Water * Coke * Coffee

Looking back...
2007 is quite an eventful year, I have been grumbled a lot and it's only last few days that God knocks some senses on me!

He has been quite faitful and kind to me, actually, start from Jan-Dec. Some highlights..
- Safe and enjoyable biz trip in SD + catch up wid CY in LA
- Good health esp mum n dad
- New addition - Eechen
- Finish my first half marathon
- 4 vacations: SDLA, HK, Perth and Shanghai!
- Accomplish discipleship course
- Promotion
- Peanut for year end bonus
- Struggle & challenges in matter of heart

God has been very nice to me. Really!! Thank God for the angels who walked me thru this year. I truly appreciate that! =)

Water, Coke or Coffee? Hmmm I think I still prefer Water. Once awhile I like Coke, so just treat that as the special one as it is quite addictive. I actually prefer Sprite more. As for Coffee, I am training my tastebud. So I only opt for that only when I have a strong craving!!

Yeh, I shall leave for my year end vacation soon. See you next year!

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I wrote this sometime back. Must upload it before 2007 is over :)

<< A Crazy Christmas >>
It was a concert, I always thought it is a play until I went for it. Quite a cool surprise for me. Dim sum dollies, Lim Yu-Beng, Tan Kheng Hua, their daughter, Hossan Leong, Lim Kay Siu et others.

It is quite broadway & Jazz feel. I like that part whereby Selina Tan tells a story about Jesus Christ. She incorporates some of the broadway songs while spreading the good news to audience that Jesus Christ is born, for you and I. Quite cool =)

Think that guy is called John, he sang and play piano quite well. Yubeng's daugther also sang quite well, kinda sweet =)

I also like the last part, little Christmas carol. What is Christmas without carol? Hehe.. They all dressed in White. Nice nice


<< Cell Group >>
We were at Liqiuds cafe. My first visit there and I thought the baked spaghetti plus sausages is quite yummy! Anyway I thank God that we had a nice chat, at least we say something which are true to ourselves. We shared about our struggles and vision for the cell. Of coz I was kinda pissed off when someone said I should continue to lead till others are ready to serve. I was like? You do it at my expenses?! I feel that you're simply too selfish. Ah well, we ended the stuffs peacefully =) Eh, they wanted me to cont to be their leader ler, errr... What I should do?

Oh ya, we sort of 'celebrate' Jess bday there =) Thanks for being there, my dear.

<< Singapore Marathon 2007 >>
I survived the run!! I thought It was simply great!!

This is my first time taking part in 21km run. Before that, I was like..oh man, I am going to die since I occasionally run around 10km+ only. My legs will give way anytime if I were to give up.

The first leg was pretty OK. Marina south route. Not as bad since I ran almost the same route during shape run. I prefer to run in the middle of the lane, more air and space. Haha...

Second leg of the run is from Shenton way all the way to Nicoll Highway and turn back to Padang. I would say it is kinda tough as I start to feel that there would be cramp anytime and waaa... It is such as long way to go. I am not trained at all in anything more than 13km!!

Nevermind, I persevere through. My mind keep telling that I can make it and actually 21km is amanageable. I should try to give my best and endure endure endure.



I almost walked in the last 2km coz it was really too tiring and I have no more strength. Somehow I have inner momentum, keeping me up. Hehe.. In the end, I finish my first half marathon in 2:34hrs, without stopping!! Praise the Lord!! 37% of the finishers were ahead of me. So I am still not as bad uh ;p

In the course of running, I saw many people struggle...



In short, I complete my first marathon gracefully! Yippie!

迷茫 * 无奈 * 讨厌

我觉得有点迷茫，无奈，感觉很讨厌。

渐渐的，我对周遭的事物越来越不满，越来越无期待，很糟糕吧！

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我觉得这种关系很奥妙，虽然当我从你口中知道你的事情、去向多一些时，我会感到很开心；但心中也有一丝的无奈和感慨。最近我在想，要是我愿意耐心的等，也许事情会另有转机？我不知道。因为那也许不是最明智的选择，至少我知道如果我若莫不吭声，我会死的很难看。至少我无法睡得好。

又再次闯进下一关，我的确为你高兴，但这也意味你离要远行的日子也快到了。也许我还是没有这么潇洒吧 =X

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我似乎知道自己要期待些什么，希望什么会发生，但我又不知道上帝要如何让它发生，难道又要等久久不成？

Updates =)

It has been quite some time since I last updated. 这几个星期简直就是玩暴了，生活过的太轻松，偶尔会觉得有点颓废。哈哈 =) 但也不至于浪费时间，毕竟我还是做了几件有意义的事。

Perth trip

We had a relaxing trip from 22nd till 30th Oct. It was the first time for me taking Jetstar with no water and food unless you pay! =)) A big thank you to Ms Xie who planned the itinery nicely and we dun really need to worry about anything!



Highlights

- Farmstay @ Uncle Paul & Auntie Marion's farm!! Though you can't really spot anyone in 2km radius, I enjoyed the quietness and the scenery. The cows, wildflowers, rabbits, kangaroos, plants, landscape reminds me of how great our God is. I like the Aussie BBQ and Breakfast too. Oh ya, I learnt about quisch this time round. Auntie Marion baked us apple pie and spinash quisch. Yummy!!!




- Green Pool, Elephant Rock. The view at these 2 places are simply awesome!! The sea color looked a bit bluish-greenish. Ehh... I do not know how to explain it but something like both side of the tides meet at one place.... sth like that. Haha... We did star jump there. I thought i was a bit crazy and wild...



- Sorrentos Quay. We saw 2 rainbows at one go. I can still remember that the rainbow colors are so defined and nice!! Whoohoo! It is not very often that you get to see 2 rainbows o =))


- Nice vineyard




与晨满月



She is one of the GEM in NG's family. Hehe... Glad to share Cheong & Ck's joy, afterall, we are one in the family. She is very chubby and has already drink 4oz of milk!! Imagine yaoyao only drink one and he is ONE y/o but YC is One mth only ;)

I like to sing lullaby to YC whenever I visit her. Kekeke... even CK dun do that, only gugu does. Hope YC grow up well with good health and obedient heart, of coz becoming a beautiful and wise girl!!!


Chitty-chitty Bang Bang @ Esplanade

To me, this musical is kinda special, not because it is about a flying car but it really has more to offer!! We can see so many props being used on stage, coupled with the songs and dances. Hmm definitely worth the ticket though I bought a rather cheap ticket. Kekek... call me cheapo, whatever it is, I am not as cultured but I hope to expose to this thing.

Watched it with ChinLee and Andrew. Hoho... Thank God for the courage. During our journey back, again I see the different views and value systems we both have. This discovery is still in time. Oh ya, I bought two shawls before the show!! haa..i reliase something, I also spend money whenever I go for a musical, be it on clothes and shoes. Haha.. terrible


Malacca trip

A big thank you to CiYing, and her family for their hospitality and kindness!! I enjoyed myself though we didn't really do much in Malacca! Going out for excursion is not my trip objective but more for a relaxing and makan trip. In short, I have achieved both my aims which are having meals @BeiZhan and Nonya food!! Oh ya, I found out that the duck noodle and kaya toast also very nice, satay celup is a test of faith... kekek...

I would say the faimly is truly very nice to me. From the conversation we have esp during Drama cum tea time and over the meal, they will make sure that I am well taken care of. Kekek. I observe something, simple can be very beautiful if you choose to believe that ;)) We do not need to be that complex and difficult to ourselves in our lives. As long as you do your part and be responsible cum accountable to God et others, that shall be it. XiaoYing is one of those very optimistic type, to me, she is like a little young sister but she shows her dignity and authority when she is with the younger ones. So what does it tell us? 在什么样的情况下就做什么样的人


If you give a mouse a cookie @ BlackBox

This is something different. They do not have a big cast and crew except THREE people who are running behind and appearing on the stage!! It is interesting to see how they present the whole story. The children are fascinated with the 'mouse'!! Haha... Also, another worth mentioning part is they have Q&A session after the play. It allows the audience to post any sort of questions and the cast are there to answer the queries.

If you give a mouse a cookie, he will ask for milk; If you give a mouse milk,, he will ask for a napkin... so on and so forth... There is a series a book by Laura Joffe Numeroff

Went with Wen, WoonChair & Kaiyue... kekeke... I do not need to pay =))


Teaching in CG17

I was supposed to teach the kids on James Lesson 6 - Patience (Wait). After drilling much, I must admit that I do not have any idea on how to bring across the message. It was so stressful!! So I told myself to spend whole day (saturday) at home to prepaer for the lesson. To look up on the commentary, read bible, find picture and relevant info online, laying out the info using ppt, rehearsing ... waaa.. it really took me a good 5 hours to complete that! Still, I was worried that students dun like it and find it BORING. haha...

Sunday morning, I cabbed to church so that I can have more time for prreparation. I truly thank God for the lesson delievry. I feel that God's spirit was with us and I thought all went well. At least we tried something new by getting people to share on the topic, showing online clip and putting more interesting picture in the slides!! Thanks to Getty Images!

I must admit that preparing and brainstorming is not easy and it is so time and brain juice consuming! The best part is you wont know how receptive the kids be!! Having said so, I must also say I enjoy teaching and preparing for it though I am not really gifted, I think. But I am willing to try and I hope it inspires others to step out and do so!! I was complaining that I am so scared coz I dunno how to teach but someone said: you will scared one mer? ahahah... so funny. Maybe my tough outlook tells a different story :)

Anyway it would be my last lesson for CG17 till the next notice... and I wonder when will it be. OK, I already decided that I shall take up one of the DG subgroup and lead the fellow students. Maybe, i shall take on a module to teach too!! Yippie, hope they wont feel sad... haha...


Meeting

The feeling just creep in quietly. I am not too sure since when I feel very awful whenever I attend church EXCO meeting. The feeling sucks. Somehow I feel more and more reluctant to attend the meeting coz I find myself a redundant person. Heee... I do not mind leading and attending CG17 or even DG meeting, maybe not EXCO meeting ba. We are supposed to be a good steward before God and take care of the nitty gritty stuffs. But sometimes too much details are able to kill a person!! Kekek... Just grumbling, I know we need to be that detailed la. Could it be I no longer like to be a leader? The urge has subsided? haa.... Maybe maybe... time to fade off and be faithful in doing other stuffs. Stay focus!


Nokia 6120

I accidently dropped my hp into a pool of water! Guess what, it is my new Nokia HP and it has been with me for less than 3 weeks! I was so careless and super panicky. I used papers to wipe and trying hard to power up. How silly I am! Colleague told me not to power up till it is all dry up, if not, it will be short circuit lo. True enough, the LCD went off though the hp is able to start up. Ok, 2 days. I will give myself two more days before knowing the fate of my new hp. Ciying was so humourous. She was saying probably God is hinting something?! Could it be I forgot to give tithe or... haha.. Yaya, i forgot to give for Oct & Nov. So i guai guai brought my tithe offering to church on Sunday, hoping that by the time I try to on my hp again, it will work...

In fact, even if it doesn't function properly, I wouldn't blame anyone except myself. Maybe it's a lesson to learn. After 2.5 days wait, i press the button. Whoohoo, the LCD screen was lit up, so thrilled!! Kekek... then slowly i reliase that it is unable to detect the SIM card and thus no connectivity. It is as good as a useless phone! Haa... ok, time to get on my way to Nokia Care Center. hehe...

What a wait... 2.5hrs for 5 min servicing and it takes another 3-5 days before I got back my phone!! God is mischievous. So happen that I was teaching a topic "Patience in Suffering" last Sunday, haa... God speaks to me in real life. A lesson on WAIT


Random

Recently heard about the break-ups. Hmm why is human relationship so fragile and vulnerable? Is it because we have different needs and wants in various stages of our lives and thus the break-up will make things better?

Dear friends, I admire your courage to end your relationship and I want to assure you that God will take you through the journey, be it a dark deep valley or green pasture or even cold mountain ;) Each of everyone of us has our own set of problems which we do not go around and tell all but we do share with some close friends. God is impartial, He gives sunshine and He gives rains. In between these two, there is a rainbow to bridge it together. We are not too sure how long will the rain last but we can sure that God will grant us endurance and grace as we journey with Him in faith.


December is coming!!

A couple of stuffs which I look forward to from end Nov till year end.
- Meet up with Xinyi & Gayle
- Sg Buloh Excursion
- A Crazy Christmas play
- Lust, Cautious & Heroes & Golden Compass?
- First Half Marathon
- EQ & YJ + Khar Hoa's wedding
- Bonus Bonus Bonus
- Shanghai trip
- Many more... haha....

Concert & Cabaret

I reliased the power of Mr M last weekend, it really brings some conveniences and leisure. Ya? =)

Eric Moo concert @ Max Pavilion
Had a nice time, singing along with the crowd. I enjoyed myself, as compared to caiqin concert. At least I can relate better to those songs. It brought back my good old memory during primary & secondary days. Yeah, I grew up watching SBC dramas and listening to xinyao.
Qiu HaiZheng and Fang Wenlin were the guests. Whoohoo, like their fei yang de qing chun. Too bad Yi Neng Jing wasn't here. Ah well, good to see them on the stage again.

Kumar The Queen @ Esplanade
I don't really know Kumar, let alone his talkshow. But since CL jioed, I just went with them. It was a hilarious show. Admire his courage to admit he is actually a gay and dare to make fun of Lees & PAP. Quite daring!! But he was a bit rough too, those vulgarities and silly jokes, I really take my hat off!! The audiences enjoyed the jokes he made, in a way it shows that we agree with him and identify with his thought. Probbaly the obvious difference is we do not dare to comment and protest openly, else we will end up in jail!

Also, I must highlight a great observation for these 2 events. The former event started @ 730pm while the latter one commenced @8pm. Guess what?! Most of the concert-goers are late! Some came in @830pm... Tsk tsk. Horrible. But those who attended Kumar's show, by 755pm, it is already 98% full. Kumar even teased the latecomer and embarrassed them by saying "Ok, the show will wait for you"... Haha... Let me analyse a bit. Could it be the audience crowd is different? Could it be the venue which makes the different? Hoho...

Something happy to share!
New addition in the family, ms Ng Ee Chen. =) Praise God for His grace and blessings to Cheong & CK ;) She is so lovely, resembling her mum more. Kekeke... Too bad I cant see her everyday...

Last note, life is all about making choices. You have the choice and no one else can force you into any decision!! Rev Liu Yu Jiang also mentioned something during last Sun sermon. As for follower of Christ esp Youth leaders, there are 3 traits which you need to observe:
1. Independent thinking
2. Control your own emotion
3. Dare to make decision

Ya, never look back and always put your hope in God. Trust that actually God was and is with you when you make any moves. Was He not there when you face life challenges? No, He was always there and He is, forever He will be.

I wonder, what do I hope for in life? *puzzled*

An entry for you

Dear Mr Coke,

This would be my last time blogging at my current cube near 6C17. I am shifting to somewhere near 6C16, 2 aisle away from the current one.

I still remember what you said before when i lamented about the new cube size
7x8 -> 7x6 = 42 -> 4+2 = 6 -> 6 sigma = GOOD
What a silly formula =)

This is a cube whereby I have fond memory where people will just come by to discuss work, chitchat and gossip. Nice to see you guys around when it's tea break time. nice to have someone comeby to ask for coins for vending machine, nice to have someone pop by and tell me it's time to go home, and ya, chatting like no government like that. I will miss those days.

I thought of throwing the photo we took during poster fair, but i can't bring myself to do that. Probably I wont be putting up again in my new cube...

Recently so much has happenned and there are so much to tell in BPD in particularly WS but I guess I would not have the chance to do so. Perhaps there is no need to do so too.

OK, just want to be true to myself. I miss you, miss your presence, miss tea-break time with those kakis, miss homing time...

But I guess I shall put a stop to it. No matter how reluctant I am, I know I need to, as of now.

The past weeks has been tough, very tough. But God has never failed me, He carries me through. I hope that you are able to rely on God for granting you wisdom and grace in your daily lives. Ultimately He is the provider and we shall give glory to Him and let Him take the honour!

Hope you're well. Do continue your passion in the industry and sky the limits!

Cheers,
Pealow

沉闷的 Monday * 恩福满满的 Everyday

今天不想做正经事，觉得有点无聊

经过这么多年以后，终于能够与欣怡、金涌和嘉逊轻松用餐。之前其实也没有什么芥蒂了，毕竟都过了这么久，大家也更加成熟和理智吧！感谢上帝，这一顿饭，吃的很平静。感谢上帝，我周遭这些校园团契的朋友都是您所差派的天使。谢谢您 =)

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9 月7 日 FES大家庭聚会
依旧看到那几幅熟悉的脸孔，还有许多青涩年轻的脸旦，长江后浪推前浪，这是一个很好的现象。虽然见是见了面，满嘴的客套话，诚恳度有减低吗？我不知道咧！我只晓得那感觉已渐渐的疏离我，有点陌生，但也说不上是什么感觉。

9 月8日 双莹相会
终于等到与次莹单独吃饭、聊天、闲逛和看电影。这些日子以来，因着科技的发达，我们一般都是透过MSN, skype 和sms联系，缺少了些真实感。

谢谢上帝把这位朋友放在我身旁，时不时她会提醒我上帝在我身上那奇妙的恩典和再次向我肯定，我在神面前是珍贵的；更欣慰的是，她常说我们其实知道上帝是我们的超级保惠师 (super mentor) 以及他知道什么对我们最好，我们怎么可以质疑上帝的带领和野蛮的向他开出那无理的要求呢？哈... 我就是这样假厉害... 还亏我说要与上帝摔跤咧，真不知天高地厚，无知的小丫头！

Ratatouille，曾经想因一些的不愉快，罢看。真的有点气愤，之前的期待和兴奋多少也减去了一半。多亏次莹指点：真的有必要为着这样的人和理由而让自己这样懊恼吗？我承认，因为我在乎，所以我生气、恼怒；我选择了怒气和埋怨作为这事的了结。也许我的另一种回应能造就另一种结果uh，但我选择忠于自己。我想，他也选择忠于自己的决定吧！

9月9日 SHAPE RUN 2007
临阵退缩的意念曾在脑海里闪过，干嘛要早起，睡迟些啦。。。

好不容易等到9月9日，这是我第一个公开的处女跑，10km也! 担心身子不能负荷，害怕小腿会抽筋，万一晕倒扭伤该怎么办，这是又惊又险啊！

跑在 Esplanade Drive, Shenton Way, Prince Edward Rd 和 Marina South 的感觉还不错。边跑边心里哼着歌，慢慢的pace myself，告诉自己别着急，你的对手就是自己，尽力一鼓作气的将全程跑完，那便是对自己最好的交待，时间固然重要，但不是最重要的，毕竟第一次跑10km嘛！

主啊你配得一切的尊容赞美... 野地的花穿着美丽的衣裳... 我主与我同行... 在压力中仍能平静... 上帝的儿女何等有福... 心中充满平安和喜乐的跑... 奇怪的是，这回不比上周在HP x-country 时吃力，尽管路程较远些，但还是能从容，保持能耐的向终点奔去。 一路上看到一些选手冲啊冲，本小姐约在2.5km时，他们已经完成了7.5km， 不可思议也！有者先上路，有者等着人群疏散些才奋力向前进，有人中途上接不接下气，开始步行起来，有人则咬紧牙根继续上路，我属于后者。就这样，不知不觉完成了10km，对我而言，壮举咧！感谢上帝的保守，谢谢他赐予的能耐，真有点自豪！我好像花了1：12小时，没关系，已经很不错了。呵呵。。。

虽然疲乏，还是得要到上帝的殿去敬拜他。很高兴回到这个大家庭里！当天是圣餐主日。记得严牧师是这么祷告着：上帝啊，求你建立，扶持和医治我们每一个人。

我需要上帝的重建，再次建立我在他里面的忠心和信心。忧伤痛悔的灵，上帝并不轻看。

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上帝，

请原谅我常常把我的问题看得比你大。不顺意时就到你面前又哭又闹，满口埋怨和不忿的情绪冲斥我整个脑袋儿，我忘了你过去的恩典和所给予我的福分，忘了我的上帝是常常与我同行，悲伤时你与我共泣，欢笑时你与我同喜，别人都说有耶稣就足够，我自认我就是没有这样属灵，坦白说，我挺属世的。

求你教导我如何在跌倒的地方站立起来，尝试明了你的心意。

我心里是这样求的，但我知道当试探引诱和事情不顺我意时，我又会重蹈覆辙。您知道我的软弱，您知道我的心思意念，就求你刚强我，让我能如鹰展翅上腾，重新得力！

这样的祈求祷告，是奉主耶稣名求，阿门。

杯

我是一个杯子
当上帝要用我的时候，这些是一些基本的步骤

首先
他需要用双手把我拿起 大力的擦
用水、清洁剂和海绵又浇又搓
为要将我洗干净
这是净化的作用

若我是如此的不洁 上帝怎样用我呢
本以为这样的献上已是很难得
怎知道还要被洗涤一番
这是那门的道理啊

也许这过程一点都不好玩
有时甚至难耐不堪
但要知道在这清洗的过程
上帝的手从来没有离开过
他一直确保我不会溜出他的五指山
尽管有泡沫的浮现 污渍的痕迹尚存
也许不是那么的完美
他还是愿意用

当他清洗过后 也许还要稍加替我打扮一番
他要如何使用这杯
我一点概念都没有
那天我可能已有缺口
只望我能继续相信这主人不会弃我而去


TRUST

I find that the journey ahead is a bit tough. Today JE msged me these...

The journey is tough in wordly term... but it's enjoyment in spiritual terms... when you fully let go of what you can and want to hold... He will show you how the path to walk and how much more better it is to walk for Him than for yourself.
This is trust.

感冒

这回真的感冒了
病毒不知不觉地侵蚀我那以为不朽的身子

忽冷忽热
有时热得让我喘不过气来
更有好些时候我需要躲在厚厚的被子里取暖
有点吃不消

这场感冒到底要持续多久
到底病因何在
我可以撕破脸皮问个明白么
还是默默地等待免疫系统重新被建立

药 我需要解药
常言道 心病还需心药医 解铃还需系铃人
不管是什么病 药还是派得上用场

虽然久久一小病能促使我更爱惜那造物主所给的身躯
难道一定要生病才能理解吗

不惑 不安 不乐

你把我悄悄的升上天
然后再慢慢把我从那头摔下
这真的是你那深不可测的旨意吗

为我好 替我着想
对我有益 建立我对你的倚赖
可以不要这样折磨我么

没有 暂时没有
不至于粉身碎骨
你说你会在下面接着我
我相信你会
但是为什么要让我经历这难明了的历练

JQ5582

It has been with us for 33 years?! Wow, that's old uh :)

I remember standing at the back of the lorry while on our way home from popo's house. We sing on the lorry, singing in the wind. Haha.. so fun!!

I sure fall asleep whenever i sat on the lorry while Papa drove me to anywhere. Count 1..2..3... and you will find a pig beside the drive seat

This lorry went thru thick and thin wid our whole family and ya, the business. I am sure it travels more miles than I do, until now

It is aging. Its color changes from maroon to light Red and now it is a chilly red.

Mum told me papa sold it for 2k since he is going to wind up his business and enjoy his retirement?! Hee... that lorry still worth for 2k uh? kekek... initially he wanted to sell it at 3k but in the end... ah well, hope he spend the $$ wisely.

Darkest moment

It is simply too dark, you can hardly see anything albeit any light.

No ray, No hope, Only fear & tear

Simplt too scary and too much for anyone to go thru...

Musical vs Concert

The King & I

总觉得还是洋人唱歌剧比较棒，声音也较亚洲人憨厚些，音质的差距是显而易见的，也许这就是叫“偏见”吧！
这回坐的挺靠近舞台，连他们喷口水的一幕幕都能捕捉得很清楚，他们身上的小老鼠也若隐若现，脸上的瑕疵到无法看得很清楚，是厚厚的粉底在作怪吧 =)
因为先前没有看过电影版，所以对情节更为陌生；还好之前上网查询，其中的主要情节还不至于摸不着头脑

对她的音乐，没有特别回味无穷的，倒是对几位表演暹罗玩偶戏的配角有几分的敬意，他们把玩偶的精髓呈现在舞蹈、布偶和肢体语言上，发挥得淋漓尽致，赞！

《低音歌后- 蔡琴 -不了情演唱会》

迟到5分钟，哎，失策失策！岂能怪何小姐呢？小事小事。。。

她唱功了得，把上海、香港、台湾金曲等巨星们的代表作，诠释得丝丝入扣，有自己的特色和风味，又不失对原唱者的尊敬和赞许；她更向刘文正和邓丽君致敬。这是眼前的谦虚，抑或是背后的虚伪，我想只有上帝知道。 她很诚恳、用心、放足感情的诠释所有的歌曲。我庆幸自己还认识一些老歌金曲，还不至于满头雾水。

喜欢她的能言善道，在串联歌曲方面很流畅，不愧是块主持的料子。

以下是这场演唱会中我“惊人加意外”的发现：梁弘志那让蔡琴红透半边天的《读你》，其实是在描述他对圣经的爱和上帝的眷顾哦！

《读你》
读你千遍也不厌倦 读你的感觉像三月
浪漫的季节 醉人的诗篇 唔
读你千遍也不厌倦 读你的感觉象春天
喜悦的经典 美丽的诗篇 唔

你的眉目之间 锁着我的爱怜
你的唇齿之间 留着我的誓言
你的一切移动 左右我的视线
你是我的诗篇 读你千遍也不厌倦

读你千遍也不厌倦 读你

《天冷就回来》
当初想要看这舞台剧，绝对是因这对新谣的喜好。喜欢她的纯真，喜欢她的平凡，更重要的是，她带我回到小学和中学看第八波道的连续剧和那段抄写歌谱的日记。

你的倒影，爱的名字，让叶轻轻落下，陪我看日出，恋之xi, 新加坡派，一步一步来，当你回眸的那天起。。。

剧导很妙的把耳熟能详的歌曲穿插在故事情节里。老实说，我喜欢这部剧不是因为他们唱和演得赞，乃是因为我喜欢和熟悉的音乐在耳际边响起。

在短短的1个星期内观看两部舞台剧和一场演唱会，我最享受的是《天》，接着是《不》，《王》包围。我发现还是华文华语最能牵动我的心，谢谢上帝让我能掌握和明白这五千年来所遗留下来的文化遗产！

Galileo * CFH * Drained

<< Galileo >>

Becoz of YOU, I had a long wait
wait for your spec and POR to be confirmed
wait for you to be retrofitted and tested by EE
wait for the NVRAM values to be backup and restored
wait for HY to come back from meeting and tea break
wait for you to work properly and give me decent output
wait for you for more tweaking and FW checkin

Oh my, why is my life so closely knitted with you?
Didn't I have better to do and wait for?
* Sighz... *
Who told me to be in SCF group
My life will just be surrounded by Galileo, Mach4 and Music4 in the next 1.5 yrs!

Having said so much, the lonely Daimler is sitting on top on that empty box
waiting to be adopted by HY and PN
So poor thing uh...


<< Curry Fishhead >>

We went Coral Village Bistro for CFH, finally
Had CFH and Kangkong plus lime juice n coke
Hmm the dishes are OK but I prefer the kangkong
Whose silly idea to eat that CFH
It's me, NLY!!
Thanks for going with me, kind-soul

<< Drained >>

Feel mentally and emotionally saturated
Overwhlemed with fear and doubts
Confusion is there to disturb me further
I am calling it a QUIT
Please do not play me out
I am not sure I can take it positively
Today YOU revealed YOUR words to me again
Jer 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,
plans to prosper you and not to harm you
Plans to give you hope and a future
YOU don't bring me to the planning room as you make the blueprint for my life
Instead YOU rather let me follow blindly, not unknowing what is ahead
but to surrender myself before YOU and seek YOUR guidance
Like what others said: Leap of faith
I just pray that I can trust YOU wholeheartedly!

生病

好久没生病了，一年总会有一次这样的机会！不知是幸福还是咒诅。哈！当然是神的祝福啦 =)

因为生病 才知道身体安康的重要性
因为生病 才体会休息原来是不容忽视的
因为生病 才感受到那纯纯而甜美的呵护
因为生病 才明了这不只是关乎自己而已

KISS

Today i sent kaiyue to school. As I was about to leave, she kissed me. So sweet of her. I was kinda shocked and ya, thrilled.

Nobody told her to do so and i din request for one. Hee... God knows someone is in need for a hug and He sends angel to comfort me :)

Pealow speaks again...

<< 小莹子 >>
She will be back in less than 12 hrs!! She is a special and unique friend cum sister. We met in CCF and guess what, the frenship continue to blossom even after we graduated from NTU.

It is a precious frenship given by God. I trily appreciate her company all these while. Haa... what is more amazing is she always listens with patience(i hope so) while I rant non-stop.

Thank you for being there, always.

<< jie >>
I feel so proud of you. You're always so calm and steady while i seem to be so anxious and uncool while handling stuffs.

Maybe you really eat more salt than i do and I am always a xiao-mei in your eyes. Thank you for showing care and concern in your subtle way. You are not good in expressing in words but your actions and decisions tell alot!

I pray that you can continue to trust God for His guidance and providence in the days to come. We simply cant fathom God's plan but i hope that we two are sure that we are well taken and sheltered under His wings.

<< He provides >>
Jehovah Jireh. Ya, this is the tiny little voice i heard when I felt so loss before and after talking to wen and wc.

God will provide. Again God reassured me that He cares and He remembered. I feel so peaceful. Thank you, Father in heaven

<< Barriers >>
How many barriers are there? I really dunno. I expect some and I also hope that most will be cleared by the grace and mercies of our Lord, if He allows.

A bit unsettled though but slowly, God has made some ways and things may not as cloudy and gloomy as I thought.

Anyway, i enjoy being into it. After all, it has been quite some years...

Radical Disciple 彻底的门徒

Milenia walk >>
A nice dinner at Outback Steakhouse last Friday evening. It was a sweet one, feel quite comfy though. Enjoyed the food and the company, thank God.

The feeling was kinda weird and funny. Hee... :)

Zouk out >>
Yaya, a few of us went together. Guess what, we met Vincent there. OOps, poor wife.

Slip >>
With the possible schedule slip, we lose the motivation to work on Daimler esp Galileo development. What we did before may be a waste but what to do? It is beyond our control and no one expect this happen.
So I am looking up to RMT, hope it would bring more surprises!!

Grace >>
It is truly God's grace that I have peace and joy at work. Today I witness 3 different things in the office

1. Ms Ho: She was so angry until she kicked the door with her legs instead of using hands to push it. Then a FW engr called her while she was driving out for lunch. She sounded so agitated and angry
2. Mr Wong: Whenever he has bad headache and dun feel well, he knows that it is due to his high blood pressure. Yup, those are the sympthoms. He had late night teleconferences for consecutive nights. Poor thing
3. Mr Tay: He was so occupied with meeting esp those nozzle out and bubble issue. Not time to lunch with us and ya, no time to suan me. Hehe...
I would say be contented, God has given me the best than what I asked for. Be happy with what you have and live everyday to its fullest!

Healthy >>
Being healthy is important and when you are born healthy, you should be thankful for that! Heard about ZW's nephew, he has got lymphatic cancer. Poor baby and the mum. Feel sad for them.
On the other hand, I am thankful for Constance, Ernst and Heidi. They are all lovely gifts from God!!

SMS >>
I foresee a surge in my last mth sms...oops, been using it quite a bit. Oops... But what to do...

Radical Disciple 彻底的门徒 >>
I like the lesson on Wed (11 Jul), kinda interesting and thought-provoking.
Any idea what is kingdom and what does repent mean? In book of Matthew context
Let me recall. I might be wrong, blame my lousy memory... Kekek...

Kingdom: A legacy whereby it is set by God and HE is the governor. He is in charge!
Repent: Turn away from 1 life to another life, simply put, turn to God-centred life.

We, are easily distracted and sin knowingly/unknowingly in a split second. Ya, we always said we are unable to guard our thoughts, tongues, acts etc and sometimes we are 'forced' to sin when there's external disturbance. What is important is we should immediately end the silly thoughts/actions and ask God to help us to curb this!!

God has His wisdom in His word, we,Christians are not taught to be a hypocrite but someone who fear God and do what God honours.

Do not commit adultry: this does not restrict to only pyshical closeness but emotional
Do not divorce: What God has made together, let no man set apart. In old days, Jews used to divorce their wives as and when they want to. Sometimes it may even becoz the cooking is not nice or so. Scary uh...
Do not vow: True to self and God. Remember that you are always accountable to God on what you do/say/act
Do not worry abt tml: God has prepared what we need and aren't we more precious than a bird?! Look around, God even take care of those birds and flowers on the roadside, you think God will forget your need? Hehe... Also, those worries wont make you look younger and healthier. So cast all your anxieties on HIM k...
Judge: Do not judged or you will be judged
Lord: Who is the LORD of your life? One man cannot serve 2 lords.

I cant remember the beautitudes... Oops, shall update again.

What a price to pay if you want to be a radical disciple!! And are you serious you want to be Jesus's disciple? ;p

KINGDOM

>> I caught a baby bumble bee <<
This is a song which we sung during my hall 4 FOC. I miss those days

Bumble bee is home after 12 mths homemaker-life in Boston!
Still looked as usual ;) Skinny, elegant and as long-winded as before? Tomorrow we will know, after Corona meeting. Haha... Be prepared to bring more food in, who knows the meeting will last till lunch time? *puke*

She bought CT ice-cream latte from HPAM. Yummy!!! I get to drink coz CT gave me.

>> Kingdom <<
What is Kingdom?
Is it something very glorious or somewhere fully packed with people, and the Crown King is seated there, waiting to receive his honour?
If that is what you think, perhaps I can tell you what I understand recently on this 'Kingdom'
In bible, Jesus urged us to seek first His kingdom and His righteous and all others will be given to us. (Matthew 6:31-33)

Seek His kingdom = Live the way God commands, hold on to the principles and belief which HE imparts to us, live in the way that you can have His peace, love and joy present in your lives, seek His pleasure by not compromising on what He detests and honour God in the way that pleases Him
Is our God too hard to satisfy? ;p Up to your discretion.
Our God knows us incl our limiatation and weaknesses. Having listed down our inadequacy and imprefection does not disqualify us for meeting His requirements, on the other hand, it shows that how much we need Him to be present in our lives and guiding us through. His grace is very much needed ;p

Shiroi Kyoto 白い巨塔

"You shall not murder”(Exodus 20:13)
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DO you know 'MURDER' is equal to 'ANGER'? HINT: Matthew 5:21-22
Why would God compares anger to muder?

Believe it or not, we murder someone intentionally or unintentionally!! It can be in words, action, thoughts and even your look! Of course righteous anger is allowed but how to define it? Please refer back to bible

Denial
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She said she refuse to go for lessons, she doesn't want to listen to God's word coz she has her own bitterness in life and unable to fully forgive the person who hurt her and her family. She sulked.

This is the first time I came across such case whereby she is furious with her encounter and refuse to acknowledge God's sovereignty.

What I can say is 'Everyone has his/her set of problems and suffering, Sometimes we just cant compare our suffering and rendezvous'. May God's glory be shone thru in our everyday lives.

Shiroi Kyoto 白い巨塔
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Cast: Karasawa Toshiaki 唐沢寿明 as Zaizen Goro 財前五郎, Eguchi Yosuke 江口洋介 as Satomi Shuji 里見脩二
Director: Satsuo Yamamoto

Indeed it is a thought provoking drama. It captures the thirst for fame, status and power in the all-time favourtite, respectful professional i.e. Medical officer. Interestingly, it also features a doctor who hold on to his own belief even if he is being threaten to be stripped off from the university and all his hard-work in research field will go down to the drain.

What is the use of trying so hard to get something you yearn for, having sacrificed your integrity and belief? And what is so good about achieving your target by all means and yet you reliase that it is all meaningless? What is more sarcastic is you do not get a chance to enjoy 'your fruit of labour'!!! So ironic.

Anyway, I enjoyed watching this series. Good job!!

>> Here is a review...
Interestingly, there is no clear-cut right or wrong in this series, and most characters walk in a gray-zone as to position the viewers in the judge's seat, or perhaps more appropriately, the characters themselves. While the ending is somewhat predictable due to foreshadowing, it executes the subtleties perfectly and provides a satisfying resolution along with some food for thought.
- by greybear on 25 April 2004

Random...

CG17 Retreat
上帝是供应的源头。上周五周六的‘退修会’承蒙神的眷顾，哪怕是仅仅的二十来个，他们的出席已经是一种鼓励了！
他们的确很可爱，也许不都是长相的可爱，是因心地的单纯而美丽吧 =）

第一次和sheila配搭，她紧张得很。谢谢她愿意在十万火急之下答应成为司琴，虽然她不是无处可挑剔，但她那愿意尝试的心态真叫人鼓舞！老实说，我已经很久没有和这么嫩的司琴配搭了；这其中我学到了要谦卑、包容和忍耐，这可不是单向的，而是双方都必须有一颗诚恳，愿意相互学习和调适以求更完美的呈现。这二十几年来碰上不少司琴，有很优越的，也有挺木纳的，呵呵，钢琴这玩意儿，真是有趣。让我在此一一列下：
加利利：楚云、丽娴、丽慧、春凤、玲玲、玉真
南大：恩奇、次莹、欣怡、lionel
BPMC: May、敏乐、莉婷、晓恩、颂欣、子欣、秀慧、Vivian、Sheila

屈指一数，的确有好几位很不错的司琴，当然还是恩奇最棒，与他最有默契！不用为他预备乐谱，也无须告诉他我要什么key，他似乎能明了似的。哈！难得难得,真的没得顶 ;p
宇军、恩礼、yvonne、gabrielle的参与也为这活动注入强心针，他们还是很关注小弟小妹的成长。原本有点泄气的我，刹那间被充气，继续上腾
与学生们分享了‘Les Choristes’这部法文片子，起初还很担心他们的反应。感谢神，一切都还好，他们都还很喜欢电影的题材，沉醉在美妙的音乐和歌声里，何等喜乐的享受啊！

Daimler
I feel kinda angry!! What's wrong if I say pmode/cmap group is the bottle neck?! Our mode of development is sequential development, we have to wait for their print resources before we can proceed on our imaging work. What if they take their own sweet time to develop maps, does SCF team have sufficient time to generate maps and get it tested before pushing it into FW?!! When things screwed up, people just point to us...

So what if she is senior?! I already told her that one of the map is wrong and they have no urgency to change it. Then when Jeff asked, I just voiced out my concern. Did I do anything wrong?! Even if you are senior, but when things are not right, we should highlight it. Though I am very much junior, but it doesn't mean we can share our thought and views.

Somebody said they wanna change the L/G. Are you kidding?? This will waste all my effort on Galileo and gotta start from scratch. Sure anot? Unless you give me ample of lead time or get moer resources to help, else you better drop the idea!!!

White Tower
Have you ever thought of why you want to be an engineer? Your target is earn respect, money or status or just a mere objecive that is to get things engineered properly and cost efficient?

Guard your heart as you continue to immerse in this world, every single thing is changing, gradually. Be on your guard as the greed and yearning for everthing will slowly creep into your life and take your most precious away.

Kaiyue
The moment I hold your little hand, I feel the warmth
When we are on our way to carpe diem, I feel so honoured to bring you there
When we board the bus, I feel so proud of you as you are so obedient

You are especially sweet when you smile, and your dimples are shown on ya little face
You always try to hide and pretend not to see me but how much can you hide

I am so blessed to have you!!

Ali Baba and Mr Coke
Finally both are out of sight in WS aisle, I do miss both of them

Ali Baba - He was the one who interviewed me. I was so thankful that his accent is understandable. His strength is in Statistic and ya quite decisive and always push for effective solution. He can be quite aggressive as well. Probably one bad point is he listens mostly to what seniors' say, he doesn't really care how others think. I must thank him also for providing me opportunities to go to San Diego. His words and comments are quite encouraging sometimes.

Mr Coke - We joined on the same day. At first I didn't really think we will be close but guess what. Haa... Anyway, we are still not very close. He is one of those I will gossip most since he is quite harmless. Among the peer colleagues, only 2 of us chat online with one another. He likes to ask things like... Pealow, do you have coins? What are you eating today? Tea break? Etc :) Whenever we attend offsite course, I always need to chop places for him as he is always late. Haa... We even become homing buddy. Haiz, I feel a bit sad ar coz I was the one who encouraged him to leave and ask Uncle seet to recommend him a job in ST and guess what, he is in ST now. Anyway, I am glad to have him around for the past 1.5 yrs.

OK, here is my team photo. Guess who is who... Hehe...



Farewell for Ali Baba and Mr Coke

188... Mr coke...

《188之旅》
我又要开始学习自己上路，踏上188的路程。没有熟悉的身影在身旁徘徊和做伴，接下来的日子会如何呢？我还是可以随身携带耳机和书本，轻松上路，学习欣赏身边的一景一物，重新确认和体验万事都互相效力，叫爱神的人得益处，就是按他旨意被召的人 :)

我相信没有一头栽下去是明智之举，至少结尾不会太难堪和尴尬。压抑是辛苦的，但我觉得这是一种选择；这背后的道理就是你必须承担你的抉择所引发的种种后果。感谢上帝的带领和保守，这纯纯的情谊还是很出人意外的吧！至少我挑战过自己的信念，欲望和需要，认识和了解上帝总是能接着不同事物事件改变你的想法，让你真真实实的与上帝和自己摔跤。

《引擎》
不管多拙多逊，还是要继续下去！

《单亲妈妈》
这真是个荒谬之建议！为了解决人口老化的问题而鼓励有学识的女性成为单身妈妈，好可怕啊！难道他没有考虑到这其中所引发的社会问题和上帝所设立的家庭伦理和婚姻的完全吗？什么大趋所势，荒唐！

《不再忧愁》

终于那不必要的误会解除了！感谢上帝！心里踏实了许多，也更加深了彼此的了解。大家处事和回应的方法大有不同，都怪上帝造了各式各样乱七八糟的人？非也！=）因着我们的不同和有别，才显出我们更需体谅和相互接纳、包容和了解。

谢谢上帝！是的，要学习谦卑和爱人。上帝如何掩面不看我的罪，我也要被原谅和原谅人。

昨晚的“门徒”被迫背诵经文
箴言15：13 心中喜乐 面带笑容 ， 心里忧愁 灵被损伤
箴言15：18 暴怒的人能挑起争端 忍怒的人能止息纷争

《lapis surabaya》
arthjie 从印尼带了一个大的lapis surabaya给我，好受宠啊！只有我有哦，哈哈 =）

《引擎》
赛车手是寂寞的，因为他们在赛场上只能为自己而争战，一心想着要赢，绝对不能有一丝输的想法。若是他能学到不止是为自己而奔驰，而是也为了其他人和更高更伟大的梦想奔驰，他将能够突围，让自己不经意的晋升一级，发挥到极点！

别轻看自己对自己的约定哦，也要记得你需要努力完成约定哦，次郎！ *勾勾手指*

可恶

我其实蛮讨厌被人误会的感觉，莫名其妙被人冷眼相待。如果我真的是作错了，我无从狡辩；但问题是我没有！不知道为何，它就是按奈不住要往眼眶内涌出去；尝试拭去眼角的泪水，努力强忍着，还是奈何它不了。我觉得这是一种委屈，为何我需要这样受他那不可理喻的指责！在众人面前就像被捅了一刀，直叫我们愕然不已。算了，要包容，要忍耐，不要计算人的恶，我也不想再说下去了，有道歉也好，无道歉也罢，我不管了。上帝啊，求你教导我有恩慈和智慧的去面对！阿门

后记：电邮是一样大有能力的沟通途径，但如果不善加和小心使用，也许有造成许多不便之处哦。。。

乱七八糟

无谓的怒气

原本满心期待的外出换来的却是空欢喜和兴奋。再加上毫无交待，真的很气愤和失望。我差点儿忘记曾向上帝求的应征。虽然是可以预料到的，但心里总是不情愿的接纳。
过后的道歉已经不很重要了，因为这一切已没有原先那么宝贵。

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喜欢木村托哉的演绎，把一个赛车手的心情和无赖哥哥的角色拿捏得恰到好处，没有很华丽的场景，只有一群很可爱的小孩和少年，再加上3位保育士的衬托，这剧集挺精彩的！

其中一些片段更是叫人感到感概。。。

俊太：养父母口口声声说他很可怜。年纪不过约4岁而已的他对那句话耿耿于怀，尤其是要离开风丘之所那日更赌气的跑到次郎的房间躲起来，只因他不服于那句“好可怜啊”。在重新面对大人时，他频频说道：我一点都不可怜！
后记：难道在孤儿院长大的孩子都是可怜的吗？为何世人总是带着有色的眼光看他们？难道他们就不能够和平常人一样活得开心和精彩么？

元老师：难道要孩子们在一位没有受过专业保育训练的成人的影响下成长么？
院长：其实这样的人更容易闯入孩子们的心房，与他们有生命的交流，至少他们没有太多的束缚和道理限制
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元老师：很多时候我们因着有太多经验在前头，并不能更切实了解孩子们的需要

大埔那一段也很感人，父亲既然因着孩子的不足而保持距离；连孩子要解释也不给予机会，久久不肯调低车窗。好狠心啊！

大概是这样... 哈哈...

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摘自一封电邮...

<优秀>
很有趣的听闻一个朋友这么论道：女人因为优秀而寂寞，男人因为寂寞而优秀。试想，女人是否需要因此刻意隐藏自我的优秀，真的需要这样么？其实，没有一人是完美的。我们优秀是因为旁人还未发现我们在某处的瑕疵而已!

等爱是辛苦的，但希望在等候的时候是有盼望和喜乐的。相不相配，适不适合，绝非是外在的条件和个性的这玩意儿所能定夺的；对于这样的一个旅程，很纳闷，有点不知所措，看不清，难明了。只能默默相信上帝所做的是为我好。尝试用一些很阿Q的想法说服自己，但我更愿意自己坦然面对眼前的道路；是这样也好，那样也罢，只求我不要失去对造物主的主权的敬畏。

今天心情比较踏实一些，为何要老是压抑自己的情感和表情呢？实在不惑

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都说了是“习惯”，怎能说改就改呢？需要一些时间重新适应。虽然很讨厌，但没法子啊！我会慢慢调整的 =）

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恭喜终于升级了！美好无比的礼物，要常常感恩和纪念上帝的恩典哦！

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神纪念！

今天似乎有太多意外和令人惊喜的消息

- SW要结婚了！佩服他们的‘简单’。婚姻岂止一个仪式和酒席而已！
- KK要在今晚求婚，紧张的很！哈
- ST明年将越洋到北半球生活，寻找幸福。真为她感恩！不舍总不在话下
- JD怀孕了！恭喜GS，贺喜两人。这是多么珍贵的礼物啊！
- 吴家将添多一个女宝宝
- CS有打算要另某高就或投向SCF，明智之举！
- ART要走了，心有不舍但这是办公室常有的事，那轮到我控制！

接下来的8个小时，还会有什么劲爆消息么？

上帝纪念他的儿女，这是一个永不改变的真理和事实！

A tribute to Mdm SIM

Thank You God for giving us a loving mum. A picture says a thousand words!! I am sure from the picture itself, you can how blessed we are to have everyone in Ng's family =)

Biz trip highlight (SD & LA)

Let me post some of my SD trip photo.. =)


SD Color Science team: Young, Howard, Charlie, Pealow


Hotel Del @ Coronado Island


Torres Pines GliderPort: Melvin, Ada, Raymond, Ronald, Pealow


Bike ride from La Jolla to Torres Pines: Deirdre, Raymond, Pealow


Lou hei at Deirdre's place



DisneyLand @Anaheim: Darren, Petrina, Raymond, Anne and Pealow


Universal Studio @ LA: Raymond, Ciying, Pealow



HP ICS, San Diego (Building 8)



UCLA @ Westwood: Raymond, Ronald, Ciying, Pealow



Balboa Park @ SD Downtown: Raymond, Ronald, Pealow

我觉得有点疲惫，只能用累来形容

我讨厌每晚不能提早入睡，夜晚不能睡得好，无法享用家常便饭，每晚拖着疲累的身躯上床，晚祷还没道阿门，就已经呼呼入睡了，好可恶啊！

〈日子如何，力量也如何〉

昨天的小组挺有趣的...

RS和SM竟不约而同地穿上同样花纹、颜色的上衣参加小组，我想：有点尴尬吧！当然，也可以说他们的品味相同且心有灵犀，就连他们对讨论内容的看法也极为相似。少见！

其实讨论的内容是很丰富，但我还是心不在焉，真是太不象话了！还好，讨论结束前的几个问题还挺有争论性，你一句，我一语，虽然暂且没有一个所以来，下回再分解吧！加上我们估计长安牧师会偕同干事一起镇场，应该会挺有看头的。哈哈 =）

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花了整个下午的时间flash Daimler 的 FW，好可恶啊。真是对她又爱又恨。。。

"领袖的作风"

原本不想参加会议，但因这责任心的催逼，便乖乖就范；尽管脑子里想早些回家休息，但就是因为“不好意思”，一待就待上三小时。谢谢次莹的提醒，当领袖是需要付出代价的！

本以为父母早在我到家前已离开，怎知在楼下意外的遇见父亲，他在木凳哪儿徘徊，两件大大的物件放在凳子上，我一时不知如何是好。我们交谈了一会儿，由于太累，对他叮咛的一番后我便先告辞；而爸爸呢，则提着两个重重的物件往停车场走去。我内心挣扎了几许，我想帮忙可我的惰性太强。望着他的背影，我有点心虚。这是领袖的作风吗？

没走几步，遇见了妈妈。她正走出电梯，打算搭爸爸的车。同样的，我们聊了一会儿。我告诉妈我很累，想先上楼了；妈说好。我其实有点愧疚。难道就不能等多五分钟吗？这是领袖的作风吗？

以“我”为本

觉得很好笑，为何天底下会有这样的人。。。 呵呵。。。

买食物和零食与大伙儿分享时，总是买自己爱吃的，口味最适合自己的，根本没有为他人着想。既然目的是要与人畅饮一番，为何只顾自己的感受呢？大伙儿一同照相时，总是确保自己有个好位子；若是自个儿照得不leng，就自动删除或不公诸于世。这样的人，很有趣 =）


很多时候，我们没有意识到，“自我”这元素可在人人身上能寻获，只是它的成分是高或低。更多时候，我们只看见别人眼中的刺却没有察觉自己眼中的梁木。以五十步笑百步，好讽刺啊！

it has been donkey months since i last updated my blog =) The last post was written when i was in SD. Yup, i love SD and I hope for more oppoturnities to go there.

Rememeber... I still have 3 places in mind to visit. They are San Francisco, Las Vegas and Grand Canyon!!! Keke.. and ya, more outlet shopping experience!!!!

I am extremely thankful for the last trip. So much values being added to individual and I experinced God's presence

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Slowly resume the momentum in every aspect of lives. Ya... picking up though sometimes i really refuse to =) May God have mercies on me!!

shall update again... lazy.. so much work to do

This stupid blogspot made me sign up for a new google acct. Stupid!!! Inflexible!!

What is so good about having more than 2 email id? =)

I am in SD again!!

whoohoo, i am now in San Diego again for the second time!!

reached here last wed, drove a Pontiac 3.0 all the way from Hertz Airport to Rancho Bernado. Feel so proud of myself!! Hee... i think the credit should go to God coz HE is the one who protects me!! It was a safe and nervous 40 min ride though. Kekek... oh ya, Neverlost also did a good job. It directs me to the right place ;p

Something i am truly thankful and grateful to God is that my counterparts and SG colleagues i met here are all very nice, kind and helpful!!

The colour science team people had shared alot of precious stuffs on Galileo and yup, those are really cool stuffs!! Uncle Howard is very kind also. He invited me to join the Yoga class at Rancho Bernado together with his daughter and himself and he even passed me medication and pottassium drink as I am down with flu and cough!! Feel so touched. God is merciful. He sends angels to surround and take care of me. More knowledge transfer are on its way, it will be a fruitful trip. But somehow i am overwhlemed with those info and ya, more work to be done.! Young is a kind gentleman too. He is patient while explaining the LED stuffs to me. Gosh, i am going to deal with so much HW stuffs. It is killing me but i know it is for my good. It broaden my knowledge ar.

Bumped into BPD guys here... Hang around with Raymond, Darren, Melvin, Deirdre, Anne and Petrina and I met this guy from IPMO just now. His name is Ronald!!

Went to Disneyland Resort at Anahleim with Darren, Petrina, Raymond and Ann. Wowo, fantasy world. Kekek.. this is my first time to DIsneyland, so was kinda excited and look forward to. The journey is around 1.5 hrs from SD. So we set off around 8 and reach there at 930am. Just nice!!

there were so many people there, from different walk of lives :) Everyone is here for a reason and this is a place where dreams come true! Haa... I like the pinocchio ride, space mountain and Indiana Jones. These 3 are my top 3 favourite ride. So cool and sweet and not too thrilling. kekek... I must say DL is very good and professional in controlling the crowds and keeping the place clean. Very efficient!! Good job!!

Then we went shopping on SUnday at Las Americas premium outlet. It is just at the border of Tijuana, Mexico. Hee... Shopped for cousin and niece stuffs, not so much for myself. Tomorrow I am going to Carlsbad for shopping again!!! This time round i bought quite a few of GAP stuffs... quite cheap as compared to SG...

Hoho, as for food. I tried quite a fair bit. Taco shop, thai restaurant, Bully's at Del mar, oggis' pizza, islands burger, and my favourite - Shien Osaka. More to come... haha... haiya, 30USD for a meal, quite alot and can eat quite a bit!!!

One not so nice part is i am down with flu and cough :( but i am recoevering. Thank God!!

My IQ score - 136!!

Congratulations, Lianyean!Your IQ score is 136

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Facts Curator. This means you are highly intelligent and have picked up an impressive and unique collection of facts and figures over the years. You've got a remarkable vocabulary and exceptional math skills — which puts you in the same class as brainiacs like Bill Gates.

The Queen * 欢聚

圆了自己想要的。嘻嘻。。。 当初为什么要这么举棋不定呢？

终于观看了“女王与我”这片子。没有遗憾，很庆幸自己的选择。虽然这出戏没有艳丽帅气十足的演员担纲，它的题材已足以让我倾心。 =）

对Queen Elizabeth II， TonyBlair， Diana（Princess Of Wales), Prince Charles 有进一步的理解。面对家庭，领袖们，社会大众的期盼和要求，怎能置之不理呢？一向万人之上，深受万人景仰的 一国之君，竟然要面对戴妃死后所带来的种种的束缚，挣扎与挑战。眼前的立场和想法，更得要因社会的变迁而调整，谈何容易！戏中名句 “Shifting of values” & "modernized" & "Monarchy" 等，让女王陷入前所未有的低谷。如果他不对戴妃的死做出任何声明或举动，大英帝国4人中就有1位要她下台。眼见长久以来建立的声望就取决于他的选择，也可以说是他的屈服。哎，实在不易，难为她了！

这部片子让我对英国政坛又多一些的了解，且对高高在上的QE II有更深一层的认识。好戏！ 我深知不是很多人喜欢这类型的电影，没关系，为何老是的迁就人呢？

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惠芬安娣和怡兴安可虽然结婚已经快三十个年头，依然恩爱如昔，煞羡旁人。阿珠姐和LSK也是如此。感谢神的撮合和恩带，神所配合的，无人能分开！

美玉安娣的盛情款待，丰富且热腾腾的食物任你吃，好不愉快！

更妙的是：aunt 惠芬， uncle 怡兴, aunt 美玉, uncle 南国， 阿珠姐，LSK， uncle，金莲，QH， HC 和 我。。。 不断尝试试用那3台保健器材，好不快乐啊！

我家天台上的一位过客

我并不喜欢改变！ 但如果这时冥冥中上帝的安排，我无言以对...

故事是这样开始的。。。06年开工的第二个星期二，我急着搭公司的短程巴士到 Queenstown 去。 难得的是我当天穿了一件黄色的衬衣，其实我极少穿这样颜色的上衣。当时，见到一位男生，身上的黄色球衣实在无法让我不注意他。稍加注意，发现他也同属BPD，在EE部门也。 就这样，开始了接下来一年的际遇。。。

‘太神奇了’叫我无法测透，竟然有这么多的巧合，是上帝开太多玩笑，还是来自恶者的攻击，以致我有点心神不定。真的很妙，很玄，我常遇上他。呵呵。。。
1。短程巴士
2。电梯（健身室，午餐，上班，回家）
3。BPD里的前后walkway
4。车站
5。健身室

有时一天可碰上3-5次，有点不可思议！每每的碰头，没有言语上的交谈，只有那简单，淡淡但却很真实的眼神交流。 眼神的交流很让人感动和兴奋，觉得很喜欢，很贴心，很紧张，很莫名其妙，很不知所措，很不可思议。

D&D 的经历更叫我对一个这样的人更为不舍。

终于走到这一章的结束，我很想哭 有点不甘。。。

我对这事
很执着
有憧憬
还存幻想
有所寄望
有所感慨
心存感恩
有许多的无奈

又是惊 更是喜

除了让我无形中
使我的衣着颜色更为绚丽
更向往到公司去

更重要的是 它让我
认识到自己的需要
重新发现自己有爱和被爱的能力
重新发现自己有爱和被爱和需要
重新提醒自己要寻求和交托
再次认识神的主权
再次屈服在神的脚前

我无助，无法完全的降服，甚至还尝试向神谈条件，讨价还价，要应证
是无知吗 是天真吗 是爱昏了头吗 是搞不懂情况吗
不管怎样
我对这种生活的小插曲 是又爱又恨

喜欢心跳的频率 讨厌痛心的感觉好了

如他们所说，也许有一天，我会在外头再次与他相遇吧！再见，LWK！

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愿在此谢谢上帝，次莹，Sherry, 庆贤一路上的陪伴，聆听，谅解和开解！！

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Into The Desert Exodus 15:22-27
I am the Lord who heals you. —Exodus 15:26

After the Israelites miraculously crossed the Red Sea, they were led into the desert. How strange that God would lead them from a place of revelation and power to a place of disappointment and dire need!
But God wanted to show them that life is a combination of bitter and sweet, triumph and defeat. When the Israelites arrived at Marah, they complained because the water was bitter (Ex. 15:23). After Moses interceded (v.25), God reminded them to keep His commandments (v.26). Then He brought them to the abundance and refreshment of Elim (v.27).
The Lord wanted to teach them that each experience on their journey would reveal their hearts. This test showed they were living by sight and not by faith.
They also learned that God was involved in their daily affairs. He wanted them to know that He not only could part the sea, but He would also supply water for His people. He knew their needs because He planned their way.
If you are being led into a wilderness of disappointment and bitterness right now, trust God, for He knows exactly where you are and what you need. As you obey His commands, He will lead you out of the desert and into a place of spiritual abundance, healing, and refreshment. —Marvin Williams—Marvin Williams-->

We shrink from this life’s challenges—we pleadFor watered pastures never touched by pain;But God will often let us sense our needBefore He sends His cool, refreshing rain. —Gustafson

The more bitter the desert experience, the sweeter the water of the oasis

second last day le... Hmm second last le, nothing is going to happen , really...

God says NO means NO =(
God says WAIT means WAIT

missing... missing... missing... something is missing!

Last weekend was crazy for me!! =)

Shopped around, got my free 1 G xDram from Olympus Studio, then took bus to BPP. Bought earrings and munchy. Then headed to Jalan Kayu for nice mee goreng, satay and roti plate with CU29 gang. We then drove to Seletar Reservoir for durian and chit chat. It was quite cooling and the company was superb that night. We talked abt our parents, crack some silly jokes and share a bit of our lives. Home by 2 and reliased that Bro was still up! Was he waiting for me? Think so ler...hehe...

Since I had too much of durian and supper, I decide to work on my video clip... tick tick tick.. it was 5am in the morning!1 Gosh, i was very tempted not to sleep but when I imagine myself being restless and having 2 big dark eye rings, i forced myself to sleep... kekeke... i woke up a 930 to cont the video editting. Skip lishi meeting...hehe...

Feel so proud of myself. I think the video is somewhat decent and nice ler...hehe.. I like movie maker. I thank God for the opportunity to use this software for this Cg17 event... Hehe...

counting down...

Honestly speaking, I am still feeling the pain and ache whenever i thought of it. A torn in the flesh but guess it will soon be over.

1 more week to go... =( I cant imagine what would it be in the days to come. Today I saw WK thrice!! Hee... am i supposed to feel happy?? Haa... i dunno ... Anyway... I choose to trust in His goodness

Adrian told me he is leaving BPD. Oops, one man short for SCF team. hoho... Work will increase exponentially?? Perhaps, maybe... but he is still not sure when will he be transferring out. We have been neighbours for 1 yr++.. haiz, less 1 kaki to chat, gossip, work and have fun!!!

SD ar... I miss you... I wanna visit you and your neighbouring places! Hee... and hope to do lots shopping :)

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I finally bought a pair of new running shoe.. Mizuno!! Yeh yeh yeh... kekek.. so happy =)

think recently i caught the shopping bug =D Been spending more money ...

Went to Mustafa. Haa... what a shock. I thought i will see alot of Indian and Bangla but to my surprise, there weren't many. Happily bought my first camera Olympus U710. It comes with a 2Gb xDram... hehe... so happy. First time spending so much on gadget and I wanna build up my own asset. There were struggles but I think i am more of the prudent type people, so it should be alright to spend $$!

My wishlist for Yr2007
1. A pair of decent running shoe
2. Camera
3. Ipod

For the last 2 weeks, i bought 2 tops, 1 pair of casual shoe, 1 camera, 2 sports gear.... kekek... gonna to get that Mizuno shoe soon!!!

I buy not bcoz I am rich but i feel like and I need it

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More work coming in!! I am kinda happy as i can be more occupied at work and learn more stuffs. Finally the bleed saga is over. Will i get e-awards? I wish... haha...

Most projects sound interesting and challenging. It also means we have tonnes of defects and problem to solve. Haa...

LWK is leaving... soon... 1 more plus week. 2 ppl said, i might meet him someday, somewhere =)

BPD had our D&D last Tues at The Legends. Hee... looking at the fellow colleagues' face expression when those female engineers dressed up, i really feel like laughing out loud! Had a good get-together with WS engineers and it was a good opportunity to meet the rest of BPD. Oh ya, the best part is i got myself a color tatoo - Red butterfly on the back of my palm. So cool... and also, the greatest and most remarkable thing is WE actually sit opp one another and had a better chance to take a closer look at each other. Quite funny though =) I guess that is enough. S0 close yet so far.

I had a wonderful evening

running... running...

I reliase I have been running for years... Running has become part of me, unseperatable.

I first started my journey when I was in Sec 4. I went to the Padang on every alternate evening. The motivation during that time was to lose weight.. Haha...

Then I stopped running in the following year as busy with SPM preprations and lots tuitions. Personally I enjoyed Friday coz it was a day which is full of tuitions. BM -> MT -> Physics

During my lower & upper six days, I played basketball occassionaly with those guys. Haa... There were lots guys and only haipoh, shirley and myself. Haa...

I picked up running again during my 1st year in Uni. I ran with Hall 4 seniors and peer around NTU. 3.9km... Quite fun and and I even ran alone at midnight. But the SAO lady advised me not to run at that hour coz it was a bit unsafe. You never know what will happen. Haa...

Yr2, 3 and 4... I run to destress and unwind. Felt very relaxed after every run. Each time when I was about to give up, I keep motivating myself to press so. The distance is like my uni life, I gotta persevere and endure the hardship. I simply cant give up halfway. I may slow down, pace myself but I cant stopt running by simply walking towards the destination. In short, I cant quit and I cant afford to. Running had trained me to have stronger mental will and an attitued for not compromising. Whenever I run, I sing and I pary and psycho myself. Upon completion, I feel real good. =)

After I grad, I cont to keep this nice habit. I jog at the park near by house and went swimmining every now and then. Eversince I join HP, I go to gym at least twice a week. Hmm doing more cardio...

Actually I have been running for 8 years and whenever I stop for a week or two, I feel uneasy. Hee... Must exercise to make myself feeling good and healthy. Sweating is good to me.

My this excellent habit has helped me to have better metabolism, maintain my fitness and I think I am quite healthy ;p I am so proud of myself. Hee...Thanks to all the exercise! I am a weird person, I must exercise even if I am sick.

Lalala.. I am gonna to get a new pair of running shoe. Gotta train for my half marathon end of the year? Haa... Yes yes, I will start training soon ;D

北京行 - 23 Dec 06 - 03 Jan 07

Give thanks with a grateful heart
Give thanks to the Holy One
Give thanks because He has given Jesus Christ, His Son

And now
Let the weak say I am strong
Let the poor say I am weak
Because of what the Lord has done for us

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This song was sung twice in two consecutive weeks in BICF (Beijing International Christian Fellowship) I feel so comforted as I know My Lord has given me a lot of good stuffs and what I need to do is to count my blessings and give thanks to Him!!

Christmas & Year end service at BIFC were kinda fruitful. We have people dancing, singing and witness our Lord. Different nations come forward to worship one God, so cool =)

Beijing was freezing cold but I must say I enjoyed the weather. 天寒地冻，厚厚的衣裳，走在街上，更有一番风味！我想我是疯了，喜欢虐待自己，情愿被冬天的寒风吹在脸上的感觉，越冷越兴奋。哈！

北京其实蛮发达的，交通极其方便，上网查询公车资料更是易如反掌。唯一不足的是人太多，随地吐痰的恶习需要改进，还有就是别大声小声地嚷嚷。 食物各从其类，种类凡多；只要你有钱，不怕吃不到好吃又卫生的食物。一元人民币能带你行12公里的路，便宜吧！

有机会到古都，当然要趁机到天安门广场和我所喜爱的天坛走走。其建筑直叫人惊叹！尤其是天坛的建筑构想，古人真是聪明的很，天圆地方，4根金柱代表春夏秋冬四季，12根柱子代表12个月份，另12根代表了一天的12个时辰即24小时；和8根童柱，糟糕，忘了其意义=)

高碑店和保定之行也让我大开眼界！王晔的老家在高碑店，他们可以是当地数一数二的富有人家。大酒店，牡丹园，房产等，大概都有几千万吧！阿姨是人大代表，所以和她说话聊天时也得格外小心 =）感谢神我至少有机会知道他的想法，但我肩上的重担也变得更不轻省。

随手将瓜子壳和水果皮往家里的地板丢，这对我来说可是头一遭。将剩菜剩饭搁在桌上，经过一宿后再享用，这又是一个文化冲击！大饼为主食，冷菜配饭，这就是北方人的习惯也！

没关系，什么都免谈！这就是所谓的中国特色！我靠关系，得到了一张回返北京的软座的火车票。哈！

满城全是金字塔-到北京王府井的首都剧院观赏话剧。挺有创意，极丰富的幽默感，精湛的演技。棒！

我发现我不喜欢滑雪，也许是因为我没掌握好技巧，再加上我觉得我不能控制自己，我讨厌这样的运动！ 哈。。。 至少我曾经试过，以后别想了！

12月30日 北京的第一场雪 =）
身在保定的我，从窗户往外看，雪花从天上降下，好美啊！令我我兴奋不已！王晔，欣欣和我到景秀公园玩雪。公园漂亮极了！玩啊玩，终于感冒了；不过我觉得这是值得的。
看着雪花落在手上，实在按奈不住自己的喜悦，拼命玩雪，像足了一个小孩！好难得的一场雪景！

谢谢上帝！

是重新上路的时候了！深信父上帝会一步一步地引领我，迈向新的一年！