`i lurbbs euu* NEVER leave eu

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Thursday, February 15, 2007
11:43 PM
new blog site: http://www.wretch.cc/blog/nia88

heyas!! im back again! feel sick few days back! sorry for not blogging so often. was like so bz if nt so lazy! my assignments all like use 1 day lidat to complete. heng still can get gd grades. im alr so contented with it cox it's not my 100% of work ba. regarding job.. well.. abit ma mu with alot of stuffs and wad they are going to tell me. not that i don gif a damm lahs budden reali lor. so many things to do ok! i not super free person ok! no. 1 sui mian is very impt to me! so i wont xi shen tt!!!

haiss!! people around are just changing and changing! well.. time still goes.. i cant stop all these. people do change! but importantly, changing into a better person will be the best. if it is the other way round, then.. i got nothing to say lers. =X zipped.

skol has been fine and it's study break now. work for mum for like 3 days and walau eh.. down with flu! fever and bit of cough!! haisss.. sick n sick lidat tis yr.. abit poor in health!! but.... my activities that i planned still has to go on.. boh bian. if i dont do those.. who knows when im better, the stuffs are no longer there for me to do it if not i may not exist anymore to do them. i dont want to regret those...

well.. just informing everyone out there that.. i'm having a 2nd blog at wretch. yeahhs.. due to been surfing there often so might be blogging there often as well.. but, i wont close this blog down as i might be posting here as well, and i will keep all these post as memories. do drop by my wretch to view my latest updates! http://www.wretch.cc/blog/nia88 .. this is it!!

take care!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Monday, January 01, 2007
7:40 PM
HAPPY 2007!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!! May this be a blessed year for you and have a fruitful year ahead!!

Have you guys heard of BBQing in the day? I just tried that yesterday. Bernard's dad tried to book the BBQ pit but the night is full so went to book from 1-5pm instead. Despite sleeping at 3+am the day before, I woke at 10+ the next day. Yeahs, NOT enough sleep! Was dugged up and met shen to go ber's house together. We chatted alot. Talking all those rubbish and told him some of my problems. Hais.. Amy and his bro, Ronalda, Bernard came later. We reached first. They went to buy those food. Then, Bernard prepared them while the rest of us were in the room slacking. Eh, Shen was trying to help him out in the kitchen. Kekes..

BBQ in e day is not a bad thing after yesterday's trail. Maybe because the wind was ok yesterday. It was not hot at all. Shen brought Chivas over so we were playing and drinking. HAHA!! It was fun and he was such a joker. LOLS!! He was the one that made us laugh and laugh yesterday. We ended our BBQ at 5pm, cox the pit is booked by others already ar.. Amy and Shen left. She went back to change and slacked awhile. Then I be lightbulb lor.. Was supposed to watch DVD in the end I fell asleep. Is all of us also fell asleep. 9+, Edam came over. Then 10+ Amy then reach. Starting they were playing cards before Amy arrived, and I was busy surfing the net. Then later about 10.45pm, started to play majong. A quick one. We only completed DONG. It was already almost 11.30pm lers. So quickly went to make up and everything then we called cab and went down holland V..

OH, we're quite despo lidat.. everywhere is FULL then we dono wad to do. Still even thinking to anyhow go in a pub to countdown. Later, we just stand in between the shops the road there lor. So rushed till we're not prepared to countdown. Then awhile 5...4....3....2.....1!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!! lols.. We lighted up our sparkles and played among ourselves and took photos.. Then Eski bar got space so we went in and open 1 bottle of Whisky and continued to play games and drink lor...Brrr... Inside is really cold. There closed at 2 so we left around that time and headed down to MU after that. Didn't dance lor! HAIS!! Was just moving on the chair. Left there around 4 ba. Walked over to cini to find Weilin. She's at KBOX with her cols then I went in and rot lor. So weird feeling. Cox waiting for ChanMeng they all. Left KBOX at 6am. I really rotted there. Then chanmeng, zhihao they all came over lor. Well.. was super hungry then they wanted bring mi go kopitiam eat but it was close lor. Only ate a bao. Then we took train back together. Came to think of it, dono meet for wad. Reached home around 7.30am. Quickly do my things then sleep liaos, so tired siahs! Was supposed to meet Linda they all but was too tired liaos. Think gain bu-shuang too. But my body really cannot siahs. Slept till about 5pm den wake up wors. Still, very tired, very sleepy.

I've so many things untouched, and I'm supposed to do them asap!! BUT.. nahs.. super lazy, super tired! I have him inside my mind spinning and spinning again. OHNO! I thought I can make it happen, I guess it'll never. I though after time, he'll disappear BUT i'm so wrong! SO SO WRONG! He's always been there and it's only me trying to find a dai ti ping!

Have been hearing March's concert audios since just now. Tears flowed. Missing them, missing him. MISS MISS MISS!!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Thursday, December 28, 2006
10:06 PM
OMG!

OMG! Why had THIS happened? THIS is not what I want! I don't know how am I doing to carry on any longer! ARGH!!! Images like a movie just flashed through my mind everytime when I have nothing to do, in daze. And dazing has become one of my hobby. Stoning and dazing...... It's been days and I had gone through a sleepless night. SHUCKS! Hoping that will be erased soon from my mind. ASSHOLE!! AH!

Did what i yearn to do. Although it's short but it's still something after soooo long! Happy or Sad? I really dono once again. Happy for a moment then sad again lor.. Hais... I really huo chu qu lor.. e feeling might be different but it is still the same thing. Have been thinking why why why, why him? But, I really dono. Have scan through many times without finding a clue. Nothing like last time attracted me. But.. the feeling is still there, and I don't tink it will disappear any sooner.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
3:43 AM
Merry Christmas!

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!! Bought Otahs down to grandparent's house to celebrate with the cousins. Went to watch Night at the Museum, midnight. Ya, we ownself see is 12am liaos which each other merry xmas only. The show is real funny. "dum dum"! lols.. Well... didnt really counted down on christmas so it's like... hmms, im not satisfied with this year. But, it's been since so long that we celebrated tgt so yeah.. got e good and bad lor..

Went out with mi jie to K. yah, bcox both of us at home really rotting so we went out. Went down all the way to cck, nvm. xi guan liaos. Den Ronalda came down to fetch us to have supper together with Bernard lahs. Went Oasis to had porridge.. oohs.. FULL!! BLOATED! It's been so long tt I've been there lor. Then this bernard crack jokes on mi jie again lor.. so bad lor.. den we laugh laugh laugh and we eat.. Then that couple there so en ai so mi jie and i saw DOLPHINS outside.. PINK ones? hahahas... After all the fun we had, ron sent us back, im first bcox amk mah, outta way they ALL jurong ders lor. Like i say, after all the fun, the happy, the bad, the sad came by. Suay enough, we had an accident. the car side was quite cui and the taxi that knocked us in front super cui lor! Den it was pouring. Super jia lat. It happened before turning in the blocks of houses at my here. Then she wana turn in then the taxi at the main road wana go straight. Dono wad happ, she turn though still see the taxi come den BOM! The car swift up the curb abit. The front left tyre went bending in, the door was like slammed?

den it was pouring so heavily lor. Stayed with them for like an hour or what to see wad's happening cox if lidat oso v.bad mahs. Den asked chanmeng come down take umbrella gimmi den i can go home mahs. hahas.. heng gt frenz live near me siahs. walked me back. reached home, heart is still at the scene. so called mi jie to see if they need anything den i can bring down give them. brot clothes, towel and umbrella down. as buddy drench lehs, den will gan mao so bring down for him. When i was at the lift, mi jie called back say tow car come liaos i say i otw lers so i walk damm fast back to the scene lor. so afraid that i'll fall.. Starting Ron wana come my house lend toilet but she need to follow the tow man back to col the keys back so in the end never lor, pei mi jie wait cab den i walk back again lor. buddy pei ron of cox lah.. den e tow truck no space or wad den mi jie go hm lor. reached home wrap the chirstmas pressies lor. den din reali slp well too.. agar 4 hours onli. heart oso cannot wen ding xia lai. and e lucky tink of this accident is that nobody is hurt. no wounds and all lahs, besides those blue blacks and aches. Even remembered a red car guy past us ask if anyone is hurt. was a gentleman! Many cars is past by kpo see see lor.. singaporeans are still singaporeans.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
8:15 PM
LET GO!

Ha, with him calling me and showing his love, I don't know if I should feel happy and honoured. BECAUSE i still have another HIM in my heart. Someone which I can't think of any excuses to let go off. although there are many many many......... I'm not like her who can do such thing. I don't know what happened in the process that let all these happen. Well... it's the end of my movement. a big door has come blocking the road and the door knob is on his side. Though there's a window, I will try to stay away from that, and avoiding to shout across! IT IS REALLY HIGH TIME TO STOP! I'll work hard! = (I really dont wish to.)

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Sunday, December 03, 2006
2:53 PM
wives meeting.

jean was here in town and we met her yesterday. carol didnt appear as she's off to KL for her biz trip, leaving only Hazel, Linda and I. Met Linda earlier on to shop and yeah, my leg hurts. I guessed is the 'jerry run' that make my tighs not recovering. All thanks to my heels because of work.

Wanted to buy lotsa stuffs but ended up with only 1. It's always like that. When you wana buy smt, u always cant find that. Wanted to consume Xiao Bai Tu but when we met Jean, she wanted to look for shoes but end up with nth. So ate Ramen instead. And I saw WeiLin working. Didnt talked much at all cox was really hungry as have not eaten for the whole day and only eating the 1st meal at ard 9. After dinner, went to her hotel as the food that she brought for us are there. While walking to the taxi stand, saw people selling lightsticks. And we saw there's butterfly one. We brought those at $5 each instead of $6. Ha, bcox of zai's Hu Die Fei and when we go for the premier, we'll bring that. Heehees... We can also pre-reherse the lightings of that for the coming ABC concert that we'll be attending. Hiaks Hiaks Hiaks!

Jean's hotel small but we managed to find place to sit down (on the floor) to have our pics taken. kekes.. Hotel was Robinson Quay, which is just opp Clark Quay. Walked over to drink at dono wad is that place lahs. Ambience is outdoor near the 'water' and it's like those on the floor seat. We're so comfortable! Chatted many things. They talked about Shinhwa and we recalled how we knew each other and some exciting and unforgetable incidents with the boys. Hais.. now come to think of it, tears might rolled down too due to over miss! 8 mths since the last meet. Headed back home after walking Jean back to the hotel. Was really tired and almost fell asleep during the cab ride. Driver said the street has quiten down after MOS and DRAGONFLY opened. hurhurs...

Wanted to watch finished the show was showing yet fell asleep. Hahas.. Woke up at 12, so early. Wanted to turn back in but scared later tonight cant sleep.

Woots! tml skol reopen liaos. New environment with lacking of some classmates and adding in new classmates. Kind of qi dai yet hai pa and bu she. Haisss.... Life still carry on. =)

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Friday, December 01, 2006
10:03 PM
november's last msg

heyhah!!

jerry just went back tw ytd. he came singapore to promote the world vision thing. i dint went for the event as it's $60!! and i was working too. well.. yesterday's was the last day of my work as well. should worked till 6pm but i asked to leave early. Susan only allows me to leave at 3pm as I am supposed to teach the new girl what I've been doing as she is coming to take over me as I have to go back school next week. Then at 1pm, I said if I could leave. Before the day starts, I already told her lers. Lucky she allows. I left early because Im going to the hotel to start chasing. Hahas.. To the airport. His flight is at 5.15pm. Came for 3 days and I only managed to see him for 2. During his event day, didnt have the chance. Wasted.

when he arrived (28/11/06 - 7.45pm), was at the airport to start the thrill!! he turned and smiled. melts. then all the way went to the hotel. saw many old friends.. 2 years since we've met. feeling was strange though. then, he didnt leave the hotel at all. 2nd day i went to work was tempted to go to the event but was thinking since it's the last day so must as well go to work. but, was forbidded for being the last day then because i still have to teach the new girl stuffs when she comes on the 30th. so after work, off i went to the hotel, but didnt see anything and we just have chats with the rest of the kakis.

30th, was the last day that he was here and don't know when he'll be coming again though he's not my no.1 but i still have those bu she de feeling. not much mood in working that day and i think it's singtel having network problem. which let me cant called out at all as kip cant connect!! looking so hardly for lifang as her phone has e same problem. sp as well. wanted to call and ask for e zhuang kuang then planning when will meet at where.. so jia lat lors.. if call sometimes connect connect so long. haiyoyos.. tt day really can go crazy lor. but heng we all still managed to meet and all.. listened to lifang's story and felt a bit bu man for her also lor. but... just lidat lor. den went bot mac and headed back to the hotel again and watched KV in msia in e car. den 3.30.. he's out. smiled and went up the car. den we had e thrilling session again. but guessed his gastric came again. i knoe earlier on when he went mdc, saw the clip, heard them say ders. i mean e fans lahs, and saw him pressing his stomach too ar. hais.. when reached the airport.. WOAH! chaotic! we reached first and get prepared. hahas.. prepare what? hmms.. be in ready lor. kekes.. den he came down frm the car, usual me v.guai ders, will ask can shake hand nots. but sp was like giving him things den he was stucked and looking and looking and dono wad lor.. den he walked past me lers cox e stupid securitys all tall and build. den i just hold onto his hand and hahas.. 'molested'.. so shuangs.. lifang was just beside me and both of us like so shuang lidat. budden onli touch awhile la! aiyo! den he turned to us and smiled and giving out electricity. ooh! i almost fainte. but he went in already so i quickly continue to walk also and film too. den adel managed to give him e photo album OF gave. he was flipping and flipping seeing them while walking in. the security even say 'u all don push him ar, give him space to walk.' so funny. den security super protective lidat. hahas.. then he went in the lounge and waved. after awhile, he walked to the immigration and gave the last goodbye! off he went in. we.. (cant remember got who) ran up to the viewing gallery. as i was in heels, cox come frm work but not in office wear as i've changed, i run so slow den i took out my heels, hold them in my hands and run n run up the escalator, which is so painful cox of the lines. but kevral brot us to the wrong one which can see the whole stretch. then we dono where it is so walk here n there den in e end drop off the idea. our cab ppl went back cab lor. to settle our $. then chatted awhile then we left the aiport..

heys, i didnt drop a single tear. masa they all also never, don say sp lahs, she always ders. in cab already start liaos. all of us not in e mood of crying though feeling very sad. but no matter how hard we squeezed, the tears just don fall.. maybe we alr dui tis kind of things ma mu lers? or bcox we alr upgrade liaos so didnt cry? i dono.

didnt haf a good sleep again. woke up at 11+ today. missed working. missed my cols at there. e jokes we cracked. i knoe jessica is disappointed in mi leaving w/o informing her first. i missed her too. she's just so fun to be with and we always talk rubbish. but we have each's contact, we still can meet out or smt. winnie smsed mi tis morning too. chris alr missed me once i left ytd. received her msg last night. hais.. dono how they are doing.. miss miss. susan called today too to ask for the p/w to do e pmis thing. haiyoyos.. really should have go to work today like was susan say. i can help them for 1 more day as jingyi, e new gal, didnt come today and next mon. hais.. but i only working till end of the month so ya lor.

NOW, starting to miss work, miss xu, miss him. he's still not out of my mind yet. = wad i can do? nth. let time decide everything. either letting the time to let him fade off if not waiting for miracles to happen lor.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Thursday, October 05, 2006
10:44 PM
tears just couldnt stop flowing down

went kster when them ytd and then shen got abit drunk liaos and he wanted to head home but i stop him since im gg back with him so y not follow them down to shasha first.. den don drink. den he ok lor.. so went down shasha budden was not in a good mood at all by surrondings. e sight that i was having so got sad and lonely and angry. den played hand games with mi jie and our cheng fa is to drink plain water cox we don drink beer. shen was drunk then he was stoning there. so funny cox like dead people lidat den all of us were making fun of it. den they took shots of him stoning den caine still go di siao him by directing him to dance with the music den shen was shaking his head with the music which is so funny.. den all of us got entertain by it.. after not long.. he awake liaos den want go back so ok lor, i take bag and walk off liaos cox like i say, was not in a good mood. reached home, lied on bed, full of thoughts, fell asleep. mi jie rch hm called mi updated mi some things which let me think again den didnt really sleep well at all. did dream about it too.. oh! how pathetic rights?

tis morning was like wake up by my mum.. knocking on my door when i was sleeping till so shuang? and it's like 10+ only lor!!! den ppl sleep of cox talk no mood den abit rude den she buay song. but like i care lor.. den 1+ lidat mi jie and si jie called den say go mi jie house now lor, ask mi go prep. took a cab down. jurong east lehs.. so far. hahas.. mi jie help us do mani pedi. kekes.. den till like 6+ i leave le.. went to find auntie den was talking to xiao jie. she knocking some sense into mi which did not successfully got in my mind. den i was talking to rui en and shao rui oso. realised that though they are so young.. they alr know how to think. they know wad's happening and feeling bad about it so they shared with me and it really touches my heart on their thinking. glad they do feel the same way with me on the prob that i just heard not long. knowing that they do feel for auntie which really touches me the most which leads me in having watery eyes. left there at 7+ den go ah ma house alr.

thought of many many things in the cab. memories flashing back. our story. the stupid and sha de wo.. and many many other things oso. moodless de dao le ah ma house. ate the hay mee liaos den went to the small living room, den jiu lie on e sofa and continue thinking my thoughts and arranging them. tears flowed down. then my sister came in then i share abit with her cox at that point, i was really really very lost. lost till i dono wad i can do. lost till feel like dono wad also. den ah ma came in and ask y i so late come backden talk some reali cock things lor.. which definately i didnt care.. and i protected myself by answering her that i know my friends, they wont harm me!!! den she ask me if i'll be angry with her. i told her not den she say if yes she also cannot anything, WEI WO HAO!! im seriously not angry with her budden fell that JUST LEAVE ME ALONE IN THIS!! I KNOW MY FRIENDS! I KNOW WHAT IM DOING!!! continued my story with my sister again den mum's turn to be in asking y i cried. told her nth, she didnt believe. u don expect me to tell her anything too. it's super ridiculous lor! den she got fed up den walk off. ltr come in again, i stop my story den i turn a side and cry den she say wad we no manners, rude lahs.. donwan c her or whatever shit things which none got in my mind as im not in e mood to care at all!!!

after awhile, my phone rang den start talking. thanks to him tt lighten me at that point by cracking a lame joke. den i got down again. washed my face den went out to gather with them. tears still flow abit lah. cut bdae cake liaos for gugu... lisa pulled mi a side ask mi wad happ lor.. didnt say much in details but rafly told her my feelings. after that did tink for myself also lah.. den when on car go hm tears oso rolled down again. haissss.... reach home, dono wad to do, on e com.. hear some songs den had another good cry. now i'm really like so down. so so down till i dono wad i even can do, what am i doing, wad am i supposed to do. why... why isit always me den hafta result in this kind of ending?

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Thursday, September 28, 2006
12:11 AM
Sha Gua!

I've been troubling myself again. My brain just dont listens to me.. What can I do? I seriously dont know. I've been thinking of past memories. Hais.. Actually is hen sha hen sha de wo... Suffering with all these unnecessary pain. Hmms... Not the type of life I want, not the kind of people I want yet I still chose this road. Like for what rights? Really dummy me..

Now.. I have the choice to U-TURN and not to walk it again or maybe next time? But why are my legs still stuck in the 'mud' ? I am walking back to my 'house' but the road seems dark, the road seems eerie, the road is no longer the road that I've walk..

WAKE UP WAKE UP!! I SHOULD REALLY WAKE UP!!

Hoho.. enough of those craps.. Have been spending most of the time with classmates now.. My life with them is going to end soon. Yeah.. by mid oct. Kekes.. Like as if I'm dying. My PC course is ending and we will be separating as they are taking biz management and I'm taking tourism. Then with Amy and Lourdes so close liaos den gonna separate soon.. Miss miss.. So I'm gonna treasure every second with them lers.. Hehes.. For the next 10 mths in tourism.. what will happen? Quite worried and everything. hahahas... Cox it's gonna be very stress with study as far as i knoe... haiss.. What to do? Study is lidat. Walk 1 step, count 1 step lor..

Hehe.. Gonna practise my demo with Rudy tml. Hahas.. Den gonna record demo. Dono real or not also.. Hehes..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Sunday, August 27, 2006
8:11 PM
BONDING~~

OKAY!! it's been really long since i last blogged. Wel.. have been so busy. Yeahs.. busy BONDING with new classmates. Hahas.. Cant imagine is barley a mth yet we are so clicked besides those people who became so annoying in our life. Relations starts to build. Well.. In the crossroads. Hmms.. It's really fast actually. But.. hahas.. it's good lehs. It's tough to find someone that............. (you know.) But.. infactuation perhaps? If it's love.. woahs.. den in just a short 1 mth, there'll gonna be like 3 couples liaos. kekes..

Everytime hang out with them till late night. Yeah.. I really mean late. Hahas.. Though they smoke and drink.. They're not bad and when Im with them ye bu dai biao Im bad lor!! SOMEONE! PLEASE GET THIS SENSE RIGHT!!!! I wont smoke. I wont even learn to!

And we always almost do e same thing but we still enjoy it ehs.. Everyday we spent the time with one another got 12hours and more ders.. hahahas... Besides go K, Pubbing den like jiu mei you liaos. always sing and drink. kekes...

It's really fun with these grp of gang.. (Albert, Amy, Bernard, Caine, Lourdes, Szemin, Tingting and me of cox) but in and out got e rest like Darren, Germaine they all join us in our activities lors. Rock on pals!! Everytime say wana rest liaos in e end still go HIGH ehs.. hohos..

Today supposingly going study but too tired lers so SLACK at home and online.. yeah yeah.. Yesterday was really a loooooooooooooong day. There's lesson in e morning then after skol went home den went to meet friend den pei friend go co.'s party till 12+ drag friend off to meet other friends at central mall.. tot gonna stay dere in e end we took cab dere. met them, took another cab go germaine's pub. didnt enjoy much there cox........... hahas.. shhs.. cant say. then the night is still young so went MU till MU close den went down B1 but go in den jiu come out le.. Den we went mac there sit sit den e rest left. So left me, albert and caine. den we ate breakfast b4 we went back. Yesterday really very memorable. Fun Fun Fun!!!

But soon.. it might be just an illusion, a dream. I dont know. Seriously. Im lost.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Saturday, July 29, 2006
3:32 PM
a wonderful night w Mt A collegues

yesterday was big gathering with collegues frm Mount A. We went to eat seafood at amk dere.. Sister bluf mi ask mi reach at 6pm den I thought I was going to be late cox I missed a bus and waited so long for another therefore I decided to take a cab down. Can save the walking also. SO EX lor cab fare! Peak hours $2.. Everytime from house over in the morning around $4.50. Now, board the cab already $4.50 lers. pengz..

Went back there.. Was quite quiet. Went to the admission room and sat there and talked to bad and margaret as both of there only. Then Mavis and Violet came over den chatted awhile with them. Ha.. though not working lers.. I still talked to a patient. Cox chinese speaking so told him to come down to sign forms and when he is down, still explain to him what he was signing.. Hais... Really missed so much. Then later 2 patients come in so i moved myself to BO. Stand there and talked to the rest.. Missed the environment so much and of cox the people there.. How would i forget although it is just a short 2 months journey there. But it really brighten up my life cox everyone there is just like a family! All treated me so well maybe because Im the youngest..

Later sister came agar 6.45 den fetched me and ann over to the seafood there first lors. The rest still working, clearing things n all.. So we went over and waited quite long. But not as long as the rest that are alr there lers. Maria, Mary, YouTing, Angela and a old staff. Nv see her b4 oso. Though after go hm gt talk abit budden still dono her name. Hahas.. Next batch who arrive is the rest of the temp.. Meiyen, Siyi, Adeline, XiuHui, KimMeng. They alighted wrong stop den walk over. Teach them come also gonna die lidat.. Hahas.. Then I moved from another table to another table to sit tgt w them. When they come, food alr arrive lers so i jut carry on eating. Then like so luan and all.. Started to talk loud as so noisy. Hahas.. And lor.. I must say this!! Everytime is people peel prawn gimmi I 1st time peek fer ppl and she's Siyi. She must be feeling so honoured ok.. Hahas.. Then Adeline know about it she told Meiyen and woah! Meiyen want me to help her also. Den later she decided to do it herself. kekes.. Siyi.. must learn to be like MeiYen ar.. Dirty hands only mah.. Den got crabs dere.. Me and Siyi oso never eat. She is scared to dirty her hands budden for me I is dono how to peel crab. Is peel the correct word? Kekes.. I like to eat budden dono how to eat. So funny. But prawns eat sufficient lers. Enough liaos. Hahas.. Den with so many people around we also forget about takin pics. Yes.. we all always zai yi qi will take and take budden ytd don haf only our table 1 shot only. These temp gals not e last. Still got from office de still havent leave. 6pm people alr reach they like almost 8 ba isit? Cant remembered. Really big gathering lor. Cindy fetched Pristina, Tatik and Lay Khim over. Lastly Geraldine den come with Leo. Leo got held back by EddyLee.. He is not invited by the way. Hahas.. I go back also heng nv c him. When I go in BO he not dere. When I leave then I think he come back. Who will wana c him mans.. Hahas.. It's Leo's last day ytd. She gonna change to a better job!! All the best to her!!!

Saw sister so wana give my $ to her as per pax like is $25. Den Sister ask mi kip e $ she treat me this meal. Cox is she ask mi ders. I feel bad towards her because I nv talk much to her lor. Different table den I talk talk n joke joke ard w my table niahs. Actually is we these temps de kip talking and joking around. Dono wad we say also budden when we always zai yi qi is just jokes, fun and laughter!! No tears ders. kekes.. Only 2 mths budden feeling towards them got so much so much!! So sisterhooding.. hehes..

Then later anna hubby come and fetched angela, old staff and me back in her Little Car. Hahas.. So funny thing is Sister say wana fetch me den "eh" again and say anna wana fetch me as know the way to my house. Then I went to hear who am I supposed to follow den sister jiu bu jian diao liao.. She left and fetch Mary home only ar I think. Then all of us at the carpark there so long seeing who should follow who and who is going where. Then we waiting for the Little Car ar.. Ya lor.. Reached home rushed to the tv lers. Den drag here drag dere. Do this do that.

Ha.. so bored ar so I stream online den dono wad show I just anyhow click den click till watching La Bi Xiao Xin. So funny. Then keep laughing lor.. Den watch back Ping Qiong.. budden no zai ders so I close it den watch MG den is e part where they went holiday den Lei n San Cai kissed at e beach, ah Si angry den ba Lei kick out of F4.. Den e story dere lah.. Then e ep end lers den e screen hang so I watch other show. Watched er mo.. Watched till e ep end also den my net ki siao den I jiu close lers den watch tv liaos. Den MSN'ing' with michi. Talking crap with her also.. Hahas... Slept at 3+ almost 4 lor..

MORNING!!! irritating!!! 1 by 1 call n disturb my slp. Had 3 dreams in total. All good good and sweet sweet de. Dono will come true not also.. kekes.. 1st 1 is Evelyn den i say sleeping so she hang. Den later sis call and dono tell mi wad oso.. Den jiu 12+ lers den jiu decided to wake up liaos. So pissed. sms also keep coming in. haish!! so free wan ppl entertain den don haf den bz den 1 by 1 like to disturb! Haiyoyo!!!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
12:18 AM
updates...

kekes.. it's been quite sometimes since i planted my last msg ar.. well.. only blog when i super free now.. blog till sian again.. those starting gt read liaos shd knoe.. yrs ago i blogged den i stop den i cont again.. hohos..

hmms.. well.. i'm no longer working alr cox this Mount A found sufficient perm staffs alr therefore asking all the temp to leave.. yeahs, i do feel abit bu she de lahs budden sometimes oso like song le yi kou qi lors.. it's fun working dere esp with sister jenny, anna chew, bada and marg although sometimes hehehehe lahs with marg. but with the rest is so fun lors.. when i worked in the same shift as sister, we'll tok n tok n tok.. ya, gossips and haha.. those shuai ges dere.. keke.. den with anna chew she oso oways joking here n dere. bada always like say me this n that budden say lers den we'll laugh laugh laugh. aiyo, writing here wont express much. that kind of memory and feeling only can be recalled. haiss... haf been slacking at hm for a week!! oohs! so sians.. everytime juz like online online, tv tv and all.. haish.. got 1 fren say me no life lidat.. hahas.. stay at home oso gd lahs, can save $.. no more pocket $ liaos lehs.. hais.. gonna be broke real soon..................

<<silence>> had alr come to episode 7.. and it's like he alr know that that gal is his young times girlgirl.. woahs! dao di got how many eps ar?! but it's really nice nice nice lors! really. recommended to siling n yes! she love it! hahas.. no.1, he is soooo shuai! sooo mi ren! no 2, his acting has improved once agn.. no.3 ... hmms.. e show is really nice lahs.!! haiyoyo..!! when dvd out ppl out dere muz go n buy n watch ok? hehes..

n yahs, i've reg at MDIS liaos.. therefore i'll be studying dere. skol will commence on 7 aug. n ya lors.. vann's bdae lors.. hurhurs.. I'll be studying Diploma in Travel, Tourism and Hospitality Management. The course will lasts for 11 months. Well.. havent got the timetable yet. *winkZ* Actually is a 9 mths course budden i spent another 3 months studying e course incorporating professional certificate in biz management cox i more stupid mahs.. don haf 5 passes for O's.. so hafta take an additional that lors.. that course req is 3 O passes or credits for N's ba.. smt lidat. cant remembered.. hais.. so ppl.. having N's lahs, O's de, or A's.. study hard now yahs?! don don put in much effort den regret like mi lidat.. starting tot mei you shen me da bu liao but things really come.. it really means alot.. -_- (not eugenia's style rite?) but really lahs.. put in 101% effort yeahs?! and me.. I'm gonna study real hard in MDIS oso.. cant play play too.. 1 day onli like 3hrs lors den whole course ard $6k lehs.. 11mths only lors! so cannot waste $! must study!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Sunday, June 11, 2006
2:42 PM
happy bdae zai!

Happy Birthday To You! Happy Birthday To You! Happy Birthday to ZaiZai! Happy Birthday To You!! 9th June 2006 is a special day because it's Chou Yu Min's (zaizai) 25th birthday! keke.. So... in no matter what, I'd a very enjoyable day! Many babies were born on this special day too! Congrats to those mummies and daddies out there!!

Rushed home straight after work to catch the last episode of Women In Times and had received many questions from mother. She then lie to me that she had brought bread for me and it's in the fridge and ask me to eat. Although I'm full but she just want me to go and take it! Out of my surprise, it's a birthday cake!! So cute of her. So I brought the cake in to my room and on my bed somemore. Then we lighted up the candle and sang a birthday song for zai. Then I heleped him to make a wish and of cox blow off the candle together with my mum and cut the cake. heehee.. It was a very special and meaninful day that I had had.

10 June, meet out with VP ppl to continue to celeb zai's birthday! Went to party world and we talked more than we sing right gals? Had lots of fun of cox! Hearing stories etc etc... After that the few of us went to walk walk, shop around and had our dinner.. Den walked over to far east to take some stickers as a memorade of June 9. Hoho.. Had fun. Really. Time flies and it's already 10+, most shops have alr closed so we went home. Hahas.. Unpacked my stuffs had the essence started and off I went to sleep.... Not a good sleep. Had dreams after dreams.. A really weird one. Come to think of it now, I dont remember what I've dreamt. He replied me and I feel kind of weird actually, not that high like when I first received. Maybe I've come to mind? Should really take those gals word into mind and stop this "thing" if I know the ending wont be what I want it to be.................

Dad is back from Indo.. OK! No need take cab to and fro liaos, can save this big amt alr.. Hiaks! He bought some batam batam clothings.. Dono if I will wear. Maybe yes lahs, wear it at home lors. But when I'm home, I'm always in pyjamas ar.. UNLESS got friends coming or wad. Haiyoyo.. Dono also. But 1 skirt looks nice. Might wear to work 1 day. Hahas.. Well well well... Hopefully I can stream online for today's Silence Ep 4.. If not I dono how long I'll need to dl it.. No more https, hafta use BT.. Trying to stream now but it seems there's a problem. ArghS!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Monday, June 05, 2006
6:21 PM
BAD service at uberburger

Ok! Went to celeb Lisa's bdae on 3rd June at uberburger at millenia walk! WELL WELL WELL!!! the service there really is very very BAD!! We ordered our food and after waiting for an hour plus, the person then come and tell us that they had lost our order list! ALL of us were already so hungry and the last meal I had for the day was 7+ in the morning! Can you imagine how hungry can I be?! So nvm, they didnt even apologise and the person who misplace our order slip didnt even come and order from us again! He pushed to his collegues!! Really so dispised him! Then also, when we wana ask for refill for our drinks they act as if they nv hear or what making us doing the svc ourselves! Before getting out the cake, we told the staff there to clean up the table, she look at us and walked off and we hafta ask another staff to do that! They are doing this like so bu gan yuan, bang here n dere! PISSED! The manager wanted to give us a 20% disc BUT non of the staff know about it. Bu Shi Wei Le what citibank spend more dan $50 got free dessert queries (upon payment den we know), the mgr didnt even talk to us! CAN u imagine? None of them felt apologetic and all.. WILL nv visit there again mans! And cousins are asking me to spread around the BAD attitude and BAD service they are giving!!!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
7:03 PM
finally.. 1 done.

woahs.. since so long i've blogged.. yeahs, getting lazier once again and i've been so busy.. dont even have the time to blog everyday.

working has been full of OTs.. 7am till 9pm! not someone sick, someone hospitalise den mc.. i've been working for a month only. can u imagine? i feel that it's soooo long alr. tink work is getting more and more boring. but watta do? no choice too. now.. there'll be lesser OT.. 1 week ard twice or thrice lors.. not everyday that kind lers.. hopefully i still can survive with it lahs. ytd OT.. fri and sat also OT.. the rest of this week is PEACE. yeahhs.. can rest and slack.. (my fav!)

just now dad came and fetch me with mum as they went to see "pang xie" ah ma.. den he dropped us off at central cox i wana go shop shop with my mum. keke.. Dont say i no heart and all lors.. still will shop with her.. (juz bcox i can buy my furniture mahs den nid her consent and her seeing.. BUT not her $..) no lahs.. also got shop other stuffs lors.. went to see bras... den just walk ard den lastly den go c my furniture.. this shop so damm sux den i juz don care go back to another shop.. hmms.. all still within budget so hai hao! $ for furniture DONE.. now for my pc.. yeah.. this one is so so lag sometimes den when i dl stuffs, i cant surf.. hopefully i can get my pay quickly and have more $ den i can buy tt soon..

oh yeah oh yeah!! SILENCE has alr start to broadcast in tw! last sunday was the first ep.. was waiting online and watching it LIVE with those ppl in tw.. it was stream online so it's gd! perfect! den i enjoyed it OF COX!!! really muz intro this show to all of u all!! it's juz nice nice and nice.. but 1st ep.. half hr was on when they were kids which is kinda boring.. but after tt de 1hr.. it's saliva drooling.. shuai! shuai! shuai! abit se qing pian tai de yan shen... meng nan de yang zi!! oooh lala!!! yue lai yue shuai liaos.... and tt pian wei qu (which suppossed to be e zhu ti qu) is very very meaningful.. starting those ad only had e chorus den couldnt understand him lahs.. as u knoe. yup. (so bad of me) den now, c e lyrics and reali use e heart to hear that.. woahs!!! it's really so so touching den i almost cry.. ya, im a very emotional gal.

well.. tot he had left me but still has his ying ying in my mind today.. was working den he appeared.. dono how's everything gonna be like... fustrated with it. i tot...... haish! nvm. *e person not zai hoh..he will always be in me.* ppl nw so en ai with S.... i only can wei ta kai xin ba.. but hopefully.. quickly fen shou ba... e song goes like this.. "fen shou kuai le qing ni kuai le, ni hui zhao dao geng hao de..........."

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Saturday, April 29, 2006
9:18 PM

i found a job and im working.. yeah, back to working life liaos lors.. den taking up another weekend job also.. which means im gonna work here and dere lors.. yeah.. whole day working lidat.. will have lesser time to be online to keep in contact with my friends.. so people, if u all wana look for me, sms or call me lors ok? office hours for a job and another will be like 1-9pm and then fri is 6-10.. so i hafta rush after my this job to the other job for fri and sat lors.. hmms hmmms... dono if i can survive anot..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Thursday, April 13, 2006
12:33 AM
um.

These days, I'm rotting at home like a log. Yeahh... Never even step out the house a single step but I'll do it tml. Hehe.. Everyday wake up at around 2+, den laze around, watching television programmes, chatted over the phone with that siao char bor (oops..) den went to use the net till 2+, 3, den on the bed again, drinking tea with Zhou Gong.. (his zai's ah gong.. hahas.. no lahs, u all should know ba. the sleeping deity) This has became a daily routine to me.... So no life lidat. But, hais.. no job, no $ so cannot everyday go out mahs, den not everyone also so free to go out with me everyday lors. So, just rot at home to past time ba.. It's the cheapest one too.. *_-

Online, Online, Online........... Surf, Surf, Surf............... Now, nothing more lers that's why I'm blogging. Been downloading the Sony Concert event clip which was held on 8th Apr 2006. Not the whole concert of cox bcox dont have. Downloaded the clips which the other JMs have uploaded of cox. Ok, Zai's singing is really great and he like keep pouring cold water to the scene. When I watched the clips... "I can see birds flying all over and I shivered." His singing skills did improved again from the concert and his face expressions, forever so entertaining and funny and let you sink into _________________ (wherever it is lahs) and also letting your heart to melt and fell in love with him deeply!!! Watched it quite a few times and even extracted the audio to make into yeah, my hp ringing tone. Hehe.. So long never keep hearing his songs liaos and did extract some from the concert clips too.. Wooos.. yeahs, watched the 25th one to extract the audio from there, seeing myself again, so dui lian and all.. Haha, yes lahs, will HIGH and all budden still abit... hahas.. *hides face* Really wished that times will stop on 25/3/06 btwn 8.40pm to 11.45pm ba.. Best(est) memory for now..

Watched Vann's clip too... I'm not that pian xin. But then only got Wo Tao Yan Wo Zi Ji de clip so far!!! Still haven't found Xiang Xiang Shi Ge Ni.. Downloaded the audio from JM from VP and heard him singing that. He was so great!!! Yeah.. OK, wo ben shen like the song alot that's why ba.. Then his approach to this song is different from the previous times.. Hmms.. the last time I heard the full song was Fantasy4ever Concert in sg. Or maybe it's the event in HK last yr or 2 yrs back.. Well, cant remember. He sing his rap, he change some tune, adding in some hmming........ It's just so wonderful and so nice nice nice!!! Oh Yeah.. Vann.. continue with ur style mans! Ar Ar Ar!! ha, it's over 12+ and my medicine has no longer take effect.. HoHoHo!!

Well... liking them is my fun and I really enjoyed this whole proccess.. Be it tiring or getting scolded for it. But I dont think I will give it up. Although had spent more than or around $10k on them, I mean all 4 lahs, I think that YES, it's all worthly spent. Teachers also know about my siao towards this, dont say family. Ya, they always nag and nag, scold and scold. BUT, no matter how hard or how whatever they scold, it wont go into my head. Ok, yes, I do understands what they says BUT............. they will never know how much I enjoyed this. How much THIS makes my life happier, how much THIS added colours into my life and all... SO WHAT they dono me? SO WHAT everytime I do look like a freshman to him........ It doesnt matter at all.. as long as I'm happy and I KNOW, I REALLY KNOW what I'm doing. Don't think that all this are just childish mind of doing. It's the fun that I'm having and it's the life that I wana be!! It's wasting of money - ok, it's tiring - yes, it's hurting - i dono y, childish act - NO, stupid - NO, nonsensical - NO! BUT BUT BUT i'm getting happiness from it! Seeing them upclose can let me forget all my sorrows and pain. A smile from him to me can let me drop to the ground. A handshake everytime I request it's a blessings from him to me. A nod from him to me can let me be contented with what he understands what I'm saying.... AIYAH!!! NOBODY can understands this bcox u were not me!!! The ones who really like them and had gone thru all this will know and will also enjoy it ALL!!! Bro always say I siao and all... But... he dont understand one lors. He wont know the feeling and all ders! Without all these, think life will just be PING PING DAN DAN, NO LIFE!!!

i ENJOY with what I'm doing by chasing them!!! i ENJOY!! this kind of life then is call FUN!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Saturday, April 08, 2006
9:41 PM
Dance Competition helpout

okks.. my blogging dates are really weird. well... in e previous entry i should talk about the dance competition thingy.. budden it was too long on e hk trip so i just hafta bring it back to this entry.

2nd April 2006

I went to help out again at the Dance Competition organised by J&J at suntec. Just like last yr.. This yr, Arkady didnt went. Dono why also. Never haf e chance to chat with him online or what... Shifu and Shimu both asked me "e boy no come ar?" hahas.. Like how i know rights? Den they say no come. Think he bz ba.. This yr the no. 120 guy dancing not bad lahs budden the looks.. hurhurhurs.......... Saw another couple. From Russia!! YEAHH~~ Xiao Di Di lai ders budden v.cute and that boy dances really well.. HE WON of cox! As in, he got a prize of 1st lahs in 2 segments. Not the overall champion lahs.. Cox that couple that is the overall champion really have many years of dancing experience and they are adults. This Russia ders no. is 69!! For Standard... For Latin, just cant remember at the moment!!! YES! it's 108! The no. suddenly just come. keke.. Yeah, he shakes well.. Compared with Arkady ar.. hmms hmms.. can fight ba I think. Hope next yr I'll also be helping out den both of them also got come.. hahas.. Den can compare.. hoho.. I think next yr got new target again.. Hmms.. these angmohs really dance well.. So cute and zhan!! Thumbs up for them...

Ya, then we had our dinner and all by eating their food lors.. Actually tot don haf den called down mac and wana order frm dem den in e end cancel.. hahas.. so throw face. Hope Siew Kee don mind yeahs? So So paisae.. still ex crew. keke.. She so gd tink she wan ji jiao also.. hees... Den after tis event, when me and Lisa outside drinking, while waiting for Er Gu (her mom) to talk finish with ShiMu, got tis guy come over wana da san with me. Den think hear I'm 18, he find out that Im too young for him den he just smile smile den wana talk again to me I just kip talking to Lisa.. keke.. That guy also not shuai ders.. CHEH!!! hahas.. abit xian shi. =PppPp Then that night Er Gu fetched me home lors. Reached home too tired to do anything lers...

Today, Jan came ovr my hse to use e net and i watch e Jin San Sun.. She brot e vcd den i watch she study... hahas.. ltr she oso watch. Den I went to eat dinner with her at the SUMO jap restaurant at central.. So QIAO, saw brenda, kailing and angela.. They call me den i turn i tot whu call me den saw them. keke.. kind of dui lian to c them lors cox i wear till so lok kok.. den ltr when they leave, mi n jan's seat near e window, kailing and angela stand at e window to wave bye to mi. starting like peep lidat lahs, den xia si wo lors.. cox juz nice i rem my hp beep beep den i turn take hp den they juz nice head up. piang oi!! keke.. Den after eat, went to buy dinner for dad and bro n CDRs, to pass to masa to help mi burn e clips for Linda, Hazel, SP and Lifang of the concert ders.. keke... tml gg out also. hehes..

Yeah, received Shatec's letter to say Im chosen by them and successful studying dere.. BUT, also receive RP's reply and say my appeal had faied. haiss.. Today had this stress thinking if i should study in ITE or SHATEC... after much thinking for the whole day, I'm gonna go reg at ITE on monday. IF it's successful, den.... i'll study in ITE... shatec reali too ex liaos lors.. don wish parents to work so hard to lemme study and den i knoe i wont pay 101% in skol too.... so ya lors.. haishhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
3:15 PM
HK TRIP!!!

ok.. im gonna share my hk trip. YEAH! It's really fun. Besides Fun, it's still FUN, FUN and FUN!!! For the 1st day.. waited at the airport for Pretty. Actually we wanted to stay over at the airport but in the end we went to our hotel and leave our baggages first cox our hotel's booking it's on 21/3 to 26/3. Then.. we wanted to stay there and sleep at the lobby but the person there say cannot. So.. we walked over to Hong Kan. Then.. we saw many fans there so we just loiter there with them. Then.. I went to ask who else was still inside and it's only Lao Da. So the rest were like quite sian then we talked to them and the asked us to sleep at the Huo Ce Zan which is just opp. Then.. Linda and I cant get to sleep so we walked over at waited. Then... we saw Lao Da coming out. He was in such a great mood. He smiled and waved to the fans and even put a twis sign and asked them to go back cox it's alr 2+ I think. So Linda and I just run around, we wana be familiar with it. Then we agar agar know what's happening lers. Went back to the Huo Ce Zan and we think it's not a safe place cox got those guys there. Den we walked back to our hotel and just sit in the lobby and sleep..........

OK, it's really difficult to sleep there and I took quite some time to sleep and I laze around when I woke up. Ya, got Gastric. SHUCKS! Den went over to eat at Mac.. WOAHS, only ate some. They have the wad Macaroni meal de. Ate that. NOt nice ders. Ate my medicine budden like no use lidat. Then, we checked in. Went to bathe and prepared myself. Set off to DisneyLand with Carol. I bot the Octopus Card, which is like our EZ-Link Card, and we took MTR to DisneyLand. Hmms.. quite a long journey. Took photos on the MTR, and hoh... the MTR to Disneyland ders, got Mickey Mouse shaped windows and inside oso got those small small statues of the disney characters. keke.. and I got abit high.. hurhurs.. *embarassed*

When we reached DisneyLand, took photos while walking in. WOAH! the fountain there was NICE NICE NICE!!! Den, walked around at disneyland.. Took photos with the disney characters.. Mickey and Chipmunks were so cute!! Mickey even kissed me.. kawaii neh!! Den, we saw their roadshow.. Shopped around there too.. SO many things I wana buy BUDDEN I controlled cox I'll be shopping the next few days and I know I'm gonna spent lots... At 8pm, there's this fireworks.. I find it so romantic bcox there's like a story to show the fireworks lors.. But, the fireworks are not very beautiful to me lahs, I like to see those got BOM BOM BOM that kind ders.. While waiting for the fireworks to start.. I met new frenz.. Hahas.. my 3 new sons for an hr only. They were from japan. So cutes!! Heng carol know how to speak a bit jap so managed to communicate with them abit. AND, I took photos with them. kekes.. They also nv lose lahs, We had 1 da he zhao using their camera. They wanted. So.. yupz! After that, we shop abit again and took MTR back.

Carol called Linda and realised that just now they saw baobei! AH! Then, they were still inside. Budden we also know they wont come out so early. So carol and I rushed to Prince Edward cox she wana buy her pyjamas. So we quickly quickly lors. Rushed back to our hotel cox the rest were there. SOO SOO many ppl were inside. Saw their banners and standboard. WOAH! SO CHEAP lors make those stuffs dere. SO NICE also.. Den they took quite long to leave. Was so afraid that baobei wld leave. After VP ppl left, we rushed over to Hong Kan. Still.. waited there. None of them left. Masa, SP and Lifang were dere. So we waited and waited tgt. Saw mr chu left. So DAO, ok, like usual (no offence). Den Vann also left. Left Xu and zai. Den heng was zai leave 1st. So we screamed, den we run over to hotel carpark wait for him to come. We're living in the same hotel! Den, later saw him. WOOOS! SO SO SO SHUAI! When he come out from the car.. as usual .."zai, ke yi wo shou mahs?" den his hand came out and shook mine. Then, alot of ppl's hand out den he shook with them also lors. hehe.. I oso got video down the whole thing. heehees... Den, we know that we had finished our ren wu. So we went back to our rooms. No lahs, we still got go other levels for wad we know de to c c if we happ to c them anot. But don haf so we went back our rooms lors. Ya, bathe and sleep. A long day for each and everyone of us bcox we nv slp well at the lobby. Remember?

On 22nd, Ya, concert 1st day. Jing Zhang of cox lahs. We went to ate DIM SUM for breakfast. Cheap and nice. keke.. Den we went shopping. Went Mongkok. Think only dere ba. We spent the whole day there. So many things to shop and buy. Then we hafta go back to our hotel to col tix. So Hazel and Pretty went back. Den me and Linda cont shop awhile. Went to look for shoes. Cox mine spoil liaos, hers also gg spoil lers. So after we found our shoes, we took cab back to hotel lors. Rest abit.. Touch up on make up den set off to the stadium. Heart was beating real fast!! Our seats were not very good, as expected. CONCERT was so damm high!! For the starting, then later jiu okok niahs.. Den 2nd half of the concert then is the peak! Was jumping, screaming around. And yes, 1st day only, had lost my voice. Parts that were exciting was zai LOU DIAN lehs!!! Vann sang jap song as well as korean song on the 2nd day. Zai did a small part of magic. HE DANCED! and all 4 danced too!! SUPER GREAT!!! and many many more.

23rd and 24th, as usual. we went shopping 1st b4 heading down for the concert. 25th, last day. same thing. masa they all got 1st row tix den can ask 1 of us to go over, and we changed our bad tix with her. Den we balloted, among Hazel, Linda and I. cox 2 tix oso not bad ders frm F4ever. den 1 is frm VP v.bad seating, we gave tt to carol since she only take pics and video mahs.. not like us wana get near in seeing baobei.. Im so lucky and I got the 1st row tix. Went to sit beside masa.. Starting still kind of relax budden wen the music start, heart reali so so so jing zhang ok!! It's like OMG!!! SO NEAR! Zai came down and sang Jue Bu Neng Shi Qu Ni and he shook hand with Lifang! AH!! envy envy.. Den I was holding the Singapore board! HE SAW IT! YES, HE SAW IT! budden not at the starting when they were saying fans frm which country, which country. They nv say singapore the last day! Zhu got c but he purposely don say ders lors. Cox beside my singapore is ZAI mahs.. aiya.. our guess only lahs. 3rd day, zai was e 1 say singapore ders!! 2nd day we 4 (linda, hazel, carol and i) our seats were separated. den i was seating with carol. she take her pics den wen they say singapore, i scream so hard ALONE! cox ard mi ders not singapore ders..

ya, zai saw the singapore board when they sang Di Yi Shi Jian. he keep nodding and nodding.. keke.. den he so cute lors.. he on the stage den dono whu ask him come down he come down a step den ask.. enuf? den we of cox ask him come nearer.. den he 1 step 1 step lidat play with us! awwws.. faints. den ltr the music start liaos den he come down.. Den.. managed to shook hands with him. actually the rest also got shake lors. except Zhu. Zhu's hand I got shake.. On 2nd day. Den when Xu's part.. he was thanking ppl and all.. he cried and I almost cried too.. Eyes were watery budden no tears dropped out. BUT.. masa, lifang and SP (as usual) cried.. I saw the clips took by carol on 25th, saw so many of myself. Then.. like when zai was just in front of mi, I so high and all.. So Qiu.. dono where to hide face liaos. Hope the DVD don put can liaos though 25th is the highest! Vann even invited 2 jap fans up when he sang the jap song! So Xian Mu!!! Den when starting Vann's dance segment, Jerry came up and dance! WOOS! Den Jerry's part where he sang the Lan Se Feng Bao, Vann came up and be the gunman.. So cute.. They were laughing and smiling when Vann's role was to shoot Jerry. HAHA!! Den during ken's part, zai came out and played guitar! 1st time see him play mans! He finally learnt!! ooh-lala.. They sang Yong Bao from Mayday. SO SO NICE!! He still told ken next song muz sing slower cox he needs time to change. keke... Den ltr was like zai's aprt, jerry's part. Ya, in all shows, Jerry gt zhi tan zhi chang. He played the piano and sang Pei Cen Ping! den ltr 4 of them came up, sang Cant Help Falling In Love den off they go. Den was ENCORE ENCORE! B4 they came up on stage agn, they showed their xiao hai zi zhao pian. And some dance practices clips.. den they sang Leslie's songs.. 4 of them started with STAND UP, den was zai, cant rem wad title at the moment. Den Ken, Jerry and Vann's part. They continued with MONICA and Liu Xing Yu. Den we still ENCORE ENCORE for very very very long.. BUT, they nv come up liaos den the annocement kip was made to ask us to leave but we ignored. Den we were asked to leave by the guards.. HAISH!!! Ya, SP dropped e OF board down the stage b4 the concert even start. But wasnt found.

So, we went back hotel lors. They were having press con. managed to c a little at a corner when I joined Joey. Den ltr went back rm liaos. So tired. Den went to bathe and slp cox it's like 3+ ba I think. Den 4+ pauline called hazel and say zai's flight change to 8+ ders budden I was sleeping, dono anything. when wake up at 9+ lidat den know abt it. which it's like too late. was quite angry lahs at tt pt like y don wana wake us up. cox we can c him off mahs frm hotel. HAIYAYA!!!! den went to eat breakfast at dono where. hahas.. Carol went to take pics after tt. Den only Linda, Hazel, Pretty, SP, Masa, Lifang and I went Sino Centre to c if gt pics to buy budden almost all no more lers frm the best shop. Den Pretty suddenly lost. When call her that time she say she go shop alone, nvm. Den we were like HAI,OK LORS! cox aiya.. nvm. Den we went other shops. Linda and I walk and walk go in the shops n we buy some pics. HEHEHE.... Den after that, she mit her hk fren. So Haz, SP, Masa, Lifang and I shopped ourselves. We so dumbo, went to buy Lao Po Bing 1st den we shop at Ladies Market. Should buy Lao Po Bing when we are abt to go back our hotel. SO HEAVY! Budden no choice. Den bot some stuffs den we went back hotel liaos cox ard 5+ lers.. Den miting Mother at hotel and the rest oso.. We all taking same flight back to SG.. So quickly pack our stuffs into our luagguges lors and separated into 2 cabs and we head down to the airport. Of cox quickly check in luaggugae lors. heavy till like shit.

went in bot our dinner and gums then we waited awhile jiu board the plane liaos. 8.10pm flight back. When on the plane, kind of exciting stuffs happen cox saw this shuaige sitting beside masa den Linda so high. Haha.. we like keep talking abt him den tink he know ba.. hehe.. Den Linda went to tracy dere to chit chat den our seats left Haz and I. We just sleep.. too tired lers. Reach SG abt 12+ liaos. Den went to buy liquor for bro den Masa, Carol, carol's fren and i shared cab back. Her Guy fren so gd te di come airport fetch her home and help her carry her HEAVY bags!!! den I called bro down to help mi bring up. He also say my stuffs so heavy! he cant carry lidat.. hahas.. cox all i give him take den i nv take. hahahas... Den showed him the 2 clothes I bot for him. He tried den say small.. Hais.. Den I asked someone wan anot. the person don wan reply. FINE!!!

well.. that's almost all abt my hk trip!! hehe.. =)))

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Sunday, March 19, 2006
6:06 PM
so excited.

friday... mit liyan to look for job.. den went to change my hkd.. den went to look for e sponsorship de at carlton.. to sponsor us to study hotel management at shatec.. well.. i dono if im really gonna study dere.. juz hope that RP will wan mi den i can go in RP to study those IT lessons lors... or any poly oso can.. got poly jiu hao lers.. if nt studying at shatec is really ex though gt carlton sponsor budden i gonna be so so tired cox i gotta ban gong ban du and for e 2 yrs im studying.. my pay will be only $500!! where will enuf man!! haiss.. i dono lors.. still thinking.......

after all these with liyan, it's time for mi to meet joey liaos.. woahs! almost a mth since we last met.. went to kan ming den went for manicure and pedicure tgt w diana.. keke.. met her at 6 till 12+ wors.. hahas.. after doing our nails.. went to eat den go hm liaos.

saturday mit joey agn.. we go do hair at my hse downstair.. keke.. now we're somehow prepared! all prepared!! yeah yeah... hahahs.. do finish hair den we go shop shop abit lors.. 1st time drink McCafe.. hoho.. abit slowcoach.. drank double chocolate... nice nice!! hehe.. den we went to had supper at Geylang - You Tiao Da Wang.. wooo... it's been quite sometime since i dropby dere.. if im nt wrong.. last time was with steff.. which is like 2 yrs liao ba i tink.. reached home quite late and continued packing my luagguage.. den too tired and so went to slp..

today supposed to mit out to celeb rebecca's bdae.. budden i was so tired and there was still things not yet pack into my bag yet so i didnt went.. hope they had lots of fun!! nia here gonna wish REBECCA LAO MA!!! HAPPY BDAE!!! and also... OKEE LIYAN HAPPY BDAE!! and not forgetting... JOELLE!!! HAPPY BDAE!!! keke.. also also.. happy bdae to joey's father.. hahas.. all on same day man.. hohoho...

now i waiting anxiously for my dad to come back.. he shd b on e plane.. on e way liaos.. 7+ e flight den will be landing.. he went shanghai with my relatives.. bro oso waiting for him.. actually we waiting our prezzies.. hahas.. if nt bro oso go back hostel liaos.. haha.. i abit gan jiong nw.. wana go chk if all my things are in my bag liaos.. cannot afford to forget to bring a single thing... till here.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
7:22 PM
didnt attend work today

didnt went to work today. went to c e doc.. not really sick lahs, mainly wana rest lors.. too stressed ytd and had tears falling down from my eyes again. i just couldnt control.. intended to work till 13th.. don tink i can last till then.. mayb next monday will be my last day.. im not very sure too.. tml den decide again cox muz 3 day in advance mah so tml muz hand in e form if really monday will be e last day... well... lemme slowly think again ba..... gastric came back, having headache.. block nose too.. will still have e energy to work today but i just wana rest.. tml.. will be another day.. only checker left. will they strike off checker? today li'er, peggy n huda be checker (i heard frm xiuyu). den tml lehs? they oso plus me doing or all run line den i e only checker? ahhs! i oso dono. will update u guys wad i've become or have i gone mad or just e same.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Sunday, February 26, 2006
4:25 PM
4 days of things to share

Thursday. cried at work due to this si fei zhu.. she still tot she not at fault den come wana console mi.. pls lors.. if like i reject e phone den she juz unscrew den ask them do again lahs y muz..'ltr ask qa, ltr ask QA' qian wen oso QA lors den she like don believe her muz ask Siew Lian.. a more working exp de oni mah.. damm ass lahs! was so pissed off with her lors....!! ARGH!!!!! gonna quit soon juz bcox i cant tolerate her anymore.. i still miss my doris and alice..

Friday. did not be checker on that day. i run line lehs.. starting is put LCD.. den e clip juz cant go down den oso quite slow cox 1st time mahs.. den peiyi change w mi lors cox she last time put LCD de b4 being a checker. den i put e joystick, keyboard and power up. oso gt gena jam cox 3 things to do.. so stress lors.. sooo soooo long nv do line liaos.. den ltr i change w 1 auntie.. know i very bad lahs juz order her to change w mi cox my hand reali pain. den she jiu change lors don care her.. hahas.. den i go put 2nd camera.. den mummy wana change w mi den change again. i put 1st camera.. which is e 1st station. put e battery and e camera and e shield and press them down.. wows!! stressed. ya, reali stress.. den ltr gt new 500 PCBA come den muz start den i put e battery n all lors.. hand reali pain. next day, body aching liaos.. budden gd thing is that i gt 122 PCBA reject! HENGS!!! i no nid do so much. starting i tot i cant finish de budden heng lahs, so many reject. hahas.. that day reali so luan, a new exp.. keke..

Saturday.. I OT lehs.. hahas.. after so long no OT.. saw limei limei oso so shock c i OT.. hahas.. she nv in charge of us liaos.. so sad.. now is Alice.. another alice.. not i like de alice.. Alice like simi oso no care lidat lors.. so is like.. poor xiuyu n lifang gonna b v.stressful now.. they caring abt e lines ders lors.. miss limei so much.. that day i cry she oso came up to look for mi.. didnt reali wana tok to her den cox ims till in my crying mood den v.sad lors den kind of miss her so much lors.. now quitting soon liaos.. will def miss her too.. she's reali reali gd... not like Alice.. HAISH!!! heng si fei zhu nv come OT den i nv in their line.. i change with ZhuLaiSa.. hahas.. my Zhu Mei.. kekes.. den i b with doris dey all cox they come up mahs cox upstair alot ppl no come.. Evelyn n DingDang oso came up.. keke.. long time all of us nv work tgt liaos.. so memorable.. budden tis Melissa, HuiPing and WeiLin nv come OT.. if not we all Ji Ti again! so woots woots ders lors.. Reached home chatted on e phone with the gals again. Wasnt paying my 100% attention to their topic. Think not even 50% ba.. Was watching TV.. Peach Girl is aired on ch U.. so i watched.. long time nv c this show liaos.. Missing the old times.................

Today.. uploaded the *scape event the pics to the pc liaos.. havent post in forum. havent even resize n all.. so tired, don haf e time.. Joelle is in sg.. Ltr will be meeting her and the zai wives to eat.. keke.. Think i gonna go prepare liaos. go mit linda and hazel 1st.. hehe..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Sunday, February 19, 2006
6:02 PM
sads and angry

Well well well.......... working has become a stress! Dont wish to continue to work and all.. It's so ARGHH!! People working there especially that 7 Tian Shi. They should know the best.. It's like so asshole lors.. The fat ones.. HAISH!! no comments regarding their working attitude lahs.. Once good yet next moment.. Both also same ders.. Complain, complain and complain... 1 thing can keep saying and saying lors.. I pang guang zhe see liaos oso buay tahan!

Now... one more person is making me so hate him/her! She/He is so irritating and all!! Cannot stand him/her anymore! He/She is good at first yet later I dono wad happen to him/her lahs! Like dono wad lidat.. So ER XIN!!! Making me cant stand it anymore! Became proud and becoming worst. YES, i mean WORST WORST WORST!!!!!!!!!!! Let this person disappear ba!! It'll be difficult I know cox................... haisss..

Another one. He changed. Not the one that I usually know. I think he got alot of unhappy things to say to me but he just kept his mouth shut and not letting me know anything. If that's the case.. How he want me to understand him lehs? ok, if he dont want me to understand him but does he know that how I feel anot.. Really really very xin ku one.. Ignoring isnt the way out yeah? Sit down and discuss or maybe emailing or wad and say all out and will change if what's needed to change. The yan shen that he usually gave me are all gone. He has divert his attention to another girl. OHNO! I'm so afraid to lose him!! I cant lose him... *sobbing*

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Sunday, February 12, 2006
4:50 PM
info for u

So so pissed off with that stupid aunty beside me.. Super act, complain queen and all!!! NOBODY LIKES HER!!! but i boh bian.. must be beside her cox i'm the checker of the line.. Just wished that everyday nth to run till i quit SO as not to work together with her.

Got my O's results.. Well...... I really really did so badly that I nearly only ended up in ITE. Hopefully those polys will take me from the choices I've made. Still, have not decide what course to go into.. IT, Nursing all these kinds niah..

And yes, I've got myself another phone, as well as another no. Should be using the new no. more dan this old one.. For those that haven got my new no. (worried that I missed out sending to u guys), lemme knoe yeah.. Then, I'll give you (if i know who are you).

Take care..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Sunday, January 22, 2006
9:22 PM
Nu Qiang Ren of the DaY

I'm the Nu Qiang Ren of the day. Yeah!! I admit I am and I think I'm quite proud about it too. Was still on bed at 1+ den brother came knocking on my door telling me he is so xin ku. He vomitted as well as Lao Sai-ed. Den he look pale and he lied on the sofa, still with a plastic bag in his hand and the next moment.. BUUUU.. he vomitted again. NO FOODS just those plain plain de. Empty stomach causes that. Then.. I quickly called my mum to let her know about it then I called my dad to ask him come back to fetch him to the doctor because the clinic at my house downstair is closed. So, we went to the clinic at Shunfu there which Anna is working at but she still haven start work then. On the way, knowing that Ah Gong is sick also.. Almost the same illness. Went up and hold him down and off we go to the clinic.

My own sickness isnt on the recovery side and I did not eat my medcine on time too. I've been feeling lazy about it so I did not care. Then holding those 2 Bing Ren to the doctor. Dad's heart has not stabalise too.. He have not recover too. He told me he met our family doctor earlier on and she told him he's face is still pale-looking. =( Was very worried just now cox I'm with all those Bing Ren.. None of us super healthy so if 1 something happen, another can help. I so no strength de cant possibly fu them. Doctor prescribe medcine to them then we went home, of cox fetching ah gong back home 1st lah.

Then ltr evening time, dad back. He say he's tired ask me go buy dinner. WOAH.. I'm also feeling very tired and restless yet.... I still have to because I dont wish him to tire himself more. Then mum will be coming back late and bro's hungry so ya lors. Went to the market to buy cox bro wana drink sugar cane. DIAO!! The foods and drinks are like so heavy and I'm struggling. The floor's still wet due to the rain just now and I'm so scared that I'll trip and fall. Carrying those heavy stuffs make me slowed my pace. Was sweating and my arms can feel the stretch. WOW.. I became the muscle woman suddenly. It's been so long since I carried heavy stuffs.. Cox I usually dont do that! I wont buy so much things at a go to make me feel so xing ku or if heng heng gt guys den ask them help me take. hehe.. Remembered the last time like sec 3 I think, got the Silver Jubilee then I made agars agars den morning gonna carry them to school.. SO HEAVY when I take from the kitchen to the door there. That time Cheryl and Tommy came to help me carry to school if not I dono how am I gonna carry those. Recalling the past.. ooohs.. the fun we had. Lalalas....

Gonna work tml. ohno! im still so tired. havent rest enuf. =(

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
sick

hais.. I'm sick again. Gan4 Mao4 lers.
Bi3 Shou3 Hua4 Jiao3 De4 Wo3 Men2 machiam scared ppl see. hahas.. but it was really a very funny moment and enjoyable short short de few secs.
Read thru Teacher Hoh's instructions on studying.. His 2 cents worth of advice.. Felt that it was actually quite meaningful. Making me missing the days in secondary life although it's not link. Well.. results really really coming out real soon. After CNY then few days of enjoyment and some suffering at work then gonna face the fact on the certificate. Will that be a pass with flying colours, just pass, just fail or failing badly.. They keep tell me must have confidence.. Honestly, I dont have wors..

Received that msg.. OMG! was real shock cox didnt expect that to happen but in the end, the feel has gone lors.. Think cox im sick ba.. Then the feelings also weird weird ders.. Thinking of the msg's content.. Both of our replies.. Hmm.. Think when read, sure sian diao ba? I also dono. Just typing and replying blindly lidat. Anything comes to my mind, just type and send.. Whole body too tired to think of anything lahs I guess.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Monday, January 16, 2006
11:57 AM
expo event as well as 2 freakos

many issues to write abt..

went expo on sat for this cny booth event and was surprised to see mich when she called mi.. she was working there so went ovr to talk to her awhile.. then the superstars went for this mdc's cny album's autograph session. weijian was there. yeah.. finally can c him after quite some time.. i felt that it's quite long since i last saw him.. but actually.. hai hao ba.. weijian.. can u remember when was the last time i saw u or u saw mi? hahass.. They played games and weijian peeled the mandrain orange skin. b4 the game starts.. knowing wad game he's gg to play.. he gave those hao lian face again. yes, again. den doing to many hand movements trying to say it's Chicken Feet once again. he always like to give those looks but lidat very cute also.. hahas.. wo xi huan. =P

sunday also had this same event. yup. but b4 heading down to expo.. some really bad stuffs happ lahs.. wonder if is really deaf or ACT!! ACTING is 'his' zuan chang..

at expo.. they played games too.. candyce was the same grp s jians in. and kept on asking candyce to choose a contestant.. yah.. i tink we knoe why he did tt.. this time rd was to hear the cny songs and guess wad song is it.. this 1.. he don haf much xing xin in it lahs.. but he go press e bell part abit funny.. like act nerd lidat.. wahahas.. went up stage to sign agn and i ask him sign on e cover cox inside alr sign liaos.. when i flip in front.. he say.. 'zhe li ar?' i say 'ar' he say 'da da ge de?' den i 'ar' agn. den he sign liaos.. den asked him smt den he reply e ans like so bu ke neng de he still and in tt way.. but aiya.. i knoe y lahs. joey n i both tink that jian todayy very shuai.. is his dressing or e looks he gave us or he seems to haf changed to another person. yah.. he reali did change i knoe.. BUT.. OK!!

enuf of those.. next issue.mi like gt chance gg for this new coming's show audition. angie took a pic for mi and i remember when she wana take.. mi n joey bei xia dao tot wad reporter. but heng ar. hahas.. im quite scared actually.. dono wad i shd do oso.. wonder if go for this audition.. wad things wld b like? yup, although my ambition was to get into the entertainment circle but when this chance come.. it's still quite scary i feel. auditions.. if fail how? ohoh!! cant tink further..

another thing.. i got this bloody fren so damm damm damm it wad lehs.. dono wth ders lehs.. sometimes gd sometimes bad.. sometimes friendly, sometimes rude. sometimes kisiao, sometimes etc etc etc etc.. was really a fright when this fren goes crazy. yah.. i very timid de.. whoever go crazy no matter fren or not.. to me or not.. i also will scared de.. well.. really did get abit pissed off with such kind of ppl.. arghhs!!!

another freako to mention.. trying to crawl up higher or mayb now gt spring can jump higher liaos. we're really scared. dono abt them but im reali reali reali scared. cant tink further and dono how shd i cont to tink or imagine certain things. super hao lian this freako is, act big and all!! now whole world tinks that this person ruled everything. many things passed on to A (this person's name) other's will tot A's good and A's having a closer contact with B. ppl tot she wei da and great. but NO LORS!!! alot stuffs is not wad others tink it is de.. Cox frm wad they c, they comment.. or mayb B prefer A to mi.. I dono I dono I dono and I don wish to know. I admit. I cant face the truth if this really really happens.. SO WHAT?? A got wad gd? AHHHHHH!!! BU ZHI DAO LAHS!!! A now is trying means and ways to let B fell for her.. but........................ NO WAY!! I wont let u defeat mi in this way!! NEVER!! NEVER!!! Dont let mi hate u in this way A! Jealousy kills!!! gonna put this issue aside for now.. never gg to mention this anymore and don lemme recalled everything B did to u or u did to B.. it's all a BULLSHIT!! but.. gonna still discuss this issue to C and D (2 of my best pals). gonna brainstorm with them and ask them to help mi in this. gonna do a big project on this and let B come back to mi... ohoh!! abit zhe er.. no lahs.. as in let B know what's the real u.. don wish B to be kept in e dark always!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
8:01 PM
My Bangkok Trip

Day to bkk.... woke up and daddy came to fetch mi n sis which the car alr gt anna and alan to the airport. was excited and tired cox did not sleep well the previous night. Besides these.. I actually feel abit bu she de cox i've missed out jian's performance on sunday. chi chats made the journey to the airport faster. At the airport, we went to get our boarding pass and went to mac to eat b4 gg in. When inside, all of us were bz on the line calling ahma, mothers to say we're leaving.. and i called 3 or 4 frenz to let them knoe as well.. hehe.. den went to use the net awhlile. den time's almost up liaos we den board the train. tot we're e last but we're not lors.. gt 3 indians. haish!

When on the plane, took pics and sleep. As we booked this trip via tour agency, we had this tourguide who brot us to our hotel, Bangkok Palace Hotel. At there.. the 3 indians again.. dilly dally.. Irritating. After checking in, we put down our stuffs and set off to pray the four-faced-buddha den thom the there de MRT to Chatuchak. Didnt really shopped much cox i had GASTRIC PAIN!! IT'S REALLY REALLY PAINFUL!! so we set off to chinatown to had our dinner at this seafood stall. The food were delicious BUT i was in GREAT PAIN and this let mi did not enjoy the food.. The more i eat.. i felt like vomiting. Was really terrible then. SO.. took a cab back to the hotel to rest and ate medicine. While I was on the bed resting, the were calculating the expenses of the day. Sis WON! Next, each took a shower and we walked down to Pratunam for MASSAGE!! YEAH! we had leg massage. 1hr, THB$139. very cheap man!! Though it was slightly painful.. but really shuang dao......... Den I felt hungry so went to eat noodles den go back hotel and SLEEP liaos.

2nd day.. woke up early cox we have this tour thing. So went to had our breakfast den e tourguide came n brot us to Phrya river to c e floating market and those houses by e river de. 1st time on such boats and it's so weet weet.. we even saw a guy bathing in e water but he was in his bottoms. Next we fed the fishes with bread using THB20 to purchase de. c those fishes snatching the bread. Kind of exciting lehs.. keke.. abit pian tai. hahas.. Then, we went to the Temple of dawn to c c . Woah lao eh.. got 3 statues dere den we tot can lidat take de.. den we took den muz pay den take liaos boh bian muz pay. each.. THB40. so sicko.. is e 3 statues u can put ur head inside and take de.. dono those call wad lahs. AFter us got ppl take den this in-charge told them. den nv come tell us.. how we knoe.. so not fair siahs.. den took e bus which brot us to GEM factory. which is jewelleries de. so AWWW!!! den got bus fetch us to chatuchak. den we shop and shop again!! n i REALLY shop!! bot lots of stuff!! clothes and all.. WOOOZZ!!! ate this chicken rice dere. it's ew but it filled my stomach. so i shant complain. den we went back our hotel cox we're carrying too many things liao. Rested awhile and went to have our dinner nearby and we go c the AGUA SHOW! Some were really pretty but some really cannot make it lahs.. 1 still showed her breast to a few audience e guys but everyone oso can c lahs cox she on stage mah. den another 1 is her so called 'bra' dropped. HMMM!!! den we went for our thai massage. it's body massage we had. we had to change our clothes and a Lao Jiao came n massage for mi. starting tot it'll b so pain but heng siah!!super shuang but i like gena swing lidat. it really really streeeeetched mi!den it's like almost 1 (sg time) lers so we walk back to our hotel.

Reach the room.. GRSP!! cockraoches everywhere. gt like 5 on my bed lors. Then sis and kuz called down the recep and house keeping and c wad they wana do with it then they kip dragging and dragging den reali nao da. Kuz also went down to lobby to complain den they still DRRRRRRAG! after long while.. FINALLY someone came den c those stuffs den change us to junior suite. bu chang us de lahs i guess.. nw mi n sis.. anna and alan our rm side by side.. can link de.. hehe.. supposed to settled our incomes but sis n i knock off.. keke..

day 3..
sis woke mi up. was having a nice slp and was in dreamland den everything juz VOOSH! gone. clean up, bathe den went down for breakfast n set off to pratunam ctr to shop and i was in my own world again!! hehe..due to time constraint, nv shopped the whole bldg. we juz set off to mbk and had yup. the bra-shopping.. hahas..ltr went to buy foods had our dinner and off we go to the hotel. we really took a long time.. not ennuf time mans.. we diedie oso wan go back hotel cox the stuffs were REALLY REALLY HEAVY!! den off we go for leg massage agn. tis time anna don wan go cox past 2 times she got hurt by e ppl but e rest of us so shaung. wahahas.. it was that Lao Jiao who massage for mi agn. she was real good!! love it. somemore i got like free pedicure svc lidat. she help mi cut my nails and did some filing.. not bad siah. ha! all these is up to them they wan do de mah lors. so optional eh. ltr she help mi massage my back den still tied up my hair and wen let down still comb for mi nice nice.. hahas.. when masssaging my back.. she pull my 2 hands to the back of each's opposite side den use her knee to push my back forward! AW!! that reali hurts and i tot my bone's gonna crack but heng ar.. no hab. den still so shuang. heez.. den walk back hotel lors and we pack our baggae. i reali SQUEEZED everything in but still.. there was a bag of hand carried stuffs. den settled our 'bills' (personal and spendings) den off we hop one bed back to slp. reali reali tired.

Last Day. Woke up bathe, brush up and down for breakfast again. oohs.. had my cereals agn. hee.. den carried on taking others. well.. for e 3 days.. e food there is the SAME! luckily there're nice if not i'll faint. after breakfast, went back up to our rms and finalise our packing and we rested. when the time's almost there den we go to the lobby to check out and wait for out tourguide to fetch us to the airport. when wana stamp passport there, we waited very long. Long Q. always de. haish.. When on e plane, got a sicko indian family were like making so much noise. wana slp oso cant. talking so loudly and the kids super noisy lors! den i 'EH' dem when i reali cant tahan lers. On plane got from other countries de alot cox they r tour de den reali throw our Singaporeans faces.. *hides face*

Back in singapore, lucky i got the access card can quicly go out no nid to Q n Q n Q n WAIT n WAIT. den go out liaos jiu chatted on e fone lers. listen to the stories and happenings while waiting for them.

WELL... i somehow bare to leave bkk cox of the fun we guys are having and no nagging frm mum it's really a comfortable feeling. But reach home.. she start again. EXPECTED. Back in the working and working working lifestyle and I almost doze off when working today. Not enough slp i guess. Went out with Rachel just now den Beatrice eat with us don wan go Bugis with us den we mit Sitong dere. Long time no shop with them lers. hee.. Shop finish in bkk den sg oso.. den got a gan jue like still in bkk cox bugis village is so bangkok and a few knoe i name it Bugis Bangkok. keke.. Heard from rachel that O's results coming 10Feb. SO SCARY..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Saturday, December 31, 2005
1:41 AM
guys/// NEW YR

A lost of guys name suddenly appeared in my mind. STILL thinking of if I really like them or isit just crushes... 1 of them has last for almost a yr yet i rejected to be his gf the other time due to many reasons. 1 of them is just a new comer and I know that I shouldnt be loving him or having such a feeling on him. Yet another 1 has last for months but I think I know that he shouldnt be the guy that I like. He doesnt match any of my criteria. Recently... I realise 1 more guy that I think I begin to like. But he definately is a NO!NO!NO! Someone who often makes u angry, not a gentleman, no care & concern for u, no you mo gan, someone who is actually a guy but don behaves like 1 lahs. (smt lidat. difficult to express.)

Well.. if u know me well enuf, u should know. I'm actually someone who will easily fall in love with another party very fast de just if that someone treats mi gd n plant mi with love & concern. that shall mi gd enuf i guess.. as for the looks... no nid to be super duper shuai lahs but muz be some sort of ke ai in it and the looks is can c wan. then the guy muz b you mo you mo de. always by my side when i need him (always dere when i nid him) den when im sad, will make mi happy n all... we'll walk the same route of happiness and sadness.. dono if he'll not, but i'll!! haish! gd guys oso hard to find lah.. can find 1 with some of these pts make do with it 1st liaos. hahass.. but nt despo into 1 so muz find gdgd wan. don wana regret like tt 3 days de.. fell into tt trap e other time. don tink he oso counted s my stead at all ba although.. aiya! suan liaos!! let e past be e past!!

HEY HEY!! it's gonna be 2006 real soon!! it's gonna be a new yr and we shall, everybody shall, have a new beginning yeah.. if in 2005 b full of irritating and rubbish and bad memories........ let all those be thrown aside!! everyone shall start anew! fresh new! a new yr, muz set new target!! yeahs!! i have my targets too... everyone!!! we shall achieve our targets yeahs?! new yr, new resoultions!! in 2006, it gonna be a very different yr for esp mi. woah!! every jan lidat is kai xue de shi hou. yet this time we're waiting fer results.. dono if our road can b continued frm e results tt we'll b taking. im reali scared. worried. missing all the teachers whu had taught mi frm amkss. err.. not all....!! but like mr & mrs tan, ms rose, mrs anand, mdm kee, mrs ismail, mdm ong, mdm liang, ms yip, mr voo, mr koh etc.. cant rem e names suddenly. hmmss... wad u all haf taught (not skol work) are all remembered by mi and greatest to mr tan whu understands mi and be there fer us more dan a form teacher. reali enjoyed e fun we had at his hse tt time.. cant rem wad occassion was tt. but it was real fun..

NEW BEGIINING PPL~~~ FORGET ABOUT ALL YOU ANGERS, WORRIES AND ALL U HAD IN 2005. IT'S 2006 IN FEW HOURS TIME!!! =))))))

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
2:58 AM
enjoyed so much on chalet

yoo-hoo!! enjoyed myself throughly at the chalet!! we had our games and the funs... yeahs!! and that crappy sihui kip laughing and laughing. funny not funny also laugh!! forever that enthu gal!! a prize fer u gal!! *prize*

yup. though he did not came but that call was really a nice enuf thing liaos.. thanks though ur voice so soft den ppl surrounding not all can hear but we somehow know what u say lahs. i knoe. cox my ear is all attached to the sound that travels out from the phone. though it was just a short conversation, u made some of them feel real happy, the lucky ones like u said, some may b disappointed. for me, neutral lahs i feel. abit high when u called then ltr jiu normal liaos lors.

had real fun when just the few of us playing the flour thing.. hahas!! laughters we had and yah! tt real make my stomach aches cox it's reali laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh. even the neighbour oso come n play. auntie uncle liaos lors. den they enjoyed too.. next was photo shots photo shot and photo shots.... den had a shower while we watched some dvds and vcds. watch e short clipss thing made by our chair... den i knoe when i was bathing they watched e concert disc some parts... den ltr wait all bathe finish and we watched THE MAID!! piangs eh!! reali scary lehs i feel.. e 1st part ba.. i screamed super loud. no voice liaos i tot den suddenly AHH! so loud. tot i scare them cox when i scream e rest oso scream but heng, they own oso gena frighten. hurhur.. if nt my fault liaos. den my phone rang. abit gena shock. jeannie called and say jian left msg on forum. hms, no time come our here gt time log in. hahas.. no lahs, no blame him. i tink i liao jie. after e show like 2+ lers reali tired liaos so went to slp. but that wendy and weizhen both so high cont playing cards. yahs, they 2 onli. so funny the image. keke.. den 4+ lidat joey jiu yi zhi da lai lors say wad wan come.. den ltr call say don wan come! piangs!!! say cox drunk wana go hm n slp. come oso come n slp niah cox all so tired no one can entertain her.

next morning, wake up 9 lidat lors den do tis do tt, bathe and all den we all check out at 10.30+ lors!! oh yah!! our chalet room is J 1917 J as in Jian... 1 i dono. 917, he born in sept 17!!! piangs!! so zun rites? den it also looks like JIAN.. look carefully.. hoh hoh?? heh...
ok, back to topic. yups. den walk out den went to eat bk den i jiu go wrk liaos. supposingly starting wrk at 11.30 den i rch at 11.45 lidat. OT lors.. den heng xiuyu help mi punch in 1st though it's illegal lahs.. den we walk up n quickly go find thing do.. nobody knoe we late.. phew! phew!! den tt day was christmas eve den juz wrk till 11.30 den jiu go hm liaos. so tired. din went for countdown. so sads siahs.. was smsing w ah yee!! yeah yeah.. miss her so much!!!!! muz mit out 1 day yeahss? nid e cosy hugs u gave mi.. =)

chirstmas day was working and working again. even on monday. den it was tuesday and all.. and now. haish!! den know that that cny album out liaos.. e song e 'rap' kakaka!!! *faintz* den juz nw saw alan when finish work at hse downstaiir den we discuss some stuffs on YES! our BKK trip!! w sis n anna.. woo-hoo!!!

countdown to BKK trip....................... 10 days!!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Monday, December 19, 2005
12:54 PM
afternoon shift liaos

it's back to afternoon shift. yet, woke up so earli today. gena yellow card ytd. hahas.. all thanks to tt stupid fone n tt blowing on tt lense.. don even knoe is mi or LaoBanNiang make e error de.. def mi lahs i guess.. den i bu shi hai dao ta ye shi lors.. haiss.. ltr mayb drinking tea w supervisor. scary. gt warning letter oso.. hmms.. wonder when i'll get sacked iif 2 more times come.. haish!!

chalet's coming. christmas's coming.. new yr's coming.. COOL!!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.:

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
6:29 PM
bz working and wokring.....

ok. it's been days of working and working and working. everyday reach home just lie on bed wait till like 7+ almost 8 and den i'll knock off. But.... always 11+ will be waken up by hp msg. den later i just sleep again. But for the past 2 days, it's been smooth sleeping. alarm should be ringing at 4.50am and another human alarm (my mum) will be waking mi up at 5. BUT.. i 4 jiu wake liaos den i go back slp again lors.. So nice to sleep lors this mth.. Morning wake up, bu shi rain jiu shi yao rain or gang gang rain liaos.. woah piang ehs!!

morning.. mom told mi tt kuz say wad i write blog wad wad whole wrld knoe and wad.. TO YOU! but.. i write blog to vent angers, share my feelings and my things with my frenz.. i knoe wad im doing lahs!! aiya!! sometimes, juz leave mi alone can? reali wan my own world lahs.. =) den if i nv write on blog... u all will knoe my happenings mehs? we all also seldom contact and wad ar.. holidays are always so bz cox we are working and all.. i dono lahs.. go gossip gossip and say mi how how lors.. mi don wan care n bother liaos! i knoe wad im doing! im not as dumb as wad u think!! wont b so stupid to get fool also although i always look blur and stupid in somethings u all are saying!! get this fact right ok!!!

received tt stupid summon letter of $120 juz nw. YAH!! all thanks to forgetting to put that seatbelt, being the rear passanger. haish!! tt time reali sway lahs.. but 2 days ltr we went to pray den gd luck came rolling in.. yoo-hoo!!!! and today also!! OMG!!! he wrote on his moblog actually on sunday budden i also dono cox din went there den is he use his pc and type de so i oso nv receive tt sms lors. den juz nw during break is jh call and tell mi ders.. make my tear almost drop out agn like e 1st time he say in forum "managed to talk to eugenia and jh" . nw he thanks us fer gg to tekkong bt still thinking how we get e tix.. hahas.. "Thanks Joey, Eugenia and JH ..................." woahs!! happy happy happy!! love him to bits.. woo-hoo!! was reali reali touched!! this reali made my day!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
:.:_niia_:.: