Finally I'm home. back from slacking. last minute, when to meet my bros at boon keng. took train down. . . . . . . met them at adam.. slacking... the moment I reached there saw 3 'idiots' sitting at the road side.. hahas.. so I went to join the girls.. girls talk.. you know you know. muhahas. kel quarreled with amanda, about some money problem issue. after that problem solved! went to block 9 and slack ~ actually I forget where is block 9 already. it been quite awhile I last went there. probably the last time, was went I broke up with him. then followed by eli and gene quarreled about some misunderstanding. but after same, ended up sweet. =)



I wanted to see him so much, hoping he will be right at my side. kinda pissed off both of my phones left with no batt. why didn't I charge it. damn it. I will so in a urge to contact baby that I had to borrow their phone or battery. feeling so down at the moment we hanged up. the feeling was so bad. almost tear but didn't, cause I controlled it. feeling so lost at moment.



He keep wanting to come down and meet me, cause I miss him. He didn't want me to sound like this. I didn't want him to come down cause he have to work. and he needa rest so badly. recently he not enough rest. and he missed his work a few times cause he didn't get to wake up on time. and get nag by mummy. but he die die also want to come down in the end.



the moment he reached, I'm feeling so happy =) hEes. we were like crapping around. laughing. time really flies. about 4+ am, time to head home. cause he had to work at 5am. kel wanted to drive so let him drive one round. and my turn to drive. i barely see lo. omg. I so not used to the car. everything was so sensitive. that makes me feel I dont even feel like getting my stupid licence. hais haisssssssss........



send gene home le, of cause time for baby to send me home. was at my doorstep, didn't bare to let him go. I get to see him. but I still missing him lots right now. =) baby tell me you wont leave me and always be by my side. cause I seriously need you, and I can't bare to lose you. and never make me tear again =) all I want is happiness. lalalalas.



I MISS YOU ! ~

5:36 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

the weather is killing me, as if I'm in the desert. hot, sandy, empty, I need WATER. hahas. alright I'm lame -.-" so cool. why am I up on the saturday early morning? o.O want to know why? all because of the the stupid. you must be wondering why would I go to do school on the sat? no lessons. yesh I know. but to attend some stupid talk, called 'fengsheng'. combined with other ite. morning call from chris. I did sleep back. clever enough he called again. god damn tired. dragged my heavy legs out of the bed. get myself bath and prepared. I actually wear school uniform~ omg. it been like quite awhile le hur hur ~ I feel like a student. tralalalalas. met him, together go to school. we were still early, so went to the cafeteria to get some drinks. and head up to the auditorium. good service, someone there to serve us by pressing the lift. hahas. we thought we were not allowed to use the lift.



get to like so called 'register' ourselves. but my name not there. so never mind lo. next thought, yesh! go home. hahas. asked someone to help us mark attendance for us, then pass the list to us. hahahas. indeed, we are evil. cause too many people and is very hard for us to gather and mark attendance. head home timmmeeee.. weEeEeeee..... =)



yesterday, went to pub. totally 5 couples. was a fun. wasn't that bored. but thinking about sat need to go school makes it boring. baby keep asking me not to go. but I have no choice, given a task. hEes. baby had fun too. so when he is happy, I'm happy too =) after drinking, went to coffee shop eat! slack. we crap alot. lame jokes. so cute went baby got fooled =x hais..my baby is sleeping like a pig now. hais. he say reach home call him. the moment I called him expected he wont pick up. cos why? fall asleep le. i saw his nick changed at 6.03am and I called at 6.12am like that. power eh he. anyway, I just love the way baby protects me. that shows he really really do care for me. we crapping in the cab on the way back. SGF stands for special girlfriend. sweet? hahas.

10:57 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

doesn't seem to be a lonely night afterall. =) went to watch movie, 'aquamarine'. nice show. hEes. at plaza singapura. dinner at food court. while traveling to ps, saw chris at LRT. just realise he is living so near to me -.-" haHas. nvm also good. next time got partner to accompany to school and home =x hEes. took train hooommeee. met baby over my place.. he bluff me. say he will be at swimming pool. but while walking down the stairs of LRT, he hugged me. so sweeeet.


went hommmee. toopid bro, went to my room and sleep -.-" I didn't stay at home, I went back with him. hahahahas. just wanna pei him a lil longer. have some talked with the sister. liL ben so busy on the phone with his gf. so sweet la. waited till he fall asleep den head hommmee.. yawnnn.. my day wasn't thaat bad. 5 stars. chop chop.

3:21 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

turning and turning.. check left check right.. today driving is so tiring.. just manage to get my ass back home. mUhahas. I'm so tired that I woke up at 2pm today and my lesson started at 2.30om. omg lo. get myself rush all the way down. even have the thought of skipping lesson. but i can't afford to skip ='( ..did evaluation today. got 6 points~ not so bad. keep forgetting to check blindspot. instructor say my driving not bad today, which I find it very bad. raining day, rain rain go away come again another day. actually not so bad, windy and cooling. good weather to sleep! that is why baby is sleeping now. he just came back from work. about 10 hours of working and 1 hour of sleeping. he took his sleeping time and talked to me. so sweet isn't he? he gonna work tomorrow at 5am. early ehHhhhh.. I wanna talk and see him more often =) just wanna spend more time with him before he get to army. just hanged up with him, over the phone. but I wish I could talk to him a lil longer. better still dont hang up. hahas. but he is really really tired. want him to rest also. gosh gonna spend my lonely night alone today.



yesterday having some training and meeting. get to lots of them. fun. oh ya. jerjer going for camp. hahas. camp instructor? woot. have fun with the pri5 kids. hEes. 3 of them being send. got yi wen and another guy dunno what name. school gonna start next week. busy time. I'm gonna in charge of class QB ~ accounting class. lalalas. hope everything will be fine. DONT you try to bully me =( I'm fierce kks.. hahas. LAZY to travel to school, I miss daddy sending me to school. will dear be so free to send me to school *cheeky smile* winks. hEes... ~

5:24 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

watching television while waiting for baby to fetch me. as usual heading down to tampines mall to watch movie. wanted to black night, cause I heard from my instructor that it was a nice one. was chatting with baby about what movie to watch. anyway my gang going be watching movie at tm too. and also he said before he wanted to watch 'take the lead'. its a combine show show, so it might not turn out to be a nice. changed our plan, watched ' take the lead' with my gang. met them at LJS. expected they will be eating over there. ahahs. clever cheryl =x



nice show. munching on chips. watching. hEes. is all about dancing. =) great dancers. looking back kinda miss clubbing. RnB ! wooot ~ although they called it as the " dirty dancing" .. but who cares. it been quite awhile since I last club ='(



certainly I dont like the feeling now. it seem to be a great day. but it ended up, a lil @#$%^&#. he doesn't like the feeling of me not telling him when I'm out. so is like.. must update him and notice him. where I go and stuff. and I asked him, why didn't he tell me since he didn't like it. he replied something like this , it doesn't help even when he told me he dont like it and I wont do anything about it. * rephrase it by my own words * don't remember what exactly he said but was smth like that. that shows I'm a useless, hopeless gf he got. tell me who will be there when I'm really down ? thanks, that hurts alot. called him to talk things out. but it ended worst. but who cares? no one cares. overall my life still wasn't that perfect as what I thought. damn me for my fCuking attitude. time to get myself busy with the week. argghhs. i hate everything when it ended up like this.



sick of of living. what's the point living, where sooner or later you still be gone in this world one day.

1:14 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

I'm back with some posts. hAhas. yeah, I'm super lazy dont blame me ya. Recently went to pub with baby, his friends and my bro with friends. I didn't want to drink much, cause I get myself drunk the day before. knowing the feeling of drunk, head feeling real heavy and the worst part the feeling of vomiting. I seriously hate that. darling found me at UOB plaza. I didn't want to tell him where am I =x but he still manage to find me! he already started drinking le, omg stinks =x hEes. waited for gene. and we walked together to the pub. lil ben's sis working at the pub. playing with poker cards. magic tricks. damn cool. singing. hahas. my baby actually sing. and is also ben first time singing after so times of drinking session. kinda happy to see them click. that goes to same to baby. I didn't drink in the beginning, at the end I still drink la. baby vomited in the cab -.-" omg.. went over his place.. damn cute lo.. me and the sis was like catching insect lo in the room. like idiot. baby really drunk -.-" haissss..



before going to pub. I went to tpy, meet my gang eat dinner slack.. bought my perfume.. ~ took a train down.. to raffles place. =)



the day before the part I'm drunk. cause of baby. wanted to accompany him. since he working at 5am . so decided to stay till 4+ am. but he knows that if i stay he wont get to rest. and he lost my pinky box. hais. maybe kinda over reacting. I also dont know what is on my mind. everything was so messy -.-" the feeling was really bad that day. hate it to the core.



Genting trip.

daddy sent me to goldenmill. and went to fetch my baby of cause. as usual we were the last to arrival. hEes. =x yes, slow. reach there at about 7am. get our tickets rush up to the bus. single deck bus. beginning of the journey didn't get to sleep although I was really tired. Just couldn't get myself to sleep. at the end still managed to sleep a lil. hahas. the part going up, going round and round everyone wake up le. woot. cable car ! up up up. hEes. can feel the weather, cooling ~ get ourselves book in. the room wasn't clean up yet. only kelyn's room. so we placed our bags over her side. way to hungry. get ourself down to get some food.. yummmmy.. went to the haunted house and the dunno what -.- forgot the name. hahahs. was fun la. I didn't dare to see anything went walking in front, in the huanted house. baby was using his hands to cover my eyes and walked. =x after everything. break time. drinking some weird drink and cheesecake! didn't get to eat there, too noisy irritating decided to bring back to hotel and eat. but the time is dinner time so, i kept the cakes and drinks in the fridge. went to watch 'the wild' hEes. omg some of them fall asleep. probaby too tired.


2nd day. theme park day. wasn't sooo bad =) played alot. having fun. suling and jeremy join us. dragged my baby to play all the rides with me =x especially the spaceshot! hahahas. can see baby face damn pale. but after the ride okie le.. become pinky ! hEes.. kinda sad. some of the rides was down .. ='( after everything went back to hotel rest. then is shopping time. went shopping with baby. bought lotsa clothes. hEes. later in the night they wanna slack at coffee bean. I accompany baby first. later on join them . magic tricks. hEes. crapping.. alot.. wen up.. played cards in min's room. after that I went back to pack everything. baby sleeping like a piggy. pack everything. get myself to bed and sleep too ! yawnnn ~ *our 2 month*



last day.. wake up breakfast ! last minute shopping ! meet them at hotel lobby. get our bags. cable car. ! the feeling of going down wa.. like sitting roller coaster but slower. bus bus ! double deck this time. the bottom is all ours. except for one sit lo. the rest alll ours. got tv ! =x eating lotsa junk food! munch munch ! ~ hEes. by the time reach singapore about 10 le. ~ ! so late arhhhh.. on call a cab cause didnt get to fetch a cab. go to baby place. got myself sunburn pain ~

2:31 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

didn't went out today. spend half of day sleeping and now rotting, gaming. nothing much for me to do. that idiot sleeping -.-" hopeless. dump me here. in a lonely world. hahas. yesterday driving totally sux. while changing lane suppose to accelerate I went to break. is like wth? hahas. nvm =< lotsa mistakes...... hais... later on in the afternoon got driving... zZzzzzz... sians...




please tell me you can read my mind. =)

1:52 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

god damn it. fCuking sick. I'm glad that my fever is finally OVER. here comes my block nose and cough~ zZzzz genting trip is drawing so near -.-"



yesterday went for the bridging meeting. nothing much, just make some new friends. friendly. one of them will be in the same class as me. =) lotsa fun.. baby come over my place and send me to school. ended, he fetched me to his house. rest over his place. evening send me home get changed and prepared, head down to east coast for bbq.



blade awhile, went to play pool. my pool skills sux. dont talk about it. missed those parklane pool games. =) 8 out of 10 my gang attendance. wasn't that bad. the way baby played was soo darn cute =) just couldn't stop myself from laughing. just love the way he played. *hUgs* after everything... time to head home......... went over his place.... then daddy fetch me over his place.... lalalalalalalallalalalas...

6:17 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

Feeling real sick, having high fever didn't get to sleep well. the highest temperature was 38.5 degree. so cool ehh. probably is because lack of sleeping, resting and not drinking plain water, heaty. zZzzz.. I know I'm feeling unwell but still want to go out and catch some movie. *ultraviolet* waste money ehhh him took cab to my house~ and we suppose to take a bus down to woodlands but he say late le -.-" so........ Took a cab down to woodlands so that later lil ben can join us after the movie and go down together to baby's place.



I feel like walking about as the same time I want to watch movie. so the only choice left, watch 9+pm timing. If watch the 7+pm timing, all the shops closed le then cannot walk... Accompany baby to have his dinner at pasta mania, as usual creamy chicken. *that's what I normally eat too, hEes. feeling so unwell, vision blur blur.. the heat within me ='( sobs. . so decided not to watch movie, called lil ben to join us walk walk.. crap around... hahahas.. I got my moisturizer. . wEeeEee . . . lalalalalas. . .



time to head home. not my home but his. took bus... long journey.. slept in the bus. changed bus at tampines. . and finally reached home.. he so bad.. keep wanting to sleep. he is such a piggy. don't want to accompany me ~ and of cause I keep disturbing him, not allowing him to sleep. watching lil ben playing maple, the jump jump jump one quest. he called himself as jump king? hahahas. so cuteee.. then he fool me by say that thing can hit and kill -.-" tio fooled ~ not good.. baby kept coming near to me, when he is not suppose to do that. casue I'm sick ~! silly boy later you sick how, then who will take care of me. he replied ben will take care both of us. hahas.



mummy kinda pissed off with me. cause I havent reach home. she called and yelled at me. *worries* I know that =) high fever is no joke can kill you. that's what she say.




time up head down to cakeshop carried dough, before heading home. I know is tiring and heavy *sayang* I want eat doughnut~! sobbbss.. still waiting.. was in the car already, his parent called him to buy supper for them. sad case kena chase out of the car =x hahahas. went to buy first, then drive to carpark downstair his house. when he he went up I did something real silly. I told ben I wanna drive to front hahahahs. and he agreed with it. so move the car to the front. =x wanting to see he reaction so badly. hahahs. so cute. hmmm.. time to head homeee.. yeah.. finally..




just read his blog..... that's not honeymoon kks !! -.-" you think too much.. loLs.. hopfully he can wake up tomorrow morning and send me to school and also fetch me. cause I'm super lazy.. and bring along doughnut for my breakfast ~ hahahas.. why am I going to school? because I'm having some bridging stuff -.-" evening.. having class BBQ ~ I think I not touch the food there? SAD arhhhh... wEeee..... darling gonna follow me... I'm not sure lil ben wants to go. don't think he wanna go .. awhh.. ~




dardar and ben just ate their supper at changi and heading home. waiting for his call..

2:48 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

Feeling so tired and lazy. Didn't attend Danial's birthday party. hahas. In fact I think most of them he invited didn't seem to turn out. Including my twin sis and some of his secondary school classmates. That was pretty sad case. You totally sux, cause you're a backstabber. C'mon stop flirting around, you are no longer young anymore. Still behaving like a small little kid. gene asked the gf, " you like those bf who like to make use of your money ? " , she replied " I dont mind as long as I love him" hahahahas. craps.



Was slacking with gene, went to play some pool games. Have our lunch over at Swensens, ate chicken baked rice =) yummy. His treat. We chatted alot. What he say about friends was really right. Good friends can only count by your fingers, while friends you can have alot. How would you know who are those who can be your goodie friends or just friends. This you have to find out yourself. went shopping for baby's clothes. get him two tops. hEes. It's real nice.



The craziest thing I ever done, at 4+am went to town and watched EIGHT BELOW. thanks gene for getting the tickets for us. His gf was really sweet =) . omg that show was really damn nice. Lucky didn't waste my time to get myself to town during this crazy timing -.-" show end at 6+ am cool. morning already.. early birds got worms to eat. hEes. went back to baby's place. was really tired at the point of time.



Thomas called me in the afternoon asking me whether want to go town anot. I'm still thinking..... yawnnnnn ~ I'm sorry jerjer, leaving you alone in the camp. hope everything goes well...



I want to be more happy =)



make a wish upon a falling stars. *

5:34 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

tell me everything, a - z , cause I didn't want to feel lost. =)

2:59 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

I realised a slight change in me, I used to be so sensitive over little matters. But not for now, I dont know why. maybe.... everything is so .. numb =)





friends ? who are the one really your true friends and who are those who just your 'friends'.. in life you meet up with difff people.. human is weird. some people are materialistic ~ why is it so ? advantages ? someone who benefits you. right in front of you putting on a fake mask. pretending everything to be so fine until one day you needa help everyone running and hiding .. stabbing you real hard =)




am i happy with my life now ? i do feel a lil happiness, but something is still missing..




lalalalalalals... i miss bel ... goshhhhh.. ~

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