exam rants

my exams have not ended yet ): this is such a torturous process. & my hair is dropping at a speedy rate. i realised even those undamaged hair are also dropping T.T

anw i have been wondering why i am so not motivated to study. i found the answer through 犀利人妻. in the ep that i just watched, 安真 transformed from a typical housewife to an elegant & mature woman who knows fine dining & fashion. she read books & memorised dining etiquette in a short time frame. so what allowed her to achieve that? i believe it was probably the thought of gaining back her husband that gave her the motivation.

so when i look back on my marketing & risk notes, i ask myself, what is the motivation?

i actually enjoy the content of both modules. i think they're very relevant in understanding more abt businesses & their processes. but wanting to get A doesn't give me enough motivation to put my all into studying for these modules. & bcos i'm very contented with my gpa (although it's actually not very good), i calulated that even if i get B+ for both mods i'll still be able to maintain my current gpa. lol.

so i am very not motivated. i need to find some strong reason to enable me to focus while studying, & if possible, to actually enjoy studying. i still have one more yr to go. i don't want to repeat this same agony another 2 times.

also i realised this sem's exam period is the longest i've ever endured. Y1S1's exam period was 6 days, Y1S2's was also 6 days, & last sem (Y2S1) was 13 days. & this sem is 12 days. haha okay i just realised last sem is longer. but last sem no count. cos last sem i was stressed to the brim alr i rmb after tax exam i was just relieved that sch exams were over & i cld concentrate on dip exams. so last sem i actually didn't do my best, or i should say, i allowed myself to not do my best. haha.

so now i actually have sufficient time but i can't bring myself to study whole-heartedly. it's like sometimes i read the tb without understanding & then once i realise i have to re-read again.

okay. 4 days left. i can do this. rambling makes me feel better. back to studying!! :D

first day of exam

i don't like the new blogger layout!! it looks like googledocs. lol. so it makes me feel like i'm doing project, cos for this semester i have been using googledocs to do projects for 3 of my core modules. ahaha.

anyways, today is first day of exam, and i cleared 2 out of 5 papers! ^^ i'm happy bcos the paper that i'm most worried about has been over and done with. i can't gauge how well i wld do for the paper, bcos actually i didn't really exactly understand the instructions of some questions (the setter of the paper uses chim english :O). and for some 7 or 8 marks questions they had several requirements and i didn't cover all so i dunno how much out of the 8 marks i wld get. but i can safely say that i did my best (:

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usually i wld go on a hiatus one month before my exams. hiatus as in i wld ban myself from going to twitter, fb & blogger. but this time round i didn't! & surprisingly i didn't find the urge to blog. lol. & i realised with or without the hiatus, the amt of time i devote to studying is also the same -.-" okay maybe this sem i spent more time studying bcos i didn't have to practice piano!

but it's so weird. for all my life (except O and A levels), i've had piano lessons even while i was having sch exams. and last semester was the worst bcos i had diploma exams exactly 2 weeks after my last paper. so i had to practice piano while studying. & i felt that i was more productive. somehow i felt i could study better. maybe i work optimally when i have a little bit of stress. lol. but not too much.

actually this sem's exam period quite relaxing. & considering the fact that i have more or less finished revising claw, i think i can start revising mkting and 205 for the next 2 days. and the reason why i have finished claw is bcos last monday we had a 3 hr session where prof tan went through all 6 semesters of past yr papers. so in the process of doing the past year papers (i attempted 5 out of the 6), i covered all of the claw topics alr. hahahaha. so in a way i must thank prof tan! even though t9 classmates say she is not good. lol.

anyway i shall just relax tonight & not think about any academic stuff. now my mind is still filled with neutron stars, black holes, redshifting, rings of saturn, Io (Jupiter's moon), Galileo etc etc etc.

bye!

maggi mee

i'm quite proud of myself, bcos i forgot when was the last time i ate maggi mee, which means it must've been a long long time ago :D

2 days ago, i bought ban mian from the coffeeshop downstairs. ate halfway then realised there was a whole chunk of noodles that wasn't cooked. they were all lumped tgt & i cldn't use the chopsticks to pry them apart. so i used my teeth. once i took a bite, i saw that inside that chunk of noodles was flour :X which means the uncle gave me half-cooked noodles! so i just continued to eat the other ingredients, & thus developed a phobia for ban mian & yu pian mifen, cos they're from the same stall.

so ytd i ate duck rice. & actually, besides ban mian, ypmf & duck rice i don't eat anything else from the coffeeshop, cos i think they're not nice. haha.

so... today i ate maggi mee. & i was in a hurry cos i took v long to decide what i want to eat & only started cooking the maggi mee at 11.30, when i was supposed to leave hse at 12. & i hadn't bathed. but surprisingly, the maggi mee tasted delicious. & this is not the first time i cooked maggi mee in a hurry. but whenever i cook it hurriedly, the taste is great. & perhaps that is why it's called "instant" noodles. if you take ur time to cook it then it loses the "instant" meaning. LOL.