明天我还有工作吗？

Todd announced the L2 team. Steve has a job.  Chris has a job.

We are under SteveN && We support ChrisM.

So… we have a job! Who knows. Hehe…

Tectonic move

Crying all the way to the bank

When GeorgeF told me that ”VJ was crying all the way to the bank”, what it means to me is that…. VJ was very sad, and as he bid farewell to the IPG staffs @bldg 66, he was tearing as he walked past the bank i.e.. Addison Avenue Credit Union.

I took it literally and told MarcR that VJ was real upset. Duh. In addition, Ron told me VJ shook his hand, so I thought… all is real.

To my amusement, what it actually meant was that… CRYING is a sarcastic term, how would a corporate executive feel sad when he will end up getting a huge sum of compensation ($$$) as he is told to go? No way. 

Uh-oh, I learnt new American phrase. Hehe… I was so naïve. Duh.

First on EFCSD

3/25 was the first time I lead Sunday worship in EFCSD. Oh well, it was indeed a good learning experience. I thank God for that.

We had worship practice on Friday. DrummerWu did not turn up, so there was only keyboardist. I was a bit worried. I am unsure how to build up the atmosphere with just the keyboardist. I know Karen has been trying very hard. Somehow… when I first saw the roster, I knew it. In a way I am prepared for that. I believe as a team we can be better and work through the challenges.

The practice was good. DongH and Heidi were the vocalists. DongH cheekily recorded our voices as he said he need to listen to that for improvement on Sunday. Hehe… Good that SimonK came. As usual, he commented a lot (he claimed that too) and he helped Karen with the playing. As much as I hope he helps, to a certain extent the team depends on him too much. Kekek. It seems to me that Karen suddenly lost some confidence when SimonK appeared. We had a good laugh most of the time. I have this conviction: it is OK to make mistakes, as long as we try our best.

Sunday1050am. I see that the sound control was not done. People were panicky. Karen forgot how many times she needs to play. Even until 11am, we were still moving the monitor and finding out what went wrong with the keyboard. No microphone test. And we got that started by reading the ‘call to worship’ verse. I can’t really hear my voice. Bummer. I start to get a bit furious.

Then as we sang the first song. Hmm somehow the whole feel was so draggy. The 气氛 is not what I desired and imagined to be. Suppose to 清唱 the chorus, oops, music never stop. Well, it’s alright. The second song. Hehe…I realize we have to ‘lead’ instead of letting the music guiding us. In return, we need to make sure that we got the notes and key right, which we did. Hehe… thankful for the good vocalists.

Third song. The toughest of all. New song. The way the music was played is somewhat different from how we sang. Doom. I thought. Hehe… but we managed to pull through. It was interesting to have the view from the stage. I could see simonK ‘played’ while he was standing there, worshipping the Lord. Kekeke. Maybe he can feel my pain. Here comes the last song. Quite nice except the part that my mic was so soft till I need to raise my voice whilst the vocalists were singing. Faint.

When I walked down to the seat, I felt lousy. Really lousy. It was quite bad. It was as though we were dragging and trying to pull through the whole session. Things were in a mess. Really. I am not going to believe what others say later. 心里有数。

God showed me sometimes as much as technical skill set and presentation matter, what matter most is how He wants to use that to touch His people. I am sure the congregation has been touched in the ways I could not imagine and predicted. God taught me that His way surpass all. I still like the team a lot. I know everyone try their best, as well as myself. God still minister to His people despite the glitches.

Response song. It was a debatable song and yet God uses that to touch all. PastorLin put effort in his message and I liked the way he wrapped up the sermon with the song. Holy Spirit is at work! To my surprise, SimonK walked out and played that song. Wowo, 2 pianists, I almost become confused by the disharmony. Seriously you can feel the difference when Simon plays! I must say he is good.

We sang 我用信心抬起头 after the service. What a meaningful song. I noticed that some people stayed. It is so comforting. Read the lyric. Hehe..

世界不能給我溫暖的時候 我用信心抬起頭

藍天白雲總會再次提醒我 我的天父關心我

生命是你所造 一切祢明瞭 祢豈會不知道 我此刻需要

有沒有人陪我 不再重要 祢的同在溫暖我

***

禱告還沒有蒙垂聽的時候 我用信心抬起頭

藍天白雲總會再次提醒我 神的意念高過我

生命是祢所造 一切祢明瞭 祢豈會不知道 我此刻需要

卸下所有重擔完全交托 祢的恩典夠我用 夠我用

***

人生旅途走到終點的時候 主啊求你幫助我

擦乾所有眼淚沒有懼怕 祢的榮光照耀我

渴望聽見祢說 孩子我知道 祢用一生愛我 一生榮耀我

雨後的天空有美麗彩虹 我用信心抬起頭 

父母的爱-家人的爱

上帝对每个人都很好，我是其中一个蒙大福的人

那天，知道妈妈脚疼，心里其实很担心。感谢神赐给我们那么好的家人亲人，让他们在这样的时刻能够彼此关注，互相帮忙。二哥姐姐也特地开车到新山与阿姨妈妈会面，接着带妈妈去验血测试。感谢神一切安好。

去小肥羊那晚，就老是觉得当天很不顺，差一点就在工作场所发脾气。由于是第一次到小肥羊，对那里的位置不熟悉，所以在寻觅的过程当中车子碰上有点深陷的窟窿，前方被摩擦，心疼死了。隔天我很幼稚地问老爸这样的磨损需要维修吗？总之就是想埋怨一下。呵呵。

最近sawRen的爸妈好像也成了我的adopted parents. 哈哈

周三我会向安娣学排舞，起初觉得有点笨拙，经过她细心教导，我进步了许多，呵呵。昨天她还做了几道菜给我吃。安哥很可爱，非常喜欢吃番茄酱，就连guacamole也的加上一些泰式辣椒，呵呵。我们啊除了用英文聊天，也偶尔参杂马来语和福建话，好亲切啊！

更妙的是，sawRen和ericL都不在家，我还可以在他们家来去自如，呵呵。这是恩典。谢谢上帝让我在异乡感受这温情。阿门。

谜

Princess
那天当我埋头苦作时，KC走上前来质问我。她的语气有一丝的不悦，说道：I heard you have been going around and tell people that you're princess. Actually the real princess is me.

我有点没有马上反应过来。第一，她说我到处张扬。拜托，我只是把 princess 写在那纸上，是其他人发现然后替我宣扬好不好，别胡说，我哪有那么不要脸。第二，你干吗告诉我你是 The公主，关我舍事，我才不管。

当下我当然没太在意，只是周四晚后来想起时觉得有点莫名其妙，她凭什么！呵呵。可能她不甘心公主的称号被我抢先一步夺走，不过我的确比较像公主啦。

daiLou的中文水平有限，老是把Princess误以为是‘姑娘’，好吧，他高兴就好。话说回来，难道我有些举止很姑娘吗？应该是因为我常常向他询问生活小贴士，像足了温室里的小花。他说我的Princess roll 那么明显，30寸的宽度和40+寸的直径，别人不察觉到才怪！oops.

Genius
工作也可以很开心。那天中午我们4位WS工程师一起坐在sp22面前工作。感谢上帝赐给我那么出色聪明的同事，他们很赞！daiLou 的机智和‘幽默’让他在管理层面前熬出头，ronB的细心和事事讲求科学可以解释的要求让人能很客观的分析事物，marcR的 pipeline 功力深厚，他能够一整天对着linux 也不觉得闷！

尽管那天有无数次的 PEC Crash，有点pek chek, 但还是很享受同事间的互动。难得。这真是恩典！

周五我也成为了genius, 很乌龙的将打印的slice 次序对调，还捉不清脑袋的想了解到底是怎么回事。差点就在 FrankD 和 daiLou 面前丢脸，呵呵。还好ronB救了我，发现 slice 的方向与我所‘设计’的倒对，大家过后大笑。没关系啦，重点是知道错在哪里，成为一时的笑柄也OK。

FB 照片
Rachel 问我说你们公开了关系了是吧？Robert还以为是大爆料呢！我搞不清他说了什么。因为我没有什么需要公开的啊。

啊，查阅面簿，干嘛我的照片成为 YY 的 Profile 照片？吓死我啦。由于怀疑可能网页没有被更新，我们 refresh，都只见着我的照片，但名字是YY的。快晕了! 怎么我上网却没有看到咧，难道可以有不同的设置？虽然FB极有可能会犯这种错误，但这就妙在为何是我和YY？哈哈。该不会那么巧吧？

不知道这是不是一个美丽的误会，呵呵。

N次触摸

是依然在乎，抑或是甩也甩不掉？毅然想要放手但却莫名其妙的牵扯？也许我又多心了

智慧大叔曰：欲冷静而勿冷淡

小女子心中则感到一份无奈。友人问我到底是怎么一回事，我岂有答案？

主日牧师教导：上帝收去的东西，他以自己来代替。上帝有时不会一次就了事。所以请放心告诉神你的想法，若真的感觉不好，就照实说；绝对不要抹杀上帝选择多次触摸的方式。

此时的我... 依然相信人间仍存希望，因为我信的是造天地的主，他是一切万有的源头！阿门。

经典圣诗：《炼我愈精》

你若不压橄榄成渣 它就不能成油 你若不投葡萄入榨 它就不能变成酒 

你若不炼哪哒成膏 它就不流芬芳 主我这人是否也要　受你许可的创伤 

我要赞美再要赞美 赞美何等甘甜 虽我边赞美边流泪 甘甜比前更加添

能有甚麽比你更好 比你喜悦可宝 主我只有一个祷告 你能加增我减少

每次的打击 都是真利益

因你所收去的东西 你以自己来代替 


愕然发现这出于Watchman Nee 倪柝声，好一个美丽的惊喜

Moment

I like the MOMENTS when these pictures were taken @ Cowles Mountain. hehe... 

So 自然，and i notice that I look pretty good in that attire. Maybe i lose some weight already? hahaa... faint. I am so random.

Paint Ball 初体验

去年九月我们就决定趁着有特价时购买‘漆球’的groupon。原因很简单：既然没有尝试过，加上若大伙儿一起参与应该更好玩，所以我们一些人马上决定‘下注’！磋商好久，好不容易定下日子。

3/4 我们结伴去了。由于我们迟了一步，该有的配备如眼罩、外衣等都被前一批的客人抢先占用；无配备简直是等于我们会赤裸裸被打伤，最后我们以安全为前提决定挪后一周。感谢上帝让那商家也很友善的答应我们的要求。

3/10 基于怕输的心理，我们铁定一大早就冲去MCAS，想成为首批的客户。我们真的来早了，他们都还没准备好！呵呵。这回我发现多数人都稍微有多一些的准备，尤其是在配备上。围巾、帽子、手套、阔裤、连帽长袖衣、太阳镜等；当中就DP的‘打扮’最完备，该遮该保护的都包得密密紧紧的。我既懒惰又没有很酷，只穿了牛仔裤和长袖衣，其它的就听造化吧！

配备

这回我真的有点害怕。手上握着的漆枪竟然是那么的陌生，搞不清什么是 ’safety’ ，我不会发动枪咧！听说‘漆弹’打在身上是很痛的啊，真是无法想象。哎，突然有临阵退缩的念头。

穿上camo 外衣，将‘漆弹’装满枪靶，戴上面罩，哇，好不舒服也！那面罩压着我的耳朵，而背后的带子又容易松脱，面罩上的海绵与两颊摩擦，有点疼!  (老实说我有点担心破相，哈哈，真是爱美) 很妙的，这时上帝让我想起圣经里(6：13-18) 所谈及的‘全副军装’

所以，要拿起神所赐的全副军装...所以要站稳了，用真理当作带子束腰，用公义当作护心镜遮胸 ... 又拿着信德当作盾牌 ...

霎时觉得要穿戴这军装，做一个要上战场打仗的军人真不容易，我好像没有那种 能力呀。

战友

我们10人带着既雀跃、兴奋又恐慌的心态等待征服敌人的时刻，但我们对接下来的分组一点头绪都没有，只能默默地等待号令。

不远处我们看见有几位高头大马的美国青年，哇，快给他们吓死了。身高、架势、和看起来‘爆发力强’的配备让我有点想冒冷汗，恐慌程度飘升。他们没穿戴得很紧密，反之还有人穿短袖，外加一个类似‘防弹衣’的背心，hoho，看来是常客。没猜错得话我们应该会和他们碰上，天哪，我们简直像菜鸟等着被宰杀，用‘送羊入虎口’来形容简直是恰当不过。

战战兢兢的入场了。哦，我很侥幸的被分配到与那4位老美同组，松了一口气；至少我不会被那连环发的漆弹打得落花流水。单是听那发弹的声音就让我发毛，噢，恐慌程度马上减半。

开战

套用BJ的话，一个人的性情从拿枪的那刻开始就能表露无遗。子弹真的没长眼睛，在战场上管你是谁，只要是敌军，我们就想把你给解决。虽然开枪扫射是犯规的，但为了感受开枪的快感，连发子弹也蛮好玩的，过过瘾，学当个军人。呵呵。

虽然个性上我属于那种直冲的，但此时的我还有点害怕，担心那不长眼的漆弹射过来，撞击在身上的疼痛可一点都不好受，我选择躲在后头作支援，哈哈。果然你可以看到那些勇猛的战士虽然能够冲破敌人的防线，但背后的代价就是中弹阵亡或投降。

我们这组可说是越战越勇哦！我当然也越玩越放任，胆子也变大，还与doubleA成为搭档，互相掩护，由此看来，战友是很重要的，沟通当然也是关键。

代价

玩乐的背后是有代价的。漆弹冲过来打伤了头，面罩，手指和身上部位，这都留下淤青和擦伤，但那也说明我们的确有参与。我的歪理就是不管怎样也要被打伤，不然日后怎么诠释漆球的 ’fun’ 与 ’pain’呢？都说是歪理，别太认真。我的腿和手臂好酸啊！平日就鲜少连续蹲站跑，加上又得拿着那配抢，累死了。好一个workout！炎热的天气加上 战场上的折腾快把我给热痹了。

学习

认清谁是你的同袍。我很愕然的发现我的不安和自信心竟然取决与谁是我的战友。没有完美组合，关键在于你对你战友的认识与信任。更重要的是团队精神而不是个人主义，舍身为人与不屈不挠的精神更为佳。

有时打战时的心理素质是很重要的，鉴于对武器的不熟悉与许多的未知让人很不安。 ‘害怕’本身原来是那么可怕的；畏惧恐慌人人皆有，但我们需要学习寻找恰当的方式克服障碍。当我害怕畏惧时，我到底倚靠谁呢？

好啦，玩一个漆球很值得，除了引发我的小小感触，也让我上了‘战场军人的经历’和‘畏惧的真相’这两门课。更重要的是，大家能安全和愉快的玩乐，那可是一件很美的事哦！

Avocado 鳄梨

最近真的喜欢上鳄梨，它的味道其实很香，天然的好脂肪，润滑得很。

因着 Guacamole 的缘故，爱上鳄梨和salsa。

烘烤的面包配上鳄梨，架上几片新鲜的白蘑菇与番茄，牛油果酱都是多余，原汁原味，赞！

怀念东南亚的鳄梨奶昔。简单的饮料 = 椰糖、牛奶、鳄梨

哇，我觉得我也太超过了吧，过度的有健康意识。呵呵。虽然价格不太经济，但该吃的还是得吃，就像近来的汽油价格只升不降，车还是得开，不然只能呆在家里哦！

KS
相中了一个包包，犹豫了1.5天，怎晓得刚才想铁了心买下她竟然 OUT OF STOCK!!

Lord You're Always here with me

I like this song a lot. Very comforting. I prefer the English to Chinese as I feel more for its lyric. Well, we are going to sing the Chinese version in the church.


However, the truth still holds. God is always there for me and He is always by my side. He is the same yesterday, today and forever more. We stand in His promises as He holds our future in His hand. He is our solid rock, Almighty God, I worship You. Amen


Here's the youtube link :) Lord You're always here with me

Leap Year Week

过去一周的情绪波动还挺糟糕的，见识自己原来压抑好一阵子的怒气爆发出来还挺可怕的，呵呵，真妙，至少更认识自己。

high IQ
还好尽早与Ron讨论进展，若是再拖几个星期后，我的脸可能更黑，哈哈。用错 mask这种错误竟然会发生，而且还在我们打印了10来个小时之后，太不像话了吧！难道我的苦劳真的那么不值钱么？那天还真的有点气愤，重新干一次，早发现总胜于之后的遗憾。

既然需要预订打印机来测试，我们通常都是‘先到先得’, as long as you book your slot through the outlook calendar before others, you'll normally get your press time. there was a joke the other day when this media(paper) guy who needs the press to run his test. But that was my slot. so i told him over the OC.

• Me: hey dennis, please dont come as it is my press time
• DennisP: So you're high IQ? 
• Me: Yes
• DennisP: You must be very smart!

I just continue to laugh out loud. That was soooo funny. Yes, I do not usually associate this high IQ to high Intelligent Quotient. To me, high IQ  = high Image Quality.


Fickle Minded
Somehow things just get on my nerve on Thurs. Maybe it has been brewing in me for quite some days and it exploded in that evening. I was overwhelmed and irritated by the followings:

• - 3 consecutive duties in a row
• - choir song practice during weekly thurs singspiration
• - Indecisiveness on the paintball arrangement
• - Shallow or 'surface' sharing while doing round table
• - Grumbling from Jia

Interestingly that day I did not smile a lot too, just don't feel like. and 3 persons commented that I looked sad or upset. Ahem, I think i become sad after their remarks.


So.... i blew my top for hours. I allowed myself to be angry and grumpy that evening. I just show my temper to them... oops. and the crankiness continues. I refuse to list down the prayer request on Friday. haha. i think some can sense that. Well, once a while. and that night... i slept at 3am. I am unsure whether it is due to the Viet coffee or the anger... 

 That evening, i took off to buy coffee and brought that to Torrey Pines. I did not run that day but brought 小红out to capture the moments. hehehe... the sunset is so nice. ChinLee commented that I have a good life in San Diego, which i agree. kekeke...                                    
                              Off work@430 + coffee + camera + Sunset @Pacific Ocean.

Isn't that a wonderful blessing? Oh man, daylight savings will end on 3/10. It means I wont be able to catch the sunset at 5.45pm but 6.45pm. Sigh. I still need to go Ying2's house to wash up, chit chat && pig out session at 6pm. oh man...
  
Visitors
This week we have visitors from Singapore!! whoohoo. ChinLee asked masterYeo to bring me the candies, soup pack && i-weekly. so sweet and thoughtful of her. I am so glad to be her younger 'sister' and she still treats me very well. *to think I always piss her off and being so direct to her*. well, that's what true friends are for.

Lunch with MasterYeo and SmDennis @Akai Hana. hoho. Did not know SmDennis reads alot. He reads book on his i-phone whenever he is free. kekeke. He looked less serious when he was here on Wed. MasterYeo kindly jio-ed me to join them. hehe.. nice, he knows i need some 'local' fix.


Urge. We went there b4 TSY left for LA. kekek. 4man + 1 lady. Haiyo, these gentlemen all at their early 40's. the way they talk is funny. apparently TSY became drunk soon after he had his porter. He was worried that he might miss his flight and as we psycho him to ride with SmDennis, he refused to. Why? because he argued with SmDennis, who is his boss 2 weeks back. TSY did not want to go with him. hahaha. We were all so amused by TSY's reaction. The next funny thing is... we told him to take the check. He was supposed to write 52 buck but he just wrote 58. We were like: Are you OK? you're really drunk! then.. we left Urge and he almost forgot that his bag was still at big bro's car. hahaha.... What a joker.


We had a good laugh at him. muahahahhaahahah... 

公主舆论
由于担心他人偷用我的paper, 我不要脸的在我那大捆的‘test media’ 写道：This belongs to princess. 怎晓得竟然还被Ron发现，他好奇的问Bill：do you give the nick name 'Princess' to Pealow or Pealow gives the nickname to herself? 哈哈。Bill笑了。之后这Ron 还向其他人讲述这princess media.

Lunchbox kaki那天在cafeteria 叫我 Pealow，我没留心；不过当他们用‘princess'那词，不巧我感觉到有人似乎在叫我，我就转头，哈哈。他们也大笑了。拜托，我真的没有注意听，当然更不可能要在诸多人面前不要脸的称自己公主，都几岁了啊。

昨晚在RR家，我真的是快累垮了。上午6.30分起床到Cowles Mt 去，然后又冲着去玩漆球，接着带小灰银去洗澡，洗刷休息1小时又冲到sawRen家带大人小孩去教会，用完晚餐，若是临时放飞机，肯定被R骂死，所以我就出现咯。昨日的太阳真的快把我给晒晕，感觉好像中暑一样。

一到他们家，双眼快闭起，头疼的很，哎。我边喝着 Isaac小弟所调的Vanilla Oreo鸡尾酒，边快不行的坐在沙发上，盖着小棉被，后边垫着两个枕头，闭起眼睛欣赏Corrinne May 的音乐。他们都因着我那少见的‘文静’和‘无力’而惊讶。突然开始有人用‘公主’之称在我身上，不好意思啦。还好，当中已有几人见识我的公主并发症，开始决定对付我，不让我每次都得逞。哈哈。