Friday, December 31, 2004
it been a few days.... i neber blOg le... kinda lazy... i dun seem to remember much stuff tat happen during the past few days... all i remembered was.. i been unwell fOrr the past few days... haben fever... spenting most of my tiime stayin at home... finally i'm dOne watchin my anime FMA .. zZzZ (^(o.O)^) i sOooOooo lazy tO watch.. tat's why it tOok sUch a lOng time fOrr me to finish watchin... die arh.. i fOrgOrt i watch narutO until wart eps le... geEeez...!! sOooo.. forgetful... sad... >.< ... suppOse to tent at ec later on... but... shOuld i sae all dun wan... or... mOst oF them... well... they also neber keep me inform... sO i decided frOm nOw on nO suggestiOn frOm cHeryl!! neither do i bOther tat much anymOre... you guys also dun wanna plan... in the end gib... last min suggestiOn.. i wOnt bOther to volunteer to do any stuff le... ish mOre than enff... and i hab enff =] make me go all the way to ec... and the rain was like wow!! raining heavily... as if someone bother like tat? cos they are not the one doin it.. yeah.. reach there wen to get permit... actualli dun even need to get one... i realise the weak pOint of tis grOup ... they are sensitive... and... not steady de... ya.. tat all i cOuld sae.. yeah... i didn't kno anything...... until....... my owner.. ken.. sms me... tellin me tat... i was like... wart the hell.. can't you guys make up ur mind earlier... i kinda hate last min stuff ... most of the last min stuff it wont hab a good/happy ending either.. i dunno why.. it always happen.. oh ya.. i juz got a sms from vin.. thank for keepin me update rather den the rest... he was tellin me the goin to bugis ..will be playing a game.. only can spent 20 dollar ..of which 10 is forr the exchange gift.. hahaz.. and i reply him... i spent alot on christmas ... yet i'm not working...!! i kno u guys workin at least gort money lor... but i'm not working... wanna play tis game also play on christmas or wart so eva... i'm like kinda shock tat... playing it on new year eve... ehhh... come to tis... i'm not steady liao!! =x hahaz.. i find it useless... nor will i feel happi about it.. so decided not to go.. i rather not go..and let them sae warteva they wan... rather den go.. they sae not steady ever join in the game ...bla bla bla.. loLz... sOoo... ya.. tat's my plan...
i was fOol....
2:03 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
wAs smsin wiTh hiim all the way.. while he was tokin on the phone with jOs.. meanwhile i was toking to bel on the phone... we settle about her com first... follow by tokin about the sims 2 ~ she was tellin about the cheat code.. etc.. there also alien in sims 2.. hahaz.. i was like shock.. there's alien ? hahaz .. after on... after jos hang off .. i hab a tok with him.. it been a long time since i hab a tok with him le... he ish kinda surprise tat i will call.. i on with him go and watch movie... i slept until 3+ den i woke up... took a shower.. eat my lunch wen over to bell place... jos suppose to go her house and fix her com.. but her sister seem to fall sick.. and she doesn't wan to disturb her sleep .. cos the com in the room.. so i slack at bell house neither do jos can come her house cos he was at gym with SH and ken... woot... first time heard tat ken go gym...miracle manz!! i'm shock!!! am i dreamiin ?? =x hahaz... but also good lar...exercise.. cos he fat fat mahz =x meet vin at bell block.. pass him the vcd... sad he can't watch becos of his leg... later anything happen to his leg... i cannot carry him sia.. i so small size.. >.< ..i sEe the way he walk...i pity him ehhh.. wanted to send him home..but he dun wan... so sad..!! suppose to watch movie with him de..... hope he will recover as soon as possible.. after on wen to eat long john.. meet ken... eveni'm habin fever i still eat LJS =x hahaz.. i dun caRee.. i still eat.. wen home after tat.... hab some misunderstnadin with bell.. kinda sad.. reach home... i juz fall asleep.. cos the feeling was bad... =]
1:05 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
Monday, December 27, 2004
didn't wen homme.. and ton outside.. i juz wiish to feel the breeze and lookin at the starz.. i wiish fOrr miracle .. i juz wanna fOrget the past.. it been a long.. since.. i last wen there.. habin a mix feeling wasn't tat great.. sat on the bench with a long sigh.. struggled through life... it a hard way to walk with.. wonderiin if i could walk back and stay there... i realise nOw.. life wasn't easy.. it complicated..full of sadness and happiness.. certain questiOn with nO reasOn.. why ? why izzit meant to be tat way.. takiin up promises were easy to say.. but... it wasn't easy to do.. ish promises realli meant to be broken ? feeling totally hopeless and trapped.. i didn't want to be the one who kno everything...the truth... i dun wiish to kno.. i juz wiish to hab a childish thiinkin but not the mature thiinkin.. i dun wan anything to happen.. growin up wasn't tat great... holdiin on responsibility.. it hard to face the truth.. and thiink about the future.. tears started flowiin... pretendiin to be happy all the time.. it hurts alot.. its painful.. all i do was to thiink...nothing else..but to thiink... >.< .. depression...i couldn't take the stress anymore... as if i gonna explode anytime.. bottled up feelin and problemz.. tat's wart i always do.. i juz wiish to be alone.. i dun wan to bring sadness into your life.. although i'm afraid of being lonely.. i hab to face it.. punchin ish one of the way to release the pain.. but.. i cant.. no one will ever understand wart's i'm goin through.. i felt so depressed and was contemplating suicide.. it wasn't a good idea neither.. hehheex... all i do was to pray forr miracle.. lord wart hab i done to receive such a meaningless and painful life ? christmas wasn't fun... it painful christmas forr me... howeva i received lots of present... i could see the joy.. in everyone... i felt more sad... why couldn't i be the same.. if i wouldn't kno the truth it will be better...
wishh for miracle..
faded memories..
3:19 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
Saturday, December 25, 2004
tOdAe cHriStmAs wOr.... wEn cOuntdOwn wOr... sAd... nO fiRe wOrks.. >.< ... tOt hAb wOr.. my rOom nOw in a mEss... wRappeRs aNd pResEnt aLl aRounD tHe rOom.... eEeekkk hAb tO cLean uP.. tiS isH bAd... i'm lAzy!!! kOr gOrt mE cHocolaTe ... hE sEem tO knO me =x wEn shOppin wiTh kEn aNd vin... aT bUgis.. aFtEr on... beLl cAtcH uP wiTh Us... wOot! sHe wEar a drEss!! puRple dE .. i aLso weAr purpLe.. =x cOol eHhh.. wEn tO bUy fOrr kEn aNd vIn prEseNt aLtHouGh tHey weRe arOund... bUt jUz bUy fOR tHem.. didn't kNo wArt tO buy... sOooo... wAs likE wondErin... thEy sUggested wAtchEs , shIrt... etC... tHe uSuaL... dEn sUdDenly tOt oF sOmethIng sPecial... yEah... gEt vIn a dOggy.. sincE hE aLwaYs like tO tOuch mY dOggy.. aNd i hint beFoRe... i wiLl gEt him oNe.... =] anD fOrrr kEn.. gEt him a shOes frEshener anD a cOol wArmer... =x sOund liTtle wEird... abit geRly eHhh.. =x bUt i did pUt a ribbon on mY hEad.. aNd gib it tO hiim... aS waRt hE wiShh fOrr.. =] wEeee..aNd wE tOok nEopriint.. tOdae thEy sO stEady sia!! lovEee thEmmm... sOoo mUchh... wEn tO auNt hOuse... yeAh.. receiveD prEsent again... anD my auNt hAb a tOk wiTh me... hAiz.. i dUnn waNn anythIng tO hAppen... hOpe evErything wiLl bE jUz finee... i sEem to bE a biG gEr gEr in my aunt eyes.. yeAh... hAbin fUn wiTh mY cOuz... bUt hAb tO gO oFf mEet my fRenz.. aT cityhaLl.. fOr cOuntdOwn.. yEah.. weN to countdOwn... it's fUn...gEt tO wEar cHrisTmas hAt.. gEt tO spRay =x wEn hOmee aT 1+ am.. aFtEr on..afTer baTh .. etc.. weN ouT mEet kor... untiL..6++ am dEn gO hOmeee... eEek!! yOu mAke my eAr bLeed!!! hUmph.. told yOu tO bEcaRefuL llee... sO cAreleSs of yOu...
eHhhh.... aLan.. sOrrie eHh...cAn't gEt to mEet uP witH u on cHristmAs evE... sOrrie.. i kno u waNted tO celebrAte with me.. anD paSs mE tHe preSent.. meRry cHriStmas tO u..!! hOpee yOu woUld bE hAppy aLwayz... bUt nOt fOrr tHe sAke of me.. bUt fOr tHe sake of yOu kk.. =]
tAkee cAReee...
4:06 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
Friday, December 24, 2004
22 dEc... wEn to wiLd wiLd wEt... wiTh rAchel, vAnus , jit aNd jiA... quIte.. borEd... hahaz.. thE tWo gEr wEn to sEe yAndao.. =/ hahaz.. sAw tIs lifeguArd cAll jOel... wEn tO gEt hIs email.. =x mAke fRenz... =x anD tHe tWo gErz wErE cRazy ovEr him ehh... hE iSh Same aGe as me... wen i tink abOut tAt........ i tink tAt ouR gRoup... tHose guys... sOoo.... -.-" wOot.. i gEt tAnn eHh.. =x fAce keNa sUnbUrn... fAce pink piinK dE... hehEex... zZzz... tAt's aLl fOr tAt dae...
23dEc.. wEn shOppin... wiTh beLl...aNd heR fRenz... wE gEt 3 perSon preSent le... rAch , vAn , aNd jOs de... stiLl dunno gEt wArt fOr kEn aNd vin... wEeeEeee... tOdae... cHristmAs eve le!! wEeee.e.... sOon...chrIstmaS... sO fAst... time paSses sO fAst~~!!! haiz.. dUnno cAn gO out anot.. wondEr cAn i snEak out? or can i dun gO ... hAiz~ i dun wan kEna nAg eHhHhhhh...!! haiz.. finaLly...kOr iSh...bAck... .. i'm hAppi.. wEeee.. bUt.... i hAbEn kNo tHe wHOle Story yEt.... =x -yAwn.. kOr dUn aLlow mE To slEep eHhh... hOw eHhh..buLly mE... sObz..
2:48 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
wOot..2 morE dAes tO cHriStmAs~~ wEeEeeee.... cHriStmAs iSh cOmin.. finaLli gEt beLl pResEnt Le... gEt tO knO 4 nEw frenz.. thEy aRe frieNdly.... sO .. i'm like okie wiTh it.. aFTer gET bELl pResEnt wEn...tO mEet beLl, kEn aNd jOs... thEy aLsO shOppin fOrr cHriStmAs pResEnt.. hAhaz..~~!! wE waLk waLk waLk... aT bUgis.. afTer on bUgiS viLlage...aNd tHen wE waLk aLl tHe waY tO citYhaLl .... tHe precious mOment iSh cUte.. thE cHrisTmas trEe gOt ligHt de =x mUhahAz... aFtEr tAt.... wEn oN tO mEet gAb aNd hiS freNz.. wEn tO hAb mY suPpEr.... afTer tAt hAb sOmmEee cRap.... afTer hIs fRenz sEnd mE hOmme.. wOot.. bike!! =x aLthOugh jUz gEt tO kno hIm tOdae... hehEex....
hAiz.. stiLl hAb tO gEt fOrr tHe rEst..... jUz hOpee tAt kOr wiLl bE finEe... =]
1:08 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
evErything juz sEem to bE meAningleSs... aLl yOuu wanted isH juz sAdneSs! nOthIng eLse.. bUt juz sAdneSs aNd tEars in mE... i hAtee yOuu bEing like tis!! wHy... wHy muz yOuu bE like tis.. aNd it aLwaYs eNded uPp tiS way! it's all a lie.. yOu sAid yOuu wiLl maKe mE hAppi... bUt... iT sEem to bE anothEr wAy rOund! iSh tiS wArt yOuu wAnna sEe mE sUffEr fRom ? iT nEbEr bE tHe sAme again~ leAve me aLone.. i hAb eNouGh oF it... onE bY one...
-dEprEssion-
tHe sTArz fiLled wIth tEars =<
2:36 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
dUn wiSh tO hUrt anYonE eLse again.. i jUz wAn evEryoNne tO bE hAppi.. i dUn wAnn tO briing sAdneSs intO pEopLe liFe.. iF i'm reaLli a bUrdEn.. i guEss.. i sHall leAve.. i hAtee tHe wOrd " luRbE" dOes aNybOdy reali knO.. wArt's luRbe? dOes lUrbE reaLli bRing pEople liFe intOo sAdneSs or hAppinEss?? wHy dO pEoplE faLl in lOvE tAt easiLy.. iSh luRbE reaLli sO sTroNg tAt caNn reaLli cHangE a pErsOn lifE ? o.O wHy dO peOple stiLl wAnna faLl in lOvee yEt tHey kNo tHey gOnna gEt hUrrt dEeply.. wEn iT bRoke upp.. hUman aRe wEird.. tHey knO iT gOnnA hUrrt..yEt tHey stiLl cHooSe tHe pAthh... dOes lOvEe reaLli bRiing pEopLe hAppinEss tOo? wArt ish tHe meAning of " happineSs" ... ? i dUnno wArt tHe mEaning of it.. and i dun wiisH tO kno.. knOwing tHe hApinEss isH aLsO painfuL... wEn yOuu tInk abouT tHe past ..tHe hAppy mOmEnts yOuu hAb....aNd yOuu wOuld wOndEr wHy wOuld iT eNded uP tIs wAy.. i jUz waNna kno tHe bAd mEmoRies.. kNowing tAt i hAb haPpy meMoriEs mAke mE mOree sAd.. i juz waNna bE sAd.. bUt nOt mOree sAd.. sTeppin intO a reLatiOnshiip wOuldn't bE tAt easy As wArt i Tot.. iT hUrt.. iT's sUffEriing.. hAbin a rElatiOnshiP iSh reaLli so gOod ? ? o.O wArt sO gReat aBouT it... i stiLl dUn undErsTand.. wHeRe iT eNded.. tHe saMe.. sOmeDay.. iT wiLl stiLl bReak uPp.. wArt's tHe pOint? bEing tOgEtheR? i rAtHer bE frEnz... aNd sTay As fRenz fOreVer.. raThEr dEn hAbin a rElationsHip.. dEn migHt lEads yOu tO enEmy aFteR bReakin oFf.... iT enFf fOrr mE tO hUrt aLot oF peOple le.. i dUnn wisH tO dO tAt again.. ~ i dUn wiSh tO sEe tHe tEars flOwiin.. i dUn wAn tO bRing sAdneSs intO ppL liFe.. dOes tRue lOvEe reaLli exist? o.O iT nOt tHe maTtEr oF hOw lOng yOuu bEen tOgEThEr... iSh hOw hAppy.. yOu bE tOgeTher.. aNd NeBEr bRing sadnEss intO hAppineSs... ? aRe yOu reaLli hAppi wiTh yA reLatiOnship..even iT laSt tAt lOng? o.O wHyy dO mOst gUy gO fOr appeArancEe!! iZzit sO impoRtant ? tHe wOrLd iSh sOo complicAted.. iT sOoo hArd tO uNdErsTand.. lUrbE iSh a wOrd.. tAt nO onE cAn expLain... tHeRe's nO reAson... iF iT cAnn bE expLain...dEn isH nOt caLled lUrBee..........
1:17 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
Monday, December 20, 2004
time sEem to past so fast... every now and tHen.. ish changing.. hOw wiish i couldd cHange my past.. i wAs wOke uP by himm.. again~!! but ish ok.. i dunn miind ... eEeek.. my mUm hUrt my eAr.. iT was like bleEdin.. >.< .. pain wor!! iT wAs sO pAin until i cRied!! like one of a kind? =x sObz.. bUt i wAs hAppi hE wAs tHeRe tO consoLe me... hE gavE mE a hUg.. afTer dEn wEn tO mEet beLl... i'm sUppose tO accOmpany hEr tO scHoOl tO paSs uP tHe foRr fOrr 5n.. bUt i sEem to bE late.. sO sHe wEn tO sCh fiRst lAteR on sHe mEet me.. i mEet hEr At aRound... 3.30.. afTeR tAt wEn tO orcHard~ i kno wArt tO bUy fOr hEr le.. for hEr chriStmas pResent.. hehEex... i tink i gOnna bUy hEr a mUsical bOx? o.O i guEss sOooOooo... i wEn TO tHe sHop Again..cHeck ouT tHe priCe oF tAt pen... dAmn... it wAs expeNsive mAhz.. i didn't eXpeCt tO rEceiEvEd SuCh an expEnsiVe giFt!!! it cOst... 370.. sOmehOw.. i juz fEel like rEtuRn iT tO hiim.. i aLsoo didn't kno... wHy mUz hE sPent sO mUchh.. tOo rich.. nTh eLse bEtter to sPent on? =x ehhh.. bUt tAt niTee wAs sCary.. i didn't expect to tUrn oUt tIs wAy!! sHouLdn't hAb mEet himm.. kinda regRet.. i wOnderr hOw hE fEel~~ kOr ..!! tAt tiime u sHould hAb cOmee eArlier mAhz!!! dEn iT wouldn't hAppen le~!!!!! nEbEr come sAve me...
beLl wAs like sHock tOo..... wEn sHe sEe tHe price.. yeAhx!! afTer on...wE wEn on wAlk walk ~~ walk anD walk.. untiL i sO tired!! wEeeEeeee... i sAw tIs ring.. iSh sOooOooo nicee.. cOuple riing~~ iT cos about 950+ a pair.. wHoevA gOnna bE mY nExt bF!! i'm sUrree tO bUy tAt riing!! wOot~~ =x i wAnn tAt ring.. iSh nicEee ehhh... hehEex.. afTer tAt aCcompany beLl tO sOme comic sHop.. sHe iSh kindA cRazy...aBout cOmic.. bUy and bUy... nOnstOp ehh..dEn aFter tAt waNna rEst wEn tO sOme fOodcOurt...whiLe wE standiin tHeRe...bell wAs packiing hEr stUff... gOrt tIs gUy cOmin tOwards uS aNd wAnted tO aSk fOrr nUmBer.. aNd jUz in time wE wAlk off .. aNd wEn tO tHe fOodcOurt.. aNd tHe gUy.. didn't Ask le.. mUhahahaz..i was like hEng manz!!! gUys Are sCary! i wAs like kinda bored lookin at hEr... readin hEr cOmic... aT tHe same tiMmee.. i wAs sMsing my "dEar" .. loLz.. hE sms mE aT tHe rIte tImme... sOoo.. i wEn on... disturbin him aS usual... hE mUz bE kinda bOred.. wOrkin.. aFtEr on... aLaN sMs mE tOoo.. anYwAy hE iSh kinDa cAriing..sOo i wAs like ...bUsy sMsiin... tAt's aLl forr tOdaee...
kOr arHh!!!! wEn wiLl u bE bAckk!! cAn fAstEr comE bAck anot... i gonna bE aNgry le manz =x sAd..nEbEr cOntAct me tOooOooo.. fOrgEt me le mahz?? o.O next tIme u cAnnot sTep out oF sg again hOr!!! or eLseee ... i puNch aRh.. =x -tHrEatEn-
`- [FB] hAtee mE aLl yOu wAnn.. i dUn giB a dAmn wArt i hAb dOne tOwArds yOuu... tAt's wArt u sUppoSe tO gEt.. ! wArt kinDa of lifE yOuu hAbin nOw.. isH nOt my fauLt! yOuu dEsErvEe it! yOuu sTep ovEr mE.. tIs iSh wArt u gEt! sTep ouT oF my wAy..
11:55 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
i will never forget the dayys we once had.
the days when yOuu were everything to mee.
my mind used to tell mee datt we'd be together foreverr.
budd now i realize daat was all a big dream.
which makes myy heart shatters` into a milli0n pieces.
ii sometimes wonder if y0uu,
still thhink of mee and lurvbbee mee
or if to do i'm jus a face in a crowd.
i wish so very much dat one daee we can have it all back.
but for now, i sit here silently rememberinn'
all the memoriies we once shared.
hoping dat one day yOuu will feel the same
and put back the pieces of mii broken heart*.
yuur existence is wad makes mine.
now.
if love is painful and tortures us so.. why do we love?
why is it all we search for in life?
theres pain, this agony?
why is it all we long for?
this torture,this powerrful death of self?
maybe because its lurrve ....
3:10 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
wOot... aNotHer dayy gOnee... >.< .. lATer... gOin oUt wiTh beLl... mEet hEr aT tPy.. dEn gO sChoOl..~ iT bEen a lonG time le... =x i hAte tAt sCh.. tAt bitCh! =x mUhahahahaz.. wEeee.. i miSs bELl sO mUch... hMmm.. i tiNk oN wEd.. gOin tO "www" .. =x mAybe nahz... sIncE rAcHel waNna gO.. hehExex.. nOthing mUch tOdae.. sTay aT hOmee... kinDa bOred tOo... hAhaz.. tAt jOs kinDa cUtee aLso... dUnno wHy hiS voIce.. evErydAee cHangEee dE.. =x iSh mY hEaring gOrt pRob oR hiS vOice gOrt prOb? mUhahahz... tOdAe hE gOrt a girLy vOicE!! yEahz.. tAt's him " pRincEss gAy" tAt's wArt i likE tO cAll him.. bUt i gUeSs hE hAte mE cAllin taT.. kOr iSh cOmin bAck..on.. tUe.. hAiz.. aSk him dUn sTep ouT oF sg.. hE stiLl wEnt.. sAded!! >.< ..
i'm stiLl wOndErring.. wArt tO gEt fOrr cHristmas prEsent.. hAiz.. nEbEr wOrk.. nO mOneY.. i aLso dUnnno wArt to bUyy!!!! i gOnnA finD a jOb sOon.. i nEeda wOrk.. oN jAn~! tiNkk aBoUtt mOnEy... hEadaChe eHhhh...!!! i wann tO gEt mY lAppy!! aS sOon aS possible!! mUhahahaz.. nExt tIme cAn tRavel wiTh it =x
x]- mOod ` cOnfuSe
2:34 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
Sunday, December 19, 2004
jUz cAme bAck fRom m'sia.. kiNdA tIred... zZzz..wAnted to bLog.. wEn i'm in msiA.. but..... i cOuldn't pubLisH my pOst .. dAmn it..
hAiz... gOt lOst in msia.. yEt i hAb to leAd tHe bLoOdy wAy... wA lao~~ hAhaz.. i tOt iT wiLl bE fUn... bUt it eNdeD sO boring.. fiRst dAy iSh a rest dAy... foLlowed by tHe nExt dAy... eArly mOrning wAke mE up gO tHeme pArk pLay...iT wAsn't tAt fUnn... =x dEn on tAt night i wAs sUrfin the nEt uSing thE tV =x cOol arh? tv sUrf nEt... i tell mysElf i nEeda gEt a bLoody laPtop~! =/ weLl... i jUz nEeda gO online.. hehEex.. i wAsn't fEeling tAt weLl whiLe playing ... i fOrce myseLf tO plAy... Zzz.. dEn i complain.. tO them not fUn de... hOw wiIsh... i came wiTh my fRenz inSteAd oF mY paRent.. tAt wiLl bE bEtTer... i wiLl aT lEast enjoYz.. aT niTe wEn sHopping.. bUt..tHeY dUn aLlowed mE tO sHop mysElf oR go laN sHop... wA laO.. i wAn uSe cOm mahz... cOs i tOo bAd untiL i miSs my cOm cOm.. >.< .. nOt aT iF.. i wiLl gEt lOst liKe tAt.. hAiz.. wAntEd tO sHop fOr cHriStMas pResEnt de.. bUt i can't? .. >.< .. cAn't finD tHe puRple sHirt fOr u... hAiz... wEn tO tIs animE sHop.. wAnted tO fInd cHobits sOundtRack.. tOt i cOuld gEt oNe tHeRe.. bUt.. dUn hAb.. sOoo sad.. tOt cAn gEt tHAt fOrr beLl... Haiz~!!! sAd.. tHeRe onLy gOt yAndAo nO chiObU =x
dEn tHe next dAe.. thEy Wen... to times sqUare.. thE taxi sO coOl... bEri comfOrtAble... wEn tHeRe.. whiLe tAking tHe liFt.. tHeRe iSh tIs two gEr kEpt lOokin aT mE likE onE of a kinDa.. thEir dReSsin iSh kinDa wEird... tOo cOmplicateD le.. =x tHeY sEem like.. As iF tHey bEri prEttY like tAt? =x bUt wHo cAres!! hAhaz.. i'm bAck to singApore!! wOot.. fIrSt tHing wEn tO tHe tHemE paRk aNd take a loOk.. wEeee... i tot iT gOnna bE fUn.. bUt eHhh.. wEn play... le.. not tAt sCary as wArt i tOt.. iT's jUz nTh ? loLz...gEntiNg mOre fUn.. hOw wiiSh i wiLl gEt tO mEet yOu tHeRe aGain.. i plaYed untiL weN giddy.. lOlz... plaYed tOooo mUchh... afTer tAt i rEceiVed a caLl ... i miSs him.. aFtEr tAt.. i cAll bEll.. hAhaz.. i'm gaLd tAt eVErybOdy wEn up to 5n.. gEt a cHancE to tok to tHem one by one... sOooo.. happy!! hehEex... i fEel sO hAppy fOrr tHem.. jUz can't wAit tO cElebRate wiTh tHem...
woOt.. tHe foUrtH dAy... wEn miSsing... i hAb tO hElp tHem to lEad tHe wAy.. dOtz.. >.< .. aS if i kno likE tat... hahaz.. wEn We reach JB wAs about evEning time.. wEn to hAb a litTle sHop..aNd wEn tO hAb ouR dinNer.. yum yUm... =x aftEr tAt wEn homEe le~~~!! yEah..... !!!
aLways sTep on tHe riTee paTh.. oR eLse u wiLl rEgRet.. aNd iT nEbEr bE tHe sAme again...
1:22 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
4 days 3 nitez chalet... first and sEcond dAy... bBq.. i dun rEalli rEmEmBer mUch aBoUt tHe chalet.. gOrt sHort term mEmory.. loLz.. fiRst dAy.. gET kEy fRom kor.. wEn tO shOppin.. tO white sAnds..afTer tat.. oNe by onE..sTart cOmin... dUring thE nite.. aFter eAting maGgie.. wEn tO mEet kor.. for a walk.. wEn to thE playgRound.. wEeeEee... =x slaCk awhiLe.. i wEn bAck tO tHe cHalet aNd sLp.. sLp aT thE dOor tHeRe.. iT's cOld!!! .. i didn't eXpeCt aLan... tO bE thErE tOo.. aLamak.. vAnus sAy hE likes me .. dotz.. i dun bElieve.. bUt isH trUe.. aiyooo.. tis time i gonna bE dEad again...
nexT dAy.. in afTernOon..finAlly goRt tHe bEd tO slp..afTer tHe bbQ.. i drInk e33 ..and pUked... dUnno wHy aLso .. lOlz.. whiLe on thE wAy bAck to tHe cHalet.. i pUncH and pUnch.. mUhahahaz.. it doesn't hUrt.. cOs.. i dunno.. loLz.. i did wEn to find kor... on thE wAy bAck..it wAs rAinin...
3rD dAy... wE planned to gO escApe.. i gOt fRee ticket.. =x... in the eNd nEber.. bEcoS of sOmee ... misuNdersTanding.. yEah.. it reALli hUrt.. WEn tHe pain cOmee again.. tiS timEe isH wOrst... i wAs cRying in pAin.. tHank gOd.. nObOdy wEn to tHe rOom... wE hAb pizza... fOr our dinnEr!! i'm sUppose tO mEet kor aT plaYground... but i fall aSlEep.. aNdd..... =x hehEez..
4th dAy... jOs caLL me.. i open tHe dOor fOrr him.. anD slept aT tHe sTairCase.. cOs tHe rooM isH tOo cOld..!!! afTer vin wAke uP.. i wEn to thE rOom.. and slp.. thEre goes my alarm at 10.15 =x 10.30 suppose tO cHeck ouT.. i toO laZy le eHhh... wE packeD up ouR stUfff... dUring tHe eveNing..wEn tO wAtch mOvie..i sAw oshi aT ps!! bloOdy hEll... so sUay! hEng hE didn't sAw me.. i goin to mAlaysia sOon....
1:17 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
Thursday, December 09, 2004
jUz finiShin tOkin tO jOs.. >.< .. hE buLly mE.. dOesn't wAn mE tO hAng oFf... weLl.. yeAhz.. i hAte ppL liE tO mE.. i hAtee liaR.. i dUn nEed expLainatiOn.. =] cOol.. i gEt tHe dEal oFf... sOon i wiLl gEt mysElf intO depReSsion agaIn... anD hurt hUrt hUrt... =x mUhAhahaz.. i misS dOin tAt~!~ wEeeEEeee... i dUn nEed aNybOdy tO cArEeee.. jUz hEck cArEee..~ i jUz waNn tO bE aLonEe.. aLl aLone... by mysElf.. i hAb enFf oF knOwingg tHe tRuth fRom evEryoNee.. i dUn waN tO knO.. aNd i dUn waN tO hEar aNymOre.. aLwaYs rEmembEr " iF yOu cAn't eVeN cAre aBoUt urseLf , dUn evEn bOthEr tO cArEe aBout sOmeoNe eLsE" .... kNowiin tOo mUch iSh nOt gOOd .. >.< .. i jUz waNna sTep intO a wOrld oF mine~! jUz mE aNd tHe sTarz.. =x i wOnt evEr prOmisE aNyoNe again... cOs prOmisEs aRe mEant tO bE bRokEn... oR eLSe iT isn't cALled " prOmise" ... bRokEn pRomisEs wiTh sAdneSss , hUrt , teArs ...
2:36 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
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anOthEr cOolin dAy... iT bEen rAinin fOrr tHee pAst fEw dAys.. cOs iTs ... dEc ~! rAiniNg sEason.. thE weAtHEr iSh sO dAmn gReAt...~! eArly mOrning wOke uP by rOy.. aNd i sLept bAck =x tOo eXhaUstEd le... bUt in thE eNd stiLl wOke uP bY him agAin.. fOrcE tO wAke uPpp.. *yaWnn* yEah.. i bEen leArnin.. anD leArning.. i faLl on my heAd.. pain.. >.< ... i jUz cAn't imaginE onEe dAy i go uNcOnsCioUs... aNd wEn i wAke up.. i lOst aLl my memOriEs... tat sOund gReat isn't iT? =x i waNna leArn bReakdAnce.. aNd of cOs hIphOp tOoooOooo!! zZzz sOoo mAni stuFf tO caTcH uPppPPpp....
waNted tO gO ouT wiTh bELl in tHE eVening de.. but... wE pLan le...bUt sOmehOw sHe sEem tO fOrgEt aBout me... neBEr minD.. Eeek tOkin aBout hEr.. sHe juz callled me!!! omg.. isHhh...like so laTe le...dEn rEmembEr about me..
tOdAe iSh dAdddyy biRtHdAe... sOoo hAppi.. tO sEe hIs smiLe again.. whiLe i grEeted him... yuM yUm.. tOdAe eAt goOd fOod.. sEafOod.. =x mUhhahahaz..!! cRab of coss...!! =p bLeAhx..
jUz nOw cALl kOr.. hE didn't picK uP.. dUring tAt mOmEnt sOmehow i jUz tiNk tAt... i sHouLdn't caLl... cOs i knO hE wOnt pick up ? o.O yEah.. aFter awhiLe hE gib mE a sMs... i aLsO dUnnoo whyy ehh.. i dun fEel like rEPly him... i fEel bEri dOlefuL... kinDa dOwn forr nOw... i wAs hoping fOr him to caLl insTead a sMs.. weLL mAyBe hE can't cALl aS wArt hE sAe...hiS phOne biLl... sOmehOw hE juZ diSappear to nO whEre... w/o aNy news... reaLli sEem so dIff... i guEss u muZ bE bEri hAppi bEing thE wAy u aRe now? loLz..
i wiish foRr a cHange.. i wiish fOrr a miracle.. i dUn wAnn tO kNo thE tRuth... i haTee kNowingg tHe tRuth.. wHy mUz i bE tHe oNe.. wHo aLwAys finD oUt tHe truTh... =] timmee foRrr puNcHin... laTer on.. mUhAhahaz..! =x
i hOppe tHe pain wOnt cOmmee aggainn.. i dUn wAnn fEel taT wAy.. iT's paiNfuL.. >.< .... it's nOt eAsiLy tO bAreEeee...
1:09 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
cOoling dAy... feLl qUite a nUmBer oF timEs... hAiz.. my aSs fLat lE ehh..~!! bUt bO biaN.. =x sOoo hAppy... finaLly tOok oUt mY bLoody eArsTuds le~~ aNd cHange to eArstiCks.. bETteR ehh... bUt bLeEdin =x insidE tWo eArstIcks.. hehEex.. hMmm.. i wAtch fMa tiLl ePs 41 le... !! wOot~ cOnsidEr bEri fAst le =x nOt mUch tHing fOr tOdae.. bEll caLl me!! hehEex.. sHe sAE wHy tiS fEw dAy cAnnot cOntAct me.. wELl .. mAyBe i diSapPeAr? loLz... wEeee... tmL gOnna gO oUt wiTh hEr.. i gOnna sHop sHop agAin... sinGaporE sOoOooo smaLl likE nOthIng mUch tO sHop aLso... hehEEz..
i wiSshh.. tO gO ovErsEa.. wHeRe dUring tHe niGht i cAnn sEe lOts oF sTarz.. sO sAd siNgaporE sO feW sTarz nAhz! singApore tOo bigHt tO sEe.. tAt's teAcheR sAe de.. hehEex.. i aLso cAnnot gO ovErsEas... cos...!! i hAbEn reAch 21 =x sad sAd.......
10:30 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
wOot.... nicEe weAtHer... jUz finiSh rAinin... isH cOolinggg.... =] hehEex.. jUz bAth.. whicH mean i jUz wOke uP nOt lOng aGo.. weLl tiS timme nOt jOs wOke mE up =x hehEex.. yeStErdAe wAs fUn... iT bEen a lOngg timE i fEel likE tAt again.. tHe fEeling wAs gReat.. iT bEen a lOng time i fEel tAt hAppy bEfOre... weN ouT wiTh R anD V .. bEfOre tAt i mEet R aNd gAb firSt.. wEn i sEe gAb i aLwAys wAnted tO tAke a rIde on hiS cAr =x mUhAhAhaz.. whiLe wAitin fOr hiS tRain.. i sAw.. tHem!!! =x hehEex.. R iSh kindA sHock.. loLz... wEn i kNo tHem.. hehEex.. aFter tAt wEn tO mEet V... tHey wEn sHoppin wiTh me... wOot.. =x .. kinDa bRoke le.. R injuRed hiS haNd... hAb a dEep cUt.. i wAs sO woRried~!.. >.< .. iT kEpt oN blEedin... iT pAinfuL ... bUt i cOuld stiLL sEe hiS smiLe.. hE stiLl cAn jOke aRound.. weLl.. i guEss.. hE jUz waN mE tO bE hAppy.. hOw wiiSh iT wiLl bE likE tAt fOreVa... hehEex... V iSh kindA cUte =x i likE tO distUrb himm.. wEeee....laTer gOin out again...gOin to shOp again ? =x muHahaz... sEem like... bEing soLo aLsO nOt tAt bAd ? hehEex... i shaLl rEmain like tis.. untiL i reaLli fInd tHe oNe.. i stiLl miSs him.. kindA reGret... tAt i didn't aCcept himm.. >.< .. i fEel bEri guiLty.. fOr tELling a wHite lie.. i didn't wAn tO hUrt himm.. bUt i stiLl cOuldn't fOrgEt tAt incident... alThougH iT quIte lOng ago.. wEll.. i gUess he hAtes mE.. bUt iTs ok.. iT my fauLt tO trEat him in a wAy likE tAt..
weLL.. i guEss from nOw on.. my lIfe HAb chAnge... intO a bEri diFf peRson tOo ? cOs tOo mAni hAppeninG le... >.< .. aNd iSh aLl bAd de... eEeeek!! hAiz.. boTtled uP isH stiLl tHe bEst wAy.. tAt's mE...
1:47 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
Monday, December 06, 2004
*yaWn* jUz wOke uP bY jOs.. heheEx... i miSs jAckjAck.. =x i tinKk my cOuz wiLl knO waRt i mEann... =p bLeAhz.. jAckjAck isH totaLly cUtee!! zHu wEn cAn wE gO oUt agAin arH ? o.O i miSs thOse cRazy daYs wE hAd =x iT's fUn.. yOu gUys rOx~! zHu...swiMm mOree kk..aS wArt dOctoR sAe =x mUz tAkEe cARee..
jOs arHh... call mE jUz tO aSk tHe cHaleT stUff.. And u dUn eveN kno wHere iZzit!! yOu aRhhh..!! *bish biShh* yEah.. mY bAg gOnna bE hEavy.. !! i nEeda find a bAg laTer... tO fit eVeRythIng in.. i gOnna bRing piLlow~!!! =x hehEEx.. yEah.. laTer gO sHop sHop again.. Zzz.. sO sAd nEbEr wOrk.. nO mOnEy =x
eEeek... my nOse bLeed aGain.. bLoOdy heLl =x !! cAn't it jUz stOp bLeEdin~!! i'm siCk oF it ...
2:18 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
zZzz.. (-.-) tiRing dAy.. hELpin jOs wiTh hiS bLoGgEr... aLsO dUnno wHy sUdDenLy hE wAnts a bLoGgEr.. loLz.. iT niCee... i likE tHe bLog hE hAb... hehEex... =]
wEn oUt wiTh beLl tO orChArd sHoPp~!! iT bEen a lOng tiimE sincE wE lAst sHop... sHe jUz cAme bAck frOm tHai.. anD sHe bOugHt mE sOmetHing.. anD sHe fOrgOt tO tAke oUt tHe pRice tAg =x hehEex... tAt sHow hOw bLur sHe iSh... tAt's wHy sHe gOt tHat bLur lOok.. hehEex.. sHe cHangE tHe wAy sHe dRessed.. sHe sEem mOre gurLy aFteRaLl.. i pRefEr hEr wiTh hEr pErm hEr .. sUits hEr.. sHeEeee lOookkk sWeEeeEEt.. wEn out aNd boUght sOme cLothEs fOr tHe m'siA triP .. >.< .. i gOnna miSs eVeRyoNee.. beLl yOuu wiLl aLwAys bE my cLosE buDdy.. fOreVer... i dUn wAn yOuu tO hAb hAb tAt kindA tHoughts agaIn... i fEel bEeri sAd wEn u fEel tAt wAy.. i dUn wAnn yOu tO fEel tAt way.. i wiLl aLways bE tHeRe... =]
[ frEnz fOreVa ]
i'm lOokin fOrward fOr thE cHalet.. dUn diSappOint mEe... hOpe tiS cHaleT wiLl bE bEtter ? o.O
12:00 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
Saturday, December 04, 2004
i reAlli duN unDeRsTand...
evErytHing sEem sO diFf
i hAtEe mysElf..
i haTe tHOse iLlnEss
i hAte thOse unhAppinEss
i jUz wAn tO bE aLone
u wOnt unDerStand
i jUz wAn a wOrld of mine
i dUn nEed cAre
eVerYthIng sEem sO dIff
i hAte tO kNo tHe trUth
i dUn wAn tO fAcEe it
eVeRythIng gOnna bE fIne
nEbEr rEgrEt.. wEn u lOse yOur cHancEs...sOmehow... i miss pUnchin..=x hehEex.. it bEen a lonG time.. loLz...i hAb tO tEll to myseLf bE sTrong! i sTiLl hAb tO gO oN wiTh life! yEah tAt it~!
11:56 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
wEeee... i dYe my hAir le... =x mY mUm didn't sAe much... hEng aRhh.. jiA laT ehh.. iT bEen fEw dAys le.. nosE bLeed =x i tinK i sEe tOo mucH 'pOrn' loLz..... untiL nosE bLeed =x hehEex.. rEcently taT jOs aRh..... kEep on disTurb me.. onE dAy i wiLl tEach him a leSson.. ZZz.. oh ya... i wiLl kEep my wOrds definely! i wOnt bOthEr aBoUt yOu aNymOre... i wiLl minD my oWn busiNess.. hehEex... i sAe it..aNd i reAlly meAn it... =] .. diD kOr cHange ? o.O jUz wonDerin..hE sEem sO diFf... aM i thInkin tOo mUch? weLl....i dUnno juz lEt it bE.... kOr i kno u wiLl bE reading tis sOmehOw... i'm tELlin yOu wE aRe like drifTing aPaRt~! iSh Tat wArt yOu wAn =] well.... i gUess sOo... tiS isH it~! yOu aLwAys like tO sae tHing tAt i dun like... i dUn unDersTand... nOr dO tHings ...tAt i dislikE~!! wEeee...anyWay i wanna tHank u fOrr eVeRything.. evEryThIng hAb iT's eNding... hehEez... dUn aSk me cHeck up aGain eh... i hatE doc.. u kno... blOod tEsT?? worSt =x lOLz... dUn wOrry aBout.. mE.. u wAn u wOrry AbouT uRsElf fiRst.. okie? hehEex.. aNywAy sOrrrii....
11:31 PM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
wEee... jUz cAme bAck fRom mOvie... wiThout a pADdle .. kinDa laTe eHh... bUt i fEel likE sTaying oUtsidE lonGer.. tOt oF gOin EC~! sOmehOw i miSs tAt pLace... bUt dUn dUn sEem tO bE tHe riGht tiMing... hehEex..!! tHe sHow iSh fUnni~! wEll.. i hAte tAt fEeling... iT sEem tO bE in thE wRong timee =x bUt nEber mind! i aLwaYs tAt sTrong cHeryL =x eHhh.. reAch hOme nOsE bLeed .. =/ .. zZz... i jUz wiisHh thE fEeling wiLl nOt bE tHeRe again..
wOot ~! tHe cAmp wAs fUn... 3 dAys Camp... in cHargE oF games wAsn't tAt eAsy as i tOt ? hehEex... sO fUn.. thE kiDs ovEr tHerE sEem tO likE mE =x bUt sO of cOs dislikE eHh... hehEex.. aNd yeAh... tHe fEeling wAs gReat wEn tHe paRent aCtuaLly tHank mE.. =] .. iT bEen a loNg timEe i fEel tAt wAy.. aNd oF cOs i wiLl nEber fOrgEt tHem..i wiLl sEe tHem nExt yEar..
2:05 AM`wiish.upon.a.fallin.star; unforgotten.Y
