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Saturday, May 28, 2005 / Saturday, May 28, 2005
yest's dk comp was fun!!nyahah...enyoyed it to bits.firstly coz the some of the goups were just sooo good!! and i saw some ppl i've not been see-ing for the past year..yeah..its was great.. oh. i recorded some of my favourite grps while they were performing...but guess wad??while i was trying to open it again after i deleted the files form my smartcard, it cannot be opened in the comp..... bwaaaaaah!!!!
stupid me..now i shall just rely on my besty friend and her recording...just hope that it is clear!!! i need to hear them sing...aaaaah!!!stupid card..stupid me!!

yeah..so dats done..malay o level's tmr...if u ppl reading my blog have not noticed..finished reading my preibahase..gg to remember my frasa-frasa berbunga, soon enuf...need to be in kool at ..farahin, dun u dare be late!!i need an A1..i onky got an A2 during my mock exam..and a terrible c5 fer theis term...stupidity is common for me ard this tyme of the year..or mebbe its all year round...aaah!!!shall not be sadidstic!!so i shall study..afterall...

i don't understand you.. it's nearing o level's and you are still fighting over minute things or just fighting over supressable emotions..why are you so complicated..or are everyone still dat complicated in this already complicated world...full of things which are not simple at all..yeah..you get me..i know i'm just like you..but i can't stand myself , so dun tink i can stand you that much.yeah..

peace outz..


Wednesday, May 25, 2005 / Wednesday, May 25, 2005
5 days to malay o'levels...
  • and i am dead..super dead..just finished sec 1 and sec2 peribahasa just now..and sec 3 and sec 4, there's a lot to study..and i need to study finish by friday coz wantchg competition the whole day on saturdae... and i dun wanna study on sunday, or i will be stressed..aah!!have to remember kekata bunga2 and i haven do dat yet..i haven finish doing the o levels book and i am behind in my hwk..oh shit..
  • aaah!!nehmind..well yeah, that has to be over with by saturdae..i need dat a1...puh-lease grant me my wish.... nyahhaa..kk..being lame..am getting a new cam tmr!!not acterli new, coz its second-hand and it's my teacher's digi-cam..just hope it's nice coz my cam is spoilt..damnation..yeah..
  • i shall go now and see if i can finish any part of my hwk by today....toodles..oh yeah, carnival day tmr! how fun!! yeah..nyahhah...(dat is either sarcastic or i am really excited, choose 1..haha) yeah..shall go off now..bye...


Thursday, May 19, 2005 / Thursday, May 19, 2005
nyahaha..am bored ryte now..so yeah..just decided to write an entry coz i dun wanna do anything else which i am supposed to do..but nehminds..hehe.. well yeah, i lurve my layout..it's soo nice..thx to the person who made the blayout..it's pretty..=)

ooh..4 days have passed and i am still fasting..whee~cool, now i have lesser and lesser days to payback..and fer those who din notice..haha..i was fasting, that's why i din eat the food u ppl offered during lessons..bwaaaah!! but nehmind.. a few more hours and i shall finish my 4th day..yeah..

i feel bad..just now had bio remedial, n i slept during klas, but the funny thing was that i was able to be awake when she told us the answer, but once she talks and discuss the answer, i'll be dozing off..i guess i am just too tired..but nehmind, this whole weekend shall be the tyme i relax!! yeah man!!

haha..i think the fasting thingy was getting to me, as i was feeling extra tired..and i wasn't concentrating thru out class..haish~tired bebz! what elese eh...oh yeah, i tink my overall fer malay mock exam is A2...but i got only 27 fer oral..alah..and dat masse get 28..irritating eh..nyaaaah...i need an A1..dahlah, this term get freaking C5.. sheesh..how did i do so badly and my compositoin is terrible..i need to practice..i need that A1...aaah!! i need all the help i can get seh..noooo..i shall just study on my own..n i shall have to revise my other subjects soon, but i tink i need to study bio and sec 3 geog back..coz i cannot remember a thing..haish~ this is sad..haha...but nehmind..

ouh..okielah..tyme fer me to bathe and actually finish all my hwk before tmr...i need to pack my bag..there's absolutely nuthik much to brg..how boring..haha..oklah..just hope the other half of the bus consists of a family with a lot of guys..nyahah..crapping yet again..aitz..peace outz..=)


Monday, May 16, 2005 / Monday, May 16, 2005
ladida~ just came back from the workshop n yeah..ooh..i need to write this..nyahahah

TAK FREN MY SENDOK 1 BOSS..nyahahha..

orange!!i love orange! but not as much as i lurve read n pink!!haha..

lala..how coulourful my entry shall be..since i am supposedly not a dark person..nyahaha..but i am, i really am..so yeah..deal with it..haha..nolah, i am soooo not that mean..yeah.. had my boss and associates tell me smt this morning..haha..merajok with them fer just a little while but it was ok..coz they love me n i love them to bits!yes you 3 gondolez on the bus..of course i have other love stories with other ppl..haha..they're my malin darlings..nyahaha..for now..lala

haha..yeah..the financial thingy just now was fun..but u see..i ended up unemplyed and even owing the bank money..this is sad..how am i spose to run my own business now??nyaaah...
oooh..so yeah..aqilah as the brainy gerl got the most money, but everyone ended not having a job in the end..haha..i am gonna beat u ppl tmr..lala..

i think i scare ppl a lot..yeah..with my weirdness n mebbe my usual self..i was superbly hyper today, when i was spose tobe lethargic..haha..coz i was fasting coz its payback tyme..lala!

yeah..i guess dats all lahr..ain't the colour too sickeningly sweet..yes, it is..oh and to that person who is reading this blog,yes i mean you,do tag aitz..so at least i know who is reading this lonely blog of mine..nyahah..okalhr..peace outz..=)

oh yeah..heard this song after a long while and it brings back such old feelings, i mean coz its old and all..it's in malay though, coz it is a malay song...nyahaha..sun mind me..i am being lame now..

AtoZ
Darjat
Beza antara kita
Rupa darjat dan harta
Sudikah kau terima
Bukan niat di hati
Ingin menghancuri
Hati dan naluri
Seharusnya kau tahu
Betapa kumerindumu
Kekasihku...
Punah hasrat di minda
Untuk hidup bersama
Pabila kau tiada...
Masa berlalu jua
Aku tiada terdaya
Biarlah kurasa...
Seharusnya kau tahu
Betapa kumerindu
Kekasihku...
Maafkanlah diriku ini
Tiada rela jua jadi begini
Tika cinta kian bersemi
Oh relakanlah kupergi...
aww...ain't the song sweet..for those of you who understand it..hehe..=) aitz..ciaoz


Wednesday, May 11, 2005 / Wednesday, May 11, 2005
TAK FREN SABA NGAN FAZ!!NYAHAHA!!

haha..no lahr..just joking..haha..coz i told saba i'll put that big2 on my entry..nyahha..yeah.. aniwaes how can i tak efren both of dem?? dey are my darlings!=) oh and also coz saba will not tape for me chase id i dun fren her..muahaha..

aniwaes..guess wad i have been doing for the past 1 hr?i have been searching for my long list sister..haha..kidding2..that is why it is smaller than my normal font..nyahah..well..i have been doing research for my next move..whether to go jc or poly..but..noo..my heart is dead set on going to jc..only my mind likes to linger off and make me more confuse than i already am..sad life..yeah..went to all the jc websites and temasek poly website and surfed for tourism and hospitality..but the sad thing is if i wanna pursue into that sector..i wld have to go jc then poly..ain't life sad..yeah..that means i would be wasting like 6 yrs studying before i can go into university..and the university who offer the tourism and hospitatlity is from 4 other countries..and if i can remember right..canada, Australi and yeah two more countries..yeah..and if i do that it's gonna be like super expensive for my parents coz the course itself per yr is already $12 600..ard there lah..and there is the materials for class the txtbooks cost 400 bucks and the rest for me cost a bombshell..so yeah..saying buhbye to my dream slowly...bwaaah!!!anyway, what strike me to think of g into this career path was a long ago forgotten dream and the person from swisshotel and all the PR they get to do..won't it be fun?i'm sure it will..but..you see, neither NUS nor SMU nor NTU offer the degree for tourism and hospitalism..how can like that?and their campus is super cool lahr..it's at sentosa..nyaaah..nehmind..

i'll just have to take either science or cross-combi in jc..if i can get into a jc..and yeah..tpjc is one of the jcs who provide MLEP..malay language elective programme..if i want to take that subjcet at A levels, i have to at least get an A2 in Malay Language..damn..nehmind..i can do it...

this talk about what step to take next is worrying my brain and taking up too much of my stress level..nyahha..if u dun understand whatever i just said..it's okay..i dun understand my self too..nyahha..
yeah..time for what happened in school..i learned how to speak a few more chinese words..but i am a terrible student..so yeah..i thinki forgot half of what i learnt from grace,esther, geraldine, muylan n eileen...nyahha..it's okies..there always tmr rytes??hehe..got back a maths paper..was able to scrape thru with a just pass mark..oh yeah..must ask my dad to sign..nyaaaaaah..
after skul went out with them...ate at McD..oh my.. i am getting fatter and fatter!! i shall fast nxt wk or smt..yes!pay-back time!!nyahah..yeah..crapped as per usual..yeah..dats all lahr..

wo pu hui jiang hua yi --> this is suppose to mean i don't understand chinese.. nyahah..craps..

gd nyte to gd morning..ladida...


Monday, May 09, 2005 / Monday, May 09, 2005
yeah!!new layout!1n i am loving it!!nyahaha..

sorry to amirah for pissing you off just now..i know i am irritating..as always at certain times of the day..n to faz for not being a friend i am supposed to..yeah..i am sorry..ooh.. mrs ngin was SUPER sweet ahr..she gave me a card to egg me on to do harder..how sweet..yeah..failed my bio test, et again..but nehmind, since mrs ngin is soo sweet..i'll try harder the next time..got back chemistry test just now..woohoo!!i passed!!n i got a sticker!!whee!! pats on my back for my hard werk..n of course ms johara returned ur our physics formative which i know i am going to fail..n guess wad i did fail!i got 2/10..dat is sad..but i din study..so yeah..my fault..the whole class having a re-test this fridae..aaargh!!oh yeah.. jus found out just now that i have to cover 147 chapters to actually sit for my MR o..ooh..i am super dead..

ooh..went out with dira,faz,saba n aretha(my new found friend..nayaha)...dorae was with us until after the ice cream parlour..then she went home..hahah..wad ice cream parlour?the small mac ahr..nyahaha.yeah it was fun..but i felt funny..maybe something wrong up there in my brain n its not functioning well..nyahah..oklahr..

i have to get ready for my tuition now..n i haven't bath nor iron my clotehs..i am soooo dead!!
taaz


Friday, May 06, 2005 / Friday, May 06, 2005
whoa..its been eons since i last updated..n i think my blog is bare..yeah..last week was the last week for tests..n we have 15 more weeks to prelims..haish..i mus keep reminding myself that..i need smt to motivate me to acterli study..i think i screwed up my phy formative tadi..so hard..n i forgot the formula..so yeah..sorry ms johara..i am gg to fail that paper..den we had e maths spring test..which was slightly okay..can do n mrs loy was so sweet..ooh..n i found out todae i can be easily touched by things happening ard me..that means i am emotional..all my friends know this..coz i will get into these crazy moods at different times of the day..one moment i am happy..den i am sad..den sometimes i look like i may burst into tears..and sometimes i do burst into tears.. and i know that my friends will always be around me to calm me down.. i love my friends for being so understanding over my mood swings..love you guys lots!!yeah..

oh yeah..southpark rules!!nyahha..inside joke.. and let's see, todae was a super-emotional day fer me..festly..my dad's car had a flat tyre and this sweet man in truck helped to send me n my lil sis to school..how sweet is that?/thank tou very much for that..i felt so warmth after that..knowing there are still nice people out there, who will help you, in times of need..yeah..

had a great time just now just after the bell rang and until i reach home.. went out to eat at pp at ard 3+..ate at bk..then walked ard pp..looking for stuff..n beli vegetable for masse's mom..everyone was looney just now..we were crapping inside bk..kahkha... yeah,.. then in the bus, muylan made a paper plane which she placed inside masse'd uniform..so it was funny looking at masse trying to take the paper out..nyahha..=)

hmmz..yesterday had a malay mock test..i felt good abt it for a ll while..coz i know i have tried my best..i am aiming for an A1..which means i need at least a 60..but after the test, they were saying their answers n i totally felt misplaced..i had sooo many wrg answers..haish..it'll be lucky if i can even get B3..but i have to get A1 for o levels this 30th may..i must! this the only subject i can bank on to get a sure A1..coz i suck like a straw in the rest of my subjects..n i am getting help from everyone possible..all the sources drained out..i need to work hard..

i wanna go to temasek junior college or tampine sjunior college..

but the thing is, i don't see myself in these places..i can't see myself in poly nor jc..coz i'm not smart enough for jc and i am too slow to be studying in poly..haish~terrible man..i need to improve myself man..

oh yeah..i think i am getting a 30 for L1R5 this term..my standards drop for all subjects except a maths, which i passed!!woohoo!! i am so proud of myself for passing a maths..i feel stressed..i feel stressed coz i see that all my friends are scoring and i am not...and i seem to absorb in information at a lower pace than others..i hate this..i feel discouraged..not motivated with all the high marks my friends are getting for subjects..haish~

ooh..i haven talk about pentas TP haven i..it was SUPERB production..especially the performance by both the dk groups...oh eyah..have to burn the cd soon..so can give amirah to listen to the the rhythm of the song for her research..i miss you amirah n faz n everyone..
we are not as close as we were..i guess we have diff friends now..but i know i can count on my best buddies to look out for me in times when i cannot look out for my ownself..

somehow, i am writing a long entry today..wonder why...hm..i guess i shall stop here..oh, i jus remembered Grace's inspirational apple n story..thx grace!that was soooo sweet of you! huggiez..

lurve u ppl...amy.faz.saba.qix.masse.muylan.nk.jannah.jira.sila.esther.pat.geraldine. thx for tolerating my nonsense and my crappy moods..*muackz*

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Artist: Maria Carey
Song Title: We belong together
I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupidI was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined
I'd be Sitting here beside myself

'Cause I didn't know you
'Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling now
Now that I don't
Hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, 'cause baby

[Chorus:]
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody there
We belong together
I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind

Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me'
If you think you're lonely now
'Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear BabyfaceI only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
CryingTrying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of whatI'm feeling insideI need you
Need you back in my life baby

[Chorus]