i need to do some self-reflections.

have not been performing up to my expectations this semester. & that makes me v sad cos usually my self-expectations aren't very high.

i failed my 202 midterms with 10/25 when the average was 15.

i know i did badly for 202 excel quiz bcos my figures didn't tally for the 1st qn & i didn't complete the 2nd qn.

& now, i got D for my astro quiz. yes i didn't study a lot, but i thought i wld be able to get at least a B or a C. after the quiz i felt quite confident & i was expecting good results from it.

oh yes. PA also. all my friends have gotten a company, but i'm still going thru the agony of searching and applying for companies, & those that are in the list aren't very fantastic.

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why? my study methods haven't changed since sem 1, why is my performance this semester so not up to standard?

okay maybe i should motivate myself a little. our grp got the highest score in the class for icee proposal, & i personally think our report's really well done, with all the colours & diagrams & borders. prof sarjit also really liked our class presentation on cobit & said we used IT for an IT presentation which was commendable. he also liked our game cos it had some risk learning points.

also, serene says i did quite well for claw presentation cos she cld see my marks.

& although our marketing tutor is biased against us, he didn't really throw a lot of qns at us for our tata presentation, & even said it was well done. and, i think our bonheu will be a much better presentation than tata, cos we really put a lot of effort into it (:

hmms. so it's probably 202 that i need to channel all my effort into. i don't know why i'm not doing well in it. i understand the concepts & for the tutorials that i have done my answers were correct. but why i fail my quiz & screw up excel? i really dunno.

okay, to end my ranting & to not make myself feel so adverse toward 202, i think i should encourage myself more by saying that i think i did well for the mgmt meeting. & our grp did wonderful too, especially when handling the qns posed by the exco & other divisions. all thanks to the many meetings & of cos with the help of lovely chaili :D

haha. what a long post. i guess i really needed to rant cos i've been bottling all these up for quite long. i'm thankful for all the grpmates i've met this sem, & of cos for T9. they're the main reason why lessons are still bearable (:

bye

this week

i've lost the drive to blog again! ): don't know why i was in the mood for the past few weeks lol. shall just do my 9 things today.

1. iCEE report 95% done. & it was the first time i stayed in sch till 11pm :/
2. weekday meet-up with d! meeting up on a weekday makes me happy bcos d's finally not in camp, and NEVER has to go back to camp :D
3. had dinner at lailai on wed! 3 more chops to go before i can redeem something! ^^
4. finalised claw presentation slides. the stupid desktop in s3.2 seminar rm 3 didn't save our presentation on fri so we had to redo it. zzz. so glad it's all done now! :D
5. have decided that i shall just eat 菜饭 everyday. i shall try not to get bored of it & go eat chicken rice or malay food. bcos although chicken rice is same price as CF, it's not filling. & although malay food is as filling as CF, it is on the avg 80c more expensive than CF.
6. watched 'a minute to win it' on wed & thought the games were hilarious but yet they require skills & strategy.
7. re-submitted phase 2 applications because they removed some companies that i previously chose! >:( okay but it's probably the companies withdrew.
8. my marketing grp is great <3
9. 1ST MARKETING PRESENTATION OVER! :D :D :D

bye.

it's so hard to be happy

but i think that's bcos i've strayed away from my focus.

i'm getting buried in projects to the extent that i keep questioning myself why do i have to do this, instead of why did i want to do this in the first place?

after reflecting, i realised what i am learning is truly what i am interested in. how businesses work, the different levels in the supply chain and revenue cycle, the different costing systems, and even marketing techniques, are all what i was excited about before entering uni.

but it's really really tough to focus on everything at one go & to absorb soooooo much info in the same period of time.

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and i forgot to post my weekly post. maybe tmr. no. maybe during the weekends.

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i have to keep reminding myself why am i in this course, and what do i want to achieve, what do i want to learn out of this 3 years.

微加幸福 - 郁可唯

怎么在爱里微加幸福？

这是每一对情侣都应该考虑的问题吧。多一点关心，少一点自由，都好像不对。怎样才能找到平衡？找到了，又怎样维持？

要怎样做，才能够每天都享受恋爱的滋味？

要怎样做，才会每天都觉得幸福？

what's happening to me?

d says i look pale, that i have a lack of water intake.

mummy says i look pale, ask me whether i want to drink chicken essence.

i think i'm really too stress alr. & yep it's true i have low water intake ): must really make it a point to regularly drink plain water.

and once again i realise i am dropping a lot of hair. like during lessons, sometimes i will randomly run my fingers through my hair, and then i'll grab one/two strands of hair out. and usually in one hr i run my fingers through my hair quite a number of times :/

and then just now when i was sitting at the sofa watching tv, i was just playing with the ends of my hair (i didn't even hand-comb it), only the ends, and then i found three strands on my palm. and everytime when i comb my hair after i bathe i'll find a lot of strands too, but well i guess that's normal.

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i hope i'm normal. and i really can't work under stress. probably the business industry is really not suited for me. i should just work in the vcd shop and get $4/hr.

today

i went to d's hse for dinner.

so the convo after dinner went like this.

d: you want tea?

me: ya.

d: what do you want?

me: oh. got choice ah?

d: er... not very much.

me: so what tea you have?

d: english breakfast tea.

me: what else?

d: er... that's all.

-.- i dunno how he became so lame. i really hope it's not me.

i have a question

do my friends still read my blog? ahaha.

was looking through my archives in 2008-2010 & realised that whenever i blogged, i blogged with the impression that i was talking to my friends, if not, everyone (whoever that may be).

but now when i blog, i seem to blog to myself. LOL. gradually going into the #foreveralone stage.

so i really want to ask.

HELLO FRIENDS, DO YOU STILL READ MY BLOG?

d excluded. i know he reads (:

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so if you are my friend and you are kind, please leave a comment below this blog post with a 'YES'. ahahaha.

if you are not kind & don't want to waste ur time leaving a comment, hmmm .. then i can't stop you also. LOLOL.

goodbye world! (yes i used to say goodbye/goodnight to the world)

recess week is over :|

yes, recess week is over. but i'm not particularly sad abt it. & it wasn't very hard to get back into study/schooling mode bcos the whole of recess week was just about projects. but there were still happy events nonetheless! i must try to stay positive as much as possible :D

1. my raspberry tea arrived. haven't tried it though. will try starting from next week!
2. marketing proj meeting on wed was enjoyable (: as well as the dinner & shopping with t9 after that!
3. went back to bp on thurs!! :D and i am so happy for d *yippee*
4. had a nice day with d on thurs :D FROLICK!! yay~
5. d got back his IC on friday whoohoo~! finally he has regained civilian status. LOL.
6. hw's 21st at kbox! me long long time no sing. & i'm glad a sang quite a number of songs that night!
   
7. completion of claw essay :D 20% of claw done!!!
8. got addicted to draw something -.- YES I AM HAPPY ABOUT THIS. ahaha.
9. changed my blogskin (:

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went to frolick on thurs & realised that now they have this promotion and that if you're a NSF or have a M1 line, you can get 1-for-1 cup A or B! and it's not restricted to any particular day so you can just go down anytime to get the 1-for-1! lol. and so lucky d is M1, so even if he's not NSF anymore we still can enjoy the 1-for-1 :D & it seems that there's no end date for this promotion :D

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was half-excited and half-apprehensive abt the kbox party. bcos i very long nvr sing, so i was excited cos i could sing. but yet i knew it was going to be a large group, so i was worried that i wld be shy to sing in front of others & that i wld end up singing v little songs. lol but in the end everyone else was shy too! only jn not shy LOL. so i ended up singing a lot of songs with her :D also bcos nobody want to 点歌 so jn went to 点 everything. ahaha.

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changed my blogskin to something simple (: i thought i wld be using the previous blogskin forever, but i dunno why i suddenly decided to change it to a simple one. oh yeah, i think it was bcos i thought i should update the photo collage (see pic below) to more recent pics. but i was lazy to do it. & i didn't wanna leave the old pics there (they're abt 3 years ago) so i changed the whole blogskin!

random sunday

i was doing my claw essay vetting this morn & was doing the appendix, so i had to print relevant pages from the annual report. & so, i started printing happily. after 5 seconds my printer started making weird noises & then i looked up & realised, I HAD NO MORE PAPER.

AND NO BLACK INK. AND NO COLOUR INK.

hahahaha. probably one good thing abt recess week is that i don't have to constantly print notes. so when i don't have to print stuff, i don't notice whether i have paper or ink.

so i had to go to jp to buy, even though i know the popular queue wld be super long.

and i was right! the queue was longgggggggg. so i thought it'd be a waste of time if i queue and then end up just buying one packet (i dunno what you call it) of paper. and so i saw this!!

one box with 5 packets of paper! & obviously there's discount if you buy 5. if i'm not wrong it's like 6.90 per packet, but 25.90 if you buy 5! so i calculated. i saved 8.60! :D

but actually i half-regretted it once i made payment and carried this big box out of popular. the walk to the bus interchange felt like eternity :/ i was alone & some ppl actually stared at me. maybe they think i very strong. ahaha. i have no idea how much it weighs, & i'm bad at estimating, but it's really really really really very very very very heavy.

but once i reached home, i felt proud of myself :D proud bcos i brought this box home from jp by myself, & i didn't stumble or fall or anything. and also proud bcos i saved 8.60 :D

when i came home mummy said, "WOW ... *long silence* ... i think we one year no need buy paper alr!"

HAHAHA yes i think so too! ;) if really can last one year, means i don't have to buy paper anymore! cos i'll graduate in one yr's time & when i start working i'll probably just use company's printer. lol.

and my claw essay is finally 90% done. 10% undone bcos we still have one last round of vetting to go, & need to print essay (appendix printed), bind everything, and submit both hard and soft copies!

nostalgia

very rare that i'm posting pictures! haha. today is the only weekday that i don't have project meeting, i.e. my off-day. lol.

i know i was supposed to use today to do self-revision for 202 and 208, but nope, i need to rest first. haha. & i was glad d went there today, so i could have an excuse to visit there to meet him. & 'there' refers to.....

MY SECONDARY SCHOOL! :D & the sky was very nice today (:

before i crossed the road to go to the bus-stop to wait for d, i went to my favourite after-band hangout: 7-11. haha. & realised they have renovated. which i expected so. lol. and they actually had those kind of tall tables for people to put their food/drink on the table to eat comfortably. last time after band we (my whole section, the 8 of us) used to buy cup noodles/sandwiches, heat them up in the microwave, and then go out and sit at the void deck to eat, like ah lians like that. LOL. & i wld always buy slurpee also, & then walk and drink on the way to lot 1. no wonder i put on weight even though i was in a marching band. hahaha. i miss this place!

after walking arnd in 7-11 for 10 minutes, i crossed the road and snapped this picture! the location of this classroom block hasn't changed, even though bp underwent prime. so yay~ i'm happy. bcos i can see my sec 1 and sec 2 classroom (:

after snapping this pic i went to sit at the bus-stop for a while, but it was too hot so i decided to venture deeper into the hdb blocks nearby. but mainly, bcos i wanted to see...

my beloved field :D the place where we used to march!! although all the soil has been replaced after prime, but it is still my field. it is still the land where we used to march, sweat, bleed, play our instruments. and our 50c game :D

then i spotted some benches at a nearby void deck so i went there to sit and wait for d. sitting there, the sun couldn't get me! but i also didn't get much wind ): but it's okay. i could stare at my field for as long as i want, comfortably. & just nice, in the pic i snapped above, a class just came down for their PE lesson. so i had sth to watch! hahaha. oh & i also observed a stray cat for 5 mins. it went to the grass beside the void deck & started digging. i think it was hungry. but it gave up after 5 mins.

my pretty shoes. actually cannot really see the actual colour. but they are pretty shoes (:

then d was done! so we took a slow stroll to lot 1 after that. & that sums up the start of my day (:

i miss bp. really really miss. but i think i only miss it bcos of the memories i had with my flute section & the rest of the band, & bcos i met d there :D but still, that's enough reasons to miss a place.