Wedding Bells, too much?

I hate I hate I hate to say I am at the age that my friends are getting married and I am one of those who is single and no intention of getting hitch anytime soon! One of the tops on my news feed is the proposals & weddings of people of my age. No offense on all the lovey dovey couples and I am indeed happy for those who has found your true love, and you truly want to spend the rest of your life with. Congratulations! But me after being single for a while, my perspective of marriage is changing, very much.

Recently, I have always feel that the stable couples who are engaged and soon to be married are in-their-own-world. Of course if you have found someone who can give you stability in your life (assuming you are only mid-20s and you know what is stability and what you want in the next 50 years of your life). Yes this is exactly what I feel about marriage. It is a genormous decision to make and secure your life to someone FOREVER. Do you really know and can you really see what's life after 5, 10, 20 years? I am saying this because I strongly stand by the point that if you want to get married, divorce is NOT a choice at all.

Dating is probably a first 5% of a relationship between two person. It is the sweetest and the best times needless to say. Then on the 6th %, you decide to get married thinking you are already 99% certain that he/she is the one. Guess what, marriage is the beginning of your "relationship" - the long time one. And that is when you begin to know and understand the person you thought and seem to already know. But what may happen when the spouse turns 30, 40, 50 year old. Are you the same today as of ten years ago? Sometimes even yourself cannot believe how much you have changed over time, how to accept that of your partner.  

I have nothing against marriage especially I have an absolutely loving Mum & Dad who has been keeping theirs going strong for the past 30 years. They do truly inspire me that a happy marriage do exist. While there is always a but, keeping one in the century, you got to be one tough cookie and accepting things which may not be accepted to happen in a marriage 20 years ago.  The society, the convenience, the temptations. Everything you can ever think of to kill a marriage, it's a click away! Or it's there, it's there, it's definitely there. Today, I am more than happy to find someone I love with my heart and be convinced that that is all I need knowing someone who love & cares about me from far away. And until I find someone who I will trust and give my life to, I wish you a happy and blissful marriage! 

Afterall, it is a fairytale of every girl to put on that perfect wedding gown, someday.

What if we never met..

I thought I'd never love again
I thought my life was over, and..
I didn't wanna face or even see another day, baby
Suddenly from nowhere
Baby, you appeared
You dried my tears
You cared for me
Maybe your love for me
truly rescued me
It's because of you, I was able to
fall in love again
You gave me someone....

It's been a month, can you believe it?

I have been away from home, family & friends for a month now. It is too surreal to be true. But there are a few split-seconds moments of realization that I am in a complete new environment without know any single one here. Not too scary if I don't go into deeper thoughts about it though. But right now, I am starting to think! Okay, stop. 

To be completely honest, I am enjoying and embracing about 90% of my time here. First of all, most of my colleagues are amazing. They may not be the most productive at work but their attitude just made things so much easier. Of course there are a few black sheeps, irritating ones and weird ones. I would say, minimal (for now). Talking about people, I don't know if you can imagine those looks from the Africans when they have never seen you before, yes it is scary and unwelcoming. But once you "Jambo" them, they start smiling at you and "Jambo" back. What a fantastic ice breaker! Of course me being the foreigner, I have to do the ice breaking, right? 

The environment is the next big thing that makes things so easy here. Living in the nature, what can I say. Everytime I see groups of Zebras, Elephants, Waterbuck etc walking around the lodge, I will definitely stop and watch. And be amazed by what nature can do. It surely makes me appreciate life and nature so much more. Something I would never ever experience while living in a city, where everything is man-made, unreal? 

I am also thankful for a great roomie. Can't believe I am actually the lazy one here. It has been peaceful living with her. And trust me, it is good to have someone in the room during the quiet nights when you hear weird noises outside the room. And it gets so dark that you don't even wna get out of bed for a leak.

I received not the best news from my sister yesterday. My 3rd Uncle passed away yesterday morning. He had been battling with his health since he got a stoke a few years back. He was the ever peaceful and nice elder Uncle and we will always be at his place for gatherings with the extended family. I am sure we will not be same again without him. And again this tells us how fragile life can be. We come and we go. This is life. May he rest in peace.

Love,

Thoughts.

Guy meets girl. Hangs out, hold hands. Special feelings and emotions, sometimes we call it Love.
Decision made, let's live together (hoping a happily-ever-after fairytale)
The Ring, a promise, commit(ed).

After getting tied, does the emotions felt before, continues and still exist?
Or just the "commitment" to keep the marriage going.

What happens when years on, guy/girl meets someone else with this spark you call Love.
What happens when emotions overright the commitment?
What happens when the needs overright the promise?

Once decided.
Don't stray. There is no such thing as needs.

If needs is more than Love.
Stay single.

My thoughts. My views.

xoxo

KNOWLEDGE

IS 

POWER