last day @ work..


i was feeling all ok.. really felt peaceful... until i received a letter from my student during temperature taking, i opened it, and it said "Why you want to leave Patience 1? Everyone miss you!" i almost teared.. i know, she must been having questions in her head ever since there was a change.. and not just her, many of my children has been asking me.. i really tried very hard to control my emotions..

after morning devotion, my principal announced my leaving, and got me to say a few words.. i told the K2s i'll be back often to help.. all of them stared at me blankly.. my colleague observed that some put their heads down.. i think probably they felt overwhelmed that they didnt respond to me.. and i was trembling after that.. 2nd session children was more accepting i guess.. they were happy to hear that i'll be back..

i managed to reply a few notes to some of the children who wrote me love letters and gave me farewell gifts.. joined in the staff meeting... everyone wished me well and i left...

i am really proud of myself that i didnt cry in school.. not at all... for the sake of my children, i need to be even stronger.. i just didnt dare to say "im sorry that i left without walking through with all of you"... cuz i know i will definitely cry if i say that...... =(

cell..
went to cell, this week is life sharing... so i had a chance to share about my day... when i shared, Ben was hinting JP to get the tissue box.. i said i dont need it... and ya, i really didnt cry when i shared about my leaving... i only started to tear when i was sharing about some personal things...and during worship..

went supper with the "after-church-slackers".. and dont know why, my chocolate ice cream happen to have A LOT of chocolate.. and i had a good time laughing when we chat too... thank God for good company...


a few teachers came to me and said, "tomorrow is your last day already?! so fast?" and all my replies were, "i'll still come back.. dont worry.." haha.. i've been feeling quite positive and stable so far... and 2 of my colleagues were really kind to have gave me a treat at Macs today...


tomorrow would be the day...
probably for once, i'll not be that tough...
and for once, i dont want to be alone... i want my lovelies to be around me to comfort me... and walk through this with me...

for once.


now that i want to blog, the blogger editor doesnt appear... how to uplpoad photos sia.. =(

National Day Celebration! [Combine Service]

i was feeling all excited and nervous because my darlings are gonna participating in leading a praise song today... and they did really well! it was a VERY beautiful picture when i saw the whole church participating in doing the actions.. woo.. i felt really blessed! i am sure this made God smiled! =)

but it was a bit chaotic when we brought the children upstairs... didnt prepare things beforehand and there were some crop ups.. it was all resolved in the end.. just that it wasted quite a bit of our time...

everything ended, prayed together with the TEAholics for our families and headed off for lunch.. had a good time chatting.. then i went out with Iwan and JP..

i was commenting that we used to be the "after-church-slackers" in the past.. hanging out together, doing some shopping, fellowship, etc.. haha.. those were the times.. they didnt fail to make me smiled.. aint feeling that good because of some reasons.. but we did have a good time laughing together.. especially when the 2 of them acted like some funny guys when we're on our way to look for PJ.. haha..

thank God for a good time with my lovelies today...

think i am gonna sleep like never before tomorrow.. haha..

i've received 2 farewell gifts so far.. and many love letters from my children here and there.. i've been teaching many classes... and recently Nursery too... and there was just this time that a boy came to me and asked me not to go back to K2, asked if i could stay with them and teach his class cause he like me.. haha.. so adorable...

still counting down...
5 more days..

served in both main service worship today... enjoyed the worship practice with all of them yesterday.. we really had quite a lot of fun.. and well, i guess the stage is just my sense of belonging... haha..

was just sharing with my shepherd that sometimes we really can't take guys for granted.. i really have to say that i am in a really loving environment..especially when the guys KNOW how to take care of sisters.. like when walking on the road, brothers will walk on the outside where it is nearer to the cars driving pass while the sisters walk on the inside, or allowing the sisters to board the bus first etc..are the small little things that shows a brother protecting the sisters and knowing how to take care of sisters.. not all guys notice such little things.. and i was really blessed when senior showed concern and gave me some food to eat when i was really hungry.. thanks! =)

went FOP with some TEAholics.. bought many stuff.. enjoyed the worship by Bob Fitts and teaching from another pastor too... just that it was a really tiring thing for me to wear heels for the whole day.. i was at the verge of walking barefooted! hahaha.

next year would be Planetshakers! yay.. im looking forward! =)


i was being yelled at, intimidated and challenged by a parent today. don't really want into go into details.. but i guess, i am still not that tough afterall... hai.

maybe i was already emotionally unstable with all the crying yesterday.. then came this, i really felt overwhelmed and i cried when i told my P what happened..

but i am thankful that my P took time to settle it and explained to the teachers that it is necessary to witness the incident and help rather than to hide in the kitchen.. haha.. i dont blame them.. that guy was tall and LOUD... who dare to come out?

anyways, he apologised in the end.. it was a 'good' experience for myself... and i believe it will make me tougher! haha.


i am starting to miss my kids again... have been feeling a little down this few days.. and just now i burst out crying during cell worship... ahh... =( but at the end of it i did feel God ministering to me.. i felt peace from within... the days are drawing near... another 2 more weeks before i bid goodbye.............



hai.. so many things happening recently...

i really dislike this teacher who took over my children... she just took them for a week.. and i hear complains that they have no discipline... running along the corridors.. =( it took me so long to reinforce the moral reasons why with them till they learn... and now its ALL GONE! goodness me! and why have i put in all the effort to put up the stuff in the classroom and she just take them down because she has a MIND of her OWN??? maybe i shouldnt have done anything in the first place...... hai...............

arrangements was made without my consent... just because i am leaving.. situations and decisions dumped right into my face.. and i HAVE to accept it... i cried after the meeting.. this is crazy.. the first day of school and i am told to leave my children already.. what is this...... =.(

祢是何等柔美

耶稣 祢是平安君王
耶稣 祢是永恒盼望
凡在我里面
都不住赞美耶稣
我敬拜祢

祢是何等柔美
祢是奇妙救主
再来君王
祢是何等圣洁美丽
耶稣 我敬拜祢





* laminating machine
* my own 3-in-one printer
* backpack
* digital piano
* creative speaker / X-Mini
* learn graphic & web designing
* resume piano lesson YAY! XD
* be baptize in the presence of the whole family
* new external hardisk
* thumbdrive
* do some craft work
* new graphic design for blog
* master my scales in major
* have my own children's praise & worship albums
* more chinese & english P&W albums
* bilingual bible
* formal jacket
* Fujitsu laptop
* Canon IXUS 80IS
* learn how to use the pedal
* buy a DS
* pass my basic theory