to open the cupboard to take clothes out to try and being lazy, i pry it open slowly without putting the mirror aside first.
And then suddenly the mirror fell and there was a huge KLA-CHANG. i saw blood coming out of my feet and walked quickly to the toilet to wash it off. my dad saw the blood and he started panicking and called everyone in the family to the kitchen to see my bloody wound.
The first thing i thought was "Ew.. i'm gonna have ugly feet for Raya" and when i told them sisters that, they said i was crazy.
Went to the A&E and met cute doctor.
While waiting to be stitched up, i saw many cute paramedics, a cute patient who practices silat and a cute patient's friend. HAHA. how bahagia i was.. :)

In the end, i have 4 stitches and yeah.. that's it. :)

i show you the aftermath picture okay, since i didnt take picture of it before my cute doctor stitched it up..


didnt fast for 8 days due to the monthly disturbance but all the same.. i think i have been bitchier as compared to the rest during the 'break'. haha. howells.. school has been interesting..

went out to buka with amirah on friday night.. was suppose to be a girls outing but then the rest cant make it the last minute.. so yeah.. i have pictures!! woohoo~ ate at simpang bdk then jalan2 geylang.. and to my pleasure, it was a feast for the eyes! HAHA. i enjoyed our HOT DATE! :)



the patty was yummy! :) and i felt soo full after this that i cant help finish the roti john. haha..




had iftar in school and i was the co-host. i felt like a noisy facilitator rather than a host. but howells. HAHA. i shall show you pictures kayy.. :)






oh this is the project director for the iftar, Azmil! haha.. very unglam post tapi takpe, tetap macho eh.. HAHA.

apa lagi eh.. oh yes, on friday after south asian tutorial, hakimah and i took photos at as7 there!



haha.. yesyes.. camwhore we are.. i can't wait for the many iftars lined up in the coming week! :)
  1. 4e8 iftar on 16 september
  2. Ilsa Tari iftar on 17 september
  3. Niners iftar on 19 september
  4. Primary school iftar on 20 september
  5. mss iftar on 22 september
oh sungguh exciting!! :) that's all folks for now! :)


Monday, September 01, 2008 / Monday, September 01, 2008
life has been great. making new friends and hanging out with the craziest bunch of people ever.

i think my mood has been a tad bitchy today, esp to certain individuals.. i shan't blame it on anything else, but the bitchy side of me okayy.. and i am sorry if i have been too bitchy for anyone's good. but i needed to get the angst out of my system somehow..

anyways, today is the first day of the fasting month, there were many challenges that i have to encounter.. okay not HUGE challenges.. but not being able to give a second look to cute guys in the faculty is a teeny weeny hard okay.. but me and my like-minded friends survived. if you're thinking we are bimbos, no we're not.. we just appreciate good scenery. HAHA.


anyways, i am supposed to be actually reading my readings.. but since i have this HUGE urge to just talk nonsense for a few minutes of my life, i shall do it..


the bonding session last saturday was funfunfun! haha.. stupid moments are a norm when fun comes into the equation. haha. alright... there is gg to be an iftar in school next wed, so if anyone is interested to go, just give me a buzz... haha.. then we can go together as a huge big family.. wait, but the decision still is dependant on my dad since he has yet to say yes.

ooh.. and i bought a jacket just now with hakimah.. like finally okayy.. my sisters have a minimum of 2 jackets, while i have none. so i feel quite happy that i have one now!

hmm, the start of the fasting month indicates one thing.. i have no reason to enter techno edge at all.. now i feel sad. HAHA. i haven't seen HOT AS HELL engine boys.. but i did see the cute engine guy just now at the busstop. :D

anyways, ms tutorial was fun just now.. i felt that it was fun.. and i do believe what my mom said is true, i have fun friends to hang out with to make my life in school that much colourful and i am sooo loving it!

oh and i think i shall go find dresses from now on.. i saw johanna with a cute dress just now, that it has made me want to buy a dress there and then. but because i have already decided in a mere 10secs to buy that jacket of mine.. i shall not try to hurt my bank account any more.. HAHAS.

the meeting with the bestfriends for bitching, sharing and just spending time together was sumpah exciting.. i have photos.. but a tad lazy to post them.. we played arcade until our arms hurt, we did our monthly fix of daytona and we did what we always did when we go to ehub.. sit at coffee bean at our normal spot and just while the time away with bimbotic moments and parts of our life that has been interesting as of late..

i know that hari raya is in a month's time.. but the thing is, i would like to seek forgiveness to souls out there who have been hurt by my bitching or my diturbing you.. although i know that i am suppose to forgive some people too, but unless they make an effort, i shall just continue thinking about it. HAHA. kidding.. i don't hold grudges and i don't hate people.. i just dislike them or their company.. its a totally different matter okayy.. anyways, to my loved ones, you know that i love you and i will never exchange any part of my memory as long as i live..

so people, just to leave on an emo note,

Looking back, I have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so.
-David Grayson

If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it.
If you don't ask, the answer is always no.
If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place.
-Nora Roberts