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Friday, June 30, 2006 / Friday, June 30, 2006
and so.. the moment has arrived for me to annoince..
MY EXAMS ARE OVER!! oh my! how elated can i get. i feel so happy for myself that i got through the exams. i was thinking of fake fainting before today's malay paper so i don't need to take it. but thinking about it, as if anyone would care to break my fall. hahs.
finally. the time has come. NO MORE groggy mornings, late night studying, sleeping at 4 am and waking up at 6 in the morning. no more days without eyeliner on. no more having to be in close proximity with him during exams no more.
no more no more no more no more.. haha that is until promos come along.. but must make sure i am better prepared for promos.
and just a small shout out to my darling...
WELCOME BACK AMIRAH FATIN (:!!!
hahs. i know you had fun. hahs. and i am so happy for you!
hahs. meeting masse tmr way early in the morning. she's depriving me of my beauty sleep bebeh. but for my girlfriends, everything can be done. well, not everything, but you know what i mean.
thanks to faz, for keeping me awake during the times i need to this week. thank you body for not breaking down too soon. hahs. tmr morning. i'll see you soon.
Paul Deanda - Doing Too Much (Feat Baby Bash)
I'm leaving messages and voicemails Telling you I miss you Baby am I doing to much Why you tryna diss me When I just wanna kiss you Baby am I doing to much, Tell me what's the issue Who I give these lips to Baby am I doing to much This is turning into Something I ain't hip to Baby am I doing to much
See you got me all alone Waitin right here by the phone For you to call me, Just to here Your voice tone I keep on wondering if you was even Feeling me, I keep on wondering if This was even meant to be Tell me imma waste of time, boy You showing me no sign, is it cuz u on Ya gine, cuz your always on my mind
I keep on wondering if everything you said was true I keep on wondering if you were really coming through
Now here I go again blowing you up, And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing to much Now here I go again blowing you up, And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing to much I'm leaving messages and voicemails Telling you I miss you Baby am I doing to much Why you tryna diss me When I just wanna kiss you Baby am I doing to much Tell me what's the issue Who I give these lips to Baby am I doing to much This is turning into Something I ain't hip to Baby am I doing to much
I'm out with my girls tryna have a good time And you know I'm looking fly tryna meet sum other guys But it gets hard sometimes cuz there ain't no one just like you I try my best but I can't shake this thing u got me going through
All i can picture is the color of your eyes, and the way u make me smile I ain't felt this in a while, But I came to a conclusion that this is pure illusion Chaos and confusion but I'm not gonna let it ruin
The way I feel about myself cuz I have self-esteem, sometimes I Wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy
The way I feel about myself cuz I have self-esteem, sometimes I Wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy
I'm leaving messages and voicemails Telling you I miss you Baby am I doing to much Why you tryna diss me When I just wanna kiss you Baby am I doing to much Tell me what's the issue Who I give these lips to Baby am I doing to much This is turning into Something I ain't hip to Baby am I doing to much
[Baby Bash:] Just leave ya name and number And I'm gon holla at cha Just leave ya name and number And I'm gon holla at cha Just leave ya name and number And I'm gon holla at cha Just leave ya name and number And I'm gon holla at cha
Ronnie Ray all day Women in the hall way, Ev day losing track of the people tryna call me Don't take this the wrong way, I been havin long days, doing it, moving Round the town wherever I'm getting my song played
Now here I go again blowing you up, And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing to much
Now here I go again blowing you up, And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing to much
I'm leaving messages and voicemails Telling you I miss you Baby am I doing to much Why you tryna diss me When I just wanna kiss you Baby am I doing to much
Tell me what's the issue Who I give these lips to Baby am I doing to much
This is turning into Something I ain't hip to Baby am I doing to much
Sunday, June 25, 2006 / Sunday, June 25, 2006
masselia says she's not in my blog. aha. seeee.. such a huge photo of her.. just to remind her that she's always in my thoughts. hah. ewww. that sounds wrong.. but nevertheless. haha. i soo have to see you soon. but i will be seeing you in 6 days time.. soo can't wait!! many stories to tell. haha. interesting by my rating, because it is about me after all. and you soo owe me a million stories about your life. hah.
oh and.. you're not suppose to spill about guys ryte.. but then kan.. i wanna noe about the guys. so you have to spill the stories to me. i dun care!! hahas.
and and you finish your exams alredy!! no fair! i'm just starting and actually i am suppose to be studying now, but you see.. i hae to update about things and tell the little people reading my blog, how beautiful the cookies i and faz baked, turn out.. hahas.. i have a heart cookie! and its especially for ME! yep2.. counsellors say you have to love yourself, before you start loving others. and because i itchy2 cannot wait to love others, must show how much i love myself first. nyaaah.
dahlah..i swear i am talking crap. but whooo cares.
okays.. so now, this morning, mz fazlina came over to kill time before her lecture.. and and.. i felt so slekeh beside her who's wearing jeans and nice shirt, while i look like her maid in shirt and shorts. hah. bought breakfast at mcdonalds.. how lovely.. and went to buy choc chip cookies, coz there was none at home. so reached home and did the cookies.. while watching honey. haha. i love baking cookies with faz. it reminds me of home econs class. our food either make it or not. haha. such funny times. i shall give you a glimpse of the cookies at the end of the entry.. =)
oh oh. and last saturday talked with faz for over 5 hours.. its been such a long time since we did that. but it felt so short. watched havana nights while talking to her.. was so turned on by jaview. in any case that you didn't know, he's my new boyfriend. chop! haha. come let me show you his face. den i can dedicate my layout to his sexy moves.. =) (omg! i cannot tell you how his face, his moves and his eyes turn me on cann.. haha i was practically swooning while i was on the phone with faz. hyperventilating cann. haha)
ah.. my gorgeous javier.. *swoooooooooooons*
haish.. okays.. last saturday was my gp paper.. i duno how i did. just hope i did well enough to at least pass. tomorrow's my math paper. hah. i have to put in more effort for it. then wednesday is my malay paper and econs. i must get at least a B for both.. expectations for myself is not good. but i need to. i dun wanna stayback. but i have been chilling to the max. and that's never great news. thursday i have geog.. which is a horror. because i haven't started reading the notes. and i don't have extra geog materials.. ah.. and on malay its sastera paper. just hope i can pull through. hah.
hmm.. and do you know, that i got a super EARLY birthday present?? i got a NEW CAMERA!! oh my gosh! i am soooo happylah cann.. now i can find joy in taking photos and videos. because i'm not good looking enough for my own photography.. haha.. but that does nit mean i am not eh. jgn perasan. haha.
hmm.. what else.. oh yes..
HAPPY 46TH BIRTHDAY AYAH DARLING!!!
ooh.. how fun!! do you know how fun the past week have been. on thursday, went out to parkway for dinner and grocery shopping. on friday, to carrefour for shopping and secret recipe for dinner, on saturday parkway for lunch and light window shopping and on sunday we went to IMM, ate at BAGUSS and shopped at giant and daitsu issit.. yeah.. then had dinner at swensens.. oh my.. what fun!!
celebrated my dad's birthday, got an early birthday gift, which i sooo have been wanting since like forever and my parents just decided to buy ur sisters a laptop!! woohoo~ i'm loving it totally! so i have to do well for the common tests now don't i. after having such a great week before. hahs. hope soo much lahh.
i wonder how amirahfatin is doing. hope you are well girl. and i miss ya sila! soo long never see you, but we're still keeping in touch so that's a good sign.
on friday my sis is gg for her driving license test. hope it goes well~~ then we can celebrate! coz i finish my tests on that day!! yayyyy!!
oh oh. i can't wait for sunday! wheeeeeeeeeee~
oh and of course the pictures of the delectable cookies and their delicious chefs. haha.=)
hah. this one for javier also.. hahas. suker~but the heart a little cacat sey.. nehmind2. hahahas.
haha.. the two chefs for the day!! yayness. and the cookies taste nice okay. hah. although it was a cookie mix all the wayyyyyyyyyy from japan. haha. partly because we bought it at a jepon shop. tempting kan kan.. i noee..
okays. now i shall end the post with nice lyrics.. i was thinking of the bowling story song.. *you are my destiny.. you are what you are to me..* but then i don't remember the lyrics... so sad. so now its going to be a malay song by saiful..
Ku Juga Mencintaimu - Saiful (MI)
Sukarnya 'tuk ku melupakan Sinar matamu yang menawan Terbayang-bayang tiap masa Senyuman mu menggoda
Kehangatan terasa di jiwa Tika kau lafaz kata cinta Nafas terhenti seketika Seakan sukar ku percaya Ooh…oh…
(Korus) Ku juga mencintai dirimu Mengapa sukar ku luahkan Bukan sengaja ku menahan Bibir membeku lidah terkelu
Ku juga mencintai dirimu Kau amat sempurna buatku Bukan saja aku biarkan Kan ku ucap jua padamu
Sukarnya untukku ucapkan Ku takut akan kehilangan mu Akan ku buat segalanya Untukmu kekasihku
Cuma satu yang belum terluah Kalimah cinta kau nantikan Bila masa dan ketika Tidak dapat ku menjawabnya Ohhh….
Ku juga mencintai dirimu Mengapa sukar ku luahkan Bukan sengaja ku menahan Bibir membeku lidah terkelu
Ku juga mencintai dirimu Kau amat sempurna buatku Bukan saja aku biarkan Kan ku ucap jua padamu
(Bridge) Semalaman ku menunggu panggilanmu Pabila terdengar suaramu Ku terlupa segalanya
haish.. what nice lrics.. =) i like.. so now i shall go watch movie or go study.. hahs. daaaaaaa~
Thursday, June 22, 2006 / Thursday, June 22, 2006
thanks for the breakfast at airport. sayang you many2.
thanks for the study group and the lunch.
thanks for the dinner. thanks for the laughter. =)
Wednesday, June 21, 2006 / Wednesday, June 21, 2006
and now i feel sad. i know no one's gonna care. so yeah. don't ask me what i feel sad abpout. i myself don't know. it's just that i am overwhelmed with sadness. i know my family cares. i know i can count on people around me. but can i be sure? i feel oh-so pretty when i am alone in my room, doing work or dressing up. but once i step out of the house, i feel like damn, i look ugly.. i have complex mind. i think i should see a doctor to find out what my illness is. or its just that i have low self esteem. i know this post id going to haunt me somehow. but if no one reads it, no one will know.
i need a wake up call. i need something. i need to endthis. its hurting me inside more than i think it would. yeah, don't think about me. i am just some fucking loser that was just tagging along. fuck lah..
stoopid incident. if you're smart, don't ask me okayy. i swear. don't. but no one reads this stuff. i shall go drown myself in self-pity.. or actually go study to hide my insecurities.
i hate this feeling.
it's driving me insane.
my insides are torn apart.
and i don't think it will stick again.
i hate every perfect thing.
i hate it when its there.
and so again. i have no idea what i am writing but i can't be like the girl i want to be. i can't be like the girl who doesn't care about what other people think of her. i can't do bad things to others. coz if the person doesn't find out, my conscience will strangle me to death. i can't be mean to people, how much i hate them or despise them. it just feels wrong. i need to learn how lifve life. or else i'll die after i get out of teh education system. i cannot be ME anymore. i don't get appreciated. sometimes i feel that its not worth living a lie, if its not what i'm feeling inside. everytime i bcome violent, everyone sees. everyone judges.
shutup.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006 / Tuesday, June 20, 2006
okay. so i cannot resist the temptation of not writing in my blog when i read it every single day. cannot tahan. too many attractions.. well, one of them is if i blog, less time would be allocated for studying which i hav been procastinating since day 1. i have not practiced my maths, which i have a feeling that i cannot pass. haish. and another valid reason, why i should be blogging. my darling sister tagged ME!!! so how can i be a mean sister and not do it right right.. hahas..
so here it is..
7 RANDOM STUFF
since i have bee tagged by Ms nur farhana aka my dearest sister.. ( haha, ultimate reason why i am bloggong. haha.)
* 7 RANDOM FACTS ABT MEEE *
- I used to go to corners in the house when i was young to clean it. haha. *think licking* hahaha - I am a hard core romantic.. I can find something romantic in everything i see, even if its just leaves falling from the trees to the roadside.. - PROCRASTINATE is my middle, third and fourth name.. muahahha - I like to believe that I am a gymnast, ballerina when I am at home and try to do things which only these people can do.. haha - I don't like confrontations. and when i have one, after the confrontation then i think about what i should have said to the person. haha. - I like beingh alone most of the time, therefore that means i am an introvert and that I am SHY.. - I make sure every singlememory is well recorded, as in, in my memory or my memory box or my friend's memory.. haha.. things like that. =)
* 7 THINGS THAT SCARE MEEE *
- ALLAH swt - QiAMAT - Losing my LOVED ones - being too alone and no on who cares for me - i don't wanna die a lonely death, i rather if my family was there - the DARK, after hearing ghost stories, i have the ability to scare myself easily.. - the end result of my procastination and not doing anything..
* 7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT *
- Khayalan by Black Dog Bone - That's What Friends Are For by i have no idea who.. - sound of silence in the house. i know its not music, but my brain is dead now..so DEAL. hah. - Bunga-bunga cinta by Misha Omar - happy birthday song by farahin =) - Life Story theme song by the winner of Project Superstar - You.. doing that thing you do.. breaking my heart into a million pieces, like you alyas do.. =) by The Wonders
* 7 THINGS I LIKE MOST *
- the pillow i sleep on, coz it can double as a bolster. =) - GIRL TALKS with my darling sisters!! - talking on the phone about anything under the moon and the stars wth FAZZ. - checking myself out. haha. i find JOY! - having apacked schedule and daily activities. - EAT EAT EAT! - reading books which can bring me into another lovely dimension.. =) <3333>
Kini segalanya telah berubah Cintamu hanya memori indah Ku ditinggalkan kesepian Pilu hatiku Kembalilah kepadaku Selamilah jiwa ini yang terluka Ikatan kita berdua
Sayangilah diri ini Belailah jiwa nan sepi Kelayuan... dedaunan keguguran Dahan-dahan nan kerapuhan Bunga-bunga cinta Layu di pusara
haha.. and so i love the song and its cool to bold the words that mean something to me. hah. and if you know me, it doesn't really mean anything in actual.. i just want it to be. hahs.
I want my life just to be like this. i shall be the pretty girl with sunflower and that's how life evolves.. that is for me.. around ME.. hahha. omg! so merepek cann.. oh and i got the following extract from an email from jannah.. lookie.. it's in malay.. so yeahlah..if you don't understand that means you don't understand malay. haha.. but then you can try lah kayy.. =)
Anda mempunyai daya tarikan kepada sesiapa saja. Anda adalah seorangyang realistik, yakin, gembira dan merupakan seorang yang genius dalam bidang pendidikan, muzik, seni dan nyanyian. Anda mempunyai masalah sikap iaitu panas baran. Namun demikian, anda banyak melakukan pengorbanan untuk keluarga. Anda meletakkan keluarga di tempat yang amat tinggi sekali sehingga kadang-kadang mengabaikan kebahagian diri sendiri. Anda telah dilahirkan untuk memberi sumbangan kepada dunia ini. Jadi anda seorang yang bagus dan seorang yang amat gembira.
dah.. the end!
Sunday, June 18, 2006 / Sunday, June 18, 2006
three weeks have passed by.. but i'm not sure i did anything fulfilling these past three weeks. so i shall start studying.. this is a promise.. so any last minute going outs..sorry cannot make it.. =( and its been a long time since i wrote in malay.. and i am missing the language.. hah. as if i don't say it enough at home.
jadi sekarang macam masa untuk saya berbicara dalam bahasa melayu. mari lihat beraper teruk melayu saya.. ah.. the horror.
okay..somehow everything in that para sounded wrong. i need to talk malay and english together..or else everything which comes out of my mouth sounds wrong... VERY..
and i feel like not blogging for the next week. haha.
P.S: amirahfatin(: and nurul.. bon voyage and have lotsa fun in sydney!! which i can confirm you girls will have! =) have a safe trip and take lotsa pictures!!
Tuesday, June 13, 2006 / Tuesday, June 13, 2006
haha.. got this from love-sck faz's blog.. i shall prasan love-sick and do the quiz poso.. nyaaah!
I am... Mania/Violet If John Alan Lee knows what he's talking about, you are literally a maniac for love. You know, kind of in love with love... as if you're always in pursuit of some ideal. The chances are that you have trouble finding a particular person who can fulfill your need for love. Read more...
i'm suffering from high fever. yes. that sickness which makes you wanna stay in bed ALL day.. i think it was because of the super-freakig cold aircon lt2.. or maybe it's because i'm too hot for my good. haha.. i think its the first reason..
so things happen. i cant be bothered right now to update on my life.. if you want one, just ask me. but not now. coz now i am PMS-ing and i am sick. and hungry. i need to ask akak to buy me food...
and so.. met faz today.. haha.. FATE we shall put it as.. and i thought it was some big guy, who didn't know how to sit properly and i was gg to give the person an evil eye, when tada~ it was fazzy.. hahas
and now i shall be my moody sick self.. i am sick.. where's Doctor JM? i need medicine NOW!
oh and teh service industry gives me a bad feeling today. i DON'T like you.. rot and die! hhas.
I am... Cygnus Does commitment come naturally to you? Are you willing to put yourself in difficult situations for friends? Are you known for your perseverance? Cygnus, the swan, may be your celestial alter ego. Read more...
WARNING: ALL THE WORDS FOLLOWING THIS WARNING, WILL BE FULL OF VULVARITIES. ALTHOUGH IT IS NOT MY NATURE TO SAY VULGAR THINGS. TONIGHT IS A MUST.
fuck that person lah. as if he is of such great descendant of anywhere. as if he is an almni of some great school. as if my school students never get to university. you can tighten that hole of yours and zip it okay. i don't need your fucking comments about my school. i am fucking happy with what i have. i was having a great day. util that fucking incident. DIE seh..
okays..i know. if any of my teachers read this i will be showing incorrect values of a student and i apologise. but how can i just sit around and stand people talking nasty things about my school. and if you were wondering why i didn't just smack the guy's face right there and then. because unlike him , i know my freaking manners and i did not leave it at home, while i put down other people's school. go and die!
oh oh.. and as if other jc students don't go around holdnig hands. and so what if they were holding hands. was that any of your business. and if you had a daughter. as if your daughter will never hold a guy's hands.. shut up and think about what you just said. coz it really RUINED my day.
thank you faz, amirahfatin and saffy for the great companionship before that. i was being my moody self. i shall blame it on the PMS..
and i shall say goodnight now.
don't read this if it hurts you.
so, are we not talking anymore?
okay then, i shall leave it like that. if we are talking, tell me okay. (:
but then you'll never accidentally bump into my blog.. so till forever.. goodbyee
Saturday, June 10, 2006 / Saturday, June 10, 2006
what did i do? part III
/ Saturday, June 10, 2006
what did i do?
/ Saturday, June 10, 2006
Romeo Debriefing
/ Saturday, June 10, 2006
Romeo Preparing..
haha... great time spent together with all this FUN and GREAT people!! =)
/ Saturday, June 10, 2006
i've gotten this from fanaA's blog. lol.
instructions: state eight different points of your ideal lover. mention gender. tag eight others to do it.
gender of ideal lover: Guy eh.. conferm.. but then I have many many lovers tau. gerl boy.like no difference like that. hahs.
1) something about their eyes. Deep eyes. Eyes I can stare at until forever.. woohooo~ 2) he SOOO must be like MY wolverine guy… =) 3) sweet and knows how to make me SMILE 4) RESPECT me as a woman. And not make me feel uncomfortable… 5) funny and good looking to ME only… 6) loves me for my personality and not because of other factors. 7) haha.. he has to love taking pictures and be CRAZY along with me!! 8) he has to love my girlfriends and my family.. lala~
eight people to do this in their blog: 1) amirahfatin ? 2) mrs ******* 3) sabarina 4) masselia 5) adeline 6) sihui 7) dale 8) sila!!
Monday, June 05, 2006 / Monday, June 05, 2006
first time.. in my entire life.. i was late.. not 10 mins late.. but a whole half an hour late for my gp lecture.. i felt like my burning into my seat, when i sat down.i felt blood coming to my face.. and the only way for me not to cair (melt) right there and then was to just focus on the lecture and busy myself in writing the stuff that was coming out from the teacher's mouth.. this is bda news.. i'm copying withough understanding.. total nightmare later.. nyeaaah.. ( and i am reminded of mr zul.. coz he's the only one who says nyeaaah.. or nyaaaha..tet.) oh and i nearly cried when i read miss ong's letter for the class.. she's so sweet lah.. and i found out something today..i am an emotional wreck.. haha.. a total wreck i tell you..
oh oh.. talked to mrs ******* and amirahfatin(: for hours long.. until 3 AM in the morning!! uber fun.. just talking about life.. and everything under the horny moon. haha. okays.. so yesterday was not as horny as when we were talking to ms sabarina, who is one of the co-authors of the *explicit title*.. haha.. and it was so fun calling them and talking to all if them, without them actually hearing each other and thinking i was totally mad. and that my screw were totally loose and that i lost the few remaining marbles i have.. haha
and and just now to kill time before meeting, had lunch at kfc at heartland.. saw sooo many people which my friends want to see.. but never mine.. ish. so unfairism. dushz! haha.. one reason was because they had oral.. so yeah.. its okay.. i'm sure they did super well.. and you know what.. i have this bugging feeling that the cikgu feels that she made the wrg choice.. nyeaaah.
oh oh.. today is mrs *******'s econs test. hope she did well...can't help her since she doing macro.. but as if i that smart to tecah people. nyeaaah. oh, and he looked good today.. charming even. something's wrg with this brain of mine.. at least i know i'm not in his blocked people list. hah. i need to talk.. takl to me people.. my mouth is itching to talk...
oh just now while waiting for the never starting malay karangan test, i wrote 2 verses.. i think its crap, but nice at the same time.. just wanna type it here, so that i wouldn't be worried if i lost the paper. haha
Ku renung jauh ke luar jendela Harapan masih tinggi 'tuk kau menjelma Masa berlalu, cuaca berubah Di sini aku berdiri menunggu si satria
Perasaanku biru memikirkan dirimu Imbas kembali memori lalu Sentuhan lembut kau beri padaku Tak akan ku lupa hingga kering tanahku
okay until here.. i was writing during school hours..
the next two lines, i wrote while i was at home berjiwang-ing..hahs.
Janji manis yang dulu kau lafazkan Janji yang ku pegang dekat dengan hatiku ....
and then i was lost in the midst of everything and had to rejuvenate myself so started dancing stupid dances... dun ask me what.. nyeaah.. till next tyme den.. daa~
Thursday, June 01, 2006 / Thursday, June 01, 2006
from where i stand beneath the sky your shadow lingers and makes me want to cry your big broad shoulders where i used to lie brings back a tear and a huge pained sigh
i close my eyes to count to ten to dream of you and your beautiful hand we used to run together on the sand promising each other till the very end
things we do, me and you we promised each other to be true but things happened and then came our due to leave each other for the fondue
haha.. crappy things i do when i am not ready to go to sleep. i shall go read my book now. see ya..
/ Thursday, June 01, 2006
hah. sometimes i feel as though i don't fit to be going anywhere. yeah. i am just some dumb bitch, bimbo who only know nothing about school, life and things happening around her. although i am blessed with a wonderful family and great friends.. sometimes, i think that i'm empty inside.. just a hole..
haha.. i think sometimes when i emo.. it gets too crappy. hahs. i have a great imagianation.. what can i say.. hahs. oh yes.. so yesterday, i had pre-uni seminar until ard 12+.. then changed and went to tampines for my date with faz. saba suppose to come along, but she went out with her classmated to jurong.. nevermind, next tyme kay we shall meet up..=)
and so.. we walked around, looking for a gift for her friend.. so her friens, saw my friends.. haha.. and we were walking around, until i became not stable. i entered the store walked to the first clothing, touched it and was on my way out until i remembered that we were shopping. haha and came back into the shop..
oh oh.. i found out something. my rocco borocco brand kena discontinued.. damn.. and the smell was soo nice.. i want by boyfriend to wear that. haha. my sisters and i bought for my dad once..it smelled so damn goodlah..
and then we went to coffee bean for coffee and cheesecake galore..woohho~ faz met up with her friend. we ate and camwhored. and i took beautiful pictures and video. i absolutely LOVE faz nyer camera.. love it!! soo many settings to choose from and i absolutely LOVE her sparkly2 setting.. LOVEEEEEEEEE~~
haha.. and so she/they send me to my busstop after that since she was my date for the day! yayness!! oh and then at night.. was supposed to go for soccer match. but ohwells~ i am so not fated to watch soccer matches.. i shall rot and die now. haha.. nope.
and and.. talked to amy for awhile.. she sat beside hensem boy. hahs. later later at night called faz coz was bored and i slept on her.. hehe.. so sorry darling.. nyeah.
just now met up adeline, yu fei and si hui for research work.. had lunch at heartland mall. saw soo many pre-u seminar particapants.. annoying seh.. like a never-ending nightmare.. haha. ate at pizza hut for lunch. saw *ehems*.. headed to national library after that. very the complicating kay to enter the reference library.. cannot brg anything in except fullscap paper. hahs. so yeah.. the books were okaylah.. the microfilm.. can die.. all of us were so dizzy after scanning through five sets of microfilm.. tired lah cann.. and then i saw this wedding planner book, which was not on loan. i felt soo gleeful looking at the book. something i dreamt about being.. i shall venture into that business one day. it would be soo cool. then i can be in the same business as mr wolverine's family.. nyeah~ =)
oh and i found out something.
orang roses - desire..
hahs. so yes. maybe that's why i have a liking for orange things.. there is something i desire deep inside.. i think i know what.. but i am not quite sure. ahah.. likef safwanah say.. 'bebual world sia kau'
haha.. i do speak like that don't i.. haha.. yes2.. very vague my words shall be..
under the starry sky i seek a love so sweet it can't be weak but i can wait till my stomachs sick no knight in shining armour will come to speak -farahin-
Friday, June 30, 2006 / Friday, June 30, 2006
and so.. the moment has arrived for me to annoince..
MY EXAMS ARE OVER!! oh my! how elated can i get. i feel so happy for myself that i got through the exams. i was thinking of fake fainting before today's malay paper so i don't need to take it. but thinking about it, as if anyone would care to break my fall. hahs.
finally. the time has come. NO MORE groggy mornings, late night studying, sleeping at 4 am and waking up at 6 in the morning. no more days without eyeliner on. no more having to be in close proximity with him during exams no more.
no more no more no more no more.. haha that is until promos come along.. but must make sure i am better prepared for promos.
and just a small shout out to my darling...
WELCOME BACK AMIRAH FATIN (:!!!
hahs. i know you had fun. hahs. and i am so happy for you!
hahs. meeting masse tmr way early in the morning. she's depriving me of my beauty sleep bebeh. but for my girlfriends, everything can be done. well, not everything, but you know what i mean.
thanks to faz, for keeping me awake during the times i need to this week. thank you body for not breaking down too soon. hahs. tmr morning. i'll see you soon.
Paul Deanda - Doing Too Much (Feat Baby Bash)
I'm leaving messages and voicemails Telling you I miss you Baby am I doing to much Why you tryna diss me When I just wanna kiss you Baby am I doing to much, Tell me what's the issue Who I give these lips to Baby am I doing to much This is turning into Something I ain't hip to Baby am I doing to much
See you got me all alone Waitin right here by the phone For you to call me, Just to here Your voice tone I keep on wondering if you was even Feeling me, I keep on wondering if This was even meant to be Tell me imma waste of time, boy You showing me no sign, is it cuz u on Ya gine, cuz your always on my mind
I keep on wondering if everything you said was true I keep on wondering if you were really coming through
Now here I go again blowing you up, And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing to much Now here I go again blowing you up, And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing to much I'm leaving messages and voicemails Telling you I miss you Baby am I doing to much Why you tryna diss me When I just wanna kiss you Baby am I doing to much Tell me what's the issue Who I give these lips to Baby am I doing to much This is turning into Something I ain't hip to Baby am I doing to much
I'm out with my girls tryna have a good time And you know I'm looking fly tryna meet sum other guys But it gets hard sometimes cuz there ain't no one just like you I try my best but I can't shake this thing u got me going through
All i can picture is the color of your eyes, and the way u make me smile I ain't felt this in a while, But I came to a conclusion that this is pure illusion Chaos and confusion but I'm not gonna let it ruin
The way I feel about myself cuz I have self-esteem, sometimes I Wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy
The way I feel about myself cuz I have self-esteem, sometimes I Wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy
I'm leaving messages and voicemails Telling you I miss you Baby am I doing to much Why you tryna diss me When I just wanna kiss you Baby am I doing to much Tell me what's the issue Who I give these lips to Baby am I doing to much This is turning into Something I ain't hip to Baby am I doing to much
[Baby Bash:] Just leave ya name and number And I'm gon holla at cha Just leave ya name and number And I'm gon holla at cha Just leave ya name and number And I'm gon holla at cha Just leave ya name and number And I'm gon holla at cha
Ronnie Ray all day Women in the hall way, Ev day losing track of the people tryna call me Don't take this the wrong way, I been havin long days, doing it, moving Round the town wherever I'm getting my song played
Now here I go again blowing you up, And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing to much
Now here I go again blowing you up, And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing to much
I'm leaving messages and voicemails Telling you I miss you Baby am I doing to much Why you tryna diss me When I just wanna kiss you Baby am I doing to much
Tell me what's the issue Who I give these lips to Baby am I doing to much
This is turning into Something I ain't hip to Baby am I doing to much
Sunday, June 25, 2006 / Sunday, June 25, 2006
masselia says she's not in my blog. aha. seeee.. such a huge photo of her.. just to remind her that she's always in my thoughts. hah. ewww. that sounds wrong.. but nevertheless. haha. i soo have to see you soon. but i will be seeing you in 6 days time.. soo can't wait!! many stories to tell. haha. interesting by my rating, because it is about me after all. and you soo owe me a million stories about your life. hah.
oh and.. you're not suppose to spill about guys ryte.. but then kan.. i wanna noe about the guys. so you have to spill the stories to me. i dun care!! hahas.
and and you finish your exams alredy!! no fair! i'm just starting and actually i am suppose to be studying now, but you see.. i hae to update about things and tell the little people reading my blog, how beautiful the cookies i and faz baked, turn out.. hahas.. i have a heart cookie! and its especially for ME! yep2.. counsellors say you have to love yourself, before you start loving others. and because i itchy2 cannot wait to love others, must show how much i love myself first. nyaaah.
dahlah..i swear i am talking crap. but whooo cares.
okays.. so now, this morning, mz fazlina came over to kill time before her lecture.. and and.. i felt so slekeh beside her who's wearing jeans and nice shirt, while i look like her maid in shirt and shorts. hah. bought breakfast at mcdonalds.. how lovely.. and went to buy choc chip cookies, coz there was none at home. so reached home and did the cookies.. while watching honey. haha. i love baking cookies with faz. it reminds me of home econs class. our food either make it or not. haha. such funny times. i shall give you a glimpse of the cookies at the end of the entry.. =)
oh oh. and last saturday talked with faz for over 5 hours.. its been such a long time since we did that. but it felt so short. watched havana nights while talking to her.. was so turned on by jaview. in any case that you didn't know, he's my new boyfriend. chop! haha. come let me show you his face. den i can dedicate my layout to his sexy moves.. =) (omg! i cannot tell you how his face, his moves and his eyes turn me on cann.. haha i was practically swooning while i was on the phone with faz. hyperventilating cann. haha)
ah.. my gorgeous javier.. *swoooooooooooons*
haish.. okays.. last saturday was my gp paper.. i duno how i did. just hope i did well enough to at least pass. tomorrow's my math paper. hah. i have to put in more effort for it. then wednesday is my malay paper and econs. i must get at least a B for both.. expectations for myself is not good. but i need to. i dun wanna stayback. but i have been chilling to the max. and that's never great news. thursday i have geog.. which is a horror. because i haven't started reading the notes. and i don't have extra geog materials.. ah.. and on malay its sastera paper. just hope i can pull through. hah.
hmm.. and do you know, that i got a super EARLY birthday present?? i got a NEW CAMERA!! oh my gosh! i am soooo happylah cann.. now i can find joy in taking photos and videos. because i'm not good looking enough for my own photography.. haha.. but that does nit mean i am not eh. jgn perasan. haha.
hmm.. what else.. oh yes..
HAPPY 46TH BIRTHDAY AYAH DARLING!!!
ooh.. how fun!! do you know how fun the past week have been. on thursday, went out to parkway for dinner and grocery shopping. on friday, to carrefour for shopping and secret recipe for dinner, on saturday parkway for lunch and light window shopping and on sunday we went to IMM, ate at BAGUSS and shopped at giant and daitsu issit.. yeah.. then had dinner at swensens.. oh my.. what fun!!
celebrated my dad's birthday, got an early birthday gift, which i sooo have been wanting since like forever and my parents just decided to buy ur sisters a laptop!! woohoo~ i'm loving it totally! so i have to do well for the common tests now don't i. after having such a great week before. hahs. hope soo much lahh.
i wonder how amirahfatin is doing. hope you are well girl. and i miss ya sila! soo long never see you, but we're still keeping in touch so that's a good sign.
on friday my sis is gg for her driving license test. hope it goes well~~ then we can celebrate! coz i finish my tests on that day!! yayyyy!!
oh oh. i can't wait for sunday! wheeeeeeeeeee~
oh and of course the pictures of the delectable cookies and their delicious chefs. haha.=)
hah. this one for javier also.. hahas. suker~but the heart a little cacat sey.. nehmind2. hahahas.
haha.. the two chefs for the day!! yayness. and the cookies taste nice okay. hah. although it was a cookie mix all the wayyyyyyyyyy from japan. haha. partly because we bought it at a jepon shop. tempting kan kan.. i noee..
okays. now i shall end the post with nice lyrics.. i was thinking of the bowling story song.. *you are my destiny.. you are what you are to me..* but then i don't remember the lyrics... so sad. so now its going to be a malay song by saiful..
Ku Juga Mencintaimu - Saiful (MI)
Sukarnya 'tuk ku melupakan Sinar matamu yang menawan Terbayang-bayang tiap masa Senyuman mu menggoda
Kehangatan terasa di jiwa Tika kau lafaz kata cinta Nafas terhenti seketika Seakan sukar ku percaya Ooh…oh…
(Korus) Ku juga mencintai dirimu Mengapa sukar ku luahkan Bukan sengaja ku menahan Bibir membeku lidah terkelu
Ku juga mencintai dirimu Kau amat sempurna buatku Bukan saja aku biarkan Kan ku ucap jua padamu
Sukarnya untukku ucapkan Ku takut akan kehilangan mu Akan ku buat segalanya Untukmu kekasihku
Cuma satu yang belum terluah Kalimah cinta kau nantikan Bila masa dan ketika Tidak dapat ku menjawabnya Ohhh….
Ku juga mencintai dirimu Mengapa sukar ku luahkan Bukan sengaja ku menahan Bibir membeku lidah terkelu
Ku juga mencintai dirimu Kau amat sempurna buatku Bukan saja aku biarkan Kan ku ucap jua padamu
(Bridge) Semalaman ku menunggu panggilanmu Pabila terdengar suaramu Ku terlupa segalanya
haish.. what nice lrics.. =) i like.. so now i shall go watch movie or go study.. hahs. daaaaaaa~
Thursday, June 22, 2006 / Thursday, June 22, 2006
thanks for the breakfast at airport. sayang you many2.
thanks for the study group and the lunch.
thanks for the dinner. thanks for the laughter. =)
Wednesday, June 21, 2006 / Wednesday, June 21, 2006
and now i feel sad. i know no one's gonna care. so yeah. don't ask me what i feel sad abpout. i myself don't know. it's just that i am overwhelmed with sadness. i know my family cares. i know i can count on people around me. but can i be sure? i feel oh-so pretty when i am alone in my room, doing work or dressing up. but once i step out of the house, i feel like damn, i look ugly.. i have complex mind. i think i should see a doctor to find out what my illness is. or its just that i have low self esteem. i know this post id going to haunt me somehow. but if no one reads it, no one will know.
i need a wake up call. i need something. i need to endthis. its hurting me inside more than i think it would. yeah, don't think about me. i am just some fucking loser that was just tagging along. fuck lah..
stoopid incident. if you're smart, don't ask me okayy. i swear. don't. but no one reads this stuff. i shall go drown myself in self-pity.. or actually go study to hide my insecurities.
i hate this feeling.
it's driving me insane.
my insides are torn apart.
and i don't think it will stick again.
i hate every perfect thing.
i hate it when its there.
and so again. i have no idea what i am writing but i can't be like the girl i want to be. i can't be like the girl who doesn't care about what other people think of her. i can't do bad things to others. coz if the person doesn't find out, my conscience will strangle me to death. i can't be mean to people, how much i hate them or despise them. it just feels wrong. i need to learn how lifve life. or else i'll die after i get out of teh education system. i cannot be ME anymore. i don't get appreciated. sometimes i feel that its not worth living a lie, if its not what i'm feeling inside. everytime i bcome violent, everyone sees. everyone judges.
shutup.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006 / Tuesday, June 20, 2006
okay. so i cannot resist the temptation of not writing in my blog when i read it every single day. cannot tahan. too many attractions.. well, one of them is if i blog, less time would be allocated for studying which i hav been procastinating since day 1. i have not practiced my maths, which i have a feeling that i cannot pass. haish. and another valid reason, why i should be blogging. my darling sister tagged ME!!! so how can i be a mean sister and not do it right right.. hahas..
so here it is..
7 RANDOM STUFF
since i have bee tagged by Ms nur farhana aka my dearest sister.. ( haha, ultimate reason why i am bloggong. haha.)
* 7 RANDOM FACTS ABT MEEE *
- I used to go to corners in the house when i was young to clean it. haha. *think licking* hahaha - I am a hard core romantic.. I can find something romantic in everything i see, even if its just leaves falling from the trees to the roadside.. - PROCRASTINATE is my middle, third and fourth name.. muahahha - I like to believe that I am a gymnast, ballerina when I am at home and try to do things which only these people can do.. haha - I don't like confrontations. and when i have one, after the confrontation then i think about what i should have said to the person. haha. - I like beingh alone most of the time, therefore that means i am an introvert and that I am SHY.. - I make sure every singlememory is well recorded, as in, in my memory or my memory box or my friend's memory.. haha.. things like that. =)
* 7 THINGS THAT SCARE MEEE *
- ALLAH swt - QiAMAT - Losing my LOVED ones - being too alone and no on who cares for me - i don't wanna die a lonely death, i rather if my family was there - the DARK, after hearing ghost stories, i have the ability to scare myself easily.. - the end result of my procastination and not doing anything..
* 7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT *
- Khayalan by Black Dog Bone - That's What Friends Are For by i have no idea who.. - sound of silence in the house. i know its not music, but my brain is dead now..so DEAL. hah. - Bunga-bunga cinta by Misha Omar - happy birthday song by farahin =) - Life Story theme song by the winner of Project Superstar - You.. doing that thing you do.. breaking my heart into a million pieces, like you alyas do.. =) by The Wonders
* 7 THINGS I LIKE MOST *
- the pillow i sleep on, coz it can double as a bolster. =) - GIRL TALKS with my darling sisters!! - talking on the phone about anything under the moon and the stars wth FAZZ. - checking myself out. haha. i find JOY! - having apacked schedule and daily activities. - EAT EAT EAT! - reading books which can bring me into another lovely dimension.. =) <3333>
Kini segalanya telah berubah Cintamu hanya memori indah Ku ditinggalkan kesepian Pilu hatiku Kembalilah kepadaku Selamilah jiwa ini yang terluka Ikatan kita berdua
Sayangilah diri ini Belailah jiwa nan sepi Kelayuan... dedaunan keguguran Dahan-dahan nan kerapuhan Bunga-bunga cinta Layu di pusara
haha.. and so i love the song and its cool to bold the words that mean something to me. hah. and if you know me, it doesn't really mean anything in actual.. i just want it to be. hahs.
I want my life just to be like this. i shall be the pretty girl with sunflower and that's how life evolves.. that is for me.. around ME.. hahha. omg! so merepek cann.. oh and i got the following extract from an email from jannah.. lookie.. it's in malay.. so yeahlah..if you don't understand that means you don't understand malay. haha.. but then you can try lah kayy.. =)
Anda mempunyai daya tarikan kepada sesiapa saja. Anda adalah seorangyang realistik, yakin, gembira dan merupakan seorang yang genius dalam bidang pendidikan, muzik, seni dan nyanyian. Anda mempunyai masalah sikap iaitu panas baran. Namun demikian, anda banyak melakukan pengorbanan untuk keluarga. Anda meletakkan keluarga di tempat yang amat tinggi sekali sehingga kadang-kadang mengabaikan kebahagian diri sendiri. Anda telah dilahirkan untuk memberi sumbangan kepada dunia ini. Jadi anda seorang yang bagus dan seorang yang amat gembira.
dah.. the end!
Sunday, June 18, 2006 / Sunday, June 18, 2006
three weeks have passed by.. but i'm not sure i did anything fulfilling these past three weeks. so i shall start studying.. this is a promise.. so any last minute going outs..sorry cannot make it.. =( and its been a long time since i wrote in malay.. and i am missing the language.. hah. as if i don't say it enough at home.
jadi sekarang macam masa untuk saya berbicara dalam bahasa melayu. mari lihat beraper teruk melayu saya.. ah.. the horror.
okay..somehow everything in that para sounded wrong. i need to talk malay and english together..or else everything which comes out of my mouth sounds wrong... VERY..
and i feel like not blogging for the next week. haha.
P.S: amirahfatin(: and nurul.. bon voyage and have lotsa fun in sydney!! which i can confirm you girls will have! =) have a safe trip and take lotsa pictures!!
Tuesday, June 13, 2006 / Tuesday, June 13, 2006
haha.. got this from love-sck faz's blog.. i shall prasan love-sick and do the quiz poso.. nyaaah!
I am... Mania/Violet If John Alan Lee knows what he's talking about, you are literally a maniac for love. You know, kind of in love with love... as if you're always in pursuit of some ideal. The chances are that you have trouble finding a particular person who can fulfill your need for love. Read more...
i'm suffering from high fever. yes. that sickness which makes you wanna stay in bed ALL day.. i think it was because of the super-freakig cold aircon lt2.. or maybe it's because i'm too hot for my good. haha.. i think its the first reason..
so things happen. i cant be bothered right now to update on my life.. if you want one, just ask me. but not now. coz now i am PMS-ing and i am sick. and hungry. i need to ask akak to buy me food...
and so.. met faz today.. haha.. FATE we shall put it as.. and i thought it was some big guy, who didn't know how to sit properly and i was gg to give the person an evil eye, when tada~ it was fazzy.. hahas
and now i shall be my moody sick self.. i am sick.. where's Doctor JM? i need medicine NOW!
oh and teh service industry gives me a bad feeling today. i DON'T like you.. rot and die! hhas.
I am... Cygnus Does commitment come naturally to you? Are you willing to put yourself in difficult situations for friends? Are you known for your perseverance? Cygnus, the swan, may be your celestial alter ego. Read more...
WARNING: ALL THE WORDS FOLLOWING THIS WARNING, WILL BE FULL OF VULVARITIES. ALTHOUGH IT IS NOT MY NATURE TO SAY VULGAR THINGS. TONIGHT IS A MUST.
fuck that person lah. as if he is of such great descendant of anywhere. as if he is an almni of some great school. as if my school students never get to university. you can tighten that hole of yours and zip it okay. i don't need your fucking comments about my school. i am fucking happy with what i have. i was having a great day. util that fucking incident. DIE seh..
okays..i know. if any of my teachers read this i will be showing incorrect values of a student and i apologise. but how can i just sit around and stand people talking nasty things about my school. and if you were wondering why i didn't just smack the guy's face right there and then. because unlike him , i know my freaking manners and i did not leave it at home, while i put down other people's school. go and die!
oh oh.. and as if other jc students don't go around holdnig hands. and so what if they were holding hands. was that any of your business. and if you had a daughter. as if your daughter will never hold a guy's hands.. shut up and think about what you just said. coz it really RUINED my day.
thank you faz, amirahfatin and saffy for the great companionship before that. i was being my moody self. i shall blame it on the PMS..
and i shall say goodnight now.
don't read this if it hurts you.
so, are we not talking anymore?
okay then, i shall leave it like that. if we are talking, tell me okay. (:
but then you'll never accidentally bump into my blog.. so till forever.. goodbyee
Saturday, June 10, 2006 / Saturday, June 10, 2006
what did i do? part III
/ Saturday, June 10, 2006
what did i do?
/ Saturday, June 10, 2006
Romeo Debriefing
/ Saturday, June 10, 2006
Romeo Preparing..
haha... great time spent together with all this FUN and GREAT people!! =)
/ Saturday, June 10, 2006
i've gotten this from fanaA's blog. lol.
instructions: state eight different points of your ideal lover. mention gender. tag eight others to do it.
gender of ideal lover: Guy eh.. conferm.. but then I have many many lovers tau. gerl boy.like no difference like that. hahs.
1) something about their eyes. Deep eyes. Eyes I can stare at until forever.. woohooo~ 2) he SOOO must be like MY wolverine guy… =) 3) sweet and knows how to make me SMILE 4) RESPECT me as a woman. And not make me feel uncomfortable… 5) funny and good looking to ME only… 6) loves me for my personality and not because of other factors. 7) haha.. he has to love taking pictures and be CRAZY along with me!! 8) he has to love my girlfriends and my family.. lala~
eight people to do this in their blog: 1) amirahfatin ? 2) mrs ******* 3) sabarina 4) masselia 5) adeline 6) sihui 7) dale 8) sila!!
Monday, June 05, 2006 / Monday, June 05, 2006
first time.. in my entire life.. i was late.. not 10 mins late.. but a whole half an hour late for my gp lecture.. i felt like my burning into my seat, when i sat down.i felt blood coming to my face.. and the only way for me not to cair (melt) right there and then was to just focus on the lecture and busy myself in writing the stuff that was coming out from the teacher's mouth.. this is bda news.. i'm copying withough understanding.. total nightmare later.. nyeaaah.. ( and i am reminded of mr zul.. coz he's the only one who says nyeaaah.. or nyaaaha..tet.) oh and i nearly cried when i read miss ong's letter for the class.. she's so sweet lah.. and i found out something today..i am an emotional wreck.. haha.. a total wreck i tell you..
oh oh.. talked to mrs ******* and amirahfatin(: for hours long.. until 3 AM in the morning!! uber fun.. just talking about life.. and everything under the horny moon. haha. okays.. so yesterday was not as horny as when we were talking to ms sabarina, who is one of the co-authors of the *explicit title*.. haha.. and it was so fun calling them and talking to all if them, without them actually hearing each other and thinking i was totally mad. and that my screw were totally loose and that i lost the few remaining marbles i have.. haha
and and just now to kill time before meeting, had lunch at kfc at heartland.. saw sooo many people which my friends want to see.. but never mine.. ish. so unfairism. dushz! haha.. one reason was because they had oral.. so yeah.. its okay.. i'm sure they did super well.. and you know what.. i have this bugging feeling that the cikgu feels that she made the wrg choice.. nyeaaah.
oh oh.. today is mrs *******'s econs test. hope she did well...can't help her since she doing macro.. but as if i that smart to tecah people. nyeaaah. oh, and he looked good today.. charming even. something's wrg with this brain of mine.. at least i know i'm not in his blocked people list. hah. i need to talk.. takl to me people.. my mouth is itching to talk...
oh just now while waiting for the never starting malay karangan test, i wrote 2 verses.. i think its crap, but nice at the same time.. just wanna type it here, so that i wouldn't be worried if i lost the paper. haha
Ku renung jauh ke luar jendela Harapan masih tinggi 'tuk kau menjelma Masa berlalu, cuaca berubah Di sini aku berdiri menunggu si satria
Perasaanku biru memikirkan dirimu Imbas kembali memori lalu Sentuhan lembut kau beri padaku Tak akan ku lupa hingga kering tanahku
okay until here.. i was writing during school hours..
the next two lines, i wrote while i was at home berjiwang-ing..hahs.
Janji manis yang dulu kau lafazkan Janji yang ku pegang dekat dengan hatiku ....
and then i was lost in the midst of everything and had to rejuvenate myself so started dancing stupid dances... dun ask me what.. nyeaah.. till next tyme den.. daa~
Thursday, June 01, 2006 / Thursday, June 01, 2006
from where i stand beneath the sky your shadow lingers and makes me want to cry your big broad shoulders where i used to lie brings back a tear and a huge pained sigh
i close my eyes to count to ten to dream of you and your beautiful hand we used to run together on the sand promising each other till the very end
things we do, me and you we promised each other to be true but things happened and then came our due to leave each other for the fondue
haha.. crappy things i do when i am not ready to go to sleep. i shall go read my book now. see ya..
/ Thursday, June 01, 2006
hah. sometimes i feel as though i don't fit to be going anywhere. yeah. i am just some dumb bitch, bimbo who only know nothing about school, life and things happening around her. although i am blessed with a wonderful family and great friends.. sometimes, i think that i'm empty inside.. just a hole..
haha.. i think sometimes when i emo.. it gets too crappy. hahs. i have a great imagianation.. what can i say.. hahs. oh yes.. so yesterday, i had pre-uni seminar until ard 12+.. then changed and went to tampines for my date with faz. saba suppose to come along, but she went out with her classmated to jurong.. nevermind, next tyme kay we shall meet up..=)
and so.. we walked around, looking for a gift for her friend.. so her friens, saw my friends.. haha.. and we were walking around, until i became not stable. i entered the store walked to the first clothing, touched it and was on my way out until i remembered that we were shopping. haha and came back into the shop..
oh oh.. i found out something. my rocco borocco brand kena discontinued.. damn.. and the smell was soo nice.. i want by boyfriend to wear that. haha. my sisters and i bought for my dad once..it smelled so damn goodlah..
and then we went to coffee bean for coffee and cheesecake galore..woohho~ faz met up with her friend. we ate and camwhored. and i took beautiful pictures and video. i absolutely LOVE faz nyer camera.. love it!! soo many settings to choose from and i absolutely LOVE her sparkly2 setting.. LOVEEEEEEEEE~~
haha.. and so she/they send me to my busstop after that since she was my date for the day! yayness!! oh and then at night.. was supposed to go for soccer match. but ohwells~ i am so not fated to watch soccer matches.. i shall rot and die now. haha.. nope.
and and.. talked to amy for awhile.. she sat beside hensem boy. hahs. later later at night called faz coz was bored and i slept on her.. hehe.. so sorry darling.. nyeah.
just now met up adeline, yu fei and si hui for research work.. had lunch at heartland mall. saw soo many pre-u seminar particapants.. annoying seh.. like a never-ending nightmare.. haha. ate at pizza hut for lunch. saw *ehems*.. headed to national library after that. very the complicating kay to enter the reference library.. cannot brg anything in except fullscap paper. hahs. so yeah.. the books were okaylah.. the microfilm.. can die.. all of us were so dizzy after scanning through five sets of microfilm.. tired lah cann.. and then i saw this wedding planner book, which was not on loan. i felt soo gleeful looking at the book. something i dreamt about being.. i shall venture into that business one day. it would be soo cool. then i can be in the same business as mr wolverine's family.. nyeah~ =)
oh and i found out something.
orang roses - desire..
hahs. so yes. maybe that's why i have a liking for orange things.. there is something i desire deep inside.. i think i know what.. but i am not quite sure. ahah.. likef safwanah say.. 'bebual world sia kau'
haha.. i do speak like that don't i.. haha.. yes2.. very vague my words shall be..
under the starry sky i seek a love so sweet it can't be weak but i can wait till my stomachs sick no knight in shining armour will come to speak -farahin-
MY PROFILE
Its all about ME!
Hello my name is farahin!
i am not liable for the sappy and increasingly feminist content in this blog
i shall not I REPEAT i shall not be a cynic of love.
it just spoils all the fun out of falling in and out of love
I LOVE THIS!
What I really LOVE!
myself
dance
friends
heels
_ _ _ _ HAHA.
shopping when i have the money
myself
WISHLIST!
my WISH upon a star!
get my driving license!! go on a trip with my friends! digital camera :))) dresses.dresses.dresses. go for CAMP! any kind will do! :) hang out with the jayceee people <33
go ice skating!!
visit the SCIENCE centre AND Camwhore!
SWIMMING! strawberry sundaeee pleasee! HEELS! :)
