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Wednesday, May 19, 2004 / Wednesday, May 19, 2004
yeah..hi again..just finished my english project..if u are wondering why i seem so sad..this is if u even cared or notice..wadeva..i was not really affected by the presentation..really i wasn't..i am just so sad with the sate of my life..i duno if my fren care..dun tink anyone does..no one makes an effort to make me cheer up..guess they all have given up hope..haish~ wadeva..can't standall this projects.i am soo sad..laughter fill this freaking comp lab..but..i am not..all my troubles coming togeda..
i'll just repeat whatever people around me wants me to say."yeah, i'm sadistic n sad..n irritating..yeah..i dun care about your feelings..i am such a bitch..hate me for all i care.." yeah..hope u are happy people..i dun really care..this few days, i feel sad n unhappy n i think ppl like me dat way..coz i dun disturb dem do i..yeah.. n i have no life at all..gotta leave..see you if you will still see me tomorrow..goodbye..taa
Friday, May 07, 2004 / Friday, May 07, 2004
heys..rights..a certain someone bugging me to update this blog of mine..i dun see the point..really i dun..coz it seems that no one wants to noe my freaking life n i dun want to..nehmind..okeis..so shall start on this new topic of mine..these past few days, it seems to me that a person i considered a FRIEND, always doesn't treat me like one..she cares nothing about how i feel..everyone has to undestand her..everything has to go her way..if not we're not considered to be her friends..
i know that i am a pain to all the people i know..but..shouldn't i be given at least the thought of the day..everyone loves me being the butt of their jokes...i dun really mind..really i dun..but do they know when is too far??when i am hurting inside n torturing myself by just letting the incident go n actinsg as if nothing happened..i dun know what my point in living if i'm not treated as a human being even among my SUPPOSEDLY close friends.. i do make mistakes..i do wrong people for the stupidest reasons..but somehow, today it seems to be a burden i have been carrying around all these years.. i feel that i am being used in everything i do..i am not respected as a person.. i m not known to have many friends..and the people i have for friends seem so SUPERFICIAL sometimes..
how am i suppose to believe the people around me when they say they know me and everyone else..but from their actions they don't know me one bit..i guess i am just not a good friend..i may be soo depressed sometimes..maybe that's the reason people stay clear of me..i am feeling down tonight..is dis how a person who puts on a smile everyday on the expense of her own feelings feels?i dun understand..
irritation comes to me once that person tells everyone else i am pissed at her when she didn't even confront me about the matter..issit so hard to say the 5 letter word..haiz~i dun understand the ppl ard me..am i wrong to question their friendship..i dun like doing that..but i still wonder whether we are still friends..i don't know..and i want to know..
wow~this entry is full of emotion..
-=my heart keeps telling me to be true to my feelings...but whenever i do that i lose someone close..but if i don't i'll lose more than one..i'll never win in this game called love=-
Wednesday, May 19, 2004 / Wednesday, May 19, 2004
yeah..hi again..just finished my english project..if u are wondering why i seem so sad..this is if u even cared or notice..wadeva..i was not really affected by the presentation..really i wasn't..i am just so sad with the sate of my life..i duno if my fren care..dun tink anyone does..no one makes an effort to make me cheer up..guess they all have given up hope..haish~ wadeva..can't standall this projects.i am soo sad..laughter fill this freaking comp lab..but..i am not..all my troubles coming togeda..
i'll just repeat whatever people around me wants me to say."yeah, i'm sadistic n sad..n irritating..yeah..i dun care about your feelings..i am such a bitch..hate me for all i care.." yeah..hope u are happy people..i dun really care..this few days, i feel sad n unhappy n i think ppl like me dat way..coz i dun disturb dem do i..yeah.. n i have no life at all..gotta leave..see you if you will still see me tomorrow..goodbye..taa
Friday, May 07, 2004 / Friday, May 07, 2004
heys..rights..a certain someone bugging me to update this blog of mine..i dun see the point..really i dun..coz it seems that no one wants to noe my freaking life n i dun want to..nehmind..okeis..so shall start on this new topic of mine..these past few days, it seems to me that a person i considered a FRIEND, always doesn't treat me like one..she cares nothing about how i feel..everyone has to undestand her..everything has to go her way..if not we're not considered to be her friends..
i know that i am a pain to all the people i know..but..shouldn't i be given at least the thought of the day..everyone loves me being the butt of their jokes...i dun really mind..really i dun..but do they know when is too far??when i am hurting inside n torturing myself by just letting the incident go n actinsg as if nothing happened..i dun know what my point in living if i'm not treated as a human being even among my SUPPOSEDLY close friends.. i do make mistakes..i do wrong people for the stupidest reasons..but somehow, today it seems to be a burden i have been carrying around all these years.. i feel that i am being used in everything i do..i am not respected as a person.. i m not known to have many friends..and the people i have for friends seem so SUPERFICIAL sometimes..
how am i suppose to believe the people around me when they say they know me and everyone else..but from their actions they don't know me one bit..i guess i am just not a good friend..i may be soo depressed sometimes..maybe that's the reason people stay clear of me..i am feeling down tonight..is dis how a person who puts on a smile everyday on the expense of her own feelings feels?i dun understand..
irritation comes to me once that person tells everyone else i am pissed at her when she didn't even confront me about the matter..issit so hard to say the 5 letter word..haiz~i dun understand the ppl ard me..am i wrong to question their friendship..i dun like doing that..but i still wonder whether we are still friends..i don't know..and i want to know..
wow~this entry is full of emotion..
-=my heart keeps telling me to be true to my feelings...but whenever i do that i lose someone close..but if i don't i'll lose more than one..i'll never win in this game called love=-
MY PROFILE
Its all about ME!
Hello my name is farahin!
i am not liable for the sappy and increasingly feminist content in this blog
i shall not I REPEAT i shall not be a cynic of love.
it just spoils all the fun out of falling in and out of love
I LOVE THIS!
What I really LOVE!
myself
dance
friends
heels
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shopping when i have the money
myself
WISHLIST!
my WISH upon a star!
get my driving license!! go on a trip with my friends! digital camera :))) dresses.dresses.dresses. go for CAMP! any kind will do! :) hang out with the jayceee people <33
go ice skating!!
visit the SCIENCE centre AND Camwhore!
SWIMMING! strawberry sundaeee pleasee! HEELS! :)
