I WAN shyyng`s [lol. like dat can? haha.] BAG!! but v ex leh. avril, can u let de ghost possess u again? den i can lend $$ frm u to buy de bag le. =D den i no nid to return oso, since u`ll forget lending me money. =DD

tmr`s vesak day. NO SCHOOL!! seriously, isp`s boring. =x

i have so much to say. and i dunno wad i shud say or wad not to say. i dun even kno whether i`m doing de right thg by posting it here. but i guess i shall jus say. haiz. i realised dere`s no use in whitening de words, since ppl wld still read it anw. hah. so i`m jus gonna put it smaller. n a lot of ppl read my 'blank' posts hor.. but how come no one tag? HMPH. nxt time come must tag ok? =p

unhappy thgs are meant to be deleted. =]

everyone jiayou for 'O's ba!! esp dose taking O level chi. 3 days more! =D jiayou jiayou!

ee. tagboard cnt see again. =(

anw, here r replies to de tags.

[jianing] : yoyoyo!! haha. of cos rmb u la! =D oh yes. MUST go sing K n take neoprints! hol we find one day go out again! X) u take care too. =)

[nu er] : haha. of cos rmb la. our son-in-law wad. V***. =DD i wan my free lunch. =p u go overseas must take care hor. i wan my chocs to come bac safe n sound. LOL. but really la. take care of urself ok? <3

[=)] : who? haha. nvm la. u dun wan say den dun say. =)

i am so thankful to God that i am optimistic, and that i can be happy no matter what happens to me. but i dont know why, when the people around me gets depressed, i feel helpless, as if i can do nothing.

RANDOM.

hello.

haha. i said i wanted to start studyin on mon rite? in de end i didn`t. lol. expected la. hahas. but frm tmr onwards, I`M DETERMINED TO MUG!! anw tmr isp starting le. haiz. i really cnt slack anymore liao. dis yr mid-yr i got 20 pts for L1R5. TWENTY leh. how m i supposed to get into NJC? i must work more den doubly hard for prelims le, so dat i can get 6 pts n go nj. haiz haiz haiz. i nid a thumbdrive. den i can jus save everythg inside n implant it into my brain. hoho. den i`ll hav all de information n knowledge le. hmms. gd idea. =D

today was de career fair. stupid la. make us sit dere so long, den in de end dun hav any exciting stuff. de accounting thgy was ok la.. but dat ACCA thg din look VERY appealing to me. so i`ll jus finish my uni first den decide. haha. but it`d be gd if i can bcome a CPA la. cos most companies look for CPAs. hoho. ok. goin off topic. so me n xy got very bored. so we started doin a lot of stupid stuff. like drawing thgs on de paper, singing songs, writing lyrics on de paper, and a lot la. too many jokes, cnt rmb le.

xy: "truth or dare?"
me: "dare."
xy: "ok. u go snatch de mike frm him n sing until de windows break."
me: "ok."
so i jus sat dere.
xy: "y u nvr go?"
me: "huh? wad? jus now got ghost possess me. i dunno wad i said."
xy: "-__-''' ok. i ask u again. truth or dare?"
me: "truth."
xy: "do u dare to go n snatch de mike frm him n sing until de windows break?"
me: "no."
LOL.

anw, it`s jus a random convo. so stupid. but anw, i hav one impt thg to say. GREENY`S MINE!!* so xy, u shall be contented wiv hieu and jj ok? dun come snatch greeny frm me. he said he doesnt love you. he loves ME!! =ppp

ok. i shall end here. i`ll be coming online every fri nite. so if u wanna find me online, come on fri nite. LOL. sound like i so dua pai like dat. anw, bubbye.

*but of cos i still love you more. <3

haha. seeing all de tags made me touched. =) thanks to all who tagged!!

kitkat ; yep yep. our wonderful life is oready a testimony. =) and yes, let`s mug tgt!! jiayou! <3

lyn ; yay. cheers! =) haha. yup yup. i kno u`ll be here for me. i`ll be there for u too! lol. God bless..

KERRONG ; joanne!! haha.. how cld i forget? singing is our passion n it`ll forever be our passion. =) so of cos i`ll nvr forget de times we spent singing n doin stupid stuff tgt. <3 jiayou to u too!!
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anw, it was mothers` day today. HAPPY MOTHERS` DAY TO ALL MOTHERS OUT THERE!! =D

had a great day wiv mama today. went to watch phantom of de opera in de afternn. hmm.. it din disappoint me. =) but i din get shocked, cos lye ee oready told me dat de chandelier wld move. ahaha. den after dat we went to de museum. national museum of singapore. hmms.. quite nice la. de exhibits. but de history museum was closed, so we din get de chance to go in. only went to view sum middle-east countries de exhibit. nice nice.. portrayed all de poverty and poor lifestyles of de ppl living dere. viewing de exhibits made me hav more of de urge to go on mission trips to evangelise to dese ppl. esp. de children. dey all look so ke lian! T_T and den dey showed sum war scenes too. i watch halfway i cldn`t bear to watch anymore le. so gruesome n cruel. =x

den after dat we went to view sum living gallery. ahaha.. shows de past of sg. dey got different exhibition halls, like fashion, film, photography, and food. food. haha. jiajuan wld love it. dey show de process of chicken rice, roti prata, chao kuey tiao and kueh tutu. haha.. all de olden methods of makin dese foods. yum yum. den in de photography one rite.. got a lot a lot of old fotos. haha.. n my mum was so excited over it. cos she loves black-n-white fotos. haha. den dere was an autobiography of dis girl too. she`s an ah-ma now. but she contributed all her fotos, frm her infant yrs, to her teenage yrs, adult yrs, and finally her golden yrs. lol. but de main thg was to show de progress of photography la. hoho. got to see all de diff cameras of diff countries. faith wld be interested. =) i oso din kno dey used albumen to make fotos in de past. hoho. oh ya. dere was oso de gramaphone on display. n all de cds. dose big round black ones. lol. n den dere were pics of olden day singers. den my mum was identifying each one of dem. hmm.. i guess u all can guess her age le ba. hoho. i`m so bad. =x den we went lot 1. to shop. zzz. well, my mum loves dat place. haha.. but in de end all de thgs dat we bot were for myself. LOL. bot a long sleeve shirt, a black skirt and silver shoes. =) yay.. so happy today. otho v tiring but it was satisfying. de best mothers` day ever. =D

hmm. my rest period is over. i`m gonna start revising tmr. gd luck to everyone for O's!! =]

i went friendster ytd. n i went to check out avril`s profile [jus to see how fast it`s decaying. =p] and den i saw dis foto taken 2 yrs ago. me, lyn, av, my and jo`s pic. i tink it was my bdae. we went to jp de bentobox to eat. hah. my memory`s gd. LOL.

but it evoked all de memories of my lower sec life. haiz. i jus miss everythg. i miss de sec 1 orientation dat i had, otho i wasn`t really enthu at dat time. but it was really heartwarming to see o5 so bonded, esp durin de campfire. n we even got 1st!! haha. wad award it was, i dun rmb. i jus rmb we were all happy. =) n dat was it. pure and simple. dat`s how i spent my sec 1 life. i rmb de days when i was close to jiaying, n de 3 of us [me, jo, jy] wld jus laugh tgt. still rmb dat time we were supposed to do work attachment at sci ctr. den after de lunch break de 3 of us jus sat in one corner n crapped n wasted de whole afternn. den de ppl dere oso nvr chase us out. hoho. n oso de times spent in de ktv rm. wa.. so long nvr go ktv rm wiv dem le. *怀念*

n den sec 1 eoy i got to kno dis really great gal. MY DEAREST MOOMOO. i rmb we started getting close cos she had dis stupid bk of qns. haha.. den we jus spent all our self-study periods playin wiv dat bk. n ta-da!! we bcame best frens. =) maybe it was all God`s plan. she`s really a gift frm God. so my whole sec 2 life was spent wiv her. n we had really fun moments tgt. in class, during recess, aft sku, at my hse, at her hse. =D we had much laughter, and oso much unhappiness. otho we`d owaes be dere to cheer each other up by crapping n sayin lame jokes. i tink dat`s where i got my lame-ness frm. i was normal in de past ok.. lol. but anw, i kno dose moments will owaes be part of my memory. dey`ll nvr re-occur again. bcos we`ve all changed. each n evry one of us. otho we`re still close, but de bond has weakened.

well.. jus suddenly thot of my simple past. simple, but fun. n less heartbreaks too. =x

my sec 3 life was fun too. haha. wanted to spend my last 2 yrs mugging de.. but being in dis crazy class wiv all sorts of ppl, life can nvr be jus mugging. haha. at first it was jus spent wiv avril, my beloved elephante. i wont forget all de stupid thgs u did, like writing "arteries" as "arties". lol. u dun mind me posting it here hor? anw it`s oready up. haha. only got close to sop arnd june or july. i tink it started frm 'beauty n de beast' ba. or was it class outing? wadever. haha. i was lookin thru my neos n found de ones me n sop took. n dat 9 faces squeezing into 1 camera. haha.. so fun. evrythg was jus fun fun fun. i wanna sit in jiajie`s father`s lorry again in de middle of de night, tgt wiv sop. cos only she will scream wiv me when we`re goin thru de tunnel. haha. dat day was pure fun la. haha. n many memorable thgs too. for example de times when me n avy played in de salty sea water at sentosa. rmb de kitkat bar? *I WANNA GROW SLIM!* de wish din come true lor. haha. n oso dat time when me n sop went to play. n den dis stupid plastic bag floated up to me n i got a shock when i touched it. lol. so fun so fun. den we oso had to keep waiting for xy, cos she ride bicycle so slow. haha. and and and, de time we went to vivo to eat dou jiang you tiao. me, avy, sop, jj, raymond. den we ate until so full. n de fun started when someone splashed water on sumone. oh ya. jj splashed it on sop. hah. cos she was laughing when we were so serious in shouting our bp cheer. haha. otho my hp got spoiled cos it went for a swim in de water, n i oso got a scolding frm my mum, but it was worth it la. at least i experienced sumthg like dat in my lifetime. hoho. AND ya.. how cld i forget. de mid-autumn singing comp. hoho. one of my happiest n proudest moments in my sec sku life too. =) otho i looked de fattest n AM de fattest among XY(square). haha.

but anw, after stepping into sec 4.. i dunno. it jus feels different. everythg has jus changed. no more fun, no more playing. back to books. and serious stuff. n with all de conflicts n quarrels, it jus spoiled my life. but i kno, i wld hav to go thru it sumday. it`s part of God`s plan to mould us into better ppl. but anw, everythg has been resolved now. it`s jus part of de past. =) so i`m optimistic. i`m looking forward to de brighter future dat God has planned for me. but my greatest wish is dat he`ll be dere to walk dis journey wiv me. haiz. i pray day n night for his salvation. God, answer my prayer. =x

i feel dat de best way to save our oikos is to let them see wad God has done in His children`s lives. n thru dese, dey`ll be touched n their hearts will be open to receive more of God. and also, we, His children, must behave and act jus like Jesus did when he was on earth. so dat ppl can see de love of God thru us, and also de Godly values. =) it`s hard. haiz. i jus hope God will do more miracles in my life, so i can use these to touch other ppl`s hearts and get them saved.

a lot of ppl tink dat christians r jus a bunch of ppl dat persecute other and FORCE others to convert and bcome christians. well.. i dunno abt other christians, but i feel dat dese ppl hav de wrong idea. hah. we`re jus tryin to save de world frm facing destruction and desolateness. we`re on a big mission to save all de ppl on de planet b4 rapture comes!! haha. but i dunno how many ppl wld understand la. but it`s ok. i jus wanna say it out. lol.

it`s such a random post.

saw al and char n their fren in coffeebean last sat. memories of my pri sku days flooded my head. it`s a 'memories' wk. haha. miss dem. miss dose days. otho i was a total nerd. O.O

il ov eyou.

EXAMS OVER~!! i feel like a big rock has been lifted off my shoulder. haha.. actually last fri after geog half of de rock has been lifted. and actually ytd it has oready been lifted. but today .. IT`S OFFICIALLY LIFTED!!

-____-" ok. i kno it`s lame. haha. LET`S PARTY!!

i love avril.
i love sophia.
i love xinying.
I LOVE YEUNSEE!!

HURRAY!! GEOG PAPER IS OVER!!!

wahhaa.. i feel like de entire exam is over le lor. feel so relaxed now. lalalala. geog was like dis big stone dat was on my shoulders. NOW IT`S LIFTED! and i am set free! lols. a bit exaggerating hor. lols.

but anw, 4 more days to KBOX. =)

Lord.. fill me with your love. use me, mould me. <3

hey.
i`ve got news!!
lol. i tink many ppl wldn`t support my decision but i`m sticking wiv it no matter wad.

人生那么短暂, 如果一个人连追求幸福的机会都没有, 那不就很可惜吗?

i dun wanna live for other ppl anymore. i dun wanna live jus to please other ppl. i live to please God, and to please myself.
i`ve patched up wiv him. bcos for de past wk, i jus feel an emptiness in my heart. i feel lost, otho i appear not to. if de decision to break wld make me feel peace, y m i still feeling hurt after 1 wk?

i dunno de ans to dat. only God knos. but i guess i misinterpreted His msg. maybe he jus wanted me to let go of wad we`re doing, n not de relationship. i choose to believe it dat way. well, i`m very happy now. wiv de love of God, my frens, him and of cos my wonderful mother, wad else can i ask for? i WILL prioritise, and frens will owaes come first. =)

当我们四个坐在客厅，一起吃面，一起看电视，一起笑的时候，我真希望时间停在那一秒。我相信我们的友谊不会再断裂，也知道我们会永远守护着对方。=]

u must`ve felt sad when i said i was goin hm wiv him today rite? haiz. sumtimes i really wish i cld jus cut myself into half. den i can spend all my time wiv u and all my time wiv him. and sorry for not telling u all i was goin down.

i hope dat even tho u all r not supportive of my decision, u`ll still respect it. thank you. =)

hello.

changed blogskin again. hah. dis is a damn simple one lor. but i like it. heh. anws, nth to post actually.

i`ve finally found the peace i wanted. <3 thank you Lord.

i hate mid-yrs. =x 10 more days to KBOX!! =DD