“Have you ever analyzed things to the degree where you can’t really remember the difference between what’s real and what you’ve created in your head?”

— Edie Sedgwick

The law of late

Whenever you try to be early after being late for a while, you will be late. Always.

Getting the girls

So I was thinking about a peculiar thing last night
Some guys go to the club for the music and drinks and company
Some guys go to the club for the girls
The latter kind go there to see if they can get the girls and few probably can get any girl they want

The latter latter after a while, losing the sense of challenge, can probably extrapolate those skills onto girls out of the club and similarly get any girl they want
But when they meet a girl that they want but can't have, the challenge is back there
What do you think will happen after?

1. They get the girl and they truly treasure her
2. They lose the sense of challenge and move off to another one

Curious, isn't it? What do you think?

Resurrection of S

First and foremost congrats to QT for getting her license~~ can't believe you didn't tell me earlier >( nonetheless! So exciting:D <3

Then went to watch Sadako 3D.. God I swear that movie is q lulz! Please don't watch it if you hve to pay it. It's absolutely ridiculous. It's not even really scary (although I did scream quite a bit BUT still) compared to the original Ring (apparently. I only watched the Ang moh version which is supposedly not scary but I beg to differ)

I interrupt the reading for you to watch this video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ifJFqSrrJY&feature=youtube_gdata_player

Can't embed on iPhone but please go watch it
There's this part in sadako that reminded me of the part of the guy on the cliff and I started laughing like crazy
That was just one of the many funny ridiculous things that happened in the movie
It's nice to have someone laughing by your side, kinda makes the scary bits less scary

Okay won't spoil it if you are gonna watch it. Hahah!

While showering I was thinking about life's greatest mysteries
(why do these things always happen?)
I was thinking about a rephrased question someone asked me
"Would you rather your boyfriend dance (during orientation) with someone he used to like or with a complete stranger?"

Now I'm pretty sure I'd say stranger
Because fear is much like a lost love
(yes I linked sadako to that, idk how)
You don't really forget about the thing that scared the shit out of you
It's always there, you just gradually grow to ignore it or mask it with other emotions such that it doesn't dominate
But when confronted again with those feelings, you realize that the fear has always been there
And you never truly stopped being afraid of that shit

You can't really stop loving someone, can you?

But that being said sadako is really q funny you should probably watch it for the laughs (go in a group! Should provide some entertainment. Please watch the YouTube video (link above) because it'll make it so much funnier)

How great days are spent

Spent a great day yesterday:)

Watched the dictator after getting some paperwork done. Hilariously funny albeit shortened, but still, worth watching if you want some laughter!

And after dinner dessert which consists of waffles, double scoop ice cream, and a lot of whacking:) Sigh forgot what it was like to squabble like first loves, and I have gained some of the Chinese violence oops.

Harrow!

I never knew I had readers from such exotic locations
How exciting!!!

I heard that your dreams came true
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you

Listening to Adele now! She is such a good live singer.. Was watching Maroon 5 before and Adam Levine doesn't seem to be as good live as he sounds in his album:/
Today's Friday and this means two more days until I go Singapore! It's really fast:( didn't buy much here but I must say that I took away the whole cultural experience and to me that's rich enough. I've been to a shaolin martial arts show and there are kids about 7 doing somersaults on their heads (wtf right) and to this dance show and the dancers are fucking talented!!!! There are gymnasts and super flexible people (like they fold themselves into a human origami).. Just wow.

That being said, I don't understand why Singaporeans wouldn't want to stay in Singapore. While the arts scene in Sg is definitely not as rich/as highly regarded by the citizens (Chinese ppl have crazy a lot of pride for their arts, it's amazing) but I feel that Singaporeans have really grown a lot in terms of graciousness.

We pick out the few that push old women out of buses and those who pretend to sleep and say Singaporeans are less gracious.. You have no idea how gentle we are, like we don't spit on the ground as frequently as you see here, nor do people just jump queues/push past you and not apologize etc.

Nonetheless, Beijing is an amazing place to visit.. It's beautiful and lovely and so rich, I feel like I became more in touch with my Chinese roots (which was what I told everyone before I went china)

But some chinese people.. Last warning. The bad ones are really bad, from pushing you to go to the toilet as if they are the three gorges dam holding back a huge flood of water from their bladders, or they're just really loud and yelling chingchong when they're right beside each other

Opportunity cost I guess. Hahah!

I won't upload all the photos here because there are just too many.. Nearly 500 already!!! Crazy. Most are up on instagram:)

I cried while listening to her sing Someone Like You
The way she held out the mike to the audience, hearing them sing like a chorus, closing her eyes, smiling, soaking in the perfectly imperfect voices
I soaked that in too and felt so emotional
"I wish nothing but the best for you too"
But I guess at one point of time she's just like DIE BITCHEZZZ before she got over it (?)

Looking forward to going back to Singapore:)

Here's a random photo of a well

Wild hunz

I realized I still owe dear Cheryl pictures from wild honey! And I never really blogged about it:x

Which I realized I've to scroll damn far back wtf this is what happens when you procrastinate
Too lazy to keep scrolling to find hahaha these are the main photos

So yes basically we met up to go wild honey and we played this game whereby we added breadcrumbs and pepper and sugar into a cup of water and played 中级密码 the loser had to drink it and we played and played suddenly the waiter came to refill the cup and I gasped in horror the game continued with Anisha downing the last bit whoo

And Cheryl in the escalator photo has that funny guilty expression she has whenever she steals your food (i lmk this because she steals my food/I'm always stealing food with her)

Can't wait for more outings \o/

Am posting backdated posts

2am nothing to do, BLOG!

This morning was round 2 auditions for TNPNF! I never really told anyone because hahah I didn't wanna be affected by what people were saying!!! So insecure lol. Realized I'm actualy one of the 20 people who got scouted and got the passport! Late but whatevr,

Went there slightly early and there was a freaking long queue omg!!! So many gorgeous girls ah~~~

Anyway it was quite fun AND THERE WAS FOOD LOL the eclairs were gone first luckily I got one >D met this gorgeous girl and we kinda buddied hahah! Turns out that we had mutual friends SMALL WORLD MUCHHH

Okay anyway thanks bf for all the ego boost aww you made me feel like a new face winner already xD

Walking off to check in already OKAY ZAI JIAN EVERYBODY!!!!

Wtf damn high now. Siao alr

CHEENAAAA

Going off to china tonight!!! ZAI JIAN EVERYBOODEEEE

Good news keep rollin'

First! I found my loveteddy Checkers!!! Ok I didn't find it, bf came to my house and ransacked my bag and found him sitting at the bottom. Which is kind of creepy in a sweet way I guess HAHAHA jk

Second! My new hair dryer WHOO can you believe it I've dry hair NOW woahhhh

Third! I got the job at A&F yay~~~~ Can finally work with my sister from another mother whom I worked with at Island yay<3 :) Don't have to worry about plans after Absinthe cos it'll just be lovelies/friends/driving/muaythai/volunteer \o/

Blow it like a balloon

GUESS WHO NOW HAS A HAIRDRYER
LOL

Been updating my twitter more than my blog though heh:> But anyway, I think someboodee got tired of me having to wait up for my hair to dry and bought me this<3

Am now really craving for the toasted chicken sandwich from Manna cafe

And those mini burgers

Plus a Milo dinosaur would be good

I can just imagine myself doing that and reading a nice book

And hoping all them young energetic kids will shut up already

Today, because A is on MC and J is happily in Batam (or wherever), there is no one at that station

So guess who got to handle crabs and fishes today~

Yes, me

I never knew how to destroy crabs like this

First, it begins with tearing out their pincers

Then, removing the tail which is collapsed into the body

It's really gross because it looks like the inside of a cockroach's body

So yes, rip it out

Then, with one hand on the head (try not to touch the eyes because they bounce about), and the other hand nestled in the hold made by where used to house the pincers, forcefully rip it apart

It is terribly disgusting because you can see the brains all spilling out onto your fingers

D:

"Be careful ah, don't hurt yourself, got a lot of bacteria on the shell that can kill you"

That sure removed a lot of pressure on me!

Next, de-gutting fish

Half the time I didn't know what I was pulling out, I think they were its stomach and intestines? Idk, but sometimes when I put the knife it it started spewing blood

Heart, perhaps?

My hands smell of murder

OHMYGOODNESS CHERYL

http://www.mindef.gov.sg/content/dam/imindef_media_library/graphics/army/army_news/army_news_-_what_s/2011/June_2011/1Gds_RI/5

Why do I look so retarded

Kitchen angst

Disclaimer: I did not want to post this at the start, just wanted to let out sole steam. But it is so ridiculous that i must post it here so in future when i become a sous/exec chef i must remember not to display such ignorance

There is this new-ish person who joined the kitchen. And this person, who shall henceforth be known as SB, h8s me
Maybe because I don't respect her enough (I have my reasons. I don't see how she deserves it)

After I soaped+washed+sterilized the tables, D asked me to cling wrap the oil container. I put it on one of the tables and begun to wrap it

SB: You put here, no. Bottom dirty. Table becomes dirty. You put here (table behind me), then wrap.

Like fuck you la both tables are clean can?! Put on table behind me got difference? Cannot wipe again? As if you put it on another clean table will make a difference
SERIOUSLY

It's not that I don't respect authority
It's just that when you are using your authority to ask people to do illogical things, what kind of leader are you?
When I'm done with all my work at 2.30, and D released me, SB went to D and said I shouldn't leave until everyone else leaves. Bitch you want me to stand there and stare at you for half an hour?? REALLY? Fucking nonsensical

And that's not all
Oh yes
I have more
But I'm sure two examples more than sufficiently demonstrates my point
SHE MAKES ME SO MAD

Edit: Hey guys I'm blogging from work now
Why? Because SB decided to put me in pastry and a newbie who started off at pastry at garde mange for dinner service
Basically I'm standing here doing nothing while she's standing there doing nothing
WHOO!
Even K said "Amanda is clueless. She will only be a hindrance" which is absolutely true. So instead of helping out at GM on the busiest night of the week, I'm here at pastry
Doing preparation for GM
Crazy bitch

"I picked the ripest one I still got the seed"

I don't want to sleep because I fear what awaits me when I wake

Heartache at 3am

Why are all songs suddenly so heartbreaking

It's like I never understood till now

Maybe it's a 3am thing

翻著我們的照片　想念若隱若現
去年的冬天　我們笑得很甜
看著妳哭泣的臉　對著我說再見
來不及聽見　妳已走得很遠

也許妳已經放棄我
也許已經很難回頭
我知道是自己錯過
請再給我一個理由說妳不愛我

如果要走　請妳記得我

I've got a tight grip on reality but I can't 

Let go of what's in front of me here 

I know you're leaving me in the morning when I wake up 

Leave with me some kind of proof it's not a dream

Then a random

I wanna see your peacock cock cock appears

Alright. Time to finish the stocktaking for chef which was due 5 hours (wtf) ago

Isn't everything so much easier when you pretend everything is okay?

It is

I hope

Maybe eventually

It will become the truth

MY LIFE IS SAVED

I went totes cray when I thought I lost my thumbdrive yesterday

It literally went like this: I was eating and I suddenly stopped and frantically searched my wallet for the tiny red and black seemingly insignificant thing and it was gone and I lost all my appetite wtf

And hence I went shopping and managed to forget about it for 15 minutes

THIS MORNING

PY FOUND IT

Okay not technically found it per se but yes thanks for calling the shop and asking that dulan woman for it omggggg thank you for saving my life again

Should stop doing these things cos I'll get used to it hahah

WHOOOOO MY THUMBDRIVE IS SAVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shall no longer use it as my only original/backup and bring it around like a boss

And I do cherish you

I don't know how or why he does it
But he seems to be the only person who thinks I'm beautiful and amazing even when I'm feeling fat/like shit
To all you guys out there, please be like that because your girl deserves to be treated nothing less than a queen
And no matter how skinny or hot other girls are, let her know that she is still the one you want
To the ends of the earth you will traverse for her

I accept everything you are and will be/
Stay here with me now

Heartbreaking

These lyrics are so heartbreaking
Loving should never be about possessing
Can such selfish love be called love too?
Until now, I haven't gotten to finish watching The Fierce Wife meh:(

Being awake alone in the house sucks

Because it reminds me of the angmoh Shutter which I just watched. ARGH!!!

Also I realized there are quite a lot of people awake right now (and reading my blog hahah why waste your sleep on this???) YAY LET US JOIN THE INSOMNIACLUB4LYF

Just bought a Polaroid album to keep all the photos safely

Also for easy bringing to Switzerland

Ah! The rich Alps where chocolate flows from deep within~~~

In August I'm going to visit NUS Law/Business/Med(?) school whoo so exciting

Also, having a sort of gap year means I'm more likely to get accepted into highly coveted part time jobs since many of them uni-starting kids won't be able to work then

Holrightttt

I realized thinking about headaches give me one

I hope I didn't just give you one :3

First practical lesson tomorrow. Should be fun WHOO pray for my safety

As well as other drivers' safety thanks

Hope I won't be a road hazard

One last thing

I've got them battle scarred knuckles!!!! On all my non opposable fingers on my right hand

I guess I will really never get to be a hand model LOL

Saturday afternoons shouldn't be spent like this

If not for the fact that I live so near to work, I would be clicking a straight 12 hours work time and not be able to enjoy yam pressed into tiny discs and two sinful bowls of coconut milk enriched bobochacha

Please, don't let anymore insane people decide to go to a French fine dining restaurant for supper at 11
That's just wrong, man

True love waits

Been crazy busy these few days
The restaurant is opening tomorrow for some rich guy who is having a party for some 60pax
What goes on in the kitchen is really pretty amusing, "Wa no wheat no dairy? Why take drugs?" "It's WHEAT not WEED" LOL

Keeping myself quite busy during my free times
Got date with my girls and catching up sessions with old friends
Casting calls
We'll see how they go

Can't take my eyes off you
Can't take my mind off you

Finally

The course you accept

SMU - Bachelor of Business Management

has been registered by the
Joint Acceptance system.

Thank you.

You're welcome, and good riddance

Anniversary

Happy 1st anniversary<3