don't believe.

2009 is just hours away from now. (thankyou tpb being the first to wish me happynewyear, happynewyear to you too!) sadly, i dont feel much for this coming newyear because my heart is pretty much occupied with other things. currently not the happiest person you can find on KH. yet i am so grateful for the cute friends on this island. really dont know if they have a motive or not, but i dont have any more brain cells to think such. life's easy, think simple..

just had tea at Sunset with the hskp boys. having most of them growing up on the same island, they pretty much know each other since there were babies. literally childhood friends. they were stil showing me photos of them when they were young. those already-turn-yellow photos. you know.. they are really a group of young and playful people. always teasing each other and having fun. very simple minded village people. and i mean, village. the local island is really like a kampung. you will NEVER see such a place in Sg ever. perlin was still commenting that she can nvr stay under such condition, for us being the Sg spolit kids. anyway, after tea, i was pillioned around the island and it was really fun. again, you will never get to see such things ever in Sg.

last than a month to go home. i am starting to think of when i will ever come back. this place is becoming very familiar. the people, the places, the transport, the rules, everything. although it might not be a i-must-come-back place, but it is really a pity to leave. definitely it will be a place that i will miss. will i ever come back? to this familiar island, the familiar staff canteen, the familiar reception, the familiar room, the familiar courtyard, the familiar bench at the staff beach, the familiar whaler to BH, the familiar hskp office, the familiar front office's back office, the familiar room downstairs, to many to list..

this 3 months is only a short part of my life. very soon, i know, i will start to forget about things. the people's face, the people's names, the things we do, and all the fun. thats why i am trying to write down what is happening every single day. at least next time i will get the chance to read back what had happened here. stupid things and funny things. so many things to do, so little time.. everytime i cant wait to go back to FO, but that also means that my time here is getter lesser. because i only have 2 & half weeks in FO before i have to go home!

damn, i missed the fried rice supper.
anyway, the people here really loves to eat instant noodles.
and i am started to eat alot of that too..
and A LOT of junk food!
you wont believe, but i finished my first ever Snickers in Maldives,
and i am having my many here tooooo..
and, DO YOU KNOW?
we have Snickers ice cream, which tastes reallllllllly good,
and Snickers Crunchy (i dont know if we have it in Sg), which i am in love with,
and Maltesers ice cream, which i havent tried.

all for that,
i am really not very happy now.

happy new year, happy 2009,

it always ends with a comma,

season's greetings!

its the festive week yo! not surprised, i will be working for both christmas (& eve) and new year (& eve). anyway, i dont dread to not work on those days because there is no feeling here to need an off that day because everyone will be working too. and thinking about it, its more fun to work because you have people to accompany you during the countdown! isnt that more cool? and, i'll be sitting in the hskp office during the days where occ hits 100% yo. new year eve & new year it is.

anyhow for the start of coordinator, they simply just throw me to pick up phonecalls already. its really quite easy because now i really enjoy picking up phonecalls. no more phobia. they only thing that i cant really get used to it is their accent and sometimes i really cant get what they are talking about and asking them too much, they will really sound impatient. so i will always end the call w/o knowing what they are talking about..

tmr my offday with Perlin! maybe heading to Male in the morning then coming back noon ferry.

okay, i have no more feelings to write anymore stuff. so, ciao.

i apologise for the lousy entry..
read my brother's blog for good entertainment.

counting down,

MID DECEMBER ALREADY!

what have i been doing for the past 3&half months of internship? i have so many things that i have yet to complete start. the portfolio, the next ejournal, the project, the contem research, preparing to go home, preparing for CNY, (xmas & newyear excluded because i will still be on this island slogging hard while the festive season is here) and so on.. i am really worried about my portfoilo & project but i really have no time & internet connection to start. wonder why i can still be updating facebook & blog, because i am using illegal access. not so illegal that i will be put behind bars la. xmas is almost here, less than 10 days, i couldnt believe it. because there is so xmas feeling here in the Maldives. maybe because everyone is too busy? every year at this time of the year in sg, i will feel so festive, season of greetings and always preparing for the xmas parties that i need to attend. but here, i dont have that feeling, which can be good in a way. saving alot of ka-chings. there is really nth to spend on here. and it makes me feel like spending $$ even more. therefore have been hopping over to Sunset quite often for fries & fresh fruit juices. speaking of xmas, i will most probably be helping decorations for xmas trees! for the fact that i am in hskp (again) now, my exec hskper asked me for help for the xmas tree deco, and i cant wait yo! now speaking of hskp, it is really tough, i mean REALLY tough. you cannot imagine the ache in the feet i get at the end of work each day. and unfortunately, i really dread to go work. that of cos makes me appreciate FO even even more. i am so lucky that i will be heading back to FO after 3 weeks in hskp. tho this 3 weeks in hskp include the festive season of xmas & newyear. ho, this is one of the worst entries ive ever typed because its so not organised and not paragraphed. i know it will be difficult for all to read but i really dont know where to break for a new paragraph. hahaha. miss home yet, hmm, i miss my sister, tansockken, i miss the food, (but insisting that i am NOT sick of the food here yet). current craving(s) --> a good pan of fish & chips from fish & co., bizpark curry chix noodles, chicken rice (of cos), fishball noodles. oh. i am really hungry now. will later pop by the canteen for a bowl of instant noodles.

FYI: the sand here is really rough.

fiddling with the keyboard.

its 5.15am and i am not sleeping, nor sleepy. i am currently sitting at the good-ol cafe's alfresco, the indoor is showing Tom & Jerry cartoon, a HUGE full moon right in front of me, feeling abit hungry, neck aching like shit, risking with the ultra unpredictable internet connection, thinking of the food i miss at home, as well as what new things i should update here. this is the aftermath of waiting for someone, who eventually went to sleep without telling me.

THE MOON IS REALLY GIGANTIC & BRIGHT.
AND I THINK I CAN MAKE IT FOR SUNRISE AT THE STAFF BEACH.

the best thing here probably is the freedom of staying up late. nobody orders you to go sleep by a certain time, or the curfew to head back to the room. you're free in this way. so i know i will definitely feel weird when i go back home with all the curfew's and last train/bus waiting for me.

(a chef just walked passed me and greeting "Good Morning!" while i haven't even gone to bed!)

i can heard the morning birds, i can feel the morning breeze. its amazing.

yeah, i begin to miss the food back home. not that i am getting bored of the food here because there are days that have really good food, just like today (i mean last night's dinner). food was thumbs-up! but i promised Perlin & Edric to have dinner at Sunset, the restaurant at the neighbour island. so we still went to Sunset instead. was splurging on Fried Rice, Fish & Chips, Fries , Omelette and Bombay Teas. and of cos, gossips. i am really glad that i have their company here for this OSIP. i am so used to having the both of them. waiting for them to end work, have our meals together, doing everything together. we were telling each other how we will be so not used to not having each other when we go back to sg. they are like siblings to me now. close to heart. and we are glad that we are taking care of each other well. (:

moving to hskp (again) in 3 days. and i am sure that they will give me a huge welcome because its the festive season. its gonna be hell busy. and i haven't got time to start on portfolio or project. time mgt sock! damn.

(guess what! the moon is setting! almost covered by the reception roof now.)

i haven't been tanning for weeeeeeeks!
& tell you guys, Perlin is tanner than me, for real.

i hate to wait,
but i cannot believe that i have been doing this for hours,
today.

ON CLOUD NINE!

managed to extend two more weeks in front office,
although during festive season (xmas & newyear) i'll be in hskp,
but still, its good enough to be able to have two more weeks in FO
as well as to end my internship in FO.
I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!

feel free to be happy for me yo :D

daily breakfast:
1 chapaati wrap with tuna
3 pieces of hotdog
1 hard boiled egg/ scrambled eggs
1 hot milo

& not sick of it yet.

there's nothing called privacy & freedom here. highlight highlight, thats probably the only thing that makes the island life not-so-good. out of duty hours, you still feel that you're jailed. maybe that only applies to people who are doing what they are not supposed to be doing, particularly, Asians (unfortunately). for staff dorms, apparently, males are not allowed in female's rooms, like WHAT? i am not in a uniform group camp or what sort. then why are they putting males next door, might as well jst isolate all the female staff at the same floor. not that there are alot of levels tho, only two, and we are staying at the second. next, some strangers have the key to our room! thats really something i am not happy about (AT ALL). yes, these keys are issued by HR, so? this is still intruding our freaking privacy. and it happened 3 times already. one, a new room mate is joining our room, so someone from HR came into the room to place the amenity (without our presence). two, they came back again to put more amenities without knocking the door, they came in and realized that we're inside. lucky non of us are naked or what. three, this engineering man came knocking while i was sleeping. i wanted to ignore but guess what, he just opened the door with his key and came into the room. then realizing i am in the room. thanks for disturbing my nap. and you're right, all the people who came into our room are MALES! now, which law says that no males are allowed? and, what is my privacy!

almost busted, twice.

dinner menu: Disappointment Grand Feast

gonna do something right, for a once in my life

love me for a reason.

no dive! (yet)

yeah, call me a loser for being in maldives for a month already, and not diving.
don't know whether is it good to hear or not, but im not exactly missing home yet.
life here is too good and im serious.
with friends from all over the world, including many interns from different schools.
hongkong, switzerland, thailand, sweden, germany, russia, india, sri lanka, nepal, japan, korea, and of cos maldives. you name it, we have it!

just sent a singaporean family off just now for SQ dep. and they are super nice people. they still asked if i have any msg to send home! hahaha, they were so sad to leave, and they were like taking pictures and hugged me and stuff. aww.

anyway, i am really enjoying my time in front office. learning really alot and my colleagues are wonderful. and im also having a fun time handling and meeting guests from all over the world. well, i really dread to go to hskp esp its festive season. but its only 2 more weeks left in FO. :(

okay, i love all.

dear all,

life is good.
i'm still alive.


this place is too beautiful.

ACTION PACKED DAY 2!

yeah i promised to blog about my second action packed day, to myself because i scare one day i will really forget about the day. however its quite restricted because some details really cannot write here. well, had the FO outing ytd and we headed to this island (and i dun know the name) about 50 min away from KH? in speedboat. imagine we take those dhoni, i think we'll take like hours.. the island we went was even more beautiful than KH. there are only like 3/4 families and this little house that you can rent and stay. the sand is so white and fine, the sky and sea is separated by just one line, and the sun is HUGE!! too bad i forgot to bring perlin's camera along but anyways, such things must be experience on your own. posting photos will only make you jealous? lol. so we played volleyball, soccer, soak in the sun and water, BBQ lunch, snokel and everything. unfortunately, i FORGOT to pack the sunblock into my bag, and i had to use my friend's SUN TAN LOTION. well, you shld be able to read by now that ya, I AM SUPER BURNT NOW. burnt like what, perlin they all were saying im black colour. for the snokelling part, it was pretty scary for me because i cant swim very well. we had to swim out to sea for more than 1km? although it is quite shallow all the way but by the time we reach 1km, it will sink deeper, so in the end, i was too scared to continue and swam back. hahaha, loser la i know. i will just follow the escorted snokelling next time.

reached back KH at about 5pm when we're supposed to work at 4pm. hahaha, so i (we, those PM shift people) had to rush to bath and all. i reached back the office at 5.45pm while we only need to report at 6pm. well, work was good. my new buddy is super funny. but work is work la, he's quite strict too. three more days with him before an off day, then will be FSITP (again). i cant wait to go to the island spa & to see the bungalows!

work later! the sh couple's asking for me again, so it seems like i have to start work early.

love all, ciao

ACTION PACKED DAY!

today is really wonderful, a short day and ive accomplished many! yeah, unfortunately i am not able to upload photos because connection is really slow. next time la okay? well, i hope that my words are good enough to describe, hahaha!

because there is no Chinese GRO in FSRKH, i had to help this SH couple to do translation and it was wayyyyyy cool la! then i really realized how lousy my chinese please. i was struggling so much to find the correct word to use and speak in perfect mandarin. anyways, today started work in the morning while ytd ended at 12mn. still, nth much to do until 2.30pm. at then, i went to meet the SH couple and did translation again for them for the Fish Talk. ended work afterwhich and i went kayaking with Nanin, this new friend from Sweden. the sea is way beautiful, can REALLY see the seabed laaaaa! anyhow, tanned abit before heading back to shower abit then headed to meet the couple again. and what, i changed and went to the dolphin cruise! please, the trip is AMAZING! dolphines like so manyyyyyyyy, the sunset and the breeze. its totally O-M-G. took a few photos but i doubt it will be as good as your experience here. well, im gonna go with wen, per & edric again. ((:

tmr will be another action packed day, going for the FO OUTING in the morning, i heard i heard, its gonna be some sea sports, bbq and stuff with the FO colleagues. hope its gonna be fun like what. heh, but at night still need to come back to work because im gonna be in the PM shift. ohwells, bed is just 2 min away from the office, HOW COOL IS THAT. you can go back to bed to sleep during your break. haha.

yep, end of action packed day.



oh, forgot to add, THE FOOD IS REALLY QUITE GOOD LEH!

i had like, beef with black pepper sauce, spagetti carbonara,
though b/f is always chapati & curry & hotdog.
and its somewhere you find chucks of tuna instead of the minced.

love all, ciao.

oh how finally the page has loaded,


GREETINGS FROM MALDIVES!!


reached safely and im so glad that us girls are staying together.
room is nice, and its to the 3 of us.
the sun is beautiful, yet to see the sea & sand..

anyhow, thanks all for sending me off at the airport
& the lovely presents!

ncb, thanks for the wonderful gift that left me crying.
really touched by the effort and the carefully selected items.
the BFF with the aww-so-touching letter,
the nurnic with the WE LOVE SOCKER!
and the man who sent it to my place in wee hours.
its too sweeeeeet!

asky, thanks for the beautidul handmade calendar with all your faces.
i have already placed it on the table and my friends are so envy!
will use it to keep track of the days,
and look at you guys when im bored.
its too sweeeeeet!

nainai & vivian, the sunflower & the photo, the cookie & the card! (:
enough spamming of your faces, HAHAHA.
i won't forget how you all look like laaaaa.
its too sweeeeeet!

lyndel, thanks for coming & making me cry.
ive read your letter & i promise to take care of myself & perlin!
oh hooooo, see you in 3 months k.
in the meantime, just spend all your time you have with jojo until we head back!
its too sweeeeeet!

janice, what a surprise you came!
really thank you alot, and i miss you alot toooooo.
its too sweeeeeet!

pao, thanks for coming laaaaaa!
i will take care of myself de.
((:

and now lets see how long it will load..

25 HOURS AWAY FROM MALDIVES!

what i should expect.

first week: very wowed by the sun, sand, sea, busy settling down, find the nearest route to the Resort, the canteen, the mamashop, the internet room etc, excited to see whats on the staff menu, busy emailing people/update facebook & friendster,

second & third week: get things started at work, try to understand all the accent i will get there, revise Golden Rule, the Core Standards, the values and everything, getting my way around the resort, getting used to the living habits of my roommates, trying to get used of the food,

fourth week: exploring out of work, the activities and things-to-do, diving, snokelling, bananaboat, tan tan tan! opening my first pack of instant noodle & milo,

second month: repeat the off day activities (still feeling excited & fun), beginning to miss home, the family, the food, the convinience, the friends, milo/cereal needed daily, sambal chili opened, snacking on oreo & luxus, start washing clothes cos nth more to wear, colleagues became good friends, here comes the books to cure boredness (maybe),

first two weeks of third month: nothing to do during off days, tan(ed) enough & burnt like shit, instant noodle & sambal chili running low, missing family, singapore food & friends like never before, able to recognise the fishes when diving, getting really used to staying there,

last two weeks of OSIP: chiong finish the remaining food, start packing to head home, doing the last few dives before don't-know-when-can-dive-again, starting to find that the sun, sand, sea is extremely beautiful, start to dread going home, do the final tan, say the goodbyes to the colleagues,

home sweeet home (:

just some randoms, goodbye singapore!

i wanna make sure i remember today.

26 oct 2008
my virgin pillion ride on the bike, by mr x! ((:
exciting onlyyyyyy please!
okay i know people rode like thousand times already.
but still, it was damn exciting,
prolly the most exciting thing ive done in very long.

HAHAHA.


your smell lingers

one, two, two & half..

days before i fly, EXCITED OR WHAT!

last day at work today: 1) i am very sad that Randy did not turn up for work because he was issued a PH. 2) yesterday i was given THREE rooms to make up ON MY OWN. almost died after finishing the THREE in THREE hours. 3) i am glad that i enjoyed my last day at work doing NTD with BY. 4) met a super nice guest today. 5) tipped & happy. 6) had my last kaya & butter toast, ice lemon tea, & pulu hitam. 7) the boys stuffed me with alot of fruits. 8) Denny gave me a comic. 9) bid farewell with Arif (& Johari), the security.

i will still need to head back to FSS to return my stuff on Monday. thanks for giving me a PM shift for my last day, which is a friday, while the offices are not open during weekends. if you've not realized, i am the first to report to work on 10 Sep, and the last to finish on 24 Oct. well, thats life la.

abit more before i fly, i cant wait for, maybe mtg vivian for dinner tmr, mtg OL for lunch, and him for dinner on Sunday, family reunion? lunch & dinner on Monday. ya, tmr afternoon im heading back to HQ for AED/CPR course, yay! i hope its gonna be fun.

a short note for you before i forget,

dear stank,
i will miss all the bedtime chit chat sessions for the next three months. you can go sleep at mom's for all you want until im back okay! sleep well & train well. may you turn fitter & run faster when im back. or who knows, maybe you'll become the captain of the team, HAHAHA! i love you dear.

dear ncb,
please continue to meet up for suppers, suppers and more suppers! of cos, always go ahead for the many parties you guys gonna hold while i am away. HAHA. champagne remember okay! and take care of each other huh. don't fight/quarrel/beat each other. most importantly, don't forget how i look, because we'll be classmates again once we're backkkkkk. HEH.

dear adrian, wb, adam, vian,
take care of the corps while im away okay! everything will be in your handssssss. (:

dear ASKY,
have fun w/o me for adrian & kok's bday. and you guys can temporarily ask s***** to join for the next three months. when im back, ask him to go and i'll see you guys on the mahjong table again. woohoo :D

dear everyone else,
i will write when i know what to write.


BACK TO E-JOURNAL.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BFF!

cheers to being 20! (:

EXACTLY ONE WEEK.

Mon, 27 Oct 08
Dep, Singapore T2
Time, 2045
Flight, SQ 452

Sat, 24 Jan 09
Arr, Singapore
Time, 0705
Flight, SQ 451


ncpb supper on friday night, and its FULL STRENGTH! (yes you didn't see me wrong, nic made it, hahaha) this supper is apparently the final gathering before i fly. enjoyed the night totally with these 3 crazy people. i am so grateful for you guys. (TOUCHING OR NOT!) and i can't wait to be classmates with them again for another 4 weeks when we end our sip. heh heh, you need to see socker for another one month. ^^ anyway, hit the 2am dessert bar since we've been wanting to go. then headed over to some prata place before we headed home, (i mean they came to my crib, finally, in wee hours) AND REFUSE TO LEAVEEEEEE. i know they can't bear for me to go, so have been trying hard to spend the most time with me, aye? haha. we whispered thru the night and we THEY did alot of extremely stupid things, but i love it. thanks for the night ncb (:

the next day was spent in the supermarket, stocking up food, and whatever not for Maldives. the night was then spent with Perlin, Lyndel & Weijie for dinner. thanks lyn & weijie for the dinner with us before we fly. much appreciated! (:

3 more working days at FSS. here goes my 6+ weeks, and i cannot believe its coming to an end, too soon. every time i see those random colleagues, like the engineering ppl, the minibar uncle, the hskp aunties, the security ppl, the many other ppl, i feel quite sad that i wont be coming back/seeing them anytime soon or even, ever. tdy, im alr starting to pack my stuff home from my locker, which i have been stuffing alot of random things inside. well, i really hope to be back with FS someday. and im serious. tdy, my laundry manager passed me some stomachache pills, which she says its very good, and instant liangteh for me to bring over to Maldives, because the weather there is really too hot. isn't she sweeeeeeeet? that day when she mentioned i tot it was just a passing remark, and tdy she really bought for me. thankyou Mrs C! (:

there's no words to describe the thought of flying to Maldives in 7 days. just one week left, and i'll be leaving to the place that we've all worked hard to get into amongst many. i still can rmb a few months back when we first started OSIP application. how so many people (or i heard) applied for FS Maldives. how so many people were worried that their exams will cause their places forfeited and eventually they worked hard in order to score. how so many people went thru the interviews, and many at times the person sitting beside you applied for Maldives too. and lastly, how so many people were rejected and had to be forced to somewhere else, or just stay locally. i am thankful that im in this position now, and i know im so gonna make full use of going to the island for my OSIP. Maldives, HERE I COME! (:

yesterday past too fast

ITS CONFIRMED!

Mon, 27 Oct 08
Dep, Singapore T2
Time, 2045
Flight, SQ 452

Sat, 24 Jan 09
Arr, Singapore
Time, 0705
Flight, SQ 451

finally did my vaccination, collected my air tickets, and registered with MFA. at least a load out of my mind. now i will just concentrate on getting the insurance ready and stuffing my bag with necessities and LOTS OF FOOD. clothes seemed to be secondary in our case. haha. firstly, thankyou tansockkeng for acc me to vaccinate and collect my air tix ytd! she deserved to be mentioned because i had to ps her after errands ran to get back to work, instead of bringing her to shopping or just some time tgt before i fly. had to get back to work because yet another of my colleague MC and i had to stand in. and because i just got vaccinated, my whole arm was numb like what! haha. but i love to go back to work, because i was left alone again last night, plus we're running high hse, and im working with JD, a very efficient TP senior. (: had super fun for the past two days at work because of very funny Perlin and my hskp colleagues. anyhow, ytd was the last day for 3 of my Balinese colleagues after 6 months was FSS. they are super nice & cute people. all the best Wayan, Dana & Kadek! and Wipra for another 2 weeks here. because of the lack of younger female staff in hskp, i became everybody's "girlfriend" which is like damn funny. except for Randy, whose girlfriend is Perlin la. hahaha! they are super cute pleaseeeee.

there's really nothing much besides work to talk about nowadays. and thats gonna last a lifetime. zzz. well, its forever difficult to catch up with friends, even like now when we're only interning. very much counting down to our days to Maldives, because its like a brand new start for SIP, this time round, our OSIP :D although the whole world, my laundry manager, my learning manager, the laundry auntie, the room attendant auntie, to the engineering unclesssss, is telling me that its gonna be boring there on the island, im still somehow excited to fly over. i'm left with 7 working days, and 3 off days (including tdy) before work ends at FSS. then its a day back at HQ for the AED/CPR course before really thats it.

unfortunately, there's still one person that i can't bear to leave :(


you're too surreal,
its seems like you don't even exist,
or is it otherwise?


imagination is always perfect.

you could be my unintended.


if not for that moment
that i decided to call you,
there wouldn't be today.
what a decision man, really.

0910 - happybirthday!

17days to Maldives,
can you believe it?!
i had this dream the other day,
i dreamt that i'm leaving (already at the airport),
but i didn't pack anything yet!
woke up feeling damn scared,
because i really haven't packed anything!
ITS A SIGN LA!
i better start packing.

colleagues are becoming very nice.
making work enjoyable & fun.
but days are numbered.
ohwell, its always like that.

twenty.

I wish for a better temper.

officially hit the TWO ZERO.

officially part of the 2 league.

thankyou, for the wishes.

thankyou, for those who bothered.

thankyou, for the little surprises.

the toilet surprise, the canele cake, the flowers at my doorstep (again), the brownie & carrot cake, the bottle of beer, the eagerness to be the first, the birthday cards, the can of drops, the effort, and the everything.

and the girls!, who spent the first second with me.

much appreciated (:

you tend to get a lil upset when the names you expect didn't turn out.

but, i'm not as affected anymore because its no big deal.

i forget about people's too.

well, life awaits me, not them, right?

happy twenty!

beauty over brains

two more days while i hit the big two zero.
i dread.
a brand new start in life.
maybe another day i'll do a bday post.
i mean, maybe.

i am inspired by the BFF, genevieve the best concierge.

one thing learnt, don't depend/wait for others to make the journey enjoyable but to take the first step at making your own journey enjoyable.




enjoy the process, be it good or bad.

much needed when you don't really enjoy work, sometimes.

thats why, im starting to love going to work now! you know, im those kind who is really quiet at the start, but now, im starting to crap more at work. and i really loveeeeeee the aunties. they are extremely cute. of cos the chinaboys too, enjoy speaking to them in mandarin (trying to put into perfect mandarin) if not they will suan me (us) of mixing all languages tgt. some of them are really cute, and ive officially became a few of them's english teacher. also the Balinese, who will be leaving on the 14th. quite sad know, cos i havent known them well enough. i hope they've enjoyed their time in singapore! and they're already asking me to go bali to visit them, haha, those cheeky boys. on top of them, are the FSITP mates! keep seeing them around recently and they are really funny. i saw Arif (the security man) today and i asked him if he caught any suspicious man. and he said, "I feel like catching you actually." and of cos, perlin, edric, wendy & krish, random us will get tgt for dinner in the canteen. 40min is way too short to catch up everytime.

last but not least,
THE EYE CANDY!
omg, he cannot be cuter. ^^


sometimes its better not to expect so much,
so you'll feel better when it really comes.

i don't expect anything from you anymore.
you don't bother anyway.

I AM FLYING ON THE 27TH OCT,

8.15PM (or smth like that) FLIGHT.

TERMINAL 2.

everyday i get the same question on when i'm flying.
and at times, they are the same people.
i'm not complaining or what,
but maybe you can just WRITE IT DOWN somewhere.
thanks for the concern anyway.
i hope to see you at the airport sending me/us off.
if you're scheduled to work on that day,
fake an MC/just pon,
try to arrange to change off day?
i/we hope to see you there! (:

in the meantime, these are my off days,
29 sep, 1, 2, 4, 10, 14 oct,
well, if you thought about celebrating my birthday,
these are the days i can give you,
and you're right,
i am working on my birthday..

DO YOU HAVE A MEAN COLLEAGUE AT WORK?
Yes, I do. :(

DO YOU HAVE AN EYE CANDY AT WORK?
YES, I DO!! :D

xxx

abit of thought.
i should have get it,
but i didn't.
it was painful, really painful.
the day that i feared most in my life is really here.
(yes, i really thought about that)
at that moment,
i didn't know what to do, or how to react.
but i was subconsciously telling myself to stay strong,
and look strong.
although not the best way i could've handled,
because i chose to avoid and ignore.
while i still took occasional peeps,
and was hurt like what.
i didn't know if my choice of going was right.
still, i hope that i can let go now.
because there's really no point hanging on to it anymore.

not anymore,
to talk to you,
to sms you,
to see if you're online,
to want to hang out with you,
to drop by your crib this birthday, and ever.

when its over, thats the time to fall in love again.

.today is payday

we are all human beings,
we all have a heart,
use it.

FSITP is so enjoyable. (:

i'll be slogging hard during the finals of the first night race in the world. its a pity tht i can't even catch a glimpse of it, live or on tv. won't even know who won the race despite being so quite near the track. plus, i won't be able to help out in the lunch @ Istana tmr because i didn't pass the security test. WHAT A PITY! :(

i need to start on my e-journal, like real soon now.
C, you too.

明天会更好,


i am getting very abit envy when i read off people's blog that they're well taken care of for their SIP. something like, their trainer is very willing to teach them alot alot during their months attached to the company, and giving them alot of opportunities to be exposed to the industry. mine is not even a little bit of theirs. :(

administrative assistant for the past three days in hskp. and will be until the end of sept. enjoy overcoming the phonecall phobia and picking up calls from everywhere. and of cos, exploring OPERA alot alot! im so thankful that i was quite attentive during oprah class, which makes its easy to use the system when at work. now i can play around with the housekeeping links too, damn fun. (: i loveeeeeeee opera!

F1 next weekend, i don't seeem to be very excited about it, yet. sister still tells me to act excited. first night race leh, in singapore leh, alot of big stars leh! damn cutee la she. anyway, i'll be working the entire weekend for the F1 races. 100% occ, goodjob. i hope the guests will be out watching the races & shopping singapore streets instead of calling housekeeping to get more shampoo/soap/bath towels/coffee&tea sachets/toothbrush/shaver kit/whatever.

finallyyyyyy met up with C & B last night for a short supper. thanks to our off day today coincidentally. its been 2 week since we last met yo! B new's haircut, i like her sexy fridge very much. she's still the same, skinny, but appetite getting lesser & she's getting very lazy. i cannot believe i chopped the thick toast for her. almost to feeding her ;) C's getting very much fairer, im only like 1 grade fairer than him (used to be like, 10?). i hope the sun worked on him today. anyway, the night was too short, chix rice & tongshui cafe @ thomson before we had to go home because i was too tired after being awake for almost 24 hours. when's the next? i don't know..

N, we secretly missing you alot leh. i don't know when gen & i can get sat/sun off coincidentally again you know. well, you must be big busy with all the sports events coming up la. there's always next time!

i can't live w/o the BFF, we msg each other like EVERYDAY,

for the smallest thing you can ever think of.

i am still very very shocked to hear that from you. i can't help it but i seem to be avoiding this whole damn thing. i hoped i could have been more open minded to accept what have changed in you in all. this, will pass.

"Park a bus in front of the goal post."

for the passion.

HSKP

everyone in housekeeping suspects that,

1. I am not a Singaporean
2. I am not a Chinese
3. I can't speak Mandarin
4. My parents are not pure Chinese even if I insist that I am, and they are
5. I am not a Chinese
6. I am not a Chinese
7. I am not a Chinese
8. I am not a Chinese

everyone in housekeeping is shocked surprised that,

1. I am a Singaporean
2. I am a Chinese
3. I can speak Mandarin
4. I eat in the canteen during lunchtime (cos they thought that I should be fasting)

everyone in housekeeping will,

1. Speak their first sentence to me in English
2. Student/Trainee?
3. Singaporean?
4. Chinese?
"我会讲华语。"
5. Which dialect group are you?

Very interesting colleagues, really.

Job Hazard!
1. Fingers turn rough/skin particles falling after changing many beds
2. Sneeze & Cough like WHAT! after inhaling so much 毛毛 everyday
3. Cuts & bruises everywhere after knocking into and scratching against the furnitures everywhere

life of a Room Attendant.

HAPPY INTERNATIONAL HOUSEKEEPERS WEEK!

survivor,

tough times never last, tough people do.

c'mon sock,
all the way.

HELLO!

hello Psuan, Xueer, Roseann & Ling,

How are you girls! Are you all starting to miss Singapore? Haha, I'm sure you girls have started shopping hard, right Ling? Haha. Shanghai girls, 小龙包 yet? Ling, 点心/Yum Cha yet? All the best for your Internship okay, especially those in Rooms Division, all the best if you're going to Housekeeping! Do take alot alot of photos and post them online if possible yeah. Hope to hear from you girls soon again!

Yours,

Socker.

INTERNSHIP

1. it allows me to change back my body clock immediately after a day's work. my week-long holiday revolved around sleeping at 6am and waking up at 2pm. now, not anymore, 8 hours of sleep daily, sleeping before 10pm and waking up before 6am. it feels damn weird to go to work at 6am when i used to not yet sleep and go running. you know you know, its weird. now i become the ke lian people whom i used to see them going to work way before daybreak. well..

2. i can make a king-size bed on my own after 2 hours of ops. 2 days later, im still making beds. damn, they are seriously heavy. im wasnt't surprised when i woke up with muscle aches this morning. not to say my fingers & feet painful too. C, don't complain, try wearing heels. but but, i feel super accomplished when i finish making a bed on my own.

3. BOH (housekeeping) is a true test for my passion for the industry. i haven't been to the lobby, the restaurants, the front desk, the concierge.. no chance to see guests! okay, ive been to many rooms, saw 4 guests until now.

4. eat only! free food, everyday is a buffet day. all you do, esp after cleaning 7 rooms before lunch, is to take and take, eat and eat like there's no tmr. oh, i go early for breakfast too know! heh heh, i won't be surprised if i gained back the pounds that i've lost.. zamn.

5. ive my own locker! the only thing that makes me feel im part of the hotel.


NCB, really want to meet you all to tell you allllll the stories and listen to allllll your stories.
okay, soon.

BFF, i'll do that tag thing when my mind is more fresh. 8 is quite alot to think leh.

i love you everyday.

gdbye HongKong & Shanghai girls

Psuan,
Xueer,
Roseann,
Lingwei,
Jasmine, all the best for OSIP,
bon voyage!

*
我还是哭了。

i love you everyday.

i chose to use running at 5am to numb myself.
the day i feared most has arrived.

a sunny saturday afternoon

i've finished my second. (:

my week long holiday revolved around,
read,
run,
swim,
late nights,

&& i feel damn good.

i love you everyday.

fear, overcome.

i don't know why, yesterday's supper left me uneased until now. don't ask me why, because i really don't know. definitely not the company, because they were awesome. it was just something, something that left me thinking about it, all over again. somehow, i can't put them into words, too sensitive, maybe. but, i hate this feeling hanging in my heart, and there's no avenue to express, because nobody knows, or rather, its just too sensitive.

today i was not at my best of moods. everything seems, uhhh, wrong.

alot of things happened recently. and some really hit me real hard. it made me think again, especially my life principle. sadly to say, im starting to let loose, and not treating people as good as before, not putting as much effort as before. because some of them made me feel, they don't deserve. thats sad, really sad. because its not subconcious anymore, i'm starting to do it delibrately. maybe thats the ugly side of mankind, some would say. but i wouldn't have changed, if not for some many who doesn't appreciate. well, honestly, life sucks.

then i've also come to realise, some really important people in my life. they're always my supporting leads, appearing when in need, yet not in the limelight. there are always such people, the more they care, they more you don't realize their presence. i'm starting to feel sorry that i haven't been treating them what they deserve. but i hope its not too late to realize. nothing's too late. for these, thank you for being in my life, i know you care, i know you're there. i know you know who you are, my angels.

it was a rollarcoaster ride for this semester, right from the start. and i've grown, for so much i've seen. the ugly and the good, the true and the dirty. and how screwed someone's life can get. not pointing my fingers at anyone, because everyone's pretty screwed, and it just depends on the degree of screwed-ness yours is. only 19, i felt that i have no more energy to deal with such, maybe its just time to move on, or maybe "year 3, 累了".

to sum up,

reflect on your own doings before judging others.

because often, you're as ugly as they are.

i love you everyday

to this friend,

i don't know why since day one, i feel for you, im upset for you, im angry for you. just when things seemed to turn better, yet another disaster came crushing down. so, i really hope that you'll stay strong no matter what, because you looked strong to me. believe that you are and this will pass soon. don't ache your heart anymore, because your heart deserved to be treated better. give yourself a chance because you live your life. all the best, my friend.

a sea of red.

number one.
its a pity that the BFF stays at the other end of singapore. i so hope i get the chance to hop by her crib in days like tmr that there's nth to do and nth planned to do. i so hope that we get to go home together by taking the same train/bus instead of her always coming to our neighbourhood and sent home by the driver C in order for us to spend more time together or us going separate ways at the train station. i know the BFF will ask me to move to simei after reading this paragraph, so i should just stop dreaming that she will really move over some day.

number two.

BFF splurged on a white steel PDA phone today. okay, i admit its damn chio and worth it. and, C, here comes the white steel. don't need to wait til tmr to tell you.

number three.

i went to watch the run today and was really blinded by red. anyway, i didn't missed 二哥 before i came because he came in later than the time i left. haha, he started 25min after the flagoff, and there were nobody left at the starting point. very funny scene, but he still managed to catch up with many people. he had to tell me this on msn, cos i didn't even get to see him at all. :(

number four.

i caught sham two days in a row. is that fate or what? anyway brother, keep spamming grapevine and can't get enough of oreo frappe?

number five.

with no plans from anyone, tmr later shall be exercise marathon.

laugh of the day:

Institute of Rejects.
a collection of rejects from the brotherhood.

you cannot be funnier la, alvin.

2am, & the rain is falling

thinking of the day:
Judge yourself before you judge others.

i think we're screwed,
damn screwed,
nobody bothered,

nobody called,

nobody texted,
so the two of us just waited,
and waited,
and waited,
3 hours went by,
just like that,
now tell me,
why should i.

my first in town walking so aimlessly,
there's nowhere to go,
we don't know where to go,
we don't know what to do,
so we just walked, and walked,
settled when feet gave way,
we sat, stared at the phone,
nothing came, nothing,
our minds couldn't think anymore,
we were tired,
my mind felt tired,
my heart felt worst,
i used to give in my heart and soul,
but now,
maybe i need to think again.

when the pillar starts giving way, the building will collapse eventually.

Thank you, for I'm still alive today.

I should start living for Myself,
and lead a selfish healthy lifestyle.

its a sign!

its a sign.
its a form of punishment,
for not studying dpd hard enough,
for telling krissy & others that impacts are not coming out,
for telling krissy & others that mistakes are not coming out,
two good hours before the paper,
the pain came back,
the horrible pain that i experienced the other time for freaking 8 hours or so,
the pain grew,
and all in my mind was whether i could concentrate on dpd at 7pm,
i went to school and drank milo,
it didn't help,
i took 2 paracetamol from Serena and ate 1,
it didn't help,
i was "crying" in pain during the paper,
and tried all sitting positions to ease the pain,
finally the paper ended,
boon & gen & i went to eat,
for so much of enjoy we planned but we couldn't,
the pain was still there,
supper at chompchomp,
ate the other painkiller,
it didn't help,
sent gen back,
joined them at 401,
i was sent home,

and can't join them to chill & relax,
the moment i came back & bathed,
the pain was gone,
its a sign,
its a sign..

anyway, im fine enough now, beside being quite sleepy, to tell the whole world that MY EXAMS ARE OVER! you couldn't tell/didn't see how happy we were. i was laughing/smiling all the way after the papers despite the bad pain and the shitty exam (i blame myself for not studying hard enough). the rest too, i mean ebiz & calculus people la, well, gamers having their last paper tmr. still, yes, my last official exam in TP, and maybe in my life, who knows? i might not be taking a degree, or at least not anytime soon. for this particular exam, i kept telling myself not to hope that it will soon be over, because i know i will not mug hard enough, and feel lost after the papers. but here i am, still feeling lost after the papers, no goals, no motivation. don't know what to do tmr, and tmr, and tmr, and tmr, and tmr.. not alot of time left before SIP and OSIP. i only have two weeks people, if you want to date me, make it quick. in no time, i'll be in Maldives before you know it! haha.

yeah, so it was four papers this time round, Ops of Food, Lodging, MICE & DPD. they were all fairly okay, hoping that i can do as well as i should. if im not wrong, this semester consisted of the most number of papers to take, and i really pity the calculus & gaming people who has five, i was already on the verge of giving up studying for four papers. on top, this is the first exam that i studied until headache! it was that bad really, by the end of everything, i felt that my brain cells was so used up, like literally. haha, but to comfort myself, at least i am putting my brain cells to good use, lol, and using them. (i think you can tell that im really talking nonsense right now because i am really sleepy and can't think..)

when we first received our timetable, we realized that our last was on wednesday, and everyone was saying mambo/zouk immediately after that. and i seriously thought they were serious. today it seems pretty impossible, tho i wonder if any chiongster is really at mambo/zouk now. because, the first paper starts at 9.30am, and the next papers ends at 9pm. by the time we end, we are already damn shag, whr to find the energy to club? lol, i really wonder.

the neighbour surprised me the other day, by saying that he has a pool table at home! but being in the middle of exam week, he promised to invite me over for a game after the papers. BUT before i could, the pool table was given away! zamn, cos apparently his mummy bought a new car and needs the space. tsk, what a pity! its been almost 2 years since i last played! :(

tmr is planned, i hope it doesnt rain so that i can go swim in school, while waiting for "the family" to end their gaming paper. yeah i wanna party, i wanna go timbre tmr night too. hope theres an available transport for us to have some fun yo! c'mon its party time, EXAMS ARE OVER! of cos, need to exercise and keep fit. need to eat alot of fruits and vegetables and cut down on carbo. need to lead a healthy lifestyle! (:

im really writing some crap shit now, to make up to those ive lost for the past few days. time to get some deserved rest.

now, i think its just the onions.

lastly, to enlightment the other 300+ fellow coursemates,

Tourism Master Plan

Development - Processes

1. Inception

2. Interim Study

3. Interim Review

4. Final Study

5. Final Review

i will remember this for life..

damn.

`i don't want to hear your name

SOCKER.

ALL THE WAY.

eat, drink, be merry

WE JUST CAN'T STOP EATING.

wednesdays seemed to be our unofficial supper days. on 20th aug, NCPB brought suppertime to a whole new level of experience, special tau-huey delivery to nicoke's place! since nicoke's mummy forbid her to join us for supper outside, we decided to play punk. ;) CPB spent an hour driving around bedok & geylang, dabao-ing durians, wanton mee and tau-huey (and zui). the part on buying durians was zamn funny, luckily we were not tricked by the uncle to buy FIVE. i know durians are zamn random, but was bought to curb BFF's cravings since tuesday night. after that hour, we zoomed to nic's crib, realising it was already quite late.

NCB, next wednesday: Carls' Jr pleaseeeeee!

below, the photos for a celebration for the last day of school. not surprising, we went with our favourite hobby. see, we just can't stop eating! zamn..

last day of work at grapevine on sunday, so don't bother calling me to make a reservation for man utd matches or asking if i'm working that night. well, you can still call me out to gv for a drink! ahhhh, biggest regret, i haven't had enough of dory, bacon rolls & rice, chix nuggets, shitake mushrooms, burger, fries, teriyaki wingggggs! zamn, hungry again.

let the love heal the wound,

think with your brain,
not emotions.

Everyone wants to Save the Earth; nobody wants to help Mum with the dishes.
- PJO' ROURKE

review that.


you never felt sorry, haven't you?

take a step back,
take a breather,
tomorrow will be a better day.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS WANQIANNNNNNNNN!

laughter, the best medicine

A guy finds a sheep wandering in his neighbourhood and takes it to the police station.
The desk sergeant says, "Why don't you take it to the zoo?"
The next day, the sergeant spots the same guy walking down the street - with the sheep.
"I thought I told you to take the sheep to the zoo," the sergeant says.
"I know what you told me," the guy responds.
"Yesterday I took him to the zoo. Today I'm taking him to the movies."


back of house;
departments and staff members that support front of house departments and are often hidden from the public.


i don't want to forget about last night,
i had a great time with C & B,
talk, east coast, talk, carpark, talk, simpang, talk,
too bad N was fast asleep,


`perlin tay is the best laughter
SOCKER.

i have a confession to make..

the two men as circled looks ZAMN GAY!

&& yes, i knew i would be too lazy to blog anything about saturday. furthermore, my priority now should be mugging hard for exams (for not putting in enough effort during the semester) instead of spending the previous 2 hours on net, and what worst now, blogging! zzz.

&& so, it was, ahmeng's crib, curry & rice, ndp parade Xcitement, olympics gymnastics, moet & chandon, chicken little & JJ Lin aka ivan, gender confusion, ivan the ti ko pei, NEHNEHPOK. orrr horrrr, tell mummy...., you remember me anot?, is she a boy or girl?, zucchini and capsicum kor kor, give me a five, i change my mind. look up the sky, the bird lau sai., roadtrip, holland v, cold rock, from west all the way to east, east coast carparks craze, the boys & psuan can't get enough of making love peeping at others making love, supper back @ ahmeng's, curry & rice again, 2 crabs for 45min, home sweet home.

way tooooo many people i need to meet during the short holiday before internship. (in a moment, i don't know whether to type SIP/OSIP) haha, yeah baby, i will remember to meet you!

`yours truly

SOCKER.

complete, or not.

picture-ful entry, NOT! wait til they come over maybe.. anyway, its two weeks to exams! believe it or not. it was a happening weekend, locally and worldwide - beijing olympics, national day parade, the princess date, onelove love-the-country session etc. ;)

finally caught The Dark Knight with the neighbour on thursday night! i felt it was pretty overrated, and wondered how the BFF watched 3 times. okay la BFF, i contributed to the sales already, happy? i was expecting more effects & fighting, but maybe thats where the playing-with-the-mind thing comes in la. went for lodging lect on friday morning, thanks edric for the ride to school! the day was followed by Top Table lunch with friday ssm class. good people, good food.

i sat by the bar, watching my juniors getting into action. i saw how Mr Goh used his voice and facial expressions to make the kids learn. i saw how the kids was afraid yet enjoying the process. i saw how Ms Mark used her patience and taught them step by step. i saw how the kids nodded and understood. then i saw how much i miss ssm.

friday night was the over due date with my princess, CHEW WAN QIAN. headed over to the airport since 4 plus and we just walk and talk and walk and talk, up and down the terminals. we literally talked non-stop besides dinnertime at Popeyes. nice catch up since very long ago. im so glad to have known this look-very-tao girl, heh heh, if not for IMF.. i love you princess!

since the night was still young, i headed over to krissy's crib for like ten min before we decided to head to grapevine for a drink. hoegaarden was especially tasty that day. haha. non-stop discussions with her too, and we stayed until 1am before i was sent home by her, and caught by daddy for reaching home so late. :P

national day was spent with onelove, which totally deserves another entry. hor, boon?

finally comes sunday, which repeats the standard routine, to wake up late from the previous havoc night, lunched at home, then tucking back into bed for a nap, before work at night. high tension when i reached, apparently there was some quarreling. :( anyway, it was extremely packed because of the birthday party and the man u match. yet not very busy as i thought it would be. gen the BFF dropped by since she was at chompchomp with her sec school mates for supper, and comes seejin too. heh heh, thanks BFF for sending me home! gossip only! ;)

i so dont have the mood to post anything upset or angry.
oh well, im going home to sleep.

`she is harmless, is she
SOCKER.

high achievers (in sports)

the neh neh gang, NCPB.
sem 3.1 would not be complete without them.. (:
&&, napfa rocks!

i'm a libran

its all about the balance,
work, studies, family, bgr, friends,
don't give yourself a chance to lose any,
cos once you've lost it,
its hard to come by..

people say,
when you gain some, you'll lose some.

first, we felt it was just curiosity.
next, we felt neglected and used.
now, we feel don't care anymore.

***
the purpose of below entry is for archiving, because it will be another everyday entry which nobody will be interested in. i had my last presentation yesterday, and it seemed to be the worst presentation in my three good years in tp. wonder why, my groupmates were extremely panicky before the session compared to other presentations. in summary, Q&A was bad, really bad. decided to stay for the student forum at 6.30pm, and our class alone had 6 representative, when each class is supposed to only send 2. uh, while total turnout was, 8. anyway, it was a good chance for us (okay, me) to share about some issues we faced after being in the school for three years. finally, everything that i have been wanting to put across to the board has been said. i felt so relieved and happy. anyway, thanks ig for organizing the forum. (:

i am going for movies later, The Dark Knight, finallyyyyyyy!

byebye CFG,
til tmr,

`the lab is so cold that i want to fly
SOCKER.

e-MADNESS,

customer relationship management, knowledge management, enterprise resource planning, eXtensive markup language, biometric systems, encryption, private keys, public keys, digital signatures, secure socket layer, trojan horse, macro worms, firewall, affliate marketing, phishing, viral marketing, integrity, authentication, personalization, extranet, intranet, bluetooth, WLAN, personal area network, virtual private network, CPM, cookies..

madness.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANICE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAIRUS SIR!

didn't know that 二哥 was feeling so hard,

:(

procratination is poison

for what ive procratinated the longest, ive finally taken my napfa test last friday with beloved BFF! that was a damn exciting day, whereby my mind keep finding mutiple excuses to yet again postpone my napfa. but my dearest NCB of cos disapproved and pushed me to take it that day. it was a lethargic day i swear, weather damn hot, super sleepy. and i had to travel to century square in the middle of the day to collect my phone (yes, repaired!) and caught Sam being late for his calculus lecture (AGAIN!). anyway, coming back to my napfa, yes, i did better than expected! except for broad jump which was supposedly my most confident station. the first jump was crap, not ready at all and i jumped, at only 174cm. better conditioned, my second jump was a cm away from B. in conclusion, i got a Gold for the final napfa in my life. yeah, and i secretly feel like retaking cos im really not satisfied with my broad jump grade.

thanks gen BFF for taking napfa with me. honestly, you were my motivation that day! and i am very proud of your results too! ((:

thanks vian for your running shoes tho i didnt use on my final day. but it went thru alot with me for the many runs i did the past few weeks!

thanks nicole for your motivation & your running shoes & simply staying with us! you were on my mind all the way during my run, haha, while i breathe, while i slowed down, while i feel like walking, i kept thinking that i cannot let you down, always! :D

thanks boon for .. telling me that i cannot make it. HAHA, i know you're secretly very proud of me toooooo. thank you lah!

thanks ahmeng for running with us! but you shld be more excited when you see me next time.

thanks jinmin! i ran well! :P

thanks sam, for hoping that my ankle will recover on time.

finishing napfa felt happier than finishing exams. haha!

omg, that reminds me of exams coming up really soon..

and next week, pretty much the final week for submissions before exams. last individual assignment, last test and last presentation. its gonna be a big blow-wind-blow for my timetable next week too. will not be having classes on monday, thursday and friday! although you'll most probably still see me in school for you know what reasons. last few weeks in school before SIP okay! so much that we want sem 3.1 to end soon, we're ending school already! it might be too late before you've realised. (omg, this entry in so mundane)

a wonderful date with ahmeng & lyndel just now. been a long time since the family met. spent a great time with ahmeng before meeting lyndel at vivo. thanks my dear friend! i know you've always wanted to be featured on my blog. hahaha! lots of updates from lyndel too, happening life only. haha, if only ive so much to share with you all also. soon i hope! :P

&& lastly, thanks jinmin for printing my assignment!

neighbour rocks lah! (:

juvenile, tramatized, paranoid, anal,

time to brush up my vocab too.

`a fun time of you and me

SOCKER.

tonight will be the night

i will always be just a phonecall away.
**

放不下，你。

freakingggggg rich & happy

thats what everyone wishes for i guess. definitely not decribing the me right now because im not exactly very rich nor happy. life has been pretty dull these days. what more can you expect from the endless project submissions. no, im not whining again..

suddenly, i just have alot of randoms to blog about.

1) volleyball match ytd was awesome. so is the eye candy. (: polite finals held at sports com, went to watch with vian, wenyi, weisheng, and someone else. so much so that the match was very exciting, i was paying more attention on the player who sprained her ankle during the match. after the matches, then i realised that all four of us have first aid background, vian & i first aiders, weiyi's a nurse while weisheng's a paramedic, yet none of us went to help. isnt that ironic? anyway, goodjob to TPVB! polite champs again. (:

2) finally done with my issues presentation and many other major group projects. omg, i whine about issues first okay. did Spain and i seriously felt that my presentation was extremely boring for the first time. so much of technical strategies that i had to include in my presentation. zzz, some classmates were dozing off while others very much distracted. eventually, i was so not motivated to present and was rushing thru out my presentation.

3) no more major projects! honestly, im extremely tired of doing group projects already. until now we (htmers) have at least done 20 group projects in total. imagine doing the same things ALL OVER AGAIN for every semester. i felt so out of breath this sem that im really not motivated to perfect them. like, finish, just hand in lah! not gonna score very well for coursework. shits, all the hardwork accumulated. well, exams, study only!

4) i am seriously missing him alot.

5) went to watch the rugby match a little just now. still duno alot about rugby, but its just the love for watching sports, you know! its all abt sports that matters. been to the sports com quite a few times this sem, and i really enjoy looking at the sports trainings. you see, sports brings people together from everywhere. whatever sport you are in, its the love that is important that make you stay. its the passion that makes you want to fight and win. grr, still regretting not joining a sport in year 1. but ohwell, watching people's passion & love is very much as enjoyable. life of a spectator. >.<

6) maldives in 3 months for 3 months, can you believe it! i am really excited about going there, yet there seem to be alot of things im gonna missed out in Singapore. well, its only 3 months baby! many people to catch up before i fly.

i so need to sleep right now.

`theblackcar
SOCKER.

whats for dinner?

dpd exam paper.


first, you threw us all to engine school for lectures.
now, you scheduled us exam during dinner time.
next, you forget to print my diploma?

i still love TP.

no strings attached.

To my long dusty Lyndel,

It has been ages since we last met for a purpose, shopping/coffee/subway/gossips/oreo frappe, whatever. And I need to let you know that I really miss you like, badly. These random hellos/byebyes in school are way not enough to show how much I really want to hang out with you. I know the next date won't be anytime soon, but just to let you know, you're always missed by Sockers. All the best okay, i will listen to your tonnes of updates during the short holidays before our SIP.

Yours dearly,

Sockers.

***

To Chew WanQian,

I can't tell tell you how much I appreciated your scoldings, to ask me get my ass off the school labs and go home to sleep. Although you really sounded a bit fierce (haha), but at least I know you're the very few who actually cared for this sick cat last week. My dear, thanks for your random love & care all the time despite our millions failed attempts to meet up since 2 years ago. My turn to tell you how much I love you.

Love you Qiannnnnnies,

Socks.

***

To Perlin Tay Munling,

I wonder if you will get to see this, but still, thanks for your energy booster SMS while I was lying dead on bed. Thank you for everything since the very first day I've met you, and I really look forward to spending every single day with you (and the rest) on the beautiful island at Maldives. Thanks for being so sweet (and crazy) forever. I love you girl!

Your best combi-mate,

Socks.

***

To Vivian Phua,

Thanks for being there, always.

Your twin,

Sock.

***

anyway, i know im very late at this, but,

To my dearest NA,

Good job for your wonderful performance at National Comp a few weeks ago. You girls really deserve the second for so much effort you've put in since the start of your competition journey. You girls made the corps proud, and I am very proud of you all. (:

Your very proud officer,

CSO(5) Sock Neng.

magic words


i think we're not fated.
you called twice,
and i can't make it on both occasions.
yet i don't have the courage to pick up the phone to call you when i'm free.
maybe i just need time.
i just need time.


***
the 8 hours of extreme pain,
i felt like i was going to die,
really.


`it wont kill
SOCKER.

first lady; hush baby

it will be a secret between you and me,
and it will be a happy secret to keep. (:


my head is exploding.
my hands are freezing.
my stomach is aching.

sleep.

`record holder
SOCKER.

you totally deserve a new entry,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
NICOLE/NICOKE/NICHOLAS!

the new-age girls, not any worst than men.

another "friend" of mine picked up smoking not long ago. and the !! thing is that, its a girl, again. effects of peer pressure, i think those peer pressure lessons in CME/Moral Ed should stretch until poly education. i was very shocked to see her picking up that cigarette and started smoking so "comfortably", as if she smoked for sometime. when i first started work, i overheard her saying, "Oh I tried before, but don't intend to pick up, no point lah." at that moment she really impressed me cos she barely 17 years old, yet she can have such mature thinking, for the fact that many of her friends smokes. ohwell, then now? zzz. i wonder why, is it really more and more girls picking up the puff, or is it just me that not exposed to the "real" world. no wonder there are endless reports about the increasing number of smoking teens, esp girls.

do you seriously think smoking looks cool?
i mean, seriously.

i rmbd that day's chat with dearest, on how much he agrees that all men are bastards. even he himself think so. while another friend of mine (a guy) always says "Ya lah, girls always think it the man's fault lah, forever one."

while i beg to differ. some girls are really a **** too.

enough of that flirty thing, stop being a bitch.



lead a healthy life, go running.

business school, my school

favourite hangout place for sem 3.1:
biz park
biz labs
engine school (?!)

i swear, for the longest time i havent spend more than 15 minutes along business concourse. during a short wait for a friend in the washroom, i suddenly feel (like a freshie) while i stood along the concourse. only been to biz lecture theatre for ONCE this sem. like !! so little time spent on level 2. instead, the seniors of htm have been pacing up and down level 1 (for labs), level 4 & 5 (for tutorial) and level 5 (for never ending project submissions & to-look-for-SIP/OSIP committee), and uh, engine school for allllllll lectures. thats all.

im beginning to forget how business school concourse smell like.

`4am to 10am to complete restaurant review, goodjob
SOCKER.

if tomorrow never comes..


maybe we're not meant to be together in the first place.

in the first hour of ebiz.

winnner: YES WINS
liy tyler: hi
kelly clarkson: a moment like thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis
ashlee simpson: i love to lipsynch
davidletterman: welcome to the late night show
ellen degeneres: im getting marrried
trent: i am G A Y
sockneng: bozo
Jennifer Love hewitt: im a ****
troy: trojan horrrse O.O
Pamela Anderson: Touch my body..
hayden: save the dolphins
angelina jolie: im a *****
milo: save hayden!
hayden: save the cheerleader save the earth
jennifer aniston: GO TO HELL BRAD
Olivia Ong: The Best Mix of Music.. Class 95..
eva longoria: yes
nicolette sheridan: yes
clark kent: somebody save me
JARED PALADACKI: hey baby
ghost whispererrerer: boo
the calling: wherever you will go
DAUGHTRY: Hi there, this is chris daughtry.. you are listening to 987fm!
STEPS: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9
aerosmith: dont wanna miiss a thing
blink182: wha'ts your age again
greenday: save the earth
AFI: love like winter..
runaway radio: w408309e8fe
amber pacific: whhhhhat
good charlotte: yes
Stef Sun: Ni neng ti liang wo de yu tian..
PowerStation: Zhong xiao dong lu zou jiu bian..
Zhang Zhen Yue: Ai wo bie zou.. ru guo ni shuo.. ni bu ai wo..
Ah Mei*: TING~~~~~ hai ku de sheng ying..
Kang Kang: Wo zhao bu dao.. wo dao bu liao.. ni suo wei de.. ai qing de mei hao..
Jolin: zhong yu kan kai ai huay bu lai..
Whitney: AND I.....~~~ will always love you...~~~~
Trademark: 2 am and the rain is falling..
The Moffats: I miss you like crazz.. even more than words can say..
Backstreet Boys: ill never break your heart..
A1: you treat me like a rose..
ebiz: shut up
Mariah Carey: and then a hero comes along..
elllla: umbrellllla eys
evapigford: yes
tyra: yeah
ghandi: yes
mandela: yes
singaporean: one united peoeple
LEE KWAN YOU: hahaha. cannot spell correctly
LKY: yes. i order you
whitney houston: you willl when youuuu believeevevee
Bill Clinton: scandalous.
mariah carey: i believe
Ann San Soo Kii: FREE ME!
PRINCE: i love you my fellow purple lover
REVI NAIR: BUSH!
prince harry: i am so cute
drew: yes
Mother Theresa: believe...
schindler: yes
Prince Williams: i rock!
radzi: yes
SIR BOBBY CHARLTON: GLORY GLORY SOCK UNITED!
april: yes
timothy: yes
xavi: yes
thomas: yes
paul: yes
raddy: focus people, FOCUS!
billy: yes
benji: yes
joel: yes
indra: R.E.S.P.E.C.T!
moby: yes
maht: yes
mary: yes
amri: =D
parkjisung: yes
simpson: yes
petrcech: yes
baross: dosifhkihdcnyes
lilylimLLLLLLL: communist rocks!
barry: (:
garfield: meow yes
gerrard: GOAL!
huda: stay cool.
khairul: rock on!
yeo.l.p: YES. you should. or else i'll give you warning letter.
ronaldmcdonalds: yes
villa: yes
torres: YYYYYYYYYYYYEAAA
rose: i think you should
lily: yes
kyle: WOOHOOOO YEA
brad: yeah baby
batman: yes
robin: yes
cauliflowergal: yes
nicholas*: JUST GIVE IT A SHOT, I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT MAN!

and the decision is, postpone.
will take, but in my best condition.

**
ima bitch, im sorry.

i am, if you're willing to.

think again.

i'm really in total no mood to start anything right now, altho the list awaits. wassup with deadlines after deadlines, week after week? i believe nobody is enjoying this, just not a single one. while my lecturers happily leave school between 5.30pm to 6.30pm, i'm still stuck at the school's comp lab trying to finish (or start) my never ending assignments. wassup again with the quantity no quality work. i'm producing tonnes of no quality work from the start of the semester, for the fact that i'm so sick of the amount of work we need to do, and no motivation to put in effort for every single one. honestly, i really love the modules. lodging, for example. but i've yet to start on the project which is due in 2 weeks. so, wassup?

or is it just me, sick of doing the same kind of project over and over again. drafting out PEST/SWOT, looking out unique-est ideas for the resort/IR/everything, do up the marketing plan, think of accommodation, attractions, f&b etc etc, rubbish some conclusion saying that the idea will be sustainable and profit generating and so on.. GRR, so sick already.

am i complaining or what?

on a happier note, i'm accepted for Four Seasons Maldives in Kuda Huraa. err, rooms division.

many would wonder, why the hell would sock (of all people, SOCK!) ended up in rooms division. before my application, i had tonnes of reasons on why i wanted to go into rooms, and telling myself, "yah, its for my own good.." but after the month or so, it really made me think again if i really want to go into rooms (somemore OPRAH is so difficult!). i went to top table the other day, and i was giving the juniors pointers while dining as a guest. i really don't have to do that, but i want them to learn, for that the instructors really won't see some minor mistakes. after that good-ol day, i realised that I REALLY LOVE F&B.

for someone who never thought of OSIP since the start of year one. i still remember telling Krissy (who was already interested in OSIP then), that i would never think of going for OSIP, and my reaction was, "Siao ah! How is it possible?" today, i actually see myself accepted for OSIP, Four Seasons, in Maldives (probably the most sought after OSIP destination). not that i don't want to go for it already, but it just feels so surreal, that in a few months time, i will be at one of the best resort destination as an intern. to be honest, im scared.

whatever it is, the decision is final. and i'm going.

good luck.

`if you can understand, you can
SOCKER.

locking up

i didn't know that you can lock your entries to different customised friends groups in livejournal. going over to lj, so NOT! i very much a blogger fan. i don't care who reads, i mean if i don't want people to know that about me, i won't write. as simple. back to blogging, cos whats the point of having a blog when you don't update/maintain. but i will pretty much just update about just random stuff & maybe some not so important things. yeah, keep it low baby. i don't want anyone else making up scandal stories out of me, anymore.

not suaning anyone in the above paragraph, cos ive umpteen amount of \m/ friends who uses lj.

cos life's sucks, take drugs. (copyrighted)

endless amount of assignments to do, really. and currently my nearest deadline is ebiz individual report which needs us to compare 2 websites and write up a 10 page (at least) report. goodjob, im still at page zero. and probably the slowest in class. all thanks to the amount of time i had to spend on the group projects instead. deadline for report, tuesday, i'll be so dead by then.

thanks matt! (:

***

i have so much to say,
but i really don't have the courage.

L.

my heart aches when i read thru the hard copy report. countless mistakes spotted when they're already supposed to be eaten up. felt really tired to think of editing and re-printing. gave it a miss, and decided to hand up the report just like that. to handle a project for 7 people, or rather make it two projects. give me the strength please, i just need your heart.

sock, no more substandard work, please.


`i hate myself for loving you
SOCKER.

grumpy, because im really tired.

out of here.

for a while,
ring me up if you need an update.
goodbye world, and til then.