Saturday, April 09, 2011
I recall the time back in Primary School and early Secondary School. An introverted period. I kept a lot to myself, disclosed little to little people. Not much friends, pretty much spent a lot of time alone. In my early secondary school days, I started developing the mindset that I was different from others. That I could see from perspectives that people weren't able to. I developed an arrogance, a way of deceiving myself perhaps, to tell myself that it's only natural that things happen like that, created a pedestal for myself. Possibly a mindset of consolation....
However, I realised that before my primary school days, I was still pretty much an active kid who ran around carelessly, extroverted, maybe a little too much? Some of the other kids had an impression that I was a weird kid. But somewhere along the line. I changed?...
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You Choked.
2:35 AM
Saturday, April 02, 2011
I HATE MYSELF!!!
FUCK OFF AND GO TO HELL!
YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE A FUCKING ELITE!
FUCKING DISAPPOINTMENT!!!
Drinking alone sucks.... )=
You Choked.
3:44 AM
No one to talk to.
No one to share.
Will I be all alone?
You Choked.
2:52 AM
My dad likes to tell me that if a place is not treating you well, why bother? We ought to be able to find places which accept and appreciate us as ourselves.
If only shit were this simple. Perseverance is a myth.
FUCK THIS SHIT FUCK THIS SHIT FUCK THIS SHIT FUCK THIS SHIT.
Bitch. Go run your mouth of you fucking two-faced faggot.
Go on a mad rage rampage and break down and cry after there's nothing left.
I don't need anything...
Maybe I really knew better back in the day where interacting or making friends weren't as important...
Where's that confidence? Where's that indifference?
Who are you now?
Fucking weak faggot.
You Choked.
12:49 AM
