this may be a sensitive post, but then again, not really.

i really really appreciate friends that make the effort to want to meet up, especially friends whom i have not met in a looooong time. it always puts a smile on my face when they initiate a gathering. (: even if in the end we don't meet up, it's the thought that counts. we all have grown up; we are past the age where all of us have the same schedules and the same routine each week. it's getting harder and harder to find a common time to meet, eat, chat, slack and just enjoy each other's presence and have fun.

on the other hand, there're some friends that say "i miss you! meet up soon! (:" and then there'll be no news from them. then when you take the initiative to ask them out, they'll say, "oh so sorry, i'm not free."

i really think it takes two hands to clap, and i can't always be the one trying to maintain the relationship but the other party doesn't take it seriously. that's why i've stopped initiating meet ups, partly because i don't want to face the disappointment and partly because after a while, it just gets troublesome and sometimes i prefer to do things alone because you don't have to consider other people's time and feelings. it may sound a bit mean to put it this way, but that's how i really feel.

so.. that's why the only person that i initiate to meet up now is d. hahaha. because i know he will always put me first, and if not for a very important reason, he will take time off for me, even if we're doing nothing in particular. over the years i've been asking myself who actually do i place first; d or my friends? especially after the huge quarrel which i still remember till today. the answer is very obvious to me, but i've been constantly asking to ensure that i am not blindly in love. haha. but really, i must say that d is really much much much more important to me than any of my friends. to me, he's not just a boyfriend, he's so much more than that. he gives me the feeling of a friend, a boyfriend and a brother, all combined. 3-in-1. (: being a single child, i'm really grateful for his presence in my life.

to the other friends that have been constantly keeping in touch, i cherish our friendship and i know it is strong enough to last for decades. (: you know who you are, and 我真的珍惜我们之间的缘分，因为这得来不易。

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i'm leaving for cambodia in 12 days, and i'm excited yet nervous. i don't have any expectations from the trip, except that i come back healthy, and i believe i will gain a lot spiritually.

i also hope to lose weight!!!!!!! *please make this wish come true*

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goodnights to whoever is still reading this little space of mine.

p.s.: happy 56 months, d. :D

life's good

suddenly lost the drive to blog! i think i only blog when i'm extremely bored and tired, or when i'm extremely happy.

and i don't feel any of these now. just that i feel i should blog to keep myself updated; so that i can reminisce in future.

i love reading my old blog posts! in a way it's sort of like reviewing my own life, to see how i've changed, how i've improved, and whether i've become a better person than before.

this week has been great. got to spend lots of quality time with d, without spending much money! me likey.

and i'm leaving for cambodia in 2 weeks! anticipating it, and really eager to gain the experience. (:

finally finally finally. 终于!

终于什么呢？终于考完试了！

okay type in english better. i was feeling happy at 11am, when i had 30mins left to the end of the paper and i had one last qn to do. and then! i suddenly heard a huge growl and i took 2 seconds to realise it was my stomach ): plus all of a sudden when i was doing the last qn i got a headache. so i still managed to finish the qn, although there was no time to check. haha. so at 11.30, i suddenly didn't feel like doing anything but eat. haha. i wasn't happy, i was actually grouchy cos i wanted to get home fast but there were so many ppl blocking my way ahahaha.

and now exams have ended, and i'm finally feeling the happiness, i feel peaceful and satisfied. (: and i didn't fall sick! i rmb last sem right after the exam i underwent a slow process of falling sick and it lasted for the whole month, so basically i didn't really get to enjoy my holidays, but luckily there was hebe's concert to cheer me up. :D hehe.

and i have stuff to look forward in the following week!

• d's btt! & hopefully a date after that hahahaha.
• meet up with susu!
• esplanade trip
• purchase of supplies for cambodia trip
• lots and lots of rest
• no-restriction watching of tv programmes

i'm a happy girl! :D and congrats to all those who've ended on the same day as me, as well as good luck and work hard for those who still have papers. (: