I'm so screwed.
千万个"对不起"也不能挽回...
Sunday, December 18, 2011
I've always loved this song,
today, I will share my love with you.
Cry On My Shoulder
If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free
But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
today, I will share my love with you.
Cry On My Shoulder
If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free
But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
Monday, November 28, 2011
respect, gain it?
trust, gain it.
i was completely taken aback by what happened today.
yes, i may have made a mistake out of a moment of folly. well, so to say, i had my reasons for doing so and i was sober enough to make that decision.but when i returned to all these hearsay, instead of anything else, i felt so completely disappointed to what those girls are talking about. these are the ones i trusted and would thought they will be the last person to go around and talk behind my back. oh yes, now i recall, even a close girlfriend could talk bad about me behind my back.. why not on these people whom i don't talk to besides during work time. alright, that make sense now..
maybe i was too naive, and trusted these people too much. girls being girls, there's nothing that could shut away that bitch mind. i was crushed, i lost my trust in all of them, every single one. while i see zero need to clarify anything to them, i had to. nothing is more ugly.
this is definitely a lesson learnt, Sock.
trust, gain it.
i was completely taken aback by what happened today.
yes, i may have made a mistake out of a moment of folly. well, so to say, i had my reasons for doing so and i was sober enough to make that decision.but when i returned to all these hearsay, instead of anything else, i felt so completely disappointed to what those girls are talking about. these are the ones i trusted and would thought they will be the last person to go around and talk behind my back. oh yes, now i recall, even a close girlfriend could talk bad about me behind my back.. why not on these people whom i don't talk to besides during work time. alright, that make sense now..
maybe i was too naive, and trusted these people too much. girls being girls, there's nothing that could shut away that bitch mind. i was crushed, i lost my trust in all of them, every single one. while i see zero need to clarify anything to them, i had to. nothing is more ugly.
this is definitely a lesson learnt, Sock.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Thursday, November 03, 2011
When someone new walks into your life,
Never take the chance to let anyone slip away..
Never take the chance to let anyone slip away..
I met someone new, felt like yesterday we first spoke.
We became friends, almost instantly.
We became close friends, gradually.
We became best friends, so comfortably.
I lived a life of 23 years, but it took me a few months, and one person,
to find myself, to change myself.
I've learnt how to smile again
I've learnt how to take things easy
I've learnt how to be patient
I've learnt how to be truly happy
I've learnt how to love someone
I've learnt how to be loved by someone
I've learnt how to be myself
I can never thank you enough in my life
For your yesterday's smile
For your today's patience
For your tomorrow's time
For your forever love
If there is only one IF..
If there's a next life, I want to be your best friend again
With ♥,
Friday, October 28, 2011
Was it yesterday, you opened that door and spoke to me
And the door to your heart, to a beautiful friendship.
Was it yesterday, you brought me to the rooftop
And you listened, you teared, but you wiped away my tears.
Was it yesterday, you gave me your camera
And taught me to see through the lens, embrace a different world.
Was it yesterday, you shared a pint with me
And we talked, and talked the night away.
Was it yesterday, you gave me a pat on the back
And told me everything is going to be fine.
Was it yesterday, you walked a mile with me
And we laugh, we danced, and we enjoyed a little time together.
Was it yesterday, you drew a picture for me
And perfect it with the blue sky, green field and hoping me to be with you.
All that was yesterday,
the happiness that remains in yesterday.
With ♥,
And the door to your heart, to a beautiful friendship.
Was it yesterday, you brought me to the rooftop
And you listened, you teared, but you wiped away my tears.
Was it yesterday, you gave me your camera
And taught me to see through the lens, embrace a different world.
Was it yesterday, you shared a pint with me
And we talked, and talked the night away.
Was it yesterday, you gave me a pat on the back
And told me everything is going to be fine.
Was it yesterday, you walked a mile with me
And we laugh, we danced, and we enjoyed a little time together.
Was it yesterday, you drew a picture for me
And perfect it with the blue sky, green field and hoping me to be with you.
All that was yesterday,
the happiness that remains in yesterday.
With ♥,
Monday, October 24, 2011
Thursday, October 06, 2011
Saturday, September 17, 2011
(mid) September, already?
like ive said in the previous post, its been a long while since i wrote anything here. i cant believe i am doing only one post per month. plus that one post is probably a two-liner. lesser and lesser people blog nowadays. i rmb how blogging used to be such a big thing a few years ago. every friend has a blog, they write about everything. when you wna stalk someone, just read their blog! but now, people's moving onto social networking sites - facebook, twitter. whatever.
my blackberry finally died. barely 2 years, and not forgetting this is the second piece im using. already changed one after using it last than one year. smartphones may be smart, but their lifespan is really short. i also have friends who have been changing their blackberry/iPhone after awhile. so anyway, after my SIM card died while i was in Australia, i did not think about transferring any of my contacts from my blackberry to my new SIM card after i received one. so that fateful day when i placed my SIM card into the spare phone, poof! no contacts at all. and the only 2 numbers i could recall is my eldest and second brothers. while posting on my facebook, some friends texted me, some called me. and during this course, you will know who are the people who wants you to have their number, and who are the ones you need to ask for. it feels like finding your friends all over again! of course, losing the phone is also training me to be less dependant on a smartphone. people say they probably cannot live without their blackberry/iPhone/iPad. but if they never try, they'll never know. ever since, ive begin to look at the things around me, the people around me, and the happenings around me. it gives (force) me the chance to observe whats happening around me rather than just facebook/twittering my time away.
after Sham left for brisbane, it is too obvious that i am spending lesser time outside during weekends. somehow, i dont go out as much anymore. indeed, i am very thankful for Sham during the time before he left for brissy. almost every weekend, be it i am morning or afternoon, he will find time to ask me out and bring everyone together. we go for drinking, dancing, dinner, movies, sometimes just hang at his crib. he is always the one who brings us together, so thankful esp for that difficult six months. ever since i return from aussie, i do have a little emptiness inside me sometimes. something seem to be missing, from so much happenings in the first six months of the year. sure i miss this friend, and his time and commitment to always bring the other boys and myself together. cant wait for him to come back for a short break in December :)
too soon? next vacation is in 2 weeks time. finally to the property i have been wanting to visit since the beginning. and for the first time, im booking a trip to a FS property for my birthday. its just another treat for myself, and being away from home and comfort. fortunately or unfortunately, this time is gna be just myself. 6 days 5 nights.. too long or too short? we always say we get so caught up with work everyday that we are even losing time to spend with ourselves. but why am i somehow worried that these 6 days is gna be long and draggy. but nevertheless, i am still looking forward to spending some time with myself, even if its long and draggy and nothing to do. i asked a friend what i should do, and she told me - to do something you have always wanted to but didnt have time to. obviously also looking forward to sunbathe by the beach, dip in the private pool, enjoy a cuppa in the villa. really wished you can come with me on this vacation. but seems like not. what to do?
yep, my want-to type has ended. suddenly. the moment i hear my mum start screaming.
still, thankful for that awesome friend - You :)
my blackberry finally died. barely 2 years, and not forgetting this is the second piece im using. already changed one after using it last than one year. smartphones may be smart, but their lifespan is really short. i also have friends who have been changing their blackberry/iPhone after awhile. so anyway, after my SIM card died while i was in Australia, i did not think about transferring any of my contacts from my blackberry to my new SIM card after i received one. so that fateful day when i placed my SIM card into the spare phone, poof! no contacts at all. and the only 2 numbers i could recall is my eldest and second brothers. while posting on my facebook, some friends texted me, some called me. and during this course, you will know who are the people who wants you to have their number, and who are the ones you need to ask for. it feels like finding your friends all over again! of course, losing the phone is also training me to be less dependant on a smartphone. people say they probably cannot live without their blackberry/iPhone/iPad. but if they never try, they'll never know. ever since, ive begin to look at the things around me, the people around me, and the happenings around me. it gives (force) me the chance to observe whats happening around me rather than just facebook/twittering my time away.
after Sham left for brisbane, it is too obvious that i am spending lesser time outside during weekends. somehow, i dont go out as much anymore. indeed, i am very thankful for Sham during the time before he left for brissy. almost every weekend, be it i am morning or afternoon, he will find time to ask me out and bring everyone together. we go for drinking, dancing, dinner, movies, sometimes just hang at his crib. he is always the one who brings us together, so thankful esp for that difficult six months. ever since i return from aussie, i do have a little emptiness inside me sometimes. something seem to be missing, from so much happenings in the first six months of the year. sure i miss this friend, and his time and commitment to always bring the other boys and myself together. cant wait for him to come back for a short break in December :)
too soon? next vacation is in 2 weeks time. finally to the property i have been wanting to visit since the beginning. and for the first time, im booking a trip to a FS property for my birthday. its just another treat for myself, and being away from home and comfort. fortunately or unfortunately, this time is gna be just myself. 6 days 5 nights.. too long or too short? we always say we get so caught up with work everyday that we are even losing time to spend with ourselves. but why am i somehow worried that these 6 days is gna be long and draggy. but nevertheless, i am still looking forward to spending some time with myself, even if its long and draggy and nothing to do. i asked a friend what i should do, and she told me - to do something you have always wanted to but didnt have time to. obviously also looking forward to sunbathe by the beach, dip in the private pool, enjoy a cuppa in the villa. really wished you can come with me on this vacation. but seems like not. what to do?
yep, my want-to type has ended. suddenly. the moment i hear my mum start screaming.
still, thankful for that awesome friend - You :)
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Sunday, August 07, 2011
Sky is blue-r on the other side.
My 3rd trip this year. If not for too many AL rolled over from 2010, I would not have been travelling non-stop, and getting addicted to it. Slotted leave in July for you-know-who. But of course by this time, I had to be planning a trip without him already. I was torn between a family trip to Taiwan, or Australia to/with Sham. I chose the latter because the family couldn't confirm the trip with me. So it was to down under to look for already-there-ten-days-before-me Sham & Jack. A nine days trip to Brisbane, and I slotted in 2 nights at FSH Sydney - thanks to Scott for the nights!
One week in Brisbane, it was more like a student life since I crashed at Sham & Jack's new apartment. Was running around with the boys getting new furniture and grocery daily. It was kind of interesting to be "living" in the suburb. Nothing much to do everyday, nothing much to think everyday. Along the Brisbane river I found a little corner which eventually became my favourite spot. I really liked the days I went out on walks alone, especially the chilly weather made it more fun and relaxing.
3 days 2 night in Sydney. To be exact I only had 48 hours to explore the city. Besides the hiccup at the airport which I missed my flight from Brisbane to Sydney, everything else was AMAZING. Of course, the stay at Four Seasons was marvelous! I felt so much like home and the people are just great. Not to mention, I met Scott in the hotel after almost 3 years. Great time catching up over coffee. Unfortunately it was raining when I arrived at the city and had a hard time going around. And I was also not feeling too well - already down with cold, headache and toothache.. That didn't really spoil my plans (it almost!) and I went to Sydney Opera House, Manly Wharf, shopping at George St onwards and some sightseeing. Time at Sydney was just splendid! Totally loved the place :)
Never would I think of, one day I would visit Australia. Since young, I wasn't too interested in the country but today I even ventured around on my own. It was great fun and I would want to be back there again..
Missing Aussie and missing my bro already..
See you in December bro.
My 3rd trip this year. If not for too many AL rolled over from 2010, I would not have been travelling non-stop, and getting addicted to it. Slotted leave in July for you-know-who. But of course by this time, I had to be planning a trip without him already. I was torn between a family trip to Taiwan, or Australia to/with Sham. I chose the latter because the family couldn't confirm the trip with me. So it was to down under to look for already-there-ten-days-before-me Sham & Jack. A nine days trip to Brisbane, and I slotted in 2 nights at FSH Sydney - thanks to Scott for the nights!
One week in Brisbane, it was more like a student life since I crashed at Sham & Jack's new apartment. Was running around with the boys getting new furniture and grocery daily. It was kind of interesting to be "living" in the suburb. Nothing much to do everyday, nothing much to think everyday. Along the Brisbane river I found a little corner which eventually became my favourite spot. I really liked the days I went out on walks alone, especially the chilly weather made it more fun and relaxing.
3 days 2 night in Sydney. To be exact I only had 48 hours to explore the city. Besides the hiccup at the airport which I missed my flight from Brisbane to Sydney, everything else was AMAZING. Of course, the stay at Four Seasons was marvelous! I felt so much like home and the people are just great. Not to mention, I met Scott in the hotel after almost 3 years. Great time catching up over coffee. Unfortunately it was raining when I arrived at the city and had a hard time going around. And I was also not feeling too well - already down with cold, headache and toothache.. That didn't really spoil my plans (it almost!) and I went to Sydney Opera House, Manly Wharf, shopping at George St onwards and some sightseeing. Time at Sydney was just splendid! Totally loved the place :)
Never would I think of, one day I would visit Australia. Since young, I wasn't too interested in the country but today I even ventured around on my own. It was great fun and I would want to be back there again..
Missing Aussie and missing my bro already..
See you in December bro.
Friday, July 15, 2011
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Can't believe how it has been a month since my last photo-post. And today I'm typing this from my little and almost disfunctioning blackberry. It's probably quite hard to type a usual length which I would on my laptop so I'm pretty much going to summarize how my life has been. I've been terribly tired out by work. I guess its just how it has almost no more excitement everyday. A little bit left to keep me going but I don't know how long I'm still gna last. Besides, I've been hanging out a lot more with my friends for the past few months. Esp the brothers- Sham and the rest. Its almost every weekend alternating with ASKY. I was also drinking and partying a lot for the past few months and today I do feel very broke and have been cutting my spendings big time! Very much saving up for my Aussie trip next month, which I can't wait!! Been very long since I've been to a cold country. Air tickets checked, winter clothes checked, SYD accom checked, BNE accom still unsure! My bros need to hurry settle a place soon or else I'm gna be homeless for the first 7 nights! Hahaha. Yeah totally can't wait for the trip and now my fingers are numbing and I'm falling asleep. Til then, and probably gna be after my trip.
Friday, April 08, 2011
nine days!
this seemed to be the longest break ive taken from work so far. working too hard last year result in most number of leaves rolled over to this year. what to do when i have to "clear" my outstanding days by first week of april! hahaha it was an awesome break, really had a good time away from work. let's summarize!
31 mar. thursday.
was back to hotel for a training for an hour. afterwhich i just hang around the hotel (FOR 3 FREAKING HOURS) until Sham arrives and we drove to Dempsey Hill for tea at PS Cafe. awesome teatime with Sham :) planned to go sunset grill for dinner but it had to start raining so we went for a mini roadtrip and finally reach thomson plaza and settled for dinner at Peach Garden. Joanna & Sebastian joined for dinner. the next drive brought us, with Jon, to a new hunt at Punggol and we all had some emo-talks by the river. Sham knows me so well..
1 - 4 apr.
Chiang Mai trip with Kim! will do a detailed entry about this but i have to say this is the best FS vacation so far :)
5 apr. tuesday.
lunch with Mummy & Dad at Crystal Jade. headed to hotel for a short while and went for a quick pint with bff @ our usual. woah, we've a usual now! afterwhich went for starbucks with Azmi at our usual! hahahaha :D
6 apr. wednesday.
Mummy off again so i brought her to Dempsey's PS Cafe for afternoon tea. (again for me!) she loved that place so much la! tai-tai lifestyle :) went to town to meet Vivian & Kai for dinner at Burger Bench & Bar. second wildrocket outlet and i have to say the burgers there are GOOD! esp the beef burgers. Jan joined us at Orchard Centrals Cold Rock and we had a great time catching up girls-talk! :D
7 apr. thursday.
drove to shaw to meet Matthew for tea at Canele. this brother ah, supposed to meet at Au Jardin at botanic gardens last minute need to attend meeting at shaw and moved to meeting at Canele. nevertheless, latte + macha cake combi is the best love. thanks Matt! dropped him off at AJ for dinner shift and off i go to NUS! crashed the night at sis's hall. it was awesome although my laptop could not connect to the internet at PGP. so much fun crashing hall la! and thanks to bff, as usual, to talk to me, and i half listen to sister's presentation.
8 apr. friday.
woke up late with sis and we rushed to her project meeting in school. skipped bfast cos we were late already. haha! technically she's late la. anyhow had cheap school food for lunch at noon and afterwhich i went back to hotel to mentally prep my work for tomorrow. and i have to know that there's be no boss tmr and i will be the ONLY manager around. good luck to me please. and that reminds i have to sleep now!
and after this 9 days, it's gna be ALL THE WAY for next 3 months.
fingers & toes crossed.
i will be just fine! :)
this seemed to be the longest break ive taken from work so far. working too hard last year result in most number of leaves rolled over to this year. what to do when i have to "clear" my outstanding days by first week of april! hahaha it was an awesome break, really had a good time away from work. let's summarize!
31 mar. thursday.
was back to hotel for a training for an hour. afterwhich i just hang around the hotel (FOR 3 FREAKING HOURS) until Sham arrives and we drove to Dempsey Hill for tea at PS Cafe. awesome teatime with Sham :) planned to go sunset grill for dinner but it had to start raining so we went for a mini roadtrip and finally reach thomson plaza and settled for dinner at Peach Garden. Joanna & Sebastian joined for dinner. the next drive brought us, with Jon, to a new hunt at Punggol and we all had some emo-talks by the river. Sham knows me so well..
1 - 4 apr.
Chiang Mai trip with Kim! will do a detailed entry about this but i have to say this is the best FS vacation so far :)
5 apr. tuesday.
lunch with Mummy & Dad at Crystal Jade. headed to hotel for a short while and went for a quick pint with bff @ our usual. woah, we've a usual now! afterwhich went for starbucks with Azmi at our usual! hahahaha :D
6 apr. wednesday.
Mummy off again so i brought her to Dempsey's PS Cafe for afternoon tea. (again for me!) she loved that place so much la! tai-tai lifestyle :) went to town to meet Vivian & Kai for dinner at Burger Bench & Bar. second wildrocket outlet and i have to say the burgers there are GOOD! esp the beef burgers. Jan joined us at Orchard Centrals Cold Rock and we had a great time catching up girls-talk! :D
7 apr. thursday.
drove to shaw to meet Matthew for tea at Canele. this brother ah, supposed to meet at Au Jardin at botanic gardens last minute need to attend meeting at shaw and moved to meeting at Canele. nevertheless, latte + macha cake combi is the best love. thanks Matt! dropped him off at AJ for dinner shift and off i go to NUS! crashed the night at sis's hall. it was awesome although my laptop could not connect to the internet at PGP. so much fun crashing hall la! and thanks to bff, as usual, to talk to me, and i half listen to sister's presentation.
8 apr. friday.
woke up late with sis and we rushed to her project meeting in school. skipped bfast cos we were late already. haha! technically she's late la. anyhow had cheap school food for lunch at noon and afterwhich i went back to hotel to mentally prep my work for tomorrow. and i have to know that there's be no boss tmr and i will be the ONLY manager around. good luck to me please. and that reminds i have to sleep now!
and after this 9 days, it's gna be ALL THE WAY for next 3 months.
fingers & toes crossed.
i will be just fine! :)
Tuesday, April 05, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
You'll stand by me, I know.
I'll Stand By You
Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'Cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothin' you confess, could make me love you less
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
So, if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'Cause even if you're wrong
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
And when, when the night falls on you, baby
You're feelin' all alone
You won't be on your own
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Yeah
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
No, no, no, no, no
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
I ♥ you, too!
I'll Stand By You
Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'Cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothin' you confess, could make me love you less
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
So, if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'Cause even if you're wrong
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
And when, when the night falls on you, baby
You're feelin' all alone
You won't be on your own
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Yeah
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
No, no, no, no, no
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
I ♥ you, too!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
living with too much negativities these days.
while one part of me is still struggling to recover, other part comes crumbling down.
i can hardly smile, real smile.
i can feel that it's so hard to remain happy in a day.
easy on calculations, roughly on, i'm happy for about 2 out of 24 hours in a day.
im giving up, on myself. im giving up to find ways to make myself happy.
im giving up on hoping whatever i have right now, will turn out positive and right.
i have no more energy but to move on from here. i want something new.
no longer can work with what i have now and be happy.
everyday in my mind are just negative thoughts.
i don't even know what's/who's keeping me going so far.
yes, i don't deny the handful of people pushing me on.
but whenever i feel they let go for a moment, i feel worst. worst than i am doing this alone.
harsh truth, tough life.
start my energy again, in somewhere new.
i miss you so much. too much.
everyday i still hope we could start all over again.
ilu.
while one part of me is still struggling to recover, other part comes crumbling down.
i can hardly smile, real smile.
i can feel that it's so hard to remain happy in a day.
easy on calculations, roughly on, i'm happy for about 2 out of 24 hours in a day.
im giving up, on myself. im giving up to find ways to make myself happy.
im giving up on hoping whatever i have right now, will turn out positive and right.
i have no more energy but to move on from here. i want something new.
no longer can work with what i have now and be happy.
everyday in my mind are just negative thoughts.
i don't even know what's/who's keeping me going so far.
yes, i don't deny the handful of people pushing me on.
but whenever i feel they let go for a moment, i feel worst. worst than i am doing this alone.
harsh truth, tough life.
start my energy again, in somewhere new.
i miss you so much. too much.
everyday i still hope we could start all over again.
ilu.
Monday, March 14, 2011
the first 3 months of the year always fly by.
it's already mid-march and still feels like yesterday 2011 started.
yes, much have happened many things have changed.
and i've learnt to accept more than i expect.
when the it-will-happen, sooner or later.
chiangmai trip finally confirmed. bringing kimmy with me this time.
nope, not that many others find themselves "priviledged" for a free stay at Four Seasons.
and from there i will bring people who will appreciate the most.
but with the most expensive tix i will ever pay for a budget airline.
so next trip probably gna be in July. how about Europe, seriously, been thinking hard.
it just sucks to know how people don't appreciate as much as you have done.
i think i naturally care for people i like. and i can do alot for them.
and yes, that includes cooking a meal despite myself being sick and travels all the way and bring food for you.
but, sorry, no appreciation.
it just back fires.
well, im not the prettiest/ most attractive girl around.
but i have a heart and feels.
so, no thank you. and next please.
i rather lose a friend like this, then hold on to nothing.
japan hit by earthquake & tsunami two days ago.
usually i just accept the fact of natural disasters.
but this time a little bit more.
particularly a close friend's family in tokyo, and a colleague who called from tokyo telling me she's "still in one piece"
it was a tear-in-the-eye moment and my heart ached for a sec.
you have to come back in one piece, no matter who you are.
my heart goes out to all affected.
thanks Matt for your text just now.
how easily a good night message can make my day.
thanks Sham for your bar chor mee last night.
you know me so well, with no need to ask me you buy food for me.
thanks Kokwei for a I MISS YOU.
tells me you still remembers me.
thanks Elfie for everyday.
everyday, for don't know how days already.
need to appreciate everyone more.
and i love you sister, always.
it's already mid-march and still feels like yesterday 2011 started.
yes, much have happened many things have changed.
and i've learnt to accept more than i expect.
when the it-will-happen, sooner or later.
chiangmai trip finally confirmed. bringing kimmy with me this time.
nope, not that many others find themselves "priviledged" for a free stay at Four Seasons.
and from there i will bring people who will appreciate the most.
but with the most expensive tix i will ever pay for a budget airline.
so next trip probably gna be in July. how about Europe, seriously, been thinking hard.
it just sucks to know how people don't appreciate as much as you have done.
i think i naturally care for people i like. and i can do alot for them.
and yes, that includes cooking a meal despite myself being sick and travels all the way and bring food for you.
but, sorry, no appreciation.
it just back fires.
well, im not the prettiest/ most attractive girl around.
but i have a heart and feels.
so, no thank you. and next please.
i rather lose a friend like this, then hold on to nothing.
japan hit by earthquake & tsunami two days ago.
usually i just accept the fact of natural disasters.
but this time a little bit more.
particularly a close friend's family in tokyo, and a colleague who called from tokyo telling me she's "still in one piece"
it was a tear-in-the-eye moment and my heart ached for a sec.
you have to come back in one piece, no matter who you are.
my heart goes out to all affected.
thanks Matt for your text just now.
how easily a good night message can make my day.
thanks Sham for your bar chor mee last night.
you know me so well, with no need to ask me you buy food for me.
thanks Kokwei for a I MISS YOU.
tells me you still remembers me.
thanks Elfie for everyday.
everyday, for don't know how days already.
need to appreciate everyone more.
and i love you sister, always.
Monday, February 28, 2011
healing, or not?
am i not trying hard enough, or is it something which will be there no matter how hard i try? yesterday was another hard knock right into my face. i didn't know i wld still be so affected after so long. and it came two shots in one day, on the day i least expects it. on once papa was there, and the other not. i literally felt the strings are entangling themselves right in my heart. it was such a terrible moment. was so much affected right til the end of the day. i realized how lost i became when i lost the support. i felt that i'd fallen right into the bottom of the pit, as well as what is happening to me these days are unreal. and at the end of the road, i'm still alone and i have to get thru this, alone.
confused, and scared.
i really don't wna think so much anymore.
am i wrong?
am i not trying hard enough, or is it something which will be there no matter how hard i try? yesterday was another hard knock right into my face. i didn't know i wld still be so affected after so long. and it came two shots in one day, on the day i least expects it. on once papa was there, and the other not. i literally felt the strings are entangling themselves right in my heart. it was such a terrible moment. was so much affected right til the end of the day. i realized how lost i became when i lost the support. i felt that i'd fallen right into the bottom of the pit, as well as what is happening to me these days are unreal. and at the end of the road, i'm still alone and i have to get thru this, alone.
confused, and scared.
i really don't wna think so much anymore.
am i wrong?
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Bangkok - Checked.
the whole world have been to bangkok, except me? the Thailand trip in Feb moved from Koh Samui to an impulsive air ticket booked with Singapore Airlines to Bangkok. and welcome to the concrete city. flew in on Friday, with SIA so overrated. sorry the flight totally disappointed me. but coincidently, Mr Sim & wifey on the same flight! so this bangkok trip has no itinerary planned. but thanks to Trin, getting from airport to the hotel by sky train was so effortless. it's a pity that Trin was away to Krabi the same weekend for work, and only managed to be back on Monday. so thru' the weekend, Lyndel & I settled much on our shoppings at Chatukchat Weekend Market, was dead by the evening, and never felt the feet so sore in my life. and with two consecutive days, it was too much!! Monday & Tuesday was then left to do more touristy stuff, when Trin was back in town and came by to meet us. took a trip to Four Seasons Hotel Bangkok, and Trin arranged a site inspection in the hotel and the rooms! isn't that really thoughtful! sidenote: he is not longer working in FS BKK, but used his "contacts"! how honoured! then finally an awesome Thai food dinner and off the a roof top bar, Red Sky @ Grand Centura. beautiful city view from the top! last day was most touristy, with Chao Phraya River cruise + tuk tuk tour going along the old town of bangkok. how i wish i had the time and the camera at the old town and the temples! Wat Arun being my favourite. i was in awe when i saw the details on the exterior. last min back in Siam. and had the best, i mean BEST noodles soup ever @ only 30baht! thats equivalent to $1.20! and their supermarkets has this great salad bar that you can get the freshest salad off the shelf! we shld so totally have such healthy eating in Singapore. there is no, i mean NO obese people in bangkok. i swear we only saw one. hehehehe.
the world is round.
everytime i have this little reunion with my friends from other parts of the world, i have this amazing feeling in my heart. be it in Singapore, or in other country. it has been 2 years since i last saw Trin. and it just felt like yesterday we were all on the little island of Kuda Huraa as an intern. it was so great to see him again, and also made me miss the other interns whom we got to know during our internship at the Maldives. Cecilia, TJ, Josef, Sandra where in the world are you guys now!
with love,
Sock
the whole world have been to bangkok, except me? the Thailand trip in Feb moved from Koh Samui to an impulsive air ticket booked with Singapore Airlines to Bangkok. and welcome to the concrete city. flew in on Friday, with SIA so overrated. sorry the flight totally disappointed me. but coincidently, Mr Sim & wifey on the same flight! so this bangkok trip has no itinerary planned. but thanks to Trin, getting from airport to the hotel by sky train was so effortless. it's a pity that Trin was away to Krabi the same weekend for work, and only managed to be back on Monday. so thru' the weekend, Lyndel & I settled much on our shoppings at Chatukchat Weekend Market, was dead by the evening, and never felt the feet so sore in my life. and with two consecutive days, it was too much!! Monday & Tuesday was then left to do more touristy stuff, when Trin was back in town and came by to meet us. took a trip to Four Seasons Hotel Bangkok, and Trin arranged a site inspection in the hotel and the rooms! isn't that really thoughtful! sidenote: he is not longer working in FS BKK, but used his "contacts"! how honoured! then finally an awesome Thai food dinner and off the a roof top bar, Red Sky @ Grand Centura. beautiful city view from the top! last day was most touristy, with Chao Phraya River cruise + tuk tuk tour going along the old town of bangkok. how i wish i had the time and the camera at the old town and the temples! Wat Arun being my favourite. i was in awe when i saw the details on the exterior. last min back in Siam. and had the best, i mean BEST noodles soup ever @ only 30baht! thats equivalent to $1.20! and their supermarkets has this great salad bar that you can get the freshest salad off the shelf! we shld so totally have such healthy eating in Singapore. there is no, i mean NO obese people in bangkok. i swear we only saw one. hehehehe.
the world is round.
everytime i have this little reunion with my friends from other parts of the world, i have this amazing feeling in my heart. be it in Singapore, or in other country. it has been 2 years since i last saw Trin. and it just felt like yesterday we were all on the little island of Kuda Huraa as an intern. it was so great to see him again, and also made me miss the other interns whom we got to know during our internship at the Maldives. Cecilia, TJ, Josef, Sandra where in the world are you guys now!
with love,Sock
Saturday, February 12, 2011
never too late to know best friends.
a last min meeting which i have to attend on thursday killed my plan to go Chinatown with lyndel to change our currency. and might as well, i stayed on longer to finish up my piling work which i kinda been procrastinating to do. and here goes my epic weekend which my life went upside down.
thurs, 5 - 8pm, clearing of backlog and finishing as much paperwork
thurs, 8 - 10pm, dinner @ Modesto's with Daphne. pizza + pasta +wine = awesome :)
thurs, 10 - 11.30pm, back to hotel as promised Wendy and we went home together
fri, 1am - 12.30pm, snooze @ home
fri, 2 - 5.30pm, lunch + Black Swan with Matt @ Tampines
fri, 7 - 9.30pm, snooze @ home
fri, 11pm - 2am, ktv @ Woodlands Party World with Daphne, Wendy, Tim, Tom & Terry
sat, 2 - 3am, walked Wendy home with the rest
sat, 3 - 5am, back to hotel to accompany papa midnight shift
sat, 5 - 7am, breakfast @ forum mac with papa
sat, 8am - 3.30pm, snooze @ home
sat, 6pm onwards, sjab reunion dinner @ Vian's with Kok Wei, Huey Yen, Adrian, Vivian, Stella, Jasmine, Janice, Kaiyi, Shi Yun, Kevin, Kelvin
epic, yeah?
who says new friend cannot be best friend. i met an amazing person who played such an important role in my life the past 2 weeks, being there for me, and most importantly giving me the right support when i almost collapse during my weakest moment. i know i wouldn't be able to pull thru', and still pulling thru' without his presence and i am just so thankful. thank you papa :)
a last min meeting which i have to attend on thursday killed my plan to go Chinatown with lyndel to change our currency. and might as well, i stayed on longer to finish up my piling work which i kinda been procrastinating to do. and here goes my epic weekend which my life went upside down.
thurs, 5 - 8pm, clearing of backlog and finishing as much paperwork
thurs, 8 - 10pm, dinner @ Modesto's with Daphne. pizza + pasta +wine = awesome :)
thurs, 10 - 11.30pm, back to hotel as promised Wendy and we went home together
fri, 1am - 12.30pm, snooze @ home
fri, 2 - 5.30pm, lunch + Black Swan with Matt @ Tampines
fri, 7 - 9.30pm, snooze @ home
fri, 11pm - 2am, ktv @ Woodlands Party World with Daphne, Wendy, Tim, Tom & Terry
sat, 2 - 3am, walked Wendy home with the rest
sat, 3 - 5am, back to hotel to accompany papa midnight shift
sat, 5 - 7am, breakfast @ forum mac with papa
sat, 8am - 3.30pm, snooze @ home
sat, 6pm onwards, sjab reunion dinner @ Vian's with Kok Wei, Huey Yen, Adrian, Vivian, Stella, Jasmine, Janice, Kaiyi, Shi Yun, Kevin, Kelvin
epic, yeah?
who says new friend cannot be best friend. i met an amazing person who played such an important role in my life the past 2 weeks, being there for me, and most importantly giving me the right support when i almost collapse during my weakest moment. i know i wouldn't be able to pull thru', and still pulling thru' without his presence and i am just so thankful. thank you papa :)
Wednesday, February 09, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
why do we always neglect people who truly deserves our care?
this always happens. but many times we don't see it. and i admit, myself too. ever since, i've started thinking a lot about the people around me. my friends, my family, my colleagues, everyone. i realize there are so many people around me, which i haven't shown enough care and concern over the past few months. i was spending too much time, and too focus on just one thing, one person. it's not that i regret spending my time that way, it's just slapping back onto my face that i could have managed things better. some friends never leaves your comfort zone. you may not seen them for a long time, but you know, they are always just a phonecall away. and i am very lucky that over the years, i have many of such lovely people around me. i know they are always there.
i remember one saturday night i was very down, emo at home. it was late, say 11pm? i called kokwei, he picked up and met me in the next 20 minutes. he called hueyyen and she came. they stayed up with me until 2am, doing nothing. because they just know i needed somebody to be with me. and they were there. i remember one week night, i texted sham telling him about the No. he replied telling me everything is gonna be alright. he called me the next morning, and arranged for a dinner on that very weekend. and they kept me company 2 days straight, doing nothing. because they just know i needed somebody to be with me. i have learnt to keep as much emotions within myself as possible. i know the people around me are tired of listening, and i didn't want them to feel upset for my anymore. i tried to suppress my feelings. recently.
other than that. i won't deny that i always try to keep in touch with everyone as much as i can. being a libra myself, i try to keep my life a balance. the past few months was probably too much to take, too much to balance. and i know i also have a long way to go. it's not the end yet, and i never want to be. but it's also about time to do/have something new in my life.
i can't be thankful enough for these people around me. and i am so glad they have always been. there are just too many people i could have given more care and time for. and i will try again.
this always happens. but many times we don't see it. and i admit, myself too. ever since, i've started thinking a lot about the people around me. my friends, my family, my colleagues, everyone. i realize there are so many people around me, which i haven't shown enough care and concern over the past few months. i was spending too much time, and too focus on just one thing, one person. it's not that i regret spending my time that way, it's just slapping back onto my face that i could have managed things better. some friends never leaves your comfort zone. you may not seen them for a long time, but you know, they are always just a phonecall away. and i am very lucky that over the years, i have many of such lovely people around me. i know they are always there.
i remember one saturday night i was very down, emo at home. it was late, say 11pm? i called kokwei, he picked up and met me in the next 20 minutes. he called hueyyen and she came. they stayed up with me until 2am, doing nothing. because they just know i needed somebody to be with me. and they were there. i remember one week night, i texted sham telling him about the No. he replied telling me everything is gonna be alright. he called me the next morning, and arranged for a dinner on that very weekend. and they kept me company 2 days straight, doing nothing. because they just know i needed somebody to be with me. i have learnt to keep as much emotions within myself as possible. i know the people around me are tired of listening, and i didn't want them to feel upset for my anymore. i tried to suppress my feelings. recently.
other than that. i won't deny that i always try to keep in touch with everyone as much as i can. being a libra myself, i try to keep my life a balance. the past few months was probably too much to take, too much to balance. and i know i also have a long way to go. it's not the end yet, and i never want to be. but it's also about time to do/have something new in my life.
i can't be thankful enough for these people around me. and i am so glad they have always been. there are just too many people i could have given more care and time for. and i will try again.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Thursday, January 06, 2011
A month over since I last blogged. A month over since I last continued my nonsense and waste my time away with you. It's 2011 but there's nothing new in my life. Same job, same friends, same habit, same lifestyle. Everything set me thinking, what is next in my life. Come April will be 2nd year with the company. Is that the end or only the beginning. Honestly I do not have any plans in mind what to do. Everytime the people around me only ask the same things. And I only give them the same reply. But did I even realize, I'm another day nearer to April, 6th.
I think I finally had enough with the ex-lover. It's been too long, I've been too sad. It felt forever, never realize how every weekend just go by, and soon later, we're into 2011, and I'm unhappy, still. Ever since I have him in my life, weekend has been something I look forward to. And every weekend later, we still meet our ends. And what am I to do next. I clear enough know what to do, but the courage never seem to come.. Until when I finally feel I'm at my bottom once again.
When the world come crashing, who are the ones standing by me..
I so need the vacation, come February.
And I'm going without him again. Probably never again.
"Don't be sad, be awesome instead."
I think I finally had enough with the ex-lover. It's been too long, I've been too sad. It felt forever, never realize how every weekend just go by, and soon later, we're into 2011, and I'm unhappy, still. Ever since I have him in my life, weekend has been something I look forward to. And every weekend later, we still meet our ends. And what am I to do next. I clear enough know what to do, but the courage never seem to come.. Until when I finally feel I'm at my bottom once again.
When the world come crashing, who are the ones standing by me..
I so need the vacation, come February.
And I'm going without him again. Probably never again.
"Don't be sad, be awesome instead."
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