Enlightenment..
Sunday, May 29, 2011
I've decided.. that it'd be great if we can still be friends. Like how Robben remained friends with Ted and Barney in HIMYM.. that will probably feel alot better. No awkwardness. If this is also what he agrees, that will be the best for us.. and a load off my chest.
I'm pretty excited about my upcoming travel plans. Hehe. Cost me a bomb but i hope it is worthwhile. I need to start saving up to make up for the additional cost lo.. :X
Labels: Thoughts
--Merci tout le monde--
Sunday, May 29, 2011
i wonder...
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
... if you would remember my birthday...
... if you actually thought of me...
... if you are doing ok...
... if you actually regretted...
... if we'd still be friends in future...
... if i'm being naive to still think about all this right now...
Labels: Thoughts
--Merci tout le monde--
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Now i feel pissed off..
Wednesday, May 04, 2011
After all these while of attempting to be understanding.. i realise i was being treated like a fool. Just being there to pull through 5 tough school years and after exams, then 'thank you and bye bye'.
Maybe there really was someone else... and after comparison.. I'm the most boring and unimportant person around. If that was the case, why tell me only now.
All i have left now is disappointment. Maybe i was wrong about you.. after all that trust.. maybe it really wasn't worth it.
当你已经改变 不论什么都是错误
一开始的特别 现在只是我们的距离
心已经不在了 什么也都不重要了
一切都只是过眼云烟 你还会留恋吗
Labels: Thoughts
--Merci tout le monde--
Wednesday, May 04, 2011
And this is the end... or a new beginning..
Sunday, May 01, 2011
After 69 months and 5 days.. we have made the decision to part ways. I guess it's the best for both of us to end it now rather than later, since we really can't see our future together. The very things that brought us together have probably also caused this separation. But of course.. different religions, hobbies, lifestyle, background, career outlook have made us go on different paths that may never converge again. I'm definitely sad, but i think this will go away soon.. hopefully. While i have been living a pretty independent life in the recent year, i think adjustment will still take time. Till now, i haven't spoken to my family about this. I've no idea on how to approach the subject, especially in shantou when relatives asked and they happily told them i'm attached. Oh wells. now i think it was a very bad idea that i invited him to the wedding. >.< Sis thinks there must be someone else. I'm not sure. Maybe. Maybe not. I shall retain this trust.
While it was a mutual decision to part, maybe it was a little too late. We should probably have done it 3 years ago.. before going through this whole period only to realize that there is no way out. Sometimes when i look back, i wonder if it was because of the different stage of lives that we are in right now that magnified the whole difference thing. Or maybe we just didn't put in the necessary effort to maintain this already-hard-to-maintain relationship. I previously thought we would be an exception, a couple that could overcome all odds. But now i'm convinced that it's no longer possible. We were both tired.. whatever that may happen in future is unknown, i hope we'd both have a happy life in our own ways.
Now it's time for me to lead my single and fabulous life again. Hopefully i can find the real happiness eventually.. just like my dear aunt who's so happily married now. I'm really really happy for her. It's the only thing now that give me the hope that we will be able to find happiness, no matter how old.. even if it takes another 20 years..
Labels: Thoughts
--Merci tout le monde--
Sunday, May 01, 2011
It's the Rabbit Year again!
Monday, January 03, 2011
B1: oh it's rabbit year again right... means we are 24 already...
B2: ya.. means we are going into mid 20s liao.. damn sian... .... even go facial they ask me to use collagen mask..boooo i'm becoming auntie liao.....
B1: aiya 'auntie' is defined by your state of mind, not defined by your age
Ok somehow when i type it out it didnt sound as funny... i was pretty amused when he said that to me.. prob cuz he sounded so serious =X but i guess it's really true. Oh wells.. must keep reminding myself to be young at heart. It's really strange that i always wanted to grow up but now when i'm old i feel quite irritated by all the crap around me; whether environmental or physical or mental.
Anyway to start the new year on a good note... it's time i become more mature and handle my work well. Being professional is really impt right now. Whatever the prof said during comm101 is very true when i think about how it applies now. It's still be to keep work and private life separate. You never know when people will turn against you. Oh wells. Truth of life which i have learned to accept. With that, i think i'm ready to face more challenges this year. 1.6years have passed. woohoo. Proud of myself :D Hope this year gets better! and hope everyone stay healthy... i wish my family remains with me forever but it's impossible. Maybe when the time's up, it's better for them to advance to the next stage.. regardless whether it's in this world or not.. Oh wells... I'll be strong... (i mean i'll try to be....)
Happy 2011 to me! (and whoever reads this) It will be a fabulous year!
and yes.. my life-long new year resolution is to lose weight. For 2011, losing anything more than 5 kg will make me really happy. Jia you Jia you!
Labels: randoms
--Merci tout le monde--
Monday, January 03, 2011
7 months and 13 days from the last post....
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Times flies. I've been working for 7 months already and so far i'd say the experience has been enriching. Somehow it's like being thrown into a world of complex minds and working your way out of it, with juniority, no experience and a 'cute' face. People question your ability, commitment and character and everything under the sun. You see smiley faces with dark secrets deep within, emotional outbursts, tempers lost but yet, it's a learning experience every day. People do grow in such environments. Learning how to read people, question people and understand people. It's why seniors like to say that 'they have met all sorts of people... and their judgment is usually 70% right...' and after a while you realise it might actually be true.
Enough of work. X'mas coming again! Surprisingly i do feel quite a bit of the X'mas mood when i'm walking down orchard this year. The decor isnt exactly fantastic but it's not hard to notice we have more malls that are 'high tech' now. X'mas treees are everywhere and more common this time as well. Pretty pretty :) Oh I finally got my haircut again after 10months! Wheeeee
Labels: randoms
--Merci tout le monde--
Saturday, December 19, 2009
future... where are you?
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
While the news mentioned xx% of students who graduated last year remains unemployed, the recent events that occurred made me wonder the degree of truth in such reports. Is it a gimmick for firms to lower their starting salary? Is it really happening in S'pore?
3 job offers.
different pay range. different job scopes.
yet i chose the one with the lowest. Isnt salary really important to me? I kept questioning myself. That question made me sleepless for a couple of nights. Talks with elders like my aunt and professor made me rethink and rethink. scope, salary, progression. what do you really want? why commit yourself to a contract with penalty? and yet at the same time i wonder... why are they so keen to hire me? was i the only one who applied for the job? was it my school/character/experience/achievements? guess i must have done something right during the interviews then.
oh wells.
as i type i considered the options again. but too late. i've committed myself to one and there shall be where i would be for the next couple of years (i hope). fingers crossed. i dont seem to have much enthusiasm left anymore. many rejection calls to make tomorrow. i feel horrendously bad.
that's life i guess. a new chapter that i will soon familiarise myself with. till then....
Labels: randoms
--Merci tout le monde--
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
