today is the last day of 2004. wow, tts really fast i tell you. hmm.. there are of cos happy and sad moments lahh. but too many to mention. a few more hrs to 2005. aiyo, i still hav tonnes of hmwk to be done. gonna do it afterwards. scared i can finish. let me list down sm happy stuff tt happened this yr. cos i rmbered more smiles than cries.

^cool events

.i was promoted to 4n1.

.appointed physics rep.

.danced ying zai fei on CPN`04.

.formed goon`doo with marya CPN`04.

.won lotsa prizes on CPN`04.

.ran well for NAPFA.

.finish taf marathon run. got 5th position.

.represent house in road run. got 33rd position.

.was promoted to SSGT.

.did practically well for prelims.

.did ok for N pprs.

[cant think of anything else, any reminders?]

hmm, didnt get to chill out today. needa finish my hmwk. lots of them..boring* hope tonight can go huiqi's hse to cntdown. and to stayover.

wonder how u gg to fly kite with such a rainy weather. hmm.

and sch's gonna start. will get to see my class pips again. gd luckk for my Os. enjoy sch*

[LiLs oUt]

thanks ma'am amai for e birthday gift. noe wat? its britney spears's my prerogative cd!!! it simply rOcks man. thanks so much ma'am! you noe me best! hahaa. love ya ma'am. =P saw e pic? yepp its tt. and noe wat? ma'am lied to me..twice! hahaa but its a white lie loh.. hehee thanks so much.. i really really love it!!

and you, now you noe wat happened. u asked me shld i be unhappy. wat do u think. u mean ppl get happy when someone lied to u? "hahahaha" is tt a joke or wat? i really dunno wat to say to u. and shld i forgive u? this is nt e first time. ok. i really dunno wat to do now. can heaven send me an angel to teach me wat to do?
-pissed-

and i really hate my mum you noe.. i cant imagine a mum like tt. wtf

tml is e last day of 2004. time flies. its my turn for O lvls. wish me gd luckk.
shld i go steamboating? -confused-
and pls stop being vain! *pukes*

[LiL's oUt]

my prerogative by britney spears. a belated birthday przzie frm amai ma'am. it rocks.! =) thanks ma'am  

went to wild wild wet today with xiaohui, joyce, isa, sebast, addy and poony. its ok lahs. nt really tt fun. and i sprained my neck. *ouch* its damn pain man. even til now. eRr..frm tt idiotic [slide up] its so damn scary. at first i tot it was ok. jus another fall. but when i go down e slide, its was like..OMG, WHAT THE HELL?!?!?! its was damn frightening man.. as if im gg to fly off e sit of the float. damn. and it was at then, i sprained my neck. eRr.. there were also other slides and stuff to play lahh. i think e family slide is e best. we sat so many times. and e pips there were friendly and fun`loving. we jus kept fooling ard wif each other. oh ya, but, most imptly, there were lotsa HUNKS!!! all e lifeguards and e dudes working there were all so good looking. i mean, yes.. erm most of them all.. 99% of them were gorgeous! one or two were ah pei`s. lols. erm, i dun think its really tt fun lah since there were really alot of ppl there and e Qg were damn longg. so it was kinda sians there.

and, i wana watch kung fu hustle! everyone says its powerful! i really wan to watch it! anyone's interested? pls contact me asap!..sch's gonna start soon.. yaWnx*

[life has to go on.. but that doesnt mean im alright now]
[LiL's oUt]

sOck at the beach on x`mas eve 

sOck + amai ma'am 

sOck + xiaohui + isa 

another xiaohui + sOck 

kok + xiaohui+ sOck in town 

xiaohui + sOck* 

im trying out e [hello] frm ma'am.its easy and user friendly. cool and i love these pic. =)

my life hasnt been back to normal. and im nt feeling gd at all. im trying to forget wat has happened tt day. and im telling myself to. hope i can do it. but i having mixed feelings. well, dunno abt wat. hmm. did some charity. by helping pips to do blog. everyone seems to be into blog these days. i hate myself, to be born to who i am. but yet im gonna love myself and give it a change. i will be good to those who are good to me and i will be nasty to those who dun. yes, and im sure im able to do tt. you shld noe me. the new yr is coming. so soon, in 4 days time, its 2005. so many things ahead. and im worried abt them. others dun seemed to be, at all.

first of all im really worried abt my studies. im taking my Os nxt yr. my bro has called me to start studying weeks ago. but i hasnt been even doing my hmwk. aww, this is a bad sign...
nxt up, im really worried abt st john. i really dunno wats st john gonna be like nxt yr. no one seems to care. its one week to 2005 and nth in st john is settled. even e orientation's like a lil messy. and wat abt e camp? its in march! and nt even e trainers list is out! and the combination of e CPN and camp. does it still valid? then wats everything gonna be like? then how abt training dept? e comp teams? e instructors? and wats e staffs going to do nxt yr? wats our job? whos coming back as an officer? these are e questions tt has been in my head since e end of sch term. i really dunno wat to do now. pls advice..

[LiLs oUt]

i was pissed. i am still. you will nv noe wat im gg thru. unless ure me. so if u dun like wat i mentioned on e previous post. you can fuck off. thanks for dropping by. mayb alot of u will think im exaggerating. but u dunno wat im gg thru. its really tough. u wouldnt wan to try it. im tired. tired of this kind of life. its nt tt i dun hav money, or clothes to wear, or food to eat. its tough to be heck by ppl. im damn fucked up. dun be surprised to see my face on e pprs. once ive finish wat i shld, i will go. i wan to break free of this torture. im gg mad. crazy. insane. this is enuf. i cant walk on anymore. soon, i will go.

to those who gave me xmas prezzie. thanks. at least u still tot of me when ure getting a gift.
to those who sent me xmas sms. thanks. at least u still tot of me when its xmas.
to stella, meli, huiqi and kelvin. thanks for countdowning with me on xmas eve over e phone.

i will rmber you ppl when im gone.
still, this is the worst xmas ever.

[LiL's oUt]

x`mas 2004
this was the worst x`mas ever. cant stand this fcuking x`mas. havin to spend my x`mas eve alone at home and some fcuking person to lied to me. fcuk off u bastard. i really had enuf of u. bitch.

heyys =)
im bloggin! hahaa at adrian's hse. slackin some stuff here.
yest went to aunts hse..for my sis's swimming thing. so cant make it for roger's match at night. sob. didnt make it..eRrh but he still won. hahaa cool man.
today i went to sch in the morning. actually only wanted to go see see our sj members selling thos uni stuff. but they were all so damn busy. and to see kelvin was so tired and didnt even smile at me.hahaa so i helped them! to sell uniforms. its really fun to get those stuff for the new sec ones. hahaa was busy at first. but after some time was ok le. they crowd began to disperse. we had fun then. doing some lame lame stuff. hahaa they sec threes are really a cute bunch of ppl. i really love them. we also discussed abt the the "chalet" thing. but no outcome. hahaa i sch at 12 which is the time im supposed to go adrian hse. hahaa so i was late lah. now im at adrian's hse. lol ltr gg town! yay^ gonna chill out late ltr. =)

hope the kids can make it*
[LiL's oUt]

heyys
had fun today. well, as least i was smiling the whole day. hahaa

^20 dec
erm, monday. my mum didnt work. so i was like "omg" the whole day at home. hahaa i went to swim! yay^ with my mei+er ge. lols swam a little. and i taught my sis a little as well. erm, her hands and legs still cant co-ordinate. hahaa er ge's fren benwei joined us after a short while. he swam. lols funny`ly. he tried to do a kind of butterfly style only he noes. hahaa funny indeed. =P had chicken rice for lunch and went out to suntec with my mum+sis+dad to the whatever food festival. ate a little there. yepps and guess who i saw? lols augi. my dear jnr, selling some healthy raw chicken and expecting me to buy. [sorry dude, i dunno how to get those. lols] erm, had mac for dinnr. i ate big mac. =P with fries and cola. duh. then we went to carrefour to shop. tts a great place u noe. u get o see everything at tt mega mart. yepps frm head to toe. went home at ard 8. yepps end of monday.

^21 dec
went to sch today in the morning. pass the banner to nainai. they were still doing those orientation stuff. and guess who i saw? kelvin! hahaa yesh he's so cute* everyone noes im in love wif this dude. lols u guys noe wat i meant. =P ya. there were still other pips there working hard. hahaa of cos there were those playing hard. kunny came in ltr to do homework. but i guessed he didnt. hahaa he slack thruout. hahaa and he's funny. lols oh ya, i saw gc and des in sch too. they're doing some ncc stuff i guess. and they were very dao sia. hahaa i said hi to them k? but they saw me first. hahaa =P i headed home in the afternoon. cos i "dated" my bros to a badminton game. yepps we went to hg sports hall and played. and it was funn! both my bros were damn good k. they played so well. but me?..heh heh they kept shouting at me. lols after the game we came back for dinnr. nice dinnr by mum. =) and btw, today was dong zhi. its supposed to be a day where family reunion-s. so we had tang yuan. those rice dumpling thingy. but i didnt get to eat handmade ones this yr. sadd. oh ya. and my sis's at my aunt's place so nt really a reunion eh? hahaa

^another questionaire from friendster
1. are u in a serious relationship rite now?
erm. wat kind of serious relationship? but im currently single.

2. what is on ur mousepad?
words spelt "creative classroom"

3. what's ur favourite fruit?
watermelon*

4. do u wish to be a pilot someday
nv tot of tt

5. what is the colour of ur pants rite now?
im wearing a pair of black shorts

6. do u have a lot of admirers?
nope. nt at all.

7. do u like to have admirers? .
yea. who dun? lotsa of them! =P

8. is ur computer in ur bedroom?
nope. in mt family area

9. is ur hair long or short?
long i guess.

10. do u like going to the supermarket with ur mum?
erm. i like e supermarket. with my mum is ok.

11. how much is ur allowance for one month?
jus enuf to eat and drink.

12. how long does it take for u to fix ur hair?
a min?

13. what colour is ur underwear rite now?
hahaa. i prefer nt to ans.

14. what u had for breakfast this morning?
lo mai kai

15. what u had for dinner last nite?
big mac meal

16. do u sleep alone?
nope.

17. who is beside u now?
my er ge.

18. how much u usually top up ur phone?
i signed a plan.

19. what is the last thing u touched before u played the computer?
the switch?

20. do u like to watch sexy chicks on tv?
eh..sometimes. lols

21. do u like to watch hot guys on tv?
duh!

22. do u prefer wet parks or dry parks?
???

23. what's the one thing that u love pressing on the keyboard?
[enter]?

24. is ur forehead oily?
nope. hahaa

25. who's the last person u kissed?
my sis? when she was young

26. do u like to carry shillings in ur wallet?
erm. ok lah doesnt matter.

27. do u like the smell of durian?
no prob with tt

28. u ever wished u were royalty?
sometimes.

29. what's the best thing u've done all week?
i slept well.

30. are ur parents asleep now?
my mum's asleep, my dad's nt.

tml's gg to be a boring day i think. mayb gg to sch to hang out for a while. but i wan to go exercise! hmm. but like everyone's nt free and stuff. so sad. but yes. gg town on thurs wif gq and gg town on xmas wif meimei they all. yay^ and mayb a countdown wif nainai thay all! haha xmas gonna be so funn!*

and..omg, im thinking of him every now and then. is tt normal? and yes its you. ure the one! erh..
[LiL' oUt]

today was kinda a boring day u noe. hmm jus another sunday with my family simply slacking. hahaa well, my mum had some disputes last night and she was very unhappy til she cried so me and my sis decided to make her breakfast this morning. =) so guai yea? we wokeup at 7.30am. initially it was supposed to be 7am but we were really tired. and i didnt hear my alarm. so we only woke up at 7.30am. me and my sis went to the "market" and got some eggs+ bread to make some scramble eggs and toast. we reached home at ard 8.30am. *wah an hr of shopping* anw, ya both of us start cracking immediately. we made coffee+ eggs+ toast.. well, mum didnt appreciate those. SHE DIDNT! fine. she said she didnt wan e coffee we made. fine. we kept silence. and i drank tt cup of coffee. we did not talk thru out the whole morning. hmm, she didnt say a single "thanks" or even gave a smile.

in the afternoon was worst. we were treated like as if we were working in a factory. im really pissed. well, its a long story so i shld nt say. its nt pleasant to say too. bOo* its jus bad lah. u wouldnt believe wat a mother will do to her kids. seriously its bad bad bad.

we went to compass pt in the afternoon. mum seems to be ok then. crazy. whatever lah. she smile, she laugh, and she bought new hp for my bros. she jus funny. and i hate it, she will nt be working for the nxt 3 days! damn..she'll be at home nagging and nagging again. damn*

[LiL's oUt]

^lets do some lame questionaire

1) Who did you last go out with?
joyce+ kok+ marya+ adrian+ sy+ amai ma'am

2) Who was the last person to text message you?
desmond

3) What is the first name on your missed, received and dialed calls?
missed: papa work place
recieved: papa work place
dialled: papa work place

4) What do u want to receive on your birthday?
lotsa prezzie+wishes =P

5) What do u want to receive on valentines day?
lotsa love <3>

6) Reach your hand out to the right. What do you touch?
a stool

7) What do you plan to do for the next holiday?
to start mugging for Os..

8) What time did you sleep last night?
0130

9) What's the wallpaper on your phone?
me with a x`mas tree*

10) What are you going to do 5 hours later?
i may be still sleeping

11) Is there anyone you're thinking of now?
yepp, choob+ mr cookies

12) What was the last thing you touched before the computer?
photo albums

13) When was the last time you browsed through the Bible?
a year ago

14) What can you hear besides the computer?
the news

15) Why did you answer this?
cos ive got nth to do

16) Name 5 people you saw yesterday besides the people who live in your home?
cat+ meimei+ shin+ setoh+ gc

17) When was the last time you opened your school textbooks?
erm.. sometime in the early hols

18) When, where was the last time tears started to roll down your cheek? Why?
yest, at home, after seeing my N results.

19) What makes you happy?
to be in love with someone and to eat

20) What makes you sad?
when friends doesnt do whatever they promised

21) What are your favorite books?
erm.. i dont read

22) What would you like to have right at this very second that seems totally impossible?
to see him?

23) Who will you turn to if you have a huge problem that not all your friends know about?
erm.. maybe qiang or gc or my sis.

24) What's your favorite song at the moment?
La Ji Che by Mayday

25) What's the model of your cellphone?
panasonic X70

26) What was the last song that kept ringing on your mind last night before you slept?
cant rmber

27) What was the best event that happened last year?
kayaking days with my sj pals.

28) Where are you planning to go for holiday and with who?
australia or taiwan. with my friends if possible. =P

hmm. kinda funn to think of the ans to these kind of question. hahaa ok anw, has been a slacking day for me again. hasnt touched any books or wat so ever.. hahaa woke up kinda late. had some wings for lunch. took a nap. evening time..lols went out for dinnr with ma family at amk. came back for some tv and the comp. tts my day! hahaa slackish yea? yea!

after giving some tot, still think my results sucks. and noe wat? i cant stand losing to tt b****. arr!! fine. gotta do well nxt yr. im gonna give my best shot. yay^
btw, congrats to adrian! he gt such gd results. first in xinmin and top 24 in whole of spore. hahaa so proud of him. *grins* keep it up dude. and dun get too hao lian. hahaa.

yesh. i gotta hang out in town nxt week. i cant stand it. i miss town. hahaa i think im in love with it. yay^ but i dun buy, i jus window shop. and somemore nxt week's x`mas! yesh* the atmosphere would be so great! hahaa cant wait for the beaning session with qiang they all. hope they dont ps me again. lols *x`mas rOcks*

oh ya, i had a very sweet dream 2 days ago. hahaa kinda drama kind. hmm. yea a very sweet one. =) hope it will come true. lols

[LiL's oUt]

-disappointment-

ohh..
darn disappointed wif ma results. yes i am. darn..
but still, its nt thelast day of sch for me. harhar i passed ma pprs overall lah but nt up to ma expectation. sians but i expected too much also i guess. cos of my unexpecting prelims results. ho hum~ we were showed our pverall results. everyone passed eng. *applause* the results for all subjects were gd so i tot i could do well this time. even the hardest subject,d&t, there were 50% distinction. wow* then came the top scorers. seriously, i was waiting my name to appear on da screen. diao~ one after another. none of them were mine. there were 4 tops. all got 3 for best 3 subjects. but still, hais. like tt loh. both me and cat were disappointed. darn disappointed. then one by one we went up to our form tcher to get our results. hais. i got 4 pts for best 3 subject. kinda disappointed. esp for my sci. i tot i could get a 1 for sure. mayb its too easy le then they moderate ba. im indeed very sad. hais, tot i could get better results.
i needa work hard nxt yr. i must strive my best! arrh..i can do it! hahaa

im now looking for a study grp, any pips interested to join? pls contact me. lols
(start with immediate effect)

[LiL's oUt]

back frm lala land.
hahaa kidding. didnt get to online yest cos yest was a busy day.

^15 dec 04
yepp. morning went to sch for some sj stuff. cool to see those kids again. they went there to get stuff for sec one orientation ready. as always, there were some still slacked. but there were those who were hardworking as well. thumbs up for u guys. =)
i met up with my bro at 3 at the hg sports hall for a badminton game. but guess wat. there's no more courts available when we reached there. sob* wasted a trip..bOo bOo so we went home, like idiots, and played outside my hse. hahaa so ke lian. nt pro at all..
went to aunt's hse for dinner and a night swim. kinda cool to swim at night but was slackish too. jus swam a few laps. and went back aunt's hse for dinnr. her food was 4ever so pro. they were really delicious man. haas yum yum* only went home at ard 11. i catch a korean drama at 12. it was a very nice show. i simply lovee it. =)

^16 dec 04
[[*X*happy birthday marya*X*]]
today went swimming again. wif lotsa sj pals. swam alot today. finally ive gt no phobia of the deep pool. *yay* taught ma'am+marya to swim. yepp now they noe a little. hahaa happy happy. but the happier thing is tt joyce's back! back frm australia! and she bought us some gifts. tts so nicee of her. =P she got me a bracelet! one tt i wanted to buy long ago but i jus cant bear to spend e money. hahaa im so glad tt she bought it for me. *grins*
thanks joyce*

^17 dec 04
doh its only 16 dec. tml's a big day. real BIG day man. the release of N level results. kinda cool yea? yepps i cant wait. cant wait. hope i can get real gd results. i wan a new back pack. got one in mind. hahaa billabong de. hope mama will buy for me.. =)

ok dudes, x`mas is coming. really feel like hanging out those few days. and x`mas is on a fri and x`mas on sat! time to party* hahaa yepps. and if anyone's interested to hav a gift exchange party, we'll hav one! how abt tt? ohh..im so darn excited abt x`mas. hope everyone gets me a prezzie!* hahaa
*9 days to x`mas*

^tagg`replies
jas: ya alot space but i dunno how to change it. oops =P
mq ma'am: yepp purple is my fav colour too! it simply rocks*
shuxian: heyy, thanks :)) u too enjoy ur x`mas!
feL: kinda retardd.. -_-"
amai ma'am: had funn today!*
sOck`mei: i tot blue was fine..=P

[i miss choob badly :( ]
[LiL's oUt]

wEe*
went to town today! hahaa so funn =P
met up wif adrian+siyong+kok and we went adrian hse play mahjong. hahaa so funn. im e bigg winner today. hahaa i won $10.20 to be exact. lols yea and im so happy neh. we played til abt 5 ba then kok called amai ma'am since she say she wana go to town. then adrian and kok jus called me to join them. nt tt i dun wan to go town but im afraid of my mum's nagg. but still i went.
we met up amai ma'am at orchard mrt then guess who she brought along? she brought along her sis, Mas. she's so darn cute! hahaa she's only 4 this yr. lols then we went to mac for dinnr. she ate lotsa fries. hahaa cute* after tt we went walk walk at heeren and along da streets.
the lightings were so cool. so much x`mas atmosphere! hahaa i simply lovee it* yepps =) ma'am asked me to pick me birthday prezzie but i didnt see anything tt i really liked so we didnt buy any. [i lovee x`mas*]
we left town at ard 8. kinda early lah. but ma'am wan to leave le so we took train and return home. hahaa today [my mighty in-laws] last episode. nt really nicee lah. but thosa happy endings lo. expected. hahaa
anw, had funn today. * lotsa x`mas atmosphere in town. but didnt get to see any idols. =P

to add, how do pips find me blogskin? esp e taggboard. its kinda retarded yea? if u guys think its retarded jus say. i feel like changing skin again. hahaa thanks pips*

[*i miss qiang+roger* so long nv see them lerhs]
[LiL's oUt]

wOohOo* ive got another blogskin! muhahahaa and this time its PURPLE and its da SIMPSONS. cute rite? but its kinda kiddy to me. hahaa im too bored. keep changing my blogskins. and its funn to see ppl wif new blogskins yea? anw, to some pips who dunno, to view my info and taggboard, click onto the words over there ---> to view them. and guys, pls comment.
os: after changing to this skin, i think the previous one was better. hahaa

and, yest was bernie's birthday.
happy 13th birthday bernie!

[LiL's oUt]

hey hey.
ah bear asked for pao pao yest. so we went there chill out since it has been some time we last met each other.mei+shin came too. we lunched. meimei paid for us. hahaa! thanks meimei =) love ya!* we chatted alot. despite mr bear was ard. nah, he's one of us lah. hahaa. chatted some of our slackish days at home and mei's working days in the factory. of cos nt forgeting my maidy days at home. boOed*-

-songed: 'this love' by maroon 5-

anw, when i reached home, ! tataa ! once again, we(me,my sis,my dad) were YELLED by my mum again!!! wOo. scary~ i was so scared tt i jus kept shivering and finding myself some chores to fake out. bOo X10. but some ppl jus dun understand wat im going thru'. some ppl... ya but who cares. they grew up wif *DIAMOND* spoons blah blah blah..
-sick-

-songed: 'xiao shi hou' by man quan mama-

kok and gang asked me out tml again. sians. i dun even noe if i can go out. bOo bOo* needa think of a reason to fake my mum. if i really wan to go out. haix. tt bad. my life's tts bad. like in drama serials yea?

oh ya, bear gave me my 2nd x`mas prezzie! yea* -grins- thanks setoh. =) a kangeroo fur keychain. hmm. i cant wait for x`mas!!! hope i can meet santa! and get lotsa lotsa prezzie!
i wan prezzie i wan prezzie*
ps: some pips still owe me birthday prezzie k? u noe who u are. hahaa!

feL: hehe yea swimming rOcks! and u gg overseas? must enjoy yourself k? bring back some *ahem*. hahaa chill out someday. =)

ma'am: hahaa yea. adrian does tt. *oops* anw, i oso hope to chill out wif those pips again. mayb we shld get together someday. =)

[LiL's oUt]

whoa. noe whos the hottest right now? its chadd micheal murray! hahaa the third hottest guy n my life. along side wif shuwei+ josh. hahaa im so in love wif these three guys. they're my man.! hahaa i seriously need love u see. lols. woOo*
friday= mum's naggs.
"hey you ar...blah blah blah blah blahh..." -whatever-
anw, thanks guochang for ur chocs.=) tell you, the chocs are heavenly! had a piece jus now and the taste still linger in my mouth. oOo* delicious neh. thanks gc. all the way frm perth k? hahaa.
can i go shopp? i feel like hanging out tml since tml a sat! i wan go shop. but i think i cant. hmm. mayb to visit my uncle? i dunno. mayb a bOring sat again. -_- oh ya. needa do house chores or else..naggs naggs and more naggs!
oh yea, heard tt my sis's pals read my blogg too. hi gerls. =) smile.

to "i": muahahaa dun think i dunno who you are. hehe hi sis. surprise to see you here. drop by more often and leave a tagg k? i miss you too. and ur testi chats! hahaa *muacks-
to ma'am: yea. we're going to swim for sure. yea!*

[LiL's oUt]

heyyo. jus finished bulleting my frenster board. yea. my first. anw, read my previous entry. a word to discribe, *interesting*. i talked abt my life. wow* hahaa. =) and its seemed rather pitiful. -_-" home alone now. other then my mum and dad. first time, all my siblings nt at home and nt coming back tonight. so lonely yea? hahaa both bro gone to camps. sis to my aunt's hse for a swim and stayover trip.

went to the airport today! so funn* with nainai+vian. took an hr of train to the airport. reach at ard 2. heard lotsa stories frm the two of them. of their previous camps. hahaa. went there to slack cos i simply lovee the airport and to send joyce off. she's gg to australia tonight. or rather now lah. hahaa we reached there so early. and was waiting for joyce. then she call, " sOck ar, my flight delayed leh. how ar?" then we were like "omg.." in the end she came early to eat dinnr wif us, hahaa we dun care how oso wan see her. lols

anw, we saw planes. [duh! of cos] flying so near. hahaa so funn! i simply lovee tt place. dun mind gg there again. oh ya. we were at terminal one arrival hall, we saw some gers kinda excited. and we were thinkg if there were any stars coming tonight! then we saw the ppl working there start to put up some barriers stuff. we waited to wait initially. but it was late. so we gave it a miss. yea.

we eat at bk wif joyce. she reached in an hr's time,w/o losing her way! hahaa we chatted alot alot. abt everything lo. heh heh and we ate alot. hahaa. after tt we took photos at e x`mas tree there. hahaa so nicee* then she promised to bring us to hard rock cafe when she comes back and giving us a treat! yea* thanks joyce!* btw, jus recieved a msg frm joyce saying," sOck, my flight DELAYED AGAIN!" hahaa. now she has to wait til 0100 hrs. poor joyce. waited frm 7pm til so late. hmm..poor her.

cant wait for her return. a week later. which is also ard e release of my results. yea. hopes she brings me gd luck. =) gg to pick her up tt day. * enjoy ur trip joyce. play hard. hahaa*

funn at the airport. lotsa jokes+skytrain rides. hahaa *giddy* after e ridesSs. but had fun!*

bon voyage joyce. cya in a weeks time. =)

[LiL's oUt]

now is 12.15 am. not sleeping yet. soon i guess. hmm..read my archives. now i realised y my blogg entries always so short. cos im nt gg to sch therefore tts nth to write abt. hahaa and i used to put in so much of crap crap crap. hahaa yea. oops suddenly msn auto sign out. e thing popped out scaredd me sia. hahaa anw, yea full of crap. smtimes i really dunno wats life abt. hmm smtimes i would imagine myself acting. hahaa those drama mama kind? and smtimes im really a fool man. mayb too much drama serials le. i dream alot. daydream i mean. hahaa those which is really funny. meeting sm hunks on streets and becoming a millionaire? lols ok im halp asleep. crappin` again. smtimes i think too much? i get those kind of dreams at night. hahaa wat the. hmm..wats life abt then? do we really need to plan and stuff? i dunno how to ans my qns. do you? smtimes im think y's my life so diff frm urs. my lifes really weird. lets hear abt it. since young, i dun hav many frens. or rather i dunno how to make frens. thou i need frens alot. but i dun show it. dunno y. *stubborn* i dun get true frens easily. serious nt one til now. cos im nt attractive? yea tts it. mayb u think nahs tts nt true, but ive tasted it. i noe how it feels. haven been in loved. nt yet? dunno. i wan it. always wanted one. plus all my gerfrens addg on how wonderful it is to hav smone to love u? yea. im nt attractive, dun have a gd figure, nt a pretty face. tts y. my family's weird too. smtimes when we get together, i felt e warmth and stuff. but, actually we oso dun communicate as much. we're like strangers smtimes. noe wat? i dun tok to my dad. we jus got nth to tok abt. we're really like strangers. -_-" my mum? hmm. all she says is house`chores and more of them. she dun really care how i do in sch. yea. she hacked it. cos im e stupidiest person in my family. im often left out by e topic they tok abt. i jus stay aside and listen. like an idiot. i dun join in. i cant. cos i noe nuts abt it. my mum nv signed my report bk b4. cos my results aint gd. yea, she told me tt. hurt? of cos. even i think my results gd, she's nt proud of me. she nv attends my scholarship ceremony and stuff. she dun bother. my bro supports me instead. hahaa. =) nxt up my sis?she's getting worst. really. im tired living wif her. she's always showing temper. i hope she reads this. but i doubt she would change.she's so violent. she always shouts and beat me. can u believe it?i cant hit her back. cos it will always be my fault, according to my mum. hahaa. and now she's in gd sch, she looked down on me. serious. its really obvious. smtimes im really pissed up, feel like gg to her blogg and tagg, "ure a bitch!" but i didnt. cos i love her thou she doesnt appreciate it. hoe hum.mayb she's at a growing up stage. those kind where her thinkg is really weird and funny. yea. mayb. growing up. and funny, she hates shopping.-_-" my sec bro, a slacker, indeed. he's such an idiot.bank acc $0, owes me $80. how is he gg to pay up?hahaa when he starts wrking? we'll see. he doesnt help out in chores. im angry in my heart but i dun tell him. i dun hav e heart to. or mayb im scare he would scold back. he's really gd at tt. or say he's unreasonable. he wont see this. so wat if he reads this? this is my blogg. *yaWwns* weird life of mine. hahaa tts abt it. my bro's gg to use e comp. i cant use longer, i dun wan him wait. such a nice sis he has. -_-"
anw pips, dun comment on this entry. u dun hav to. this is my life.
unless you wan to teach me how to attract guys. hahaa

[LiL's oUt]

wats again this time?! pissed. wif everything in this world. i cant believe u guys did tt. yes u, all of you!!! im sick at home. decided not to chill out wif you guys today since we're gg out on wed. i want to be in my best health on wed so tt we can play, play hard. but wat happened today? you guys went w/o me.! and yes. if i didnt call you guys out for lunch, thinking tt you guys will call me up. i will be waiting at home like an idiot for your calls.."hahaha!!!" im such an idiot. thinkg tt u all having fun will even care whether im sick or dead. none of you even cared tt im sick at home. and im terribly sick at home. i was sick on mon and still i went out wif you for a swim.! and wat you guys treat me as? im pissed. seriously. i did so much and you guys jus take it for granted. im tired of doing this ok? being like a fool. i had enuf! we promised we gg on wed. wat now? WAT NOW?!?!??!?!?!?!
bitch!

darn sick

im sick. always at e end of yr. hmm..sian down with flu.
went swimming today[when im already sick]. but since i promised them le then jus went lo.
when to meet adrian+kok+xiaohui at hg swimming complex.
had a few laps then. was feeling fine then as well.
went for lunch near sch. waited for siyong for very long.
after lunch went adrian hse play mahjong. long time nv go his hse le.
fun. =) but me lost money. hahaa nvm lah. had fun.
went hm at ard 6pm. mum didnt scold. i think she dont even noe i came bk tt late.
hahaa fine. was very sick at night time. or rather now.
keep sneezing+sneezing.
*aHh..chOo*
*aHh..chOo*
havin' lil headache as well.
and im very tanned.

[LiL's oUt]

* a day of laughter and tears * xms grad night 2004 *
heyys. im home! hahaa went out today. hmm. me and my sis. we went to city hall area. walk walk shop shop. didnt buy anything today and it wasnt really fun. my feet are aching after walking on heels for e whole day. we kept resting while we shopped. hahaa everywhere we go, we sit down and rest rest. lols there isnt much to shop so we sat at place til 6 then we went to marina mandarin!
yay^ i was at this yr's PROM! well, im didnt attend lo. jus went there to take pics with my graduating frens. cool yea? wuahahaa. abit weird tt ma sis went wif me lo since she can become ma part time photographer. heh heh =P i reached there at ard 5.50pm. im supposed to meet them at 6 thou. but i waited and waited, most of them were late lo. hahaa
the first to came was joyce and her frens. wow! they look gorgeous* very soon xiao hui+ jan+ gen+ isa and marya came. all of them looked so pretty. esp xiao hui ba. i think she look wonderful man. hehe. took photos wif them. [uploading in frenster] all of them look so great. so pretty. and im saying ALL of them! hahaa oh ya, adrian+ sebast wore as smart. they looked great too! im so glad tt i went jus now. didnt regret all e aches im suffering now. hehheh =)
i had so much fun snaping away!
aww..i think they are enjoying themselves right now ba. hmm i think they are still in e hotel's ballroom playing along. hope they will enjoy this special day jus for them. they studied so hard for their Os and for e sch and this will be their last day in associate wif e sch. hmm enjoy guys! have fun!*
xms rocks*

[LiL's oUt]

x`mas lightings all up^

im back frm ma hotel stay, and frm liyana's hse. went over her hse yest for kind of hari raya celebrations. hmm. reached there at ard 12 and helped out wif some stuff. later samamtha came. then went off again. then guochang came. we ate da food. its delicious man. hahaa i ate 2 plates. =P only da both of us+ liyana. kinda weird. we watch mr incredibles then. and both of us went off at 4.30pm.
i went straight to town to meet up wif my family. took the train wif lotsa pips. so squeeze-Z. lols but reached there quite quickly lo. we stayed at mandarin hotel this time. ands its da grand tower. e suites are so cool. its so nice. and i stayed at 25th storey and e view was awesome. rite in front of heeren. cool*
we had some simple dinnr along orchard then we went walking and looking at e x`mas lightings. its really romantic man. lols. thou tts alot of ppl. but its till cool. some x`mas trees still danced wif e music. =) took some photos of them. tts one which is really nice. its in front of paragon. check it out!* after tt we jus went back to our rooms and slack. nth much afterwards.
im so slpy rite now. didnt slp much last nite.watch movie on hbo. heh heh. bad boys II i think. didnt wan to slp early lo.me and ma bro sneak out at 2+ am. hahaa went to cheers in cine to buy supper eat. lols still see alot pips there. guessed tt they've jus finished their movie lo. its rather quiet at other parts of e streets. no much pips. alot of taxis. hahaa =D
i went back to slp at 3+ 4 am ba. didnt really slp well lo.
went walking again this morning. nt much. then we head for lunch. didnt have chicken rice at chatterbox but at boon tong kee. its nt v impressive overall. chatterbox still gives better chicken rice. lols
yea^ tml gg out again. to marina mandarin hotel for our sch's prom. im nt attending lo. jus gg there to take pics wif ma sj frens. im so excited to see wat they're wearing. heh heh =)
i cant wait!

[LiL's oUt]

heh heh. its me again. mayb becos this is ma new skin, i love it alot. =) yea yea^ tml gg hotel stayover! wee* at da mandarin hotel. cool* but i love marina mandarin better. lols anw, hope can go triple tree makan. i cant wait! but its damn ex. bleh* jus pray hard man.
arh..my mama gossiping again. boo* hate it. always toking abt me me me. c'mon lah. this is real damn! i cant stand it! one day i'll be da maid of the family. boo boo boo* u all will never noe how she treat me man. its SO DAMN obvious tt she's bias k? well, e society is bias in general as well lah. watever! cant be rebellious all da time. have to get used to it.
btw, spore idol coming to an end! cool, final showdown on 1st dec. its taufik against sly. hmm im more to a sly person(lols) but i think taufik will win. seriously, sly cant be a spore idol. he's weird. see? e society has made us bias. even i am. cos he's a ah beng kind. we think tt he cant be an idol. hahaa funny. anw, taufik i guess. =)
dunno when will this damn end. boo*
hope tt i can shop tml. i mean window shop. im broke again.

[lil's out]

yihee*

yos pips. new skin. again! lols i too bo liao le. keep finding new skin to change. cos im really sick of e previous one. this is da 1st i viewed. and i jus took it. oso lazy to find la. lols
dunno why da side <---- there de colour a bit weird de. some gt their names pinked. lols i didnt make tt. it somehow became this way. =)
today went swimming wif shin. nt fun. jus swimED. lol after tt went for food. tts for sure. heh heh. then go her hse slack. a while then come back le. nth much happened lah.
ma bro had his last A ppr today. and he's gg jay de concert afterwards! think he'll hav fun. heh heh. and i think he will retain. he keep saying tt he will fail everything. even his msn nick says so. hahaa lucky im nt gg jc. or else i will be worst. yepp for sure. hahaa
so sian at home. jus dun feel like doing chores. but mama wil scold. haix realised tt since e day i dun hav maid, i began to hav phobia of facing my mama. hell. she will jus scold and scold. like no more tt kind of happy family thing. ar. watever.
i scared to see her u noe. but im always faking. hahaa
i have phobia of facing my mum! interesting?

[LiL's oUt]

*polar express*

heyy blog! went out today. hang out wif qiang+ roger+ shijie. met up at compass, as usual. they're late! even doh im late too. their later! kaoz. they are getting worst. lols. btw, i saw jan+ isa at compass. so cool to see them there. its been a long time since i last saw them. now they've got new softbond hair. seeing them all ready for their prom makes me real sad. hmm..so saddening tt im nt gg this yr..wif all my pals! ohh..tts really ke xi man. nvm, will be joining them since im bringg my cam along tt day to take pics wif them. hahaa!
okie back to today stuff. i saw powerpuff gers at compass today! but jus a glimpse and went off. tot of marya at tt moment. lol ok fine. we went to lido buy movie tickets. they wanted to watch [saw]but then they think too much lah. none of them are 16 except me! muahahahaa..and i didnt bring my IC. lol so we watch [the polar express]. scheduled 5.15pm and at tt time was still ard 2pm. so we went for makan! but wif these rich freaks ard, they go for ex food. ate delifrance for lunch. wth? fine. now broke. no more bucks to spare.
we got so much time to kill so we jus slack and slack ard orchard. wassup man. they went to the arcade again! hell. this time at cine's. boring boring- hahaa but they didnt play long. zoe msg qiang saying tt she's in heeren. woohoo. me+roger+shijie so high. brought qiang to find her. hahaa both of them so shyy when seeing each other. lol and the three of us jus stood there like idiots. hahaa but kind of cool to see zoe there lo. heh heh she's jus so shyy. =P
we realised tt we're running late cos all along we tot e movie starts at 5.50pm. ran back to lido. missed a small part of the starting doh. but still, its a damn nice show! rating: **** heh heh its touching, magical and thrilling at times. =) nice nice. you guys shld watch it. its all abt x`mas! and anw, i love x`mas! i simply love e feeling. * its so magical. heh heh
after e movie we jus head back home. hmm nth much ard then. reached home at 9. watch the show [ye man qing jia]. dead nice show. esp zoe tay as da jie da. hahaa she's s cool man. if i were her...muahahahaha ok crap.
hmm..gg to the prom but i cant find anyone to go wif me. boo*
any ideas?
polar express is a nice movie! go catch it. =)

[LiL's oUt]

bad headache

sorry guys. back to this blogskin again. spending the whole afternoon trying to change blogskin but things didnt go well. got damn fed up. so im back to this again. hahaa will try to change soon. sick of this skin. facing the comp whole day makes me real sick. having bad headache right now. anw, tml's outing's off again. sucks. have to stay at home facing my mum. bleh*
off to rest

[LiL's oUt]

damn bitch

wtf. now i understands the feeling. this is damn. now im jus a shit at home. everyones clever. even if i did my best my treatment is still the same. wf? they didnt even care to ask for my report book. so wat if i got second? tt seems so easy for them. all they care now is my sister. she gets all the special treatment. now she bitch ard wif me. this is damn! i hate it. feel like giving her a tight slap. i felt so happy the day i got back my report book. im so glad. this 1st person i wan to show my report book to was my mum. but i didnt. cos i noe she wont appreciate the hardwork. indeed. she knew abt my results when she overheard my conv wif my bro. then she didnt even asked abt it again. bitch. all bitch. i purposely placed my report bk on my desk. untouched-
fine. now she doesnt gives me allowance. she gave my sis. saying tt she goes to sch and i didnt. hell. always protecting her. as if she does this to me. only my bro protects me when she wants to bitch me. "hahaha" damn f**ked up. all she noe is to bitch. and only to me. not to any of my other siblings.

[LiL's oUt]

whee* new blogskin

heyys. new updatedd blogskin! hope everyone likes it.=*) heh heh its pink doh. omg! cant believe im actually using pink! `watever- anyway, anyone who pass by this blogg pls give a tag. thanks* urs will be appreciated~! tag tag tag tag tag* i noe fel+mei+ma'am amai will. hehe others, pls do. thankiews *muahahahaa*
went out today! or rather yest, 20 nov. heh heh went for a supposed to be bbq de gathering which turns out to be alvin's bdae party. hahaa party time. met up wif mei+ bear+ jun and headed down to wan yi's hse at punggol 21. new blocks there. =p `cool. alot pips arrived b4 us. oops, we're late..hahaa went in and everyone was playg. as in mahjong+ PS2 and stuff. well, e gerls jus flirt. we played cards. slack and slack, its time for party.
yea, "party". they threw water bombs here and there. i jus hide and hide. hahaa didnt intend to get wet. lol looked stupid running everywhere. hahaa after tt we went up for food. cos we were hungry. hehe i ate alot. beehoon+ curry chix+ hotdog+ eggs+ luncheon meat+ fries+ fries and still fries. oops. tt much?! after tt was e gerls time for PS2! cos e dudes went for bball. alvin trying out his new bball which we bought for him. yea^
later in e night we went down for bball as well. was dropping by then jus played a while. we left e court at ard 9.30. headed to compass then home. reach home at ard 10.10. bathed and online.
mama was worried of sis. she went to chalet. mama called her on her moblie and she did pick up. diao~ she always like tt. so irresponsible. didnt realised everyone was worried abt her. now is almost one. she didnt call back home. i called her several times after i reached home. but yet she still didnt pick up. hmm..hope she's fine after all.
anw, yest's her 13th bdae!
[`happy birthday small sOck!*]

[LiL's oUt]

i'm home!

heyy i'm back frm my trip. yay^ finally i'm home..went for a 4 days trip to msia's genting+KL. set off during mon, went there on a coach. which i really hate it. the moment i got on it i feel sick *blehh* i begin to feel giddy and stuff lah but so i fell asleep lo. dunno how i slp on tt coach lah but i jus did. heh heh noe wat? i saw adam on e way too. he wasnt on the same bus as me but he was oso heading towards genting lo. hehe so coincidence. we chatted awhile lah then we went diff ways. did nt see him in genting after tt cos i went off a day 4 him. i reach e cable car station at ard 2pm and Qed for abt an hr! this is SICK. somemore theres so many pips there. i almost went crazt man. after tt we sat e cable car up to genting. we reached there in ard 15mins time lo. didnt really enjoy there this time.everyones smoking there which i really hate it! theres no fresh air at all man. wtf.. at night cant slp so played uno wif sis and bro till 12 then we went down to e indoor theme park.chill ard there for awhile then went for mac as supper. well, tt place simply cheated our bucks. arr..watever dun think i'll visit there for the nxt 10 yrs..
the nxt day went came down to KL le. stayed at federal hotel. kinda cool compared to first world lah. hahaa went for pizza! then shop shop shop..but nt much to shop lo. went ard some funky outlets but didnt buy..sob saw a adidas sling which is dirt cheap but sis say its suck..wat da hell shouldnt had listened to her and jus buy it. now regretting..aRh! nvm..continued to shop shop and shop. got a pair of flip flop+ cool black t+ nike sneakers..hahaa so happy man.
came back yest. slp at 12..woke up at 2pm this afternoon. hahaa slacked da whole day man. didnt do much. slack slack still slack. bleh bleh* gonna go to bbq tml. yea think im gg. hahaa since they called me along. yesh somemore is mr yoyo man alvin de sorta bdae party. hehheh im in!

LiLs oUt

i'll be away

heyy pips..today's a sunday! hahaa didnt do much today. jus ran ard for some errands.
went to nai nai hse today for MEE SIAM PARTY! hahaa. ate nai nai de ah ma's mee siam. i tell you, its fantastic! but i only ate one plate. since there are guests for her later in the day. so too bad for us. hahaa there's vian, jan and stella. heh heh they watched chuncky after tt, but i went off early. cos im gg overseas tml! yay^
i'll be gg for a holiday at our neighbouring c'try, malaysia, tml..hahaa kinda excited abt the trip cos ive nt been travelling for some time. hahaa gg to genting then KL. its time to play and shop! yay!!! gg KL..dunno izzit possible to meet up wif kuo wei since he's in KL. hahaa but i think he needa work. hmm..i'll try my luck. =)
miss my classmates. and my classroom. aww.. its jus been 2 days. i cant bear to leave tt sch. tts really saddening..bleh* nvm hope everything will go smoothly in the new hg campus since i'll be taking my Os there. hahaa
gg away for 4 days guys..pls do miss me. i'll miss ya too!

[LiL's oUt]

survived the last day of school 2004

fri, wow^ the last day of sch, 2004. also e last day at our fernvale site. hmm, will kind of miss this place lo since we spent two yrs over there. so fast man, two yrs liao. now we're heading back to hg site! yay^ im so excited abt e new campus. =) i think it will be such a wonderful place to study in! yay*
today is e last day for this yr. well, no more sec 4 sj frens le. hope they can do well and come back with smiles nxt yr to recieve their results.! you guys can do it! =P well, thou today's the last day, we still had lessons. chem+eng+maths. took A maths test on differentiation today. kind of easy. but im afraid i'll make mistakes. hope not. hahaa.
after tt in e afternoon, we took our report books! hahaa =P im so happy man. im happy wif my ranking. very pleased wif myself. yesh, i did it again* im so glad lo. really. =) *well done sOck* after school, mei mei accompanied me to e adidas factory outlet. finally i bought e jacket tt i wanted to buy for so long. its so nice. yesh* thanks meimei for spending her tme wif me. thanks^
hmm. to tt [someone i hate] who tagged my board jus now. wow, i admire your courage man. heh heh thanks for the comments. yep, i have a fat ass. hahaa and i love it! well, im used to pips hating me. cos i hate pips too. well, who dun hate ppl rite? everyone does. jus like me hating you and you hating me. tts life man. mayb u dun wan to let me noe who you are. fine, cos you dun dare. nvm. if me i oso dun dare. but there must be smthing tt make me hate you. mayb you think abt it. now i noe y you hate me, cos ive gt a fat ass. you said it in e tag. well, thanks, i'll try to slim down then. [am trying] im curious abt knowing who u are. but i noe you wont tell lah. but if you wana say then say. heh heh curiosity killed the cat. cont to hate me, cos i think i'll hate you too. if you wan to become frens again its fine wif me. i love making frens. rock on dude!

[LiL's oUt]

monday blues

yest was a bad day. haix seems tt im always here to write bad days. living in hell aint i? i dunno wat to say lah. again its the same stuff scoldings+screamings by my mum. seems like im gg to die soon. nt becos of any deadly cancer or diseases. its all becos of her scoldings. this is making me crazy. or maby i'll get used to it soon? nah, this will be never ending i guess. dunno y. am i really tt sucky? or jus tt she's plain crazy? mayb i'll get mad b4 her. eyes are swollen again lah. sick* i dun even noe if im at fault. arh, hack it lah. or mayb try to. i dunno wat will happen tml. dunno wats her mood tml. this is crazy. im now even afraid of heading home after sch. so drama man. but this is happening. trying to find companies in sch so tt i dun hav to go home so early. bleh. cos my mum on leave. two weeks of it. i think i needa call a room in imh chalet. jus in case nxt time i dunno how to pick up a phone to call, this room is booked for me. mayb i'll have to pay extras to put more cushions+longer sleeves. tt may look better. arh, im crazy lah. pls forgive. hope tt everything will change soon..

[LiL's oUt]

down with flu

bleh* its always like tt. got ill only after exams. mayb becos of the weird weather recently. boo- nvm. still needa live on lo. heh heh =P
its been a week! again. too lazy to come blogging. oops* em kind of a fast week past i shld say. cos lesson ended at 1230. well, official lesson still.
first of all. monday started e first day of the Os pprs. lotsa my fren taking them. they've gt 3 more weeks to go. jia you pips! you guys can make it! time flies. at turbo speed. hahaa so fast 4 yrs le. everything is coming to an end sia.
im trying to get used to living w/o my 4e+4t frens in sch. since they are leaving le. kind of used to it. but still im gg to miss them so much. i took out a photo of the promo parade this yr. so glad to see the smiles on everyone's face. glad tt they are all promoted, well, most of them. i was jus thinkg thru e wonderful days we shared. for tt 30 secs, i felt so blessed wif them ard.
last wed during an act, most of them came bk, to return their full u. oh gosh, sad to see most of them giving up. i felt miserable of cos. but its their choice lah. i cant interfere much also. but still, gotta tell them tt i love you guys. chill pips* love ya forever^
these few days was odd. i dunno why cos i keep hating pips in my class. hahaa now i think bk was kind of funny. guessed cos of my bad temper ba. but these idiots are really horrible man. lols esp yd. he's e suckiest person ive ever met. thinks he's e big boss. wat "hero"?! tts bullshit! hope tt he gets his lightning strike soon. hahaa darn shit. another guy. idiotic b. another darn. wat kind of fren is he? jus another coward. i cant believe tt i see this wif my own eyes. he's e person i despise most now. hope he get out of my life asap. i dun wan to suffer anymore. all bullshit ard. freakk~ coward!
hahaa done wif all e scoldings. lol wan yi calls me over to her hse warming. hahaa seemed so fun man. grins* think will go ba. since she invited me over. heh heh nxt nxt sat, 20 nov. cool enuf. hahaa hope everyone goes. then tt will be more fun. yay^
gg to teach mr bear how to woo gers. hope he succeed. lol he say my ways would get gers de. hahaa we'll see man dude. hahaa

yay^ gg fish & co. tonight. rock on*^
[LiL's oUt]

im a super-teen

wow^ a week not blogging? tts scary. its true tt one gets busy after the exams. esp major exams. we jus get too busy to tag along wif every activities tt we see. hahaa relax? not really. im dead beat. this week was an exciting and busy one, i shld say. i did so much stuff this week which was really cool.
did basketball last tuesday. played for 2 hrs. wanted to slim down lo. but of cos, i love basketball. =) went wif shin+ mei2+ dom+ ben+ bear. it was really fun and tiring. really perspire alot. which was healthy i guess. hahaa chills*
we did work during sch hrs. did a maths+ waves. well, we did more. hahaa didnt have homework for e weekend cos we needa attend a course which ended today.
the course was the Super-Teen. it was a three day course which started on thurs. at first many of us didnt wan to go for it cos its kind of expensive. its costs $150 for the 3 day course. we went for the first day. well, we were intro to this speaker, Dr Ernest Wong. he started e course wif those dream+ goals thing which most of us tot it was boring. but afterwhich, he added humorous elements in the programme and we kind of adapt into it very quickly. and soon, we found tt it was quite fun and enriching. we learn speed reading, memory techniques and stuff. we learnt them very quickly, which was good i tot. it really help. yep, we still went thru some powerpoint slides and stuff.-_- but he still somehow made the lesson interesting. =) the day went so fast so slow. but it still ended at 8.30 pm. wat a long day.
day 2, a weird day. dunno y. you must be the one sitting there, listening and experince the good of tt day. we went to sch on time. the course started very quickly. in e morng we did some spidergram thingy. but this day, there's some unpleasant things. Dr Ernest told us tt the greatest failure in Life is not participating. well, i guess its true. he got pissed at times. due to the way we carry ourselves and how stubborn we are. oops, tt was not right. late morng, the "excitement" begins. at first, he started scolding+ shouting at us. telling us wat failures we are. he started to "psycho" us. made us feel gulity. real bad. he said so much unpleasant stuff abt how we treated Life. i felt so much sorrow and regrets in myself. my tears fell very soon. i cant control myself. guess im gulity for not living my Life to the fullest for the last 16 years. i felt sorry to myself and my mom+ dad. tts why i cried. the more he said, the more i sobbed. i cried for 2 hrs straight, non stop. this must be the longest hours ive cried for the whole of my Life. there was so much sorrow in my heart. i felt awful tt day. i didnt have a good lunch. i cried so much tt i was exhausted, i didnt have the strength even to walk down the stairs. cos i did too much terrible things in my Life. tts y i felt so bad. after lunch, i recovered. the day went very quickly. tt was the end of day 2.
today was the last session. at first i was glad. tot tt finally this would end. but today was a entertaining one. we did more physical activities, thou there were still slides to copy. at a point of time, one of the speaker, Ken hypnotized a classmate of mine.wow^ and i found tt it was reallt amazing.wow^ he tot us how to slp as well. hmm..tts interesting. we did alot today. really alot. it was so enjoyable. i just love it. =) at night there was a parents session. my brother came instead. hahaa the talk was fun. we had so many jokes, as many as before. but soon came the last 30 mins, Dr Ernest started talking abt his Life, again. it was a heartbreaking one. i tried not to listen to him so i distracted my attention away frm him. i jus didnt wan to shed tears again. he said alot abt his Life. how much he hated his father but regretted not appreciating him when he was alive. it was really saddening. but i didnt cry, i guess my tear duct has dried up from the previous day's session. it hasnt replenish itself so there was nth for me to cry. but still i felt heartbroken. afterwhich, we were told to hug our tchers who did so much for us. we went. all of us. i felt so pleased to see tt. i was delighted. i felt my eyes were teary at tt very moment. but still, it didnt fell. ive enjoyed the lesson. ive learnt so much frm Dr Ernest. i will imply all tt i learnt in my Life. yes i will. i was so fortunate to be brought to the course. it was really enriching. i simply love it. and ive learn how to hug someone. =P

[The Greatest Failure in Life is Not Participating]
[Action has Consequence]
[im a super-teen]

to those who are taking the O level exams from next monday, remember, you don't try to so well, you are going to do well. best wishes. =) do it once, do it right.

[LiL's oUt]

the grudge is a stupid movie

today's a sunday. but not a family day for me. hahaa went out today, with qiang+roger. tot shi jie coming along. in the end he didnt show up. wonder y?..we met up at compass, and headed to nowhere. so i suggested to go for some bread! hahaa went to PS de wang jiao and find cat+peijun. since they wanted me to go try out the bread+kopi. so i brought the two buys along. wow^ the bread+eggs rocks man. delicious* grins =P went off very soon. went walking ard PS. stupid me, suggested to go to the arcade. so we headed straight to the arcade, w/o window shopping PS. tot it would be fun. didnt noe the boys can really play. omg! when they started playing, they cant stop!!! but lucky the arcade was too noisy, we decided to go for movies instead. but there isnt any nice movies these days. all scary scary kind, which i REALLY dont dare to watch! but stupid roger, suggest to watch the grudge. omg. at first i didnt wanted to watch de. but since they both wana watch and qiang treating us, we went. we needa wait for an hour b4 the movie, so the boys went back to the arcade! hell, they jus love it so much. i jus went in to watch them play this time. we were slightly late for the show. cos of them playing and playing. hahaa i heart was pounding so hard even b4 the movie started. cos i jus dun watch horror! i didnt really understand the movie cos i kept covering my face or hiding behind qiang+roger. but still, its a stupid show lah. dun watch it. its stupid stupid stupid.

[LiL's oUt]

party time^

finally its friday.
still cant get back to that study mood. cos its not even 2 weeks since we ended our exams. haix,wat do i expect? work work and more work. hahaa of cos we finally started a maths! hahaa its been a long long time since we last held our a maths text. wow^ love a maths out of a sudden. hahaa cos diffentiation is easy! hahaa love to do a maths stuff..=P yepps
for physics, we learnt waves! which was still okie. didnt have much probs with it up til now. still can cope. hahaa and we had a change of tcher. a new physics tcher. yay* mr tan is such a funny person. but still its physics, there are still times where its really pure -bOring-..waves~
went to sch earlier today, realised the newest comp team started their training. it was quite cool..doh they isnt as great. the na team was training them. they can make it. jia you* hmm..kind of miss sj. going back these days. yay^ gotta see all my frenzy again!~
tml's going chalet. my chalet for my grandma's birthdae. but dun think im staying overnight cos i dun think there's space for me since my relatives they all are staying. everytime oso like tt de. we dun get to stay over at our own chalet. thats so unfair! boo* long time no stay over liao. sob^
wanted to ask qiang out for lunch tml but he's working so he changed to sunday instead. hahaa then sunday supposed to go out with my mum. oh my, in a dilemma. when i told my mum abt me gg out on sunday she went crazy. hahaa then keep nagging+scolding me. diao~ so i jus hav to say i'll go for lunch with her tml afternoon lo. hahaa actually wanted to bring my mama go eat cat+peijun de toast bread de. think now bringg qiang there instead. hahaa cos i promised them i'll go so i will go. yay, toast bread rocks*
now sian, tml morning will be a boring one since im not going out til mama's lunch. think gg to slack ard at home again lo.
and, idiot me, i deleted all my inbox msges again. haix

[LiL's oUt]

who caused the trouble?

what a bad day. 20 oct real bad, doh it was my mum's bday but a suck one in sch. its hell.
started off the day wif real bad hair. declined bad hair day. hahaa then i misplaced my keys. cant find them. so didnt bring them along. that izzit the worst. the worst came in the afternoon. haix. trouble..again. pips went off during official classes. well, moreover during ms tan's class. ls tan got pissed((of cos)) and went to the principal. class called down to the foyer. some runaway pips came back cos they got caught. boo* got lectured by the principal..whom are those who stayed in class and didnt ran away. weird. why us? i dunno.. i've got to say, those who ran away. they are jus those who are irresponsible. and didnt tot of how they rest would be asked by the sch. what are we supposed to say? are we supposed to defend you pips? or jus tell the sch where you have gone? how do we feel at that time? being idiots of the class who keep saying "dont know.." i noe there are frens in there. but this is exactly how i felt abt this incident. their mom+dad was called up. they were pissed wif thet sch. but why? they did something wrong, and they became pissed wif they sch instead of the sch getting pissed wif them?i dunno wat else to add. but i jus feel weird abt this incident. really weird. dunno wat are those pips thinkg. no offence, but true lah. mayb they think otherwise. i cant change their way of thinkg. this is jus a freedom of speech. and im jus telling how i truly feel abt this thing. disappointed wif their kind of insensible thinkg. watever

[LiL's oUt]

seoul garden

no sch today. decided to chill out with my frens. went to taka. had seoul garden for lunch. it was quite fun. had those food and stuff. but it hurts when the oil spills on me! pain pain eh. my whole arm was hurting, but i still cooked for my frens~! yay^ i got to eat yam ice-cream too! yumyum* cool purple colour^ *gRins* we sat there from 11.30 to ard 2. got sick of that place so we went out. scroll ard taka but it was boring so one suggested to go to the arcade. its been a while since ive visited one. had fun hitting the huge bluegreenred buttons and shooting down the bad guys in the video games. spar with mei+ben+shin. it was fun. got out of the arcade once we realised we were wasting cashh. hahaa =P sat ard and chatted awhile. jus for awhile, then we left ps. decided to head home since we dont match. at least for our interest. boo* dont noe wats wrong today. but felt weird. weird enuf. *bleh* who cares. i had my seoul garden lunching. thats all. -_- mayb i didnt really enjoy myself. i was lying..who noes?!
im still asking myself if its true. i cant decided. this shows that im indecisive. yes i am. it hurts to see him this way though.

[LiL's oUt]

open house

oops..kind of lazy to blog nowadays. sorry for those who make a frequent visit to my blog.
today was the sch's open hse for the pri 6 pips to visit. im not really involved lah, but jus went there to help out and stuff. wanted to reach there at ard 8.30 de, but went to eat breakfast wif mom+dad so reached only at 9.15. everything was set up, or rather the archery stuff only lo. the instructor came so late. only at ard 10.30. there were so few pips coming to try out. dun think there's even 50 of them. most of our own pips oso did archery. of cos me too! long time nv shoot liao. kind of lost touch. but shot well after some tuning and stuff. it was fun. =) i got in all yellow for one set. haha so nice. *gRins* other then tt it was boring. there isnt any other own pips ard. boring boring. so we stop everything very early. ard 1+ doh it was suppose to end at 3. haha. after tt, me went to nai nai hse to eat mee siam! her ah ma cook de mee siam. it was awesome~! really so nice man. but pai seh to take second serving. haha then went to heartland mall to get roger's prezzie. finally. haha did alot of standings+travelling today. dead beat. but was fun. did have to stay home and do hsework. can run away from tt. i decided to do wat i wan. im not gg to be an idiot anymore. haha
yay^ gg to seoul garden on monday~!

[LiL's oUt]

im so tired

im so exhausted.simply dunno when will this torture ends.i dun noe. actually i dun even noe wat has happened..im jus so tired then before. jus feel tt i didnt have eunf rest. i really need a long break. finished my exams on mon 4.30 pm, reached home at ard 6 after some dragging and stuff. went back to sch the following day.didnt even get a days rest. we didnt get back to sch for any post exam stuff..not even for a day,we went to studies straight away. some tchers did give us a break. many didnt. i felt so worn out. didnt get to rest even for a day. i dun noe wat the sch is thinkg. im cant even think. i felt really terrible. i even feel out of breath at times. i cant even rest. had homework to do on that day itself, the day after my n level paper. i feel like crying, but i think i will prefer a long sleep. i dun think the sch's way of forcing us to study will work. i think that really sucks. recieved an o level maths paper for homework. can you believe it?
today went to same. or mayb a slight difference. more tchers started teaching. well, do they need to do that? did physics, felt like dying. went thru maths paper, that was worst. dnt did a crapping session, feel like slapping the tcher. slack for ss, lucky that tcher was slack herself. went of to cnb visit at 1.30, realised that there isnt any mt lesson at 1.30. everyone was dismissed. went to cnb, it was a fun trip. learnt alot, the presenter was funny too. sort of away from stress for hours.jus that few hours.
sch was quite bad. well, wif non academic stuff. i was too tired to face that prob. so i decided to run away. feel like talking to someone abt it, dunno whos the lucky one. i didnt noe wat happened to day, but she jus avoided me thru. didnt even said 5 sentence to her for the whole day. and dun think the prob lies wif me. i had eunf of her. i jus felt made used of at times. this is kind of sucks as well. she jus thinks im a toy, when she found a new one, she put me aside. im sick of it. now i noe, su was rite. i dunno wat to do now. wait till she comes and talk to me? i dunno..
had another prob. which i dunno why it was like that. i dunno how to solve it. i am becoming to hate him. so much. its seems that i hate all his actions. i cant tell why. im jus pissed. again, i dun think he treasures the friendship between us. only when he needs us, he'll come back. i dun intend to call hm along. he went to call others. i dun noe how to explain. i dun understand why am i feeling this. im jus puzzled. yet i noe im jus pissed wif him. i feel that the hatred is beginning. thou i didnt really wan it to happen.
im feeling im going into depression. or mayb im jus plain crazy? i may look fine in sch, but im really sick abt everything in this world. jus sick-

[LiL's oUt]