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Tuesday, August 31, 2004 / Tuesday, August 31, 2004
haha..today was fun..come..let me tell you about it..aights..went to skool..did aces day..it was fun coz was doing it together with tkss..saw some ppl..hehe..n den went for recess..gave my presents to my teachers..hehe..so sweet ryte me??yerp2..then went o dressup myself for teachesr dae..then went to the general office to dress up the vps..yeah..wad else..had a routine..they were soo fun..haha..ms lydia was sporting enough to join although i didn't inform her coz of some problems..er..yeah..

then wad else..the performance was great!my gawd except some excerpts of the whole show..er..not interesting at all..nice deance to yana,emilda,hakimah,aien,amelia,amalina,diyanah..yeah..the dance was great..n to fellow modern dancers..whoa!!you rocked the hse..khkha..

n did u guys see mrs kong??khakha..rebel abis..haha..cant recognise her at ferst..hehe..yeah..n wad else..oh yeah..mrs chuan cried..duno why..smt abt the presentation toched her ahr..oh yeah..mrs geh wore her old uniform, which is rgs uniform..yeah..

haha..then after finish all, rushed of to evps..took the taxi..yeah..reached teher n saw sooo many ppl!omg!khakha.. farhan, kuang hao,shawn,gibson,jiesheng,yiang meng,aloy,amerlyn,kristin, linting,jazreel,azlyna n me were there!!haha..den nmpk farid n oher whom i have forgotten their name..khakha..yeah..

then me wen bk to meet faz n amirah..yeah..then walked ard tm and cs..yeah..saw some cute guys lahr..yeah..but din see ppl yg me nka tgk..yeah..wad else..yeah..nuthing else ahr..

okalhr..see ya guys later in my next entry..toodles..muackz to everyone..heheh


Saturday, August 28, 2004 / Saturday, August 28, 2004
aights..how's everyone??i hope all are fine..since my last entry was as colourful as ever..this entry shall be in BLACK...wakhakha..hmm..
i shall start my entry with the happenings yesterdae..kk..the physics test was ok..yeah..watched the continuation of whale rider..the story is so damn nice..yeah..and what else..oh yeah..after the physics test, me,masse,amy n saf took taxi n go to simei..ate at kfc with the coupons we had..yeah..then after that we were late for repoerting time..but yeah..when we reached there, here was more people streaming in..so yeah..not so kanchiong aftr that..

we were in charge of 20 pens which were suppose to be sold at $2 each..yea..ferstly we were sent to marine parade..but then yeah..like we care..so place masse bag at her hse, then she sold 3 pens i think, in her hse..yeah..then we went to tamp interchange..went to the tamp mrt there..the ppl there are not nice, so decided to go ard the interchange aea.so me and masse split from saf n amy..yeah..so walked ard n finally found a spot to ask for donations..damn..that was a gd spot..soo many ppl were passing by..hmm..saw a lot of peeps too..yeah..let's see..we saw the sec 4's, mrs loy, my neighbour, safwan,izyan n her esss frens, hydil, afiq n their frens, masse's long time never seen friend, aqilah,sila,khadijah,fatimah,faris,basheer,k4ai n his badminton fren, firos n his fren, my dk senior, ppl i dunno n hot guys!!kahkha..acterli..thy're not hot ahr..just cute.yeah..so we stayed until 6+..was teman-ing saf until the late timing ppl came..but yeah..couldn't wait any longer coz was so tired, so bid her farewell n left..reached simei n did the returning crap..yeah..amirah went home ferst to change n o to town laters..me n amsse missed a 38 bus..so we waited long fer the bus..buty yeah..palyed with the pens we got from NKF..hehe..yeah..

then reached home, tired n burned out..i dunno what i did at nifght..oh yeah..my famiy n i wautched HINGGA HUJUNG HAYAT, the movie..it was a letdown ahr..the book was soooooooo much nicer..yeay!
yea..i guess dats all lahr fer yesterdae..

wad abt todae..hmm..woke up early..didn't want to be late so asked dad to send me halfway, but he wanted to send me straight to skool, so i had 1 hr i skool doing nothing, but lazing ard..yeah..wad else..
then after that had mly listening compre..it was fine i guess..yeah..then got the pix from silang bicara for the report..yeah..then went home with jannah n faz..missed a double decker 31 bcoz of em.hehe..sorry guys..so took 10 single deck instead..yea..i was yper coz just had food in my stomach..but no one wanted o lyn me, coz everyone was so tired..the aircon was nice..yeah..n wad else..yeah, i didn't follow them for brunch, coz ahd to be home early to meet the tailor..yeah..so left them n went home, reached home n staright away had to chage, coz was late alredi..

took taxi..met my dad, took measurements for the tailor..yea..then we wanted to send my younger sis for the mendaki training thingy, but while searching for it, we called n they saeid it was cancelled..how IRRESPONSIBLE...haish~but whatever..afer that went to TAKA...shop,here n shop there..yea..then had my whole family's caricature done..hehe..sooo cute!!yeah..bought a lot of stuff ahr..found the souvenier for senior..yeah..its soo nice!!bought aunt jan;et birthday peresent n her birthday card..if i am not wrg today is her bdae!!HAPPY BDAE AUNT JANET!!miss ya soo much..

yeah..n wat else, went home, bathe n did smt befroe gg online..yeah..
haha..klah..in great detail ahr my explanation..khakha..

P.S: to the person sitting beside me on the right in class, i have a GOOD memory..muahahha..ryte..khakha..

klahr..off to dream world now..oh yeah..have to study fer chem SPA, bio formative, geog CA and e maths spring on circles!!!AAaargh!!am soo stess!!haha..but shall sleep n wake up late tomolo!!bwahahah..

FOCUS FARAHIN!!!!


Wednesday, August 25, 2004 / Wednesday, August 25, 2004
hehe..since i am happy today..i shall give everyone a happy entry!!whee~

aights..life was great today, i mean yesterday..haha..it has been such a long time since i had my malay oral..so yesterday whila waiting fro my turn..i played some children game with jannah!!
wakhakha..it was sooo fun..and everyone practiced their malay on each other and each of us were finding the malay terms for englsh names, we don't know..hehe..yeah..than what else..just 2 people before me..i had butterflys in my tummy..wAAAaaaah!!! i was so scared tau..what if my oral is the deciding factor whether i get A2 or B3..haha..but heck lahr..haha..

have been slacking these past few weeks..not producing enough good work to be able to pass tests..haish~ i was so depressed, the day i found out my bio, e maths amd a maths results.. it was terrible..i eman, i actually studied tau for both the biology and a maths test, studied so hard for it and what did i freaking get?? a freaking fail!!!AArgh!! so angry with myself..nehmind..there are the final exams for me to buck up and talk crap again..khakha.. have to be serious about the finals sia..need to pull my failing year results to at least scrape a pass..just hope that my conscience is convincing enough for me to study for all my exams..haish~

aights..ain't this colour bright??hehe..oh eyah..lets talk about yesterday back..i went home with kak hidayah..she mian use my hp only..dunno that is mine and she ahs to ask permission kaper??yeah..so,we found a wallet and reported it..yeah..service so damn slow sia..went home n parents didn't believe..i'm like whatever lahr..yeah..then got ready to go out for my sister's birthday night..haha..lame..went to parkway..bought her "birthday" books..showed my family the book of answers..wakhakha..so true ahr..but i shan't believe about the answers it gave me for my questions..hmph!lala~ yeah..then i ate ice cream!!it felt so nice eating the ice cream..my favourite flavour some more!!whee!!!yeah..then went shopping kat giant..haha..were acting like lunatics as usual..yeah..went home and watched army daze..it was ok i guess..but it felt as if i've seen it too many times..but wadehell..missed it though..yeah..

yeah..i guess dats all for nowlahr..shall be seow ryte now while waiting for dance..haish~another day till the weekeneds..where i have to study for geography, e maths n bio!!AAh!! how can they do these to me..teachers are taking advantage of the spring tests not included as a test every week..and "nurse teacher" some more..every little thing got test..make my dying spirit for tests..dead only..whateverlahr..

yeah..have to buy pressie for ppl's birthday who are coming up..don't feel like buying him anythinglahr..am broke..but yeah..still have to buy my darling friends presents..lala~oh yeah..got my billing yesterday..it was...$39++..yeah!!am sooo happy!!no need to pay so high this month..but you know what..i feel like this month's will be high..yeah..

goodbye everyone...try not to miss me..muahahahhahah


Monday, August 23, 2004 / Monday, August 23, 2004
just got home from buying my sis her bdae present.bought her a nice wallet and also a watch..oh yeah..found someone her wallet already..hehe..*hinthint* khakha..aights..just now at school, found out bio marks..i was drain of my tears just now...failed biology yet again..the tears came like nobody's business..cannot tahan sia...studied like hell and this is the results..FUCK ah.. i was bursting into tears just now..aqilah was so sweet...while i was crying, she hugged me..thx aqilah..needed that..yeah..

had a maths test just now..did not study fer it..i am sooo dead!! yeah..i was so stressed just now..thx to these ppl who helped me thru the test..saba(for your encouragement),nad(for your memorising teachings),amirah(for just being there), aqilah(for trying to help me with a maths), the smart n clever ppl at the back(grace,jira n jannah!!thx darlings)

but although with their encouragements and teachings..i still think i am going to fail..i never pass maths..and its gonna take a mircale, which i do niot have now..sheesh..

then went back home with amirah and faz.. i started bursting into tears after i found out that i failed 4 subjects and for history elective, i just passed..can't take my results sia..feel sooo down..stupid results..went to molly place and amy comforted me..thx for your hug too..n faz thx fer the lolly..lurve ya guys..then nurul ,saf,nad n elia came to molly place too..comforted me too..hehe..ended up smiling with all of them ard..hehe..thx!

took the 31 bus and they were making noise in the bus..wakhakhakha..
aights..that was fun..ate chocolate for myslef to feel better and enrgised for shopping with my big sis..hahax

amy,faz,saf n nad went to eat at swensen's, while me n sis went to eat at kfc where we makan n talk rubbish..khakha..met aien,amelia,hakimah and amalina there..yeah..

hmm..guess dats all lahr..oh wait, tomorrow there is bio remedial.. shall go..since i already sucked at it..okeis..then on wednesday, there's malay oral..haish~that day also got malay compo, which i am going to die doing..m y malay has gone from bad to worse..talking too much in english..FUCK ahr..yeah..then on saturday, i got malay listening in school, full school uniform and also er..i dunno wad lahr..oh yeah..i spent 20 bucks today..sheesh..shall have to fast tomorrow until the end of this week..haven't pay bill n haven't buy presents for big sis..and other ppl whose birthday i am buying presents for..lala~

oklahr..talk laters..see ya..


Wednesday, August 18, 2004 / Wednesday, August 18, 2004
haish~i think i am over-emotional in everything i do..but i dun really care lahr..whatever..khakha..well..after dunnno how many weeks or months or mebbe years..me, faz n amirah finally talked on the phone again..the feeling was great..yeah..missed them soo much..but yeah..everyone has their own life to lead..and to say the least, i see amirah everyday..n faz 3 times a week..but that's only seeing and not talking to our hearts content..yeah..they were tired, i could figure that out..

k..shan't talk about them no more..shall; talk about the bio test which i just took on monday..studied for it..but i don't think i will score..just got the feeling, if i seem to know how to do, n think that i will pass...i will never..that's the bad luck that has been with me all my life..its just proven itself again in my a maths paper..fish ahr..wanted to score badly fer that test.but wadevalahr..

then wad else..oh yeah..i dun have a life and i dun really think i wanna updat any more fer this month..coz i dun see anything happening to me..lala~

oh yeah, one more thing.. i feel like skipping dance today..hmm..shall i??lala~ see lahr my mood..


Friday, August 06, 2004 / Friday, August 06, 2004
i'm wondering..still..after i read meixia's blog..i feel soo incompetence to a person who is younger than me, yet is able to conjuct theories on life itself..while me as a supposedly older person, can't..i ponder on life's givings..are they there,so we won't be so hard on ourselves once life itself take all of them away?i dream about what might happen to me in a few years time..

i may be a great student who suddenly became exceptional during the o levels and got nito a respectable school,excelling in everything i seek out to do..or maybe

doing so badly,that they would have to kick me out, for me to find another school to teach me what they are able to get through my brain..this the cause of too many distractions in life..

but to think again..i do not have a life..and sometimes i feel lonely although i maybe surrounded by people..sometimes i feel like i am suffering within, but no one seems to notice it..i blame everyone but myself..but..i always look at the people around me and think..if i have a problem, that nobody knows..that means there are others around me also have unnoticed problems..and i maybe the person who can't see these problems..

i feel my friends don't trust me..i feel lost in this world where everyone trusts each other..sometimes, theses random emotions come to me and ruins my day..but there are a few friends who is always there to be concerned of me..some just don't care..some just let me be..but what is the best way to comfort me when i am ub this random emotions??talk to me or let me be..i don't believe that people would want to be alone in their darkest moments..they would want someone to be there for them to hear their woes..but i'm scared..if there is someone like that,would i be able to comfort her when she is sad?

i am not a great comforter..but sometimes i do try..real hard sometimes..but i guess it'll never work because i feel that i am not a good comforter nor a great person to talk to when you have problems or sad,bcoz i have a problem in reacting to peoples' problems..i'm scared that i wil react wrongly and give the wrong advice..i am scared..

my family thinks i am brave..but am i really??the times they have seen me being brave are only instances in my life..inside i am more scared than those who are around me..i feel threatened by the mere thought that i am weak..i don't want to be..nor do i intend to be..

i'm not even brave enough to stand up to my friends and tell them not to hurt me with their unkindly words anymore..maybe i am just used to this kind of hurt..since i made friends.. people call me names..they say the things to spite me, to make my heart hurt and leaves a deep scar in me..although some of the times, i don't really care bcoz i know they don't mean a thing..but when people i am not close to, says that to me, i feel..funny..

i feel different now..some of my thoughts are written..recorded forever in this blog..but when will this memory last?? it all has been a sudden outburst of thoughts after i am reminded that people are not talking much anymore..no one seems to care about the other person's feelings..i am guilty for that..sorry friends..sorry i have not been such a great friend..but i hope whatever i am to you, it will last...


/ Friday, August 06, 2004
aights...i cam across this entry in one my darling junior's blog and i though it really made sense..n i dun think i could ever say it my own words..but i sometimes feel like that too..thx meixia for putting them in werds!!!

"But anyway, I'm not here to moan about the prejudiced views of the general school population... I'm here to talk about our level. Sec Two's '04.


We are smack dab between two eras. The era of the good, experienced and dedicated teachers, and the era without them.


We even managed a glimpse of what life was like before loke took over, at least for last year with the sec fours and Ms Tng still around. Loke's taking the toll on or steps these days. And she's not even around. Hmm... maybe that's why we're slightly more cheerful these days. Wait till she comes back.


Not only do we not realise what these teachers mean to us until too late, we struggle to retain waht little we can remember of the legacy the left here. The little things that somehow contributed to the vibrance that is now slowly fading and filtering out the school.


They were all dedicated, passionate, and we all loved them even when we didn't know it. And most of us weren't even taught by Mr Connor [xept maybe drama peeps]! We all miss then now they're gone.

Haha. The Sec threes have seen the last of all the good 'uns [Mel Chan].


The Sec ones have no idea what they missed"


Wednesday, August 04, 2004 / Wednesday, August 04, 2004
boo!!!whee~ its been so long since i updated..so, i guess its gonna be a long entry..wakhakha...aights..lets start from last week..
on monday we had chemistry...yikes..the paper was hard..yeah..and then got results alredi ahr...hmm..did quite badly ahr..yeah..and the next day was physics..haha..can do lahr..got an average mark..whee~

then tuesday, had full-dress rehearsal..that was fun...playing with makeup..that dance was recorded..wakhakha...then on wednesday..was opnening nyte..woah..it felt nice..let's see who came..oh eah..nurul,masse,azzie,diane,afiqah,firos n khalaf.. haha.. nurul gave me red rose and then masse owed me red rose..but i got it alredilahr..ahakz..that day was oklahr..then on thursdy, my parents n sis came,got flowers from dem ahr,ahakz..yeah...then saw baya n khairul anwar..yeah..the crowd was the best dat day!!woohoo!! then on friday my darling frens came, amirah,faz n lotsa ppl..i guess..but got flowers from amy,faz n saf!!hehe..dat day was the most tiring..dunno why..oh yeah..on saturday...fulermak..best man..we bought canadian pizza..ate the food before our performance..yeah..it was gonna be the last ever performance..soo saddening... den..blabla...yeah..ended the whole production..pics updated so..yeah..

my photos link is gonna be up soon..so yeah..have fun going thru the pix..wakhakhakh...then cannot ingat lagiks lahr..then on monday i had history elective ngan ss...fuh~ ok ahr..bleh buat..bleh tahan..ahakz..then aper lagiks eh..cannot rememba ahr..then on tuesday ader a maths class test ngan history elective SAQ..fuh!

yeah..then on wednesday, had napfa..got silver ajer..soo sad tau..but nehmind lahr..yeah..then waited for amirah n charmaine n faz in the class..haha..somebody called out someones name n he waved back..khakha..she's gonna kill me man..lala~yeah..then went home with char,faz,amy n dory..wanted to go tm..but was pissed and alredi 6+..dad amybe home alredi..so did not..they met up with firos..khakha..

lala~its not a long entry after all ahr..wakhakha

oh yes!!on tuesdy..3/8 celebrated their birthday!!woohoo..gerek bebeh..but it didn't feel that excoting..but it was fun eating the chocolate cake!!whee!!some pix below..

myself

this is a picture of me during before on of the performances..khakha

me n jannah

khakha..lame sia..

cakes

3/8's birthday cake!!weehee!!

classmates

some of my classmates after the party was over..