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Friday, March 28, 2008 / Friday, March 28, 2008
and because i love world peace and sticking out my tongue and mu camera..i decided to do all 3 things together.. haha.. what crappiness.. anyways..

work has been great this past few days. i love dressing up and that is why i always seem not to know what to wear to school every day. hahas. me and sihui feels that for the past few months we have started a routine.. i would miss the routine... but then again.. i really hope i would break the routine..


but the thing is.. no one day is the same in each class. every week my heart feels warmth and touched when they remember what i have taught them the previous week. even if they make fun of the word. it does show that they actually remember something from my class right.. well, after watching freedom writers courtesy of faz.. i hope i have made a difference in their life.. :)


i know i am slow and all about the movie.. but.. i would really recommend it.. its a movie close to gangster's paradise.. same methods.. but the difference was this movie was based on the truth. i know that for every encouraging teacher, there are others who look down on some of their students. i hope if i ever become a teacher.. im the one who encourage them to be the best that they can be. :D InsyaAllah..


well that's that. today i finally went to watch The Leap Years. i swear i woke up late for this very important date, since its been forever that i wanted to go and watch the movie and faz wants to have her pizza hut students meal.. so we trooped to Tiong Bahru to watch the 11.40 show at 12nn. haha.. yesyes.. we are naturally late for every movie that we watch, very the sad, but its okayyy! :)


the movie made me cry and touched my heart because of the way that i can relate to the character Li-Ann.. she is such a romantic at heart that she doesnt mind waiting 4 years just for that guy of her dreams to appear.. imagining waiting 4 years with no confirmation that he was going to appear the next time 29 february rolls around... for me, its not a realistic thing to do.. but what do i know about love.. i guess i would prefer something which i can hold on to and not just hope and wish for.. my heart is not strong enough for all these.. faz sent me this quote while we were watching the movie..


Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous. - Albert Einstein


well.. i cried buckets when watching the movie.. and i thouroughly enjoyed it.. :)


after that me and faz went window shopping and looking around at the items for sale.. bought a belt with faz.. then we took the mrt to city hall and walked all the way to marina square.. then we passed by newurbanmale where there was this cute guy there.. :) sumpah it made our day okayy..

then we entered marina square feeling so elated and happy.. then we met a little girl who was lost. and she was so cute and pretty and so nicely dressed up.. she trusted me and faz to lead her to find her mommy. when i told the story to my sis, she said the salespeople proabbly thought i was kidnapping her.. what only cann.. elise was her name.. she's 2 this year.. how smart is that cann.. her mom was so relaxed when she found her daughter that me and faz were not happy with her attitude towards her daughter. eish!


then we went to pizza hut for our lunch. there was a cute manager there. haha.. faz was awestruck when he came over our table to take our order. haha. we ate, drank, smiled a lot and talk.. i swear the service standard at marina square's pizza hut is top notch. and having nice people to look at gives it a HUGE bonus! haha.. the chinese guy working there has deep dimples cann... and i swear i felt like i was receiving VIP treatment by the staff. :) our dessert was packed especially for us coz we felt damn full to continue eating and faz was flustered with the presence of the manager. HAHA.


haha.. faz said the other waiter was blushing and acting shy when i said thanks to him. haha.. right.. :) oh and the chocolate cake was divine cann.. so moist and chocolateyy.. picture..







anyways.. after that we met with saba who took half day coz she had to run errands.



we visited all the kiddie shops coz faz needed to buy something for her cousin who was turning one soon.. it was soo fun.. there was soo many nice things cann.. and they have a whole portion slotted for babies and toddlers cann.. i soo like~

then we headed back. walked from marina square to the asean civilisation museum to meet my sis and also to go for the javanese dance workshop.. i swear i LOVE it.. its been so long since i danced and it felt sooo good. :) i feel like going to jogja to go and master javanese dance.. hmm..

so yeah.. so that was my day for todayy.. i have no idea whats my plans for the weekend.. i am feeling hunger pangs right about now.. i feel like making lesson plans for all my schools since i am wide awake. and then i should probably iron all my clothes so that i can just wear anything that i wish to.. whenever i want to. :D

it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all..
a person often meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it - jean de la fontaine

in three words, i can sum up everything i’ve learnt about life : it goes on - robert frost

if you are not too long, i will wait here for you all my life - oscar wilde


Sunday, March 23, 2008 / Sunday, March 23, 2008


and i realised that its been 13 days since i last updated.. too many thing have happened,but i shan't rant on the past.. :)ohmygawd!! i have double chin!! LOOK AT THE ABOVE PHOTO!! i am soo going to be bulimic in the coming week. okay.. as if that's going to happen anytime soon. HAH.

anyways.. today woke up bright and early for a sunday(which roughly means around 11am, which is quite acceptable since i slept at 4am yesterday, not counting the tossing and turning coz i was freaked out by the scary show i watched then.) and ate my brunch before heading to tampines changkat cc to donate blood for the first time. i was quite nervous and excited at the same time actually. :) i could feel my heart beating while i was queueing up. the pricking of my finger was a tad painful. like a big ant's bite and it was so sudden. then off to the big chair where i sat and pumped the blood out. :)

it was so short actually. after awhile, the packet of blood was ready!

haha.. and me and ibu thought we were going to be late for our class. ooh! i must tell.. the guy who did my bandage is sooo cute cann! :) he reminds me of my neighbour, wilson. :) and and he's a nurse.. who can resist a cute nurse, you tell me! he did the bandage for my mom too! :) my cute blue shirt nurse! :D

ooh.. let me show you picture of the cute orang bandage and the injection point okay! :)






lookiee.. its circle.. and the next time you all see me, it would be GONE! haha.. i cant see it now already actually... :P

then the class was frustrating for some parts coz my skills are not there cann.. i was doing things all soo slowly! haha.. but whatever.. now i know how to make bunga paha!! whee~

and and I cant wait to meet the girls on 9th April!! Whee~ we can go crazy and act like only we exist in this world okay! :) cant wait I swear! Ooh.. lessons are going to end soon for the favourite-st school of minee.. :( so sad.. I’ll miss them though. They always make sure that I have stories to share everytime lessons end and they have such charming nonsense that I would miss it.

Anyways, I should be writing my essay for NTU soon. Hearing around that people with better grades than mine not getting into university, it scares me okay..

Okay so that’s that, I told my mom the other day that I was going to save money for the next 3 months and by and probably until the year ends so I can buy a good digital camera for myself.. I’m leaning to buy the canon coolpix in hot pink! Its soo cute cann! :) or maybe not.. i shall survey around and i shall buy the digital camera which is the best and coolest! :)

okays until next time.. i like being online and talking to people i like to talk to.. :D they make my mom say im crazy that im smiling to the laptop like some mad woman. HAHA.

P.S: oh yes.. me and faz did go to the louvre museum at national museum! :)



Monday, March 10, 2008 / Monday, March 10, 2008
some days are happy days.. while some days are just days you wish would end faster so you won't have to have that dreadfyul feeling inside..

i don't like reading abot happy stories today. it makes me depressed. and because of that, i shall retreat to my bedroom and stare out the window and be an emo-head. i so do not like this feeling. being around people who don't know better are so infuriating! i believe the signs are clear...

i'm rambling about stuff that i myself am not sure what it's about. someone made my day just now..

A:camp oso must interview
F:yeah thats whyy
A:why ar
F:dunno
A:u're an automatic selection lei

haha.. and my cute guy said to me:

K:u nv come it show find me

haha.. these people makes my night.. :) but then..
i am sill in an emo mood, so beware..

it takes more than two minds to figure out this thing they call love. HAH.


Tuesday, March 04, 2008 / Tuesday, March 04, 2008
teaching today was quite fun actually.. i felt like i was in secondary school all over and i was being so bitchy. haha..

anyways.. after the class, met up with the girls for late lunch/gossips.. :) they always make my day better coz we can be all bimbo/bitchy together and no need to be embarassed about it.. i like~! :)

we had a taste of amirahfatin's delicious brownies.. then we were makeup hunting.. then there was a za promotion.. haha.. between me, faz and amirah we spent close to $130 cann..
haha.. dah, i shall eat bubur from now on.. hahas..

yeapyeap.. dunno whether i should be going for the thank you dinner.. but as what i told the rest, it totally depends on the results im going to get.. and all the fun people not coming.. so hmm.. i shall ponder over it again.. hahas

i saw hilmi evps just now! he recognised me! he said hi!! ohmygawd!! so handsome can heee!
*swoooooons*


Monday, March 03, 2008 / Monday, March 03, 2008

everything is fine and dandy! :)


oooh.. and happy birthday kak juliana!and to my uncle too! :) class was er.. dunno how to describe ah actually.. but the boys are too funny they crack me up lah cann.. haha..


and and.. i don't like milkshake.. not nice.. too feeling.. so fture boyfriends out there, i only want strawberry sundae tauu! haha.. ooh.. and tmr is coming down to see how i teach my students.. AAAAH!! so scareeee but soo exciting.. im hoping for the best! :D


oh and if you haven't known yet..


A LEVEL RESULTS ARE COMING OUT THIS FRIDAY @ 2.30PM..


uhuh.. feeling excited, anxious and scared all at the same time... :(
wishing for the best.. pray for me kayy!! :)




Sunday, March 02, 2008 / Sunday, March 02, 2008
i bet what i did really freaked him out.. but then, that day felt so magical.. felt so assuring..

so anyhoos.. went out with mar and hal last sat for bowling! haha.. tried out the moves done by all the bowling pros but it was to no use as i was the last one for the second game.. chet! haha.. but we had fun! running across the mall, catching a cute arrogant guy's eyes and yader2.. oh yes! the donuts.. the chocolate were a bit much for me sehh.. cannot take it ehh..

so yes.. then spent the whole weekend reading a book (and semi-regretting the fact that i msged him.. urgh) which was soo nice, i cried okayy.. :( the book is called "a hopeless romantic" by harriet evans.. and i must say she's a great writer.. the character felt so alive.. laura was a part of me.. i knew how she felt.. i could actually feel it.. it must be because i am a hopeless romantic... a part of me is just like laura.. hoping... wishing.. and always falling for the wrong guys.. :(

well, thinking about what i did.. i think i had to do it.. its been far too long... and somehow dropping hints would never help with someone like him.. and at least i know for a fact now that he's just not bothered.. and i should just pick myself up and move on.. :D and i shall slowly but surely build up the confidence again and face him soon enough in the future. i know i can and i wont let this hurt the friendship.. well, unless he's sticky about the issue lahh..

ahh.. i shall just wait and see what happens next..

haha.. now i sound like a mystery writer.. trying to conjure images on your minds about what is going to happen next.. nyeahh.. anyways.. I need to clean my room and go search for that library book of mine which has gone missing for some freaking weird reason.. its not even that great.. eish! and no one in the house is accepting responsibility for its lost! i dun like ehh!

urgh.. shall just look in my room for the umptheenth? time.. and i have yet to watch secret all the way through.. things keep coming in my way.. i think i shall go and watch it now and let myself immerse into the world of fantasy yet again.. i think its more fun that way..

and i'm thinking should i even be thinking again and again about what had transcend on 29 feb.. its a waste of my time although i have plenty of it.. and i bet he doesn't even care.. and for my friends who are not telling me stuff about what he said.. thanks eh.. making me wonder much more and i would never ever get a clearer picture.. thanks ahh.. urgh.