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Thursday, February 28, 2008 / Thursday, February 28, 2008
rebeccatron at http://community.livejournal.com/thenicestthings said this:

"I'm sorry I'm such a jerk at times, I just have this overwhelming fear that you're going to think I like you so much more than you like me and bail so I pretend to be mean to protect myself from this. I'm slow, I know."
"No you're not. I'm worried about the same thing!"
Its just nice knowing that even if my logic is completely skewed, he's leaning with me.


haha.. i wish someone said that to me.. than everything would be crystal clear to mee.. :)


Wednesday, February 27, 2008 / Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Stranger - Secondhand Serenade
Turn Around
Turn Around and fix your eye in my direction
So there is a connection
I can't speak
I can't make a sound to somehow capture your attention
I'm staring at perfection
Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are

You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight

I'm confident
But I can't pretend I wasn't terrified to meet you
I knew you could see right through me
I saw my life flash right before my very eyes
And I knew just what we'd turn into
I was hoping that you could see
Take a look at me so you can see

You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight

You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight

Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are
[x4]

Your beauty seems so far away
I'd have to write a thousand songs
To make you comprehend how beautiful you are

I know that I can't make you stay
But I would give my final breath
To make you understand how beautiful you are
Understand how beautiful you are

You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight

You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
You call me a stranger


/ Wednesday, February 27, 2008
hmm.. so lets seee what have i been doing since the last time i wrote an entry..

last friday i met up with ashri and indah for lunch at harbourfront. i was suppose to get a treat by mr ashri.. but nooo.. that did not happen. haha.. so anyways.. after lunch at bk, i walk around at harbourfrot before deciding to meet faz at tampines library.. reached tampines and saw sooo many army boys around.. :)

then went to get the laptop skin for faz's laptop then we chilled at tamp library. wanted to watch mukhsin but got scolded by my mom coz i went out the whole day already.. nyeahhh.. :(

then on saturday, met up with amirah and saba for the ntu talk.. it was quite helpful i must say.. i am not that interested in sociology.. but the bachelor in education (arts) sounds tempting enough.. and the degree in business: hospitality and management interests me..

so yes.. i am at the same crossroads i was at when i was choosing the path i wanted to go after taking my o levels..

so should i be a malay teacher or a hotelier?

haha.. is there even such a thing... i love hotels.. i would love to manage one.. but i love teaching malay too.. lemme think about it again before results are being released.. hmm..

then after the ntu talk, me and faz ( she came for the ntu talk halfway) went to go and watch sepet.. i did not cry like the first time i watch it with my sister.. but it deeply touched my heart.. the director was also present to introduce the movie to us.. :) movie was followed up by lunch at ljs at marina square where we met amina and saba..

so yeah lahh.. then on sunday, the parents woke up and asked if i wanted to go singapore airshow.. first thing that came to mine was that he was working there.. haha.. so since the sisters didnt want to go.. called a few friends then finally went with masse, jodine and masse nye friend, suhaila..

the army guys are soo cute.. :) you can check out the army boys, pilots and boatmen specialist in the pictures at the link below.. oohh.. and i have to complain! i got sunburn at my back cannn.. :(
soo unglam.. and since i did not use sunblock at my hands.. they look soo black like charcoal.. sesungguhnya unglam sehh..


singapore airshow 2008


so yes.. we met noorie and saf there! its been a long time since i met them! :) oh and for those who didnt know.. he was not working.. :(

then last monday, met up with masse (whose face was peeling because it got sunburnt) for breakfast at macs at TECC.. then took bus to school.. but was too early so continued the ride up till KNA... the bookshop that was part of my secondary school memories.. :) class was manageable todayy.. :)

haha.. surprises.. at night.. lalalalaa~

then on tuesday.. class was okaylahh.. had group work.. they were slacking lahh.. but its alright.. it is post exams anyways.. so cannot stress them too much you know.. met faz at tamp library then we bought lunch at macs and ate at my house.. watched movie and chilled until around 6 then yeahlah..

then just now, the class was okayy.. they have been better but they are little children.. so its understandable.. heard abt a scary story by one of the other trainers.. had late lunch at kfc with sihui and cik jora..

then came straight home coz my feet have been hurting.. nyeah.. so thats all for now..
CIAO! :)


Friday, February 22, 2008 / Friday, February 22, 2008


i am sad. i bought my very own wooden ferris wheel. the shape was starting to be seen. but i broke one of the wooden structure.


i want a ferris wheel. but now i have to wait till i am in that romantic mood again to go andactually buy one. but if you're nice enough, you can buy and make for me okay perfect stranger. :) i would really appreciate it. once you're done, you can just give it to me. :D


okay dah. very the thick skin..


anyways.. someone said he is going to take me to a themepark and let me ride the ferris wheel until mabuk. haha. i shall hold him to that. but i bet it would never happen. HAH. :p


anyways.. i found out that hilmi and nizar are going for ns on the same day! haha.. if memory holds true that is.. HAHA..


someone has been giving mix signals. i don't like mix signals. why can't it be just green, amber or red. kan lagi senang that way.. what only tauu..


i shall retract what i said about me being an old maid from the previous post. haha.. my mom didn't let that comment die out the next day. kept telling everyone the story... yesyes ibu, i get it.. i'm only 19.. i'm still young.. HAHAS.. but wait, i'm barely 19.. still 18 tauu..


oh yes.. yesterday i went back to srjc to return cikgu's notes.. met the teachers and had breakfast with cikgu. the makcik gave me free mee! :) cikgu noor said i put on weight.. AAAAH!





then when to faz nye rumah and watch grease while being emo.. then headed to the hospital to send my datuk for his appointments with ibu.. then faz came to the hospital coz she was bored and we ate at polar.. the mocha was ugh.. took the civic ambulance home.. it was wayy cool.. haha and the moon that night was beautiful sehh..


today i went to eat with sis at kfc before she went for her meeting in school. then went all the way to harbourfront for lunch with ashri and indah.. then walked around harbourfront and vivo.. then headed back to tamp to borrow books with faz as company..


oh and there were sooo many army boys there.. but then none caught my eye.. i can soo imagine someone in that uniform sehh.. haha.. soon, soon.. :)


okay dah.. i wanna go sleep now, coz tmr there is the ntu talk and we are meeting early so we can rush off and watch sepet later at 2pm. :) so for now, ciao baby love..







Wednesday, February 20, 2008 / Wednesday, February 20, 2008
dah. that's it.

i'm officially going to die an old maid.

this was finalised at 11.37pm SINGAPORE time.

goodnight everyone. :(


Tuesday, February 19, 2008 / Tuesday, February 19, 2008
anyways.. today's class was good i must say.. had a short revision and a peer assessment for the students.. :)

then the girlfriends decided to come over my house and we lazed around watching movies.. while layan-ing my sis with her stories about guys just like how i was when i started going jc too.. hahas.. how time goes by soo fast that i am actually waiting for my a level results.. i have yet to have nightmares.. but i have thought a lot about the next step..

which course to take in university.. which direction i should try.. and all that.. but, i should always prepare myself for the worst that would happened, and pray to Allah that it does not happen.. but life is life, thus you would never know what might hit you in the next minute..

anyways.. i was thinking about the next step if i failed my a levels or did it terribly..
i thought of retaking my a levels, either in school or as a private candidate.. i would prefer the retaking in school coz at least i would have a structure to learn in you seee..

i don't know.. i hope soo much that i do well enough to get to the course that i want.. i am still undecided between malay studies and business management.. i wanted to take accounting or sociology but i have no idea what is the entire course about really.. and i need to find a course that i would enjoy and also one which allows me to find a good-paying job in the future..

coz i fully intend to travel in the future tauu.. i am a sagittarius after all.. i need a taste of adventure and i need to make sure my life is fulfilled every single day.. even if pining does not make my days feel fulfilled.. at least im doing smt right right..

so its 20 february and as i was sharing with saba just about a few minutes before.. something good ought to happen soon enough.. :) i hope the results would be the one cheering me up.. but a dripping hot guy entering my life wouldn't be that bad either.. hahas..

dah dah.. i am starting to babble.. i cant wait to get my pay.. they said its given already.. i wanna buy stuff! :)

so lets all pray together for great a level results.. and a red-blooded man to enter this life kayy.. :) haha.. NONSENSE.. but at least it makes me feel at ease.. :)

nyeaaaaah.. so long for now.. i wonder how long tan lines take to dissapear.. i wanna wear my fav black dress to work sehh!


Sunday, February 17, 2008 / Sunday, February 17, 2008
yesterday was the last day for me working at sentosa as an events host for sentosa flowers.. :(
the morning and afternoon sun was such a bitch and i bet i look like one of the bg now.. haiya..
anyways.. i got a tip from a guest and i was refusing profusely but she still said to take it as a hongbao.. how sweet kann.. :)

during break, me and saba were being nonsense in the tent. there was nisa, rusydi, keith and benny there.. haha.. me, aishah and sakinah camwhored at our zone.. and i saw this cuteee guy who was working at sentosa as the transports person.. sooo hot cann! :D

and and.. i was msging kelvin throughout the morning.. haha..

after our shift, we all decided to take pictures at all the photo points.. haha. how fun okayy! i want the pictures okayy! :) and we decided to go for further suntanning at the beach! palawan beach here we comeee!

played volleyball, although i dont know how.. but yeah.. we managed... :)

then we went off coz we were hungry and i had to leave for home.. nyeah..

anyways.. if you're interested, here are the pictures that i took while working and after working hours.. :)


sentosa flowers 08'

im gonna miss all of them sehh! they made my first job ever sooooooo fun! :)



Friday, February 15, 2008 / Friday, February 15, 2008
hello.. so valentines day was yesterday.. spent the day working at sentosa.. was whining to eugene about me having to work full shift yest, when someone told me it was only in the morning, bacen tauu. but anyhow.. i enjoyed the day/afternoon/night.. :)
brought lollies for the sentosa people! :) then the besties came down to celebrate vdae.. although i had to work and could only spend around an hour with the.. sad i know.. but that's life you see..

and and.. saba made my afternoon then,by telling me about someone's query.. and and jun wun bought ice cream for us for vday! :) i like~ then walked around the garden at night makes the place sooo much more romantic you know.. i was with butterfly wings, but i didn't care.. so whatever..

the air was soo filled with love and the people there made it soo much more enjoyable day hh.. made new friends today, coz they were usually found during the afternoon shift.. so yeahlah.. then someone made my day by just being there and accompanying me and remembering all the little stuff. :) but today would be his last day though.. :(

anyways.. i got caught for resting while working.. haiya.. sian can..
and he did buy me icecream! :D
ooh and someone has been telling somebody something up to the point that that person thinks that i like that person.. haiya.. what seh did he tell.. so irritating! but he's giving me mix feelings, i dont like okayy..

results coming out soon enough.. :(

cant wait to go back work tmr!:)


Wednesday, February 13, 2008 / Wednesday, February 13, 2008
"You're getting exactly what you're feeling about, not so much what you're thinking about.

That's why people tend to spriral if they stub their toe getting out of bed. Their whole day goes like that. They have no clue that a simple shifting of their emotions can change their entire day - and life.

If you start out having a good day and you're in that particular happy feeling, as long as you don't allow something to change your mood, you're going to continue to attract, by the law of attraction, more situations and people that sustain that happy feeling."

Bob Doyle

(taken from "The Secret" by Rhonda Byrne)


so you see, i kind of believe in this attraction thing. if you are feeling sad, sad things would keep happening to you, and if you are always smiling, it attracts happy things to occur to you. i should be able to safely say that the results are not coming out this friday, i hope so. it shouldn't be a problem, i guess.

i had lessons with the little girls today and they tend to make my day with their muses. :) haha.. their smiles and eagerness always makes me happy that they look up to me for knowledge.. but they choose not to believe me when i said i was 19 years old. i wonder why. and no, the answer is not becase i am old eh.

anyways, had late lunch with sihui and adeline and we shared about our experiences in the teaching arena.. haha.. if you can call it that. it was fun chilling with them at pizza hut, taking our own sweet time eating, drinking and talking. hahas..

then headed home and felt damn tired and all.

tomorrow is the valentines day. the day that love is supposedly whole and that is when almost everyone gets tipsy with love. although i know there are people out there who would be enjoying tomorrow with the one. haha, i guess. i would be working and enjoying the blissfulness of friends and my best friends around me. oh and i have mentioned gorgeous flowers. therefore, this makes it a need for me to bring my trusty camera.. i hope it can catch the flowers beatifully sehhh..

so yeah. everyone enjoy valentines day tomorrow and for the singles out there, don't lose hope eh, its just another lovely day for everyone! :)

so for those reading this entry, I LOVE YOU OKAY!

and i stil pray for the miracle to happen. but i know deep, deep in my heart that it won't. :( eh i like you tau. how can you not notice when im o upfront about it? you blind ass! ugh!


Saturday, February 09, 2008 / Saturday, February 09, 2008
today marks the 4th day of my job at sentosa! mann.. has it been tiring.. but the guests have been great! and my fellow events hosts are fun people! i like~ they all are smiley people and they're the type who i can easily talk to and walk nonsense with.. :)

anyways.. i havent been omline coz i have been sleeping right after my shift.. my body cannot take it ahh.. haha.. princess feeling! wakhakah.. anyways.. rumours have been wild about when the a level results are coming out.. the earliest i heard is 15 feb.. haiya.. they must soo ruin my day after vday.. anyways.. this vday, like the others i hope i can spend with my girls.. its singles night out ehh.. but we shall see if our schedules clash or smt like that...

i have just woken up from a 7hr sleep.. but i have to sleep back if you want me to be able to smile and greet sweetly tmr.. oh please let the crowd be not too big a crowd.. oh and have i told you... i get to see cute babies/toddlers/children every dayyy and i am enjoying it! i made friends with a few. there was carol, clasrissa, jarold, sama ( that is her name), rudy( wah.. this one damn cute french boy ehh whee~ ) and thats all i rmb... the rest just said hello and smiled at mee! woohoo!

anyways.. a slimeball would always be one kann.. ugh! soo freaking irritating... dah fine..

oh yeah.. do drop by sentosa flowers kay! :)


Saturday, February 02, 2008 / Saturday, February 02, 2008
for all to know..

i passed my btt!! :)

haha.. okay so that's no big deal.. but.. i wanna make it a big deal! :)

anyways.. before i went for the tes, watched 27 dresses with the girls ( saba. faz, amirah), oh and not forgetting faz's classmate.. the story was good i must say.. came late but i was emofied by the movie okay.. moved me to tears at one point.. hahs..

and i was right.. she did try on 27 dresses and not 26 dresses, like someone guessed eh..
and the guy in the movie is sooo hot! all 4 of us were gushing unshamelessly at the back of the movie theatre! haha..

im watching a korean show right about now.. and why is it so hard for 2 souls to just say that they like each other.. haiya.. sooo leceh lah cann..

anyways, i would be out now.. soo have a romantic february everyone.. although mine didnt start out being that great a february.. i hope it ends well..

soo good night.. or good morning i must say.. :)