it started out as something so small, and it grew in quantity and quality, after years of nurturing, how can you say let it go just like that? it isn't easy to keep it going strong. but yet it's so easy to break it with the little things that nibble away at it, like a tiny mice going on and on at a thick rope.

i wish i can do something about it. i know you shouldn't control things that you can't control but try to control those you can, but i'm not sure if it's something i can control and change.

i really need you right now

HEY i know i'm supposed to blog about lava but i'll do that later, i promise.

and arthi i'll blog about the list of things you want me to blog about later too :D

BTW BRINTHA I DIDN'T WRITE ABOUT YOU GROPING PEOPLE'S HERETHEREEVERYWHERE! arthi's lying.

okay anyway. the "Y" from our class deco dropped a few days back, right in front of me, and mr tee asked me "y" (why).

then today. doing pendulums and stuff, so we're seeing which current is highest for diff positions of the pendulum: W X Y and Z.

Mrs Teo: so which one has the highest current?
Brintha: Y!
Amanda: Y? (why, geddit)
Brintha: Y lah. Y!!
*something buzzed past*
Amanda: BEE! BEE! (as in, letter B)
Brintha: O_O
Amanda: B-E-E!!!!!!!!

gosh. took me super long to tell her there was a B behind her LOL.

LAST CHEMISTRY LESSON TODAY.

and many more lasts to follow.

hm okay today's post is going to be dedicated to my uber cool and awesome table mates arthi dayna chloe nageis and brintha.

if i sound forced at any point of time, it's cos of very very super cool person called arthi. cough.

anyway. SHORT PARAGRAPHS DEDICATED TO EACH OF YOU :D

starting with arthi because i'll be nice(:

Arthi. She is forever the cool albeit poser one.
arthi would say,"i'm trying to act act cool, but not act cool, you get it?"
and the reply would be, "oh. okay so you're trying to act act act cool?"
andandand today we did group work and she announced to us that she thinks our group's work is the best HAHAH. ego ttm! the best thing was, she wanted to close the windows, she actually went to the OTHER side of the class to close the windows though the tchr already asked the ppl on the other side to close the windows. tsk tsk!*

*to be continued

Brintha!~ superawesome labby. always say i frame her as a lesbo. I'LL GIVE YOU REAL EVIDENCE. in the middle of math she suddenly started seranading to poor nageis, "kiss you miss you kiss you miss you.." AND she hums like tuneless songs that goes like "mmmmm... hummm....." andand once mrs teo was talking about how the magnet will act as the compass, and 10 seconds later she raised up her hand and asked, "so where's the compass?" GENIUS :D
*(continued) and when arthi went to close the windows, she just went, "eh! there got people close windows already lah! you still go there for what??"

Nageis(: we'll always end up with a weird conversation. like today. i was stabbing her with dayna's skinny eraser. and we concluded that she will turn into rubber woman tomorrow. heheh. today she was like so angry with ___ and ___, it was kinda hilarious :D and she always give the "d'oh" face everytime we sing hot and cold super off tune :D heheh. love playing with her hairy pencilcase.

Chloe.. my eating buddy. oh oh i'll tell you something.. she actually hates eating corn!!!! omg. amazing right. HAHAH. guess what, today she saw someone who likes corn on the train heheh :D today she ironed her hair! so awesome. she should rebond it :D hahaha. and she also does the weird victory dance when she plays tennis.. (like a scene out of Year One --> new movie)

Dayna, my accomplice and twin and aspen-alpen buddy :D but now she went back to eating baby food so, whatever. THIS FRIDAY DON'T LET ME DOWN K! heheh. and YES stop stealing me/renci's tennis balls la super annoying. otherwise whack it so freaking hard it flies to the next court D< and she writes SO slowly on the bucher sheet that even the class clock which spoilt yesterday moves even faster than her laa. today we used her name as the group name and we wrote her name all over people's bucher sheets :D

and of course, there's me, the sane one(:

THIS FRIDAY IS BE YOURSELF DAY, EVERYBODY WEAR BRIGHT COLOURED STOCKINGS!!! (dayna and i are going to wear purple :D )

i REALLY don't understand why you just STILL don't get what i'm trying to do.

ORD was yesterday. spent the whole of last night, thinking. about so many things.

i don't know, it didn't seem to be the night of celebration with the company. it felt so weird. so disappointing. so segregated. it would be hard not to want to turn back time to make things right again. watching the others cry because of mistakes i didn't help to prevent from happening.

didn't talk to the other parts much but i want to tell them not to cry. it's not all over yet. our hearts and minds are with ncc and it always will be with you guys.

reminiscing the old times with the platoon felt good. then the powder fight.. super funny. took many pictures as a platoon(: long time since we last did that(:

the part cs were really, really sweet. they prepared this little song for each of us, then a song for all of us, and gave us hand painted and assembled planes/helicopters, and threw confetti and balloons over us. so sweet right? i guess alot of us teared. but no tears cos we promised to smile(:

now it's time for the company to make a steady march towards one common goal, and we'll always be silently watching over you guys.

and sorry for screwing it up. again. sigh. i wanted the best, but the the outcome was not enough. not even half of what was enough. if only we could go back again.

Tmr's the big day.. So many feelings are rushing together in torrents in my mind.

Hope no one will cry tomorrow): But as the saying goes, crying is not a sign of weakness. Sigh.

Must remain strong for the others.

Oh yeah. Dayna has the worst names for blogs.

She wants me to rename my blog AMANDOTSPOTS.

which means it'll be amandotspotsdotblogspotdotcom.


i will not stand near the following people during tennis:

1) dayna/janny (both steal balls)
2) brintha (she whacks the balls into me. happened TWICE today)

besides, brintha does that weird victory dance everytime she wins a shot. highly distracting.


anyway. ACES is not for us to exercise.. i bet there's a secret cam rigged up somewhere and it's used to analyze our psychomotor skills. honestly.

besides, kyung tae is on just like on fast forward during 'high impact'. who can follow her on the video anyway?

Miranda's right. too many people link me.

ANYWAY. today is WEDNESDAY. (i thought it was tuesday)

monday was last training. gosh.

THAT IS THE LAST TIME I WILL EVER WEAR NO 4 (probably).

)):

Anyway. was kinda disappointed with the company. after so much.. they still dare not come out and take initiative. it takes time, i guess.

teaching sophia and tina pacestick drill was interesting. they read my blog so i won't say too much HEHEH. but anyway. really glad you guys had the determination and all. so proud of you guys(:

TWO MORE DAYS TO ORD.

it's time to let go.

AND SO it all started when rhubs was eating Loacker biscuits.

Lava: Loafer is a hooligan! (totally random right. i know.)
Me: Loafer is lazy person..
Lava: No! Eh brintha, what'a a loafer?
Brintha: They're Michael Jackson shoes.
Lava: No! It's hooligan!
Brintha: Haiya it's a loaf of bread la.

gosh anyway after compo exam all of us went crazy. seriously.

rhub (why is it always her who start embarrassing happenings?) went: eh i think those two over there are twins.
all four of us swivelled our heads and stared at them.

and we stared until i realised what we were doing and lava and i kept laughing NON STOP and the twins stared at us.

poor sec ones. i think we freaked them out.

HARRY POTTER MANIA!

Filtch: uuuhh oooh you are in trouble.
Brintha: get away, freak!

Filtch: you.. you killed my cat!!
Brintha: i did NOT murder your cat.
Lava: Gooooo awayyyyyyyy.

"The part Ds of year 2009 has chosen the motto, which means to soar to the stars on crab’s wings."

ARGH.



I WANNA GO MOUNT OPHIR TOOOOOOOOOOOO.

SEVENTEEN.

final destination 3D is coming out :D :D :D goshh can't wait! whoohoo.

today was interesting. dayna is.. dayna. you know sometimes when the aircon's really cold you can see the misty thing? yeah.

dayna: the aircon is smoking!
me: it's not smoking. it's steaming.
dayna: STEAMING IS AT 100 DEGREES, STUPID.
me: yeah yeah genius smoking happens with a fire lah.
dayna: not necessary! when you light a cigarette there's smoke but no fire!

is that self own or what? hahahah.

and arthi got touchy cos brintha was playing footsie with her during bio.

"eh don't be a coward and kick me under the table! if you want to kick me, kick me above the table!"

and one very very effective cure for hiccups is for your bio teacher to stand in front of you and say, "hope my presence can stop your hiccups. did you get scared? can you feel my aura?"

guess what? my hiccups stopped!

EIGHTEEN.

today was parade rehearsal again. wore the new boots which i bought in the mistaken thought that i lost my boots (found it behind the whiteboard much later). and those boots suck.

1) the absorb all the polish (no matter how you polish, it just eats it all)
2) it absorbs heat the way it absorbs polish (no regurgitation)
3) the heat is enough to fuse your toes together.

yes anyway anqi was having SO much fun with her new pacestick she kept whacking me in areas. so annoying.

and ahahahaha dayna the class model! so funny! she can't catwalk right :D

so lava, arthi and her decided to practise catwalking while i gave very constructive critisisms.

arthi: walks like a gangster. on second attempt, she walks like a hooligan with murderous eyes, probably in attempt to do the sexy eye thing. walks like a man, too. too wide strides.

lava: ditto sexy eye thing. except she looks like a paedophile wanting to eat up those poor kids. who is probably crying because they saw her. and her smile.. that smile of hers can stun people. literally. (especially children)

dayna: gives the baby smile and looks like Insectica from Monsters vs Aliens. Walking=bobbing on water. gives people a very sea sick feeling.

but ah well it'll be nice to laugh at all three of them on stage this friday :D hope we berhenti fast and i can rush back to watch them!

watch and cry. beautifully imperfect clip.