yea.. todae ish a dae.. where the fate shall be.. it didn't seem to be a good one.. god hab make up his choice not gonna give me anymore chance.. knowing tat i wont learn form my mistake.. my heart was beating so fast.. and prepared for the worst i gOnna get.. huggin bel.. hoping everything will be fine.. it doesn't seem tat way.. holdiin the result on my hand..walk towards bel..huggin her and started crying..yea.. i'm rite. sad or happi.. will still cry.. happy ish tears of joy.. the feeling inside of me..was like... nth..blank.. prepared for it.. but i didn't expect it to end so badly.. people kept coming to me..and asked for my result.. and asked me tis Q too...why am i still so happi yet my result ish like tat.. ya.. i juz trying to act real strong.. but inside me..i was so weak.. i kno somehow i juz can't take it..i'm reAlli hAppy , bEl to bE tHere fOr me.. pretending to bE strong...yeT i kno..i'm not.. i even get shouted by my gb geRz.. for saying her grade was not tat bad.. ya she get 15 point.. wasn't it gOod enff ? i feel more down..


all of them goin off to hab lunch.. i jUz asked vin along with me to find bel.. while waiting for bel... dan called me.. asking me lots of stuff... and somemore attitude me.. yea..tis time i can't take it le..my tears juz flow out.. but its okie... it juz awhile.. pretendin to be strong again.. finally.. bel okie le..the whole group wen to eat.. after eating wen to kbOx..they sing song..LaLALAlaz..


aT 7pm .. i wen off..meet my frenz.. wOot.. 9 of them.. damn all guys.. fEel so weird.. slacking toking craps.. toking about my result.. at 11 i wen off.. reacH home.. i called my frenz... asking for result and wart should i do...bla blabla.. everything seem so fine.. until he told me he needa hang off and bath and sneak out of the house... i'm like..no u can't.. if u wan try to hang off my call.. yea.. everything seem to bad later.. i'm kinda harsh too.. if stopping someone from sneaking out of the house ish a fault.. den i shall blame myself.. neither do i wanna care.. why todae i being so good..so breakdown yet can console ppl and care for ppl.. i told to myself..i will NEBER CARE ABOUT you.. and i neber did it.. tis time i'm gonna.. since i dun understand youu.. yet i'm being a fool of myself.. i hab make up my mind.. not to care for u.. and i dun need ur care in return.. pretend tat i hab neber called u.. or u hab received tis called.. maybe being "stranger" as wart i tink it much more better.. i tot by calling u will make my day better.. but maybe not.. i called the wrong person.. i'm sOrry for warteva mistake i hab done..


i realli hope someone to there for me..hugging me.. and let me cry out loud.. ya.. bel been there for me.. ya in sch.. but i juz feel like crying out loud.. outside.. juz me and youu.. no one else.. no oNe seem to bother about me.. and realli be there for me.. bUt ish okie..i'm a ger who ish strong tat i dun even need any care..tat's me..i kno who will be there for me.. only god and my bottle.. tat's all.. goin back to the same old me..the torture side.. ya.. i tink i can torture myself again.. it been a whole .. i haben realli eaten smth..


- bReakdOwn..

11:59 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

yEa...fAte shaLl bEgin tml.. hOpe everything will be fine!!! gEeez.. i still hAb sO mUch stUff in my mind.. jUz trying tO sQueeze it.. in thE bOttle.. =]

11:17 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

hmm... todae ish vincent bdAe.. a sLackiing dAe.. actuallli didn't waNna tO join tHe grOup.. bEcos i didn't gEt infRom by tHe tiime aNd the plaCe.. ehh..time got .. vin tOld me.. aLl isH vin thE onE kEep mE infRom..dAmn wHere tHe rEst.. -.-" thE one who plan ? kinda pisSed oFf.. until 6pm..thE bEri laSt min.. tHey caLled beL to aSk us go ? hmm.. yA.. lAst min stUff again.. bUt isH alrigHt.. i'm aLreAdy ouT of my hOuse on tHe wAy mEetin vin =] yEa.. tOt oF jUz meeting him..aNd paSs tHe prEsent.. lAter on gO sHoppiin wiTh beL.. hahaz.. yEa.. aNd tHe plan cHange...weN out wiTh my gRoup oF cRazy fRenz.. wEn to eAt brEeks again~ thE qUe waS long.. rOtting ovEr tHeRe.. nOt mUch of tokiin wiTh them.. except fOrr vin aNd jia entertain me~ hehEex.. sO nOt tAt bOred either.. sO cOol.. gOldfish finally style his hAir..tAt's nice.. afTer eatiing.. seNd beL hOme fiirst.. i sOoo gOod arH? aLso nO one sEnd me home.. >.< ..sEnd hEr hOme..cOs sHe iSh nOt weLl..chit cHat witH bEL aT tpy mrt... wHetHer to gO anot.. and i decided nOt tO gO.. ended uP goin.. cOs tAt vin kePt aSkiing me to go...all tis while.. hE ish the one kept asking me to go.. dun hab tHe hEart tO rejeCt hiim..cOs hiS bdAe bOy!.. later on meet up with sh , suet and ken.. hahaz... lots of craps from them... slackinng over there.. drinkiin.. everybody face red red de =x but vin still the beSt! hE look like devil~ so red! hehEez.. i told himm.. at least i dun need to make him blush.. parent kEpt calling.. damn... irritatin.. so mani police doin rounding.. hmm...sat there alone.. after the arguement.. trying to ease my mind...later on didn't expect jos to be thEre.. cHit cHat with him .. he told me all hiis prob.. hOpe hE will bE feelin bEtTer tHough.. jUz fEel like giving him one tite slap.. loLz.. tO mAke him awake.. but hE say useless.. den i also dunno wart to do le..hahahz..

hope you will be readiing tis.. JOSEPH you broke the swear.. and i dun wan to hear anymore swear or promise from u.. all yOuu nEed to do now ish to tink leSs manz! tAt's aLl i could sAy.. wheneva youu nEed me .. i will bE there for you.. yOur listener~ LaALalalaz

6:16 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

__________
You entered my world
without me knowing it
You left me suddenly
leaving me upset
just to be with someonelse,
whom i really hate.
______________

10:57 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

anOther bOriing dAy..
tml iSh vin bdAe..
hEard tat thEy gOnna gO cLubbiing..
yEah.. tOdae wEn tO bUy hiiS preSent qUite a niice one..
but.. kena sHy..
kEpt aSkin tHe gUy tO tRy thE cLothes..
loLz.. ppl tOt..
wE inteResteD wiTh hiim..
laLalaz..

dUnno..whY toDae i sOoo dOwn..
sO sAdd..
nO oNe tO bE tHeRe fOrr mE..
sObx..
cRying ouT louD x=
bUt iSh Okie..
i'm uSed to iT le..
yOu wiLl nEbEr bOtHer tO uNdErsTand hOw i fEel..
iT wiLl nEber bE tHe sAme again..
i migHt jUz bReakdOwn again..

10:46 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

lurbe ish a word which ish unexplained.. wHy dOes gOd jUz leave us in suCh a cOmplicated wOrld wiTh nO reAson anD aNswEr.. wHy dOes gOd mAke uS fAll in lOve ?

3:15 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

another boring day..sTay at home.. rot.. lalalaz.. wOke up at about 5+pm i guEss so.. laTe arhh.. wAs on com tHe whole evening.. cHatting about thE toopid cOurse.. hahaz.. yEah.. rEsult coming sOon.. lallalAz.. i told hq.. i gonna bE les arHh.. my nExt relationship ... loLz.. =]


tis one isH hanqi dEsign dE.. laSt time.. qUite long le.. tIs ish on my msn display pic~

12:01 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

yea.. i change my skin again.. hahaz.. nice mahz? l0Lz .. an0ther b0ring day... wo0t didi peRm his hair.. jAp lo0k ? n0t tat bad.. he aLso fOund his gEr le.. finally.. bUt i havEn get to meet uP her .. bel ish oUt of hospital le.. hahaz.. h0pe sHe w0nt gEt fevEr again~ dotz.. while typing tis blog..tat wolf.. sUddenly remain me of my x-ray.. hAiz.. still tinking abOut tat.. dunno shouLd i ? or shoUldn't..bUt i'm fine mAhz.. =] the feeling ish soo diff today.. wHy am i giving up so easily.. why.. >.< ..oh yEa. i promise myself.. tO get mysElf puZzle~ woot ... i miss tAt... but hab tO wait for my pay.. wen to tp..the laSt day of open hOuse.. ppl thEre are friendly...and cRazy..hahaz..jUz like my gRoup oF frenz eh? get to sEe hanqi tHeRe.. didn't expeCt to sEe him..as the scH isH big eHh.. yea.. tat's all f0r todae... borrriiing ddaaaeee...~ lALalaz..

3:10 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

wOot.. tHe nitez wAs gReat.. lying dOwn lOokin aT tHe sKy fiLled wIth sTarz.. tAt wAs my bEri fIrst tiMe tO sEe sO mUch sTarz in spOre..iT shine sO brigHtly .. tHe fEeling wAs gReat.. and enjoying the breeze ... a gReat dAy tO eAse my mind.. =] thE peace ..

i miSs and i luvbE thE day~ lOokin fOrwArd the dAy iT gOnna hAppeN again.. ~ dReaming away~

beL admitted to hOspital~ wEn tO visit hEr ytD.. sHe wAs fEelin mUch mOre bEtter .. bUt hER reSult gOnna bE out tOdae...hEard tAt hEr kidney oNe bIg one smaLl ? tAt mAybe caUses hEr tO fall sick eAsily aNd gEt wEak.. aNd of cOs i gonna visit hEr~ pOortHing.. hOpe sHe wiLl gEt weLl sOon wIth hEr fEveR..

hAiz..tAking my x-ray sOon ..bUt hOw sOon i dUnno le? hEhEez ..hOpe i wiLl bE fine.. eVEn tHe reSult iSh bAd.. i jUz gOnna kEep quiet..yEahz! =] bUt sO fAr nOthing hAppen.. sOo i'm fine witH it.. iF it dOesn't hUrt aNymOre.. mAybe i maY jUz dRop tHe idEa oF tAking x-rAy.. hAhaz..

2:29 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

haPpy cHinEse nEw yEar ! a day wHere aLl thE chinEse cElebrAte new yEar.. rEceiving "ang bao" and giving away tOo... haiz.. as for me.. i stAy aT hOme.. nO cElebrAtion fOr mE.. a daY whEre i dUn evEn bOther tO cAre oR rEmembEr.. sOoo sAd.. aLl tHe sHops cLoSe neithEr cAn i gO sHopPin.. wArt i cAn dO iSh tO rOt mysElf in tHe swEet liTtle rOom.... sEem like my timing oF sLeepin hAb cHange...bEcoming aN owL~~~ sLeeping aT 5 am.. wAing uP at 4+ .. eveRybOdy... drEssed nicE nice gO out.. whiLe i sLping... =x my frEnz evEn cAll me.. ka jiao mE aSk me wAke up =.= i'm like... gib mE a bReakk... i waNnna sLeep..dUn dIstuRb mE... loLz.. my liFe iSh jUz like bLack aNd white.. nO colourS in it.. iT sO dEad >.< .. weLl .. lUcky i nEber cOntinUe my wOrk le.. nOw paRt timEr cAn onLy wOrk fOr lIke 30hOurs a mOnth? iSh like ... wTh =.= sOoo hAppy... i gOin back tOoo sEe thEm...aNd oF cOs to gEt mY stUff tOooo.. hehEex.. rEsuLt cOmin oUt.... hOpe i wiLl gEt uP tO poly~~ - hHhhHhhhoOoooppppeee sOoo.. - weLl..haiz...stiLl hAben pass bel hEr preSenT~ i'm sO sAd..~ ! iT bEen qUite a long time... wen i lasT sEen her... kinda miSs hEr sOoOooo mUchhh....~

2:35 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

i'm finally done with my job..aT fiRst i tHougHt iT wAs gOnna bE a tOugh onE for me.. hOwevEr iT didn't eNd it thiS wAy.. iT sEem to bE a fUn one tHouGh.. gEtting a jOb wAsn't eAsy aT all.. bUt aT lEast i am a fEw lucky onE.. =] wHo gEt a gOod jOb.. aLtHouGh iT wAs a fAr.. mAking fRenz ovEr tHeRe.. i migHt bE considering tO woRk again.. aS time past fAst.. aS if i'm lOst in tiMe.. bUt is qUite tRue..

evErything tHing sEem sO diff.. iT bEen a aBout a mOnth.. wEn i lasT met tHem.. i reAli mIss thEm sOmehOw.. hOpin tO mEet thEm sOon.. especially bEL.. sHe bEen sicK fOr aBout a wEek .. sUffering fRom hiGh feVer.. i gUess sHe missed aLot of leSsOn.. hOpin tAt sHe wiLl gEt weLl sOon.. aNd cAtch uP wIth hEr sTudiEs.. aNd jOlly weLl sHe cAn cOpe witH it.. nEithEr dO i wAn hEr tO suFfer frOm sTress aNd dEpreSsiOn like hEr sisTer.. rEcently i hEard aLot oFf pEople fALlin iLl.. i jUz gOnna pRay hArd for tHEm.. hOpin eVeRyone wiLl gEt well sOon.. neithEr do i waN to gEt sick .. >.< .. i knO i'm wEak.. tAt's wHy i dUn wAnna faLl iLl.. fAcing tHe doc givE mE feAr .. haHaz.. weLl nOt reAlli.. aS in iF i gOnna fAll sicK.. i gOnna bE reaLli iLl.. i dUn wAn tat tO hAppeN.. tHE gRoup oF fRenz.. i aLwaYs bEen tOgeTher.. vincEnt wAs tHe laSt peRson.. i mEt up wiTh.. i waS quIte sHock tO sEe him.. hE lOoks sO wEak to me.. bUt i hEard fRom him..saYing tAt hE slim dOWn.. i'm hAppy fOr him.. bUt hE iSh aLso sick.. get well sOon everybody.. =.= sEem like everyone ish fallin ill.. drifting aPart fRom my fRenz.. i didn't waN it tAt wAy... hOpe.. eveRythIng wiLl bE fine... i wAnna sHop wiTh beL~!! iT bEen a long long time.. i shop with her.. peOple mAy think..1 month juz a bEri short time.. aS fOr me.. it bEri long ehhh.. laSt peRson i cHat with todae wAs jia yi~ hAhaz.. tOdae hAb quite a "long" cHat.. rAtHer dEn laSt tiMe.. a HI.. dEn disappear le..

oh weLl ... i bEtter gEt sOme sLEep.. fEeling abit sTrange..

miss yOu gUys sOOOoOooooo mUcHhhhh.. ~~~

2:26 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y

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