i realised...

going out alone to far and quiet places calms the soul and mind.

i feel very light now, as if nth can trouble me (:

holidays

actually i really love this month of holidays. especially cos d had leave too (: we spent quality time tgt!

also had the chance to meet up with my pri school, sec sch, and jc cliques bcos of birthdays (: bdays are wonderful days to meet up and catch up! :D

& i'm also really really thankful to cencen & jielin for specially coming all the way to my hse to listen to me play the piano as preparation for my piano exam (: not forgetting lyn & jo who gave me their support right from the start! :D & kitleng!!! <3 many thanks to her for forking out so much time to rehearse the page turnings with me & showing up for my rehearsals (:

my christmas was good too. went to a pub for the very first time in my life & had a good chat with d, jn & redtail. sth unpleasant happened after that but well, i take it as an experience and i shall learn from it (: had a good Christmas breakfast on the 25th itself! & had a good time shopping & eating at vivo. & we visited jn's hall again!! :D i like ntu's halls actually. they do have a "home" feeling. but of cos i'd still prefer my own home. lol.

that sums up my december! might do another post on the last day of the yr to sum up 2011. not really looking forward to 2012 though. i hate growing old :(

finally!

i am a free bird! :D

i have about 3 weeks of pure freedom before i start school. i think that should be enough time for me to have a good rest; to watch my shows and to read my books & to exercise! :D

shall fully recharge myself before the new sem starts. i have a feeling that the next sem will not be that easy too. especially since i have to start PA applications and to go for interviews!

ahhh i really hope my blogging bug will still remain in me for very long. i really want to document important events in my life so that i will be able to read and reread my past. it's really wonderful to 重新认识以前的自己. i think everyday i'm changing, so i have to record down the events in my life, so that i won't lose myself :)

exams are over!

but i have a very big event happening 13 days later :/

so scared that i will screw up my whole diploma exam bcos i'm nervous/cold/shoes not comfortable/not enough concentration. bcos i know i can do it! i know my playing skills are alr there, i just need to keep maintaining and polishing it from now till then. hope everything will go well! :D

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on a side note, i'm really glad that uni exams have ended. yr 2 sem 1 has been a very tough sem & i'm glad it's over. i don't want to experience this again. hopefully i will be more prepared for yr 2 sem 2, and my PA after that! quite excited for PA (: yet afraid that i won't be ready for the workforce, & also afraid that i will keep making stupid mistakes. hope i get a good company.

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i love d alot. :D he always takes the time to accompany me after my exams :D yay. & so he will always be the first one that i share my happiness with (:

workload for the next month

Korean presentation: script - 20 Oct, presentation - 3 Nov

Tax: Quiz 2 - 29 Oct

AB214: final presentation (individual) - 1 Nov

AC213: SAP quiz - 2 Nov

IT project: group report + individual portion - 11 Nov

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kill me now.

my walks home

i've been walking home so many times, to the extent that i'm quite tired of walking the same route everyday. but it's the fastest and most straightforward route home. haha.

i enjoy the walks. i get to see so many things everyday on the way home, like how many cars there are on the road, and the people that walk on the same road as me. and i realise there's no tinge of happiness in them at all. some of them are walking too fast, and they have a hurried look on their face. some of them have a very annoyed look, especially when they get down from a crowded bus to make their way home. some of them look like you owe them a thousand bucks, especially when you pass by the ppl sitting at the bus stops. nobody slows down to appreciate the little things arnd them.

i feel that the road between hall 1 and the ntu entrance is like a garden. there are so many pretty flowers along the way (: and the sky is always exceptionally beautiful. also, at 6pm, there is always this slow breeze that makes you feel relaxed, and prevents me from sweating! hehe.

i love my walks home, because each walk gives me 45 mins to myself, with zero disruption from anyone or anything. it gives me time to ponder and to think abt stuffs i need to think. it helps me clear my mind and focus on what i want to achieve. it allows me to carefully listen to the lyrics of the songs in my phone, an understand them better. it also made me realise that singapore ppl are a very sad bunch of ppl. the drivers on the road go at such a fast pace and you wonder whether there's really a need to do that.

why can't we all go slow and enjoy this short life of ours? everyone should take walks everyday!! (:

DONE

with most presentations! hehehe. have only left an individual presentation for ab214. whee so glade acctg and grp presentation for 214 is over :D and i think we did well for acctg! double whee~~

can finally take a short break (it has been a crazy 3 weeks!) before starting revision and of cos playing with SAP to prepare for the upcoming quiz!

there're never-ending deadlines ):

& in a blink of an eye, this semester is abt to be over soon.

recess week is over

what have i done for myself?

nothing much ): have been buried in projects. have been staring at the computer every night ever since recess week started. really no rest time at all. T_T thank you d for being so understanding. <3 i really want to spend more time with you.

my only wishlist now is to pack my wardrobe! it's been messy ever since yr 2 started. hope i can find the time to pack it in the upcoming week.

have a great week ahead! the worst is going to be over soon (:

stressed

but the iPhone is so cool i can blog on the go. probably will increase the frequency of my posts hehe.

really very stressed i don't understand why we must study until like that D:

tumblr has so many cute pics of rabbits :D

nothing to blog

i've been neglecting this space for almost a month ): i don't intentionally neglect this space, bcos i actually want to jot down my feelings as and when i can so i have something to look back once time passes. it's like a capsule of memories to me. doesn't matter whether anyone reads this or not, it's just a journal for me to keep track of myself.

& i should probably do a review of hebe's album soon (: it's much better than the previous one; i realised after comparing songs across the 2 albums. i love this album so much :D and i caught myself humming to one of the tunes which i thought i didn't like. so in the end i analysed that i actually like each and every one of the songs. LOL.

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also, my wrist has been aching. D, SHOULD I GO SEE ZHONG YI? it aches whenever i play the piano, not so much when i'm doing daily activities. but i'm very afraid that my constant playing will harm the wrist in future. how???

shall end with hebe's song, dedicated to selina. (:

today,

because i was so hungry at 6pm, i walked into kfc at ordered zinger student meal and told the cashier 'having here', instead of just buying a popcorn chicken to eat while walking home from school. & i was glad i had the meal there, if not i'd still be having the giddy feeling now.

and the reason for my hunger was because i had 8.30 - 12.30 IT lessons, then a simple lunch of 菜饭, then 2.30 - 4.30 accounting lessons (THIS IS THE ONE THAT KILLED ME), then 4.30 - 6 korean lessons.

i am never going to put korean make-up on wed evening ever again (if the need arises).

I AM VERY TIREDDDD NOWWWWW.

and i shall pack sandwiches to bring to school to eat during IT. perhaps i should buy a mask too to shield my face from the blowing wind. or wear a cap.

my life as a year 2

it's tough. and it's such a big gap from year 1.

i miss my philosophy lectures. & i miss the times when jianing would crash my philo lectures and then she & huihui wld laugh at the professor's cheena accent.

i also miss my jap classes, where me, chaiying, shihong and wanting will have those lost faces whenever the teacher asks us a question or teaches us new stuff. and we always get to do pair up exercises, not like in korean class where it's so passive learning. or that's how i feel. the teacher only picks on a few ppl to answer qns (randomly), whereas teacher li shan will always make sure that everybody gets a chance to speak up and practice speaking japanese.

accounting is still bullet-training, but i'm starting to pick up the speed (: IT is fine, has always been fine, i'm starting not to dread the subject :D biz comm is great, cos our prof is wonderful (: and tax, is just tax. i really don't have any other comments. and having classes on saturdays don't make me feel like i'm going for a class, if you get what i mean.

okay random post. byebye.

안 녕 하 세 요

저 는 운 시 입 니 다 . 만 나 서 반 갑 습 니 다 .

and so i've been repeating these three lines for the whole night. bcos that's the only korean conversation i can hold.

but korean is awesome :D

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on a side note, the SMU guy who bought my textbook is really nice. while he was checking the book (actually he took only 5 secs. quite a half-hearted check) and finding money for me he tried to strike a convo and even empathised with me for travelling all the way from pioneer to city hall. and he did it in a not-over-friendly way. but the thing is a got quite a shock when i saw it's a 'he', bcos his name is zhiyi. well nvm. i sold three of my books today!!! i'm a happy girl :D

currently sitting in my living room is a third-hand OB textbook and the 2 AA101 books which i have no idea how to get rid of. i told jiayi i might want to send it to a recycling site but she said we might need it for AA202 so i'm keeping it for the moment.

any buyers for Organizational Behavior (Fourth Edition) by McShane, Von Glinow?

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first week of school has gone by pretty fine, and i'm doing well, just that i'm not so sure abt my bullet train acctg classes. :X but it will all be fine in the end i'm sure (:

안 녕 하 가 세 요!

(^___^)

over!

yay. my teaching career is over. lol. :D

if you asked me what i learnt out of this, it'd probably be that i understand more abt myself, and i'm more convinced that i don't want to take up teaching as a career.

i think 3 weeks was a very good frame of time; not too short, not too long. i managed to see and experience the goods and bads of being a teacher. i like young children, and it's fun to play with them, but it's hard to get them to sit down to do serious stuff. i like it when they enjoy their music lessons, when they finally manage to play a song together. but i don't like it when they play their instruments when i'm talking and i have to resort to raising my voice to scold them before they listen.

so anyway, my life as a student resumes next week! i'm quite happy, bcos i can finally do some constructive work. LOL. but i know i'll be very stressed when school really starts. :/ the cycle repeats!

strawberry smoothie

currently, i am in esplanade lib's cafe, drinking a strawberry smoothie, using the internet (but it's very slow so tumblr is not an option D:), attempting to write my recital notes, and silently hoping that the person beside me would go off soon so i can use the power plug. we came at the same time, and there was only one available plug. he was clever. he put in the plug first before buying a drink, so obviously, he won the fight. ):

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anyway, the strawberry smoothie is really nice! (: it's made of real strawberries, and nothing else! :D just pure strawberries and ice. and so i realised, this drink must be consumed slowly, because you need to wait for the ice to melt before you drink cold water with strawberries. if you do not wait for the ice to melt, then you'd be trying very hard to drink the strawberries but you can't cos they're too solid. then again, if you wait too long before you drink, all the ice would've melted and you can't really taste the strawberries in this concoction.

love's like that isn't it? or rather, maintaining a r/s is somehow like this. not too fast and not too slow, it must be carefully maintained. (:

weekly 9 things

1. regular meet ups with d. (army is being humane for once, but not prolonged.)
2. integrating well into ccps.
3. forgetting to bring my key out on tuesday thus resulting in me being locked outside (this shall nvr happen again)
4. good progress with the children, especially the P3s and 4s who have alr met me the last week and are comfortable with me alr
5. my life is so boring bcos i can only talk about school stuff
6. FROLICK ONE FOR ONE DAY :D
7. pay arrived
8. getting tired almost every second
9. NOT SLEEPING ON THE TRAIN IN THE MORNINGS :D

the last item is a great achievement and i am proud of myself (:

my star

today, i almost lost my star. and i freaked out for a good 15 minutes.

this star, is just an ordinary star. but it's a very special star to me and i cannot lose it. it was given to me by d, and it was purchased in nj's bookshop, at only $1. haha yes it sounds a bit hilarious that a $1 star keychain can mean so much to me. but it was probably the very first gift that d spontaneously bought for me - i.e., he bought in on the spur of the moment, just because i said i wanted it.

i went to take 'thank you notes' for one of the pri 4 classes so i walked briskly to the music room (running was banned by mummy) and walked briskly back to the sci lab where i was supposed to invigilate them for their sci practical. i didn't notice when my star dropped, but after letting the class settle down and i went to retrieve my pencilbox, i realised my missing star. my heart almost skipped a beat and the first thought that came to my mind was, "我要疯了."

so i freaked out for 15 mins. throughout that 15 mins i kept contemplating running arnd the school to look for it and leave the children outside the sci lab since they were not making a lot of noise. but i abandoned that thought after i decided that i should just accept it if it was lost. i came to the believe that if i lose something, i'll gain something. and being optimistic, i strongly believed at that point in time that if i lose something, i'll gain much more. so i stayed calm for 2 hours, while sitting through 2 classes of sci practical.

when i finally had a break, i attempted to look for my star, retracing my steps from the sci lab to the music room. i didn't have much hopes, but it's just a half-hearted attempt. but once i opened the music room door and my gaze shifted to the cupboards on the right, i saw a silvery shiny star that was MY STAR! :D i was so elated at that moment.

and this is the end of my random post.

犀利人妻 养成计划

很好看的一本书。它一点都不肤浅，一点都不是偶像剧的题材！是的，犀利人妻的确是个偶像剧，但它所诉说的故事，却是发生在我们真实生活的点点滴滴。

或许我还没有到达那个年龄。我还年轻，还不晓得失去和得到的滋味。尤其在情场上，我其实很幸福，找到了一个真心爱了我五年，而还继续爱着的男朋友。我不能够完全体会书中作者想要表达的，但一部分，我深深的感受到一种共鸣。

这本书也让我开始思考一些问题。爱情，说穿了只是一个跟时间赛跑的游戏。但，时间是永远不会被打败的。爱情，不可能是完美的，一定会有污迹，一定会有伤痕。时间能够冲淡这一切，但不能完全抹掉。可是，人们（尤其是女人）往往对爱情有一种憧憬，会渴望一段完美无瑕的恋爱。希望能够长长久久，白头到老。不过，人生是残酷的，时间是残酷的，爱情，也是残酷的。

目前的我，还在爱河里面。还在渴望着一段恋爱能够到永远。但我希望，如果有一天，假设真的有那么一天，我会再度翻开这本书，从它身上学到人生的一课。或许到了那个时候，我会有不同的领悟。

weekly 9 things

1. d's love and understanding.
2. meet up with my dear earthworm last thurs! although it was just a simple lunch, we managed to catch up briefly on each other's life. :D
3. nice home-cooked meals for this week (:
4. registered for ATCL exam!
5. didn't manage to go ubin trip. sad but there'll always be a next time!
6. didn't go for bak kut teh bcos of irritating cramps D:
7. became a music relief teacher. appointed for 3 weeks
8. met up with my wonderful cousins over a family dinner and we talked non-stop :D :D
9. been reading a lot, and i'm liking that (:

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it was a very last minute arrangement, my appointment as a music relief tcher. i'm currently at mummy's school taking over the music teacher's entire periods cos she has some family issues to settle. taking over for 3 weeks, right up to the day i start ntu lessons. was excited at first, then became quite reluctant bcos i realised it took up a lot of my personal time, especially mondays, when d is booking out. but anw, i've taken up this responsibility so i must pull through. and i've finished a week! (friday no lessons) so 2 more weeks to go! :D

butttttttt, the counting down to the end of my teaching also means the counting down to the end of my holidays D: I DON'T WANT HOLIDAYS TO END. but it's quite ironical. 有时觉得在读书的时候比较有活着的感觉。当你太悠闲，没有事情做的时候，仿佛像死了一样。

♥♥♥

me: あいしてる

d: わたしも

:D :D :D :D :D

little things make me happy!

craving a cup of mocha now

New Index Number has no more vacancy !

i hate this.

it's over

but i really don't want saturday classes

上苍选了你 全民女孩Selina的地狱90天

买这本书的原动力，是因为更想了解赛林娜那几个月受的痛，希望能够从她身上学到坚强，勇敢。

可是当我读了几页，我突然不想继续读下去了。心很痛。因为律师张承中（阿中）不会很情绪化的描述，只是会把事情的经过清楚的写下来，所以事实就很彻底地表现在我面前。

到现在，我已经读到了第36天。每次读完后就会觉得很沮丧，突然很悲伤，突然很慌，很不知所措。然后我就会想，我只是在读一本书就有这么多感触了，亲身经历过的人到底怎么能够保持乐观？

也发现那时候任爸在微博上传的，都只是报喜不报忧。任爸只是不要让关心塞林娜的人担心。阿中的书，才是塞林娜真真确确的经历。

从这本书，也让我再次的看到SHE之间的友谊和爱。喜碧差不多每天都去医院探望塞林娜，而艾啦起初还打算放弃出国留学，为了陪在塞林娜身边。她们两个也还会把工作的酬劳分给塞林娜，因为那时艾啦受伤也是这么做的。

太棒了。SHE是个传奇，塞林娜也是最勇敢的全民女孩。以后，她也会有属于她的另一片天空。

Triple Vanilla Mango Curd Cake Pops with a Vanilla-Infused Chocolate Ganache

d would love this! :D

this is sooooo cute

Random 3

i think the key to maintaining a relationship is not about how you are head over heels in love with the person, or how much time you spend with the person, or how much you sacrifice for that special one. because all these change over time. after a year or so, you hardly experience that 'madly-in-love' feeling anymore. and it's impossible to stick with your guy 24/7 because to the world we are still two separate entities. also, people change so much over time. a little event can cause a big change in a person's character, although it may be a gradual change.

therefore, i think the key is how well we accept our partner's change, and ALSO, how well we can adapt to our own change. many break-up reasons are like "he's changed", but we never realise that we ourselves change too, but because we don't see or feel our change, from our point of view, that person has changed. but in reality, because we've changed, so how we view the person changes.

randomly thought of this while coming home from piano class. i like taking the train at 10 or 11am, because it's usually very unpopulated, and it's quiet, so i can use that time to have some conversations with myself, because it's hard to find a time when my brain's not occupied by something else. haha.

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anyway i forgot to post what i can look forward to next week!

• d's off on monday!
• STARWARS on wednesday
• bak kut teh with T9 peeps that are not on GSS
• pulau ubin trip with suboo, unglammer, sister, lekzai :D

starwars is something that i look forward too, but yet i'm nervous bcos i may end up losing the battle D: hopefully the peeps in hk will have good news for us on monday!

and i hope the bak kut teh dinner is still on. i realise i miss my T9 classmates. it does feel a bit weird not seeing them regularly.

goodbye! i have the sudden drive to tidy my house. this is very rare. i hope this drive can sustain until i tidy my living room. just at least the living room. (:

weekly 9 things

1. met up with d for 3 days consecutively :D
2. cake baking @ davis hse was a success! and we were efficient ppl (:
3. came back from penang trip with lots of purchases! ate and rested much too.
4. finally recovering from my irritating cough that tortured me for a week
5. met up with moo-ey! :D
6. had the sudden drive to pack my wardrobe and it's looking good now
7. piano has been smooth, tcher say can sign up for exam this yr!
8. i still have a month of holidays :D :D :D :D
9. i get to see my nutella cheesecake tmr and eat blackforest cheesecake!

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dinner with lyn on tues was awesome :D we went to MOF, which i had been wanting to eat for long. and i miss the outlet at lot 1. got to eat my favourite seaweed tomato pasta, and my favourite mango kakigori! (:

and even though we don't meet up often, we always don't run out of things to say whenever we meetup. and when it's time to part, i always feel that we have so much to talk about we could talk the whole night (: that's what a real friendship is all about. although we don't meet up as regularly as we meet our bfs (haha), but we take the effort to stay in each others' lives. :D love you moo! and when lendl is being kidnapped by SAF i can be ur substitute boyfriend heh :D

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i'm really glad i persevered so long with my piano practical. i had always wanted to take my diploma, but once i started on it i felt it was so tough and i started doubting whether i could really do it cos it was really a big jump from grade 8. finally all my effort has paid off and ms chng says i shouldn't wait any longer; just sign up for the end of yr exam, cos i should be ready. :D all my songs are in place right now, just need to polish them up and gain confidence.

anyone knows where i can air my pieces in public? like playing for a group of ppl for some event or anything.

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also, d has been such a wonderful boyfriend. 4 yrs 10 mths ago, till now. :D and we will stay strong. (:

王璿 - 愛是唯一

她是一个护士。她把这首歌献给一个她在照顾的伯伯，让他有继续生活下去的动力。

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其实做护士也是一个很有意义的工作，只是不知道有多少人能够有那种耐心，那种无限的关爱。

突然间超佩服那些医护人员。

BACK, but i left part of me there.

the past 2 weeks was such an enriching experience for me, i find it unable to pen them down into words. the purpose of penning them down into words is for me to have a concrete record, so i can keep it as a memory forever, but i think no matter what, this experience will forever etch a deep memory in my heart, and there's no need to write down anything for remembrance.

the children were amazing, and i learnt so much from them. i went there with the heart to educate them a little; to teach them basic english so they can communicate with the outside world if they ever get a chance to. but in the end, they taught me how life can be so simple. they taught me how to appreciate every single little thing, even if it's just a sweet. they never complained, never whined; only listened attentively to every word you say, and jotted down every single thing you wrote on the board. i'm touched by their passion for learning, and my only regret is that their education is not continuous. many thanks to the existing teachers from BFT over there, who are constantly teaching them mathematics - and i believe other relevant subjects as well.

through this trip, i gained muscles, got darker, but i truly enjoyed every single second of the experience. i really felt our teamwork at the construction site and during painting, and i am glad everyone poured their hearts out during sharing session. there were no major conflicts, everybody worked well with each other, and i think we're the best team ever. i've never felt so much bonding within the whole team. even in bp band, i only felt bonding within my section. but for a team of 21 people to have such amazing ties, i think it's something i feel really grateful for, and i'm glad i cherished the days we were together. (:

BEST OVERSEAS TRIP EVER. i really don't know what else to say to express my gratitude, my happiness and my joy at having gained so much from this ocip. i treasure the friendships made with each and every one, and i hope we can really keep in touch, just like what some of you have said. :D

this may be a sensitive post, but then again, not really.

i really really appreciate friends that make the effort to want to meet up, especially friends whom i have not met in a looooong time. it always puts a smile on my face when they initiate a gathering. (: even if in the end we don't meet up, it's the thought that counts. we all have grown up; we are past the age where all of us have the same schedules and the same routine each week. it's getting harder and harder to find a common time to meet, eat, chat, slack and just enjoy each other's presence and have fun.

on the other hand, there're some friends that say "i miss you! meet up soon! (:" and then there'll be no news from them. then when you take the initiative to ask them out, they'll say, "oh so sorry, i'm not free."

i really think it takes two hands to clap, and i can't always be the one trying to maintain the relationship but the other party doesn't take it seriously. that's why i've stopped initiating meet ups, partly because i don't want to face the disappointment and partly because after a while, it just gets troublesome and sometimes i prefer to do things alone because you don't have to consider other people's time and feelings. it may sound a bit mean to put it this way, but that's how i really feel.

so.. that's why the only person that i initiate to meet up now is d. hahaha. because i know he will always put me first, and if not for a very important reason, he will take time off for me, even if we're doing nothing in particular. over the years i've been asking myself who actually do i place first; d or my friends? especially after the huge quarrel which i still remember till today. the answer is very obvious to me, but i've been constantly asking to ensure that i am not blindly in love. haha. but really, i must say that d is really much much much more important to me than any of my friends. to me, he's not just a boyfriend, he's so much more than that. he gives me the feeling of a friend, a boyfriend and a brother, all combined. 3-in-1. (: being a single child, i'm really grateful for his presence in my life.

to the other friends that have been constantly keeping in touch, i cherish our friendship and i know it is strong enough to last for decades. (: you know who you are, and 我真的珍惜我们之间的缘分，因为这得来不易。

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i'm leaving for cambodia in 12 days, and i'm excited yet nervous. i don't have any expectations from the trip, except that i come back healthy, and i believe i will gain a lot spiritually.

i also hope to lose weight!!!!!!! *please make this wish come true*

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goodnights to whoever is still reading this little space of mine.

p.s.: happy 56 months, d. :D

life's good

suddenly lost the drive to blog! i think i only blog when i'm extremely bored and tired, or when i'm extremely happy.

and i don't feel any of these now. just that i feel i should blog to keep myself updated; so that i can reminisce in future.

i love reading my old blog posts! in a way it's sort of like reviewing my own life, to see how i've changed, how i've improved, and whether i've become a better person than before.

this week has been great. got to spend lots of quality time with d, without spending much money! me likey.

and i'm leaving for cambodia in 2 weeks! anticipating it, and really eager to gain the experience. (:

finally finally finally. 终于!

终于什么呢？终于考完试了！

okay type in english better. i was feeling happy at 11am, when i had 30mins left to the end of the paper and i had one last qn to do. and then! i suddenly heard a huge growl and i took 2 seconds to realise it was my stomach ): plus all of a sudden when i was doing the last qn i got a headache. so i still managed to finish the qn, although there was no time to check. haha. so at 11.30, i suddenly didn't feel like doing anything but eat. haha. i wasn't happy, i was actually grouchy cos i wanted to get home fast but there were so many ppl blocking my way ahahaha.

and now exams have ended, and i'm finally feeling the happiness, i feel peaceful and satisfied. (: and i didn't fall sick! i rmb last sem right after the exam i underwent a slow process of falling sick and it lasted for the whole month, so basically i didn't really get to enjoy my holidays, but luckily there was hebe's concert to cheer me up. :D hehe.

and i have stuff to look forward in the following week!

• d's btt! & hopefully a date after that hahahaha.
• meet up with susu!
• esplanade trip
• purchase of supplies for cambodia trip
• lots and lots of rest
• no-restriction watching of tv programmes

i'm a happy girl! :D and congrats to all those who've ended on the same day as me, as well as good luck and work hard for those who still have papers. (:

last post of this semester

whoohoo i completed a stats tutorial all by myself without looking at the answers and i generated complete answers for each question and part! SO PROUD OF MYSELF. :D

anyway, it's exactly a month to the start of my finals! so i shall not blog or tumblr during this period! will still tweet and fb when classes get boring :/ hahahaha. especially wednesdays! D:

byebye (to whoever still reads my posts) and see you in a month!

weekly 9 things

1. kbox with xinying on saturday
2. birthday surprise(s) for avril!
3. no philosophy test
4. understood stats lect 8 & 9
5. falling sick so that i can have a good rest at home
6. managed to get an overdose of 痞子英雄. (i can't believe i finished 24 eps in one week)
7. mummy bringing me to see doctor
8. my fever left as soon as it came
9. d's big surprise :D

but i have AA102 mid-term to worry about. :/ i think i won't be able to generate any notes. ): and that even if all my accounts are balanced they'll be wrong. D:

):

it's not good to be sick, especially when you have AA102 mid-terms next monday.

i need tons of luck to pass..

Aim

for next week.

complete stats tutorial 6-8!

I MUST DO IT.

weekly 9 things

it's stats tutorial again! hahaha. just had a quiz, and i got 9/14. ): not happy with it but yea, i didn't really put effort into studying. so i should be consoled because if i don't study also can pass, then if i study i'll get A! :D

1. i have been waking up early everyday in the past week.
2. philosophy mid-term grades
3. had enough time to rest during recess week
4. bought 痞子英雄. (finally!!)
5. long bus rides with d
6. sakae buffet!
7. origami lion folding in OB (hahahaha it's lame but fun!)
8. been attentive in all classes this week
9. having enough sleep on weekdays

but i seriously need to start on my revision for accounting and stats. have been doing constant work for OB, philo and jap but i always leave these 2 untouched. ): good thing is i still can understand what's going on in accounting seminars hahaha.

it'll be a great day tmr! (:

Project Cura '11!

hello everyone! :D

i am going to cambodia during the first two weeks of june to do an overseas cip.

the main aim of the trip is to renovate the classrooms over there, as well as to teach the students some basic english and personal hygiene.

my purpose of this blog post is to ask for donations! (hahaha i was trying to think of something else to say to convey the same meaning but i decided to be straightforward, since very few ppl come to this blog anyway. lol.) any amount of donations would be appreciated. (: and if you donate, you can either choose to keep the postcard, or write some words of encouragement which we'll then give it to the cambodia students when we go there! there'll be a khmer translator so you can just write on the postcard in english. (:

there will be other upcoming canvassing projects and i will update this blog if there are future events! :D

this is the postcard and the donation card. if you wanna donate, please sms me or tag on the tagboard! :D

thank you very very muchie! :D

ありがとございます！

I'M DONE

WITH ETHICAL REASONING!

weekly 9 things to be happy about.

1. managing to wake up early today
2. enough time for revision
3. good & cool weather for both marina barrage gathering and bbq
4. AA102's almost done
5. watched S.H.E's 爱而为一 concert
6. bought S.H.E's karaoke dvd
7. had a nice good afternoon with suboo
8. spent one full day at home on wednesday
9. d being able to book out so many times this week

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things to complete:

• ob ethical assignment (ahhhh this will never end)
• stats revision
• AA102 self-practice questions

and there're no exciting things coming up next week ): because the end of recess week doesn't signify anything exciting.

weekly 9 things to be happy about.

so ... i suddenly got inspired by Julie (guys please check out her tumblr. she is radiating with positivity despite her obstacles. (: ) to do up this list of 9 things for the week. Julie does 7, but since my second fav number is 9, i thought i should be a little different, and list 9 things.

[i should probably do this list during every week's stats tutorial LOL]

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1. completing my OB critical thinking assignment
2. random smses from d
3. Music Express workshop with the teachers from Funkie Monkies Productions
4. seeing T9 peeps wearing their JC uniform
5. taking photos in nj polo tee
6. recalling how to sing the school song with xuelin during OB class
7. doing sit-ups every night
8. finishing OB presentation
9. recess week is coming :D

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i also have some stuffs i need to complete.

• AA102 research and report
• AA102 self-practice questions
• AB103 revision (omggg i shouldn't procrastinate this anymore)
• AB105 Ethical Reasoning Assignment

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exciting things happening next week!

• monday: T9 outing @ marina barrage with our beloved AA101 prof!
• dates with d. :D

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goodbye. i think this shall be the format of my posts from now on. (: hahahahaha.

i hate stomachaches

and so i spent the whole afternoon trying to make my stomachache go away by sleeping, and then it proved to be of no use, so i tried to ignore my stomachache and do tutorials, but end up i got stuck at the first qn then i got fed up, then i went to print notes for next week, and the more i print the more my stomach hurts. and for dinner i had no appetite and no strength to eat (didn't even have appetite for maggi mee) so now i'm still stuck in front of the com trying to do research for aa102 proj. but my stomach's still hurting and the more i read the clarification on the project requirements, the more i get confused.

SO I DUNNO WHAT TO DO NOW.

okay this is a lame post. anyone that's reading can ignore this.

我。。。决定要瘦下来!!!

FINISHED WITH OB!

okay! my second accomplishment of this sem! :D and a huge one.

first accomplishment was the stats case study, which wasn't much of a accomplishment because the workload was lesser and i was just mainly compiling and doing the summary.

but OHBEE! :D whoooohooooooooooo~~~~~~

feeling very excited now, but yet my brain's throbbing from all of the intense research i did in the afternoon, so i think i shall move away from the com screen soon.

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anyways, i was walking very excitedly to jp's popular cos today was supposed to be the release of S.H.E 爱而为一 巡回演唱会 DVD. but when i was about to reach, i noticed a piece of white paper pasted on the poster, covering the part of the date of release. and the notice read: "date of release postponed to 9th march." i think my face went ZZZ when i read that. so i just walked very glumly into cd rama and anyhow walk around. then i saw 杨丞琳's 异想天开 DVD. which is also something that i have wanted but because it is so expensive ($44.90) i didn't buy. BUT I BOUGHT IT TODAY. :D yeah i know it's quite a waste of money, but i was really disappointed that S.H.E's dvd wasn't out today. lol. hopefully rainie will not disappoint me! shall watch tonight, since i've successfully completed ob. :D

):

i'd rather do a 100 philosophy quizzes and 1000 japanese dictation instead of doing one ob assignment.

i am stressing myself out, and the more i stress the more i don't produce.

this is totally not a good feeling. D:

you, my inspiration. ♥

突然有初恋的感觉 (:

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i don't doubt the choice of course i've chosen. there's really nothing else that is suitable or appropriate for me.

i only doubt my abilities, and my determination.

things to do over the week.

• accounting project research
• statistics case study
• statistics tutorial 4
• statistics tutorial 5
• OB CRITICAL THINKING ASSIGNMENT
• read philosophy textbook

tempted

should i?

koup-ed from tumblr. :D

I was shooting a scene in my new film, No Strings Attached, in which I say to Natalie Portman,

“If you miss me, you can’t text, you can’t email, you can’t post it on my Facebook wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me.”

I began to think of all of the billions of intimate exchanges sent daily via fingers and screens, bouncing between satellites and servers. With all this texting, emailing, and social networking, I started wondering, are we all becoming so in touch with one another that we are in danger of losing touch?

It used to be that boy met girl and they exchanged phone numbers. Anticipation built. They imagined the entire relationship before a call ever happened. The phone rang. Hearts pounded. “Hello?” Followed by a conversation that lasted two hours, but felt like two minutes and would be examined with friends for two weeks. If all went well, a date was arranged. That was then.

Now we exchange numbers, but text instead of call because it mitigates the risks of early failure and eliminates those deafening moments of silence. Now anticipation builds. Bdoop. “It was NICE meeting u.” Both sides overanalyze every word. We talk to a friend, an impromptu Cyrano: “He wrote nice in all caps. What does that mean? What do I write back?” Then we write a response and delete it 10 times before sending a message that will appear to care, but not too much. If all goes well, a date will be arranged.

Whether you like it or not, the digital age has produced a new format for modern romance, and natural selection may be favoring the quick-thumbed quip peddler over the confident, ice-breaking alpha male. Or maybe we are hiding behind the cloak of digital text and spell-check to present superior versions of ourselves while using these less intimate forms of communication to accelerate the courting process. So what’s it really good for?

There is some argument about who actually invented text messaging, but I think it’s safe to say it was a man. Multiple studies have shown that the average man uses about half as many words per day as women, thus text messaging. It eliminates hellos and goodbyes and cuts right to the chase. Now, if that’s not male behavior, I don’t know what is. It’s also great for passing notes. There is something fun about sharing secrets with your date while in the company of others. Think of texting as a modern whisper in your lover’s car.

Sending sweet nothings on Twitter or Facebook is also fun. In some ways, it’s no different than sending flowers to the office: you are declaring your love for everyone to see. Who doesn’t like to be publicly adored? Just remember that what you post is out there and there’s some stuff you can’t un-see. But the reality is that we communicate with every part of our being, and there are times when we must use it all. When someone needs us, he or she needs all of us. There’s no text that can replace a loving touch when someone we love is hurting.

We haven’t lost romance in the digital age, but we may be neglecting it. In doing so, antiquated art forms are taking on new importance. The power of a hand-written letter is greater than ever. It’s personal, deliberate, and means more than an email or text ever will. It has a unique scent. It requires deciphering. But, most importantly, it’s flawed. There are errors in handwriting, punctuation, grammar, and spelling that show our vulnerability. And vulnerability is the essence of romance. It’s the art of being uncalculated, the willingness to look foolish, the courage to say,

“This is me, and I’m interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more importantly, all that I am not.”

— Ashton Kutcher

重伤

爱那么伤 伤那么重 我不想 我不懂

天那么蓝 心那么痛 我承受

你那么走 走那么久 走遍放纵的自由

路那么长 手那么空 谁在乎

Have you ever tried so hard to find something only to realise that it was right in front of you?

and then you feel so stupid for feeling so anxious in the last few seconds.

你的微笑

omg. 星光7's finals asked f.i.r to be their special guests and they're singing 你的微笑！reminds me of so many so many good times. :D

i loved that year of mine. the year where we got our first gold for band comp, the year i went for exchange programme, the year i sat in the back of a truck (i still miss that feeling), the year i met my dear earthworm, the year we went for singing competition with yufen, the first time we performed on stage for the graduation ceremony, the year i got tgt with d.

everything was so perfect that year.

THIS IS SO CUTE!

:D

i'm proud of myself! i managed to complete reading OB Chap 3 in one sitting, and without dozing off! but i think it's bcos the chapter is short. but anyways, it's still an achievement! (:

A:　こんにちわ

B:　こんにちわ

A:　わたしはAです。すみません、おなまえわ？

B:　わたしはBです。Aさんわシンガポルじんですか？

A:　はい、そです。Bさんもシンガポルじんですか？

B:　はい、わたしもシンガポルじんです。

A:　よろしくおねがいします。

B:　こちらこそよろしくおねがいします。

わたしはナニャンりこうだいがくのがくせいです。

on a side note, i realised that for my next philosophy chapter there're 50 pages to be read. good luck to me!

i am dropping a lot of hair. ):

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procrastinating stops today! (: i hope.

a few weeks ago ms chng was saying that if you really want to do well in piano, or whatever form of arts, and be really good in it, you have to give your all. like to sacrifice something important to you, and to just put your whole heart in practising, in getting it right. i don't really know how to explain, because i don't understand it fully yet, & ms chng has problem explaining it in words. lol.

but i am truly inspired by burlesque. about the way alice wants to be on that stage so much so that she does everything, anything to get there. she takes some risks, she makes some mistakes, but in the end, she gains the satisfaction of achieving her dream, and she really enjoys what she does on the stage.

i'm inspired, but i don't think i'll ever be like that. i'm not a person that can take risks. i get scared by a little setbacks. i'm a very safe person. hahaha.

anyway, i shall aim to make sem 2 a memorable one, and a more fulfilling one that sem 1. :D

jiayou to me!

新年快乐! :D

HAPPY CNY EVERYBODY!

somehow, i feel happier for this new year, instead of 1.1.11. dunno why. probably because i love rabbits! :D LOL.

anyway, i spent the first moments of my new year studying! i was calculating accumulated depreciation and doing the balance sheet. finally got it balanced after half an hour of torture, but at least it's balanced now. means throughout the rabbit year my statements of financial position will be balanced WHOOHOO!

thinking of reading my philosophy text later so that i'll be full of wisdom in the new year hohohoho.

HAPPY CNY ONCE AGAIN! :D

I MISS D

DYED

my hair.

but went to school today, & none of my classmates/friends noticed that i dyed it. mummy says it's cos ppl don't take notice of me. haha. probably.

CNY is coming! and i hope i'll have a fruitful new year. (:

rabbits are so cute. :D

HY801

when i got this elective, i didn't think much about it. i just thought it was a prescribed elective that i could take and clear and don't have to think abt clearing electives anymore.

but when i went for the first lecture today, i got more and more excited as the lecturer went through the course outline. he's chinese, born in china, but went to US when he was 12 to study, and then taught in the US and in China for 20 years. he only came to NTU last july, and this is the first philosophy course that NTU is offering! and i didn't know that until i attended the lecture! cool! :D so i'll be the first batch of students that graduate from a philosophy course hehehehe.

& the good thing is, although there'll be lots of memorising, i think the bulk of it is still to train our own thinking, and exam questions will also be structured in a way that they ask for ur opinion, instead of regurgitating theories.

cool cool cool. i can't wait for the next lecture. :D

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i deposited my tbs at the flea market, & some of them have been sold! wahahaha if i really manage to sell everything, i'll get90% of $125, which is ... $112.50. wah. bafc 赚 a lot from me eh. but nvm. i get back a 100 bucks! :D

:D

even though i'm coughing badly.

d even said i sounded like i was going to cough out blood.

LOL.

Semester 1

results are out.

i did study, but i didn't think it was to the best of my ability.

and therefore i'm really happy with my results. (:

this post is a reminder to me to maintain it at this level, and also to work a little more harder to push it up, if possible.

:D

my life, or the lack of it.

hahaha.

been going out with jianing many many times this holiday! this is mainly because both our bfs are either busy or not in sg, plus we are both nua-ing away our holidays hahaha. love going out with her! (:

watched many many movies this holiday too, and i don't regret any of them, although The Last Days of Emma Blank was a little weird (as in the genre), but it was a $5 ticket anyway hahaha.

and my favourite movie (out of those i've watched this month) is Burlesque! (: so glad that susu suggested watching that instead of The Tourist. heh. i am going to buy the soundtrack! :D

also, i finally met up with susu for a walk at botanic gardens. had a good long one hour chat plus 15 mins of feeding fishes, turtles, sparrows and failed attempts at feeding pigeons LOL.

that probably sums up my holiday. i spent most of my time resting, which i fully enjoyed. (:

d is taking the plane tmr night! super excited. :D

school's starting, and i'm trying not to feel sad abt it.

Love! 田馥甄 音乐会 ♥

was getting excited during dinner, and was quite impatient with the restaurant cos the waitresses kept walking round our table carrying other ppl's food. ): ohh but the restaurant is nice! and affordable too! called musselicious or something, at level 2 vivo. (:

okay this is not the main point.

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hebe's concert was a blast. :D

every minute, every second of it, i was thoroughly enjoying myself.

from the moment she stepped onto the stage and started singing, my mind was filled with nothing but her enthusiasm, her passion for singing, and her powerful voice.

since it's just one day away, i can now remember almost every song she sang and the feelings she instilled in me while listening, but i know one day i will forget most of the songs, except two of them.

1. You're Beautiful

Hebe specially dedicated this song to Selina. (: and once Selina's pictures started appearing on the screen behind, my tears started flowing. the music, the lyrics, the pictures, Hebe's voice ... all intertwined at that moment and gave me so much emotions. i wonder how Hebe could withstand the urge to cry. 真的佩服她的专业精神。

田馥甄说：“Selina 是我的新偶像，我的女神。她乐观的面对一切。这是我们大家都应该学习的。因为她，我对生命的看法改变了。”

so touching. (: we should all learn from Selina and be strong when faced with setbacks!

2. 叶子

my favourite song in her whole concert. :D :D :D i dunno how to express my love for this song (the original one), and my love for hebe's voice. so when the two combine, it is veryyyy good. :D

i think i will buy the dvd, if there is one. and i am so glad i went for her concert. i felt so motivated after that! and made me wanna chase my dream. (:

Hebe I Love You!

must see.

for all ppl with an iphone, this is probably the major irritating thing.

http://damnyouautocorrect.com

GO SEE GO SEE! you'll laugh your head off. ;)

I'M HUNGRY.

wheehee~

d called from brunei! :D

finally, after one week.

one more week to go! :D

i can have a good sleep tonight. (:

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为什么郑盈盈被淘汰?

NUA :D

yes.

i've been nua-ing for 4 days because of my cough.

it went away yesterday, and then it came back again this afternoon. ): that's why i couldn't go run with faith, and cnt go JB with my class tmr. sians.

on a happier note, d sms-ed me. :D YAY!

i shall have a good sleep tonight. (:

can someone help me?

wah i dunno how to increase the font for the body of my post. the chinese words look so small.

and i freaking miss you.

情歌没有告诉你 - 梁静茹

love the words she penned down for each song in her album. and it really relates to me, and i guess everyone as well.

to:

家霖

(但愿你的冰箱永远不缺新鲜食材

但愿你的冰箱永远佈满甜甜甜点

但愿你的心里永远被幸福感填满

但愿饥渴的心永远被热情温暖着)

素敏

(不要忘记 我们因为很多的交谈而相知 很多的契合而圆满

多年后 你我还是滔滔不绝的诉说心事 像个老朋友一样 聊也聊不完)

欣颖

(这一次 活得更美丽 更爱自己, 都是为了准备好更好的自己来遇见未来的那个他)

庭轩

(害怕会失去对方的感受 还是会有的啊...)

(舍不得松开 舍不得提早道晚安 不用言语 彼此就知道那是爱)

(给女孩一个家, 就是 "嫁". 中文文字之美, 成就了给女孩一个家

一家一是疼爱 一家一是尊重 一家一一定会幸福)

(大步往前的是直觉 大声说出的是我懂你, 你懂我. 这种默契 我们都明白了.)

自己

(只唱勇气没勇气 还是没结果呢)

(葡萄酝酿了许久的芬芳 才能拥有足够的一杯香醇

有天等智慧酿成了辞典 我就会明白慢慢来的精髓)

每个人

(失恋, 不等于失败 时间久了 颜色会浅

爱自己, 在窗台阅读一本书, 喝一杯咖啡.

给自己多一次机会 体验人生 不也很好吗?

失恋和失败的人是没关联的, 地球依然转动)