heheh. today was a great day. only went to sku to take a stupid 1.5 hr ss paper. sianz.. write until my hand kept touching lemon. lol. but after dat it was pure fun la. hahas.

cos xy n sop had cl listening test, so me n avy went to lot 1 fairprice to buy de ingredients to cook spaghetti first. ehehe. den we so stupid. cos we oso wanted to rent vcd n i wanted to buy stef`s album ma.. so we buy all de ingredients le den we went up. haha. shud hav went up to rent n buy b4 buyin de ingredients rite? lol. so in de end i carried dat NTUC fairprice bag up and down de escalator. n even INTO sembawang. lol. de lady dere must be tinking wadz a sku girl wearin uniform doin wiv a fairprice bag in a cd shop at arnd 11+ am on a sku day. lols. now i picture it.. it`s actually quite funni. wahahhas.

so we reached hm at abt 11.30? den we were tinking when sop n xy reach we sure haven cook finish de. haha. our prediction was right. when dey came avy jus finished cutting de hotdog n i jus finished marinating de minced meat. lol. we haven even open de spaghetti yet la. stupid ppl. lols. but anw.. we managed to finish cooking 1st rnd for xy to eat. it was sort of a failure la. but xy said, "有点硬, but 不错." hoho. so we told her to go for her dance meeting first. come bac can eat 2nd rnd. even better de. den sop cut de hotdog and .. ta da!! .. it became .. SHOREA!! -__-"" haha. SOP QUICKLY POST DE PIC!! =D but it was fantastic. ahaha.. of cos la. we ownself cook de ma. 很有成就感. =] den we eat until veri full. den i say, "still got icecream leh." all i cld see on sop`s face was 'FULL'. den she jus shook her head and waved her hand. lol.

den we went down to de billiard rm. hoho. sop de pro taught avy how to play. i 2 yrs nvr touch dat stick le. but after a while the feel came bac le la. hah. shall not elaborate la. too many funni thgs le. den as we were abt to go, an earthworm came in frm de door.. wiv a chou lian. den we thot she angry wiv us. so i said, "sorry!!" den she still nvr say anythg. den we were like, "oh shit. die le. she angry liao." den suddenly dat look changed to blurness. den xy say, "say sorry for wad?" den we started laughing. AHAHA. xy so clever.. kno we at billiard rm. 原来 earthworm 也是有头脑的. =p

so we played for another hr. hehe. had a fun time. den after dat we came up. xy had her 2nd rnd of spaghetti. n of cos, it tasted nicer. by den me, avy n sop were craving for our icecream le. so we watched 'ghost game' and ate icecream. ahaha. at least dis show is much better den red shoes la huh.. except we still created entertainment for ourselves. den at de beginning sop suddenly scream and touch avril. den avy got so scared la. ahaha.. den we laugh n laugh n laugh lor. but i dun like de ending. so sad.. =( we expected sumthg else. but no. haiz. nvm la. at least dis time de 50c more worthwhile. lol.

den mama came hm le. so dey left. hahas. like dat lor. ho.

i dunno how to motivate u. i`m running out of ideas. God help me, to help you.

~God, show me Your love. Amen.~

ee.. y my tagboard cnt see de? =(

hahs. well. nvm. ytd, to celebrate de fact dat de 4 of us can eat lunch tgt, dey came to my hse n watched vcds n ate cup noodles. yea, jus like de gd old days. we rented dis show called the red shoes. wahahhahaa. de first scene come out we all started luffin le. LOL. i shant say it here, in case ppl say we got social discrimination. wahahahhaa. de show was funny la. actually. it wasnt a horror movie to me at all. lol. even de part when sophia screamed oso not scary. cos she scream, den i jump [while holding my cup noodles] so guessed wad happened. A POOL OF CUP NOODLES ON THE FLR. BAHAHAHAHAHAHA. xy oso got spill, but not as much as me. so de 4 of us jus laughed n laughed. but de ending was stupid la. haiyo.. i dun like to watch dis type of no-ending show de. hahas. but anw, de 4 of us had a gd time ytd. =D

i wonder how our dance team did dis morning. but dey sure can do it de la. got 1 little earthworm dere squirming abt can le. hohoho.

dis sat : worship experience. i guess i`m gonna benefit a lot frm it.

let`s jus cool down and think abt our frenship. it needs time. but de barrier can be broken. if u and me work hard tgt. i hope for de day when i can call u spastic chicken again. =p take care..

a new life, a new blog.

i`m gonna start life afresh. since God gave me this opportunity once again. He gave me so many chances, but i din repent. but bcos He is a merciful God, He gave me one more chance. and bcos of this, i`m running back to Him, our Heavenly Father. <3

and with this, i found back my old frens. my true frens, hu nvr gave up on me. even when i was totally blinded by love n lust. thank you sophia, avril, xinying. =) they had de patience to tolerate me, and still cared and loved me even when i turned a hostile back on dem and only took them as substitutions. i sincerely apologise to u here. but i kno u dun wan me to say sorry. u dun wan my apology. all u wan is my care n concern. therefore, i shall not say anymore here. i shall use my feelings and my actions to retrieve dis frenship. bcos i kno it has owaes been dere n yea, it cant be broken. <3

i dunno abt you, but i really hope we can go bac to de past. well.. maybe not exactly like de past, but similar. even tho dis relationship has been lost, i still treasure de frenship we once had. n i seriously wish to continue dis frenship. but if u feel dat u`d be better off wiv me not as ur fren, den it`s fine wiv me. my only wish is for u to be happy n to hav frens dat`ll support u when u`re down. i kno it`ll take months, even yrs, or maybe nvr.. to regain dat frenship we had last yr. but nvm. 不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有. thanks for all de memories u`ve given me. it`ll nvr be erased. =) take care.

p.s.: rmb 1 impt thg. STAY SPASTIC FOREVER!! =DD

ARGH. i`m so confused now. i nid sum1, hu is a christian, someone hu knows him, and someone who can be objective. but of cos, someone hu is close to me. haha. it sounds like mummy. lol. so i guess i shall listen to her. lol.

GOD, GRANT ME PEACE. GOD, BLESS HIM.

i am here to ... POST!! -__-"

haiz.. exam coming. i`m goin sot again. i guess i go crazy when i`m stressed. ahahhahaa. which means.. i`m stressed everyday!! wahaha. quite true la. lols. recently. haha.

I WANNA GET 10 A1s!! [haha. aim higher ma. so even if i dun get 10 A1s maybe i can get 6. hee]

i dis wk got nth to post leh. last wk post a lot a lot le. hoho.

but dis wk really v happy la. i was sick. so din go band. so cld go hm wiv him. =] but ytd really feel sorry towards my frens la. i dunno leh. i jus had de inclination to stay in sku. maybe i really 重色轻友 ba. cant help it. hah. i`m blinded by love. lol. another tcher knos abt us oready. mr big eyes. wahhaa.. nice name huh? my nxt mission is to find out hu`s ms catherine lim. bahahahas.

sometimes i really miss de days when de whole gang of us crammed up my living rm n we screamed, laughed, and watched vcds tgt. hah. those were de gd old days. but well, now i`m oso very happy la. cos of him. <3 hehe. how nice it wld be if i cld hav both elements. haiz.. but it`s ok. as i`ve said, i`m leading a happy life. =)

exams coming le!! everybody jiayou ba! =D

i am leading such a happy and blessed life now. =)

thank you lord, mummy, ting shien, avril, xinying, sophia. and of cos, sis varina, grace, eileen, delia, fifi, faith.

I LOVE ALL OF YOU!! <3

to you : i dunno whether u`re angry wiv me or not, but i guess to a certain extent, yes. well, i`m sorry. i kno it was wrong of me to go, esp. even after u said u din wan me to go n oso said dat u`ll be angry wiv me if i went. i can understand y u`re angry. if it was me, i tink i`d oso be too. i tink i went a little overboard too. i was so excited when i was granted permission to go n i actually expressed my happiness in front of u when i perfectly knew dat u were goin to be sad. looking back, i realised wad an idiot i was. yea, all i can say is "sorry". n i hope dat u won`t be too sad or too angry wiv de rest too. if u were me, u might have gone too rite? it`s bcos we badly wanted to go [u can understand dis feeling rite?], therefore we went. we din go jus to purposely skip de practice. i hope u understand. cheer up ok? luv ya!

and you : sorry too. for de same thg. and oso for not looking at u directly when u were speaking to me today. i kno. i kno you r getting angry for gd intentions. i kno it`s my fault. i din live up to my duty and my responsibility and yes, i shud be punished n scolded. but actually, i weighed de importance of each event. yes, i know. de performance is impt. but since i feel dat i can do it properly wivout screwing up and spoiling de performance, i`d rather use my time to go n support our sku team. bsides, it`s such a historical moment. it wld be a pity if i din go n then dey won. i`d be even more sad to kno dat i din witness dat ecstatic moment. i`m sure all of us wld wan to be dere to support. so since i`m given de chance, y cant i make full use of it? i know. i abandoned my section n jus left on my own accord. but sumtimes, to let dem be independent, shudn`t we let dem be on their own once in a while? if we keep stayin by their side and guiding dem, spoon-feeding dem, dey`ll nvr learn. n it`s bcos i hav confidence in dem dat dey`ll do their best, dat`s y i can let down all my worries and leave dem alone. if not, i`d surely not go de. and bsides, i kno jf is v responsible. i oready told her dat she`s gonna be de nxt sl, and i kno dat even if she doesn`t want to, she`d still take up de responsibility and take care of de section well. i trust dem. dat`s y i`m not worried abt dem at all. well, anw, i kno no matter how much i say, dis decision of mine is still v selfish. yes, i admit. i was selfish. i only thot abt myself. i din care abt wad others wld tink. yes, i knew de consequences. i knew u and u wld be angry. but at de pt where i made my decision, i din care abt anythg else. if i din go, i`ll really regret. and yup, i dun regret going.

no offence to any one of u. SORRY!! luv ya and God Bless. =) still frens ok?
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wahaha. i got a lot to say. hmms.. where shud i start? ok. i kno le. haha.

I LOST MY NOTEBOOK! TGT WIV MY PEN! T_T de notebk n pen dat ms ng gave. today durin chem lesson i was drawing in it. den after chem i go phy prac. den when i came bac de notebk was gone. i thot avril took it. but she din. i thot ts took it, but he din. argh. it`s seriously lost now. =( sorry ms ng..

today`s match was really worth watching. very exciting too. everyone thot st. hilda`s wld win 3-0. but our vball members proved us wrong. dey fought to de end. esp. de 4th rnd. 27-25. wow. dat exhilarating moment when de ball was spiked by bp onto st. hilda`s court i`ll nvr forget. all bp students stood up in dat instant, and it was really a moment of happiness and excite. hah. i nvr felt so much happiness b4. cos every bpian dere was feeling de same way too, and it was really a great feeling. =) otho dey din make it in de end, i still feel dat dey are de best. dey did de sku proud, and of cos, dey did themselves proud too. dere`s no nid to feel sad. bcos they have oready done de impossible and i`m sure our vball team is de ultimate champion in every bpian`s heart. =) but well, i learnt sumthg. de vball members really hav gd team spirit n gd sportsmanship. keep it up! n i oso learnt dat de vball members of st. hilda`s dun hav a gd attitute. haiz. go ask eileen. she got A LOT of comments. haha.. was rambling all de way bac. hoho.



sumtimes i feel u all r still bu shuang when i`m spending time wiv him. n i feel we`re getting further n further away frm each other. am i jus paranoid? or is it true? de thg is, i hav de inclination to spend time wiv him. ok. it`s not dat i treat u all as inferior to him. and it`s not dat i love him more den i love u all. it`s just dat i owaes see him alone and i want to accompany him. at least u three still hav each other`s company and it won`t be dat bad if i wasnt dere. so.. hope u all understand lor. but nxt time if u all feel once again dat i`m neglecting u all, say it straight infront of me ok? dun keep it to urself and use other methods to tell me ok? a face to face confrontation wld knock more sense into me. hah.

long post. hmm. a lot to say. a lot of thoughts. all crammed into one post. haha.

stop here ba. i might have left out sum thgs. maybe tmr if i have to add sum stuff den i`ll add ba. lol.

heeeeeeeeeeeeeelo. no one come tag my blog. =( readership decrease le. boohoo.. lols.

haiz.. last fri sick until now. =x i dun wanna be sick. I WANNA SING!! lols.

he got angry wiv me. jus becos i went for **** when he din wan me to go. told him i was ok le ma. told him it`s my responsibility n my duty. told him i had to go cos performance coming soon. but he dun wan listen. say it`ll be hurting my health n he`ll be v worried. hah. he`s right. i went, den i came bac wiv a worsened cough. bleah. if i knew earlier i`d hav listened to him. den if ytd i dun go, den i`m better, den maybe today i can go. lols. cos today keyi n sop go ma.. n it`s rare dat dey go [lol] so i shud accompany dem. but nvm la. today dun go oso gd. den i can take my phy test n dun hav to gain so much vitamin D. den sun hot like dunno wad today. i see dem march i oso feel pity for dem. n xin tong for my section ppl. haiz. but anw, THANK YOU *******! haha. u shud kno wad it means la. i dun dare say cos later ppl might tag n say i too rou ma. lols.

tmr goin vivo wiv sis varina, fifi, faith!! haha.. dunno abt eileen, grace n delia. hope dey can come. den we`ll hav a FULL buzz grp n it`ll be de 1st time all of us r goin out tgt!! last time din manage to go for de section outing cos of hmwk. lol. so tmr must go le. ahaha. den at night got TIMELESS. whee~ our church musical. shud be quite a nice story. =) whoo~ looking forward to tmr. =D

*not looking forward to sat. wth.

mid yr coming le. everybody jiayou jiayou jiayou. esp all sec 4s!! =D