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Saturday, July 29, 2006 / Saturday, July 29, 2006
i think that i'm too involved with my wild imagination. i have not done a single thing since lat yesterday,except slack. i really am waiting for ruin-city to come and get me.
can i have a happier ending? pleaasse? i love my life, but can you make me study for it at least. pleaase. i don't want to have to repeat this year again.. it would be sad.. but i have to show everyone that i can pass this year well. because i bet everyone has doubts about it. farahin, you have to show them that you can.
i think you, ms imagination should have a lonely trip alone to some destination that i wouldn't be invited there. so then i can start focussing on my REAL life and actually study for my success.
and i know you think i'm nuts talking to myself. and so what is not normal.
i am tired. i think i shall get ready for the meeting later. daa.
Friday, July 28, 2006 / Friday, July 28, 2006
i'm lazy and i don't feel like doing work. but guess what? the world does not revolves around me so everything is still working even with my procastination. and i know that if i keep doing this, i will end up in some rubbish chute coz i just want to sit there and rot like the rest of organisms sitting there with their moths full. i have to START doing my revisions and STOP not doing my homework. ibu said this yesterday, or something like it...
"asal you tak belajar macam your crushes semua? dorang semua pandai2. kalau u belajar betul-betul, dapat markah yang tinggi, dorang semua akan kata 'waah, budak perempuan ni pandai seh..'.."
haha.. sooo funny can. okays for those who didn't understand, my mom asked my why can't i study harder like the rest of my crushes.they're all so smart. if you do well for your exams they will say ' waah.. this girl is so smart seh..'
haha.. so yeah, if what she says is true.. i will start studying right after this entry.. wait, not yet studying. firstly i have to finish up the homework that i have left until the last minute to do. and i have math questions to do.. so farahin, go and buck up now..
oh yes, the whole week, have been filled with performances.. on wednesday, went to watch wayang kulit with faz and sister, the photos re uploaded.. nyaaha. it was okayyy.. i saw a cute gamelan player.. okay so he was the only young one. tet. the show was wfarnielah.. it was in english.. cool2. however, it was kinda draggy towards the end. soo sadd.
then on thursday went to the malay heritage centre. looked around the place for clues.. and it was truly an eye-opener. i like~ i felt so oldies when i enetered the museum. i felt like a tourist myself, because i ever knew things, which a malay was suppose to know. hah. so yeah.. i love it..
then yesterday.. i had a photography workshop.. and while lookingthrough the photos i took, i actually have a blur picture of him.. wooohooo~ go me! i like~ and then went for guzheng concert.. it was nice. but me and amelia kept talking.. haha.. and lovelle was there!! and the primary school kids are sooo cute cann.. haha.. so pretty and they all look so uniform coz tehy all have plaited hair.. and there's alwyas only one guy in the whole group or none at all. hahas.
and i saw this cute nyjc guy.. not bad2.. haha.. but didn't get to see him play. so yeah.
oh yes, for those who noticed, the links are there. so feel free to look into other people's blog and be a kpo into other's ppl life.. haha.. not really kpo lah, coz then i would be a kpo myself.. let's just say we are a bunch of interested people. haha.
okay for now. that's all.. oh all the best to fazlina, on her performance later, which i am watching coz my sister is also performing!! i wanna watch..it's been so long since i went to see a dikir performance.. haha.
toodles then..
those deep eyes of yours.. i can stare at them forever only if you don't see. i wonder if those deep eyes lies some secrets.. secrets which i don't need to hear.. coz you are my friend and though i have no dreams of you. i want your eyes, coz they seem so true..
he's walking by and my heart beats fast. my face fools not even a single one. but deep in me, i wish you not to see. the girl within, trying to break free. i try to look away every single time, coz i don't want him to feel the way that i feel. experience taught me, never to agree to wimps of the heart, coz it'll only make me weak.
Tuesday, July 25, 2006 / Tuesday, July 25, 2006
300th entry!!
was reading through my darling classmates blogs.. i found this entry which explains what i'm feeling too.. and to that friend.. don't worry, although i'm not close to you,i'll be there for you coz we girls have to stick by each other and you should know that you'll always be cherished in my life. you don't need lovers to feel loved.just knowing someone is there, is sometimes good enough.
an excerpt from the blog, with minor changes i made..
"everyone around me wants love...but i am so afraid of that..i dont wanna be loved because i dont wanna be hurt...there's a price to pay when u are in love...i want others to be happy coz i wanna be happy...our distance seems so near but in fact we are so far...i am clear with what i want but i dun expect all this from u...i believe time will heal my wound...it's deep but i hope it will fade away.."
sometimes i feel that this is taking too much of my normal thinking it occupies me, but in true fact it shouldn't because i know i am being loved by friends who will stick with me throughout my happiness and my sadness.
its 11.39 but i am still not asleep, because i have been doing nothing for the past 3 hours. i ate, talked to faz, went online and stuff like that. and i just found out something, i don't like late people.. but if its my darlings i woulnd't mind waiting because i KNOW that's how they are. haha. and i can be late too. but if the person comes wayy late without giving prior notice.. i swear i will kill that person. haha. as if.
i have homework to do.. i have to read scripts and notes.. but i love doing things last minute.. i think something is wrong with my system.. and i have to start losing weight already..change my lifestyle.. exercise and eat moderately.. the eating modeartely part can be done.. but the exercise part.oh my.. its not in me yet. but i'll mae sure it is.. it has to be if i have to lose the million kilograms i have to. haha. and no, i am not depressed about my weight. haha. let's tale it like a challenge. i love challenges. i love proving others wrong subtlely..
like what kelly clarkson said.. "i'll get what i want.."
yessah.. and lets see.. meet the parents session was last week. it was okay i guess. saw nizar's lil sister.. ohmy.. what a pretty girl.hahs. and zarifah was the the top 3 arts students. congrats girl!haha.. yu fei's guardian so young cann. funny sia. and his hair was like whoa.nyahha
and what else..went for breakfast after that. and.. i cant remember much.. on sunday.. my family went for lunch at the chop opposite the malay heritage centre. the food quite nice ah. and the person serving the food, in green shirt looks sooo chsrming with his goatie.. haha. yummieh~ only some guys look good with goatie.. and i am sooo sure he's one of them. haha.then went to a secret place which was sooo nice.. i can't wait!(aha. and i am not telling eh, even to my besties.. muahaha. u can wait long2 lah kay..)then we went to this fashion. bought shirts for my sisters.. need to lose umpteen kg before can wear them. coz its tiny. haha. don't think i can.so yeah. haha..then went to ljs for dinner. saw this 3 mths MI guy.. but cannot remember his name.. he was from pasir ris crest and he played floorball with the rest lah.. yeaps.. and after dinner we went home..
i know i missed something out.. oh yeah. after the lunch at the shop, we went to ara street to buy cloth for our hari raya clothes...so pretty. can't wait!! whee~ yeaps. and when we passed the food shop again to get to the car, mr green goatie was eating.. haha. how cute.
yesterday was so eventful.. although only i may think so. nyeahh. haha. ran around the school's area for pe yesterday.. it was 3.2km.. but somehow it felt shorter lah.. hahas. mr blue shirt didn't come today... so sad. hahas. econs was eventful! haha. its a random thing..i'm gonna sound childish if i tell you through this entry.. haha.so i shall not. muahah. he was one of the top students.. ooh~ good for him. smart-ass. issit true to say that i am attraacted to smart guys? there was h**** ( he was smarter than me before i become hardworking..haha ryte), f***** (DUH!), f****( this one i'm not sure but i think he is..), f****( i think he is too.. i never did knew him.so yeah. hahas.), h**** (haha. this one i'm not sure.. but he WAS from THAT school, so he should be..but actually fell for him coz of his looks. so TET. haha)and now in jc.. most guys i see i am attracted to them. haha. but usually because to ME they are charming in their own way.. hahas. =) and not because they are smart-ies. haha.
oh yeah. 12.04 now. i really have to stop writing this entry.. but then.. i am trying to procastinate in doing my work, coz
a) i don't want to do it b) i WANT to write longer and longer c) PROCASTINATION is my middle, third, fourth, fifth etc. name...muahaha
okay.. i think those are valid reasons why i should be blogging. it's enough to comfort me.but you see, if i want to do very well for promos which i SHOULD. ii have to start now.. so i shall finish this entry now..
a) i feel guilty fornot doing my work b) the battery in the laptop is going to die off soon and i am lazy to charge it..
so till next time. i'm captain farahin signing out.. haha.. i swear i am mad and high!! hahas.. daaaaaa~ =)
Thursday, July 20, 2006 / Thursday, July 20, 2006
oh behold.. i am notgoing to update anything about my life really. just a litte announcement that my beautiful camera has been given a hot and SEXY name...
and it's a HE.. but don't extra want my darling son to be going out with ur daughter eh.. no no.. muahaha. i very the choosy one.. u ask my son's best friend, riviera.. hahas...
his name is...
LUKMAN HAFIZI...
romantic right the name.. he is just that.
okay..so that's enough for my update.. the next entry would be my 300th. i'll make sure its longer than this.. hahas..
just to end this entry.. i remembered this song... which made me SMILE whenever i heard it. hahas. i hope the lyrics make u smile too..
don't be too caught up with the busy pace of the world.. stop and relax... there's always a reason for everything.. so SMILE..
Smile, though your heart is aching Smile, even though it's breaking When there are clouds in the sky You'll get by... If you smile Through your fears and sorrow Smile and maybe tomorrow You'll see the sun come shining through If you... Light up your face with gladness Hide every trace of sadness Although a tear may be ever so near That's the time you must keep on trying Smile, what's the use of crying You'll find that life is still worthwhile If you'll just... Smile
for my friends.. i'll be here if u need a listening ear.. never keep things to yourself.. share the problem.. it will help lessen the burden.. i adore each and everyone you to bits..
its been a long time since i've contacted you.. but i'm calluing you at midnight.. wishing you all th ebest in your future endeavours (sp?) i miss old times.. =)
Wednesday, July 19, 2006 / Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Carefree
Rindu Bayangan
Bila kukenang kurenung gambar wajahmu Kisah yang lalu tak akan berulang lagi Lupakan saja cerita lama Usah dirayu pada yang tak sudi
Janganlah dinanti pada yang telah pergi Hanya luka lamakan berdarah kembali Kini kecewa tidak terkata Mengapakah itu disebut lagi
( korus ) Apalah yang hendak di kata Sudah suratan takdir yang menentukan Ooh..oh..inilah ragam manusia Manis di bibir pandai bermain lidah
Berputar-putar membelitkan kata-kata Hanya linangan air mata yang menitis Pada bayangan di angin lalu Membisikkan kata rindu bayangan
Sunday, July 16, 2006 / Sunday, July 16, 2006
too many things to update. later den. results are horrible. everything's left to the last minute. oh my. i should be sued or smt fordoing smt like this.. ish.
STRESS lah sia... breathe in and outs..
Thursday, July 13, 2006 / Thursday, July 13, 2006
hmm..lets see..updates are in order.. its only thursday..4 days of not updating..hahs. oh and you know what..i think i have quite a few to update on.hahas. but firstly, the most important thing is..
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY JIRAH!!!
haha..one of the kakak2 from my classes.. the few ones who are able to give me advice on life and school. and i guess the ones who are able to occupy us with stories of lives and mrepek together2 with.. and damn i miss her. and i have not yet wished her yet.. later ah.. at 11.59... u wait kayy. hahas.
oh kays dats dat. on monday... had my oral.. was sooo scared.. ish. but hot guys sat beside and behind me.. nyahaha. i like~ but then you see.. the person beside me didnt want to talk..boring.. and nasib baik th eperson behind was nice.. hahas. whee~ and yeah..
him: 'farahin, focuslah.. '
haha.. yeah right.. i was like super scared lah cannn.. hahas.. and the teacher was late cann.. make my heart beat faster only.. and tut.tut.tut. it was MY turn.. hahas. so scareee.. for all those who have cared and want to know what happenened.. the question was about discipline amongst students and it was the SAME as my english o level, that info i just found out AFTER i got the qestion.. i came to a slow realisation seh.. haha
i guess it was fine.. hmm.. what else..on tuesday.. saw mr cool at the library where he has to be coz he has to stay cool. it was so hard to concentrate coz from my seat i could see a clear/semi-clear view of him( due to my contacts which are not designed for astig people.. nyaaah) .. and everytime when i look up and i dun see him, somehow i panic.. ntah for what also.. loser lah sia.. haha., you ppl no need to tell me, i can remind myself. nyahas.
and then, went to watch knockouts for sr idol.. came in and the girl who sang sunday morning was wayy good. i like~ and naufal was niceeeeyyy.. and kamaliah was good. and the vivi girl was nice.. and yeahlah..went home late.. soo fun. hahas. so yeah..
lets see.. yesterday. the mcs people went to nuraini's house and dip the fruits and stuff. the marshamllows look heavenly tau.. yang lain.. okay2 ajerlah..and2 went home late again. and so yeahlah.. today went early to nuraini's house..
while waiting for her to siap and come down, this makcik made converstion with me about her son who is in p6 and who is facing difficulty in math and was telling me about the incident that happened during his tuition at mendaki. about some teacher who threw a pen which hit his head, because he was reading a comic book under the table and due to that, he doesn't want to go for tuition anymore, but his mom sid it wuld be a waste of money, because its all paid for. in my mind, i was like.. okay.. i am suppose to think like a mom now.. be protective of your own blood. so yeah.. u can imagine that. and what else eh..oh yeah, she continued on about what happened during the racial war in 64.. i didn't know whether to believe her, coz the events were a little personal than those which i have read in y SS books. so yeah.. and erm.. i felt bad coz i didn't want to know so much , and was hoping for nuraini to come down fast..nyeah.. and she finally did!! so yeah. left the makcik to ponder on her miseries and memories..
school was fine. ABSOLUTELY LOVE the sexual educationn talk.. oh my.. the videos were soo nice. i like~ and i found out something toady about video -making your events have to intertwine.. it will lokk soo nice when put together..i hope i get the video course.. please.. although it was my second choice.. but still.. video excites me more than mere photography..
then had econs... i need to revise the concepts back. i kept giving the wronf answer.. bloody hell. and yeah.. the selling of the food was not that well. but waddehell its over and i'm happy with what we have earned. =) somehow some burden has been lifted. got back my malay paper... overall an E.. stupidlah.. but yeah.. what to do. what's done is done. yeap.
than we continued selling to no avail..throwed the ones we did not want.. and yeah.. mde 64 bucks for charity.. its little, but its the thought that counts. and some ppl are just not FUN charity givers.. BITE ME! ishh..
and what else, after that i did a stupid thing.. terrible bebeh. stayed in the library and neaten my file and then went to sleep. the aircon was just too nice. and yeahlah. stayed in school because of meeting,but in the end cancelled. i could have been sleeping at home seh. ish.
so yeah.. went home, took same bus with hafiz, my senior. he's a nice guy. a great conversationalist i guess. we talked and talked until my stop. hahas. it felt nice talking instead of being moody and sleeping or just starung out of the windows imagining lfe's what ifs.. hehs. =)
hmm.. i think thats enoughlah for this time.. its a long entry mind you.. =)
and its dangerous to have a crush with a person from your school. its not good for your health farahin. what if, the friendship becaome like hilmi and yours. ponder ehhh.
/ Thursday, July 13, 2006
Just Friends VS. Best Friends
A Just Friend says..hi,..hello,..bye,...and walks away... A Best friend always stop by your side & asks how r u doing ??
A Just Friend has never seen you cry. A Best friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A Just Friend thinks the friendship is over, when you have an argument. A Best friend knows that it's not a friendship, until after you've had a fight.
A Just Friend hates it when you call, after he has gone to bed. A Best friend asks you.... why you took so long to call.
A Just Friend, when visiting, acts like a guest. A Best friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
A Just Friend jealous about your romantic history. A Best friend wonders of your love story.....
A Just Friend expects you to be always there for any help. A Best friend is always there, wherever you require any help.
A Just Friend doesn't have time in his/her busy schedule, A Best friend always have time for you in his/her busy schedules....
A Just Friend phones you whenever he/she has some work, A Best friend calls you often just to hear your voice.....
A Just Friend doesnt have anything to talk to you on phone, A Best friend doesnt know...what all to finish...
Sunday, July 09, 2006 / Sunday, July 09, 2006
haha.am typing this while the world cup finals is just about to start. its the national anthem of france and italy now and in a few minutes, the captains are going to shake hands and after that exchange gifts and after that,finally the game that everyone who is interested in soccer will be dying to watch.. the START of the match!!
okays. for those of you sesat people who don't know what countries are in the finals. shame on you. haha. you must be blind because veery media souce you can see or hear, u will know that its france and italy..nyaha
okays.. in a few more hours will be my malay oral. so after this sentence i will be typing in malay so as to practice for the conversation later.
hari ini cikgu reza punya kerja kahwin. ia telah diadakan di balai rakyat tampines changkat. sata telah bertemu bersama rakan-rakan saya yang telah lama tidak saya berjumpa. Saya telah berjumpa bersama ika, iqa,wani, ashik,afdal dan fadhil di bas stesen tampines. saya telah tiba awal kerana ayah saya telah menghantar saya ke bas stesen tampines. di kalangan rakan-rakan saya, budak-budak perempuan telah tiba memakai baju kurung warna merah jambu dan biru. kalau anda melihat, pasti terpegun. setelah itu, kami semua menaiki bas 292 untuk ker balai rakyat itu.
bila kita tiba, kita boleh lihat berapa megahnya majlis perkahwinan cikgu reza. kita telah berjumpa dengannya di meja makan mereka. Mereka lihat sangat cocok sekali. =) kami berbual buat seketika dan selepas itu pergi mencari meja untuk kami duduk dan makan. kami bertujuh tunggu sebentar sebelum mengambil makanan kami kerana masih menunggu akan ketibaan dasatu lagi rakan kami, badd. setelah kesemuanya tiba dan mengambil makanan masing-masing, baru kita mula makan tengahari kita. nyaah. salah satu sebab saya tidak suka makan udang semasa di luar adalah kerana lecehnya untuk mengopek kulit udang. haha. selepas makan, kami telah duduk berbual menunggu untuk mengambil gambar bersama pengantin.. =)
gambar yang kita ambik bersama pengantin sangat lawa sekali. dan pengantin juga lihat sangat manis bersama. setelah mengambil gambar bersama pengantin, ashik terpaksa beredar kerana hal tersendiri dan tinggalnya tujuh orang. di sana, kami sempat mengambil gambar bersama satu sama lain. dan gambar-gambar yang telah dipetik, sangat cantik apabila dilihat kembali. kami telah beredar untul pulang dan menaiki 292 untuk pulang ke stesen bas tampines. tiba di sana, saya dan ika terpaksa berpisah siang bersama yang lain kerana hal-hal tertentu. yang lain telah pergi ke pusat membeli-belah tampines mall, untuk mengisikan masa.
haha.okays. enough of the malay language. everything sounded so formal. and i cannot even remember the peribahasa that i wanted to use. aniwaes all the best for tomorrow then. 14 minutes has passed into the game. france has scorred a goal. henry fell at the second minute.. i pity him..its only the start of the game you know. if i am not wrg, the captain of france was the one who scored the goal. oh and his goal was from a penalty kick. it had a nice touch to it.hehes..
hmm.. should i put the pictures..i guess so.. for those who want to see the photos of the wedidng today.. go to http://photos.yahoo.com/lamenoid under mr reza's wedding. aites?
just some of the pictures from today..
oohooh.. italy just scored a nice header in the 18th minute.. ohmy..this is a great match to watch bebeh.. but i need my sleep. and oh yes, tthe photos..
me and wani..the pinkies..=)
the groom and bride..pretty right..=)
afdal.badd.ika.wani.me.ika.ashik.fadhil and the groom and bride.. pretty lah sia.. <333
the girls cam-whoring in the bus.. nyaha
my food.... yummieh~
the guys. without ashik. afdal.fadhil.badd
yeaps2..and so that was what happened on 09072006.. hehs. and i am left happy after that..i like~ pink rules bebeh.. oh and did i tell you the dais was nice!! i so love it.. and the bride's dress was adorable! =) ex-tkgian bebeh..hehes.
and now i am convinced i have to have something like that for my wedding.. i cannot wait!! =)))
Wednesday, July 05, 2006 / Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Massari - Real Love
Girl(boy), im going out of my mind, and even though i dont really know you and plus i feel im running out of time im waiting 4 the moment i can show u.. and babygirl(babyboy) i want u 2 know, im watching you go, im watching you pass me by, its real love that u dont know about
baby i was there all alone, when you'd be doing things i would watch you id picture you n me all alone, im wishing u were someone i could talk 2 i gotta get you out of my head but baby girl(baby boy) i gotta see you once again(again) its real love that u dont know about Every now and now i go to sleep, i couldnt stop dreaming about u, u're love is got me feeling kind a weak i really cant see me without you and now u are running around in my head i never(am) gonna let u slip away again, again its real love that u dont know about
Every now and then when i watch you i wish that i could tell you that i want you if i can have the chance to talk wich ya if i get up the chance to walk wich you then i would stop holding it in and never have to go through this again (again) its real love that u dont know about Today when i saw you alone i knew i had to come up and approach you coz girl(boy) i really gotta let you know all about the things you made me go through and now she(he) looking at me in the eye (he never does..) and now you got me open and now you dreaming again(again) its real love that you dont know about
Every now and then when i watch you i wish that i could tell you that i want you if i can have the chance to talk wich ya if i get up the chance to walk wich you then i would stop holding it in and never have to go through this again (again) its real love that u dont know about
You're the one that i wanna know that can take it from me nononononooooo even thought i dont really know you. i gotta lotta love i wanna show you and youd be right there infront of me i see you passing infront of me nonono girl(boy) i need ur love baby i need ur love
/ Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Jon Bon Jovi - I'll be there for you
I guess this time you're really leaving, I heard your suitcase say goodbye. And as my broken heart lies bleeding, they say true love is suicide.
You say you've cried a thousand rivers, and now you're swimming for the shore. You left me drowning in my tears, and you won't save me anymore. Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl.
I'll be there for you These five words I swear to you. When you breathe I want to be the air for you. I'll be there for you I'd live and I'd die for you Steal the sun from the sky for you, Words can't say what love can do. I'll be there for you
I know you know we've had some good times, Now they have their own hiding place. I can promise you tomorrow, But I can't buy back yesterday.
And baby you know my hands are dirty, But I wanted to be your Valentine, I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby When you get drunk, I'll be the wine
I'll be there for you These five words I swear to you. When you breathe I want to be the air for you. I'll be there for you I'd live and I'd die for you Steal the sun from the sky for you, Words can't say what love can do. I'll be there for you
And I wasn't there when you were happy, I wasn't there when you were down. I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out
I'll be there for you These five words I swear to you. When you breathe I want to be the air for you. I'll be there for you I'd live and I'd die for you Steal the sun from the sky for you, Words can't say what love can do. I'll be there for...
I'll be there for you These five words I swear to you. When you breathe I want to be the air for you. I'll be there for you I'd live and I'd die for you Steal the sun from the sky for you, Words can't say what love can do. I'll be there for you
i do believe i will.for you my sisters,darlings, girlfriends.. i will..
Tuesday, July 04, 2006 / Tuesday, July 04, 2006
okays. just something light before i end todays' entries..
farahin's lame-ass excuse to break up:
"I fell in love with my worst enemy Capulet style"
haha. if i ever have a boyfriend and i do break up with him, i shall give him that reason. remind me okay. hahs.
have i updated about sunday? darul ma'wa carnival? just to sum it up it was total fun and madness and i was damn tired after everything. but the company was great. thanks masselia and afiqah. =)hah. i was so tired i slept on my faz while talking to her after.nyaah.020706
and about monday's breakfast? i had great fun. thanks amirah and faz! =) made my day so nice!!030706
and just now i was going through the postsecrets that my sister saved from the past. it made my heart want to cry and i felt so overwhelmed when i read the secrets. about love. about deception. about the want to be accepted in society.
i really felt a huge pang in my heart. it felt like breaking there and then. and teh secrets that people have about loving someone but not being able to or not given a chance to or too scared to ruin what they already have. it makes me sad.
i love oprah's show. i love today's episode. HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU.
/ Tuesday, July 04, 2006
somehow blogging makes me feel a little relief. you know why. because it allows me to talk about my day if no one wants to listen. not really in my case, because i have a girlfriend who will pick up my call 24/7.. thank you faz. i appreciate you.=) but somehow it reliefs me a little of the emotional baggage or random thoughts that keep appearing in this mind of mine. and yes i do think, although it may somehow sound like a foreign idea to people out there. farahin can think. oh wow. haha. okays that was totally random.
well yeah. i was reading someone's lj and she was talking about the perception of beauty to the world. in any case she was talking about her opinions and her feedback on another's person's lj entry. each line that was written in their entry, i agree with it totally. the world keeps saying that its 'alright' that we are fat and voluptious and in the next line they will be totally contradicting themselves. they will say that if we just do something to ourselves or wear the right clothes we would be able to lie about our weight, about our height ( which for me is impossible, because how long the jeans are or how long the shirt is, the truth still remains that i am short. but then i have a differing opinion about my height. ms johara once said and emphasised repeatedly that small is cute. i thank her for that and i shall stick with that whole-heartedly. hahs. actually anything which complements me i will stick with it. muaha.) and about the secret that you have not been exercising and instead has been binge-ing on food and it does show in the tummy area. hahs.
hell. i am sooo guilty for doing all this. i am guilty of wanting to look better, but in any case who doesn't. i am guilty of being envious of girls with hot bods or girls who are a little taller because they look better in most clothes. what i see stresses me. and yes yes, being healthy and fit has its advantages. we will have lesser heart diseases or diseases relating to being fat. but till that day comes when i am healthy, i sahll be happy with my body the way it is. i owe my body this small favour.
but then after writing all that, i'm not really sure what my stand is, what i agree and not agree. i agree that the world's perception of beauty is really narrow. it surrounds what they see in the media. sexy girls in bikini and guys with a nice body. but because of differing body types not every girl can look like beyonce or like jessica alba or like some hot actress. and not every guy can have looks like johnny depp or brad pitt or richard gere. hah. richard gere is hot okay, he has that charming old guy face. very soothing to look at. =)
and i cannot lie to myself saying i do not want to look like the hot actresses and that i believe in inner beauty. because i myself contradict myself. i dig hot guys. the looks of a guy makes me attracted to them. first impression they say. but somehow i want people to look at me, which i consider myself, a plump( its a nicer word than fat. and don't argue with me on this one.hahs.it is proven okay. ) girl and like me for whats inside and not because i am not that normal beauty type that we see everywhere in the magazine stands. what can i say. i find joy in contradicting myself.
okays. before i make no sense at all in my argument. i shall leave it at that.
that's not really true for most times. but the numbers do stress me. daa~
Saturday, July 01, 2006 / Saturday, July 01, 2006
today was fine. managed to screen through. haha. nicenice. but it was a tad boring. but the little children dancing was sooo cute. i like =)
just some postcards i think are meaningful and cute. just some i actually saved..
hahs. cute ryte.. yeap. i noe.. =)
Saturday, July 29, 2006 / Saturday, July 29, 2006
i think that i'm too involved with my wild imagination. i have not done a single thing since lat yesterday,except slack. i really am waiting for ruin-city to come and get me.
can i have a happier ending? pleaasse? i love my life, but can you make me study for it at least. pleaase. i don't want to have to repeat this year again.. it would be sad.. but i have to show everyone that i can pass this year well. because i bet everyone has doubts about it. farahin, you have to show them that you can.
i think you, ms imagination should have a lonely trip alone to some destination that i wouldn't be invited there. so then i can start focussing on my REAL life and actually study for my success.
and i know you think i'm nuts talking to myself. and so what is not normal.
i am tired. i think i shall get ready for the meeting later. daa.
Friday, July 28, 2006 / Friday, July 28, 2006
i'm lazy and i don't feel like doing work. but guess what? the world does not revolves around me so everything is still working even with my procastination. and i know that if i keep doing this, i will end up in some rubbish chute coz i just want to sit there and rot like the rest of organisms sitting there with their moths full. i have to START doing my revisions and STOP not doing my homework. ibu said this yesterday, or something like it...
"asal you tak belajar macam your crushes semua? dorang semua pandai2. kalau u belajar betul-betul, dapat markah yang tinggi, dorang semua akan kata 'waah, budak perempuan ni pandai seh..'.."
haha.. sooo funny can. okays for those who didn't understand, my mom asked my why can't i study harder like the rest of my crushes.they're all so smart. if you do well for your exams they will say ' waah.. this girl is so smart seh..'
haha.. so yeah, if what she says is true.. i will start studying right after this entry.. wait, not yet studying. firstly i have to finish up the homework that i have left until the last minute to do. and i have math questions to do.. so farahin, go and buck up now..
oh yes, the whole week, have been filled with performances.. on wednesday, went to watch wayang kulit with faz and sister, the photos re uploaded.. nyaaha. it was okayyy.. i saw a cute gamelan player.. okay so he was the only young one. tet. the show was wfarnielah.. it was in english.. cool2. however, it was kinda draggy towards the end. soo sadd.
then on thursday went to the malay heritage centre. looked around the place for clues.. and it was truly an eye-opener. i like~ i felt so oldies when i enetered the museum. i felt like a tourist myself, because i ever knew things, which a malay was suppose to know. hah. so yeah.. i love it..
then yesterday.. i had a photography workshop.. and while lookingthrough the photos i took, i actually have a blur picture of him.. wooohooo~ go me! i like~ and then went for guzheng concert.. it was nice. but me and amelia kept talking.. haha.. and lovelle was there!! and the primary school kids are sooo cute cann.. haha.. so pretty and they all look so uniform coz tehy all have plaited hair.. and there's alwyas only one guy in the whole group or none at all. hahas.
and i saw this cute nyjc guy.. not bad2.. haha.. but didn't get to see him play. so yeah.
oh yes, for those who noticed, the links are there. so feel free to look into other people's blog and be a kpo into other's ppl life.. haha.. not really kpo lah, coz then i would be a kpo myself.. let's just say we are a bunch of interested people. haha.
okay for now. that's all.. oh all the best to fazlina, on her performance later, which i am watching coz my sister is also performing!! i wanna watch..it's been so long since i went to see a dikir performance.. haha.
toodles then..
those deep eyes of yours.. i can stare at them forever only if you don't see. i wonder if those deep eyes lies some secrets.. secrets which i don't need to hear.. coz you are my friend and though i have no dreams of you. i want your eyes, coz they seem so true..
he's walking by and my heart beats fast. my face fools not even a single one. but deep in me, i wish you not to see. the girl within, trying to break free. i try to look away every single time, coz i don't want him to feel the way that i feel. experience taught me, never to agree to wimps of the heart, coz it'll only make me weak.
Tuesday, July 25, 2006 / Tuesday, July 25, 2006
300th entry!!
was reading through my darling classmates blogs.. i found this entry which explains what i'm feeling too.. and to that friend.. don't worry, although i'm not close to you,i'll be there for you coz we girls have to stick by each other and you should know that you'll always be cherished in my life. you don't need lovers to feel loved.just knowing someone is there, is sometimes good enough.
an excerpt from the blog, with minor changes i made..
"everyone around me wants love...but i am so afraid of that..i dont wanna be loved because i dont wanna be hurt...there's a price to pay when u are in love...i want others to be happy coz i wanna be happy...our distance seems so near but in fact we are so far...i am clear with what i want but i dun expect all this from u...i believe time will heal my wound...it's deep but i hope it will fade away.."
sometimes i feel that this is taking too much of my normal thinking it occupies me, but in true fact it shouldn't because i know i am being loved by friends who will stick with me throughout my happiness and my sadness.
its 11.39 but i am still not asleep, because i have been doing nothing for the past 3 hours. i ate, talked to faz, went online and stuff like that. and i just found out something, i don't like late people.. but if its my darlings i woulnd't mind waiting because i KNOW that's how they are. haha. and i can be late too. but if the person comes wayy late without giving prior notice.. i swear i will kill that person. haha. as if.
i have homework to do.. i have to read scripts and notes.. but i love doing things last minute.. i think something is wrong with my system.. and i have to start losing weight already..change my lifestyle.. exercise and eat moderately.. the eating modeartely part can be done.. but the exercise part.oh my.. its not in me yet. but i'll mae sure it is.. it has to be if i have to lose the million kilograms i have to. haha. and no, i am not depressed about my weight. haha. let's tale it like a challenge. i love challenges. i love proving others wrong subtlely..
like what kelly clarkson said.. "i'll get what i want.."
yessah.. and lets see.. meet the parents session was last week. it was okay i guess. saw nizar's lil sister.. ohmy.. what a pretty girl.hahs. and zarifah was the the top 3 arts students. congrats girl!haha.. yu fei's guardian so young cann. funny sia. and his hair was like whoa.nyahha
and what else..went for breakfast after that. and.. i cant remember much.. on sunday.. my family went for lunch at the chop opposite the malay heritage centre. the food quite nice ah. and the person serving the food, in green shirt looks sooo chsrming with his goatie.. haha. yummieh~ only some guys look good with goatie.. and i am sooo sure he's one of them. haha.then went to a secret place which was sooo nice.. i can't wait!(aha. and i am not telling eh, even to my besties.. muahaha. u can wait long2 lah kay..)then we went to this fashion. bought shirts for my sisters.. need to lose umpteen kg before can wear them. coz its tiny. haha. don't think i can.so yeah. haha..then went to ljs for dinner. saw this 3 mths MI guy.. but cannot remember his name.. he was from pasir ris crest and he played floorball with the rest lah.. yeaps.. and after dinner we went home..
i know i missed something out.. oh yeah. after the lunch at the shop, we went to ara street to buy cloth for our hari raya clothes...so pretty. can't wait!! whee~ yeaps. and when we passed the food shop again to get to the car, mr green goatie was eating.. haha. how cute.
yesterday was so eventful.. although only i may think so. nyeahh. haha. ran around the school's area for pe yesterday.. it was 3.2km.. but somehow it felt shorter lah.. hahas. mr blue shirt didn't come today... so sad. hahas. econs was eventful! haha. its a random thing..i'm gonna sound childish if i tell you through this entry.. haha.so i shall not. muahah. he was one of the top students.. ooh~ good for him. smart-ass. issit true to say that i am attraacted to smart guys? there was h**** ( he was smarter than me before i become hardworking..haha ryte), f***** (DUH!), f****( this one i'm not sure but i think he is..), f****( i think he is too.. i never did knew him.so yeah. hahas.), h**** (haha. this one i'm not sure.. but he WAS from THAT school, so he should be..but actually fell for him coz of his looks. so TET. haha)and now in jc.. most guys i see i am attracted to them. haha. but usually because to ME they are charming in their own way.. hahas. =) and not because they are smart-ies. haha.
oh yeah. 12.04 now. i really have to stop writing this entry.. but then.. i am trying to procastinate in doing my work, coz
a) i don't want to do it b) i WANT to write longer and longer c) PROCASTINATION is my middle, third, fourth, fifth etc. name...muahaha
okay.. i think those are valid reasons why i should be blogging. it's enough to comfort me.but you see, if i want to do very well for promos which i SHOULD. ii have to start now.. so i shall finish this entry now..
a) i feel guilty fornot doing my work b) the battery in the laptop is going to die off soon and i am lazy to charge it..
so till next time. i'm captain farahin signing out.. haha.. i swear i am mad and high!! hahas.. daaaaaa~ =)
Thursday, July 20, 2006 / Thursday, July 20, 2006
oh behold.. i am notgoing to update anything about my life really. just a litte announcement that my beautiful camera has been given a hot and SEXY name...
and it's a HE.. but don't extra want my darling son to be going out with ur daughter eh.. no no.. muahaha. i very the choosy one.. u ask my son's best friend, riviera.. hahas...
his name is...
LUKMAN HAFIZI...
romantic right the name.. he is just that.
okay..so that's enough for my update.. the next entry would be my 300th. i'll make sure its longer than this.. hahas..
just to end this entry.. i remembered this song... which made me SMILE whenever i heard it. hahas. i hope the lyrics make u smile too..
don't be too caught up with the busy pace of the world.. stop and relax... there's always a reason for everything.. so SMILE..
Smile, though your heart is aching Smile, even though it's breaking When there are clouds in the sky You'll get by... If you smile Through your fears and sorrow Smile and maybe tomorrow You'll see the sun come shining through If you... Light up your face with gladness Hide every trace of sadness Although a tear may be ever so near That's the time you must keep on trying Smile, what's the use of crying You'll find that life is still worthwhile If you'll just... Smile
for my friends.. i'll be here if u need a listening ear.. never keep things to yourself.. share the problem.. it will help lessen the burden.. i adore each and everyone you to bits..
its been a long time since i've contacted you.. but i'm calluing you at midnight.. wishing you all th ebest in your future endeavours (sp?) i miss old times.. =)
Wednesday, July 19, 2006 / Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Carefree
Rindu Bayangan
Bila kukenang kurenung gambar wajahmu Kisah yang lalu tak akan berulang lagi Lupakan saja cerita lama Usah dirayu pada yang tak sudi
Janganlah dinanti pada yang telah pergi Hanya luka lamakan berdarah kembali Kini kecewa tidak terkata Mengapakah itu disebut lagi
( korus ) Apalah yang hendak di kata Sudah suratan takdir yang menentukan Ooh..oh..inilah ragam manusia Manis di bibir pandai bermain lidah
Berputar-putar membelitkan kata-kata Hanya linangan air mata yang menitis Pada bayangan di angin lalu Membisikkan kata rindu bayangan
Sunday, July 16, 2006 / Sunday, July 16, 2006
too many things to update. later den. results are horrible. everything's left to the last minute. oh my. i should be sued or smt fordoing smt like this.. ish.
STRESS lah sia... breathe in and outs..
Thursday, July 13, 2006 / Thursday, July 13, 2006
hmm..lets see..updates are in order.. its only thursday..4 days of not updating..hahs. oh and you know what..i think i have quite a few to update on.hahas. but firstly, the most important thing is..
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY JIRAH!!!
haha..one of the kakak2 from my classes.. the few ones who are able to give me advice on life and school. and i guess the ones who are able to occupy us with stories of lives and mrepek together2 with.. and damn i miss her. and i have not yet wished her yet.. later ah.. at 11.59... u wait kayy. hahas.
oh kays dats dat. on monday... had my oral.. was sooo scared.. ish. but hot guys sat beside and behind me.. nyahaha. i like~ but then you see.. the person beside me didnt want to talk..boring.. and nasib baik th eperson behind was nice.. hahas. whee~ and yeah..
him: 'farahin, focuslah.. '
haha.. yeah right.. i was like super scared lah cannn.. hahas.. and the teacher was late cann.. make my heart beat faster only.. and tut.tut.tut. it was MY turn.. hahas. so scareee.. for all those who have cared and want to know what happenened.. the question was about discipline amongst students and it was the SAME as my english o level, that info i just found out AFTER i got the qestion.. i came to a slow realisation seh.. haha
i guess it was fine.. hmm.. what else..on tuesday.. saw mr cool at the library where he has to be coz he has to stay cool. it was so hard to concentrate coz from my seat i could see a clear/semi-clear view of him( due to my contacts which are not designed for astig people.. nyaaah) .. and everytime when i look up and i dun see him, somehow i panic.. ntah for what also.. loser lah sia.. haha., you ppl no need to tell me, i can remind myself. nyahas.
and then, went to watch knockouts for sr idol.. came in and the girl who sang sunday morning was wayy good. i like~ and naufal was niceeeeyyy.. and kamaliah was good. and the vivi girl was nice.. and yeahlah..went home late.. soo fun. hahas. so yeah..
lets see.. yesterday. the mcs people went to nuraini's house and dip the fruits and stuff. the marshamllows look heavenly tau.. yang lain.. okay2 ajerlah..and2 went home late again. and so yeahlah.. today went early to nuraini's house..
while waiting for her to siap and come down, this makcik made converstion with me about her son who is in p6 and who is facing difficulty in math and was telling me about the incident that happened during his tuition at mendaki. about some teacher who threw a pen which hit his head, because he was reading a comic book under the table and due to that, he doesn't want to go for tuition anymore, but his mom sid it wuld be a waste of money, because its all paid for. in my mind, i was like.. okay.. i am suppose to think like a mom now.. be protective of your own blood. so yeah.. u can imagine that. and what else eh..oh yeah, she continued on about what happened during the racial war in 64.. i didn't know whether to believe her, coz the events were a little personal than those which i have read in y SS books. so yeah.. and erm.. i felt bad coz i didn't want to know so much , and was hoping for nuraini to come down fast..nyeah.. and she finally did!! so yeah. left the makcik to ponder on her miseries and memories..
school was fine. ABSOLUTELY LOVE the sexual educationn talk.. oh my.. the videos were soo nice. i like~ and i found out something toady about video -making your events have to intertwine.. it will lokk soo nice when put together..i hope i get the video course.. please.. although it was my second choice.. but still.. video excites me more than mere photography..
then had econs... i need to revise the concepts back. i kept giving the wronf answer.. bloody hell. and yeah.. the selling of the food was not that well. but waddehell its over and i'm happy with what we have earned. =) somehow some burden has been lifted. got back my malay paper... overall an E.. stupidlah.. but yeah.. what to do. what's done is done. yeap.
than we continued selling to no avail..throwed the ones we did not want.. and yeah.. mde 64 bucks for charity.. its little, but its the thought that counts. and some ppl are just not FUN charity givers.. BITE ME! ishh..
and what else, after that i did a stupid thing.. terrible bebeh. stayed in the library and neaten my file and then went to sleep. the aircon was just too nice. and yeahlah. stayed in school because of meeting,but in the end cancelled. i could have been sleeping at home seh. ish.
so yeah.. went home, took same bus with hafiz, my senior. he's a nice guy. a great conversationalist i guess. we talked and talked until my stop. hahas. it felt nice talking instead of being moody and sleeping or just starung out of the windows imagining lfe's what ifs.. hehs. =)
hmm.. i think thats enoughlah for this time.. its a long entry mind you.. =)
and its dangerous to have a crush with a person from your school. its not good for your health farahin. what if, the friendship becaome like hilmi and yours. ponder ehhh.
/ Thursday, July 13, 2006
Just Friends VS. Best Friends
A Just Friend says..hi,..hello,..bye,...and walks away... A Best friend always stop by your side & asks how r u doing ??
A Just Friend has never seen you cry. A Best friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A Just Friend thinks the friendship is over, when you have an argument. A Best friend knows that it's not a friendship, until after you've had a fight.
A Just Friend hates it when you call, after he has gone to bed. A Best friend asks you.... why you took so long to call.
A Just Friend, when visiting, acts like a guest. A Best friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
A Just Friend jealous about your romantic history. A Best friend wonders of your love story.....
A Just Friend expects you to be always there for any help. A Best friend is always there, wherever you require any help.
A Just Friend doesn't have time in his/her busy schedule, A Best friend always have time for you in his/her busy schedules....
A Just Friend phones you whenever he/she has some work, A Best friend calls you often just to hear your voice.....
A Just Friend doesnt have anything to talk to you on phone, A Best friend doesnt know...what all to finish...
Sunday, July 09, 2006 / Sunday, July 09, 2006
haha.am typing this while the world cup finals is just about to start. its the national anthem of france and italy now and in a few minutes, the captains are going to shake hands and after that exchange gifts and after that,finally the game that everyone who is interested in soccer will be dying to watch.. the START of the match!!
okays. for those of you sesat people who don't know what countries are in the finals. shame on you. haha. you must be blind because veery media souce you can see or hear, u will know that its france and italy..nyaha
okays.. in a few more hours will be my malay oral. so after this sentence i will be typing in malay so as to practice for the conversation later.
hari ini cikgu reza punya kerja kahwin. ia telah diadakan di balai rakyat tampines changkat. sata telah bertemu bersama rakan-rakan saya yang telah lama tidak saya berjumpa. Saya telah berjumpa bersama ika, iqa,wani, ashik,afdal dan fadhil di bas stesen tampines. saya telah tiba awal kerana ayah saya telah menghantar saya ke bas stesen tampines. di kalangan rakan-rakan saya, budak-budak perempuan telah tiba memakai baju kurung warna merah jambu dan biru. kalau anda melihat, pasti terpegun. setelah itu, kami semua menaiki bas 292 untuk ker balai rakyat itu.
bila kita tiba, kita boleh lihat berapa megahnya majlis perkahwinan cikgu reza. kita telah berjumpa dengannya di meja makan mereka. Mereka lihat sangat cocok sekali. =) kami berbual buat seketika dan selepas itu pergi mencari meja untuk kami duduk dan makan. kami bertujuh tunggu sebentar sebelum mengambil makanan kami kerana masih menunggu akan ketibaan dasatu lagi rakan kami, badd. setelah kesemuanya tiba dan mengambil makanan masing-masing, baru kita mula makan tengahari kita. nyaah. salah satu sebab saya tidak suka makan udang semasa di luar adalah kerana lecehnya untuk mengopek kulit udang. haha. selepas makan, kami telah duduk berbual menunggu untuk mengambil gambar bersama pengantin.. =)
gambar yang kita ambik bersama pengantin sangat lawa sekali. dan pengantin juga lihat sangat manis bersama. setelah mengambil gambar bersama pengantin, ashik terpaksa beredar kerana hal tersendiri dan tinggalnya tujuh orang. di sana, kami sempat mengambil gambar bersama satu sama lain. dan gambar-gambar yang telah dipetik, sangat cantik apabila dilihat kembali. kami telah beredar untul pulang dan menaiki 292 untuk pulang ke stesen bas tampines. tiba di sana, saya dan ika terpaksa berpisah siang bersama yang lain kerana hal-hal tertentu. yang lain telah pergi ke pusat membeli-belah tampines mall, untuk mengisikan masa.
haha.okays. enough of the malay language. everything sounded so formal. and i cannot even remember the peribahasa that i wanted to use. aniwaes all the best for tomorrow then. 14 minutes has passed into the game. france has scorred a goal. henry fell at the second minute.. i pity him..its only the start of the game you know. if i am not wrg, the captain of france was the one who scored the goal. oh and his goal was from a penalty kick. it had a nice touch to it.hehes..
hmm.. should i put the pictures..i guess so.. for those who want to see the photos of the wedidng today.. go to http://photos.yahoo.com/lamenoid under mr reza's wedding. aites?
just some of the pictures from today..
oohooh.. italy just scored a nice header in the 18th minute.. ohmy..this is a great match to watch bebeh.. but i need my sleep. and oh yes, tthe photos..
me and wani..the pinkies..=)
the groom and bride..pretty right..=)
afdal.badd.ika.wani.me.ika.ashik.fadhil and the groom and bride.. pretty lah sia.. <333
the girls cam-whoring in the bus.. nyaha
my food.... yummieh~
the guys. without ashik. afdal.fadhil.badd
yeaps2..and so that was what happened on 09072006.. hehs. and i am left happy after that..i like~ pink rules bebeh.. oh and did i tell you the dais was nice!! i so love it.. and the bride's dress was adorable! =) ex-tkgian bebeh..hehes.
and now i am convinced i have to have something like that for my wedding.. i cannot wait!! =)))
Wednesday, July 05, 2006 / Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Massari - Real Love
Girl(boy), im going out of my mind, and even though i dont really know you and plus i feel im running out of time im waiting 4 the moment i can show u.. and babygirl(babyboy) i want u 2 know, im watching you go, im watching you pass me by, its real love that u dont know about
baby i was there all alone, when you'd be doing things i would watch you id picture you n me all alone, im wishing u were someone i could talk 2 i gotta get you out of my head but baby girl(baby boy) i gotta see you once again(again) its real love that u dont know about Every now and now i go to sleep, i couldnt stop dreaming about u, u're love is got me feeling kind a weak i really cant see me without you and now u are running around in my head i never(am) gonna let u slip away again, again its real love that u dont know about
Every now and then when i watch you i wish that i could tell you that i want you if i can have the chance to talk wich ya if i get up the chance to walk wich you then i would stop holding it in and never have to go through this again (again) its real love that u dont know about Today when i saw you alone i knew i had to come up and approach you coz girl(boy) i really gotta let you know all about the things you made me go through and now she(he) looking at me in the eye (he never does..) and now you got me open and now you dreaming again(again) its real love that you dont know about
Every now and then when i watch you i wish that i could tell you that i want you if i can have the chance to talk wich ya if i get up the chance to walk wich you then i would stop holding it in and never have to go through this again (again) its real love that u dont know about
You're the one that i wanna know that can take it from me nononononooooo even thought i dont really know you. i gotta lotta love i wanna show you and youd be right there infront of me i see you passing infront of me nonono girl(boy) i need ur love baby i need ur love
/ Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Jon Bon Jovi - I'll be there for you
I guess this time you're really leaving, I heard your suitcase say goodbye. And as my broken heart lies bleeding, they say true love is suicide.
You say you've cried a thousand rivers, and now you're swimming for the shore. You left me drowning in my tears, and you won't save me anymore. Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl.
I'll be there for you These five words I swear to you. When you breathe I want to be the air for you. I'll be there for you I'd live and I'd die for you Steal the sun from the sky for you, Words can't say what love can do. I'll be there for you
I know you know we've had some good times, Now they have their own hiding place. I can promise you tomorrow, But I can't buy back yesterday.
And baby you know my hands are dirty, But I wanted to be your Valentine, I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby When you get drunk, I'll be the wine
I'll be there for you These five words I swear to you. When you breathe I want to be the air for you. I'll be there for you I'd live and I'd die for you Steal the sun from the sky for you, Words can't say what love can do. I'll be there for you
And I wasn't there when you were happy, I wasn't there when you were down. I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out
I'll be there for you These five words I swear to you. When you breathe I want to be the air for you. I'll be there for you I'd live and I'd die for you Steal the sun from the sky for you, Words can't say what love can do. I'll be there for...
I'll be there for you These five words I swear to you. When you breathe I want to be the air for you. I'll be there for you I'd live and I'd die for you Steal the sun from the sky for you, Words can't say what love can do. I'll be there for you
i do believe i will.for you my sisters,darlings, girlfriends.. i will..
Tuesday, July 04, 2006 / Tuesday, July 04, 2006
okays. just something light before i end todays' entries..
farahin's lame-ass excuse to break up:
"I fell in love with my worst enemy Capulet style"
haha. if i ever have a boyfriend and i do break up with him, i shall give him that reason. remind me okay. hahs.
have i updated about sunday? darul ma'wa carnival? just to sum it up it was total fun and madness and i was damn tired after everything. but the company was great. thanks masselia and afiqah. =)hah. i was so tired i slept on my faz while talking to her after.nyaah.020706
and about monday's breakfast? i had great fun. thanks amirah and faz! =) made my day so nice!!030706
and just now i was going through the postsecrets that my sister saved from the past. it made my heart want to cry and i felt so overwhelmed when i read the secrets. about love. about deception. about the want to be accepted in society.
i really felt a huge pang in my heart. it felt like breaking there and then. and teh secrets that people have about loving someone but not being able to or not given a chance to or too scared to ruin what they already have. it makes me sad.
i love oprah's show. i love today's episode. HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU.
/ Tuesday, July 04, 2006
somehow blogging makes me feel a little relief. you know why. because it allows me to talk about my day if no one wants to listen. not really in my case, because i have a girlfriend who will pick up my call 24/7.. thank you faz. i appreciate you.=) but somehow it reliefs me a little of the emotional baggage or random thoughts that keep appearing in this mind of mine. and yes i do think, although it may somehow sound like a foreign idea to people out there. farahin can think. oh wow. haha. okays that was totally random.
well yeah. i was reading someone's lj and she was talking about the perception of beauty to the world. in any case she was talking about her opinions and her feedback on another's person's lj entry. each line that was written in their entry, i agree with it totally. the world keeps saying that its 'alright' that we are fat and voluptious and in the next line they will be totally contradicting themselves. they will say that if we just do something to ourselves or wear the right clothes we would be able to lie about our weight, about our height ( which for me is impossible, because how long the jeans are or how long the shirt is, the truth still remains that i am short. but then i have a differing opinion about my height. ms johara once said and emphasised repeatedly that small is cute. i thank her for that and i shall stick with that whole-heartedly. hahs. actually anything which complements me i will stick with it. muaha.) and about the secret that you have not been exercising and instead has been binge-ing on food and it does show in the tummy area. hahs.
hell. i am sooo guilty for doing all this. i am guilty of wanting to look better, but in any case who doesn't. i am guilty of being envious of girls with hot bods or girls who are a little taller because they look better in most clothes. what i see stresses me. and yes yes, being healthy and fit has its advantages. we will have lesser heart diseases or diseases relating to being fat. but till that day comes when i am healthy, i sahll be happy with my body the way it is. i owe my body this small favour.
but then after writing all that, i'm not really sure what my stand is, what i agree and not agree. i agree that the world's perception of beauty is really narrow. it surrounds what they see in the media. sexy girls in bikini and guys with a nice body. but because of differing body types not every girl can look like beyonce or like jessica alba or like some hot actress. and not every guy can have looks like johnny depp or brad pitt or richard gere. hah. richard gere is hot okay, he has that charming old guy face. very soothing to look at. =)
and i cannot lie to myself saying i do not want to look like the hot actresses and that i believe in inner beauty. because i myself contradict myself. i dig hot guys. the looks of a guy makes me attracted to them. first impression they say. but somehow i want people to look at me, which i consider myself, a plump( its a nicer word than fat. and don't argue with me on this one.hahs.it is proven okay. ) girl and like me for whats inside and not because i am not that normal beauty type that we see everywhere in the magazine stands. what can i say. i find joy in contradicting myself.
okays. before i make no sense at all in my argument. i shall leave it at that.
that's not really true for most times. but the numbers do stress me. daa~
Saturday, July 01, 2006 / Saturday, July 01, 2006
today was fine. managed to screen through. haha. nicenice. but it was a tad boring. but the little children dancing was sooo cute. i like =)
just some postcards i think are meaningful and cute. just some i actually saved..
hahs. cute ryte.. yeap. i noe.. =)
MY PROFILE
Its all about ME!
Hello my name is farahin!
i am not liable for the sappy and increasingly feminist content in this blog
i shall not I REPEAT i shall not be a cynic of love.
it just spoils all the fun out of falling in and out of love
I LOVE THIS!
What I really LOVE!
myself
dance
friends
heels
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shopping when i have the money
myself
WISHLIST!
my WISH upon a star!
get my driving license!! go on a trip with my friends! digital camera :))) dresses.dresses.dresses. go for CAMP! any kind will do! :) hang out with the jayceee people <33
go ice skating!!
visit the SCIENCE centre AND Camwhore!
SWIMMING! strawberry sundaeee pleasee! HEELS! :)
